JLSWEBER's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JLSWEBER JLSWEBER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I Will NOT QUIT!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4985028 I Will NOT Quit!!! <BR> Tuesday July 24, 2012 <BR> <BR> Share and spread the Spark! <BR> <BR> Today, I promise I will not quit. <BR> I pledge that no matter, how many ups and downs I pass through, I will continue on my journey. <BR> I pledge to make a NEW START today, and forgive myself for my past, and to stop being so critical of myself. <BR> I pledge to take control of myself, to stop making excuses, and stop blaming other people or situations. <BR> I pledge to treat myself as I would my... Tue, 24 Jul 2012 15:07:29 EST Back again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4985022 Yep. <BR> <BR> I kept myself honest on my tracker even though I really, really am ashamed of how poorly I ate the last few days. It's frightening looking at it in Black/White...but in a good way. I mean that is how I was eating ALL THE TIME. At least now, I'm back to trying and not beating myself up for having bad days. <BR> <BR> Onward... Tue, 24 Jul 2012 15:04:14 EST 5 pounds lost...a lifetime of bad habits left to shed... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4977800 Why do I crave such random food items at random hours? I'm not even hungry but I WANT. <BR> <BR> Two nights ago, all I could think about were the fish sticks in the chest freezer downstairs. And I mean at 3 in the morning. I wanted the damn fish sticks! Thankfully, I fell asleep convincing myself I don't need nor want them, but it was trying. I couldn't get them out of my mind. <BR> <BR> Last night the same thing...I remember my husband had a leftover fish taco in the fridge. It was my obse... Thu, 19 Jul 2012 13:00:22 EST Day 2: Still in a funk, but... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4975177 I weighed myself today and I'm down 3 pounds from when I visited my doctor last Wednesday. This is encouraging. <BR> <BR> My doctor is really straight forward with me..."so what happen to your losing weight?" Sigh...because I've gained in the last few months and she called me out on it. I know what to do but haven't been trying. I can't even say I've failed because I don't even give myself the start I need. <BR> <BR> I checked my sheet of vital stats when I got home later and realized that ... Tue, 17 Jul 2012 20:54:28 EST DAY ONE STARTS IMMEDIATELY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4973354 <BR> Yesterday was a Very. Bad. Day. <BR> <BR> 1. One year anniversary of the death of my husband's mom. &#8234; <BR> 2. Husband passed out while driving home from a nice dinner. &#8234; <BR> 3. Car accident. Hit a tree. Husband passed out didn't know anything happened <BR> 4. Mama's Car. Likely totaled. <BR> 5. Twisted my ankle. Have NO IDEA how I wasn't more injured. &#8234; <BR> 6. Spent 7 hours at the ER with Husband who had EKG, CatScan, Chest X-Ray, Breathing Treatments, Blood/Urine... Mon, 16 Jul 2012 19:08:51 EST