JMEPAYNE's SparkPeople Blog JMEPAYNE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community *sigh* back from paradise. Pic Heavy Back from our week long vacay in the Carribean. US Virgin Islands to be more specific. St. Croix to be exact. We fell in love with the island and are already planning a return trip. Even though I ate and drank whatever I wanted... I lost a pound. I ate fresh caught Mahi-Mahi everyday... but drank quite a lot of juice and run and sugary coffee drinks, which isn't the norm for me. The drinking is where I thought the damage would be done. But we stayed active so it all worked out in the end! <B... Wed, 17 Apr 2013 13:18:41 EST mother nature... i shake my fist at you! seriously... i have lived in chicago long enough that I should know better than to expect things to warm up once march gets here. But there is just something magical about Springing Forward and finally having some daylight once I get home from work that just makes me want to get OUTSIDE! I want to go on hikes and long walks and jogging etc. I do not want to do an indoor workout. WANT. OUT. SIDE. <BR> <BR> of course... it's still cold and miserable outside. last week after work I took the d... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 12:45:12 EST time to kick it up a notch I've been doing fairly week for the few weeks since starting metformin. I'm down 5 pounds, which for some people not a bit deal- but honestly 5 pounds in 3 weeks is practically a record for me. I have been eating fairly well... i could do better. I have been relatively active- i could do better. <BR> <BR> My vacation is 26 days away. <BR> <BR> I need to do better! <BR> <BR> I am in between sizes at the moment... I want so much to be down to the smaller size before I leave April 6th. I h... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 17:15:32 EST 13 things i plan to do in 2013: 13 things i plan to do in 2013: <BR> <BR> 1. Do something I've never done before- once a month <BR> <BR> 2. try a new recipe at least once a month <BR> <BR> 3. have more married fun time with my husband <BR> <BR> 4. drop 2 sizes <BR> <BR> 5. find an awesome condo and move back to the city <BR> <BR> 6. experiment with veggies and incorporate more into my diet <BR> <BR> 7. find a routine that sticks without even thinking about it <BR> <BR> 8. wear my wedding dress on our 3rd anniversar... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 15:09:20 EST it's a miracle! or maybe it is medical science... <BR> <BR> whatever... <BR> <BR> but I started with Metformin on February 16th. as of today... I'm down just over 3 pounds. <BR> <BR> Um HELLO! I have never lost weight that quickly. like EVER. <BR> <BR> The thing is... I haven't really changed much of anything in the way of eating or working out with the exception of upping my steps about 2000 per day. <BR> <BR> I was doing well before, eating well, having a caloric deficit of 500-1000 calories and bei... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 11:43:45 EST amazeballs *new recipe* I tried out this recipe this weekend... it feels positively indulgent, but absolutely isn't. I eat mostly primal- but I'm okay with this small amount of sugar and flour. Pair it with some fresh berries or dark chocolate, or just have it by itself. <BR> it is fabulous cold- i think I prefer it this way. remnant of cheesecake... <BR> <BR><BR>eek-yogurt-souffle.html <BR> <BR> You can thank me later! <BR> Mon, 25 Feb 2013 16:29:18 EST i would walk 10,000 miles... er... steps! as part of my new plan I am working to get in 10,000 steps per day. This is no easy task when 1. you spend 8 hours a day chained to a computer 2. it is dark well before you get home and 3. it is 15 degrees and windy as heck outside. BUT... I have really been working on it. I've been walking laps around the office, taking the long route to the ladies room, taking the stairs, making more trips around the office instead of combining tasks into one trip, and sneaking out for a 10 minute walk arou... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 17:05:23 EST endocrinologist appt. Met with the endocrinologist today and with a nutritionist. Insulin Resistance was confirmed due to PCOS. They did a lot of blood work and my sugar was a bit high... on the edge of "pre-diabetic" NOT COOL! anyway... i have one more test to take, my Dr. wants to rule out Cushings Disease. But otherwise, I have a plan to move forward. <BR> basically i was told that with what I have, I have to work 4 times harder than a normal person to get any weight loss results at all. yay for me? *sigh* <... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 21:08:27 EST how much of a difference can you make in 60 days. First of all, I was due to visit the endocrinologist on Feb 1st. 2 hours before my appt. the office called and told me the Dr. had called in and he's out of the country- for the rest of the month. don't i wish that i could call in and say i'm out of the country. hmph! anyway- slightly annoyed over this but, I've been rescheduled for a different Doctor on Feb 14th. It's like 7 weeks from the time I called to make my first appointment. seriously. i am trying not to be annoyed- but c'mon! <BR> ... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 14:26:23 EST the winter darkness it is creeping in again. I've been feeling it the last few weeks. I'm no stranger to seasonal affective disorder, and I have a whole regimen to attempt to combat it. Sun therapy light is on right now as I type. Vitamin D supplement is swimming through my system. Yes lately, I've been feeling so lethargic and even a little sad. I look forward to that moment when I crawl into bed at night and abhor the mornings when I have to rise. I dream about warm crust bread and mounds of mashed potatoes. W... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 11:38:08 EST the plan During my annual check up with my girly dr. last week, we discussed a few issues I have been having with inability to drop weight. Ever since i got S.A.D. 2 winters ago and gained 25 pounds... I have bounced withing a 10 pound range. All above my Spark starting weight. when i first joined spark, i worked my butt off... started at 218 and after 8 months, i was down to about 205 0r 206 (once dipping to 202- but that never stuck) I worked out 5-6 days a week, followed my nutrition to a tee abou... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 22:46:40 EST new toy! I have been contemplating the purchase of a fitbit for a few months now... I mean, did I really need to spend the money on another fitness related purchase? I've got countless DVDs, dumbbells, a kettle bell, wii games and an elliptical. So, I was hesitant. But with the purchase of the elliptical, I found a renewed determination... also it helps that my hubs has hopped on it a time or two. I find myself competing with myself. "I did 3 miles last time, now I have to beat that." or "I went 20 mi... Tue, 13 Nov 2012 13:10:54 EST so much to do, so little time! *rambling* The past week or so has been rather hectic and stressful. Last week, our beloved car started making some noises. Now, let me just say... we bought our car a couple of years ago when we lived in the city proper. It was an older car but in great shape. Perfect since we 1. lived in the city, were scratches and dings were not just common, but inevitable. 2. we commuted on the train daily, so we used it mostly on weekends. sometimes, not at all. We moved to the suburbs last year and although we n... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 12:52:40 EST 10 day challenge If you aren't a member of the team... you should be! <BR> <BR><BR>s_individual.asp?gid=6229 <BR> <BR> I was just added as a co-leader so I can help get the group going again. <BR> We all have things we'd like to get better add... things we want to improve on. <BR> <BR> the 10 day challenge is geared toward concentrating on an activity during a 10 day period... recording where you started and seeing the progress at the end! It can be super motivat... Thu, 6 Sep 2012 17:45:09 EST chugging along Not much to really report here. I've been doing okay. Still trying to find my groove for workouts and meal planning. I feel like i've been SOOOO busy lately that I haven't been able to properly plan and put forth the effort I need to. I'm looking at my calendar and freaking out. I have TWO free weekend between now and the end of october. work is getting busy again and my end of year projects will start this next week and roll fast and furiously through the end of the year. I don't want to ge... Tue, 4 Sep 2012 16:50:28 EST Pre-work work out week 1 : Re-cap I'd say week 1 was a success. I didn't go Monday because I was sick... I didn't even go to work, so a pre-work workout wasn't happening. <BR> Tuesday- CHECK <BR> Wednesday-CHECK <BR> Thursday-CHECK <BR> Friday... well. Friday didn't happen. I turned off my workout alarm the night before. The hubs and I were up late... married fun time and then we talked. like about serious stuff. life stuff. why he couldn't just fall asleep like normal, i dunno LOL but with the clock pushing past midnight, I... Mon, 20 Aug 2012 14:29:57 EST First pre-work workout-check I set my alarm for 6:03 am (6am was just too hard) and surprisingly found myself awake a few