JUDYAMK's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JUDYAMK JUDYAMK's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ How every thing can change in 48 hours!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5741303 On Wednesday I was complaining about the heat and humidity, This morning I stepped out on the porch and I thought I was in late October!! The air was so crisp that I thought if I yawned the air would make a sound like I bit into a crisp crunchy apple!! I watched a robin pull a worm from the rich good earth seemed to me the morning dew moistened the earth so the worm was very easy to pull out! When the earth is so dry the little robins bob there heads so many times to get the worm out!! <BR> W... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 08:13:12 EST Heavy humidity hangs around like my midriff!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5739799 Yesterday morning when I stepped out on my porch in the early morning hours, the humidity sucks in my breath,just like when I do certain exercises that take my breath away, from lack of working out. I duck back in the house to take a gulp of the air conditioned air. Wow that is bad out there I better stay in today so I do not get heat stroke!! <BR> Okay what a lam excuse sounded good to me. I drag my body back to the bedroom yank the socks on tie the shoes & go out to be over come by the ... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 03:51:11 EST What 2 days can make you feel like compared to last week!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5738511 Okay I know it is summer time the picnics , & family reunions. Saturday went to an awesome bistro with the most healthiest food made from all fresh food and herbs. felt so good after that meal not bloated just comfortable. THEN I went to the dessert counter and took home 1 large cookie & 6 small ones wrapped in some sort of nuts. I thought I would stretch them out for a week, I ate them all that night with a tall glass of ice cold milk!! <BR> Then Sunday the family reunion, yes I over did i... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 10:09:48 EST A camera, negatives & developing regarding your attitude about your weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5732992 Life is like a camera focus on what is important ,capture the good times Develop from the negatives and if things do not work out just take another shot <em>388</em> <BR> I had gone to another family picnic yesterday after work, and you already know what I devoured with out naming any one food item!! I felt like a total over sized blimp arriving home. I sat in my recliner having the gall to feel sorry for myself when no one at the party pried my mouth opened and shoveled the food in lik... Sun, 6 Jul 2014 09:39:33 EST Why can we stick to the wrong habits so easily , but not the good ones HELP!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5732331 Every single time I am on a roll I feel within the very depth of my soul I am going to conquer, I am so on the game. I know I am not the only one, I have read the same thing over and over from others " I am starting over" I have said that myself a zillion times. What is with some of us. I once thought in a fleeting moment," gee if I do this what happens if I can not maintain it, so what is the use " I thought am I afraid of failure once I get there, of back sliding? I only thought that for ... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 07:39:44 EST Spending too much time on frivolous things and no time for exercise!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726473 I arrived home from vacation in the mountains & had a lot of time to think. I was reading Bobbie's blog and she mentioned how much time and energy she spent on the issue with her home. I to spend too much time on things that are frivolous, however Bobbie's situation is a lot more involved & much more serious. Sometimes it is good to get away and come back with fresh new ideas regarding our selves. I want to look at each day as one single day instead of lumping all my days I have coming and al... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 15:19:57 EST You all planted seeds within me I want to tend them so they to can sprout with newness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5671034 The last I posted was in February, I was reading so many other blog's thinking oh WOW I need to do what they are doing to meet my goals. You know what I did I sat here in the comfy of my home all winterreading and eating and non exercising ,my husband shouts DO YOU FEEL THE BURN !!! <BR> I get up in the night to go to the bath room and get something to eat. I cry secretly within myself, become angry with myself, all the while smiling for the world and screaming on the inside. <BR> I have an ... Sun, 13 Apr 2014 09:36:55 EST Amazing 4 days !!! I did it unbelievable!