JMARISK's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JMARISK JMARISK's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Happiness is Contagious--Spread the cooties! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826438 I had 6 women participate in my PiYo class today. They all loved the new routine. I had their limbs shaking by the end of the 45 minute workout. It truly is an awesome feeling, helping others achieve success. They're helping me too by keeping me accountable. <BR> <BR> I was feeling sluggish and crampy all morning. I wasn't that motivated to workout this afternoon, so I made myself go down a few minutes early to get my head in the game. That seemed to work. As soon as I walked into the gym,... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 13:46:56 EST Exhaustion Run Amuck http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825755 I'm sure you feel the same way I do today. Tired, exhausted, and a little heavier. The carbo overload from last week is definitely taking its toll on me today, my first day back to work. I feel like a slug. I can definitely feel the extra weight I packed on over the course of a week's stay-cation. I don't like it at all. <BR> <BR> I brought my gym bag into work. My goal is to get out on the trail today for a run at lunch. As the clock ticks down to noon, I find myself coming up with a lis... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 11:23:08 EST PiYo & Color Run http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5815591 So, as promised I am making some changes in my life. Today, I downgraded a few apps that were helping me run my Beachbody business, so I won't be paying for those services. I'm going to keep my Beachbody coach subscription so I can keep getting the shakes discounted, because they are helping me. But who knows, I might find something cheaper over the next few weeks. <BR> <BR> I just finished teaching my PiYo class. I had a lot of new people this week and it was great! They all walked in n... Wed, 12 Nov 2014 14:17:08 EST Back to Basics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5814092 I've been struggling for a month to stay active and stick to my clean-eating plan, so today, I'm going to focus on the basics. What does that mean? <BR> <BR> It means, spending some quality at the place where my journey truly began: Sparkpeople. <BR> <BR> I've been so focused on my Beachbody business that I haven't been able to focus on me or anyone else. I'm trying to prioritize my life, which as you all know, is ridiculously difficult. There are two areas in particular that I need to foc... Mon, 10 Nov 2014 09:21:45 EST I'm a Fitness Instructor!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794717 Say what?! <BR> <BR> That's right, I passed my PiYo certification class on Sunday and I am now an instructor at my gym! My gym director just announced to the class that I would be brought on as a new instructor. I am super excited. I don't think I've ever been this proud of myself. The birth of my son is up there but this is darn near close. <BR> <BR> When I started my journey 6 years ago, getting a fitness certification was never a consideration. I never thought I could do it; never thoug... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 14:07:57 EST PiYo Certification and Other Distrations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5790942 I just printed the manual for my PiYo Certification Course. I am super nervous, but excited. I think I'll do okay. I'm just worried that I won't be strong enough to make it throughout the day. It's a 9-5 class with a 30 minute lunch break. We have been warned to bring several pairs of workout clothes as we will be sweating a lot. Can't wait! I'll probably drop like 5 lbs. lol. <BR> <BR> As nervous as I am, I still plan on walking into that gym with confidence. I may not be the most athletic ... Thu, 2 Oct 2014 08:05:23 EST Day 19 of 21. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5787405 Today, I will make squash/quinoa soup. I've had to split the preparation over a day, which has worked out pretty well. Last night, I threw the acorn squash in the oven for an hour then waited for it to cool before peeling it and storing it in the fridge for later. Today, I'll throw is in the saucepan with the carrots, onion, garlic, and veggie broth (low-sodium, of course). When Matthew wakes from his nap, I'll throw it all in the blender. Viola! Dinner. <BR> <BR> My 21 Day Fix is almost o... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 13:20:10 EST Day 18 of 21 Day Fix http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5786838 Only a few more days left in my 21 day challenge. It's sad but exciting. Over the last 2 and half weeks I've lost 5lbs! That may not seem like a lot, but for someone with hypothyroidism that's huge! In January, I was 175lbs. Now, I'm 158lbs!! I finally busted my plateau and I'm looking forward to round 2. <BR> <BR> This round, I'll be ramping up the stakes by incorporating PiYo into my workout rotation. I'm so excited to become a PiYo fitness instructor. I talked to my gym manager yesterda... