JRAY864's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JRAY864 JRAY864's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I've been on sabbatical! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5475339 Been some time since I blogged, or since I've been on Spark People - at least two weeks I think. <BR> I've been very lax about keeping up with the eating plan, although I have kept up with most of the exercise. <BR> <BR> The actually accomplished exercise... <BR> I'm still working on the Couch to 5K running thing. I'm up to the last run of week 5 which includes a 20 minute run. I'm sort of afraid of that. Because my hours at work have increased, my time is much more limited so I'm having t... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 06:07:32 EST Tornado http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5443532 Its been a few days since I blogged. Here's why. I came home from work on Thursday afternoon. I live on a sparsely populated dead end road out in the country. However, neighbors from my street and the neighboring street were standing in my front yard staring at my house. My house had a wooded backyard surrounded by a fence to contain the dog. It also had a carport. A tornado touched down in my back yard. Six ancient oaks (10 feet or more in diameter) were ripped out of the ground. All of the ... Sat, 3 Aug 2013 19:29:01 EST What clicked this time? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5435092 I'm down 10 pounds from when I returned to sparkpeople, and down 17.5 pounds from December, 25 pounds from May. So what clicked this time? <BR> <BR> I ate mac and cheese last night (kid was home and requested it), but measured it (1 cup) and did not have seconds, then ate healthy low calorie the rest of the meal. I wasn't feeling the exercise thing, but I still managed 25 minutes on the exercise bike. <BR> <BR> I have tracked every bite since mid June, and pushed my exercise to more than ... Sat, 27 Jul 2013 10:18:14 EST Colin Firth, Karl Urban or Russell Crowe http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5432078 I think I would never have any problems with getting my weight and exercise under control if JUST ONE of these guys would move into my neighborhood. Wed, 24 Jul 2013 16:05:36 EST Eat this, Not that http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5432054 Original Salmon patty - makes 6 patties <BR> 2 whole eggs <BR> 1 can boned, skinned salmon <BR> 1/2 cup chopped sweet onion <BR> 1 stalk celery, chopped <BR> 1 cup Italian style bread crumbs <BR> 2 cloves finely chopped garlic <BR> cooked in a electric skillet with about 1/4 cup vegetable oil <BR> CALORIES: 262 per pattie <BR> <BR> My new recipe: <BR> 1 can skinned deboned salmon (you can use tuna) ~ 10 oz <BR> 2 egg whites <BR> 1/2 cup finely chopped onion <BR> 1 stalk finely chopped celery... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 15:43:40 EST Losing My Spark http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5430793 I'm really bored!! Tired of poached/steamed/roasted chicken. Tired of broccoli. Tired of exercising all the time. Sigh... I need ways to kick it up a notch. <BR> <BR> I don't like to eat meals with many calories, because it cuts into my snacks, so I need dinner ideas 500 calories and under. Since my hubby works until almost 8 pm, I need food that can be reheated nicely, or is crock pot, or can be made quickly. I cook well, (very well) so complicated doesn't bother me, but I'm not a fan of ca... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 15:58:36 EST Another new week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5427991 Wow. I can't believe I have come this far. Its been over a month on my journey. Please allow me to toot my own horn for a moment. <BR> <BR> I've really toed to line with my calories - only slipping once or twice in the first couple of days. I'm down eight pounds since June 15 alone (and 15 pounds total)- exactly where I wanted to be with 91 pounds left to go. <BR> <BR> I've increased my fitness minutes from nearly zero to well over 300 each week, and increased my walking speed on pavement... Sun, 21 Jul 2013 07:39:26 EST So when will they notice (and do I want them to)? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5426071 So I'm down almost 15 pounds and haven't told anyone except my husband and daughter that I am involved in a whole new journey into become the 106 pound person inside of me. I have gone from 210 last year to a little over 196 pounds since last year (most of that in the last month and a half.) <BR> <BR> I guess its my vanity talking, but when will people start to notice that part of me is going away? And do I want them to notice at this point? My boobs now stick out farther than my tummy agai... