JIACOLO's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JIACOLO JIACOLO's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Getting back on track.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5605624 So after a month of feeling blah and eating junky, I am back on track for healthier eating and being. I cannot say I have been 100% on, but I certainly feel better than before and for that I am happy. I even went swimming for almost an hour today. That felt great! I will definitely head back for open swim next week. <BR> <BR> Let's hope I can keep this momentum going. Sat, 25 Jan 2014 20:46:44 EST Seeking consistency... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5590752 Has anyone seen mine? How about my willpower? That seems to be missing too. I thought I was doing good and had them both intact, but sadly I was wrong. What is the issue with me? I can go days and be on top of my game and then on thing pushes me to the edge and I jump willingly head first into a sea of food. Then my stomach will ache, reminding me that this food is not a good choice for me. You would think that reminds me not to reach for it anymore. Wrong! Something has to give soon... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 23:09:43 EST Tough week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5448318 I have been like a whirlwind cleaning and purging my home of stuff the last two days. The stuff that I have accumulated is overwhelming and this cleaning is long overdue. While the two rooms I have concentrated on are not finished yet, they are in much better shape then before. I am proud of the success so far and thankful to have had the ability to focus on this task. <BR> <BR> For the last two weeks I haven't been feeling 100%. My stomach (IBS?) has really been bothering me and I am j... Thu, 8 Aug 2013 00:44:19 EST I WON! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5371898 On January 7th of this year I entered into the Biggest Loser competition at work. Determined to do something this time (I only lost a few pounds the last time we did it), I stuck to good eating habits and tried hard. I have a bad habit of plateauing so I wasn't feeling overly confident over the last 20 weeks so I didn't always weigh in for the weekly appointments. Our school nurse oversaw the program and I know I had some pretty intense competition. <BR> <BR> The morning of the final we... Wed, 29 May 2013 21:06:23 EST I don't know my own strength http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5323271 So today really tried me for making good choices. I attended a fashion show for my women's club. The brunch had a good share of protein choices, which I was very thankful for. It also had the typical carb fair. The waffles with whipped cream, pasta with artichokes, and assorted pastries looked delicious. And when they brought out the ice cream parfaits, my mouth watered! But thankfully I can say they all looked that way from afar because I haven't a clue what they tasted like. <BR> <... Sun, 14 Apr 2013 21:53:39 EST Emotional Eater no more! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5273371 I think I have finally turned a corner on my emotional eating. In the past I have always reached for food to "feed" the stress in my life. It's probably what contributed to the major part of my weight gain. I think having lost the 50 lbs this year has really helped me change how I view food and how I deal with stress. Stress will envitably be a part of my life. But I don't have to eat those emotions anymore! <BR> <BR> As we prepare to see our daughter leave for Central America to fin... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 21:15:51 EST A Busy Week! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5262658 Today is my last day of winter vacation and I was reflecting on all I did this week. WOW was I busy! Here's a rundown: <BR> <BR> Saturday.....shopping trip (bought new dresses in the misses department in smaller size!!!), mall trip (bought new tv stand) <BR> Sunday....Ikea trip (just over an hour ride), family dinner, clean living room <BR> Monday......Gym and then MAJOR cleaning in basement family room; start of <BR> organization project 1 <BR> Tuesday......Drs ap... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 21:50:29 EST So close! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5115041 My original goal when I started at the weight loss clinic was to see under 200. This morning I weighed myself and was at 203.3! I have come so close, and then I go out and eat a damn chocolate bar and some chips. I am my own worst enemy. I have been doing so good, but have been within 8 lbs of my goal for several months. I am ready to see 199! How frustrating it is! Sat, 27 Oct 2012 21:02:37 EST Relay For Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4891096 Back in January I was at my women's club monthly meeting. The guest speaker that evening was a young woman from the American Cancer Society. She was there to discuss having the Relay For Life come to our town. I have participated in Relay For Life for 10 years now, but always in other communities. Needless to say I was incredibly excited about this opportunity. I had my business card out and in hand before she finished