JOSIE_C83's SparkPeople Blog JOSIE_C83's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Gone Long Enough?? I sure have been. I used to be such a faithful Sparkie, now I don't even log in, or track my exercise or food, or even drink my water. <BR> <BR> I can't even say that starting now I will do it again, but I have been lacking the motivation to make the change again. <BR> <BR> I've gained lots of weight back and my clothes do not fit as cute as they used to. And still this is not motivating enough. <BR> <BR> I've been so busy...wait no...that's just an excuse. I've been lazy, I'm actually ... Wed, 12 Dec 2012 23:33:07 EST Eating Salads with Braces :( I am having a huge spinach salad with red onion, cucumber, sweet peppers, avocado, raw asparagus and broccoli and lean beef adn it is so hard!!!! Especially because I had 2 teeth extractions when I got my braces on and now I have two major gaps in my mouth and to top it off, the wires trap the spinach and I can't get it out! I'm in class right now and I am dreading smiling because I know the spinach is there. I forgot my mirror that I carry with me everywhere along with floss, toothpase and a... Mon, 9 Jan 2012 23:47:59 EST My toddler won't let me nap! I needed a nap so badly today. I get out of school at 10:30 pm and end up falling asleep sometime after 11 pm. I am up early for work and today was an especially busy day for me. I wanted to nap and so I tell my 2.5 year old to lay with me and I'd put a Veggie Tales movie. <BR> <BR> Never fails that as soon as I doze off I hear, "gi up momma, gi up!" <BR> <BR> He is lucky he is so darn adorable! <BR> <BR> Maybe tomorrow I can nap. Hey, a mommy can dream, right? Thu, 5 Jan 2012 23:36:12 EST Catching up...I hope to be back for good! I haven't been very active on SP for a very long time. The reasons, for the most part, have been school, the thought I could do it on my own without SP, and recently, my new part time job. So I've been pretty busy. Sometimes I don't even have the ability to log on SP to spin the wheel. But anyways, I've been on a weight loss roller-coaster ride. My lowest was at 124 lbs and my current weight of 135 lbs (thanks to the amazing cooking of my MIL over Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays). I showe... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 00:18:11 EST Living A Sheltered Life After 10 months in school, I have come to the realization that I have lived a sheltered life. Actually, I guess I gradually realized how sheltered and naive I am because everyone around me knows so much...too much I think. And yesterday, there was an attempt to burst the perfectly warm and fuzzy "bubble" I live in. I'm not going into detail because I would not know how to explain it. Fortunately, I am that naive and sheltered that their attempt did not work. This is me: I am sheltered, I am n... Wed, 19 Oct 2011 00:28:33 EST Being Sick Stinks!!! I used to be the kind of person who rarely got sick...even when everyone around me was sick. Now, with having a 2-year old, it's not so easy to stay as healthy as I once was. I am a spoiled mother. My kid sleeps through the night (and has since 3 months old) so in the rare occasion that he is up all night because he feels yucky, I stay up and I think that is what kills my immune system. This past Saturday night my boy caught a cold. He slept only for a few hours Saturday night and only wanted... Mon, 10 Oct 2011 23:34:57 EST "Regular" Push-Ups I do them, 10-15 at one time. My goal is 20. Yesterday at the gym a sweet older man came up to me and was impressed that I was doing "regular" push-ups. I totally took it as compliment but when I make the comment to others, the first thing out of their mouths is. He's probably a creep who was hitting on you. I hate to say this, but it bugs the heck out of me when people do that. <BR> <BR> OK, rant over. Thank you for listening :) Thu, 29 Sep 2011 22:34:00 EST Father's Day...Healing After Growing Up Without One So I grew up father-less, resentful, and confused. My "father" was a wife-beater who physically hurt my mother, my siblings, and myself. We were "taken" away from him by my mother's family (I don't know if she was not strong enough to leave him and do it on her own, or if she was just too scared to leave). <BR> <BR> I always wanted a father though, and I didn't feel anything towards the one who hurt me so much. But, I did hurt when my friends, cousins and other people had "daddies" who sat ... Mon, 20 Jun 2011 13:34:56 EST It's Been A While... since I've been active on SP. I've been busy, but who hasn't, right? <BR> <BR> So here is my "What I haven't done in a month" list: <BR> <BR> * Didn't go to the gym <BR> <BR> * Didn't eat clean <BR> <BR> * Didn't drink water <BR> <BR> * Didn't make right food choices <BR> <BR> * Didn't do any type of physical activity <BR> <BR> * Didn't get enough sleep at night <BR> <BR> <BR> Luckily, I didn't gain much weight. When I went back to the gym this past Monday, I over did it. I was so s... Sun, 5 Jun 2011 00:52:56 EST My Vacation to the Mexican Riviera (with pics) At the end of February the whole family (minus the kiddos) went