JIACOLO's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JIACOLO JIACOLO's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ A new day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6002322 I have learned I need to take each day one at a time with this student. Today was a fairly good day. Such a blessing! He only hit 8 times. And no one bled. Sadly that is a good day. <BR> <BR> Saying my prayers that tomorrow is as good as today. Tue, 22 Sep 2015 21:31:33 EST A better day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5999360 This morning as I was getting ready I was reading a story about someone who had helped a homeless man. The man stated that he was grateful for the help and that he had prayed for help. His prayer was answered. <BR> <BR> As I read this story I, of course, cried my eyes out. Then I prayed. I prayed for the strength and guidance to help this child. I prayed for the wisdom to give him what he needed and the help to keep my other students and my staff safe. <BR> <BR> God listened. I am... Thu, 17 Sep 2015 21:18:09 EST Moving forward (?) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5997551 This new student may be the single greatest challenge of my 16 year teaching career. I know I have the skills and understanding, but I am struggling to get through to him. It is hard because he is so aggressive and puts all my other students and my staff in danger. I am attempting to keep myself positive, while maintain safety and my sanity. It is a daily struggle not to reach for chocolate or junk food as a way to soothe my soul. Or a drink. How to move forward with this child and this... Mon, 14 Sep 2015 22:00:45 EST Labor Day over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5992962 It was a busy weekend filled with food, fun, family, and friends. I surprised myself several times by stopping eating or turning down food. This is not to suggest I was a great eater all weekend, but I did not eat like I normally would. This is a good feeling! It means my willpower is still there and I have the ability to say no. I hope this continues! It is a start climbing back up from the bottom. I'm ready! Mon, 7 Sep 2015 20:43:16 EST Labor Day Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5991219 Here's to the official end of summer. I need to get myself into action and get things done! Fri, 4 Sep 2015 23:40:22 EST Waiting for rock bottom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5989162 Last night I tried on some new pants I bought in the hopes they would fit. Of course they didn't which really wasn't a surprise to me. It did discourage me though, but not nearly that badly for I finished off the last little bite of fudge without much hesitation. I feel like I am truly waiting for rock bottom to hit me in the backside and get me going again. Why can't I find it now? No clue. Maybe I should sleep on it. Maybe after the ice cream is gone. Tue, 1 Sep 2015 22:15:58 EST Memorial Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5933720 As Memorial Day comes upon us, I am reminded that my cousin, Jeremy, gave his life in Iraq so that we could continue to be free. He will forever be my hero. I hope everyone reflects on those who we have this day set aside for. Remember our fallen. Sun, 24 May 2015 23:38:03 EST Cinco de Mayo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5923168 Today is May 5th and for the last two days I have been binge eating like crazy. I am sure it is because I am tired. I really should just go to bed and not allow myself to catch my second wind. And of course, once I do, what do I do to stay awake? Yes, that would be eat! It is hard to convince myself to go to bed, even though I really should. I won't be able to tonight because I have to work. The good news is I won't be able to eat much because I will be working. It will be a long nigh... Tue, 5 May 2015 16:11:08 EST April is here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5904447 It's April 2nd. I continue to deal with the rash. Can you believe that?! Eczema they tell me. A virus caused the flair. I am happy it is almost gone, but I hope it goes away soon so I can wear capris and shorts. I need to get some weight off too or I will have to buy new clothes this summer that I can fit into. Ugh! Thu, 2 Apr 2015 21:46:35 EST 2015...so far? eh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5845973 It's four days into the new year and I continue to suffer with this body rash that will not go away. It makes any activity uncomfortable, especially sleeping and exercise. I am hopeful that it is starting to lessen (at least on my right arm). My eating has been so so, but my lack of energy bothers me some. We'll have to see what happens this week. By Thursday I will be calling the drs again. The itchiness gets to me at times. Sun, 4 Jan 2015 19:50:27 EST Mission: Zip up the dress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5784215 In just 13 days my son will get married. (It is not an overly happy time for me...long stressful story.) I finally found a dress Friday. It has been a difficult process for me, but I am happy to check that off my list. Now I need it to zip up. It is almost there! I know I can get it up, but want to be able to breathe during the wedding. So I am planning action to make this happen. I have the knowledge to get it done. Here's the plan: <BR> <BR> 1. Get to bed at 10:00 so I'm getting ... Sun, 21 Sep 2014 18:13:06 EST Getting back on track.