JPAMPY's SparkPeople Blog JPAMPY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Healthy but ill Medically speaking, I'm healthy. Physically speaking, I'm tired all the time and get easily emotionally exhausted. Why? Wed, 7 Feb 2018 11:38:43 EST Depression or sickness Feeling unwell. Sleepy, achy, irritable and no motivation. Just want to sleep sleep and sleep. It's been too cold to go outside for almost two weeks now. Sat, 6 Jan 2018 17:40:22 EST Sabotage I realized something profound the other day. I know I am an emotional eater. I eat when I'm happy, sad, anxious and every emotion in between. What I didn't know until recently was that I eat to punish myself. When I'm doing good and keeping up with my health goals it makes me very happy. When I feel intense negative emotions, even if I don't want to eat junk, I do because I feel like I'm just not worth being healthy and feeling good about myself so I spite myself and cause myself to fail. Tha... Fri, 29 Dec 2017 13:44:55 EST Goal for 2018 Because my health is important to me, I'm choosing to rid my diet of a few things I suspect are sabotaging my health: coffee, refined sugars and processed foods. I am giving myself the whole year to accomplish this goal as it will be a ginormous challenge. I've been eating junk from Christmas and will start eliminating these foods January 1. If you are reading this and want to join me, just comment on my blog. I certainly could use the support. I try to do things on my own and fail. Wed, 27 Dec 2017 22:00:29 EST Unknown I'm back again. I come and go as my lifestyle ebbs and flows. I've found that there isn't anything that motivates me to stop eating so much. I enjoy the freedom to eat whatever I want whenever I want. It isn't like I haven't tried to find something to motivate me; my rising numbers on the scale, celiac disease, my inability to look favorably at myself in the mirror... nothing really motivates me to lose weight even though I know I would be healthier and happier. I don't desire the change enou... Sun, 17 Dec 2017 21:31:18 EST Celiac Disease Diagnosis Finally! Diagnosis : Celiac Disease. On my road to healing. Thu, 26 Jan 2017 20:08:50 EST Celiac or not celiac I eat gluten free and still feel sick frequently. Apparently my guts are inflamed by gf BBQ sauce. I'm going to need to go through my food journal to see what foods I need to stop eating...even though the food is gluten free. Bummer! Wed, 4 Jan 2017 10:32:27 EST New Years Eve Day 12-31-2016 This year has been a good year. Not too many really high highs and not too many really low lows. God is good! Each day is a gift to make right or wrong choices, yet it is still a gift from God no matter what choices we make. His grace covers it all. My hope for this year is that God continues to bring His grace, love and forgiveness to more and more people and that more and more people would accept what He's offering. <BR> <BR> I used to be a person who didn't believe in God. I didn't beli... Sat, 31 Dec 2016 11:39:13 EST If at first you don't succeed, try try again I've been a member of SP for years. SP was here for me when I wanted to lose weight after my first child, second child and every time after that. When I'm not using SP I tend to lean in the wrong direction. Without accountability and tangible tracking of food/exercise, I get lost in my own inability to be 'my' healthy. So, after another long absence from SP, I'm back to try, try again. Fri, 30 Dec 2016 13:58:41 EST New FITBIT Yesterday Hubby and I bought Fitbits. I will be tracking my calories and exercise on Fitbit. But I will still do everything else on Sparkpeople. Today was my first day of using FITBIT and it was very motivating. I made over 12,000 steps today. It tells me my heart rate too. Today was very active. I've been off from work all last week due to children being sick then me being sick. I was so happy to get back to work. Had some wonderful conversations with my friends and coworkers. Enjoyed my wor... Mon, 16 Nov 2015 20:53:04 EST Stressful day... emotional eating out of control I've been sick for about three days with a cold. My daughter was home all week from school from the flu and a staff infection. Thankfully she is better and ready for school Monday. I, however, am way past my threshold of being able to handle things. My children are young, so even though I am sick, I am still called on to take care of them. I need time alone to myself. I need time to recharge from parenting and work and other demands on me. I find every little noise, every time I hear, "mmoooo... Sat, 14 Nov 2015 17:30:37 EST Starting over is the game I play with myself After having two babies in two years, I was determined to lose the baby weight. I did that. I got into running and other home workouts. I got injured from running. I don't run much anymore. I have gotten in a rut. I have gained 15 pounds and have not been motivated to lose