JOANIE142's SparkPeople Blog JOANIE142's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community BUY ME SOME "COOKIES" I wasn't hungry - I had lunch with an old friend today. We had a long conversation to catch up on stuff and some of the stuff I had experienced was painful and caused me great anxiety. Talking about it left its residue it seems. After we parted ways, I went to Trader Joes to buy some coffee and see if the peanut butter I had bought was a recalled jar. It wasn't they told me so happily off I went to buy my coffee. While on that isle, I perused the cookies, looking here looking there. Oh,... Thu, 27 Sep 2012 20:36:46 EST I felt like eating last night Yesterday I had gone thru a learning curve with some computer information I was gathering. It feels so over my head most of the time. Well I made it through and got to the other side after researching and going into stores and talking to geniuses and technicians on the phone which was something. So now I'm relaxing and I'm wanting food. I'm wanting food the way I do when I want to over eat. I went to the kitchen and looked at food, all types and then realized-I didn't want to eat anythin... Wed, 26 Sep 2012 18:53:15 EST Working through depression I had horrible depression this whole week-end up until a little while ago today. I thought that I had to do something that I did not have to do. I finally confronted someone involved that put my fears to complete rest. Why I'm blogging is because this was one of those rare times that I couldn't eat. The other side to that is - so far, in the past, I wouldn't have been able to stop myself from binging. <BR> <BR> So really, SparkPeople give me the space to vent, all I want and I do use i... Mon, 24 Sep 2012 18:28:46 EST I GOT SO FRUSTRATED First off I just did a blog that I really felt good about and then I failed to post it, by accident! Story of stuff I do. Anyways, I felt like a failure - I ate wayyyyyyy too many calories yesterday when we went to the movies and then out to dinner. <BR> <BR> The good thing - I posted those calories - the bad thing - my weight jumped up immediately to what it was when I started SparkPeople about a week ago. <BR> <BR> You get the picture-My husband and I are doing SparkPeople together. ... Sun, 23 Sep 2012 14:13:27 EST I'm on a wonderful journey <em>213</em> <BR> I'm on a peaceful journey toward my goals. This week so far and I've lost a little bit more than a pound and a half. I'm feeling secure at least right now. If I conjure up anything I'll try and deal with it before it deals with me. <BR> <BR> All my life I've had this war with food and my emotions. Sparks People is the first place that I've ever seen break down all the necessary barriers that I need to accomplish my goal-to lose weight before it kills me, in a couple ... Tue, 18 Sep 2012 14:32:22 EST Fresh out of the starting gate! <em>192</em> <BR> I'm 62 years old tomorrow and I'm more than 100 lbs. over my goal weight. Now, I really don't like walking - but at this point - due to a surgery, I can't go swimming. I love the pool. I just recently joined the YMCA and bared all because I was embarrassed to put on a swim suit with strangers. One I looked at what strangers swam there, I put on my suit and loved it so much I take a class and then a couple more on the same day just to stay in the pool. <BR> <BR> I've... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 19:10:29 EST