JSABRINA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JSABRINA JSABRINA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Hooray for the Home Team! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4891449 In quest of new insights -- and yes, more SparkPoints for today -- I followed the "Read a Health News" link from my SparkPoints page and found an article about a research project done by some of the people I work with! <BR> <BR> "Gene Tests May Not Drive Patients to More Medical Care" <BR> (http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/hea<BR>lth_news_detail.asp?health_day=664912) <BR> is a very high level piece about this journal article: "Association between health service use and multiplex genetic... Mon, 21 May 2012 14:06:41 EST Pirate Yoga! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4884304 Now *this* is inspiration! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/1/l918220946.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> I just bought the print at the artist's Etsy shop: <BR> http://www.etsy.com/listing/97681279/pir<BR>ate-yoga-super-pop-art-print-11x17-by <BR> <BR> Everything is better with pirates! <BR> <BR> <em>221</em> Wed, 16 May 2012 14:20:49 EST Thoughts About My New Photo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4884230 I just added a new photo my gallery and made it my profile photo. As I'm sure many of you can relate to, I dislike seeing photos of myself right now, and would probably not have even had a photo taken if it hadn't been a special occasion: my daughter and I going to see the road show production of "The Devil's Carnival." Terrance Zdunich, the guy in the photo with us, is one of the creators, and was also a creator of and played "Graverobber" in "Repo! The Genetic Opera." <BR> <BR> <img src="... Wed, 16 May 2012 13:27:07 EST Bogged Down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4884205 Well, this last week has been not-so-great for weight loss. I've lost and gained the same pound back 3 times, haven't been drinking water, haven't been exercising. Today I am simply grateful to be back down to my "5 pounds lost" point. <BR> <BR> And I'm definitely drinking more water today. <BR> <BR> My new grad school class started last week: Epidemiology for Health Communicators. It's fascinating, but adds several more hours of desk-type work to my schedule -- although as I wrote that, I ... Wed, 16 May 2012 13:12:06 EST First Unsolicited Weight Loss Observation/Comment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4868388 [This happy comment occurred in a context I would not usually reference on SparkPeople, but it's hard to convey the moment without the proper detail.] <BR> <BR> <em>18</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Yesterday evening, Norm (the man I'm seeing) came over to my apartment. When he buckled the leather cuff around my right wrist, it moved cleanly and comfortably to the last hole for the first time since we've been together. His eyebrows went up. "You *have* been losing weight!" <BR> <BR> <BR> Sun, 6 May 2012 01:03:46 EST I Declare Victory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4865662 I am feeling *so much better* than I was earlier. . . . Things were so bad this morning that they were almost scary, but I've persevered. I ate twice my recommended number of calories today, and a majority of that in refined carbs, and barely drank any water, but tomorrow is another day. <BR> <BR> To the good: I finally got a handle on a project at work that has been hanging around my neck like an albatross; I got my Wolfhound soundtrack onto my computer via my daughter's iTunes, a USB dri... Fri, 4 May 2012 00:55:57 EST Need Encouragement http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4865176 Yesterday evening and today have been hard. My phone broke. My computer's CD drive appears to be broken -- just when I finally got a CD I've been waiting *years* to find. I had nightmares about being attacked and rendered suicidal, and woke up still feeling shaky and fragile. (I've had dreams of being threatened and attacked for the past three nights -- not usual for me.) I woke up late because my back-up alarm didn't work, which put the whole morning off. Instead of a healthy breakfast, I en... Thu, 3 May 2012 18:27:00 EST I May Need to Break Up With This Scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4863206 My simple digital scale is several years old. . . and not entirely reliable. <BR> <BR> It's bad enough that it often shifts up or down by .5lb or more when I'm stepping off, but it's becoming even worse. <BR> <BR> This morning when I stepped on, it told me I was up a full pound. "That's not fair!" I exclaimed. (Truly. My daughter even called from the next room: "What did you say?") I had eaten right, consumed more than 8 glasses of water, and had gone to yoga. <BR> <BR> I glared at the s... Wed, 2 May 2012 14:14:52 EST "Full Figure Yoga" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4863038 I was *very* pleased with the yoga class last night: both how it was run and how well I did. It was a small class, with only five