asking for people to volunteer to be on the committee. <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 21 May 2012 11:03:20 EST New steps towards better health http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4735556 This past fall my doctor recommended I see a weight management specialist. I put off calling for a while. On Tuesday, I had my consultation. I guess I was nervous because my blood pressure was out of control. I spent quite a bit of time talking about how I think I got to this point (stress?), my gym routine, and goals for myself. The doctor was kind and listened and offered some great suggestions. He also wrote me a script for several medications, including an appetite suppressant and a... Sun, 12 Feb 2012 18:41:46 EST Thinking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4410328 I recently was walking with friends and discussed how I have always been propelled by the naysayers and have accomplished great things in my life after someone said I couldn't. I soon will be graduating with an advanced college degree and am looking at a doctoral program, yet my weight remains an issue. Why is that? I certainly have had those same naysayers in my life that have scorned me for my weight. Why can't I take that same "put it in my pocket and move forward" philosophy and make ... Sat, 6 Aug 2011 08:59:37 EST Trying to get back on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4036787 After what seems like forever (but more like four weeks), I have made it back to the gym. I was so consistent for a long time, but I know that when things get hectic, I have to start letting go of things. The gym was the "thing" this past time. I need to not let that happen again. I can feel the difference. I have gained back about 5 lbs and I am not feeling good again. I know this is directly in relation to not getting to the gym. So far I have made it three times in 3 days. I hope t... Mon, 21 Feb 2011 21:59:31 EST Seeing and feeling results http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3504109 The last few weeks I have seen little to no change on the scale. I know I was working hard and getting results because I could see it on my body and in my clothes. But for some reason I still need that darn number to move down. Two weeks ago when I gained a half pound I chalked it up to working out more. Last week when I saw the same results I figured again it was due to my increased work out sessions. I have been hitting the gym every other day for over two weeks and walking on the oppo... Wed, 4 Aug 2010 21:04:39 EST Cravings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3356778 So I have definitely sabotaged myself some over the last couple of weeks. This has added to my craving all kinds of things I haven't eaten in weeks. I know it is all stress related, with the end of the school year looming and all. I have not been eating too well. I am moving more though. That is one of the perks of summer vacation. And I am determined to get back on track and finish the last 4 weeks of my weight management class strong and healthier. Mon, 21 Jun 2010 16:55:42 EST Low/No carbs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3260435 I am not sure when I made the decision to do this, but I'm so glad I did! Today I went shopping and bought shorts two sizes smaller than I would normally. They are a bit snug still, but with each day I am working towards having them feel loose on me. And I'm ready! I am motivated to keep this going and to continue on this journey. I want to fit into clothes off the rack and to not have to buy things at the larger sized stores. I want to turn heads. I want to see people I haven't seen i... Sun, 23 May 2010 20:14:40 EST Today...my breaking point? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2774255 Ttoday was a tough day for me. My troubled student finally crossed the line and assaulted me (twice). I left my room in tears and a little pain. I'm okay. Just sore. And very frustrated. I had oodles of paperwork to complete as a result. UGH! He did get a 30 days suspense as a result. Sad, but I'm hoping this helps others see that he needs more help than we can offer. I have personally dealt with this behavior for two years, but this has been going on longer than that. He needs helps and hope... Wed, 20 Jan 2010 20:40:56 EST Back to work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2345809 Day 2 of back to work and the exercising isn't going so well. I did take time to go for a short 15 minute walk today during a break, but need to get better at this. I am hoping to find at least 10 minutes each day a couple of days a week to walk during my lunch. I can do this! Tue, 25 Aug 2009 16:56:12 EST Back to work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2345804 So I finished day two of my first week back to work. I haven't been doing so well on the exercising, nor getting to sleep early, but eating hasn't been so bad. So today I found myself with some time during a break so I took a 15 minute walk. That felt good. I think I need to just stay focused on finding that time and if it is not a full 30 minutes at once, at least it is something. I could probably do three 10-minute walks throughout the day if I go out at lunch. Let's hope I can! I ne... Tue, 25 Aug 2009 16:54:45 EST Back to work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2345767 So I finished day two of my first week back to work. I haven't been doing so well on the exercising, nor getting to sleep early, but eating hasn't been so bad. So today I found myself with some time during a break so I took a 15 minute walk. That felt good. I think I need to just stay focused on finding that time and if it is not a full 30 minutes at once, at least it is something. I could probably do three 10-minute walks throughout the day if I go out at lunch. Let's hope I can! I ne... Tue, 25 Aug 2009 16:37:56 EST One week and counting... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2320444 Okay....there is just one week left before I get back to work. Am I ready to figure this out? I think I have built up a good amount of momentum, but will it be enough to stay on track? I know I will have to keep focused on the weekends and use the time to get my workouts in. So now just to find 2 or 3 more days to do this as well. Time will tell. Sun, 16 Aug 2009 17:14:03 EST Keeping the momentum http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2307292 The countdown is on.....just under two weeks until I return back to work. I worry that the habit I started with walking every day (or most days) will end. I am excited that my clothes are fitting better and I even got to buy some smaller tops. But what happens when I get out of the routine? Will I go back to my old, horrible ways? Will I make excuses for not exercising again? Right now I have a friend who helps keep me motivated, but that won't be able to continue as he works nights. I... Tue, 11 Aug 2009 18:23:35 EST How I feel http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2284564 There are many changes at work at the moment. Our principal left and is taking many people with her. I don't know how to feel about it. On the one had I feel pissed off that they people are leaving and abandoning the kids and the few of us that are left. Half of our teaching staff has left! What about the kids???? What about the rest of us!? The other half of me feels abandoned personally. I came to this school because of this principal. I gave up my former school system and came t... Mon, 3 Aug 2009 19:43:29 EST Giving back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2240786 Today I continue on the mission I started 2 years ago when my brother died. I am going to volunteer for the Jimmy Fund for Dana Farber. I will be that person collecting money at the movie theater. I feel it is important to give back to this organization for all that they gave my brother during his 17 years as a DF cancer patient. In some small way I am giving the gift of Jan every time I participate. <BR> <BR> So if you are at the movies and you see me (or another volunteer), give what... Sun, 19 Jul 2009 09:50:27 EST Staying strong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1861481 I just finished tracking all the food for tomorrow's meals and I am so excited that my numbers look great! I need to stay strong to not overeat and mess up this really good day. Say a prayer that I do it! Sun, 8 Mar 2009 21:17:24 EST Exercising again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1764341 Okay...back on track for the week. I always feel better when I exercise. So why do I not continue this every day???? Let's hope this momentum continues for more than a few days. Mon, 2 Feb 2009 21:51:53 EST Off track again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1725649 So I was doing so well during the vacation. I had time to exercise and wanted to. Now I'm back to working both jobs and eating late and missing much needed sleep. Weekends have been for laundry and other household jobs. I really liked being more active. After I got sick, I just haven't had the time (nor the energy) to get back onto the Wii. I have been still doing most of the morning workouts, but they are just 10 minute little things. Some minor walking at work helps. UGH! I really... Wed, 21 Jan 2009 19:24:31 EST I'm sick! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1711161 Two days ago my nose was itchy and I was sneezy and a bit tired, but not much else. Today it's a cold! I don't feel much like working out. I'll get back on track in a couple of days. For now, I'll rest. Sat, 17 Jan 2009 21:52:21 EST Missing the Wii http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1699975 I could not use the Wii tonight and I'm dissappointed! I've really gotten to enjoy doing my 30 minutes a night! Wed, 14 Jan 2009 19:08:50 EST 8 days! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1686254 I think it might be a record for me to complete 8 straight days of exercise! I'm pretty excited that I have been able to stay motivated and on track! Sun, 11 Jan 2009 16:37:25 EST Staying on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1676163 I had a difficult day. It started out bad (someone broke into 3 of our cars and stole numerous items) and continued downhill for most of it. I didn't get to workout this morning as I have been doing each morning. That didn't feel good. AND we were going out to dinner tonight to indulge in some special treats. Would I be able to not overindulge and would I complete my workouts tonight? I was really concerned. Yet somehow I was able to do both workouts and not to overeat so much that I f... Thu, 8 Jan 2009 22:33:19 EST Forgiveness? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1668518 I read something yesterday that really made me feel like a weight lifted off my shoulders. Without going into the gory details, my family has become estranged...mostly my oldest brother and myself. I stand firm in my conviction that I made the right decision in removing him from my life, yet I feel pressure all the time from family members to "be the bigger person" and take the first step. I cannot and will not do this and I get a good amount of flack for my choice. I'm okay with my choic... Wed, 7 Jan 2009 11:38:43 EST Work Out Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1652543 So that workout seemed easier today, having done it yesterday by mistake. I am happy that I find myself motivate to complete this workout and do the Wii. I hope this continues! Maybe finding out that I had lost a half pound really did it for me. Sun, 4 Jan 2009 13:24:58 EST Gained a pound! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1645955 Goodness! I weighed myself 2 days ago and again today only to find I have gained a pound. I am not surprised considering the junk I've eaten the last few days, but it's still hard to take. I need to remember this feeling the next time I reach for the chips. Fri, 2 Jan 2009 22:11:14 EST Wii Fit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1641997 Day 2 of the Wii Fit and I'm thrilled with my ability to progress with each new activity. I hope my motivation and excitement continues! Thu, 1 Jan 2009 23:30:00 EST New Year's Resolution? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1629210 Every year I make these vows that I will do this or do that, but rarely do I follow through. Why does it take until this time of year before I want to "fix" something? Is this such a magical night that it will help me make this vow come to light? Obviously not. So this year I vow to not set myself up for failure. I need to work on these things all through the year, not just once a year. I promise! Mon, 29 Dec 2008 10:37:23 EST In the face of doubt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=808035 Doubt has been part of my daily life lately. With the loss of my mother and brother, I have questioned and second-guessed many choices I've made. I've learned a lot about myself as a result. One thing I know for sure....I am stronger than what I thought and I do not need to please others in order to be happy. I control my happiness, not others, and I will make the tough choices if I need to. It was, and continues to be, a hard lesson for me to learn and accept, but I am thankful that I h... Tue, 30 Oct 2007 22:03:25 EST The "value" of family http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=799023 My family has always had some form of dysfunction. I can remember many times having fingers pointed at others or hateful words spoken about a family member by another member. Sure we all have differences with people we love, but mine has often taken it to the extreme. Family reunions were always tension-filled opportunities for people to spew their disdain onto others. For many years I avoided these reunions because I could not take the hatred. It was only just recently that I realized ... Tue, 23 Oct 2007 22:07:21 EST The wisdom of listening http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=794778 This is an area that I definitely need to work on. I am a great talker, but I've lost the ability to be a good listener. I used to be good at it....I'm not sure what happened. Sat, 20 Oct 2007 18:32:42 EST What my hardships have taught me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=770221 I certainly have had a lot to deal with over the past year. Losing any one member of my family would be difficult, but 7 has really been tough. This compounded by my youngest going off to college a hour and a half away, and family troubles as a result of greed from the deaths of two family members. To top this all off....I'm a special education teacher for students with behavior disorders (autism, bipolar). My job can really add a decent amount of stress to my everyday life on its own. D... Tue, 2 Oct 2007 17:49:43 EST Who I wanna be... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=759182 All my life I have worked with children in some capacity. From the time I was very young, I have babysat or worked as a camp counselor. My first full-time job I worked at a public library, alongside the children's librarian. I don't think I ever really said I wanted to be a teacher. It was just a given. Now that I have made that a reality, I wonder . . . now what? Is this what I wanted from my life? Is there more that I could do with this fulfilled dream? Don't get me wrong, I love wh... Mon, 24 Sep 2007 21:19:57 EST Victory over trials http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=713093 I can honestly say I have had my share of trials this past year. My classroom was in chaos with three new assistants, two of which felt they were more valuable than myself. Two new students (and new sets of parents) also