minutes before my alarm sounded. I got up, got dressed, brushed my teeth, had a morning potty and was out the door. I chose something easy, a power walk through the neighborhood. I am getting over a cold that brought a lovely fever with it (which is why i started today... and not monday. I took a sick day yesterday) so i knew that jogging and quickly breathing in the unusually cool morning air probabl... Tue, 14 Aug 2012 11:59:19 EST I'm just not a pusher I really hate to admit it... but I've really come to realize that I'm just not a pusher. I have always been one of those people who never really had to try THAT hard. I've always been smart. I'm not bragging, because it's not because I studied my butt of and learned everything I possibly could... because I didn't. It's not something I actually earned, it's just how I was. I always excelled in school, without much effort. With the exception of math, which I hate, because it was hard and I act... Tue, 17 Jul 2012 17:23:44 EST a break and a plan for those of you not in the chicagoland area... the last couple of weeks have been H-O-T-T! (I added the extra T because the temps seriously should have been a 4 letter word!) it has been in the mid-high 90s or 100s and humid. you can just read that is muthafreakinmiserable! yeah, if I wanted to deal with this all summer, I'd have stayed in Texas. Anyway, with very few exceptions, the activity for the last couple of weeks has been indoor and minimal. our A/C was struggling to keep our place d... Mon, 9 Jul 2012 16:22:17 EST Chicagoland Dirty Girl 5K- Pics! Saturday my rockin' spark friends AmyJean and SLFrisbey joined forces with me to complete the Dirty Girl 5k! If you don't know what it is... basically it's a 5k full of obstacles, many of which make you dirty. It was extra hot (mid-high 90s) so there was some extra muddy water pits for us to army crawl through... I think about 6 in all. Additionally there was hay bales, a 10ft wall, tires, some strange wire and netting thing, a big dirty and SMELLY hill with ropes for climbing, some more stra... Mon, 2 Jul 2012 12:36:27 EST *shakes fist* it's summertime. and icecream is my kryptonite! <BR> <BR> *shakes fist* <BR> <BR> There's an amazing soft serve icecream shack down the street that everyone in town flocks to during the summer. It's awesome and amazing and awesome. did i mention amazing? yeah. that. <BR> <BR> I don't go often... once every couple of weeks. BUT... i crave it all the time during the summer. ALL THE TIME. my hubs picks some up from the store every now and then and it taunts me. <BR> <BR> I can kick the p... Sun, 24 Jun 2012 20:56:11 EST more trials with veggies as I posted in my last blog, I am trying out new veggie recipes and seeing if I can get some recipes that will stick... recipes that i don't have to choke down. <BR> <BR> I pan roasted some brussel sprouts that i'd seasoned with salt, pepper, garlic powder and onion powder in bacon grease and then crumbled the half of piece of bacon on top. my husband LOVED them. I gagged. twice. Brussel sprouts simply aren't going to happen for me. but i promised to make them for hubs once a week. he's h... Wed, 20 Jun 2012 22:16:42 EST omnomnomnom... adventure with veggies in case you haven't heard me mention this 238904720394023 times before, I have the palate of a 5 year old and hate most veggies. I force them down when I can but mostly I try and hide them and mask their flavors. I do realize that preparation is key and while i love to cook and i rock at it, I just don't know what to do to so many different veggies to make them edible for me. Since I'm eating on the Primal side of things, someone suggested to me BACON. um, who doesn't love bacon? so last nig... Mon, 18 Jun 2012 11:43:19 EST husband forced to guess weight, hilarity ensues. Last week, my husband decided we needed fishing licenses so that we could do some catch and release at a man made lake in our town. He likes fishing, I think it is important to embrace each other's hobbies, plus the lake is pretty, I get sun and vitamin D and my man is happy... WINS all around. Anyway, apparently in IL you just have to fill out some info online, pay some money and you can print out the fishing license. Rodney took care of all of that. That evening we were in the car and fish... Thu, 14 Jun 2012 17:34:04 EST Nuts, new plans and other ramblings First of all, I'm so obsessed with my nut mixes... seriously. I just picked up more nuts for this month's mix and DROOOL! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Raw almonds, cashews, walnuts, sunflower seeds, unsweetened coconut chips and dried sour cherries! This will easily last my all month if I just watch my portions, it's so easy to over do it. <BR> <BR> So, I've spent the last couple weeks really focusing on eating habits and getting in fitness ... Tue, 12 Jun 2012 13:30:31 EST mish-mashed thoughts and new healthy finds! Since my declaration of a summer challenge on the 1st I've been doing pretty well. PMS is raging at the moment... so I've been having ice cream daily, I keep the portions in check and it fits my nutrition. As of about 15 minutes ago, it's all gone, so we should be good. LOL Other than THAT... it's been going well considering the circumstances. <BR> I spent the weekend working on my garden... it was a few hours of hard work, I am still a bit sore. With all the physical labor going on I didn't... Mon, 4 Jun 2012 23:11:35 EST Summer Challenge- Time to GET REAL Ok, it's time to get real. <BR> <BR> Tuesday/Wednesday, I was really mad at the world when my pants were tight. I was frustrated beyond belief. Truth is, I had ZERO reason to be. <BR> I have been making half a$$ attempts for months now, actually over a YEAR, and I'm finally ready to admit it. <BR> Here's the thing: 2 years ago when I joined spark, I worked my butt off. 6+ months of 1000+ fitness minutes and eating well according all the spark advice. In those 6 months, i lost less than 1... Fri, 1 Jun 2012 14:09:19 EST confessional First of all, i'm totally on sodium detox this week. Friday was my birthday and i declared it a weekend of indulgences on things i haven't allowed myself in a while. Things like fresh homemade bread... which I never actually made or ate. But whatever. Friday, I allowed myself a bagel and cream cheese for breakfast. i savored every bite. it's been MONTHS since I've had one and it was wonderful. I ate super light for lunch since my husband was taking me out for a birthday dinner. We went to and... Tue, 29 May 2012 12:29:54 EST operation plank I mentioned in my last blog that I had a new book, women's health big book of 15 minute workouts. I picked a workout (a core workout for helping back pain) and went to work. <BR> First up, a 60 second forearm plank. The instructions noted that if you couldn't do a 60 second plank, do it in increments, like 10 second plank, rest 5 seconds, another 10 second plank, etc until you got in 60 seconds. I doubted I could do 60, but figure, I could just do two sets of 30 seconds. Oh, it's funny how ... Mon, 21 May 2012 16:11:27 EST it's like riding a bike... I joined spark a mere 2 months before hitting the big 3-0. I was terrified of turning 30 and I really wanted to get into the best shape of my life and rock my 30s. I did everything by the book. If i were someone else, I would have dropped 50 pounds and hit my goal. But, I'm me and now I know I'm insulin resistant and no matter what I do, unless I cut carbs to a minimum (under 100g), I won't drop anything. <BR> after dropping 7 pounds in a few weeks, i fell off the low carb wagon about 5 week... Sun, 20 May 2012 21:39:56 EST ARGH!!!! my lost blog I talked about helping my friend salvage some things from her condo after a fire... there was a lot of carrying heavy bins up and down stairs and shoving some furniture in a box into my car for her to use in our guest room. All of that put a horrible strain on my wrists and arms. My carpel tunnel syndrome was raging. In the past couple of weeks... work has been crazy busy. it all adds up. Friday, I hit a breaking point at work. I couldn't even lift my fingers to the keyboard with... Sun, 29 Apr 2012 22:26:19 EST what a week! I started out really ready to rock out this week. Started a crunch challenge with my sparkfriend Amy and decided on a workout plan. FF to tuesday night when i was crawling into bed and my husband mentioned that my BFF posted on Facebook that her condo building was on fire. we've been friends for 10 plus years, we were roommates a few years back and she still lived in the condo that was my first place when i moved to chicago nearly 6 years ago. she's like a sister to me. So, I was up outta bed... Sun, 15 Apr 2012 21:24:06 EST Great news! I keep forgetting to post my great news! I mentioned a while back in one of my blogs that my husband was being laid off. I was whining and having a pity party since we had to cancel our trip to Costa Rica that we had scheduled for May. (Though we did manage a road trip to visit my family in Texas and it was pretty awesome) Well, guess who starts a new job tomorrow??!?!? That's right! somehow the fates were on our side and miraculously my hubs got a new job less than a month and a half after ... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 14:18:33 EST wait... is this working? So, I've made it through a week and a half of cutting carbs and I'm down 3 pounds. Is this working? or is this a fluke? The only way to tell is to keep going. <BR> My goal is to keep my carbs under 100 (net carbs under 80). I've been doing ok. I've had probably 3 days where I haven't faired so well...but usually I am perfectly within my range with everything. This week has been harder... my mother in law and nephew have been visiting so meal planning hasn't been as easy. There have been a fe... Fri, 23 Mar 2012 16:44:48 EST rock bottom? yesterday, i had a break down. Never in my life have i broken down into tears because of my weight... until yesterday. embarrassingly enough, it happened right in front of my husband! I am at the highest weight of my life. <BR> In 2009 I joined spark at 218 lbs. I worked my @ss off for MONTHS... working out 5-6 days a week, following my caloric intake to a Tee. after 4 months, I hit 202.6, which i'm pretty sure was a fluke, because it was the one and only time i saw that number on the scale. ... Mon, 12 Mar 2012 11:33:33 EST it is a good day for a pity party. Today, I'm feeling super duper bummed. DH will officially be laid off on the 24th. He had a preliminary phone interview last week and was told he should expect to hear back friday or monday... he's still waiting for the call. I'm trying to be optomistic... but this has been the ONLY bite he's had in months of applying for other jobs in his field (he started looking around long before the news of the lay-off) There are still so many people out there fighting for jobs, and when you have a "spec... Mon, 13 Feb 2012 12:44:03 EST a bump in the road. 10 days ago my hubs found out that his position has been made redundant. His company was bought out and they took over January 1st, so we knew it was a possibility... but it sucks none the less. Sadly dozens of others lost their jobs as well, including his boss and childhood friend who has a baby coming in june. <BR> The really sucktastic part... the man brings in more than 60% of our household income. OUCH! he's still employed for 2 more weeks (though he's averaging about 30 minutes of work... Sun, 5 Feb 2012 16:23:58 EST i'm a dirty girl or at least i will be... come June 30th! <BR> <BR> Today, i signed up for the go dirty girl run! it's a muddy obstacle ridden 5k, w/ proceeds going to breast cancer research. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> My rocking spark friend AMYJEAN911 mentioned it and she'll be joining me in the race! SLFRISBEY, i'm counting on you too. i know where you live, girl :-) <BR> <BR> I've been dying to do one of these... but i've always had a date conflict with the events that have com... Wed, 18 Jan 2012 14:27:19 EST things are coming together 5 years ago, i was diagnosed with PCOS... a week and a half ago, i finally started researching it. yeah, i procrastinate a lot. A discussion with some friends about weight-loss and PCOS brought on my need for research. Everything I read was like LIGHT BULB. A majority of women diagnosed with PCOS are insulin resistant. I read all the sign, check, check, check. i had most of them. Without going into all the science... my body isn't burning off carbs. i eat them, if i don't burn them immediate... Mon, 16 Jan 2012 21:31:38 EST goals for 2012! Inspired by my sparkfriend BlairJ1, I've put together a list of goals for 2012. They aren't all spark related... mostly just becoming a better person all around. finding balance for my entire life. so, here goes! <BR> <BR> 2012: <BR> 1. Create a routine of healthy activity. Create a flexible schedule of what I want to do on which days, takes the decision out of it when the time comes to get my work-out on. <BR> 2. More veggies. Get creative with using veggies in meals; I’m like a 5 year o... Mon, 2 Jan 2012 16:22:08 EST Operation Costa Rica We originally booked a resort in Costa Rica for our honeymoon, May 2011. Of course, we then changed our wedding to August 2009… but kept our honeymoon as is. Come 2011, we had a lot on our plate, including having to move, so instead of stretching ourselves too thin, we postponed our trip until May 2012. Unless something devastating happens, god forbid, we are Costa Rica bound in just under 5 months! WOO-HOO! I’ve been putting together our official budget and researching what we plan to do whi... Wed, 7 Dec 2011 14:51:25 EST something has clicked I guess it only makes sense that you can't fix a problem unless you are aware that it exists. I've been working my way through this book "Why Weight" and for the first time in 31 years I realized that i am, in fact, an emotional eater. I always thought that meant