JMOSESRN's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JMOSESRN JMOSESRN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I Believe in Magic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753349 After 44 years of soul searching, my husband has finally decided what he wants to be when he grows up. <BR> He has delivered newspapers, made pizza, run various cash registers, sold video rentals, worked in every major fast food outlet in the area, run and set up million dollar machines in the manufacturing industry, and I can't even remember what all else. And now we finally have our answer. <BR> Mr. J. S. Moses will soon be a published author. The fantasy novels he has been writ... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 02:24:48 EST Lost My Spark http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5697409 I literally, on the way home from work a little over a week ago, lost my spark. My precious spark tracker fell off somewhere in the woods as I was hurrying home after a 12 hour shift. I have retraced my steps numerous times, but it just seems to have vanished, <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> This came on the heels of a couple of pounds of unexpected weight regained, and a perfect storm of stressors at work and at home. I have cried and pouted and been thoroughly thrown off my "groove". I balked... Sun, 18 May 2014 03:07:56 EST On the importance of Using http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666700 I have struggled as my weight loss journey progressed with learning to take a compliment. My strategy ? Deflect. Its all thanks to my supportive family and friends. Couldn't have done it without SparkPeople. My Spark Activity tracker got me this far. These things are true. <BR> <BR> They, however are not the WHOLE truth. These deflections leave out the most important PART of the truth: the importance of using. <BR> <BR> No tracker will get me anywhere if I don't lace up my sn... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 16:48:11 EST Aaand She's Gone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5630688 I weighed 122 pounds on my wedding day. I look back at the pictures now and see that I was rail thin. But my self image at the time was terrible. Years of yo-yo dieting and low self esteem had taken their toll and I felt bloated and ugly no matter what others tried to tell me. It was a beautiful day though, and for a moment; when my husband first saw me in that gown and caught his breath, I felt like a Princess. <BR> Life happened fast after that. Always in financial crisis and my bea... Sat, 22 Feb 2014 09:05:24 EST The Story So Far http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5604158 A look at my weight loss experience Fri, 24 Jan 2014 08:57:03 EST Distortion Dilema http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5590175 At 199 pounds I still have 40-50 pounds to lose before I reach my goal weight. I have no doubt that I can and will reach my goal. I have already lost well over a hundred pounds so its just a matter of putting in the time and effort. <BR> <BR> So, here's where the dilemma comes in. I don't have an accurate view of my own body. I know now that I NEVER have. When I was first married and weighed just over 120 I worried that my wedding dress would show how "fat" I was. And now, when I t... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 11:30:30 EST If We Make it Through December... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5557681 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/9/l998027189.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My husband likes to bring up the lyrics of that old country song that our Moms used to hum when times got tough. If we make it through December...Everything's gonna be alright.... <BR> <BR> This time of year, amidst all the celebrating can be hard for some of us. At a time when we are expected to be singing and spreading joy, many are feeling the effects of Seasonal Depression starting in as the days grow shorter... Thu, 5 Dec 2013 14:28:21 EST The Long Explore http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5542535 I have reaped a wonderful and unexpected benefit in my journey to fitness. Being outside walking hiking and climbing my way to a hundred pound loss has led me to a new familiarity with the nearby woods and back roads. I have been able to see and experience the beauty of the Vermont landscape and have developed a profound respect and appreciation for this little town at the base of the mountain. <BR> <BR> Glorious sunrise <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1461318303.jpg... Sat, 16 Nov 2013 09:19:31 EST New Heights - New Beginnings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5531624 <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/3/l637358918.jpg"> <BR> <BR> November marks the start of "Phase 2" of my fitness program. <BR> <BR> I am down more than 100 pounds. I am 50 pounds from my goal weight. I have developed the habit of walking every day. The coming cold weather and snow will be a challenge, but one that I am ready to meet. I will continue to work on consuming plenty of water, and trimming back on red meat, salt, and refined sugar. And I intend to focu... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 08:06:04 EST Halloween, Goal Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5528393 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1426390689.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Well at 107.4 pounds lost, I came in 2.6 pounds shy of my inital weight loss goal. But I'm shaking it off and setting my sights on the coming year. 50 pounds to go. Wish me luck ! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/7/l674681668.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1068445618.jpg"> Thu, 31 Oct 2013 13:11:07 EST The hike home... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5499150 Not much to say this morning. I'm tired and need to get to bed. I just wanted to share the beauty I encountered on my hike home from work this morning.... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1026784948.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/1/l615493575.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1066729138.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Have a wonderful day... Sun, 29 Sep 2013 09:26:48 EST One AMAZING Year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5489132 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1043705779.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Today is a special day for me. A year ago today, I started on my weight loss journey. In one year I have lost 102 pounds. That I was able to do that was surprising enough. What was far MORE surprising was what I gained. I gained strength. I can lift, pull, push, carry so much more than I could a year ago. I gained confidence. I smile in my pictures now. I don't try and fade into the background. I gained kno... Wed, 18 Sep 2013 10:03:00 EST A Happy Milestone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5431262 Even though I'm working tonight, and even though it's been a pretty terrible week. I'm smiling. I just broke the 90 pound mark. In fact, I've lost just over 91 pounds ! It feels so good to be so close to losing 100 pounds. Every ten pound milestone boasts my spirits and keeps me moving forward. Thank you SparkPeople and SparkFriends for another small victory. <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1325426214.jpg"> Wed, 24 Jul 2013 00:37:20 EST 9 Months of Learning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5393698 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/9/l399552465.jpg"> <BR> Today marks 9 months of working towards my fitness goals. I have learned SO much along the way. <BR> <BR> - I have learned that you don't need to eat until you are full; only until you are not hungry. <BR> <BR> - I have learned to love low fat, low calorie snacks like strawberries and snap peas <BR> <BR> - I have learned that a portion size is not what McDonalds or Denny's would have you believe. <BR> <BR> - I have ... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 18:05:12 EST A very GOOD day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5382964 My son Stephen graduated from high-school this morning. And my husband posted this picture of us on his Facebook wall.. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l16672355.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is one of the responses he got... <BR> <BR> "Where's your wife? Oh there she is! Jesus Christ. The great Janet Moses meltdown. FML. I wanted to congratulate your son. But Jesus look at your wife man!!! Lol" <BR> <BR> Forgive my shameless vanity, but that just made my day. <em>33... Sun, 9 Jun 2013 00:05:04 EST Eighty Baby ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5371237 As of last night's weigh in I am down 80 pounds. I'm really starting to feel like this is doable. I might actually lose this weight.... It's a damned good feeling... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/9/l291726934.jpg"> <BR> <BR> And here I am getting into my old "comfy pants" <em>334</em> Wed, 29 May 2013 09:04:07 EST Weight Loss and the Lottery http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5303560 Recently overheard in a conversation at work: " You always talk about winning powerball, but you never even buy a ticket " <BR> <BR> <em>3</em> <BR> <BR> In the past I often talked about my fantasy of winning Powerball and being thin and healthy in the same breath. As if they carried the same odds. And at that point I suppose they did. Because although I usually remembered to buy my Power ball ticket, I never realized I could buy my weight loss ticket as well. And now that I've bough... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 18:18:52 EST Six Month Milestone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5291766 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1897528971.jpg"> <BR> <BR> While I created my account several years ago on SparkPeople; today marked six months of healthy living with the help of this site. I have tracked my food every day. I have cut back on fat and stayed within the recommended calorie range. I have switched from white bread to whole grain. I have switched to skim milk and healthy cereals. I now view treats as treats rather than a food group. I am drinking more water... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 23:05:46 EST Cheers ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5255686 So I had this big long depressing blog post written, and my computer ate it. Perhaps I should take a hint and try to be a tad less gloomy.... <BR> <BR> The tail end of winter gets me down the way it drags. But it's not forever. Spring will come in just a little while. And while I do need to do better with my exercise, I have improved my water intake and tracking. And I am still losing weight. I recently celebrated the milestone of reaching the halfway point to my goal. I've lost more than 5... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 03:13:20 EST January in Review http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231097 So now we've arrived at the end of the month. <BR> I survived another round of Strep. <BR> My middle son was accepted to the college of his choice <BR> We've had some of the coldest weather I've ever experienced <BR> I'm continuing to track EVERYTHING I eat <BR> Both cars broke down <BR> I broke the 50lb weight loss mark ! <BR> I have not been tracking my exercise or water consistently. <BR> <BR> So the agenda for February is - meet my halfway point of 55lb. Do better with tracking ... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 01:07:07 EST A little under four months.