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5632881 I had 4 days off Friday until today I sat day Thursday night & made a list of all what I wanted to try my best at on getting done in 4 days . The list grew to 25 I finished all but 4, & those 4 will be finished by weeks end. <BR> I also started walking on Sat. since the last I truly walked was last Fall. My husband walked with me i made one mile, with chest pains & pain down my thigh,but I did it. Then Sunday after church I went on a 3 mile walk, not all at once I broke it up in intervals ... Mon, 24 Feb 2014 21:09:41 EST What my body felt like!!! ( oh my gosh it was awful ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631460 My husband and I went for a walk yesterday, I have not been walking since last Fall. Let me tel you how my body felt. I did not get very far until I could hear my self breathing heavy ( & this was at a normal walking pace ) then my legs felt heavy, then I had pain going up my right thigh . My arms did not swoosh back & forth as they did before when I would walk , instead they hung like long frozen branches feeling heavy. My facial muscles felt tense my teeth clamped together like a clam not ... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 09:53:29 EST Philadelphia Flower show part 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5582482 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l216268506.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l12680931.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/3/l831312701.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1681664021.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1411290530.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/6/l362605011.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://phot... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 23:35:20 EST Philadelphia Flower show Pictures a change of scenry from winter Part 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5582451 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/1/l718155714.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1384715683.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1945659528.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/5/l752428353.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1327703334.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/9/l792851135.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://ph... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 23:00:33 EST Delivery Christmas gifts with my TOP down!!! ( WHAT!!!! ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5570414 I had 22 gifts to deliver to my Mom from me,piled high ,with more on the floor. You may ask why so many? There is a story behind it.When my 5 brothers & I would get up Christmas morning & quietly go down the old creaking steps we would peer around the corner into the living room, there was no tree ,no gifts. Not the doing of Mom,but my father he forbid it at times. I would go back to bed sobbing. <BR> This one time in particular he got a most beautiful tree we decorated it with our paper chai... Mon, 23 Dec 2013 10:37:37 EST A snowy evening walk ( with pictures ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5566432 Our town has a First Night where Santa lights the community tree,shop keepers are open late, carolers are singing,hot chocolate is drank with fingers wrapped around the steaming mug, tongues are sticking out to catch the snow flakes,church bells are ringing houses a glow. Warm smiles are traded for we all seem to have the spirit. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/9/l295706966.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2012747141.jpg"> <BR> <BR>... Tue, 17 Dec 2013 10:46:21 EST 'What Not To Wear " a new look with a change of clothing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5565464 Remember the tv show "What Not To Wear " I have been watching that show every day for a week . When it dawned on me I would be the perfect candidate for the show. Here I am day in & day out wearing my husbands sweat pants,& tee shirts. I have been off work for a month will go back 1/2/14 out due to eye surgery. however before that I would come home from work and put them on also. <BR> I sat here watching the show & every woman that was interviewed after 2 weeks of being home has commented h... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 08:43:07 EST A must read blog go to LYNN-LOVESLIFE 7 ( no more credit goes to negativity for me ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5563318 I encourage those that need an eye opener about always giving credit to negativity need to Read LYNN-LOVESLIFE7 blog posted 12/13/2013. Her words actually was the key for me that unleashed that negativity that I was forever giving credit to. I always felt if my accomplishments were not BIG enough it was not worth it, I was looking for bigger and better ( is that not most of our ways ) If I only walked 2500 steps that day I slammed myself for not going further that day and put me in the dull d... Fri, 13 Dec 2013 04:15:32 EST Has any one tried juicing ? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5561018 I bought a Nutri Bullet used it a few times put it away ,now I am seriously as of today going to start doing it . I want to start out twice a day in morning and the late night eating, I did that a few times because I am a night eater but then stopped. How has it worked for you? <BR> Judy Tue, 10 Dec 2013 05:18:41 EST How many times did you start over ??