JODAFEEN17's SparkPeople Blog JODAFEEN17's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Falling backwards... Sometimes I just don't get it...I sabotage myself at every turn, it seems, and I don't understand WHY I do that. I joined a weight loss challenge at work last month; I figured it'd be easy, hey, I was already losing weight, was heading below 190. But, as soon as I joined, I gained, yes, GAINED 10 pounds! What the heck is wrong with me? Everyone comments on my lunches, how healthy they are, and I walk all over the store, all day. Wearing the pedometer at work has shown me just how much I ... Fri, 22 Apr 2011 22:04:01 EST SparkPeople mentioned in the Molina Healthcare Newsletter*Fall 2010! Hi there, Sparkers! <BR> I finally opened my Molina healthcare newsletter, and there, on page 5, is a short article about Sparkpeople! I think it's great that the word is getting out, especially into the healthcare community. If more people paid attention to the their health and well-being, then the pharmaceutical companies would go broke, because most of our problems are diet related, and exercise related. We can make ourselves better by doing the simple things: <BR> <BR> Eat less, watch... Wed, 24 Nov 2010 23:11:01 EST Making changes After last month's fiasco, where I let myself go and gained back some of the weight I'd lost, I am happy to report that I am now losing the weight again. I had the opportunity to weigh myself during a study I'm participating in (a brain study...they're going to look see if I actually have one! <em>211</em> ) and discovered that I had lost 3 pounds since my last weigh-in at my doctor's office a couple weeks ago. It feels good to see some progress, so now I just have to keep up the momentum.... Tue, 16 Nov 2010 22:58:15 EST Starting over, yet again...square 1 is getting old Well, after my previous blog, I'm sad to say that all the bit of progress I'd made has gone *poof*. I have regained the weight, plus a little bit more, which is disheartening. I want to blame my work schedule, but deep down I know that's just another excuse. I want to blame the breakroom donuts on Fridays, but again, that's a copout. I think I just gave up. <BR> I have felt many pressures on me: starting counseling, which I guess has brought up a bunch of old, unresolved feelings; being d... Mon, 4 Oct 2010 20:34:22 EST Signs of progress! I just came back from the doctor's office for my quarterly checkup, got weighed, and was thrilled to see that the numbers are going down! It's not by much, but any progress is great, in my book. This gives me the added incentive and motivation to keep on doing what I'm doing, and doing more of it, such as walking and watching my portions. I am working on changing my mindset as well, so that I can have yogurt and cereal for breakfast, instead of my usual sausage and eggs, and not feel like ... Tue, 22 Jun 2010 12:21:13 EST Rather haves, part II Here's the "cut and paste" from Silverwitch's blog, and my answers: <BR> <BR> Gas Logs or Real Fire? Real fire, nothing like the satisfaction of making fire, and smelling the smoke. <BR> Money or Happiness? Happiness is paramount, but some money sure wouldn't hurt! <BR> Secure Job or Meaningful Job? Both would be ideal, but I'd take meaningful as being more satisfying on an emotional and spiritual level <BR> Blackberry or Paper Planner? Definitely paper. What happens if you lose your Bl... Mon, 8 Mar 2010 02:25:39 EST Inspiration from a tea tag The tea tag reads as follows: <BR> All human actions have one or more of these seven causes: chance, nature, compulsion, habit, reason, passion, and desire. (attributed to Aristotle) <BR> This got me to thinking about my own personal weight loss journey and how I've been approaching life in the process. <BR> Chance: was it chance that put that snack in my hand? No, it was volition. <BR> Nature: Is it in my nature to hurt myself? No. So why do I hurt myself by eating foods that are not goo... Mon, 11 Jan 2010 01:04:34 EST Using Janus as my guide Now that we're just about into January of 2010, I feel it's a great time to reflect on who Janus was. "Janus was an ancient king of Italy. He was a native of Thessaly, and some writers make him the son of Apollo, others say Coelus. He built the town of Janiculum. He is depicted with two faces because he was acquainted with the past and the future. He presided over highways, gates, and locks. His temple was always open in time of war, and closed when peace reigned." <BR> At the passing o... Thu, 31 Dec 2009 21:39:30 EST Being honest I was lying by not changing the ticker to show that I'd gained back 9 pounds, but today was the day I had to be truthful, not just to myself, but to my Spark family. This gain is a major setback for me, but I will just have to pick myself up and get back on the fitness bandwagon and lose this excess weight. Right now, it's been really hard to focus on doing any favorite is walking, and the weather's finally turning nice (read that "cool") enough to get out there, but because o... Sun, 6 Sep 2009 02:41:30 EST The Blame Game Lately, I've been blaming my boyfriend for my recent fall into bad habits, but I've come to realize that I am the one who's in charge of my body, and I'm using his being home all the time as an excuse to overeat and not do any exercise. So, that realization has snapped me back into conscious living. NO MORE BLAME! I control what I put into my mouth, and how much activity I participate in, and if he doesn't want to walk with me when I ask him, then I can take a walk by myself. I can probab... Thu, 11 Jun 2009 23:22:14 EST Losing and winning This is incredible, unbelievable (sorry for the redundancy...) but with seemingly little effort these days, I have lost another few pounds. I am ecstatic about this, as I have never been able to lose weight and keep it off before. I have usually sabotaged myself by now, so I do believe that the positive self-talk is helping me figure out the right things to do. Oh yes, I still eat my one donut a week, sometimes even two (darn meetings at work!), but I'm working them off. Now, if only I ca... Thu, 12 Feb 2009 10:17:43 EST A job at last! Hallelujah, I found a job! Woohoo! It's not the greatest job (working at Wal-mart) but at least I will have a steady paycheck coming in, and will be able to afford to live, so that's a great thing. I'm back to preparing healthier meals, now I have to ramp up my exercise (like, starting to exercise at ALL...) so I can drop off more of this weight. Spring will be a good time for me, as I'll be doing yard work, prepping the garden, and trying to figure out what I want to plant here in Albuqu... Tue, 6 Jan 2009 23:16:01 EST After Thanksgiving, before Christmas, just some thoughts After very slowly losing 25 pounds, I find myself stuck, emotionally and physically. We have just moved to Albuquerque (well, it's been since October) and desperately need to find jobs. I have no wardrobe suitable for office work, and have no money to buy clothes until I get a job! I have issues with my stupid feet (never kick an inanimate object while barefoot...this should be my mantra; and let's not forget bilateral plantar fasciitis and other assorted aches and pains) so wearing heels ... Sun, 7 Dec 2008 17:53:54 EST Keep on trying after a failure I need to remember that one failure, especially after a slight success, is NOT the end of the world. I can succeed in my goals; I have to give myself a break! Okay, so I lost some weight and promptly put it back on; that's okay. I'm making better choices in general. I need to focus on doing more physical stuff, exercise, walking. Now that I've found a pair of shoes that don't totally hurt my feet, I have no excuse NOT to walk! Sat, 27 Jan 2007 00:00:00 EST