JILLYBEAN25's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JILLYBEAN25 JILLYBEAN25's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I Wrote This and Forgot to Hit the Post Button! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5932809 I haven't restarted my exercise routine yet, as I've been on so many medications lately, it'd make your head spin! <BR> <BR> So, as you've all probably seen by now, I wasn't given the job at the church after all. I was (and still a little am) disappointed, even though the job itself wasn't totally my ideal. It would have really been a huge financial help to me and it was something that I'd be able to do without second guessing my skills. But, it wasn't meant to be. I hope something better co... Sat, 23 May 2015 00:23:37 EST Week 1 of So-called Changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5924539 I'm not going to lie here, people. Week 1 needs a do-over. Week 2 will probably be the new Week 1. <BR> <BR> Several reasons for this. I'll list them in order of magnitude greatest to least. <BR> <BR> 1. Health <BR> It has been years- YEARS- since I've had asthma problems that are THIS BAD. I'm talking at least 8 years have gone by where I've even needed to be on asthma medication. So, frankly, this has really thrown me. It has been the nail in my tire. The kink in my rope. The chink in my... Thu, 7 May 2015 23:21:06 EST Let's Do This Thing! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920535 Alright, it's May. Time to get rolling on my much-needed changes. I have a friend sending me workouts to do via email, so I may sub in some stuff from those. They are circuit type workouts and they look awesome, but the way my asthma is going, I'm not sure how well I'll be able to complete them. I can barely speak a whole sentence without launching into a coughing fit and most days I cough myself into a headache. My lungs feel like they're constantly being squeezed. So, I'm going to try a few... Fri, 1 May 2015 01:14:26 EST Job Interview http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5919222 A number of you, my beloveds, have asked for an update on my job interview yesterday. Thank you all for your support and interest in my life! Seriously! Rather than answer each of you individually, I'll just make a "quick" blog about it. <BR> <BR> I think it went fairly well. I was a bit on the nervous side, as is natural. I would be able to do most aspects of the job without any problem. Payroll and taxes (and bookkeeping in general) I have zero experience with, so I'm not sure about that. ... Tue, 28 Apr 2015 16:35:15 EST Just a few items... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5917508 I don't know why I never learn my lesson about posting blogs on the weekend. No one's around to read them! Oh, well, onward... <BR> <BR> Well, a few things have gone on lately… Today I had a brand-new plush bed delivered to my house to replace the bed I've been sleeping on for the past 8-ish years. That bed was in my grandmother's house when she bought it 25 years ago. So, we're estimating it's around my age at this point. Yup, sleeping on a 30 year old mattress. It wasn't so bad for the f... Sat, 25 Apr 2015 14:50:58 EST Eye Opening http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5914610 Taken at the Sweet Onion Festival on Saturday... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1163762861.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Definitely not happy with how I'm looking these days. A roll right across the middle there... <BR> <BR> Changes are forthcoming. Mon, 20 Apr 2015 14:00:57 EST Irrational and Stupid Excuse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5911948 I really thought I'd be feeling much better by now, especially after my fever went away. I'm still congested and dizzy and overall miserable. Ugh! <BR> <BR> Okay, so this is a topical blog. So, let's operate under the idea that I've kicked this allercold to the curb once and for all, am completely able to breathe through my nose and without having to puff on my inhaler every few hours, and have summoned up all my willpower to hit the treadmill (or whatever). <BR> <BR> I have a hard time con... Wed, 15 Apr 2015 19:38:45 EST OH! So many things for me wonder... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5909674 I really liked and appreciated all the feedback I got on my last blog. It was interesting to examine each of our own perspectives on willpower and motivation. I greatly enjoyed reading everyone's own opinions and experiences they've had with both. <BR> <BR> This blog isn't going to be topical, but I think I will write another one of those soon. I kinda like them. This is just going to be an update, since I have a lot going on and a few things I need to think about in the upcoming future. <BR... Sat, 11 Apr 2015 23:42:24 EST Motivation & Willpower… more musings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5898932 Despite not having much to do the last two days at my temporary place of “employment” I've kept pretty busy in other areas. Such as adding to the menu for my friends, so we have at least 3 weeks of meals in place. Also, they told some other friends about