JILLYBEAN25's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JILLYBEAN25 JILLYBEAN25's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Uncertainty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6168471 Uncertainty is an uncomfortable place to be. I'm experiencing a lot of that right now. And I'm very overwhelmed by it. I have faith that eventually everything will be worked out, but in the meantime... <BR> <BR> There are two big things on my mind right now. One of them has finally been made a public announcement and that is that my cousin and her husband will be leaving our church in the middle of July. Her husband is a pastor at our church. But, the way our church was established was that ... Mon, 23 May 2016 01:01:16 EST Granny http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6160531 I cannot tell you how ecstatic I am that I survived last week... and today's workday. <BR> <BR> Before I launch into that whole clusterf*ck, a quick note about my last blog. Not that I've had time to think about it, because I really haven't, I will say that despite my best efforts at convincing myself it's okay, I'm still quite self-conscious about posting anything "negative" or about any kind of ailment I may or may not be suffering from (none lately, so yay!) on Facebook. I experienced one... Wed, 11 May 2016 02:34:11 EST Self-Conscious http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6152569 Okay, well, April is pretty much wrapping itself up. I can't say that any more positive changes have occurred since last I posted a blog. I guess the best thing that's happened is that my mom has slooooooooowly improved in her moods. It's only really been more noticeable within the last few days, though, so it wasn't early enough in the month for me to get away with taking the car to the gym. <BR> <BR> I've been kept pretty busy this month and May will look to be about as busy, too. Things s... Fri, 29 Apr 2016 02:51:08 EST Okay, April. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6134868 Alright. Well, my March didn't really turn around in the last days of the month. And so far my April is starting on shaky ground. The day after Easter I started exhibiting the first symptoms of the dreaded stomach flu. Initially I thought I was suffering some sort of indigestion, as it was mostly stomach pain and nausea. By the next morning: BOOM. Totally obvious that it was stomach flu. Remarkably, I didn't really feel "bad" per se. I didn't feel fatigued or achy or anything you'd associate ... Mon, 4 Apr 2016 15:38:20 EST So Over Smarch http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6129060 Well... March is almost at a wrap. To say I'm disappointed with how this month has gone would be a severe understatement. Just overall, March was a rough month. REALLY rough. <BR> <BR> My mom's moods have been pretty dismal lately. And as I'm the one that is closest to her, I get to bear the brunt of the negativity. Sharing a car with her downright f***ing sucks. I was so happy to get a new reliable car so that I could continue my daily life without worrying about the safety of myself, my mo... Mon, 28 Mar 2016 02:34:04 EST Lousy Smarch Weather http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6116510 We're 10 days into March. This month is not going very well for me. <BR> <BR> I'll start with my mauling story, as referenced in my status update. I'll do my best to recall it. It happened fast (although my brain was registering it really slow) and there was a significant amount of confusion associated with it. The perpetrator of my mauling was my cat Kyle. I was in my living room, having just gotten home from cleaning day at work. I had an envelope in my hand, whose contents I was completel... Fri, 11 Mar 2016 02:17:42 EST February Recap Thingy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6109546 Alright, let us take a look back at the month of February. See how I did. See what I didn't do, so I can learn and improve for March. <BR> <BR> I literally made a decision on February 1st to just get moving. No plan, no excuses- get to the gym and just DO. So, I did! I've pretty much kept it to a short walk or ... um... whatever on either the treadmill or the elliptical. Keep it cross trainin' yo! I didn't do too shabby when it came to exercise. I made it to the gym at least 2 days out of an... Wed, 2 Mar 2016 14:20:27 EST Coming Up ROSES! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6103401 My head smells FABULOUS! <BR> <BR> My sister-in-law gave me a few samples of shampoo and conditioner that smell like roses. Oh. My. Goodness. I love the smell. I love real floral scents (not the faux, perfumey "floral" smells). This stuff smells like someone took some rose petals and smeared it all over my skull. Bonus the shampoo/conditioner won't make me break out into hives like a real rose would. <BR> <BR> Anyhow, we're only a few short days away from the end of the month. I guess now ... Wed, 24 Feb 2016 00:18:57 EST Feb Starts Fab http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6091946 Okay, so we're a little more than a week into February. Starting on the 1st I made the decision to just start DOING. Even in 9 days I've had my struggles and my failures. But, I'm still trying and still staying positive. And I'm planning to keep on keeping on! <BR> <BR> I'm not going to go my usual route this time, at least right now. I may employ my old goal-setting tactics when I feel myself start to falter, but for now, I'm just trying to keep it simple. <BR> <BR> <em>315</em> Exercis... Tue, 9 Feb 2016 14:50:34 EST Back to n00b http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6079140 Alright, January is just about ready to wrap up. I have more or less kicked the bronchitis to the curb, although I am still experiencing a few lingering symptoms. Mostly some mild coughing and phlegmy things, so I'm wondering if another round of something (antibiotics?) is needed to get it fully gone. It's also about time for an iron boost, so I've got some chicken livers thawing in the fridge. It has to be done! <BR> <BR> But, since I am feeling better and things are moving right along in l... Mon, 25 Jan 2016 20:54:57 EST Bronchial Betrayal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6068082 Well, ain't that some sh!t. Bronchitis. I've been battling this since just after Thanksgiving. Started with a bad sinus infection that traveled downward to my lower respiratory area. I did a round of antibiotics, my guess is it didn't quite knock it all out. Have I really gotten so used to feeling like crap all the time thanks to my asthma that I don't recognize when the crappiness is a little "differenty"? Probably, since I've mostly functioned as normally as possible through it. Well, I've ... Tue, 12 Jan 2016 23:27:35 EST Do What You Can for as Long as You Can http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6059458 Alrighty, so we're finally into a new year! I think most people have a new year/fresh slate sort of mindset when it comes to new years, but I never seem to. It's always felt like just another day, a continuation of whatever is already going on- just as Monday runs into Tuesday runs into Wednesday. I don't feel like that is a bad thing at all. I like it, in fact. It doesn't have any expectations or pressure. It follows the same mindset I've always had on this health journey of mine. There is n... Sun, 3 Jan 2016 22:52:53 EST So Dry... So, So Dry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6045704 My December hasn't exactly started off stellar. I woke up last Friday in the wee hours of the still-dark morn with a brutal sore throat. I mean it was amazing to go to sleep feeling a-okay and wake up a few hours later totally unable to swallow my own saliva. I drank down some cold water thinking maybe my throat was horrifically dry. Nope. That pain stayed. I couldn't even believe it. And soon it turned into a raging sinus infection complete with goopy lungs. Since I got sick on a Friday, the... Fri, 11 Dec 2015 02:35:07 EST 30 Days of Thankful- Day 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6040310 The final day of thankfulness for this round. I mean, I hope to practice being thankful for the rest of my time on earth. But, for my November blog series that I do every year, this will be the last. <BR> <BR> Today I am thankful for SparkPeople. This journey toward whatever my goals are- weight loss, improved health, fitness, whatever... it's not a straight line. Sometimes it's not even a line that goes in one forward direction. Right now it seems my line has doubled back on itself and exte... Mon, 30 Nov 2015 22:15:48 EST 30 Days of Thankful- Days 26-29 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6039712 Day 26 <BR> Today I am thankful for my crazy family! We had a nice Thanksgiving together. Dinner was held at my cousin's house, so we jammed about 25 people into that little condo! It was actually cold outside, too, which was pretty awesome and amazing. Except I forgot to bring a jacket. I cooked the turkey (or my mom did, really), the dressing (made regular and oyster), roasted veggies (I used a homegrown eggplant from my friend's yard, a few parsnips, sweet potatoes, white potatoes, beets, ... Sun, 29 Nov 2015 22:23:29 EST 30 Days of Thankful- Days 22-25 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6037744 Day 22 <BR> Today I am thankful for my church. There may things that are said and done in my church that I don't necessarily agree with, mostly because I'm a liberal progressive and pretty much all the churches here are conservative traditional. But, the people who attend my church have the biggest hearts. They don't judge and they don't spend their time trying to "convert" you. They just show you love and respect and that's amazing! This Sunday we had a joint event with the baptist church ac... Wed, 25 Nov 2015 14:05:09 EST 30 Days of Thankful- Days 18-21 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6035868 Day 18 <BR> Today I am thankful for my job(s). I mean, really for really reals. Not only has getting this job been an answer to a prayer allowing for a little more cash flow into my empty pockets, but it's also part-time