on a Mexican Riviera cruise. IT WAS SO MUCH FUN!!! The weather could have been better, but we didn't let that stop us. This was the reason I originally began my transformation and weight loss journey. My goal was to be at 125 lbs by that time and I was 1 pound shy of reaching that goal. I would call that a success. So, here are some pictures of my trip. Enjoy! <BR> <BR> The pictures begin on day 2 of our trip. I forgot to inser... Wed, 6 Apr 2011 02:24:02 EST Pump It! I've been gone for all too long it seems. I've slacked off, I've overeaten and my weight loss has come to a halt. I had no energy nor motivation to get me out and active. But yesterday (Friday) I tackled the gym first thing in the morning. I did my 20 minutes of HIT and felt absolutely awesome! It was leg day and when I was done, my legs were like noodles. I cannot describe what that feeling does to me. It empowers me. <BR> <BR> After I did my weight training, I did crunches on the exercise... Sun, 3 Apr 2011 01:50:43 EST Busy Busy Busy, Makes Me Feel Guilty I've been so busy this month that I feel guilty for not interacting with my Spark buddies as much as you've all interacted with me. I also feel guilty because I have not been doing good when it comes making the right food choices and drinking my 64 oz of water. I know that if I were doing all those things mentioned I would have more energy and more motivation, instead, I'm tired and sleepy all the time. <BR> <BR> Anyways, I lost another 2 lbs this week which I'm excited about but I'm a litt... Mon, 14 Feb 2011 22:14:47 EST Real Life Motivator? Me? Really? What a busy week this has been for me. With starting school and all, I've hardly had time to connect with my Spark friends or log on to SparkPeople long enough to get past spinning the wheel. <BR> <BR> I really wanted to share how excited and motivated I am regardless of how busy and short of time I feel. In the past two weeks I've had several people come up to me and ask me what I've been doing to lose weight, others to ask for specific workout routines, and others to ask about my eating... Sat, 22 Jan 2011 18:20:22 EST I'M IN THE 120's !! I was so excited after weighing in this morning, I weighed in at 129. I cannot begin to describe the excitement and motivation seeing those numbers has given me. I have not weighed close to that since I was in about the 7th grade, that's over 15 years ago! <BR> <BR> If anyone told me 5 months ago that I could accomplish this I would not believe it. I have always had a hard time with food. I can exercise consistently, but I have such a hard time consistently eating within calorie range or h... Mon, 10 Jan 2011 19:36:35 EST Dear Family : Make Up Your Minds Already!!! So the holidays have come and gone (thank goodness by the way!!!) and I can't help but laugh at how crazy my family is. I love them to death but sometimes they drive me nuts. <BR> <BR> We (sisters and brothers) always get together for birthdays and holidays. We are a total of 12 siblings and I am kid #11. Back before I started my weight loss journey they always commented on my weight (which I don't get because if you saw my sibs you would realize they have no room to talk). We would get tog... Wed, 5 Jan 2011 01:22:45 EST 2011 Starting Stats - Revised In my previous blog, I posted my year ending stats. I normally weigh in and take my measurements on Mondays so I used last Mondays stats. Thinking about it, I am going to be using today's weigh in and measurements as my starting stats. It just makes sense to me. So here are my revised starting stats for 2011. <BR> <BR> Weight : 130.8 lbs <BR> Neck: 12.5 <BR> Arms : 10.25 in <BR> Chest : 37 in <BR> Waist : 34.5 in <BR> Thighs: 21.5 in <BR> Calf: 13.75 in <BR> BMI: 24.7 (normal) <BR> Body F... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 01:05:48 EST 2010 Recap (Picture Heavy) Ok, so when I started sparking it was mid August. 2010 is over now and a new year always brings new things. This year, I will go on my first cruise, hopefully start a technical training, but most importantly, I really want to tone up. That is my goal for 2011. <BR> <BR> This is how 2010 ended for me: <BR> <BR> Weight : 132.4 lbs <BR> Neck: 12.5 <BR> Arms : 10.25 in <BR> Chest : 37 in <BR> Waist : 35 in <BR> Thighs: 21.5 in <BR> Calf: 14 in <BR> Body Fat : 31%... Sun, 2 Jan 2011 13:12:27 EST Update...Quickie I've slacked on getting on SP. I became a little over confident and tried doing it on my own. Not ready for that yet. For the first time since I began my journey, I gained almost a pound. Felt yucky but I almostk new it would happen. Anyways, I'm wearing a size 8 now and squeezed into a 7 yesterday and fit a little snug but it buttoned up, with just a tiny bit of muffin top so I will give them a few more weeks before I "dub" them official everyday jeans. I'm very happy where I am and I am loo... Mon, 6 Dec 2010 23:31:07 EST Lost I've lost my vision. I am no longer motivated. I am losing weight each week, ounces actually not pounds. I am eating within calorie range but the quality is so poor. I am researching training routines...actually I am receiving training routine articles from