or six of us, although evidently several usual classmembers did not attend that night. <BR> <BR> What surprised me was how little emphasis was put on the "full figure" part. I think the instructor mentioned pully the tummy out of the way once, and that was all. I'm not sure if she simply chose poses which would be less challenging for those of us with extra flesh... Wed, 2 May 2012 12:20:43 EST Days Like Yesterday Are Why I Weigh Myself Every Morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4860828 How often someone weighs themself during weight loss is a very personal thing. For me, weighing daily is a must. It's far too easy for me to go into denial about the consequences of my choices -- especially if I've been doing well. <BR> <BR> After a very strong start with my Primal plan and SP, yesterday I pretty much tanked. I drank very little water. I had two slices of pizza for lunch (less because I wanted to than because there was a line at Subway and the pizza guy is struggling for bus... Tue, 1 May 2012 09:20:18 EST My Big New Goal! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4857015 Okay, yes -- I really do want to be strong enough and tough enough to do a Warrior Dash. That's a big, significant, even scary, goal. <BR> <BR> But I finally found something really emotionally compelling as a "reached my goal" reward: going to the Bahamas! <BR> <BR> I have always yearned to run away for a tropical vacation, but never considered it something I could do. <BR> <BR> Well damn it -- I *can* do it! And I can't think of a better to celebrate the sometimes-seemingly-impossible go... Sun, 29 Apr 2012 01:08:07 EST What I Did Instead http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4856991 I did a full Spark weight workout -- and even added two arm exercises with dumbbells (I love curls and flies!). Then I did 20 minutes on my treadmill, followed by stretching. I feel nicely worked out all over! <BR> <BR> <em>34</em> Sun, 29 Apr 2012 00:39:59 EST [expletive deleted] So Much for Bootcamp At This Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4856932 With all due respect to Coach Meg, here are a few reasons why I am not going to do the 28 Day Bootcamp *at this time.* <BR> <BR> 1. The warm-up was more concentrated physical activity than I've done in a long time. Sweating before I start the main workout is good sign as far as getting moving, but not so much where my current level of competence is concerned relative to the "real" workout part of the session. <BR> <BR> 2. Even the warm up has hops and jump-rope moves, which are what sidelin... Sat, 28 Apr 2012 23:30:23 EST The Eowyn Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4855136 Looking for a way to count your walking/running/other mileage besides "steps"? <BR> <BR> If you're a Lord of the Rings fan, take a look at The Eowyn Challenge: http://home.insightbb.com/~eowynchallenge/<BR>index.html <BR> <BR> The journeys of The Fellowship of the Ring have been broken down into bite-size stretches, each with its own milage and text reference. Start from Rivendell and eventually get to Aragorn's coronation in Gondor -- via the Mines of Moria, Rivendell, Rohan, and Mordor. ... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 15:43:41 EST Change the Language, Change the Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4854816 <em>3</em> <BR> <BR> I guess it's no secret in weight loss circles that the words we say to ourselves are very, very powerful. A lot of us who are overweight engage in a lot of negative self-talk, and changing that is part of the overall lifestyle change. Over the past week, I've recognized two self-talk habits around eating that I need to change. <BR> <BR> The first was the words I use to acknowledge to myself that I am feeling hungry. More often than not, I'll skip a simple, "I'm hungry... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 11:46:26 EST A Nice Change on Weight Loss Recognition at SP http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4854801 When I was doing SparkPeople two years ago, weight which you had lost and gained back again did not get recognized with a "congratulations" and friend feed post when you lost it again. This could be very frustrating, as if the work I put in to lose those same pounds a second time didn't count. <BR> <BR> I've been confused this last week by the recongition that I'd lost two pounds when I was sure it was only one -- but that was because SP counted losing one of those pounds for the second time... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 11:36:43 EST A Pound at a Time -- Aaarggghhhh! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4850367 Disclaimer: I am completely aware that what follows is non-rational and against all the healthy principles of weight loss. But you know what? Some days those sensible, healthy principles are *aggravating*! <BR> <BR> <BR> I've actually been doing very well with my weight loss since coming back to SparkPeople. I did a typical bounce down then up right away, and have now settled into a nice decline. I'm doing Primal, and cutting carbs way down has always worked very well for me. Losing 2 pound... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 18:30:32 EST Found the Perfect Values-Roles-Goals Vision Tool! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4848128 I've been wishing for months that I could somehow find or create an elegant, vivid way to express the ways my spiritual path and vocation, my career aspirations (which include my current graduate school program), my health and fitness endeavors, my domestic life, my creativity, and my role as mother in one place -- and I'd pretty much given up. Everything intertwines at so many levels, it seemed impossible to find a single tool that could bring it all together. <BR> <BR> But the other day I ... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 12:47:52 EST Sparking, Studying, and a Cookie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4847283 I've been working very hard all day on a class project that is due very soon. In between bouts of research and typing, I've been doing stretching, a couple of basic core strength exercises, and drinking a lot of water. I've also been logging all my intake. <BR> <BR> This evening, needing a bit more of a break, I checked my nutrition tracker and found out that I could afford one McDonald's chocolate chip cookie. So I got in my car and drove over, windows open, enjoying the fresh air. <BR> <... Sun, 22 Apr 2012 22:47:34 EST My Nutrition Tracking Does Not Have To Be Perfect http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4845387 I admit that one of my frustrations in past SparkPeople efforts was that I eat out often, but usually ask for my order to be adjusted somewhat. This has given me an excellent excuse to not add that food to my tracker, which of course allowed me to coast on in sublime indifference to how much I was actually eating. <BR> <BR> Last night I stopped at Claim Jumper -- a bad place for me -- and had a club sandwich. First problem: I shouldn't be eating that bread on a primal lifestyle plan. Second,... Sat, 21 Apr 2012 13:01:02 EST Reading and Writing and Scrapping http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4844022 All my life, I've identified as a reader and a writer -- and that's how others have seen me as well -- but over the past year or so I've stopped doing much of either. I do still read, but it's harder to find satisfying books and, to be honest, my attention span is shorter than it was. My creativity has changed as well. Instead of the fiction I used to write, I'm more focused on non-fiction, which is more work. <BR> <BR> And I already have a lot of work in my life. . . . <BR> <BR> A few mon... Fri, 20 Apr 2012 11:56:41 EST Meal Planning and Snow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3806473 I've been snowed in -- iced in, actually -- in my top-of-the-hill apartment in Seattle since Monday evening. To complicate things, my car is in the shop. To make a simple story even shorter: I'm very glad that I'd done meal planning last weekend and gone shopping for the week on Sunday afternoon! <BR> <BR> It wasn't perfect, of course. By the time I got home from work on Monday evening I was very tired and cold, so I did buckle and order pizza before the snow shut them down, but my meal pla... Fri, 26 Nov 2010 08:44:06 EST Denial & Magical Thinking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3797370 One of my big challenges is packing a healthy lunch every day to take to work. I need things that are simple to make in the early morning but will be satisfying at work. <BR> <BR> One of my favorite things to make has been spiral veggie pasta and grilled chicken -- which wouldn't be all that bad, except that I put pesto and parmesan on it, which piles on the fat grams. But it's oh so quick and easy and tasty! <BR> <BR> I know that it's not weight loss food, but part of me seems to feel tha... Sun, 21 Nov 2010 11:38:11 EST What Brought Me Back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3787178 There have been a lot of changes in my life over the past six months, the biggest of which was becoming employed again a year after being laid off, and then having what for me is a long commute: 45 minutes to an hour each way by bus. <BR> <BR> I don't mind the bus itself; I've been getting a lot of reading done. The tough part is that I've been arriving home from work absolutely exhausted: too tired to do much more than check my online communities and play solitaire. I wasn't ignoring my ki... Tue, 16 Nov 2010 08:35:32 EST A New Start with "ME" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3053726 The time in my life when I was most healthy was during a several-year period when I was doing high-intensity weight training with personal trainers twice a week. My success was never as great as it could have been because I was never able to gain control over my poor eating habits (I still ate quesadillas for breakfast and stopped at McDonalds too often) -- but my body was burning more calories than ever before, and I was one of the strongest women at the center. <BR> <BR> One of the things... Sun, 28 Mar 2010 19:59:44 EST Back on