JOYPHOTOG's SparkPeople Blog

Weight Loss On Hold until July....

Thu, 20 Dec 2012 08:52:33 EST

I started to lose weight, and found out we're currently expecting again! This will be our 4th baby (5th pregnancy) so I'm currently on eggshells hoping everything is ok. Our loss happened in March, and it's been exactly 9 months since then to finding out we are pregnant again. I'm still hoping to get the doctor's okay to work out and try to lose a few pounds, but if they say no, I will just try to stick to the 15 pound plan and eat healthy for the baby. With morning sickness at the moment...

It's My Birthday!

Wed, 5 Dec 2012 22:05:09 EST

I consumed 0 extra calories through pop or anything I drank! I barely ate any cake! I literally only ate enough to make me feel full! I'm so excited! :)

I Need To Get Back To This

Mon, 3 Dec 2012 22:31:15 EST

Between starting a new job, going through an eviction, having to find a new place, having to unpack, having to continue homeschooling my oldest son, and edit sessions for my photography business things have been not so great as far as fitness is concerned. Plus, November was hard to get through as that would have been the month I was due so there was a little more emotional eating than there probably should have been. I still sometimes don't feel like I can get past the loss of our Jace. I...

I've been good since Monday!

Fri, 26 Oct 2012 05:38:26 EST

I recently started a challenge with a friend from high school and some others online to get healthy and in-shape. Even though I hadn't been sparking, I had been TRACKING calories! I was also exercising since Monday as well. So far, I'm down three pounds. I think the fact that I've been on my feet at work has been helping a lot too. Did I mention how much training periods suck? I signed up for family health insurance (because we obviously need it) and as a result, my check for today wasn'...

Making strides. I ate a sandwich today, without bread!

Thu, 11 Oct 2012 20:36:22 EST

I used 2 romaine lettuce leaves, 1 block of laughing cow cheese (45 calories!) and 4 pieces of meat (90 calories). I drank water. While the rest of the day went alright, I feel good knowing I should still be within my calorie limits for the day. I also have a family shoot on Saturday that I'll be doing, so I'm pretty darned excited. :)

Tired

Sat, 29 Sep 2012 10:42:07 EST

Over the last 2 days, I've been dealing with all 3 kids for most of the day. My three year old is sick at the moment, so he's struggling with trying to breath at night because he's so congested. This means lots of mommy snuggles and waking up a LOT during the night to get him back to sleep. My poor baby. As you can imagine, this has me completely and emotionally drained.
On top of that, we don't have enough for all of our bills. I'm hoping financial aid will come to save the day. I...

Failure

Fri, 28 Sep 2012 00:30:03 EST

Once again, I fell to temptation and put the pounds back on. I knew that this time, I consciously did it too. I KNEW what I wasn't supposed to be eating/drinking. I didn't care. I let my feelings and emotions completely control me. I guess it's time to really learn to control myself in every situation. A part of me is SCARED to let the skinny girl out. I've been big for so long. I'm really going to try though. I want to live.
Starting today (since it just passed Midnight) I will ...

Patience in LIFE.

Sat, 22 Sep 2012 01:14:49 EST

I am quite possibly the most impatient person ever. Seriously. As I wait for my interview on Tuesday, part of me wants to run screaming from it. My passion is photography, but I am STUCK on getting clients. Everyone thinks I'm too expensive (at least in my area) even though I know I'm fairly priced for the market. My work is GOOD. I don't WANT to get a "real" job. I don't want to schedule sessions around my work schedule, especially since whatever time I'll be home will be with my famil...

Woke Up to CHANGE.

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 10:11:14 EST

God can do awesome things, especially when you pray because you're at the end of your rope. I woke up today to see awesome changes in my relationship with my husband. Things had gotten really hard, and I literally had no where to turn but God. Today, I feel loved. I feel like everything is going to be okay. If this continues, I can see things getting really good fast. I just hope it's all for real. It's more change than I've seen in a very long time though, so now it's time to really f...

Things are falling apart

Thu, 20 Sep 2012 21:43:33 EST

My eating today was good. No soda. Just water. Stir-fry. Chicken. For the most part, the day went well, but then other things in life didn't go so well, and at the end of the day, all I can do is let the tears flow. How do you fix things that are so so broken?

Interview on Tuesday

Wed, 19 Sep 2012 20:08:02 EST

When you've been a stay at home mom for the last 7 years, it's hard to try to get a job. Seriously. I've put in app after app after app and heard crickets. Can't get a photography job because I started a photography business...but in starting it, it's just not taking off fast enough. I do have an interview with GAP as an associate on Tuesday, and of course, the first thing I think is I'm NOT thin enough, I don't have clothes for this, ect. This defeating mindset has to go before Tuesday. ...

Tracking Food-and drinking water.