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 14:12:55 EST Race a 10K. CHECK. (Pictures) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5784539 <em>208</em> <BR> <BR> I ran my first 10K ever yesterday. It was amazing!! My friend Amy ran with me. Thank goodness. I never would have made it up that last hill without her pushing me on. My longest distance before yesterday was 5.6miles, so I really didn't know what to expect from my legs yesterday. <BR> <BR> We started the race slow, but then picked up to an 11minute mile pace at the 2 miles mark and kept it. We started to struggle at the turn around spot, probably because it was mos... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 07:14:48 EST Plateau Busted! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781486 I finally found a program to help me bust through my plateau and it's called the 21 Day Fix! I've been fighting since January to get from 175lbs to under 160, and now I'm 1lbs away! After 3 months of being in the 160s, I'm finally losing inches and pounds. <BR> <BR> The workouts are effective but not intense, great for the end of the day. It's the first DVD collection I've purchased that I'm actually excited to use. <BR> <BR> And the portion control containers keep me honest throughout th... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 08:50:46 EST Day 1 of 21 Day Fix http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5775973 So far so good! I did the 30 minute cardio Fix. That kicked my butt. I almost quit but it got easier once I got passed the 3rd round of exercises. It'll be easy to keep doing those because they're so enjoyable. I love that you can take it at your own pace and that there are rest intervals incorporated too for water. <BR> <BR> The containers have been pretty easy too. I'm glad I got the 21 Tally app to keep track of my containers throughout the day. That has definitely come in handy. <BR> <... Mon, 8 Sep 2014 15:56:50 EST August=Bust; September=Hope http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5773376 SO August was a bust. Between the concussion, going to Ireland, and then getting sick, nothing has gone according to plan. I sort of knew this would happen at some point. I knew that getting motivated to start running again after our trip would be difficult. But throughout the process I have continued to start positive and determined. <BR> <BR> That trend will continue in September. <BR> <BR> Starting Monday, I will be completely engrossed in my 21 Day Fix and 10k training. I've already s... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 13:32:54 EST Z-Pack is on Board. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772585 So what I thought were just horrible allergies turned out to be strep or something like strep--the nurse practitioner was reluctant to diagnose my condition. But she gave me a z-pack and told me to refrain from exercise for 4 days at least. I'm going to respect her wishes and lay back for a few days and hope this round of antibiotics works. <BR> <BR> My plan is to do a few PiYo workouts to help rebuild some muscle in my legs and core so that my runs next week aren't as torturous. They're s... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 11:14:40 EST Running Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5768805 I finally made it out at lunch! I started my run mentally prepared but my confidence quickly deteriorated between mile 1 and 2. UGH! I was running 5 miles just 4 weeks ago and now I'm struggling to run a 5k! <BR> <BR> I ended up walking most of my course, but as I continued I tried to desperately think if positives about the run: At least I'm out here, one step at a time, I ran 5 miles once and I can do it again, I'll get there, I can do this... <BR> <BR> My body is sore and not used to th... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 14:43:30 EST Finally Motivated, But Can't Do Anything About It. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5768081 This morning I put together my 21 Day Fix challenge material. I'm launching the team in less than 2 weeks! Putting the posts and tips together really helped throw the Spark to light my fires. I want to get out and run so bad but I didn't bring my gymbag into work today. I woke up feeling worse so decided to give my body time to recover from this sinus infection. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling better, now, though. All I want to do is GO! I'll try to do some PiYo tonight to get my body used to the exe... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 12:48:44 EST Making my own steam (Pictures from Ireland) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767189 It has been hard getting back into my training routine following vacation and a concussion. I was pumping myself up to get rolling with it this week but on Sunday my throat started to hurt. Oh BOY. I immediately started to take some antibiotics that we had in the house. The medicine has helped prevent the infection from getting bad, but I'm not getting any better either. <BR> <BR> Today I feel simply exhausted. My chest is also tight and I have a bit of a cough so working out is definitely... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 08:32:58 EST 21 Day Fix Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5765058 Ireland was fantastic! Hubs and I had a magical time, so much so that we're thinking of moving there. I'm actually amazed that I didn't gain that much weight while we were there, must have been all that walking. Still, my good eating habits have gone out the window and I have a 10k to run in 4 weeks! <BR> <BR> Anyone else struggling to get back into the swing after vacation? I'm starting a 21 day challenge group that will focus on portion control and committing to 30 minutes of exercise a d... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 16:39:52 EST Bon Voyage! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5754955 This will probably be my last post until I return from Ireland. I am so excited. It's starting to hit me, we're actually doing this. In two days, we'll be sleeping in a castle and taking long walks along the Cliffs of Moher! <BR> <BR> It's going to be an amazing experience, one for the books! I'm tapping my toes to the sound of traditional Irish music streaming from Pandora radio. IN a few days I'll be listening to the real thing at O'Conner's Pub in Doolin. This world is amazing and I thank... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 09:11:07 EST Two More Days Until Ireland! (Pic) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5754150 I'm excited, can't you tell? I'm also getting tired of sitting around waiting. <BR> <BR> My head feels much better. I haven't been working out, but last night I did go to the park with my son and kick the ball around in the heat. THat felt fantastic! I'm probably going to go to yoga class today, maybe go for a light run prior to just to warm up. I actually miss running, which is funny because I absolutely hate it when I'm doing it. lol <BR> <BR> I haven't weighed myself for a few days. I'm... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 07:43:47 EST PiYo Pause Button http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752924 I'm hitting the pause button on the PiYo Challenge. I really don't want to but doctor's orders. I'm still going to do the lighter sessions (18 minute upper and lower body workouts). I don't break a sweat with those but they keep me stretched out. <BR> <BR> I'm hating not being able to run. The weather has been perfect! That'll have to wait until I get back from Ireland. We leave Friday!!! Finally at long last, we'll be leaving! <BR> <BR> I'm excited, can't you tell? <BR> <BR> I may not be ... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 12:50:15 EST PiYo Day 24 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5749488 I was expecting my hip to start bothering me again last night, but the pain never came back. I guess the PiYo workout did its job and got it back into alignment. I was super impressed. <BR> <BR> Matthew fell asleep on my lap at 8pm, an hour before is usual bedtime. I told myself I would take advantage of the time by going to bed early, but I dind't. I stayed up and watched Extreme Weight Loss. I love that show. I went to bed at 10 and fell right to sleep. <BR> <BR> At 2am, Matthew started s... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 08:45:12 EST Piyo Day 23: Back on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5748975 Today I did Define Lower Body to get my hip stretched out. I think I pushed it a little too hard on my run yesterday. I followed that up with Hard Core on the Floor. That was amazing! It's 30 minutes of ab-burning hell. lol. But I never once thought that I couldn't complete finish it out. <BR> <BR> I'm so glad I have PiYo to pull out of my back pocket whenever I get a little sore. Before my workout I could barely put weight on my hip. Now I just feel a little twinge but it's bearable. I do a... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 13:20:00 EST PiYo, Day 22 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5748113 Honestly, I suffered this weekend. My good eating habits went out the window and I didn't do any of the PiYo workouts. Turns out, the medicine I started taking to start my cycle early did what it was supposed to do. That would explain why I was craving carbs like crazy throughout the weekend and felt so tired and unmotivated. It explains my behavior but it doesn't justify it. <BR> <BR> TOday it ends. I will be going out for a run with my friend. Hopefully we'll cram 5miles in today. I packe... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 10:03:56 EST PiYo, Day 18: Still Pushing it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5746144 It has been a bigger challenge staying on track during the 3rd week of PiYo, but I've been doing it! I only missed one day this week. Today I plan on playing catch up and going for a run. <BR> <BR> I did Define Lowerbody yesterday. I was soooo excited because I was noticing progress. There is one movement where you are in a tripod position (hands and one leg on the floor) and the hip of the raised leg rotates open. Sounds easy, but you have to do this while trying to keep equal weight on yo... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 06:46:31 EST PiYo Day 9: Milestone Achieved!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740165 Today, I ran 5miles!! That is the longest distance I have ever run in my life. It helped that the air was dry and I could breathe. I felt strong through most of the run. I even maintained an 11 minute/mile pace!! WHAT?! <BR> <em>312</em> <em>365</em> <BR> <BR> I feel like AWESOME-SAUCE! <BR> <BR> Tonight, I'm supposed to do Sweat, but maybe I'll do lower body instead to give my legs a good stretch. <BR> <BR> TOmorrow I'm running with my friend. We'll go a little slower. Then tomo... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 14:29:11 EST Day 7 PiYo: The Challenge is On! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5738398 Getting through the PiYo workouts because it's own challenge this weekend. I was sore from the Sweat video I did on Friday, so doing the lower body workout on Saturday and Upperbody on Sunday was a struggle. My son actually made me do lowerbody on Saturday. He pointed to the mat and said, "Mommy, Yoga!" He then picked up the mat and placed it in front of the TV. I love him. Yesterday my friend, Caitlin, came over to try PiYo out. She loved it and will probably be ordering it when the weather... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 07:41:55 EST Day 3 PiYo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735140 Yesterday's lower body PiYo workout was awesome! I didn't feel like I was overexerting myself during the workout but I was still working up a sweat. After the 18 minute workout my legs were shaking and heavy, so I know I was doing it right. Throughout the day and night though I started feeling the worout in other parts of my body, like my pesky obliques! I can never get to those but I felt them last night and I'm feeling it today. <BR> <BR> I've also noticed a difference in my flexibility. I... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 08:10:49 EST Day2 PiYo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5734508 Last night I completed day 1 of the PiYo challenge pack, Align. It was a 40 minute tutorial of the moves they use during the program and how to do them properly. There are some moves that look easy but are going to take some practice. I can't wait until I master them all! <BR> <BR> I was proud of myself for doing Align last night. It was so late and I was so tired. But then I went on my group challenge page on Facebook and looked at all the people posting about successfully completing Alig... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 11:27:38 EST Day 1 PiYo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5733547 Alright, so the World Cup Challenge was kind of a bust. It lasted about 2 weeks though so I'm not going ot beat myself up. Now it's time for the 60-day PiYo Challenge! <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1239216810.jpg"> <BR> <BR> In an effort to keep myself on track this time I signed up to become a Beach Body Coach! I am super excited about this new venture. i was a little hesitant at first because I'll be selling stuff again but, unlike the Tastefully Simple products, I can... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 06:54:55 EST Day 21 World Cup Challenge: It's a Flop http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5730495 USA is going home. That's okay. That game was a total flop, not unlike my World CUp Challenge effort. I've been inconsistent working out at home, but my gym routine/running routine has been spot on. Go me! <BR> <BR> My mom called me yesterday to let me know that my PiYo pack has arrived. I'm super excited and have made my July fitness calenday based on the recommended workout order. To be honest, the calendar looks a little daunting. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/1/l... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 11:03:16 EST Day 19 World Cup Challenge: Shot off target http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5728855 I'm scared to jump on the scale today. I don't know if I even will despite the fact that it is my weigh-in day. Hubby and I went to Philadelphia on Friday. That was the start of a weekend binge. We ate at a Brazilian steakhouse. I did pretty good there but it was still a lot of food and it triggered a 2500 calories a day streak. <BR> <BR> BUT I put my head back on this morning and I'm ready to get to work again. <BR> <BR> It's amazing how different I feel after gaining 4-5lbs. To think I... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 08:09:01 EST Day 12 WCC: Breaking Records! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724889 I just completed a 4.25 mile run in 45 minutes!!! WHAT?! The last time I ran that distance--2 years ago-- it took me over an hour to complete. <BR> <BR> Today, I completed week 8, day 3 of my 10k trainer. <BR> I went out a little earlier than usual to beat the heat. That tactic didn't work so well for me. It was still hotter than hell and most of the run was a struggle. My pace in general was good. I started at an 11 minute pace, but after 15 minutes of running I had warmed up to a 9:30 p... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 12:49:26 EST Day 7: World Cup Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5721413 Today has been a struggle to keep myself on track, but I'm doing it because I'm totally worth the fight! <BR> <BR> Thursday is technically a running day but I just didn't have the energy for it. I didn't have the energy for anything but I made myself go to the gym. I had no gameplan in mind, except to do SOMETHING! I was going to go for a leisurely walk and then come back and stetch, but there were a couple of guys in the gym doing their he-man workout and I decided to join them. I'm pretty ... Thu, 19 Jun 2014 13:05:57 EST NSV http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5717977 Sometimes I'll subconsciously play with the fat behind my knees when they're bent. But today there was nothing to grab! I can't remember the last time I felt back there. It couldn't have been too long ago. Anyway, doesn't matter. It's gone and I'm happy! <BR> <BR> I'm also noticing more definition in my tummy. I'm starting to get a little "v"! I'll try to post pictures tomorrow. <BR> <BR> Also I'm proud of myself for sticking with my World Cup Challemge. I'm on day 3 and I'm feeling great!... Sat, 14 Jun 2014 17:28:03 EST World Cup Challenge! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716288 Okay, so in all honesty I'm not a huge soccer fan. I can watch it, play it, enjoy it but I won't die if I can't get on a field. My husband on the other hand is bouncing off the walls waiting for the opening ceremony to begin in a few hours. I don't think he got any sleep last night, he's like a little kid the night before Christmas. It's so cute. <BR> <BR> Over the next 32 days my husband is going t obe extremely pre-occupied. Therefore I am taking this opportunity to start a habit I've bee... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 08:01:57 EST Took a few days off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715513 I haven't been to the gym or gone for a run since last week. I had a wonderful weekend with my family though, going downtown to do touristy stuff on Sunday and watching my husband play his championship soccer tournament on Saturday. But on Monday, I woke up and felt aweful. For those of you who have private messaged me asking if I'm pregnant, I can confidently say now that I am not--if you know what I mean... <BR> <BR> I was weak, dizzy and nearly collapsed while getting ready for work. I... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 08:00:01 EST It's picture time! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5711065 I've been promising these pictures for a few weeks. I took them a few weeks ago when I was 165lbs, but the following week I ballooned to 170. I dind't want to post them then because I felt like I'd be false advertising my progress. <BR> <BR> BUT this morning, I weighed in at 166lbs! WHAT?! I weighed 170lb 2 days ago! It probably had to do with all the water I've been drinking. My doctor suggested that I drink Miralax for a week to get my system back on track. It's working and it's making me... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 07:20:28 EST It's Time to Confess http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5710289 I went to the doctor yesterday to figure out why I've been so tired and having issues with my digestive system. She ran bloodwork to see if my medicine needs to be adjusted. I'll get those results in a few days. At one point she asked me if I'm getting enough sleep. I totally lied and said, "Oh yes, plenty." <BR> <BR> I need to be honest with myself though, because I haven't been getting enough sleep lately and according to my doctor and a ton of articles on SP, not enough sleep can slow you... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 07:18:31 EST System is off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5708644 The last few weeks my system has been off. I don't know why. I've been really good with my nutrition and working out consistently. It's weird. Maybe my medicine is off. I'm going to call the doc today and see about getting my blood tested. I've read that synthroid and coumadin can make you consipated at times. Taking them together is a double wammy. I hate, hate, hate taking laxitives. My mom is dependent on them and I refuse to go down that path, but I had to take one on Friday. It helped ... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 07:14:30 EST My run sucked, so...let's celebrate! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5705295 I went for a run at lunch today. Man, is it humid! I don't perform well in heat and it showed in the numbers today. I was so frustrated with my time: 2.7miles in 30 minutes. I couldn't believe I was only averaging an 11 or 12 minute mile when lately I've been busting out 9:30 minute/mile pace. It was a struggle. <BR> <BR> After my run I went to yoga. That felt good. <BR> <BR> I could easily start to beat myself over my overall performance today, but instead I'm going to give myself props... Wed, 28 May 2014 14:30:30 EST My "Happy" Weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5700561 Today's SparkCoach lesson is how to determine your goal weight. The big take away is to find a weight that you feel happy with, not a weight that is dictated by a number range (i.e., BMI or BF %). This lesson in particular spoke to me because I'm the skinnest and heathiest I've ever been in possibly my entire life, not including the 6 months during my freshman year of college when I was anorexic and drop to 139lbs--but that wasn't a healthy skinny. Yet, I'm still not at my designated goal w... Thu, 22 May 2014 08:31:09 EST The Positive SnowBall Effect http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699735 It's been awhile since I paid myself a complement. Intially, I was only going to pay myself 1 complement during this blog but, during my hour-long commute into work this morning, a barrage of complements came whistling towards me one after the other. It was odd, yet