Track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2883022 Things have been going much better since my last post. <BR> <BR> The pizza indulgence didn't set me back too far. After a day of sensible eating and movement my weight dropped again. I'm now comfortably losing again. <BR> <BR> Well, not entirely comfortable. I've used my Wii Fit Plus for forty-five minutes a day the last two days, and that apparently gentle exercise left me sore enough last night too keep me awake well past my bedtime. Yesterday I also did some vigorous walking during my l... Mon, 15 Feb 2010 08:09:47 EST Meal Planning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2877035 *sigh <BR> <BR> There is just no getting around the fact that eating pizza (at least the way I order it) is not conducive to achieving my SP goals. <BR> <BR> And why was I eating pizza? <BR> <BR> Because on Thursday I ate too few calories during the day, leaving me ravenous at night. And then I found out that the chicken I'd been planning to eat had gone bad, and I didn't have enough other quick-easy meal components in my kitchen, and I didn't have the energy or the motivation to go out ... Sat, 13 Feb 2010 11:00:50 EST The Last Few Months http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2802970 I started SparkPeople in March of 2009 filled with motivation and made great progress, and then a knee injury sidelined me for months. During that time I was laid off, moved, and continued to struggle with grief over the death of my partner. I'd lost twenty or so pounds, but was stuck at a plateau of 190.5 pounds and getting very frustrated at not being able to go lower. <BR> <BR> In September I got a temp job that's had me working from 6am to 3pm, and I quickly fell back into poor eating ha... Wed, 27 Jan 2010 07:42:53 EST Beautiful, Unexpected Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2373121 I came home yesterday to find my 13 year-old daughter wearing sweats and a spaghetti-strap tank-top, sweating, and carrying my bokken (wooden Japanese sword practice sword). She was using my Forza workout DVD, which involves executing a series of steps and sword strikes. <BR> <BR> She looked so amazingly beautiful. . . <BR> <BR> It got even better when I sat at my computer and she resumed her workout. I only watched out of the corner of my eye so I wouldn't make her self-conscious, but I *... Fri, 4 Sep 2009 10:07:58 EST Weight, Habits, Choices, Feelings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2366196 After starting out my SparkPeople program with great energy, I've been doing next to nothing for the last month and more: not weighing myself, not tracking my intake, not drinking 8 glasses of water per day, not exercising. That lack of focus and progress was not just in the area of health and fitness, however; I've been experiencing inertia pretty much everywhere in my life. Unemployment and my daughter being on summer vacation had a lot to do with it too. <BR> <BR> However, I was startled ... Tue, 1 Sep 2009 21:59:14 EST Photos and Clothes Shopping Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2239092 I have almost never enjoyed shopping for clothes. Even when my weight was much lower, my petite-but-voluptuous frame (small bones, short waist, generous breasts) has made it difficult to find clothes that fit well. When I'm overweight, it's even worse, with all those dressing room mirrors usually sending me into uncharacteristic pits of shame. <BR> <BR> But I *need* to go clothes shopping today. <BR> <BR> The good news is that I should soon be expecting an email from the CEO of a big local... Sat, 18 Jul 2009 12:39:11 EST Exercise as Punishment or Health Benefit? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2234008 One of today's SparkBlog entries is "Do You View Exercise as Punishment or a Health Benfit?" -- and it was a pleasant feeling to reflect and realize that I no longer automatically think of it as punishment. <BR> <BR> I'm one of the millions of kids who hated PE class most of the time. I hated calisthetics, was embarrassed by team sports, and generally would much rather have been in the library. Rather than giving me "a good grounding for lifetime health and fitness," PE class taught me at a ... Thu, 16 Jul 2009 12:36:17 EST Still Not Ready to Return to the Wii "My Fitness Coach" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2231942 I just tried the Wii "My Fitness Coach" for the first time since my injury. <BR> <BR> I was able to make it through 10 minutes of warm-up -- with adaptations so I did not do any of the jump-kick techniques -- but when it got to the lunges, I turned it off. The pace was just too fast for me to be able to keep up *and* not come down too hard on my knees, especially with hand weights involved. <BR> <BR> Perhaps it will get better as my overall fitness level improves. If not, Half Price Books t... Wed, 15 Jul 2009 18:30:44 EST Getting the Math Right Helps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2218925 I stepped on the scale today and was delighted to be down 1/2 pound below my previous best SP weight. Hooray for tree-watering and drinking