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 06:56:47 EST Bachelorette Weekend and other stuff http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5425615 Husband is at the naked hippy party called Transformus this weekend. Child is working a weekend gig at Camp Wabak. As of today, I am a bachelorette until Monday! Yeah! Hurray! (Only people who have been happily married for 20 years can understand my true glee.) So... Hmmm... <BR> <BR> Here's my plan - eat what I WANT TO EAT, which will include chicken thighs, nectarines and corn on the cob, when I want to eat it. Exercise when I WANT TO EXERCISE (just got back from a jaunt around Furman.) P... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 17:52:03 EST If you ask for someone's opinion in a public forum, don't be surprised if you get it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5421804 If you ask for someone's opinion in a public forum, you should not be surprised to get responses that differ from your opinion, nor should you belittle the opinions you get. After all... YOU ASKED FOR IT!!! <BR> <BR> Not asking for opinions here, just my two cents worth. Mon, 15 Jul 2013 12:14:35 EST Good morning New Week! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5420498 Last week's recap... <BR> Starting weight = 200.4 <BR> Ending weight = 198.4 <BR> Weight Lost = 2 pounds <BR> Goal weight (my inner 106 pound woman) = 106 <BR> <BR> Starting BMI = 36.6 <BR> Ending BMI = 36.4 <BR> BMI reduction = .2 point <BR> Goal BMI (my inner 106 pound woman) = 19.4 <BR> <BR> Starting BMR = 1983 calories <BR> Ending BMR = 1978 calories <BR> BMR reduction = 5 calories <BR> Goal BMR (my inner 106 pound woman) = 1396 <BR> <BR> Daily Caloric Intake Goal (Food minus fitness) ... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 08:31:54 EST I accept my failure... and go on with my life. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5420219 So there was a big todo at Sunrift today - and I had to cook it. Hot dogs, hamburgers, potato chips, baked beans, beer. Here is how I managed... <BR> <BR> Tossed some teriyaki chicken with pineapple on the grill to the side (for hubby and self) while I served up the hotdogs and cheeseburgers to the other folks. Grilled three quarts of mixed veggies dredged in a little olive oil and seasoning, saved some for myself. Shared 1/2 cup of baked beans with my hubby. I did fail on the chips and eat ... Sat, 13 Jul 2013 22:30:00 EST End of the week is nearing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5418554 Its been a good week. Two goals have been accomplished - <BR> 1. get below 200 lbs - done, scale is steady at 198. <BR> 2. exercise a minimum of 300 minutes per week - I've only got 10 minutes left and its only Friday <BR> <BR> My calories stayed within my goal of 1200 - 1500, with most in the 1400 calorie range. <BR> <BR> My next weight goal is to lose 10 pounds - that happens at 196 pounds. <BR> My next exercise goal is to maintain at a minimum of 300 minutes per week. <BR> <BR> Check o... Fri, 12 Jul 2013 06:53:37 EST My Demon Possessed Scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5417477 My demon possessed scale is at it again, I think. Yesterday the scale said 200.0. Today it says I weigh 198.2. I did not lose two pounds in one day. It seems this scale always goes up before it goes down. For example, it said 200 one day, then 201 the next, 200 the third day, then 198 the fourth. Hmmm... Really need to check in at the Doc's scale some morning. <BR> <BR> I always love to check the scale daily - believe it or not it keeps me motivated. Of course the only readings that truly m... Thu, 11 Jul 2013 06:43:33 EST Wednesday, July 10 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5417063 I worked both jobs today, but there really was not much to do at Sunrift so I tried to plan my camp cooking demonstration. I have the car camping episode. <BR> <BR> My husband is running a kayak demo this evening and won't be home until late so I walked to Furman and back (using the MapMyWalk app). It confirmed that I am now walking 3.1 mph, and I walked 4.05 miles. Dead tired when I came in so put on the black eye peas and jumped in a nice hot bath with Kathy Reichs newest book. <BR> <BR> ... Wed, 10 Jul 2013 19:10:57 EST Tuesdat, July 9 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5416325 Back down to 200.0 on this roller coaster week to break 200 - hopefully tomorrow. Hubby went on my evening walk with me which was really nice. Once around Furman is a short walk, about a mile and a half, but since I push mowed Mom's grass yesterday, it got me my 1 hour of cardio. <BR> <BR> Mike made dinner yesterday... sigh. Nice of him... but... the chicken was good and I had four ounces of that and a peach. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Wed, 10 Jul 2013 06:29:02 EST Cardio Smardio Bleech! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5415143 Got on the stationary bike yesterday (more storms outside). Rode for twenty one minutes (barely in my target zone) and just couldn't take it anymore. Cardio... yeech, jeez. I really hate cardio. There. I said it. I HATE EXERCISING! I want to curl up with a book and a bag of chips... maybe some homemade onion dip. Sigh... <BR> <BR> Instead, I stuck to my diet and finished the day with 1264 calories (even with two of those little oatmeal cream pies that the kid left behind.) I think my calorie... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 06:30:58 EST Monday afternoon musings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5414653 After a weekend backpacking I expected to lose that 0.6 of a pound that would put me below the 200 pound mark - my first milestone. No such luck, the scale this morning said 201.00. But I'm not stressing. Last time I worried about the scale not dropping I lost an entire pound in one night (retaining something apparently to be gross). I know that my nutrition was correct, and my exercise was correct - the scale just does not always go down. <BR> <BR> So today, I eat right, plan to get on the ... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 17:49:23 EST Chattooga River Fatpacking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5413419 Enjoy some sights and sounds of nature from my first backpacking trip in nearly twenty years! Sun, 7 Jul 2013 16:42:41 EST Backpacking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5412268 Pack weight 19 pounds not counting water . Treated myself to a bacon egg and cheesw biacuit, it was lovely. Trip is 7 miles. Sat, 6 Jul 2013 10:26:06 EST Wish Me Luck http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5412102 Yesterday, walked 4 miles (with some running thrown in.) Did not keep my calories high enough so I crashed right after work. Bag of peanuts and a Cello chocolate covered cherry kept me going until I got Mom dealt with (meds and bills.) <BR> <BR> Dinner was a rotisserie chicken and potato salad - but I stayed within my calories - even with the Cello cherry! <BR> <BR> This morning I'm packing for my first backpacking trip in MANY years. I'm hoping to burn lots of calories and eat something so... Sat, 6 Jul 2013 07:01:08 EST Fat Loss Podcast http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5411401 This morning I was listening to my fat loss podcast while on my walk. Learned some interesting things I thought I would share. <BR> 1. Don't eat carbs (veggies excluded, fruits included) up to 3 hours before exercise, or within 2 hours after exercise. It has something to do with the insulin in your system and how that does/doesn't affect fat being targeted. This habit should increase fat burning and decrease muscle loss. (I haven't researched the science behind this, but the people who do the... Fri, 5 Jul 2013 10:31:13 EST The Next Half of Summer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5411207 Last night I laid in bed listening to the the crowd of young people in my back pasture. Fourteen teenagers between the ages of 18 and 21 celebrating the 4th. Life has given me a wonderful daughter who is intelligent, driven, loves life and is loved by her friends. It was nice to not chaperon, but to just be near in case we were needed. And we weren't needed. No one got burned, no one got cut, no alcohol was served (except my hubby's one beer). How many stayed in the camper last night? Don't k... Fri, 5 Jul 2013 07:00:57 EST Pondering Life at 5 in the morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5410296 For nearly three weeks now I have lived with this need to get thin. Why? Why is being fat so bad for me? How did I get this way? Will being thin change my life? <BR> <BR> Here is what I do know... <BR> 1. I won't paste my picture on facebook or blogs because I don't want people to see how fat I have become. <BR> 2. When I go places, I am overly conscious of how fat I am compared to how fat are the other people in the room. <BR> 3. At work at the camping store I am constantly aware of how thi... Thu, 4 Jul 2013 06:09:27 EST Two blogs in one day, oh my http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5409344 A note about fresh. I am a cook. That is my biggest hobby. I plan to go the chef school as soon as I turn 60 and the state of SC pays for my tuition. <BR> <BR> My advice (for what its worth) is... <BR> skip the frozen veggies. Buy fresh and buy local. Fresh food is cheaper than processed, it and it has not been treated with strange preservatives. You can buy in just the amounts you need. Buying local supports your local ag industry. Buying from small town farmer's markets also supports the ... Wed, 3 Jul 2013 07:52:13 EST Teriyaki surprise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5409281 Kid is home from her summer camp job and she is just a nut for japanese food. So, how to make an Asian style dinner on a shoestring of calories? Here is my answer: <BR> -4 boneless skinned chicken thighs (these run about 4-5 ounces each generally so this is about a pound of chicken.) <BR> -4 