and pretty flexible when needed to be so that I can continue with school (which I'm planning for next fall) and taking care of my family. On top of that, the people there aren't jerks and everyone is very understanding and supportive of when issues come up. For example, being... Sat, 21 Nov 2015 21:19:13 EST 30 Days of Thankful- Days 15-17 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6033985 Day 15 <BR> Today I am thankful for what I call "Border Livin'". I'm sure I've mentioned before that I live a few short miles away from the US-Mexican border. There are cultural aspects about that that are really sucktastic (like subjugation of women thanks to Mexican male machismo culture or high drug activity or gang activity that spills over here), as well as environmental things (lax standards across the border affect us over here, namely factory air pollution, unrefined gasoline in vehic... Wed, 18 Nov 2015 02:12:15 EST 30 Days of Thankful- Days 11-14 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6032317 Day 11 <BR> This should be fairly obvious. I'm thankful for our veterans! My grandpa and great uncles all served at some point. Great Uncle Cy and Great Uncle George served in the 40's and my grandpa, as the youngest brother, served in the 50's. I have many friends and family members that have served recently, from Afghanistan to Iraq. My preference, of course, is to not have a need to go to war. But, I'm thankful for those that have fought so that I can enjoy my life's freedoms today. <BR> ... Sun, 15 Nov 2015 01:14:52 EST 30 Days of Thankful- Day 10 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6030065 Today I am thankful for modern medicine. Believe me, I try to turn to natural remedies or "suffer through for the greater good" stuff if and when I can to help heal my body. But, my asthma and allergies are no joke, and sorry, no amount of essential oils, healing herb tinctures, or rain dances with focused meditation is going to open up my tight-as-a-crab's-ass airways. I take 3 asthma medications and 1 allergy medication. I also do immunotherapy for my allergies in the form of a weekly shot.... Tue, 10 Nov 2015 20:52:51 EST 30 Days of Thankful- Day 9 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6029601 Today I am thankful for gummy vitamins. Truthfully, I'm not really sure if these gummy vites actually have any vitamins in them. But, I don't take them to get my full daily value of vitamins and minerals, either. I take them to make up any potential deficit my diet may have had for that day. I take a women's formula multi, so it's vitamins, minerals, and especially, a little touch of calcium in them. Supposedly. Anyway, I have a difficult time taking regular pill vitamins. My stomach just doe... Tue, 10 Nov 2015 01:42:29 EST 30 Days of Thankful- Days 5-8 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6029035 Well, I'm a little behind on my thankful posts, but I am thinking about what I'm thankful for. I'm just not writing it down. But, now I am. I've been delayed thanks to a big project and some so-so health. I'm sitting here typing this with kleenex jammed up my nose (just like in my previous photo). My asthma and allergies are both raging because I ran out of one of my medications. Turns out the rx is up, too, so I can't get a renewal until I see my doc. Which, I already have an appointment for... Mon, 9 Nov 2015 01:42:27 EST 30 Days of Thankful- Day 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6026803 This one may be pretty obvious. I'm very thankful for Kleenex. I go through it like it's going out of style. My allergies are just the absolute suck. For the last two or three days, we've been having some pretty wicked wind blow consistently. A week or two prior it would blow on and off. The upside is that it's cooled it down and dried out the bit of humidity we had. And I mean the temperature outside right now is RIDICULOUSLY beautiful! Alas, the wind keeps me indoors. This area gets pretty ... Wed, 4 Nov 2015 18:55:45 EST 30 Days of Thankful- Days 1-3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6026018 I do this every year all through the month of November, although I should truthfully be practicing it daily all year long. I'm starting late this year due to a few things, but now more than ever I need to focus on the things that I am thankful for. <BR> <BR> Day 1- Reliable Transportation <BR> Today I am very, VERY thankful to have a new car. For so long I drove a car that was barely hanging on by a thread. I was pretty sure it was only bird droppings acting as the glue that kept the car as... Tue, 3 Nov 2015 12:26:33 EST Retreats and Allergies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6019661 I think I'm more or less recovered from my long weekend. It was every bit as busy, fun, and fulfilling as I thought it would be. <BR> <BR> In the weeks leading up to the party, the four of us organizers were busy little bees. I was elbow-deep in crafting something special for the women to take home with them. I found this awesome product, thanks to Threadbanger, that is basically some