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5560278 There is not even a count I can remember only I know it is too many I lost track. Sure I came back over & over, more disgusted with my self each time. That is good because the disgust makes me try again and again to never give up when I fail. <BR> Wait a minute FAIL no I did not fail that word to mean "fail" means forever, I come back each time so I did not really fail, I just had a small set back. Fail means giving up all together.!! <BR> I am not a failure I am a fighter !! Ask yourself ... Mon, 9 Dec 2013 07:46:34 EST I ate the entire bag of potaoe chips ( NOW I am disgusted ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5559526 late last night at 1:00 am I crept out to the kitchen as my husband was sleeping, and ate the entire 3 oz bag of potato chips that I brought home from my Mom's birthday party. That is a total of <BR> 450 calories <BR> 9 grams of saturated fat <BR> 15 grams of polyunsaturated fat <BR> 6 grams of monounsaturated fat <BR> 480 grams of sodium <BR> 1080 grams of potassium <BR> 42 grams of total carbohydrates3 grams of fiber <BR> 6 grams of protein <BR> <BR> I had left left overs from Mom's bir... Sun, 8 Dec 2013 05:50:45 EST The case of the Baltimore Oriole breast ( Mine ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5558233 Yesterday I went to the store and needed to try on a pair of dress pants. slowly I took my clothes off with my back to the mirror. I turned around and it was like looking at someone else's body, Not the slender body I had years ago. My breast lay on the upper portion of my chest in a drooped Baltimore Oriole nest shape <em>198</em> My stomach protruding out like an over stuffed sausage casing <em>234</em> . I turned on a side view JEEPERS the rolls of fat reminded me of the water f... Fri, 6 Dec 2013 09:08:30 EST My early Christmas present ( picture ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5554247 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2039390468.jpg"> <BR> An early Christmas present from my husband. Many years ago I wanted a Mazda Miata took one for a test drive then my husband ask me where I was gong to put my Mom & Step Dad when I would take them to their Doctor appointments and for rides.My Step Dad had a car,but it was so big for me to drive. so left without the Miata. My beloved Step Dad passed away several years back, and my husband still wanted me to have the Mia... Sun, 1 Dec 2013 14:37:16 EST as much as I yip about my bad eye I am so Thankful for my good eye!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5552081 Oh dear some days I boo hoo because I want to see clearly from my bad eye,then I have to sit myself down and say STOP be thankful for the one I can see out of.I met a woman at the hospital that had a seeing eye dog ,I noticed she could still see, I ask her what was wrong She has MS and is preparing for the day that is coming soon to be totally blind. She went to Florida to be trained with her knew seeing eye dog.She has been going to all the places so she can enjoy them now before she go... Thu, 28 Nov 2013 08:56:42 EST Eye is healing even though it feels like pickers in it!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5550928 Went to Dr. at hospital today, he told us my eye is healing, I could see the big E today where I could not last weak, so progress is being made. I put a hot compress on my eye to make it feel better. Now it is a wait and see how much vision i get over time. <BR> We are having snow and ice will turn to rain tomorrow. Had a school bus flip over down the embankment due to the snowy icy roads, 14 kids & 3 admitted to hospital. That road is so treacherous and always accidents on it, would you, b... Tue, 26 Nov 2013 18:33:19 EST no change in eye as of yet,still praying http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5548719 My eye aches and feels like sand is in it due to the surgery. I go back on Tuesday again to Doctor at the hospital,there is still no vision in eye took an hour and a half to peel the cellophane substance off my eye during surgery . The eye picks where they sliced into my eye . Amazing what they can do. Blessed to have a big hospital that has great Doctors in our area. Take care <BR> Judy Sat, 23 Nov 2013 22:38:17 EST Will I get my sight back?? Today is the surgery!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5544024 in 2009 I had a cataract removed during surgery there was not enough oxygen going through my eye which caused a stroke. I am a healthy person other than being 30 pounds over weight. I was sent to Mount Sinai hospital because the specialist thought I may go blind in both eyes, turned out it was just the one eye. <BR> A few weeks ago I went to get glasses for the good eye the Dr. found I am hemorrhaging in the bad eye, went to big hospital right away ,they also found a hole in retina. This mor... Mon, 18 Nov 2013 07:51:22 EST The case of the missed dyed hair!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5540727 It was an early morning Sat past & I was off to have my dulled highlights removed wanting an ash color to my hair. I was greeted at the front of the yet not opened beauty salon.There were 8 elderly women in their late 70's & in their 90's waiting to get their hair washed & set. ( Here I thought I was going to be the first since I arrived 15 minutes early !! ) I had a most enjoyable visits with some of the ladies as we waited our turn. The time flew by so quickly that I thought hey I am not d... Thu, 14 Nov 2013 05:23:23 EST A delicious SMOOTHIE that fills you to the brim!