more water again! <BR> <BR> I decided I wanted to know exactly how much weight I'd lost. I'd been thinking it *must* be around 15 pounds by now. I'd been doing the math in my head, and it seemed about right. However, math has never been one of my strengths, so I brought up the calculator on my computer and did the numbers. <BR> <BR> No, I wasn't down 15... Fri, 10 Jul 2009 17:57:41 EST "Watering Trees" as Exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2214343 As I've mentioned here before, one of my favorite places in the world is Earth Sanctuary on Whidbey Island. I love going there and walking the labyrinth, visiting the dolman, and walking the trails through recovered forest. When I found out that the Sanctuary needed volunteers to spend a few hours watering recently-planted young trees, I jumped at the chance to "give back" to this place that has meant so much to me. <BR> <BR> Honestly, I didn't expect it to be difficult. What's so hard abou... Thu, 9 Jul 2009 01:15:12 EST Plateau http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2209920 I've been stuck between 193.5 and 194.5 for weeks now. <BR> <BR> Part of that stuckness has been due to illness, travel, and holiday. I haven't been keeping to my program like I should. But I still feel like I need to do something extra to kick myself up a notch and get moving again. I'm just not sure what that is. <BR> <BR> Arrgh. It's probably simply a matter of tightening up my focus and discipline around eating. I haven't been going nuts and eating a lot of junk, but I aso haven't been ... Tue, 7 Jul 2009 13:55:05 EST Road Trip! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2168735 I'm happy to report that my cold is almost gone, and I'm feeling well enough to embark on my road trip to Portland and then Ashland. <BR> <BR> Early this afternoon I'm going to Portland to visit two of my oldest friends (my two high school boyfriends, as it happens). I'll be staying with one of them (on the couch) and we'll be having dinner with the other and his fiancee, who I will be meeting for the first time. <BR> <BR> The next morning I'll leave for Ashland, Oregon, home of the Orego... Sun, 21 Jun 2009 13:24:48 EST Beautiful Walk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2147932 This morning I met MMCNEILL25 at a local nature preserve and we went for a walk on one of the many trails. <BR> <BR> The reserve is only a mile from my home, but it felt like we were deep in the mountains. As we walked, we were surrounded by beautiful, thick forest. It was cool and green, and the trail was gentle. (The only problem was the frequent deposits of horse droppings!) <BR> <BR> It was very quiet and peaceful. We ran into a few small groups: families out walking, a few runners, but... Sat, 13 Jun 2009 15:36:11 EST Looking at a Self-Defeating Pattern -- And My New, Better Response http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2147923 It was interesting to watch myself yesterday. <BR> <BR> After two days of siginficant weight loss, I was feeling a bit unnerved. I knew that it hadn't happened the "right' way -- through a sensible combination of healthy eating and exercise -- but because I was way below my recommended calories. <BR> <BR> So I decided to half treat myself/half make up for it by letting go "a bit." <BR> <BR> I had an appointment right after I dropped my daughter off at school, so I let myself get an Egg M... Sat, 13 Jun 2009 15:26:53 EST Motivational Motto http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2130201 Despite -- well, maybe because of -- my frustrations of the past six weeks or so, I decided to go ahead and enter Stage 3: "The Lifestyle Change Stage." One of the tasks is to select your personal motivational motto. It didn't take long for me to choose mine. <BR> <BR> I've always enjoyed collecting motivational quotes. The ones I save tend to be *very* lofty. I like quotes about touching the stars and etc. But I've found that those types of quotes don't often actually help me. They're inspi... Sun, 7 Jun 2009 11:17:33 EST Starting to Turn Things Around: PT and a Walk in the Woods http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2128066 Yesterday was my first physical therapy appointment! <BR> <BR> I really liked my therapist. She quickly made me feel comfortable with her knowledge and the way she interacted with my body. I also appreciated the fact that her evaluations of my physical condition were honest but non-judgmental. She put me through a series of tests and exercises comparing my right and left lower body. It was startling to find out how much more strength my left side has after compensating for my injured right s... Sat, 6 Jun 2009 11:35:33 EST Feeling Unhappy and Out of Control http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2115418 The scale was up to 202 this morning, after a low of 196 a month ago. <BR> <BR> The title of this blog entry reflects my feelings, but also my problem: feeling out of control. <BR> <BR> I've let one problem -- my knee -- wipe out not just the cardio regimen I'd started, but my eating as well, when what I should have done