fabric with a stiff backing that you peel off. You can run it through your printer and print whatever you wa... Fri, 23 Oct 2015 01:58:39 EST Yup http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6001561 It's been a bit since I last updated. I just don't feel like I have much to talk about. <BR> <BR> I am now officially the “cleaning lady” at YFC and the Wednesday office gal. It still only amounts to about 10 hours a week in work, but it's something. Not entirely my ideal, but at this point, every little bit helps. And it gets me out of the house for at least that long on those days. The cleaning part is rigorous, vigorous, and very physical, so I've been counting it in my fitness minut... Mon, 21 Sep 2015 15:50:18 EST Hanging In There http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5985844 So, I had myself a brief, but fun, couple of weekends away. I was cooking for a few retreats related to the place I volunteer and do temp work, and for church. It was a lot of work, very exhausting, with little sleep, but I would do it again in a heartbeat! The ranch where the retreats were held was literally in the middle of nowhere. There was no technology to be seen anywhere! My cell phone usually had little to no signal. There were no computers. No televisions. No landline telephones. And... Thu, 27 Aug 2015 15:31:04 EST Getting It Out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5979287 I'm feeling a little overwhelmed at this moment, so I thought I'd write out some of my thoughts and just get them out of my head. <BR> <BR> I had a great weekend away. I was asked to help cook meals for a retreat our local Youth for Christ chapter put on for their junior high and high school students that will assist the volunteers on school campuses. It was 6 meals total: lunch & dinner on Friday, all three meals on Saturday, and breakfast on Sunday. The retreat was held at a ranch on the m... Mon, 17 Aug 2015 00:45:28 EST Tough Love is Still Love... in this case. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5972686 Thank you all for your responses on my last blog. I am going to admit, I was very surprised to see so many people “side” with my friend. I don't think there was a side to take, but I can't find the right word to describe it differently. Agree? That doesn't seem right, either, but maybe it's closer. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I did give it a lot of thought. I need to define my goals in a clear manner for myself and take stock of what my objectives are. Things I want immediately and things I want i... Wed, 5 Aug 2015 15:45:56 EST Is it Tough Love? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5971161 I had a conversation with a friend of mine today… it was a little out of the blue and a lot weird. I will start with a disclaimer: nothing she said offended me in any way. I am not angry, offended, or upset about the contents of the conversation and because I know this person, I very much realize what she said to me was done so out of a place of love and concern. She is not a bad person and she is not “in the wrong” to tell me the things she did, at least in my opinion. Yours may differ... Mon, 3 Aug 2015 02:22:34 EST A Few Additional Thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5965218 I need to add a few things about Comic-Con… I actually had TWO healthy breakfasts while I was in San Diego. The wonderful friends my friend rents from made me a super delicious “peek-a-boo egg” or “egg in a basket” or “egg in a hole” or “egg in a nest” or whatever you want to call it. A piece of nutty whole grain bread surrounded a perfectly cooked egg with a slightly runny yolk. That thing had me fueled for most of the day! Plus I got to share the breakfast meal time with m... Thu, 23 Jul 2015 02:05:52 EST SD Comic Con 2015 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5963834 I did end up going to Comic-Con after all. It was pretty touch-and-go in the days (and even hours!) leading up to it. For instance, my wonderful friend SOCAL_LADYBUG offered me a place to crash for the weekend, which I could never in a million years express how grateful I am for that, but I had absolutely no idea how I was going to get to San Diego until about 4 hours before I left. My mom kept going back and forth on me taking the new car. She kept changing her mind, then unchanging it, then... Mon, 20 Jul 2015 15:14:42 EST War of the Coprophages http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5953116 I'm going to try to be brief with the updates today. I feel like the majority of my “updates” end up being whiny, which is really not my personality, nor how I live my life on a day-to-day basis. <BR> <BR> My granny's party was this weekend! It turned out really fabulous and those that were able to make it had a super fun time! I got “photobooth” prop cut outs for everyone to take pics with (those wreaked havoc on my arthritis to cut out! Still, worth it…) and borrowed fun centerpi... Tue, 30 Jun 2015 02:05:22 EST Not Interactive, but Still Here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5942611 I wish I had some exciting, encouraging news about losing weight or improving my diet or working out regularly (or at all). I don't. <BR> <BR> I'm keeping busy and maintaining my usual activity level. Really, though, I'm not too busy to workout. And my usual activity level, while not sedentary, is not enough to lose weight or maintain good health. My diet varies wildly. I'll go days at a time eating healthfully with lean proteins, low-fat dairy, veggies and fruit galore. Then, just like the... Tue, 9 Jun 2015 22:36:32 EST I Wrote This and Forgot to Hit the Post Button! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5932809 I haven't restarted my exercise routine yet, as I've been on so many medications lately, it'd make your head spin! <BR> <BR> So, as you've all probably seen by now, I wasn't given the job at the church after all. I was (and still a little am) disappointed, even though the job itself wasn't totally my ideal. It would have really been a huge financial help to me and it was something that I'd be able to do without second guessing my skills. But, it wasn't meant to be. I hope something better co... Sat, 23 May 2015 00:23:37 EST Week 1 of So-called Changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5924539 I'm not going to lie here, people. Week 1 needs a do-over. Week 2 will probably be the new Week 1. <BR> <BR> Several reasons for this. I'll list them in order of magnitude greatest to least. <BR> <BR> 1. Health <BR> It has been years- YEARS- since I've had asthma problems that are THIS BAD. I'm talking at least 8 years have gone by where I've even needed to be on asthma medication. So, frankly, this has really thrown me. It has been the nail in my tire. The kink in my rope. The chink in my... Thu, 7 May 2015 23:21:06 EST Let's Do This Thing! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920535 Alright, it's May. Time to get rolling on my much-needed changes. I have a friend sending me workouts to do via email, so I may sub in some stuff from those. They are circuit type workouts and they look awesome, but the way my asthma is going, I'm not sure how well I'll be able to complete them. I can barely speak a whole sentence without launching into a coughing fit and most days I cough myself into a headache. My lungs feel like they're constantly being squeezed. So, I'm going to try a few... Fri, 1 May 2015 01:14:26 EST Job Interview http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5919222 A number of you, my beloveds, have asked for an update on my job interview yesterday. Thank you all for your support and interest in my life! Seriously! Rather than answer each of you individually, I'll just make a "quick" blog about it. <BR> <BR> I think it went fairly well. I was a bit on the nervous side, as is natural. I would be able to do most aspects of the job without any problem. Payroll and taxes (and bookkeeping in general) I have zero experience with, so I'm not sure about that. ... Tue, 28 Apr 2015 16:35:15 EST Just a few items... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5917508 I don't know why I never learn my lesson about posting blogs on the weekend. No one's around to read them! Oh, well, onward... <BR> <BR> Well, a few things have gone on lately… Today I had a brand-new plush bed delivered to my house to replace the bed I've been sleeping on for the past 8-ish years. That bed was in my grandmother's house when she bought it 25 years ago. So, we're estimating it's around my age at this point. Yup, sleeping on a 30 year old mattress. It wasn't so bad for the f... Sat, 25 Apr 2015 14:50:58 EST Eye Opening http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5914610 Taken at the Sweet Onion Festival on Saturday... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1163762861.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Definitely not happy with how I'm looking these days. A roll right across the middle there... <BR> <BR> Changes are forthcoming. Mon, 20 Apr 2015 14:00:57 EST Irrational and Stupid Excuse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5911948 I really thought I'd be feeling much better by now, especially after my fever went away. I'm still congested and dizzy and overall miserable. Ugh! <BR> <BR> Okay, so this is a topical blog. So, let's operate under the idea that I've kicked this allercold to the curb once and for all, am completely able to breathe through my nose and without having to puff on my inhaler every few hours, and have summoned up all my willpower to hit the treadmill (or whatever). <BR> <BR> I have a hard time con... Wed, 15 Apr 2015 19:38:45 EST OH! So many things for me wonder... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5909674 I really liked and appreciated all the feedback I got on my last blog. It was interesting to examine each of our own perspectives on willpower and motivation. I greatly enjoyed reading everyone's own opinions and experiences they've had with both. <BR> <BR> This blog isn't going to be topical, but I think I will write another one of those soon. I kinda like them. This is just going to be an update, since I have a lot going on and a few things I need to think about in the upcoming future. <BR... Sat, 11 Apr 2015 23:42:24 EST Motivation & Willpower… more musings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5898932 Despite not having much to do the last two days at my temporary place of “employment” I've kept pretty busy in other areas. Such as adding to the menu for my friends, so we have at least 3 weeks of meals in place. Also, they told some other friends about what I'll be doing for them, so those friends are considering hiring me to cook for them, too! I'm stoked! <BR> <BR> Anyhow, I've done a little poking around at blogs here and there, both on Spark and off. The themes for this week seemed... Tue, 24 Mar 2015 16:21:05 EST Musings About Being "Fat" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5892033 First of all, I do not like my current weight. I do want to be a smaller person that fits into smaller clothes. Okay, that's done. <BR> <BR> I've been thinking a few random thoughts lately about weight and size, particularly as it relates to how others perceive heavy people. <BR> <BR> I remember not too terribly long ago, I was out with a friend going for a drive. We were just making normal chit chat and without recalling exactly what the conversation was about, I remember my answer to wha... Fri, 13 Mar 2015 01:25:57 EST I Like Goats http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889987 Just a friendly neighborhood reminder that there are still way(s) you can help out CATS_MEOW_0911. Send me a private message and I can get that information to you, or you can go back to my Helping When It's Needed blog! <BR> <BR> It feels like I haven't been up to a whole lot since last I wrote, but I really have. I haven't plugged away much at my long to-do list or worked on solving the problems associated with the source of my biggest stresses. The time will come for those things. <BR> <B... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 16:30:11 EST Hark! A title! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5881819 Well, a few weeks ago I posted a status on here about that ol' phrase “Ask and you shall receive.” I meant to explain that, but as I've said a little more recently, I'm in a bit of a Spark slump. But, being that I'm the swell gal I am, I'll go ahead and explain that now. I posted on my Instagram account a few weeks ago a photo of some delicious food I made… this delicious food: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1541979547.jpg"> <BR> [Tofu lentil veggie cheese enchiladas... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 12:27:47 EST Helping When It's Needed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5870097 First off, thank you all for the eHugs on my last blog. They are appreciated. <BR> <BR> <em>228</em> This blog has been edited to comply with the SparkPeople site's community rules. <em>228</em> <BR> <BR> <em>129</em> This blog is going to be about paying it forward, lending a helping hand, and spreading love where it's needed. <BR> <BR> If you are not friends with CATS_MEOW_0911 here on Spark, it doesn't matter. She's a fellow Spark, a fellow human being, a beautiful person, and a... Thu, 5 Feb 2015 13:29:06 EST Hugs Needed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5869471 It's been a few weeks since I've last blogged an update. I usually like to write something at least once a week, mostly for myself. It just seems like the perfect amount for me. <BR> <BR> Lately, though, I've been overwhelmed. Overwhelmed by boredom, job hunting, and the tedious repetition that my life has been lately. There hasn't been a whole lot of variation to my routine for the past few weeks. I know it can't really be so, but from my perspective all I've done is clean the kitchen. Wash... Wed, 4 Feb 2015 15:22:17 EST Breathing Optional http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852738 Well…….. I don’t have a whole lot to update on since I’ve been sick. Seriously, I think I was sick not too terribly long ago. My OTC cold medicine hadn’t even expired yet! That never happens to me. I’m pretty unhappy about being KO’d again by some dumb bug. <BR> <BR> Anyway, this past Tuesday I turned 32. It was a really fun birthday! I spent the majority of the celebration at Bible study. But, I started the day with my granny. We went out to lunch for sushi which is a rare treat for me. The... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 13:54:48 EST Shorter and Sweet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5846687 Another week down. I stayed awake until midnight on NY/E, but was in bed and asleep by 12:10! I’ve started, mostly, my Jumpstart January Challenge that I created. I think I have a few people on board from church. No one’s checking in, so I don’t really know for sure. That’s just fine, really. It’s good for me to do it, too. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/2/l820354237.jpg"> <BR> This is some delicious veggie-ful food I made, which was Day 2 of the challenge! <BR> ... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 13:11:37 EST