my personal trainer, who by the way is very "passionate". Sometimes, not in a good way. Did I mention my personal trainer is my husband? Yeah, that makes it ten times harder. I feel like I am... no, like he wants me to follow his routine. ... Fri, 12 Nov 2010 01:41:20 EST October Recap, November Goals I had a good October, despite realizing I am a slacker when it comes to all the goals I had set up for my self. I'm new at setting goals, I've never done this. I think for November, I am going to focus my attention on my priorities, which are weight loss, and nutrition. I have been spending so much time on the internet that I have neglected family and friends (IRL). So, here is a recap of: <BR> <BR> OCTOBER GOALS: <BR> * Allow GOD to take control of my weight loss journey...STILL WORKING ON ... Wed, 3 Nov 2010 13:43:14 EST Bad Dreams...A Daily Thing Now I've been having bad dreams for several weeks now, almost daily. They involve 2 deceased family members and 1 who is thousands of miles away. They are always in pain and dying. It's like re-living the painful events all over again...every night. I wake up in the middle of the night and stay awake for hours. I am tired, and sad, and a little angry at life. I am miserable and it's affecting me on a daily basis. <BR> <BR> Wed, 27 Oct 2010 01:12:16 EST Where Has October Gone? One of my October goals was to blog at least once a week. Well, I didn't do that. I kept meaning to but I never did. I just don't feel like I have much to say although I do. Anyways, I am just so surprised there is only 1 more week left in October. It seems crazy. My boy will turn 8 in November and that seems crazy. Then there are 3 other family birthdays in November and there is also Thanksgiving, soon will come Christmas and the new year. I am not sure I am ready for it all. It just seems l... Sun, 24 Oct 2010 20:08:34 EST Knee Injury...Not Gonna Keep Me Down! Back when I was a sophomore in high school (2000) I was part of the school's basketball team. I was pretty good too. During one of our games I tore the cartilage in my right knee. We had no insurance at the time and so I never had surgery to fix the tear. It eventually healed, but not properly. I wasn't physically able to play basketball or any other sport for that matter after wards. I couldn't even run anymore without feeling pressure in my knee, which would then swell if I did do any type ... Sat, 9 Oct 2010 00:23:25 EST October Goals So I've been on SparkPeople for about 8 weeks now and I've lost almost 10 lbs. I started out so motivated and gradually lost more and more motivation. In the beginning I devoured every Spark article I could get my eyes on. Not so much anymore. I now realize that what really made a difference for me was being very active on SP. SO...I want to get back to the basics and to start it all off, I will create my very first "goals" blog. <BR> <BR> OCTOBER GOALS: <BR> <BR> * Allow GOD to take contr... Fri, 1 Oct 2010 20:19:48 EST Another Rough Week So here I go again with the excuses... <BR> <BR> I had another rough week, I ate unwisely, I was unmotivated to work out, I was unprepared, I was too tired, I think I hit a plateau, I had too much on my mind, my husband was finally home, I chose to engage in activities which only created stress, bills after bills in the mail this week...really, I could go on and on. <BR> <BR> So here, these are my excuses. I am leaving them on this page and I will not look back nor think of them any longer... Sat, 25 Sep 2010 00:46:48 EST Rough Week I had such a rough week and I am dreading weigh in on Monday. I feel so unmotivated and a bit like a failure and I'm trying to pick myself back up and get a fresh start again. Everything from several appointments, to getting a bad hair color, to not seeing my husband for 2 weeks now, to eating the wrong stuff and skipping meals. Didn't exercise consistently this week nor did I have any motivation to. Physical therapy for my knee is getting annoying and I just can't wait til it's over! Not to... Sat, 18 Sep 2010 21:01:31 EST 3 Weeks And Counting Yesterday was my 3rd weekly weigh in and to my surprise I shed another 2.6 lbs for a grand total of 6.6 lbs to date. I was ecstatic. It just does not seem true that I can really lose weight the "right" way...yet, I am doing it. At the same time I'm a little scared. Not really sure why. I'm just afraid this is all too good to be true. I'm really enjoying this journey though. I like my workouts, I love tracking what I eat and I just absolutely love SparkPeople. I don't think I could have done i... Wed, 8 Sep 2010 00:11:03 EST Excuses Excuses Excuses!! I'm all about them. I've used every single excuse imaginable to justify why I am still overweight. I have always been too busy, too tired, sick, in pain, taking care of the kids, didn't have time to cook a meal, or unmotivated to actually do something about it. The thought of having to cook healthy meals all the time seemed too hard and boring to keep up. And exercise, I've had a gym membership for over a year now and have yet to actually lose weight and keep it off. I want to lose weight, b... Fri, 20 Aug 2010 01:24:15 EST