was accept that reducing my level of exercise meant that I would need to keep an even closer watch on what I ate. <BR> <BR> The frustration over my knee has also triggered... Tue, 2 Jun 2009 09:38:52 EST My One Basic Rule http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2106958 Okay, so reducing anything to "one basic rule" is oversimplifying, but this one comes pretty close: <BR> <BR> When you feel stuck, take one positive action, no matter how small. <BR> <BR> I've been so stuck for the last month. The knee injury gave me an excuse to completely stop exercising, which was deadly. Instead of adjusting my workouts to spend more time on stretching and strength training, swimming, and etc., I simply stopped. Once I stopped exercising, I a lot of the vitality I'd bee... Sat, 30 May 2009 12:26:32 EST More on Knees and Celebrations and Projects http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2082111 Well, I have COBRA coverage, but it's not formally active until they get their first payment -- and instead of offering instant online payment when you register online, you have to wait until they send out a paper invoice, receive a physical check back and then process it. Someone seems to have missed the news that we've entered the 21st century and that secure online payments are an asset to *everyone*. <BR> <BR> What that means is that I haven't been able to start physical therapy becaus... Thu, 21 May 2009 13:58:38 EST Great Achievement -- But How Do I Celebrate? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2073406 Today, after at least three years of thinking about it, dreaming about it, and running away from it, I finally launched the website for my spiritual direction practice: www.feralholiness.com. <BR> <BR> It's a *huge* milestone for me: a testament to my growing self-confidence and my willingness to create the life I truly want. And it calls for a celebration. A BIG celebration. <BR> <BR> But I'm at a loss. <BR> <BR> Previously such a celebration would involve a prime rib, baked potato, choco... Mon, 18 May 2009 20:25:06 EST Injuries and Recovery http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2067114 My doctor told me I have a "patella femoral" and need to have physical therapy to realign the joint and strengthen it. Thank goodness for COBRA benefits! I'm also supposed to take Aleve for two to three weeks to help reduce the inflammation. <BR> <BR> The good news is that it's feeling a lot better, even before the therapy. It's still clearly not "well" but it doesn't hurt when I get in and out of bed, and last night I was able to walk up the two flights of stairs to my apartment without lim... Sat, 16 May 2009 13:01:52 EST Sore Knee - Sagging Jeans - Unexpected Inspiration http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2061298 My knee doesn't seem to be getting any better, so I'm going to the doctor today to get it looked at. I'm going to ask her to look at my toes while I'm there. I want to be pain-free again! <BR> <BR> I haven't exercised in a week, and I'm not drinking as much water as I should be, but the weight is still coming off. I'm down another 1/2 a pound this morning -- and my jeans are starting to sag. <BR> <BR> Last night I took my daughter to see the "Wolverine" movie (which we both really enjoyed!)... Thu, 14 May 2009 09:40:21 EST I'm Lame http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2041660 I mean that in the old-fashioned sense of "I've messed up my ability to walk." <BR> <BR> Just as it seemed that my right knee was about to get better, I stubbed the middle toes of my left foot very hard on the solid wood foot of my bed. They hurt all day yesterday, and are still sore and tender this morning. I suspect I may have fractured one. My right knee isn't happy either. <BR> <BR> Looks like it's time for me to focus on yoga and upper body strength training rather than cardio and walk... Thu, 7 May 2009 09:59:19 EST Dancing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2039132 As I pull myself back into healthy habits, I need to remember to *dance.* <BR> <BR> Dance is new thing for me. I've spent a lifetime avoiding it -- except for the square dances at school gatherings, which I always enjoyed. I like having specific patterns to follow; the "freeform" nature of other dance tends to be stressful. I took ballroom dance classes several months ago, but didn't have the money or time to continue. Instead, I've bought a bunch of DVD's with salsa, bellydance, and even e... Wed, 6 May 2009 13:44:11 EST Knee Problem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2039105 I really enjoyed my workout with the Wii My Fitness Coach -- but apparently some of the cardio exercises were a bit too high impact for my right knee, and the cooldown segment of barely a minute did not provide sufficient stretching -- and I didn't go ahead and do it on my own. The day after the workout, my knee was sore. <BR> <BR> It was better this morning, but I made sure that I didn't do any of the hopping/kicking sequences. I kicked, but from a stationary position, not landing with all... Wed, 6 May 2009 13:37:01 EST