Tue, 18 Sep 2012 19:20:45 EST

Today was the first day I sat down and tracked my food. I thought for sure that I was going to be over the calorie limit for the day. What I found out? I'm actually under it. I need to EAT MORE. I'm so full from dinner...but I guess I'll be looking for a healthy 400 calorie snack. The other news, I did drink flavored water, and half a bottle of regular water equaling out to 4 cups. This is a huge improvement from drinking soda, and LIVING on soda. I can already tell I don't feel nearl...

BLC 20? what is that?

Mon, 17 Sep 2012 22:13:11 EST

I keep seeing all these blog entries. Someone fill me in, because I want to be a part of it! It's TIME for me to set some goals!

Being a stay at home mom...

Sun, 16 Sep 2012 20:14:38 EST

I've been a housewife/stay at home mom since 2005. Today, after a long talk with my hubby, I realized it's not what I want to do. I have no problem homeschooling, but I found I want a job. I want to be able to help with income. I want to make some friends. I want to actually interact with others. I LOVE being a mom, don't get me wrong. After having 3 children after being told it would never happen, I DO realize how much of a blessing they are...but I crave being outside of the home. I...

Today was rough

Wed, 12 Sep 2012 23:31:12 EST

Today was one of those days where I found myself having to face reality more than I have been. It's been six agonizing months since we lost our baby. My husband and I were watching What To Expect When You're Expecting yesterday, and that scene......if you've seen it and I'm writing this, then you know the scene. It was like I was watching my own nightmare happen. There is nothing like losing a child, and I feel like I've kept a bandage on a gaping wound after seeing that. Today I constan...

Journaling

Tue, 11 Sep 2012 06:01:44 EST

Today I'm starting to journal, both online on this site and in my food journal. The last time I had really done this (and succeeded) was in November of 2011. I was consistent, and I had gotten down to a weight I was happy with. Today starts the trend again of not just rubber banding and enjoying anything that I would like to eat. Today starts with looking at food as nutrition for my body. If food isn't giving me nutrients, then it's not being consumed. period. I also will be allowing my...

Motivation

Thu, 6 Sep 2012 14:43:35 EST

Today I stepped on the scale, and noticed a loss. It's been a loss I've had many many times, only to gain it back. This time, I encouraged myself. I went and picked up my hand weights to "feel" the loss. I am down seven pounds since I last stepped on the scale. I haven't even made huge changes, other than eating less, doing a FEW exercises on my total gym, and eating popcorn as a snack instead of other things. I'm hoping we'll be able to get some fruits and vegetables soon to add to th...

For once, it's not about you.

Tue, 4 Sep 2012 12:58:53 EST

It seems like a revelation hit me today as I was thinking about my own personal body image, and why I want to change it. For once, I'm realizing I'm not doing this for anyone else anymore! This isn't a battle that others can fight for me, and I'm done being unhappy, done squeezing into a pair of jeans, done feeling unprofessional because my clothes look awful, and done being viewed the way that I am because of being heavier.
Yes, my husband is important. Yes, my kids are important, ...

It's a new day.

Tue, 7 Aug 2012 08:46:56 EST

As I start out today, I'm realizing a few things. For one, my body craves sugar during "that time of the month" So, next time, I'm going to try to fuel my body with some healthy snacks like grapes and oranges, because lets just say this month didn't go so well. Also, with waiting for my hubby's first paycheck from work again, we were pretty broke, so we didn't have gas to get to the gym. Major fail. I am so not cool with not being able to go...thankfully I should be able to get past that ...

When there are ups, there are downs.

Mon, 30 Jul 2012 08:46:53 EST

My life since March has seemed like an unexpected rollercoaster. My life seemed like it was suspended when my husband and I experienced my first miscarriage, which would have been our fourth baby. That made marriage incredibly hard, and then my husband lost his job. Not a good thing for anyone, especially when trying to build up a photography business. Thankfully the small client base I do have was super understanding, but I felt like crap about not being able to stay on top of editing an...

Fear

Tue, 19 Jun 2012 11:47:22 EST

Fear is crippling my life. The unknown is making me unable to move past where I have been. My life still feels as though it's crumbling. Friends have turned their backs, and reacted negatively and my walls have built themselves like a fortress. I feel like I'm screaming inside, constantly. Yet I try to cling to hope and then have to also believe my trust will not be broken. I don't know what the future holds.

I haven't been here for a few weeks.

Mon, 21 May 2012 08:40:18 EST

I had just started to get back to sparkpeople and get back to getting in shape. I was doing well. Well, I had to take another hiatus for a brief moment because my life absolutely positively blew up. I can't go into details about it, but just know my family could use prayers. It has by far been the absolute worst thing that could have happened at this time. While I have been managing to cope, I now wake up randomly in the night feeling like I can't breathe. It's like an anxiety attack in...

Is it just me? Please tell me it's not just me.