what I'll be doing for them, so those friends are considering hiring me to cook for them, too! I'm stoked! <BR> <BR> Anyhow, I've done a little poking around at blogs here and there, both on Spark and off. The themes for this week seemed... Tue, 24 Mar 2015 16:21:05 EST Musings About Being "Fat" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5892033 First of all, I do not like my current weight. I do want to be a smaller person that fits into smaller clothes. Okay, that's done. <BR> <BR> I've been thinking a few random thoughts lately about weight and size, particularly as it relates to how others perceive heavy people. <BR> <BR> I remember not too terribly long ago, I was out with a friend going for a drive. We were just making normal chit chat and without recalling exactly what the conversation was about, I remember my answer to wha... Fri, 13 Mar 2015 01:25:57 EST I Like Goats http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889987 Just a friendly neighborhood reminder that there are still way(s) you can help out CATS_MEOW_0911. Send me a private message and I can get that information to you, or you can go back to my Helping When It's Needed blog! <BR> <BR> It feels like I haven't been up to a whole lot since last I wrote, but I really have. I haven't plugged away much at my long to-do list or worked on solving the problems associated with the source of my biggest stresses. The time will come for those things. <BR> <B... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 16:30:11 EST Hark! A title! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5881819 Well, a few weeks ago I posted a status on here about that ol' phrase “Ask and you shall receive.” I meant to explain that, but as I've said a little more recently, I'm in a bit of a Spark slump. But, being that I'm the swell gal I am, I'll go ahead and explain that now. I posted on my Instagram account a few weeks ago a photo of some delicious food I made… this delicious food: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1541979547.jpg"> <BR> [Tofu lentil veggie cheese enchiladas... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 12:27:47 EST Helping When It's Needed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5870097 First off, thank you all for the eHugs on my last blog. They are appreciated. <BR> <BR> <em>228</em> This blog has been edited to comply with the SparkPeople site's community rules. <em>228</em> <BR> <BR> <em>129</em> This blog is going to be about paying it forward, lending a helping hand, and spreading love where it's needed. <BR> <BR> If you are not friends with CATS_MEOW_0911 here on Spark, it doesn't matter. She's a fellow Spark, a fellow human being, a beautiful person, and a... Thu, 5 Feb 2015 13:29:06 EST Hugs Needed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5869471 It's been a few weeks since I've last blogged an update. I usually like to write something at least once a week, mostly for myself. It just seems like the perfect amount for me. <BR> <BR> Lately, though, I've been overwhelmed. Overwhelmed by boredom, job hunting, and the tedious repetition that my life has been lately. There hasn't been a whole lot of variation to my routine for the past few weeks. I know it can't really be so, but from my perspective all I've done is clean the kitchen. Wash... Wed, 4 Feb 2015 15:22:17 EST Breathing Optional http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852738 Well…….. I don’t have a whole lot to update on since I’ve been sick. Seriously, I think I was sick not too terribly long ago. My OTC cold medicine hadn’t even expired yet! That never happens to me. I’m pretty unhappy about being KO’d again by some dumb bug. <BR> <BR> Anyway, this past Tuesday I turned 32. It was a really fun birthday! I spent the majority of the celebration at Bible study. But, I started the day with my granny. We went out to lunch for sushi which is a rare treat for me. The... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 13:54:48 EST Shorter and Sweet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5846687 Another week down. I stayed awake until midnight on NY/E, but was in bed and asleep by 12:10! I’ve started, mostly, my Jumpstart January Challenge that I created. I think I have a few people on board from church. No one’s checking in, so I don’t really know for sure. That’s just fine, really. It’s good for me to do it, too. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/2/l820354237.jpg"> <BR> This is some delicious veggie-ful food I made, which was Day 2 of the challenge! <BR> ... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 13:11:37 EST Recovering from Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5840584 How was everyone’s Christmas? I hope it was full of joy and love and blessings and delicious food. <BR> <BR> Mine definitely contained those things. I successfully completed my Secret Santa gift shopping with plenty of time to spare. I had drawn my mom’s name from the bucket and she wanted a few items that I could easily obtain at the stores around here. Last year I had to order things on Amazon, so it was nice to actually get out of the house to do my shopping, even if it meant dealing with... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 12:40:03 EST I Can't Wait To Eat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836883 Hmmm… I don’t really have a whole lot to update on. I’ve been busy, but not in any sort of interesting way. Mostly just preparing for Christmas. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2059405827.jpg"> <BR> My Elf Poo cookies look cool on the inside too! (I smashed that finger pretty badly, which is why I'm holding the cookie so funny.) <BR> <BR> The menu for Christmas dinner is finalized. I’m off the hook for main courses, which I didn’t expect, but naturally welcome.... Mon, 22 Dec 2014 14:56:13 EST So many cookies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833462 Hmmm… I was going to try to start blogging with a little more frequency. So far, not so good! Hahahaha! Oh, well. I’ve kept myself a bit busy, too, so it’s okay. <BR> <BR> On Tuesday or Wednesday of last week, I did a house cleaning that was long overdue. All by myself, of course. I scrubbed my bathroom so ridiculously thoroughly I would have eaten off of any surface in there! Then I tackled the kitchen and got that cleaned up. Then, I tidied up the living room, including washing the couch c... Mon, 15 Dec 2014 15:30:17 EST Oh, the weather outside is frightful... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830336 ... because it's like 80 degrees. I hate living in the desert. <BR> <BR> Well, my December so far has been pretty uneventful, which is the complete and total opposite of my November! <BR> <BR> Once Thanksgiving wrapped up, things calmed down for me. In a way it’s been nice, but I definitely like keeping busy. It’s been nice to have that distraction from the health issues I seem to be dealing with. <BR> <BR> First, there’s the fatigue. I’m tired ALL THE TIME. Inexplicably tired, too, as I’m... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 13:31:36 EST 30 Days of Thankful 2014 Edition- Day 29 & 30 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825488 I think I had a mega blonde moment last night and failed to do my thankful! Crazy! <BR> <BR> Day 29- Friends <BR> <BR> I really am thankful for my friends, including my SparkFriends. I try to be very careful about the people that are in my life. I don't always succeed at that... (see jerkface from this time last year) but I do make an attempt to keep worthwhile people around. I was lucky enough years ago to go to the very first SparkPeople convention held in San Diego. There was a motivatio... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 00:10:43 EST 30 Days of Thankful 2014 Edition- Day 28 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5824492 Day 28- Unexpected Pleasant Surprises <BR> <BR> The last few days have had some unexpected pleasant things come about. For example, on Wednesday, we'd finally gotten word about the pile of unsafe crap I'm forced to drive. (The Abominable Death Trap, as I formally titled it.) So, we were pretty sure we weren't going to be getting anything for it by either insurance company. The dude that hit us mom's insurance denied the claim since the kid was technically not on the policy. We figured that w... Sat, 29 Nov 2014 00:32:58 EST 30 Days of Thankful 2014 Edition- Day 27 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5824084 Day 27- Family <BR> <BR> I really am very thankful for my family, both immediate and extended. This year my Thanksgiving celebration was very small in attendance (unusual for my family), but very big in meal and satisfaction. My brother and his girlfriend came down from San Diego and spent the day at the house. My other brother and sister-in-law spent the majority of their day at my SIL's grandmother's house, but came home for dinner. My dad drove into town. My grandmother got picked up by m... Fri, 28 Nov 2014 01:08:42 EST 30 Days of Thankful 2014 Edition- Day 25 & 26 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5823589 Day 25- A Day Off <BR> As thankful as I’ve been to have things keeping me busy on my “down time” from school, I was definitely thankful for a day of rest. I feel like I’ve been going, going, going! Without a rest and my immune system doesn’t always find such a schedule to be very kosher. If I didn’t give myself a day, I’d probably end up with a terrible cold or something. So, it was the first day since the previous Tuesday that I could have a chance to literally do nothing… no kitchen cleanin... Wed, 26 Nov 2014 23:23:39 EST 30 Days of Thankful 2014 Edition- Day 20, 21, 22, 23 & 24 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5822513 I didn't realize how behind the wedding would put me. Sorry! It was a fun day, though. And successful. And delicious. <BR> <BR> Day 20- Weird Phrases <BR> My family is a little nutty. Gee, wonder where I get it from? Anyway, my mom and I have been breaking out with the weird sayings and phrases that my grandparents and great-grandparents used to say. One of the cats was trying to break into a forbidden room and my mom shoo’d him away. She said, “Louis thought he was going to ‘cut a fat hog’... Mon, 24 Nov 2014 23:00:12 EST 30 Days of Thankful 2014 Edition- Day 16, 17, 18, & 19 