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5539008 I use 2 handful's of fresh spinach, 1 cut up apple with skin, 1 cut up pear, 1 banana 3 tablespoons of chia seeds & fill with water to the max line on the Nutribullett & whirl away, if you do not have one use your blender. I would use 1 cup of water or so if it is too thick , add more water in the blender. (The Nutriblullet only add enough water to the line ) I let set in fridge for 15 to 20 minutes until the chia seeds swell. <BR> Enjoy !! <BR> Judy <BR> <BR> on another note we had o... Tue, 12 Nov 2013 08:43:39 EST I now eat flourless bread & rice spaghetti !!! WHAT NO FLOUR!! RICE SPAGHETTI HOW CAN THIS BE!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5538026 I never knew there is bread made with NO flour. My question how could that be???/ I now eat Ezekiel bread it is made with sprouts no flour. There is sprouted Grain &Seed bread, Sesame bread, & Raisin cinnamon bread ( so good toasted ) I also eat Tinkyada organic brown rice spaghetti. Every time I would eat spaghetti I felt so bloated afterwards & an hour later hungry again for it. Not so with this spaghetti there is no bloating feeling what so ever ( the bloating comes from the wheat in the ... Mon, 11 Nov 2013 08:42:04 EST The fog is lifting that kept me in isolation!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5536974 I glanced out my window & everything was shrouded in thick fog,barely able to see the cars or trees . I stepped out on my porch it looked so mysterious with the thick fog. I took a deep breath & the crispness of the early morning fog gave my nose a tingle & my lungs felt good as I gulped in the crispness of the fog. I began walking through the fog it enveloped me like a cool blanket. I could not see too far ahead of me, I thought this is how I have been since June. Lost in the fog of my tho... Sun, 10 Nov 2013 00:11:14 EST The naked stance I was so frightened !!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5392231 I was in the shower feeling should I or should I not, it was right out side the shower curtain , oh gosh I scrubbed harder thinking what to do. My nails dug deeper into my scalp trying to think, I know last week when it waited for me what I did was I quickly wrapped the huge Egyptian towel around me & scooted to the confines of my bedroom . I nervously got dressed with sprays of water still clinging to my body,I could not let this happen to me again. I know I had to face it this time.I slowl... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 15:53:27 EST The Happiest Yard Sale!!!! Guess what was so rewarding better than Money http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5382657 We had our yearly yard sale in our village. I had a 2 huge tables . One table was full of my Mom's books she is 84 & an avid reader. The table had over 100 books soft cover & hard cover read one time. Books I bought for Mom for Christmas. Mom loves the Christian inspired romance books. I put free on the one table of books, I was so happy & so was Mom because so many people were taking them some of the women said they wanted them for their own Mom & grandmother. Even the teenagers were taking ... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 17:30:26 EST The COLDEST fruit drink EVER!!!!!! ( on a hot sultry day ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5380030 1 container Fit & Active yogurt ( I use the flavored one's I also use the Greek yogurts) <BR> 1 cup of water ( NO milk ) <BR> 1 banana sliced <BR> 1 cup of FROZEN fruit ( if I use blueberry yogurt use frozen blueberries , strawberry yogurt frozen strawberries,peach yogurt frozen peaches etc etc ) <BR> Place in blender & whirl away <BR> Pour in a tall glass & if you wish sprinkle cinnamon on top!!!! <BR> <BR> This is the most coldest refreshing drink <BR> Enjoy Enjoy!!! <BR> <B... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 08:21:07 EST Roasted vegetables& cheese on tortilla 5 min. baking time OH MY SO FILLING!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5375796 1 gourmet tortilla whole wheat 96% fat free <BR> 2 to 3 tablespoons of fresh Parmesan cheese <BR> 1 tomato cut up <BR> 1/2 cup each fresh broccoli , cauliflower or what ever fresh vegetable you like <BR> place vegetables on tortilla then sprinkle on top cheese . You can use any cheese you like but i prefer Parmesan because it is less fat & calories. <BR> Bake at 400 degrees for 5 minutes only. <BR> This is so filling I made 2 the first time & I was so full for the second one. <BR> My main m... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 17:23:53 EST A fight at the Deli !!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5360009 I was running late on coming home , I knew because of the day I was not going to cook anything at home . I went to the local Deli at our super market, my mind was racing if you would probably look at the store video it would show a woman on a big mission because of the hurry in each stride !!!! <BR> When I reached the glass walled Deli my mouth salivated over each item of food I was inspecting. I could just see me sitting in my recliner feet out stretched tasting each food item I wanted som... Sat, 18 May 2013 08:43:44 EST Have you ever lost in your mind & that made all the difference !!