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5605624 So after a month of feeling blah and eating junky, I am back on track for healthier eating and being. I cannot say I have been 100% on, but I certainly feel better than before and for that I am happy. I even went swimming for almost an hour today. That felt great! I will definitely head back for open swim next week. <BR> <BR> Let's hope I can keep this momentum going. Sat, 25 Jan 2014 20:46:44 EST Seeking consistency... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5590752 Has anyone seen mine? How about my willpower? That seems to be missing too. I thought I was doing good and had them both intact, but sadly I was wrong. What is the issue with me? I can go days and be on top of my game and then on thing pushes me to the edge and I jump willingly head first into a sea of food. Then my stomach will ache, reminding me that this food is not a good choice for me. You would think that reminds me not to reach for it anymore. Wrong! Something has to give soon... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 23:09:43 EST Tough week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5448318 I have been like a whirlwind cleaning and purging my home of stuff the last two days. The stuff that I have accumulated is overwhelming and this cleaning is long overdue. While the two rooms I have concentrated on are not finished yet, they are in much better shape then before. I am proud of the success so far and thankful to have had the ability to focus on this task. <BR> <BR> For the last two weeks I haven't been feeling 100%. My stomach (IBS?) has really been bothering me and I am j... Thu, 8 Aug 2013 00:44:19 EST I WON! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5371898 On January 7th of this year I entered into the Biggest Loser competition at work. Determined to do something this time (I only lost a few pounds the last time we did it), I stuck to good eating habits and tried hard. I have a bad habit of plateauing so I wasn't feeling overly confident over the last 20 weeks so I didn't always weigh in for the weekly appointments. Our school nurse oversaw the program and I know I had some pretty intense competition. <BR> <BR> The morning of the final we... Wed, 29 May 2013 21:06:23 EST I don't know my own strength http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5323271 So today really tried me for making good choices. I attended a fashion show for my women's club. The brunch had a good share of protein choices, which I was very thankful for. It also had the typical carb fair. The waffles with whipped cream, pasta with artichokes, and assorted pastries looked delicious. And when they brought out the ice cream parfaits, my mouth watered! But thankfully I can say they all looked that way from afar because I haven't a clue what they tasted like. <BR> <... Sun, 14 Apr 2013 21:53:39 EST Emotional Eater no more! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5273371 I think I have finally turned a corner on my emotional eating. In the past I have always reached for food to "feed" the stress in my life. It's probably what contributed to the major part of my weight gain. I think having lost the 50 lbs this year has really helped me change how I view food and how I deal with stress. Stress will envitably be a part of my life. But I don't have to eat those emotions anymore! <BR> <BR> As we prepare to see our daughter leave for Central America to fin... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 21:15:51 EST A Busy Week! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5262658 Today is my last day of winter vacation and I was reflecting on all I did this week. WOW was I busy! Here's a rundown: <BR> <BR> Saturday.....shopping trip (bought new dresses in the misses department in smaller size!!!), mall trip (bought new tv stand) <BR> Sunday....Ikea trip (just over an hour ride), family dinner, clean living room <BR> Monday......Gym and then MAJOR cleaning in basement family room; start of <BR> organization project 1 <BR> Tuesday......Drs ap... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 21:50:29 EST So close! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5115041 My original goal when I started at the weight loss clinic was to see under 200. This morning I weighed myself and was at 203.3! I have come so close, and then I go out and eat a damn chocolate bar and some chips. I am my own worst enemy. I have been doing so good, but have been within 8 lbs of my goal for several months. I am ready to see 199! How frustrating it is! Sat, 27 Oct 2012 21:02:37 EST Relay For Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4891096 Back in January I was at my women's club monthly meeting. The guest speaker that evening was a young woman from the American Cancer Society. She was there to discuss having the Relay For Life come to our town. I have participated in Relay For Life for 10 years now, but always in other communities. Needless to say I was incredibly excited about this opportunity. I had my business card out and in hand before she finished asking for people to volunteer to be on the committee. <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 21 May 2012 11:03:20 EST New steps towards better health http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4735556 This past fall my doctor recommended I see a weight management specialist. I put off calling for a while. On Tuesday, I had my consultation. I guess I was nervous because my blood pressure was out of control. I spent quite a bit of time talking about how I think I got to this point (stress?), my gym routine, and goals for myself. The doctor was kind and listened and offered some great suggestions. He also wrote me a script for several medications, including an appetite suppressant and a... Sun, 12 Feb 2012 18:41:46 EST Thinking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4410328 I recently was walking with friends and discussed how I have always been propelled by the naysayers and have accomplished great things in my life after someone said I couldn't. I soon will be graduating with an advanced college degree and am looking at a doctoral program, yet my weight remains an issue. Why is that? I certainly have had those same naysayers in my life that have scorned me for my weight. Why can't I take that same "put it in my pocket and move forward" philosophy and make ... Sat, 6 Aug 2011 08:59:37 EST Trying to get back on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4036787 After what seems like forever (but more like four weeks), I have made it back to the gym. I was so consistent for a long time, but I know that when things get hectic, I have to start letting go of things. The gym was the "thing" this past time. I need to not let that happen again. I can feel the difference. I have gained back about 5 lbs and I am not feeling good again. I know this is directly in relation to not getting to the gym. So far I have made it three times in 3 days. I hope t... Mon, 21 Feb 2011 21:59:31 EST Seeing and feeling results http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3504109 The last few weeks I have seen little to no change on the scale. I know I was working hard and getting results because I could see it on my body and in my clothes. But for some reason I still need that darn number to move down. Two weeks ago when I gained a half pound I chalked it up to working out more. Last week when I saw the same results I figured again it was due to my increased work out sessions. I have been hitting the gym every other day for over two weeks and walking on the oppo... Wed, 4 Aug 2010 21:04:39 EST Cravings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3356778 So I have definitely sabotaged myself some over the last couple of weeks. This has added to my craving all kinds of things I haven't eaten in weeks. I know it is all stress related, with the end of the school year looming and all. I have not been eating too well. I am moving more though. That is one of the perks of summer vacation. And I am determined to get back on track and finish the last 4 weeks of my weight management class strong and healthier. Mon, 21 Jun 2010 16:55:42 EST Low/No carbs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3260435 I am not sure when I made the decision to do this, but I'm so glad I did! Today I went shopping and bought shorts two sizes smaller than I would normally. They are a bit snug still, but with each day I am working towards having them feel loose on me. And I'm ready! I am motivated to keep this going and to continue on this journey. I want to fit into clothes off the rack and to not have to buy things at the larger sized stores. I want to turn heads. I want to see people I haven't seen i... Sun, 23 May 2010 20:14:40 EST Today...my breaking point? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2774255 Ttoday was a tough day for me. My troubled student finally crossed the line and assaulted me (twice). I left my room in tears and a little pain. I'm okay. Just sore. And very frustrated. I had oodles of paperwork to complete as a result. UGH! He did get a 30 days suspense as a result. Sad, but I'm hoping this helps others see that he needs more help than we can offer. I have personally dealt with this behavior for two years, but this has been going on longer than that. He needs helps and hope... Wed, 20 Jan 2010 20:40:56 EST Back to work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2345809 Day 2 of back to work and the exercising isn't going so well. I did take time to go for a short 15 minute walk today during a break, but need to get better at this. I am hoping to find at least 10 minutes each day a couple of days a week to walk during my lunch. I can do this! Tue, 25 Aug 2009 