tablespoons teriyaki marinade (the thin kind) <BR> -4 fresh pineapple slices (no canned), cut into 1" bites <BR> <BR> Marianate the chicken for at least an hour in the teriyake. Remove the chicken from t... Wed, 3 Jul 2013 06:24:04 EST Good Morn http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5408210 Great day yesterday after rough mid-day. Breakfast as usual, a little housework. Then I did my first home strength training. A combo of stability ball, resistance cords and dumbbells. Lunch. Great. Then I sat down to read. Sigh. Two celery sticks with peanut butter, a nectarine, a peach, a banana. I felt like a bloated blimp. <BR> <BR> Took Mom for a grocery trip and she tells me (at 4:00) that she has had a bladder infection all day. Call the doctor for a prescription while in route back to... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 07:03:03 EST Happy July http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5407255 I survived my first two weeks on the new life plan - eat like a 106 pound woman and move like a 106 pound woman. <BR> <BR> Here is the wrap up for June: <BR> _______________________ <BR> My short term goal for the 1st week was to get my calories under control. <BR> <BR> My second week short term goal was to keep the calories in check and incorporate the recommended minimum of 150 minutes of cardio exercise. <BR> <BR> My long term goal is to lose 1-2 pounds per week. <BR> _________________ ... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 10:32:38 EST Sunday morning... Week Three begins http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5406044 Monsters University with the kid. A bucket of popcorn, a junior cola. Hamburgers with potato salad... sigh. (It was lovely!) <BR> So the kid says, "Mom will you take me to a movie?" I love the movies. One of my favorite things, but I don't get to do it often (maybe once a year.) We split one of those buckets of popcorn and each had a junior cola. Wow that really packs on the calories. Was it worth it? I think so. <BR> <BR> Dinner was a planned thing. 85% lean meat burgers (cooked inside unfo... Sun, 30 Jun 2013 06:23:55 EST Saturday and I survived week two http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5405219 Well, two weeks down learning to eat and move like a 106 pound woman. <BR> <BR> A little about myself. I was born at the tail end of the baby boom - 1954 near Charlotte, NC - the last of three. I had the usual fifties and sixties childhood until my sister was killed in a car wreck when I was thirteen. The years after that were a struggle for my family. My parents had trouble (understandably) dealing with their grief. My big brother was away at college and I sort of felt left by the way side... Sat, 29 Jun 2013 06:53:47 EST Good Morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5404266 So I survived the fried flounder lunch with mom yesterday. Came home, ate nothing more until Mike came home. Took him out, bought him a beer and I had a diet coke. Then we came home and had a cantaloupe dinner. (I warned him ahead of time so he popped a couple of cheeseburgers before he came home, lol. He's skinny remember.) <BR> <BR> Spent thirty minutes watching reruns of Toddlers and Tiaras on Netflix while riding my exercise bike. Ah... nothing like it The Good, The Bad and The Ugly!!!! ... Fri, 28 Jun 2013 06:31:27 EST Fried Flounder http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5403946 My 82 year old mother wanted to go to lunch. Sigh. She wanted to go to the fish house. Now, my weight loss plan is to eat like a 106 pound woman and, I believe that 106 pound women occasionally go eat at the fish house. <BR> <BR> (If you are not from the south, I don't know that you can comprehend how many calories are floating in the air in a southern fish "camp" style restaurant. You are not allowed to say broiled - but it wouldn't matter if it was broiled fish, because broiled fish would... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 20:55:27 EST What I like about Sparkpeople http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5403171 I really like that none of my skinny friends are on sparkpeople. Here I can talk about my weight and feel like I am in a company of people that understands and accepts me. I can let that gorilla out of the cage without feeling that my failures are up for ridicule. I don't have to put up with skinny people patronizing me about trying to lose weight. They are right out of the loop!! Hurray! <BR> <BR> Does it sound like I'm tired of fat discrimination? I am over weight - my brains haven't falle... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 06:49:16 EST A little disappointed here. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5403156 The scale isn't going down. Sticking with my calories, working out some - but no to excess. Scale dropped down about a pound, today it is back up a pound. <BR> <BR> Some people say you shouldn't weigh every day. That may be so, but its my thing. Not gonna change... ain't gonna happen. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I did eat two things I shouldn't have - two large sticks of celery with peanut butter (gotta get rid of the peanut butter). But other than that the diet was good. And I only went a few poi... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 06:30:26 EST Become a Personal Trainer (ROTFLMAO) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5402682 So I thought, if I know what a personal trainer knows I can better help myself right? I mean, I have the better part of master's degree in biology. I can get that personal trainer stuff really easy right? (Now keep in mind that I am almost a hundred pounds more than I want to be and nearly 60 years old.) <BR> <BR> I find this free personal trainer course online and I order the book. Figure I'll zoom right through it, get the cheap certification and have something to laugh about. Well... dude... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 17:02:14 EST The 200 Pound Gorilla http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5402056 Good morning. Ever notice that when a fat person is in the room it is just like that 200 pound gorilla in the room. Everyone pretends the fat person is not fat - at least to their face. But behind the fat person's back that is all the skinny people can talk about? For most of us fatties it all begins with genetics and rearing. People in our family are/were over weight. And our parents often didn't hold us to a higher standard with food. Sometimes however, being fat, genetics aside, is our own... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 06:28:01 EST Logging calories and fitness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5401654 I am told that writing down everything that goes in my mouth will help me keep a better sense of just how much I eat and how appropriate are my food choices. So I am trying to play catch up for the week in the Spark tracker (although I do faithfully log my intake in my "analog" journal. I was recording everything digitally at supertracker.usda.gov. I really like their format, however there is no good way to add a food, and they are behind on specialty items such as multi and whole grain optio... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 18:36:38 EST Tuesday morning and I can't sleep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5400926 Yesterday was the good and the bad. I did great - usual breakfast. Quick salad and a nectarine for lunch then off to my second job. Got off early. Mike was at the lake. Sigh. So I noshed. Granted, I noshed on good things, but still the afternoon reading time / eating time hit. For snack I ate 1 banana, 1 nectarine, 1 peach, 3 fat free string cheese, 3 graham crackers, and 1 graham cracker with all natural peanut butter. Got to find the answer to the afternoon noshing. Boredom? <BR> <BR> Well... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 04:33:48 EST Its a New Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5400342 So here I am again and it is Sunday of the second week. Yesterday Mike and I dropped the kid off at her work and then went for a short day hike. My new Merrell Barefoots worked wonderfully for the particular trail. We hiked there and back for a total of 90 minutes. <BR> Food was: <BR> breakfast - cheerios with skim milk and a banana; coffee and a citrical pill for calcium <BR> lunch - a veggie wrap with fat free cream cheese and a sheet of that wonderful FlatOut bread; and a nectarine <BR> d... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 14:55:00 EST Week Two http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5398894 So I have officially finished a week of my plan. Now for the analysis and adjustments. <BR> I average 1522 calories per day, with virtually no added exercise (reasons for this are later in the blog.) I calculated my BMR and BMI today. <BR> My BMR is 1463. My 106 pound woman BMR is 1014. <BR> My BMI is 37.49. My 106 pound woman BMI is 18-25. <BR> <BR> What this means. Adjusting for calories used in exercise, I need to take in no more than 1014 calories per day to become a 106 pound woman. Thi... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 08:09:00 EST So here we go again. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5398058 Epiphany. Diets don't work. After much soul searching I think I found the answer. <BR> <BR> I began to read up on nutrition and on binge eating. I always claimed that I had an eating disorder - binge eating. After all, everything about my life looks that way. I care for my 82 year old mother who is a shrew, has alzheimers, blames me for everything (including her leg cramps); my daughter (my best friend and confidante) has moved away to go to college; my husband retired early and our money i... Sat, 22 Jun 2013 08:22:16 EST