you had to eat when sad or angry or whatever. Which, I don't do. Apparently though, I eat when I am bored. Mindless silly munching makes up for a significant portion of my daily calories! <BR> <BR> For the past couple of weeks I hav... Mon, 14 Nov 2011 17:53:39 EST something has clicked I guess it only makes sense that you can't fix a problem unless you are aware that it exists. I've been working my way through this book "Why Weight" and for the first time in 31 years I realized that i am, in fact, an emotional eater. I always thought that meant you had to eat when sad or angry or whatever. Which, I don't do. Apparently though, I eat when I am bored. Mindless silly munching makes up for a significant portion of my daily calories! <BR> <BR> For the past couple of weeks I hav... Mon, 14 Nov 2011 17:53:36 EST Prance and Pamper! the moment i’d been dreading for months finally happened last week. I was really dreading going to my girly doctor for my annual check-up… not because i think there are any issues with my lady parts, (we’re all good in that hood!) but because my doctor is just so great about politely pointing out any weight gain, and praising any weight loss. She is actually really nice and tactful about it… but no one wants to have their failure pointed out to them. <BR> <BR> So this week, i sucked it up a... Thu, 3 Nov 2011 16:11:20 EST back in the game I'm not sure what happened... perhaps it's been a forced 3 mile a day walk... but i *FINALLY* feel like i'm back in the game! <BR> <BR> I have started tracking calories again and will work on bringing my number down a bit. I've been rocking out w/my meal planning, which was one of my mini-goals i mentioned in my last blog and for that i bought myself a lovely little mini-reward! <BR> <BR> work is getting SUPER busy, but I've been granted access to do some after hours work from home (no sma... Mon, 3 Oct 2011 17:59:10 EST been putting off blogging... Since I moved to the burbs at the end of July, I have a commute that I hate but I know is good for me. As I mentioned, basically, it goes something like this... <BR> <BR> 0.6 mile walk to train station <BR> train ride downtown <BR> 0.8 mile walk from untion station to office. <BR> <BR> reverse and repeat for my commute home. <BR> <BR> 2.8 miles give or take a few tenths... <BR> <BR> basically, i'm coming just shy of walking (usually rather hurridly) 3 miles a day for my commute. I've ... Wed, 21 Sep 2011 17:24:29 EST 5k everyday? we've been in the new place for a week and a half and let me just say, i'm EXHAUSTED. Everyday there's something else to do. We're mostly unpacked, with the exception of all the decor around the house. We had originally planned on painting only the master bedroom and an accent wall in the living room, but when we picked up our keys we noticed that the walls had lots of scuffs and really needed to sprucing up. Come to find out, the old tenants told the landlord we were planning on painting so ... Wed, 10 Aug 2011 17:07:10 EST chugging along... The last week weeks I've been chugging along and doing pretty well. I weighed in last week (i think?) and even though it was TOM, I was down 2 pounds. On Friday morning, I was getting dressed for work and the hubs asked if I was losing weight... he mentioned my face looks thinner. I have a chubby face... always have, even when i've been thin. But when I gain weight, my face looks like i weigh about 100lbs more than i do, so that was certainly nice to hear. We went to dinner Friday night and t... Mon, 18 Jul 2011 13:29:35 EST my new strategy... I've been trying to figure out a way to make this stick this time around... I did so well last year, and then i just went off the deep end. Even before the Seasonal Affective Disorder hit, I was having a bit of a struggle. I'm pretty sure that it all started about the time I started to obsess over calories in, calories burned, scale readings, comparison to other sparkers. <BR> <BR> The thing is, I KNOW that no two people are the same, and I KNOW that for medical reason, I will lose more ... Thu, 30 Jun 2011 17:15:47 EST overboard I'm not even sure what happened... but I completely fell overboard. <BR> <BR> This winter was rough.. I got S.A.D. (seasonal affective disorder) and fought the depression for months... and gained 25 pounds along the way. The depression is gone... and I've made several valiant attempts to get back on the wagon, and I've failed repeatedly. I guess I just didn't care enough. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, the hubs and I were out walking with the dog... about a mile into the walk, my back started hurti... Mon, 27 Jun 2011 17:44:13 EST