16:56:12 EST Back to work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2345804 So I finished day two of my first week back to work. I haven't been doing so well on the exercising, nor getting to sleep early, but eating hasn't been so bad. So today I found myself with some time during a break so I took a 15 minute walk. That felt good. I think I need to just stay focused on finding that time and if it is not a full 30 minutes at once, at least it is something. I could probably do three 10-minute walks throughout the day if I go out at lunch. Let's hope I can! I ne... Tue, 25 Aug 2009 16:54:45 EST Back to work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2345767 So I finished day two of my first week back to work. I haven't been doing so well on the exercising, nor getting to sleep early, but eating hasn't been so bad. So today I found myself with some time during a break so I took a 15 minute walk. That felt good. I think I need to just stay focused on finding that time and if it is not a full 30 minutes at once, at least it is something. I could probably do three 10-minute walks throughout the day if I go out at lunch. Let's hope I can! I ne... Tue, 25 Aug 2009 16:37:56 EST One week and counting... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2320444 Okay....there is just one week left before I get back to work. Am I ready to figure this out? I think I have built up a good amount of momentum, but will it be enough to stay on track? I know I will have to keep focused on the weekends and use the time to get my workouts in. So now just to find 2 or 3 more days to do this as well. Time will tell. Sun, 16 Aug 2009 17:14:03 EST Keeping the momentum http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2307292 The countdown is on.....just under two weeks until I return back to work. I worry that the habit I started with walking every day (or most days) will end. I am excited that my clothes are fitting better and I even got to buy some smaller tops. But what happens when I get out of the routine? Will I go back to my old, horrible ways? Will I make excuses for not exercising again? Right now I have a friend who helps keep me motivated, but that won't be able to continue as he works nights. I... Tue, 11 Aug 2009 18:23:35 EST How I feel http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2284564 There are many changes at work at the moment. Our principal left and is taking many people with her. I don't know how to feel about it. On the one had I feel pissed off that they people are leaving and abandoning the kids and the few of us that are left. Half of our teaching staff has left! What about the kids???? What about the rest of us!? The other half of me feels abandoned personally. I came to this school because of this principal. I gave up my former school system and came t... Mon, 3 Aug 2009 19:43:29 EST Giving back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2240786 Today I continue on the mission I started 2 years ago when my brother died. I am going to volunteer for the Jimmy Fund for Dana Farber. I will be that person collecting money at the movie theater. I feel it is important to give back to this organization for all that they gave my brother during his 17 years as a DF cancer patient. In some small way I am giving the gift of Jan every time I participate. <BR> <BR> So if you are at the movies and you see me (or another volunteer), give what... Sun, 19 Jul 2009 09:50:27 EST Staying strong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1861481 I just finished tracking all the food for tomorrow's meals and I am so excited that my numbers look great! I need to stay strong to not overeat and mess up this really good day. Say a prayer that I do it! Sun, 8 Mar 2009 21:17:24 EST Exercising again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1764341 Okay...back on track for the week. I always feel better when I exercise. So why do I not continue this every day???? Let's hope this momentum continues for more than a few days. Mon, 2 Feb 2009 21:51:53 EST Off track again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1725649 So I was doing so well during the vacation. I had time to exercise and wanted to. Now I'm back to working both jobs and eating late and missing much needed sleep. Weekends have been for laundry and other household jobs. I really liked being more active. After I got sick, I just haven't had the time (nor the energy) to get back onto the Wii. I have been still doing most of the morning workouts, but they are just 10 minute little things. Some minor walking at work helps. UGH! I really... Wed, 21 Jan 2009 19:24:31 EST I'm sick! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1711161 Two days ago my nose was itchy and I was sneezy and a bit tired, but not much else. Today it's a cold! I don't feel much like working out. I'll get back on track in a couple of days. For now, I'll rest. Sat, 17 Jan 2009 21:52:21 EST Missing the Wii http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1699975 I could not use the Wii tonight and I'm dissappointed! I've really gotten to enjoy doing my 30 minutes a night! Wed, 14 Jan 2009 19:08:50 EST 8 days! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1686254 I think it might be a record for me to complete 8 straight days of exercise! I'm pretty excited that I have been able to stay motivated and on track! Sun, 11 Jan 2009 16:37:25 EST Staying on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1676163 I had a difficult day. It started out bad (someone broke into 3 of our cars and stole numerous items) and continued downhill for most of it. I didn't get to workout this morning as I have been doing each morning. That didn't feel good. AND we were going out to dinner tonight to indulge in some special treats. Would I be able to not overindulge and would I complete my workouts tonight? I was really concerned. Yet somehow I was able to do both workouts and not to overeat so much that I f... Thu, 8 Jan 2009 22:33:19 EST Forgiveness? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1668518 I read something yesterday that really made me feel like a weight lifted off my shoulders. Without going into the gory details, my family has become estranged...mostly my oldest brother and myself. I stand firm in my conviction that I made the right decision in removing him from my life, yet I feel pressure all the time from family members to "be the bigger person" and take the first step. I cannot and will not do this and I get a good amount of flack for my choice. I'm okay with my choic... Wed, 7 Jan 2009 11:38:43 EST Work Out Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1652543 So that workout seemed easier today, having done it yesterday by mistake. I am happy that I find myself motivate to complete this workout and do the Wii. I hope this continues! Maybe finding out that I had lost a half pound really did it for me. Sun, 4 Jan 2009 13:24:58 EST Gained a pound! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1645955 Goodness! I weighed myself 2 days ago and again today only to find I have gained a pound. I am not surprised considering the junk I've eaten the last few days, but it's still hard to take. I need to remember this feeling the next time I reach for the chips. Fri, 2 Jan 2009 22:11:14 EST Wii Fit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1641997 Day 2 of the Wii Fit and I'm thrilled with my ability to progress with each new activity. I hope my motivation and excitement continues! Thu, 1 Jan 2009 23:30:00 EST New Year's Resolution? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1629210 Every year I make these vows that I will do this or do that, but rarely do I follow through. Why does it take until this time of year before I want to "fix" something? Is this such a magical night that it will help me make this vow come to light? Obviously not. So this year I vow to not set myself up for failure. I need to work on these things all through the year, not just once a year. I promise! Mon, 29 Dec 2008 10:37:23 EST In the face of doubt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=808035 Doubt has been part of my daily life lately. With the loss of my mother and brother, I have questioned and second-guessed many choices I've made. I've learned a lot about myself as a result. One thing I know for sure....I am stronger than what I thought and I do not need to please others in order to be happy. I control my happiness, not others, and I will make the tough choices if I need to. It was, and continues to be, a hard lesson for me to learn and accept, but I am thankful that I h... Tue, 30 Oct 2007 22:03:25 EST The "value" of family http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=799023 My family has always had some form of dysfunction. I can remember many times having fingers pointed at others or hateful words spoken about a family member by another member. Sure we all have differences with people we love, but mine has often taken it to the extreme. Family reunions were always tension-filled opportunities for people to spew their disdain onto others. For many years I avoided these reunions because I could not take the hatred. It was only just recently that I realized ... Tue, 23 Oct 2007 22:07:21 EST The wisdom of listening http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=794778 This is an area that I definitely need to work on. I am a great talker, but I've lost the ability to be a good listener. I used to be good at it....I'm not sure what happened. Sat, 20 Oct 2007 18:32:42 EST What my hardships have taught me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=770221 I certainly have had a lot to deal with over the past year. Losing any one member of my family would be difficult, but 7 has really been tough. This compounded by my youngest going off to college a hour and a half away, and family troubles as a result of greed from the deaths of two family members. To top this all off....I'm a special education teacher for students with behavior disorders (autism, bipolar). My job can really add a decent amount of stress to my everyday life on its own. D... Tue, 2 Oct 2007 17:49:43 EST