it even though my body is telling me I am not healthy with this extra weight. I have a couple different home workout programs. I just bought a new one. I need to do it. Please help me. If you are reading this blog, please a... Fri, 13 Nov 2015 22:36:09 EST Hmm.... Im not losing weight. I am very active most of the day with my job. I know I am not eating well and I feel yucky because of it. I know what I need to do but just don't really want to do it. Not sure why I'm not very motivated. I used to be. Then life changed. I went from being a stay at home mom to being gone most all day. So, I went from like 0 to 100 in no time flat. My body and mind are trying to catch up daily and I feel like they never will. At the end of the day I am so wiped out that I... Wed, 7 Oct 2015 17:34:38 EST Day 3 of 21 Day Fix In my earlier blogs I mentioned that my back was a little out of whack so I was going to the chiropractor to get things put back in place. Well, I was doing the TURBO FIRE program. I had gotten to the 4th week when I started seeing the chiropractor. I was irritating my back with the intense training from TURBO FIRE so I put that 12 week program on hold and started a less intense workout called 21 Day Fix. it isn't as hard on my back. I'm on day 3 of that 21 day program and feeling really good... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 14:32:39 EST All is well Well, I started 21 Day Fix again because I missed too many workouts and if I do it, I want to do it right. Today is day 2 of that program. It feels good. I modify where I need to but I work hard and my back is still getting the rest it needs. Good news is that I only have to see my chiropractor once this week. That means I'm already getting better!! Still seeing results and want to keep living a healthy lifestyle. Its not about losing weight anymore. Its about being fit and healthy. I care ab... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 10:16:28 EST Day 22 Well, It's day 22 of Turbo Fire but I need to take a short break from that program. My back is really out of whack right now. My chiropractor says I can be 'fixed' so I am happy about that. <em>334</em> But wisdom tells me to take it easy. My chiropractor didn't tell me I couldn't do my TF program, but given the intensity of the workout, I thought it best to take it easy. So, I will start a 21 day less intense workout to maintain fitness until I can start doing Turbo Fire again. Today I d... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 20:09:31 EST Day 18 Hi friends!! I'm back on track like I said I would be. I did HIIT yesterday, FIRE 45 EZ today and HIIT 15 tomorrow. Then Saturday I will be back on schedule. I mentioned in one of my earlier blogs about going to the Chiropractor and being sore. Well, today I am in pain. I was very active today so that may have had a lot to do with it. I was on my feet all day then came home and did TF 45 EZ. My back and hip just wont stop complaining. Im trying to get into the Chiropractor again but I haven't... Thu, 29 Jan 2015 20:11:05 EST Day 17 Today is day 17 of Turbo Fire. I wasn't feeling well yesterday but today I did my HIIT 25/Stretch 10 workout. It was hard but it's supposed to be. I did my best and I feel I did a good job. One day, one workout, one moment at a time. <em>104</em> <em>521</em> Wed, 28 Jan 2015 14:03:32 EST Day 15 of Turbo Fire Hey friends!! Thanks Tara and Ken!! I appreciate your encouragement. I was scheduled to do a HIIT workout today but thought it best to take a rest day. But I have a plan of attack for the rest of the week. Wednesday: HIIT 25, Thursday: Fire 45 EZ, Friday: HITT 15/Tone 30. Then Saturday I will be back on schedule. Also, I have been going to the chiropractor. Unfortunately my spine is pretty messed up. Not that that will stop me... it won't. My muscles are sore and constantly ache after I get a... Tue, 27 Jan 2015 17:15:54 EST Week 3 of Turbo Fire Today I did FIRE 45 EZ. I felt sluggish and unmotivated. I'm losing my motivation. But Im hoping it will pass and I can keep truckin' with my workouts. I have 9 weeks to go before I take my 'after' pictures. I need to remember why I started in the first place. Mon, 26 Jan 2015 19:06:27 EST Day 13 Turbo Fire Core30/Stretch 40 I went to the chiropractor yesterday and found out I have a lot of things wrong with my spine. First of all, its crooked in two parts... at the top between my shoulders and at the bottom of my pelvis. He adjusted me and popped the bones back into place but I am feeling so sore. I did my Core 20 and Stretch 40. I think TF is going to help me with my back issues. My workout went well. This afternoon I'm feeling a little hungry and weary. I'm so tired. But I look forward to my workout tomorrow. ... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 16:54:49 EST Turbo Fire Day 12 Woot woot!!! Another great day to workout! Today was Fire 55 EZ. Although there is nothing easy about the workout, it is getting easier. As I push through the toughest parts of the workout I find that is when I make the most gains. I love that I have seen such great results in such a short time. No other program has done this for me. Feeling really good and excited to take my two week pictures. I know my body has changed already!! <em>344</em> <em>320</em> <em>216</em> Fri, 23 Jan 2015 19:37:27 EST Day 11 of Turbo Fire Ah, today is day 11. My workout was HIIT 15 and Sculpt 30. It was hard but so worth it. I lost another pound. That makes it 5 pounds total in just under two weeks with this program. That is amazing. I've never been more focused (accept when training for my half marathon) to accomplish something. It's amazing how exercise changes more than our bodies, it changes our lives in every way. Its so good!! I find that I am struggling to stay 'full'. I feel hungry a lot. My solution is to add more cal... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 19:58:43 EST Day 9 of Turbo Fire... my progress Thanks everyone for your support!! I really appreciate it!! I'm on day 9 of my Turbo Fire program. Today was a HIIT 20/ Stretch 10. HIIT= high intensity interval training and then 10 minute of stretching after. It's amazing how much stronger I feel and the confidence I am getting just from exercising. I feel like I am doing what I should have been doing all along. My moods are better, my outlook and perspective are better, more positive. I'm happier. I lost two pounds in the first three days.... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 11:06:57 EST feeling high I'm in day 5 of my turbo fire program. I've tried many years to attain good health and fitness. None of it a loss as I have learned valuable lessons along the way. I have a 100% better relationship with food now. Fri, 16 Jan 2015 14:24:23 EST my journey I'm a bit scared to start this journey. I've been here many times before but always slipped back into my old habits. I got to my goal and didn't know where to go from there. I started making little compromises telling myself I'll work it off. Never did. So here I am again. This time NO COMPROMISING! Tue, 13 Jan 2015 12:48:39 EST Glass half full I'm taking advantage of my free spark coach trial and today's blog subject is whether I see the glass half full or half empty. I see life through a glass half full with lots of air bubbles. Sometimes when things get difficult, I start to doubt myself. Those are the bubbles. But even with the bubbles I don't give up because there is always hope to accomplish my goals as long as I don't quit on myself. Sat, 10 Jan 2015 18:19:11 EST 1-9-15 Tonight I put the spark coach app on my phone. So today is day 1. I've been sick with flu like symptoms. I weigh 135 and want to lose about 10 lbs. Fri, 9 Jan 2015 21:35:48 EST Dec. 23 2013 WOW an unexpected death in the family has brought sadness. Christmas is just a day away and we had exciting plans for my mom and dad to come visit. Those plans have changed and we will not be with them for Christmas. They will be attending a funeral for my uncle. Sad that he died. Sad that my parents won't be with us for Christmas. Feeling blue already, from the wintertime. Feeling like just curling up and not doing anything. I don't feel like exercising, I just feel like crawling into bed, h... Mon, 23 Dec 2013 10:44:02 EST December 22, 2013 Looking forward to Christmas. We are having family here and I am looking forward to it. It will be fun. <BR> About 2.5 months ago I started a workout program from TeamBeachbody. I'm in the last of three phases. I haven't lost weight but I have gained muscle, strength and fitness. I think that is more important than weight loss. My clothes fit better and I feel more comfortable in them. I still have some work to do but I always will. I am planning on getting back into running as soon as I fin... Sun, 22 Dec 2013 20:49:27 EST Today December 4 2013 Today was a great day. Started off with homeschool. Looked at my calendar and saw it was National Cookie Day, so as fun cooking project, the kids and I made cookies. While we were waiting for the dough to harden in the fridge, we did a 20 minute workout. Then after lunch and during naptime, I did another 45 minute workout. I feel good and tired. Thought about taking a nap, but decided to SPARK instead. Going to have a cup of coffee and a snack here in a bit. I hope that you, whoever is readin... Wed, 4 Dec 2013 14:56:38 EST Day 2 of December Awe... today I am tired. I didn't want to exercise but I did... for 50 minutes!! The best thing I could ever do is push through these days when I just want to nap instead of exercise. I am so glad I did. I still feel tired but now I have my workout done for the day. Tomorrow is a rest day so I can nap tomorrow if I choose. Its great to have choices. I hate having a workout looming over my head. I feel even worse when I blow it off and don't do it. Ahhhh.... this is what success feels like. WO... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 15:30:08 EST After Thanksgiving Thanksgiving was a very enjoyable time this year. I didn't eat too much and I spent more time visiting and enjoying the company of my family than I did obsessing about food. I also completed ALL my scheduled workouts because I brought my workout DVD with me. First time ever that I have done that. I completed the second phase of my workout program and now have one more phase to complete, then I will be at a maintenance level. I can wear jeans that I haven't been able to wear and I like the way... Sun, 1 Dec 2013 21:12:47 EST Thursday Today is so much better than the last three. Starting to feel better about a lot of things. Children are not sick anymore and life seems to be evening out again... until next week. :-) Thu, 21 Nov 2013 10:53:54 EST Tuesday Today feels like its going to be a LONG day. My child is still sick. I stayed with her in her room to make sure she had help if she needed it. She didnt go to sleep until an hour past her bedtime and then she got up at 0430. I can tell you that is NOT enough sleep for me. Then my other child got up shortly after at 0515. Fabulous!! Wonderful!! I'm running on very little sleep. My children are already demanding and suffocation me and I hadnt even had my coffee yet. GRRRRR.... As look at today ... Tue, 19 Nov 2013 09:29:57 EST Monday I weighed in this morning. Not suprised at what I saw. The scale is going up. Today, I am giving my body a break. I have a 35 minute workout that I will do but as far as food, I'm keeping it minimal. I have been eating WAY too much. I am sabataging my own progress. I am going to make better choices today. Moment by moment. I need to really get my eating in control. That is the only issue now. I have been consistently exercising for the past two weeks. I see muscle where there wasnt any before... Mon, 18 Nov 2013 07:11:20 EST Restaurant disaster- 11-17-13 Our family tradition is to go out for lunch after church on Sunday. Today was no different. We chose to go to a pizza/ salad buffet. We arrived at about 11am. Got a table. My 3 year old started fussing and whinning and crying. Asked her what was wrong and she said she couldnt walk. Then said her tummy hurt, then said her head hurt. We were a little frustrated because she has a bad habit of complaining and so we were irritated. We tried to calm her but she just kept crying and whinning and wou... Sun, 17 Nov 2013 16:27:27 EST November 14, 2013 I have been away from sparkpeople for a while, but have been doing well. I started a new training program and have been doing it five days a week. I have recruited seven of my friends to help me stay accountable. Each day after I do my workout I will contact them via text message and tell them I have completed my workout. If I have not texted them by the time I should have my workout finished, they check in with me to make sure I do it. It has been working GREAT!! This is a something i havent... Thu, 14 Nov 2013 20:31:03 EST June 28, 2013 I am going to try again and again and again until I get it. I'm a Yo Yo dieter. I havent made the changes a lifestyle, only a temporary fix to lose weight. That is why I have gained and lost, gained and lost, gained and lost. Its a cycle. I'm just writing my thoughts about what comes next. I dont know how to come to terms with permanently giving up some of my favorite comforts. I will need to find other things to replace comfort foods. That is not going to be easy. I am thinking it is going t... Fri, 28 Jun 2013 21:33:16 EST Does it help? How? Fast break goals... does it really work to keep track of small, more attainable goals? I have made many, many, MANY fast break goals and have not kept up with tracking them or doing them for that matter. I have great intentions but when i am on SP, Im on for a short time and dont even think to track other goals. I may accomplish those goals for the day but dont even think to track them. I track food, exercise and weight. That is about it. I may surf SP and blog or reply on a message board. Ju... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 18:28:26 EST June 14, 2013 Mind over Body- a 10 step program to overcome emotional eating. I am at step 1- putting the 'I' back into my vocabulary. I need to start keeping track and journaling my emotions and situations where I start to eat when I am not hungry. I need to ask myself, what am I feeling? I already know that a lot of times I eat when I am not hungry because I am bored, frustrated, happy, tired, not feeling well. I eat mostly for the comfort of it. But after I eat, I feel guilty and find absolutely no comf... Fri, 14 Jun 2013 06:46:06 EST June 13, 2013 I was ready for bedtime. I was saying my night time prayers and then a thought, out of the blue occurred to me... EAT! I'm hungry... eat! It is 2100, I'm in bed. I'm tired. I already had more than my calorie intake for the day and my mind is telling me to eat. WHY? <BR> It got me thinking... what is the psychology behind emotional eating? Why do I emotionally eat? Why do I eat when I am not hungry? Why is food on my mind ALL the time? I exercise and yet I'm not losing weight. I eat healthy a... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 22:25:13 EST Never thought I could do it Last year when I started running, I thought a 5k was intimidating, not to mention, undoable for me. Well, I faced that intimidation and I ran a couple 5k. Didn't think I could run one in under 30 minutes. My first 5k was under 29 minutes. This year so far i have run two 5k races, both within 28 minutes. I never thought I could do it. But I did it anyway. Now, I am looking at a 10k race. Never thought I could do it. I have run 10 miles on the treadmill, three times and 10 miles on the road one... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 16:26:38 EST Eating 'clean' Eating clean means choosing to not eat things that are processed, high in fat, sodium, sugars and other unhealthy, un nutritional ingredients. It was my intention to start today. However, I had the morning to myself without the girls. So, DH and I went to breakfast at our local café. I made a good choice (Greek Omelet) but it was still high in calories and sodium. So for tomorrow, my plan of attack is to start out my day with an early morning run with a good friend of mine. We will run betwee... Fri, 31 May 2013 17:50:51 EST May 28, 2013 Today was a busy day!! We started out with family pictures. The girls did absolutely wonderfully!! They stole the show. I'm very excited to see the pics when they are ready. Last week I got in 17 miles... 10 mile run and a 7 mile run. This week isnt looking so good. I was supposed to run today but just did not have the time. We had pictures and then lunch and then I had to take my daughter to the doctor this afternoon. My husband works so I wasnt able to run this afternoon either. So, I am ke... Tue, 28 May 2013 18:38:10 EST April 27-May 1 2013 I'm back. My computer was plagued with viruses that wouldnt even let me get to the internet so I had to take it in to get it cleaned up. I havent sparked for a few days because I didnt have my computer. Now I am back and have a few exciting things to share. <BR> First: Saturday my DH and I ran our first 5k race of the year. It was AWESOME!! DH and I achieved new PRs!! Second: I went for a long slow run yesterday that turned out to be not so slow... for me anyway. I ran 7 miles at almost a 10... Wed, 1 May 2013 16:42:03 EST To train or not to train.... I posted a while ago in one of my blogs that I was training for a half marathon, but at that time had not found one I wanted to run. Well, I have finally found one I am planning on running in the fall.... Sept. to be exact. I am thinking of postponing my half marathon training schedule until the race gets closer. I have other 5k and 10k races planned. As far as seriously training for my half, I think I am going to stop where I am at now, keep running and pick up where I left off once my half ... Wed, 17 Apr 2013 16:13:00 EST April 13, 2013 Last night I ran 10 miles on the treadmill instead of following my training program. I vowed to take saturday and sunday off from exercise. That won't be difficult considering I have a small painful glitch in my left hip. I dont think it is anything serious and the more I walk on it, the less pain I feel. I think as I was getting tired at around mile 5 or 6 I started changeing my gait a little and that magnified the issue. So, I have two days to recover and then resume my program on monday. ... Sat, 13 Apr 2013 16:00:17 EST April 11, 2013 Yesterday in my blog I was complaining that I was frustrated because of how I have been eating. Today I am doing MUCH better! Today I have been tracking everything and I completed my scheduled run and strength training for the day... not to mention that I kicked butt on my run today. I did run on the treadmill but I ran faster than I ever have and for a longer period of time. I am really excited about this. I guess I should know by now that there are always great days after the bad ones. WOO... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 15:07:36 EST Frustrated The past couple weeks have been so busy with birthdays and the Easter holiday. I ate and ate and ate. Well, now I am trying to find that discipline I used to have BEFORE I let myself indulge. Looking back, I see that two weeks ago I allowed the holidays to pull me into the ditch. Now I am spinning my wheels trying to get out. I start the day out well and then things take a tumble in the late after noon and evening. It isnt even that I am hungry. I eat when I am not hungry. I eat because I hav... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 15:20:16 EST