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5820135 Okay, sometimes I really dislike the SparkPeople site. Not very thankful at the moment for this website with its "time out" feature. I remember a time not too long ago when you could stay on Spark alllllllllllll day and your session would never "expire". Apparently I waited too long and this blog "expired" before I could finish it. So, it went to internet lalaland and this is round 2. Which I am now p.o.'ed to write again. But, I’m going to try anyway… HERE WE GO AGAIN! *deep breath* <BR> <B... Thu, 20 Nov 2014 13:24:26 EST 30 Days of Thankful 2014 Edition- Day 14 & 15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5817518 Day 14- Things to Do <BR> <BR> Keeping busy while I have this unexpected time off has been a big blessing. I'm not the type of person that can just sit around, particularly not while I struggle with depression. Finally dropping my chemistry class has greatly reduced my depression, luckily. I was really wondering if I'd be horribly bored until school started up again, but so far that hasn't been the case. Cleaning out grandma's house has been a big time user. I'll also be starting my new per... Sun, 16 Nov 2014 00:06:23 EST 30 Days of Thankful 2014 Edition- Day 13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5816489 Day 13- Clean Sheets <BR> <BR> Aw, yeah! It was quite the effort today, but I finally got the remainder of my laundry done and got fresh, clean sheets put on my bed. I don't know what it is about clean sheets, but the fresh from the dryer smell and the crispness and cleanness... something about all that makes everything right in the world, just for that night. Clean sheets clear my mind, relax me, make me oh so happy and for that I'm thankful. I'm thankful to have a clean sheets, a bed to pu... Fri, 14 Nov 2014 01:49:48 EST 30 Days of Thankful 2014 Edition- Day 12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5816158 I'll do Day 13 tonight (I hope) <BR> <BR> Day 12- Feetie Pajamas <BR> <BR> Yesterday and last night was one of those days that you just don't have enough hours in the day. In between house projects and running errands, and a quick "stop and smell the coffee" break, I was trying to squeeze in getting my laundry done. I really, really needed to wash clothes, but I REALLY REALLY needed to get my bedding washed. So, my day of laundry ended up being one of those "a load here" and "a load there" ... Thu, 13 Nov 2014 12:02:57 EST 30 Days of Thankful 2014 Edition- Day 10 & 11 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5815269 Day 10- Naps <BR> <BR> Some days you just need them. Yesterday was one of them. My mom and I were at my grandmother's house, again, trying to get some more work done over there. We made the mistake of grabbing some juicy, greasy, delicious and amazing In 'n' Out burgers for lunch. By the time we finished eating and they had a chance to settle in, it was nap time! We've been at this cleaning out thing for days, though, so we were already getting a little worn out to begin with. Heavy beef and... Wed, 12 Nov 2014 02:01:17 EST 30 Days of Thankful 2014 Edition- Day 8 & 9 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5813932 Yay, I made it a whole week before falling behind! <BR> <BR> Day 8- The Time I Still Have <BR> <BR> It's going to be the biggest, longest, most difficult process to go through all the possessions of my grandmother. We've spent two days at this task and it literally looks we haven't done anything at all. There is just SO MUCH STUFF! But, digging through family albums, boxes of interesting papers, and all sorts of preserved clothing, I can see that my grandparents led a very full, happy, inte... Mon, 10 Nov 2014 01:27:16 EST 30 Days of Thankful 2014 Edition- Day 7 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5812881 Day 7- The Time I Had <BR> <BR> Today I spent my afternoon with my mom at my father's/grandma's house. We were there for almost five hours and literally didn't get a single thing done. We spent the entire time going through closets, boxes in the closets, boxes within the boxes in the closets... Mostly we just assessed what we were going to need to do and what types of things we were looking to get rid of or keep. I disappointingly didn't find a single Members Only jacket anywhere! What gives... Sat, 8 Nov 2014 00:56:47 EST 30 Days of Thankful 2014 Edition- Day 6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5812292 Day 6- Quality Time <BR> <BR> I really enjoy getting to spend "quality time" with people. Lately and often I get so busy that I don't get a chance to hang out with my friends or family members and relationships with them wax and wane more than I'd like. Tonight, my mom and I went to dinner, as my brother and sister-in-law went to concert out of town. It was nice to just sit in a restaurant and enjoy a dinner, with just the two of us. This weekend I hope to reconnect with an old friend at our... Fri, 7 Nov 2014 00:39:56 EST 30 Days of Thankful 2014 Edition- Day 5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5811602 Day 5- Clean Drinking Water <BR> <BR> Seriously, this is one of those things that is sooooo easily taken