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5357241 I did not want to really step on the scale,because I was losing in my mind. I did any way & the scale never lost an ounce. I felt so happy & carefree in my mind that it did not matter to me. Why you may ask? Before 4/28/2013 I was barely doing any form of fitness , I was eating at night mindlessly. Oh I would make plans in my mind what I wanted to do, but I never would follow through until that day. ( 4/28/2013 ) I am now walking between 2.5 miles & some days 3 or 4 miles a day. I choose he... Wed, 15 May 2013 10:00:01 EST Should I go or should I stay???? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5351764 My evening walk was fast approaching however I was hesitant,not because of the heavy rain through out the day, it was the foreboding sky. Was not the usual greyness of a storm fast approaching , but billows of black clouds that seemed to grow with every gaze until they became one & hung heavily through out the town. The fear I had , it looked any moment like lightning was going to slice threw the darkness. My brother urged me to go on the walk as he felt it would not rain as of yet. <BR> As... Fri, 10 May 2013 07:48:56 EST I am not a snob with my nose held high in the air !!! This is why I appear like one http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5348057 The early part of the evening is when I prepare myself to go out & begin my one hour of so called snobbery!!!! I dress in a pair of casual capri's of light cotton & a cool cotton blouse. I have my cell phone tucked in my pocket ( in case of an emergency ) my I pod & Gps to track my mileage as I go about in so many different directions. The music begins to play with a tempo that makes my arms move with the rhythm, my feet push for ward, my hair swishing as I move along at a nice pace. My head... Mon, 6 May 2013 23:36:10 EST You can not have your way with me as in time past!!! NO MORE !!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5346790 I never allowed you take me completely over for the day, instead I kicked & scratched & bashed my way upward. I never sank to the level where you had me before!!!!! I took control & won . The day started out with the rays of sunshine holding me in its warm embrace. I felt giddy inside as I knew a challenge was ahead of me today, & how it would all turn out. I went off to church today with my Mom & early afternoon we went to a very large baby shower for my friend's daughter. As we walked into ... Sun, 5 May 2013 23:21:34 EST The stately old home that beckoned me to stop!!! I saw myself peering out from all the dust!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5343979 A light breeze caressed my face as I continued on the Market Street side of town where the stately old homes line the mile long walk. I came to an old elementary school where two huge bushes of pink/lavender in color of flowers drip like plums from their branches. I can here the voices in my mind of the children as they brush past the flowers getting on to their awaiting desk. I hurried on by leaving the echoes of the children's voices taken up by the breeze that sailed upward. I crossed to... Fri, 3 May 2013 06:22:37 EST The vacation that changed me !! ( a boxy head, red, & a tan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5339067 Without my 2 days of despair & months of it I would not be here this beautiful Monday morning. I would still be sulking & refusing to see the best I could have if I only reached out for it. I did reach out for it, the 2 days of a trying time made me see it. I had worse days but who would ever guess a bad hair day made me see what I was missing & how it all led up to my change I was not doing well at all with my eating or any sort of working out. I blamed it on my back, I just could not get ... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 07:35:00 EST When sunlight greets me in the dawn & the Northern star appears I will know!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5270463 I stood in front of the dressing mirror in the changing room at the dress shop & as I slowly turned to the mirror I could hardly believe that was me in the looking glass. I know I am not young any longer,but age is no excuse for allowing my self to become the person that was staring back at me.Where is she the person I once knew & liked in appearance? I do not really dislike myself ,I love the values I have & the way I think about certain issues,but not the body looking back at me. I have re... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 23:05:00 EST I walked with Madonna last night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5196517 All day at work I was thinking of what I would be doing when I left work. I was off at 5 that is an hour & 1/2 earlier than usual. My plans were to walk out side right after work grab my walking shoes & go. I always have that plan, but I would sit down first then not go, not this time I went outside so fast you would think I was being chased. Oh yeah I grabbed my MP3 player. I put in the buds & off I went & Madonna was singing away the beat was catchy, I noticed how fast I was waling with th... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 08:45:54 EST I gave up gym memebership to start working out in my home ( photos ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5193678 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/6/l560022602.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1372229411.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/6/l865210171.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1393233698.