Wed, 2 May 2012 23:32:46 EST

So, with working my butt off (literally) to lose all this weight, I am SO much more aware of foods, and commercials. Lately, it's gotten to be so on my nerves seeing promotions for movies with reeses, pop, ect...then there are commercials advertising Snickers as food. Then, of course, there are advertisements for pizza, shakes, fries, burgers, ect.
I realize that there are also commercials for places like Subway, but they are far outnumbered by the unhealthy ones. As if starting out t...

Feeling yucky.

Wed, 2 May 2012 15:41:53 EST

Upon waking up this morning, I made french toast and some mini sausages for my little family, and then when it was naptime for the kids, I was exhausted too, so I went to sleep. When I woke up, I felt pretty miserable, so I guess today will be a take it easy day. I went out and got a Verners since those usually calm my stomach pretty fast, and now I'm just waiting on it to really get feeling better. Probably am going to skip the gym because I don't want to get others sick. At least I can ...

4 pounds gone, in 5 days!

Wed, 2 May 2012 08:52:43 EST

I started back on my weight loss journey on April 28th. It started off with healthy eating, and only over the last 2 days did I start to add in exercise. So far, since then, I have lost 4 pounds. I feel so much more energized, and waking up early seems to be much easier. As much as I don't want to admit it, I think I had let my weight make me depressed. Now to see it coming off, it has me feeling so much more confident about myself. For the first time ever, I'm really seeing the results...

I feel awesome!

Tue, 1 May 2012 20:57:33 EST

I went to the gym today. My mp3 player was loaded with fast songs, so I kept getting reminders from the equipment to slow down to save my heart rate. haha. My absolute 2 favorite machines at the gym are the elliptical and the ab crunch machine. They are tough, but they make me feel sooo strong, and so good after completing them both. I did 3 reps on the ab machine. I did one rep with 10 pounds, one with 20, and one with 30. Hopefully, my chubby stomach will go somewhere else soon. Tomo...

P90x

Tue, 1 May 2012 09:34:34 EST

Yesterday, I started P90x. I had been so afraid of it, that after purchasing it (2 years ago) I never touched it. Now that I'm serious about weight loss, I decided it was time to bring it out of hiding. I had no idea how HARD that program could be, but I love the 30 second exercises and the modified versions that are offered (for people like me!). While I didn't complete the workout (I was able to do 15 minutes) I still feel stronger than before. I can feel a difference in the way my leg...

Never Quit Pledge

Mon, 30 Apr 2012 20:29:09 EST

Today, I promise I will not quit.
I pledge that no matter, how many ups and
downs I pass through,
I will continue on my journey.
I pledge to make a NEW START today,
and forgive myself for my past,
and to stop being so critical of myself.
I pledge to take control of myself,
To Stop making excuses,
And stop blaming other people or situations.
I pledge to treat myself as I would my Best
Friend,
Because that is who I am.

Negative.

Mon, 30 Apr 2012 17:20:12 EST

Two months ago, I had just found out we were pregnant...2 weeks later we lost that precious baby. In the midst of trying to lose weight, I am still very aware of how much I want to get pregnant again. I think it will help a lot with the healing process. Over the last few days I had been having a few symptoms, so today I decided to test. Negative. I can't even express the emotions that hit when you think for sure you'll see those 2 precious lines, and then they're not there. It so doesn'...

Oh my. Monday.

Mon, 30 Apr 2012 09:37:34 EST

I initially woke up at 7 am, and then found it to be loaded with thunderstorms and rain. I quickly pulled the covers up and returned to bed.

Now, I'm up. I weighed in, and am down .2.

For not having returned here for even a week yet, I'll take it. Away from the spark world, all I saw week after week was gain after gain. I'm not going back to that. Plus, I have noticed my body shape changing since working out again. The weight may not be going off as fast as I would...

Tracking: Goal Number 1

Sun, 29 Apr 2012 13:30:05 EST

I will track every little calorie that makes it's way into my stomach. I will do it consistantly. That is my first goal, and I will meet it!
On another note, I'd like to do a weight loss challenge...kind of a who can drop x amount of pounds first? Let me know if any of you out there are interested. :)

I'm doing this! Baby steps!

Sat, 28 Apr 2012 10:53:07 EST

I did it today. I ate a normal healthy breakfast. I paid attention to portion size. I ate at an appropriate time (10 am?!) and guess what? I'm NOT tired. For once in my life, I am up and not dragging and feeling like I want to go hide back under my sheets. My kids are fed and playing happily (with minimal fighting) and I'm about to do a small workout (probably the original EA active since my wii board is broken, and my batteries in my Ea active 2 died...) I may even do some Just Dance with ...

Day 1: All Over Again.

Sat, 28 Apr 2012 01:54:21 EST

Just when I had momentum, and was doing well, my family hit a major curve ball. My husband's hours at work were cut, and we were scraping to get by, then I got sick really fast, and found out I had appendicitis, and that it required immediate surgery because they thought for sure it had already burst, so went through that, healed up for 4 weeks...then my husband and I found out I was pregnant, immediately started to have complications, and after 2 weeks of bedrest, we lost our precious baby....