for granted! It's not something we ever stop to think about. Like, ever. It's just an everyday thing to have clear, clean water to drink to meet our 8 glasses a day. And no other sh!ts are given. But, so many people in this world don't have access to clean, clear drinking water. And in fact, good, clean drinking water is a relatively modern "invention". It wasn't so long ago that filtrati... Wed, 5 Nov 2014 21:55:35 EST 30 Days of Thankful 2014 Edition- Day 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5811029 Day 4- Hot Showers <BR> <BR> Today has been one of those days were the ending of it calls for a hot shower. I've been on my feet since about 8:30 this morning and finally got to sit for more than a few minutes at 9:30pm. I've run errands, taken mom to a doctor, cleaned my kitchen, gone for a 3+ mile walk, cooked dinner... I'm exhausted. And a hot, relaxing shower is calling my name. Time to unwind and enjoy the glory of the hot shower! <BR> <BR> And since I don't have a photo for this... he... Wed, 5 Nov 2014 01:03:19 EST 30 Days of Thankful 2014 Edition- Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5809999 Day 3- Healthcare <BR> <BR> So, I'll start by saying I'm really sorry to those that opposed the Affordable Care Act (a.k.a. Obamacare) and I'm especially sorry to those that it screwed over instead of helped. Sincerely, I mean that. <BR> <BR> However, for someone like me, this act was a tremendous benefit and great relief. I'd been without healthcare for years and I do have some health issues that need to be monitored. That came out of my pocket quite a bit. Now, I don't have to worry abou... Mon, 3 Nov 2014 12:35:20 EST 30 Days of Thankful 2014 Edition- Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5809564 Day 2- Extra Hour of Sleep <BR> <BR> I hadn't fully realized it was time to reset clocks this weekend. Surprisingly, my Facebook feed wasn't all lit up with reminders. Not like I really need to worry about it with modern technology (like cell phones) that update themselves. But, last night it was particularly awesome. I've been dealing with ovarian cyst pain for more than a week- just constant pain that never ceases- and last night I woke up at... um... 2:30am or 3:30am (ya know, time change... Sun, 2 Nov 2014 20:17:56 EST 30 Days of Thankful 2014 Edition- Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5809019 How appropriate... again... that November should start and my thankful challenge also starts right when I am struggling with depression. <BR> <BR> Day 1- YouTube <BR> <BR> How odd that I need to be thankful for YouTube, but honestly, I have found it to be sooooo helpful with my chemistry class. I just wish I had discovered it in time for it to do some good. Maybe next semester. Anyhow, there are KAJILLIONS of videos explaining various concepts of chemistry. This week, a particularly diffic... Sun, 2 Nov 2014 00:12:05 EST Another Fear Coming True Again... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5805392 Well, this is a blog I've been putting off for some time. For the past several weeks, I've been experiencing the symptoms of depression… again. I felt it coming on even before my grandmother passed away. It just sort of accelerated after that. I've lost interest in a few of my activities. I’m so very tired all the time. I mean, all the time! I’m tired knowing I shouldn't be tired. I've been prone to bursts of crying here and there. My body doesn't want to do anything anymore. Neither does my ... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 01:29:48 EST The Real Jill http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5795004 Well, let’s see. I’m doing better these days, at least emotionally. I think I’ve done the majority of my grieving and have continued forward. <BR> <BR> I made a tough decision to drop my anatomy/physiology class this semester. I was already overwhelmed and not doing as well as I wanted in both classes. Then, when my grandmother passed, it just shed a light on priorities a little bit. Even if I had been doing better in A&P, based on the way my instructor graded all my other work (never EVER ... Thu, 9 Oct 2014 02:35:04 EST Rough http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5786787 Well, my grandmother passed away yesterday afternoon-ish. She went peacefully in her bed while my dad was at work. That was actually what she wanted. She didn’t want my dad to be there, to have to watch that happen. It’s been a little unusual for me to process. She’s the first person to pass away that I wasn’t surprised. She had been slowly declining in health for some time. Her dementia had been getting worse. She was totally dependent on my dad for basic needs. When I was picking up my Rx’s... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 12:28:50 EST Hm. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781136 Since we last visited the mind of Jillybean, some things have shifted a little. I think my cousin’s upcoming nuptials have been processed and accepted. I’m excited for Frank to be a part of my family. He really is a cool guy. I may be a single crazy cat lady spinster for the rest of my life, but at least I’ll be an educated one. I’m still not finding much comfort in that. I’m still feeling lonely and sad about being lonely. But, I’m too distracted by school and church and other activities to ... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 17:16:32 EST Reflecting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5775501 This last week (including last weekend) has been a little tough. I guess I'm already feeling the school stress hit because I haven't really been sleeping that well. All last weekend I got only a few hours of sleep each night. By the time Tuesday hit for my anatomy/physiology exam, I was a walking zombie. And it really, REALLY reflected on the grade I got. Even things that I know, things I don’t even have to think about, I answered incorrectly- or left blank- on the test. My poor brain was jus... Sun, 7 Sep 2014 23:39:41 EST New Semester! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5765559 I'll include another graphic photo at the bottom. <BR> <BR> So, I took the stitches out of my thumb myself (or rather, my mom did it). Wholly guacamole did it hurt! Not the removal part, but getting the scissors under the stitches to snip them was super painful. Anyhoo, they're out and the thumb is looking good. It's healing really nicely and is physically almost done repairing. The surface, mostly epidermal layers, are still cracked open and not fused back together. The funny Frankensteiny ... Sat, 23 Aug 2014 15:04:29 EST Save my little broken body! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755782 Okay, so I haven‘t given a proper update in some time. I apologize for that, but as I said in my latest status, my poor body has been through the ringer! <BR> <BR> I finished off my microbio class with a hard-earned A! It took some fighting, and I’m not sure the guy was totally honest to the rest of the class, or to me, but it worked out to my benefit. See, some afternoons when there was nothing left to do for the day except kill time, he’d talk to us about what we were doing in his class- ... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 13:35:03 EST Already July http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5734963 Well, I'm a bit more than halfway through my super intense microbiology class. The truth is that is all I've been able to do lately. Class for 7 hours, homework every night, and weekends for studying. I mean, a big exam every week means constant time studying. And I needed to ramp up my studying because I failed the first two tests so far. Yeah.... Super hard. However, I am enjoying the class. Its challenging, my brain feels like its constantly stimulated, and I'm definitely learning a lot. D... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 23:50:26 EST 38 Days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5722790 Alrighty, folks, its been quite a busy week. I started summer school on Monday. I knew a 7 hour class was going to make for a loooong day, but it really didn't hit home how long until I experienced it. Whew! The class has been fun so far. We haven't really gotten into the meat of microbiology. I'd say we've just been gnawing on the bones. Mostly we've practiced the techniques associated with making slides to view under the microsccope. That is apparently super important because everything els... Sat, 21 Jun 2014 12:54:29 EST Busy Summer Break http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5714230 Well, folks, its been a good few weeks since I've provided an update. <BR> <BR> School ended for me in mid-May. My finals were a lot tougher than I had imagined them to be. I did only okay on my anatomy/physiology exam, averaging all the components out to a low B or high C. But, my instructor posted all our points for every exam, assignment, quiz, participation onto our class website and mine totaled 87%. I was pretty disappointed, even though, yes that's a B. But, in order to get into the ... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 13:24:51 EST Quick May Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5693782 Making this quick, as a brief study break. <BR> <BR> So far, not so good on the month of May. The wind has been blowing and it's been hot (hit triple digits already a few days) so outdoor activity has not been an option for me. No church volleyball Saturdays. :-( I was starting to use my treadmill more, but unfortunately, something happened in my living room overnight and suddenly there were piles of things everywhere that prevented me from unfolding the moving belt portion of my machine. A... Mon, 12 May 2014 23:22:54 EST Making May My M-Something (for Alliteration Purposes) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5685107 Except I couldn't come up with an "m" word that indicated something that is submissive to my will.Thesaurus.com let me down. <BR> <BR> Anyway, before I post my May plan outline, I signed up for a single class for summer school today. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1454854944.jpg"> <BR> If that's a little too jumbled to read, it basically says I'm taking microbiology. The class is Monday through Thursday (so, 4 days a week) from 8:30 a.m.until 3:40 p.m. all four of t... Thu, 1 May 2014 16:10:08 EST