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1325905062.jpg"> <BR> I have everything to work out with in my home instead of paying at the gym,my husband put up mirrors so I can check out my form when I do my free weight... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 19:28:35 EST My Chrsitmas photos in my living room & outside http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5180279 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1987710727.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1622150936.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2031390468.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l244518744.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/2/l624768199.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2139918079.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/7/l577670985.jpg"> <img src="http://photos... Sat, 29 Dec 2012 21:48:36 EST How opposite are you with your husband or partner & still have a meaing relationship? read my list http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5162742 My husband & I are so opposite no one knows how we even came to be. My list of our oppositions. <BR> 1. I am romantic Gary is not <BR> 2. I love classical music , opera, & bluesy music, Gary like's the 60,70 & 80's music <BR> 3. i love our local plays, plus going to Broadway in New York City, Gary does not like plays <BR> 4. I love all kinds of ethnic foods , Gary is a plain meat & potato eater he never had a casserole dish , not even macaroni salad or potato salad the only soup he ever ate... Mon, 10 Dec 2012 23:48:30 EST I went for a pick me up & I got something else instead!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5145669 Saturday was the day to go for a make over . I was so nervous as this was the first time that I went to this hairdresser for a much needed hair color & a new style. We thought to go back to my normal color of a light brown with just a few high lights sprinkled through out my hair. I did not look in the mirror as everything was being done to transform me. The moment came as she handed me the big mirror to check out the transformation. What I saw in this mirror was a fat rounded face, she b... Sun, 25 Nov 2012 07:00:45 EST The Shadow knows I tried to run from it,but it kept catching me!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5136416 The day was rather sunny, it warmed my face & felt rather comforting ,even though I like cloudy raining days. I took a deep breath to smell the sweet Autumn air. That is when I saw it, a rather dark figure beside me the shoulders were slouched downward,the body had no curve within the waistline, rather bulky, the arms were outward like a hulk ,the hair was just hanging squared off with no style . I started to run, & I could not outrun the shadow. I finally made it to my car & sped off. When ... Thu, 15 Nov 2012 13:54:40 EST What I do EVERY time in the VOTING BOOTH http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5126692 I walk in & pull the curtain closed. I stand there & hold onto the election machine, the chills start to come over me ,the tears sting my eyes & I feel my heart racing. I think of the men & women that have died for this moment for me to cast my vote. I think of all our women & men that have gone off to Wars for this moment to happen. I think of the people that were killed & tortured because of the color of their skin that so wanted to vote. I just can not fathom that but it is true. I th... Tue, 6 Nov 2012 22:08:51 EST I turned my back on you when you needed me the most!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5123322 Here it is happening once again, I promised you last year this would NEVER happen again. I stood with only panties on yesterday in the dressing room at the mall. This time I did not face you I slowly undressed. I slipped on a beautiful nightie with tiny sprigs of lavender through out. I slowly turned around to admire it, oh it felt so good on & I might add it looked good on me. There was no bulging in the mid section, you gave approval . As I turned around from you to slip it off I felt smu... Sun, 4 Nov 2012 08:47:04 EST Oh Sandy why didn't you stay out to SEA for I SEE what you can do!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5118281 The winds of Sandy whipped fiercely around the corners of our home almost as if Halloween was saying BOO !!! The rains pelted the window panes. I opened the front door & the wind yanked the door handle from my hand, I let out a scream & at that moment my heavy rocker on the porch picked up as if someone was angry & slammed it down!! I quickly shut the door with a bang & retreated to the comfort of my warm home . We had no damage like others have !!! My heart & prayers does go out to all tho... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 19:23:49 EST The stillness of the air is somewhat so eerie !!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5115420 I stepped out on the porch this early Sunday morning, & there was a stillness in the air a quietness that felt somewhat eerie. The early morning sky is etched with the heavy greyness throughout , like a painter that whips across the canvas in a flurry. I scooted back inside with goose bumps as I knew that in 24 hours here in North Eastern Pa. we may perhaps be hit with a most foreboding storm. Hours since passed I once again stepped out on the porch, this time I was greeted with the fallen dr... Sun, 28 Oct 2012 09:38:00 EST