totally refreshing. <BR> <BR> It starts with one: "Good job, Jhana. You managed to lose all the weight you gained in April." <BR> <BR> Then comes another: "You're making great strides to improve yourself inside and out." <BR> ... Wed, 21 May 2014 07:11:50 EST Making Internal Changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5698216 My therapist gave me a homework assignment a few weeks ago to purchase a workbook on self-esteem. This struck me as odd since I don't think I have a self-esteem issue. When I told her that she suggested that I pick a workbook that speaks to me. So, I was surprised when the workbook that appealed to me was , "Don't Sweat the Small Stuff" by Richard Carlson. According to the intial questionaire, I am pretty laid back but when it comes to certain aspects of my life I can throw things way out ... Mon, 19 May 2014 09:02:13 EST Stopping the Flat Spin http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5684086 The last few weeks have been trouble. My routine was compromised when I transition into a new position at work. I mentally prepared to be thrown off my routine but it didn't matter because I still fell into a flat spin off the wagon. As a result, I've gained nearly 5lbs in 3 weeks. I realize this isn't a huge number but given how long it took me to get it off, it might as well be 20lbs. <BR> <BR> The extra weight is noticeable at least by me. My clothes are tighter and I just feel BIGGER.... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 13:49:50 EST Trying to refocus http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5677173 I'm so disappointed with myself. I'm almost back upt o 170lbs. I worked so hard to get under 170 and now I'm heading back there again. I know it's the holidays but it's no excuse. I'm just full of excuses. <BR> <BR> I'm going to see my life coach tomorrow for a little emergency session. She's good about keeping me focused. There's just so much going on in my life right now, so many changes that I havent' been able to focus on myself. I need to break thiss pattern so I can get back on trac... Mon, 21 Apr 2014 14:57:06 EST I want smaller arms http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5672052 Inches are coming off all over my body, except my arms. My arms have never been attractive in my opinion. They've always been big, except when I was riding horses several times a week. i've been working on my arms lately and I've noticed more definition but I still feel uncomfortable in short sleeves. Like today, I'm wearing a shirt that is squeezing the crap out of my upper arms. It's annoying. I keep checking to make sure my bra straps are up and they are, it's just these pesky sleeves! <BR... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 13:25:56 EST New job, new routine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667099 I started a new job yesterday. It's only temporary but it could become permanent. I'm workingin the same office but different division. The pace is a lot quicker so my Sparking maybe a little more infrequent. I barely made it to the gym yesterday. I don't think I'll get there today because of training. Wednesday I'm definitely hitting it the gym though. My boss is so nice. I feel so lucky to have been given this opportunity. The next week or two is going to be stressful trying to reinvent my... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 06:58:27 EST Hormone-Induced Rant, of Sorts (Sorry, guys) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660751 I am in such a weird place right now. I'm feeling motivated but sluggish. I'm discouraged by my appearance today. I feel like a boy in my baggy jeans and flannel shirt. I'm still between sizes and feel like I'm getting bigger, but the scale has only gone up 1 or 2 pounds. Maybe it's the lingering winter blues or maybe it's because I'm getting close to my time of the month. I always get this way a week or so before, but I read in Runners Magazine that this is normal for female runners. Usual... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 10:45:48 EST Thank Goodness for Dreams http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5657583 Last night I had a dream that I was working as a mentor for at-risk youth. It was a beatiful spring or summer day and we were all outside having a picnic or something. Then, two of the kids began to fist fight, one of which was a young woman with an enormous about of rage and energy built up. I separated her from the pack and told her to run around the perimeter of the play fields to burn up that energy. She verbally fought me on it, telling me it was stupid, but I simply told her to "follow... Thu, 27 Mar 2014 07:48:33 EST It's PepTalk Time! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5657078 Today has been hard, I don't know why. I'm eating well and working out, but still, I keep battling negative thoughts. Yesterday, as I finished week 4, day 3 of my bridge to 10k program, I kept thinking, "How am I ever going to run a 10k when I can barely run a 5k?" I didn't enterain that thought for too long. I fought back with "that's what you said 3 years ago when you started training for your 5k, and you've run 3 of them!" It seems daunting now, but it will get easier and as long as I keep... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 13:55:29 EST