provided trying moments. And the loss of five loved ones, including my grandparents, mother, and brother, added a level of anxiety that really made me dig deep within myself for strength. After my brother's death, I really feared how I would respond. So far, I'm doing ok... Wed, 22 Aug 2007 18:30:07 EST Pleasing others http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=673974 My life has been guided by what others think of me and I hate it! I don't know when it was instilled in me that having others "like" me was more important than being myself. I have spent far too much time fearing not being "friends" with others. This really takes away from what I need to do and it adds a lot more stress onto my already stressed life. Who cares if I am liked by all???!!! It shouldn't matter if someone doesn't like what I do, especially at work. Those that work for me don... Fri, 27 Jul 2007 12:54:21 EST Just over 1 year on SP http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=661840 In reviewing the past year and 2 weeks as a member of SparkPeople, I have seen many changes in my life. First I have suffered the loss of 6 members of my family - a great aunt, both my mother's parents, my mother, and 2 cherished family pets. My brother also took very ill and was hospitalized for 8 weeks. <BR> <BR> When I first started on SP, I wasn't taking it very seriously. I pecked away at journaling my food and monitoring how much water and exercise I was getting each day. After ... Thu, 19 Jul 2007 20:12:21 EST Procrastinating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=645832 It's my middle name. I have taken years to perfect the craft of putting off til tomorrow what I should have done yesterday. Last night, however, I took steps towards claiming my life back. I cleaned my bedroom, put clothes away, and weeded clothes I won't wear. Today I am going to tackle the mound of magazines I have acquired. I wouldn't recognize the room if I had not been the one to clean. I'm happy I didn't put off the task anymore. It was long overdue. Tue, 10 Jul 2007 09:31:45 EST Just be http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=617667 I think I have mastered the art of "just being". My house, love life, banking account, and body are prime examples of how well I have done at being in the moment, without care for whatever else needs my attention. Isn't it time that I motivated myself to be more than what I have been doing...which is basically nothing. Thu, 21 Jun 2007 21:14:14 EST Daily motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=604093 This reflection really hit home with me! I am known for my gung-ho attitude followed by the fizzle. My house is filled with years of incomplete ideas. And unfinshed diet and exercise programs. Daily motivation is hard, but for me very necessary. It is easy to get excited about an idea. How many pieces of Tupperware did I buy after hearing a speaker talk about its amazing qualities? <BR> <BR> Today I start my journey towards a more uncluttered life. I need to take back control of wha... Wed, 13 Jun 2007 07:40:19 EST Possibilities or problems? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=591383 It is very easy to see the potential problems of a plan. My husband is a "what if" guy and it is been a constant source of frustration for me throughout our 20 years together. It has also rubbed off some. I always have tried to see possible potential, but with such naysaying from others it is easy to be pessimistic about plans, even the best laid out. Tue, 5 Jun 2007 07:30:35 EST Finding strength http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=547895 Upon reflecting on my life lately I am amazed that I am still able to function. Life has really tested me lately, from health concerns about my daughter and father, to my mother and grandmother passing, to my brother being admitted to the ICU for hemorraghing on the brain. I have functioned on an average of 5 hours of sleep nightly this week. I know this will catch up with me soon. Until then, I will do what I have to do and rely on God to give me the strength to handle everything and to ... Sun, 6 May 2007 22:11:18 EST procrastinating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=536221 I cannot believe how much I am letting myself get away with. I have always been a "put it off til tomorrow" person, but this is ridiculous! There is not one room in my house that is presentable enough for visitors. Okay...maybe the newly remodeled bathroom, but really, how many people can you fit in a half bath? I clean in spurts. Normally that wouldn't be a bad thing, except that my house is already a sty and needs more aggressive cleaning in order to just look okay. Having my daughte... Sun, 29 Apr 2007 09:30:28 EST a tough day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=522504 I'm not sure why, but today I feel depressed. I have done nothing but sleep the entire day, with little breaks awake to eat. What's going on with me today? I've had weekends where I slept, but figured this had to do with working that week. Today I have no excuse. It's vacation! I could go back to bed now, but I think my husband would have a hard time with this. I need to get myself going! Thu, 19 Apr 2007 16:51:29 EST