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5203640 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1812120591.jpg">. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/3/l836777149.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I finally bought myself clothes that fit my changing body. I'm down two sizes ! I just need to remind myself when I feel like going back to eating the way that I used to that this IS working and it IS worth it. Sat, 12 Jan 2013 13:08:28 EST Snowed in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5181182 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1394783394.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I sincerely wish i felt the way my daughter does about the snow. We've been getting snow off and on since Christmas Eve. so pretty on the trees and mountains. Not so lovely on the roads and driveways. I think someday I shall be fabulously wealthy and just travel from place to place following the best weather.... Sun, 30 Dec 2012 17:48:56 EST Action Plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5179874 res·o·lu·tion  (rz-lshn) <BR> n. <BR> 1. The state or quality of being resolute; firm determination. <BR> 2. A resolving to do something. <BR> 3. A course of action determined or decided on. <BR> <BR> The time of year has come again for talk of New Years' Resolutions. But I have learned that resolving simply to "lose weight" isn't enough. I've resolved every year for twenty years or more to lose this weight and it climbed steadily upward each year. This year I have resolved to create and sti... Sat, 29 Dec 2012 13:16:15 EST Holiday Blur http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5177294 I haven't posted in a while. The last couple of weeks have been a blur of work and Holiday preperations and a few days of being very very sick. <BR> The winter weather has put a real damper on my walking. I am going to need to get very creative with my excersize these next couple of months. I lack the space and privace to do as much with the workout videos as I'd like. <BR> I have found that resistance bands are portable and challenging. I'll be relying quite a bit on them thi... Thu, 27 Dec 2012 02:33:37 EST KrisMouse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5165744 Brrrrr..... Cold cold walk this evening with the kids. It's so encouraging to notice as we're walking that the hills are far less challenging than they were not so long ago. We got hot cocoa and did some caroling... even bought a cute new ornament for the tree. I'm still working on thawing out, but it was worth it. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1198601388.jpg"> Thu, 13 Dec 2012 18:38:51 EST Perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5156664 So I was sitting here getting ready to beat myself up for eating what I shouldn't. Ready to drown in guilt and self loathing over food again. Then I stopped, and simply held myself accountable by typing what I'd eaten into my food tracker... and I gained some major perspective. <BR> <BR> My big sin ? Half of a small piece of cheesecake made with fresh fruit and fat free topping and ONE chocolate chip cookie with ice-water instead of milk. So did I consume late-night calories I didn't nee... Wed, 5 Dec 2012 02:17:07 EST One Winter's Night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5150137 It is a bitter-cold night out and the wind won't leave the hood of my jacket on, but the full moon is breathtaking. Here in Vermont we have just a dusting of snow. Enough to make everything festive, without compromising the footing for my moonlight walks. Working the night shift affords me the chance to enjoy moments like this that I would otherwise sleep through. My nose is red and the tops of my ears are frozen, but it's worth it... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 02:41:50 EST Note the name change... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5142717 I just changed my name on Spark people from JMosesLPN to JMosesRN. Because I passed my NCLEX !!!!!! Oh happy day ! <BR> <em>104</em> <BR> I took the test yesterday morning after being awake all night with nerves. Got home and crashed for a few hours and headed in to work for my 12hr night shift. It was weigh in night and I was overjoyed to find I had hit that 30 pound mark. I have lost 30 pounds so far ! It made waiting for my results easier knowing I had met that goal. <BR> <BR> I ... Wed, 21 Nov 2012 15:40:55 EST juggling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5140020 It's a balancing act this week. Trying to take advantage of time to be with my family. Trying to stay on track with fitness and nutrition. Fighting the never ending battle of clutter and laundry. And the count down to tomorrow morning means STUDY STUDY STUDY. It's downright exhausting. I took a break late last evening to meet my husband at the store where he works. I hadn't gotten my daily walk in yet, so I figured what the heck ? My big splurge of the day consisted of two chicken wings ... Mon, 19 Nov 2012 06:10:09 EST Excitement, Happiness, and STRESS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5138899 What an emotionally wild time this is for me. I have FINALLY saved enough money and gotten all the paperwork where it needed to be to be able to take my NCLEX exam for my RN. I should have taken it right after graduation but there was always one more thing that had to be done first. And another and another. Now it's six months out and I'm terrified that I've forgotten everything. Studying my buns off though. I test Tuesday morning. <BR> <BR> Took a break from the studying today to go hiki... Sun, 18 Nov 2012 00:02:37 EST Still Exploring http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5133259 So I worked my 12 hour overnight, came home and spent a little time with my husband, and CRASHED. I was afraid I would end up sleeping my whole day off, but woke up with an hour or so of daylight left. Yay !!! <BR> <BR> My oldest son Logan and I set off on a hike and discovered some land nearby that's for sale. I WANT IT! Powerball dream.... Bordered by forest trails. So pretty. We followed a path up the hillside back towards our apartment complex. Quite steep... good cardio. lol <BR> ... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 20:41:15 EST Still Here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5132218 We're heading into the middle of November and I'm still with it. I'm staying on track with my calorie count. I'm exploring new healthy foods and recipes. Finding ways to cut fat and calories and boost nutrition. Still walking and exploring new routes and destinations. I'm adding new exercises to my repitior. I'm not only proud, but I'm surprising myself.... <BR> I've lost 27 pounds so far. At this week's weigh in on Tuesday night I'm really hoping to break that 30 pound mark. I'l... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 02:57:30 EST Feeling it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5125819 I'm really feeling as if I've made a permanent lifestyle change here. I survived a Halloween that was dragged out for nearly a week by the wild weather and managed to stay in my calorie range. It has become no-big-deal to walk the mile and a half to our local convenience store with the kids. It wasn't that long ago that walking across the driveway to check the mail was a trip I avoided.... These are huge changes for me. I've found healthy snacks I enjoy. I'm thinking about my healthy hab... Tue, 6 Nov 2012 07:30:34 EST Victory in the Dark http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5122061 So... the day got away from me a bit. I got called in to work the overnight. In the morning there were bills to pay and costumes to get ready for the kids Halloween party this weekend. I finally lay down for a nap before my 5k, and by the time I woke up it was dark. I was dissapointed and angry for a bit... and then thought.... screw this. That's what flashlights are for. so I rounded up any willing participants in my family ( two of my sons) and headed out for our First Annual Moonlight... Sat, 3 Nov 2012 00:10:16 EST YESSSSS !!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5118522 Tonight's weigh in has me walking on air. I had hoped to hit the 20lb loss mark by tonight and I actually overshot it by nearly 4lb. I was just getting ready to be discouraged... starting to feel like I was losing momentum. Apparently not. I may develop shoulder strain from patting myself on the back. <BR> <em>185</em> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1412809762.jpg"> Tue, 30 Oct 2012 23:31:35 EST Sweating it... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5109467 So tonight is weigh-in night... <BR> and each week I stress over it more and more. <BR> I weigh myself on the machine at work for consistency/accuracy. <BR> As the time to step on the scale gets closer I reflect on the previous week and wonder how each decision will affect my number. <BR> Did I burn enough calories on those hikes to bring my weight down ? <BR> Did I build muscle, and will that bring my number up ? <BR> I know I should be focusing on how I feel over all and not just ... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 06:37:54 EST I could go on for miles... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5107509 I guess the beautiful weather yesterday after weeks of rain got to me. I overdid things a bit and between two seperate hikes I logged about 8 miles. My youngest and I hiked through the graveyard and the woods and back around through town to meet my husband at work. Then late in the evening the boys and I made a 3 mile store run in the dark for a new twist on our adventuring. Wouldn't have missed it, but OH MAN am I sore! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/0/l9039227... Sun, 21 Oct 2012 19:56:21 EST The Leaves are Changing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5103247 .... And so am I. I'm finally taking steps to take my NCLEX and get my RN license. I'm finally motivated to make the changes I need to make in my life. I'm eating better and moving more and it hasn't magically solved my every problem but I feel BETTER about myself. I'm proud of how far I've come. I'm finally able to tap into that stubborn streak for my own benefit. Of course that doesn't mean I'm not scared half out of my mind of failing..... Wish me luck ! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://p... Thu, 18 Oct 2012 01:31:47 EST Ups-n-Downs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5098204 I have ups and I have downs. Friday was an up day, Saturday... not so much. I think my oldest daughter heading back to college had me down. And the steady stream of company she had over her vacation left our house in dissaray... I've found that a messy house really affects my mood. That's been one advantage of my health initiative though. I've kept my house looking nicer because cleaning keeps me busy and out of the fridge ! I agreed to work a couple of extra days and that put me in a sou... Sun, 14 Oct 2012 00:52:44 EST Positively positive... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5095981 So now I'm down 14 pounds. It feels like I've come so far these past few weeks. I've discovered new foods that I can enjoy guilt free. I tried a recipe that I found on SP for pumpkin muffins and my entire family was impressed. I've spent so much time outdoors, walking, hiking, and exploring. I think that beyond the health benefits this has done wonders for my emotional well being. I'm making memories with my kids. That alone is worth every minute. Just a terribly positive" keep moving ... Fri, 12 Oct 2012 01:27:21 EST Sick but not defeated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5091911 I had my doubts about accomplishing much of anything physical with this head-cold, so I started this morning with a 10 minute walk. I figured that way I was guilt free, even if that was all I accomplished. My oldest is home from college with her boyfriend and it's been so nice to have all five kids home at once. On a whim, my middle son, Stephen-Van, decided we should hike to the resevior. This time we took HIS route directly up the hill through the woods, instead of up the mountain road. W... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 21:34:36 EST Harvest http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5089559 I took my oldest son and my youngest daughter to our local Harvest Festival yesterday. Tons and tons of walking, which great for staying on track. Despite all of the tempting food choices, I only indulged in a small amount of Maple Cotton Candy and a shared cider donut. At the end of the day I was still well within calorie range. Yay me ! Between Friday's hike and the hours of walking around town yesterday, everything from my belly-button down is on fire... My walk today is apt to be a sh... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 00:36:50 EST Another Victory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5088607 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/5/l451759096.jpg"> <BR> <BR> So yesterday I conquered that trail.... It may not seem like much to someone more physically fit than me, but it was a half hour up-hill climb to get to the top. Once there we cooled down a bit by walking the path around the reservoir and taking pictures.before heading back down. My little girl hiked it with me and we saw a wooly-bear catipillar and some interesting bugs, a whole flock of geese and some very... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 03:44:51 EST 5k Goal... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5087061 So, I signed up for the Trick-or-Treat 5k. I haven't walked that far in a LONG time. This should be very interesting. I've been walking every day for at least ten minutes. I'm trying to look past the amount of work involved, and concentrate on the sense of accomplishment I'll feel when I finish. I've surprised myself with how painless this process has been so far. <BR> <BR> Time to take it up a notch <em>186</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/2/l... Thu, 4 Oct 2012 20:36:55 EST 11 pounds and a brighter outlook http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5084862 Two weeks in and I'm down 11 pounds all together. It's so encouraging to see real progress. Being under 300 is a HUGE relief. My amazing husband bought me a food scale this morning so I can keep better track of my portions. I am enjoying feeling hopeful for the first time in a very long time. Now if only this rotten rain would stop so I could tackle that hiking trail I've been eying... Wed, 3 Oct 2012 08:50:06 EST Self Esteem... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5082662 Most of the time I try not to give too much thought to how I look. I don't wear make-up or a of of jewelry. As long as my clothes are clean and fit and my hair is clean and brushed... I don't worry about it. But sometimes I get a glimpse of how heavy I am and it really gets me down. I want to feel good about my body and I want my family to be proud to be seen with me. It might even be nice for this old married lady to inspire a little jealousy... When I'm walking around in public nobody... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 18:43:20 EST It changes EVERYTHING http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5080162 I certainly don't want to jump the gun here. I know its been less than two weeks since I restarted my fitness goals. But it feels like so much has changed. I'm up and moving and I like it. My house looks neater. My organization at work is better. I'm feeling better about myself. I'm slowly getting my energy back. I don't want this to stop. <BR> Even when I had an off day and ate Mac Donalds food, I had one double cheeseburger and a small fries when I used to eat a large Big Mac meal... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 03:18:46 EST Lessons learned http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5079067 Well yesterday wasn't my best day on this fitness journey. The rain derailed my plans for a hike and things went downhill from there. I ended up getting very little physical activity in, and eating more than i really wanted to. From that I learned that I need a bad weather plan (winter is coming after all). I should probably have a sick-day plan as well. <BR> <BR> On a brighter note I learned that there are tons of trails around my house I haven't explored yet. It's hilly terrain so ... Sat, 29 Sep 2012 00:15:10 EST Building Momentum http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5076602 Discovering that I shed nearly 8 pounds in my first week of healthier eating was just the motivation I needed. I'm slowly adding exercise to the mix. I've discovered that I can get a 10 minute walk in during my break at work by just wandering the grounds at a fairly brisk pace. Makes the night go faster, helps me wake up a bit, and improves my mood. Tonight's adventure included an encounter with a teeny frog on the door, and a deer sighting. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeopl... Thu, 27 Sep 2012 02:53:02 EST Blue Sky Sunday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5071503 It's an absolutely beautiful day outside. The sun is shining; the leaves are turning; and the air is cool and crisp. These are the days that remind me why fall is my favorite time of year. I have been pleasantly surprised the last few days at how well I've done at staying within calorie range. I've no given up everything I enjoy, rather I have discovered that just a fraction of the portions I used to eat is enough to satisfy my cravings. And I have discovered healthy foods that can be ver... Sun, 23 Sep 2012 13:26:20 EST