JEWELMOTI's SparkPeople Blog JEWELMOTI's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Saturday I left the house at noon, went shopping, stopped at Mom's helped her take a shower. She fell in the shower. Thank Goodness I was there. She didn't get hurt. It took me a while but I got her up and dry. She was black and blue, but not hurt thank goodness. I got her hair cut and styled and stayed with her for an hour and a half to make sure she was okay. I can only hope that she stays safe until I can get her to live with me. <BR> Went home and made lazagna for Cousin David, he is going ... Sat, 8 Feb 2014 20:28:58 EST The Week End! Friday is here. What a great week it was. Being able to touch base with all of my Spark friends meant a lot to me. I hope you all have a great week end. Stay warm and focused! Fri, 7 Feb 2014 15:54:13 EST Digging out of the Snow I had to leave for work earlier today because we had quite a snow storm. Getting from the apartment to the car was just the first step. The snow was so high it was up to my thigh's in some places. I fell over probably 4 or 5 times. What a sight I must have been. I finally got to the car and the digging out began. 30 minutes later I was frozen solid and on my way to work. What a workout! <BR> I was never so happy to get to my office. I have the heater blasting, I am warming up with coffe... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 11:00:15 EST Target Well, now that I am officially back in the groove, I decided that last night I would start my exercise program. I no longer have my gym membership, so I decided to go to Target and brisk walk for 60 minutes. I was brilliant, I must admit. It was a great way to get my walking in, stay warm and not worry about snow and ice. Now I just have one little problem. I will need blinders not to spend any money. $50.00 later, I could have had a gym membership.... <BR> <em>33</em> Wed, 5 Feb 2014 12:31:02 EST Day after Okay, I went to the super bowl party armed with snacks from the Spark Cook Book. I didn't eat regularly. I skipped breakfast and lunch. I didn't drink all my water either. I was starved when I got there. I ate and had a great time. No alcohol. I was up in weight today. <BR> I realize what I did wrong. <BR> I have started my day with a great breakfast, brought my lunch, packed my snacks and have my water. I will succeed and not punish myself with banter about what was wrong with what... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 10:03:20 EST Super Bowl Commercial I fell in love with the yellow lab puppy and the Budweiser Clydesdale horses! Sun, 2 Feb 2014 22:44:55 EST Did God Say No! ? There are some people who would make you believe that you can do or be anything you want. All you need is the desire and motivation. I have always believed this to be true, but, recently I am beginning to think differently. <BR> I hear so many people say that they have no regrets. Yet I have so many. Can it be possible that I am right where I am supposed to be? <BR> So many of life's mysteries weigh heavily on me. Thank you my Spark Friends for listening. <em>40</em> Fri, 31 Jan 2014 15:40:21 EST Emotions and Control I have always been proud of the fact that I can ride the wave of most emotional situations that come my way. But what I now realize is that my emotional state is directly connected to control of my diet. It is now the forth day back and I am elated by the control I feel over food. I am controlling it, it is not controlling me. I haven't felt that feeling of depression, or spiraling out of control that was gripping me before. I didn't drop weight today. That is okay, especially because I kn... Wed, 29 Jan 2014 11:17:24 EST Day #3 Today is day 3 on the come back trail. I am down 1 lb. Tracking is making all the difference. What an eye opener! I have always heard that tracking was one key to success, but I have proved it. I couldn't seem to stop the hunger I was feeling, I felt out of control. I was spiraling, My emotions were awful. Once I started tracking again, I realized that I wasn't eating enough. I am still surprised by this. I was restricting my calories, Sometimes I skipped meals, I didn't get enough fruit... Tue, 28 Jan 2014 10:00:47 EST Day 2, Making a difference in Motivation. I feel so much better, now that I am tracking my food again. I really didn't realize that I wasn't getting enough calories. That is why I was feeling hungry! I had stopped drinking all my water. I was falling back into all the old habits that got me in trouble in the first place. It is funny how just clicking on Sparkpeople renewed my motivation. <BR> I think it is amazing that feeling in control of food intake makes such a difference in my whole emotional being. <BR> Thanks for walking... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 10:09:50 EST Introspective Progress... It has been 19 years since my beautiful daughter was the victim of a horrific murder. I got through the day... <BR> I couldn't help relive every moment... I got through the day... <BR> Her memory is so embedded in mine... <BR> Sometimes I can almost smell her fragrance... <BR> I can think about her now, and visualize the joy she gave to me and all those that came in contact with her... <BR> I can do that now and get through the day. <BR> My life will never be the same, but my new life, m... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 16:04:18 EST It's Saturday! I am so happy it is the week end. I wish each one of you light, love, peace and joy today and tomorrow. Sat, 8 Dec 2012 19:49:39 EST Doreen Virtue I have been reading and listening to books and audio tapes from Doreen Virtue. The information that she imparts is very interesting and helps to build self awareness. If you haven't read any of her books I recommend you try. Wed, 5 Dec 2012 14:20:17 EST Send Positive Energy I have read many blogs today about friends that feel unworthy, sad, or depressed. Please send positive thoughts to all that are struggling with difficult emotions. I think that collectively we can make a difference. <BR> <em>88</em> Mon, 26 Nov 2012 17:27:02 EST Success This is probably the first time in my life that I didn't feel deprived or out of control on Thanksgiving. <BR> It is remarkable the motivation and the thought processes that I have learned this past year. <BR> I have a good feeling that with the support of this wonderful website that I am becoming the person I always knew I could be. <BR> <em>9</em> Sun, 25 Nov 2012 13:11:08 EST Holiday Wishes How could I let these next few days pass with out letting all of my Spark friends know how thankful I am for all of you. <BR> I have said it so very many times, but one of the best things that I have ever done is to have discovered Sparkpeople. This is one one place where you never are judged, are uplifted, find people with like interests, etc.. <BR> I look forward to every day with enthusiasm to continue my journey side by side with all of you. <BR> With my Sister beside me and my Sparkers, ... Wed, 21 Nov 2012 11:22:33 EST Today Well, it is almost 5:00 on Wednesday. I have officially hit the wall. Boy am I tired right now. The thought of going to the gym is the last thing I want to do. <BR> That is the exact reason that I am going to force myself to do just that! <BR> Wish me luck! <em>315</em> Wed, 14 Nov 2012 17:00:32 EST Unusual banter Happy Monday Everyone! <BR> I had a very unusual message on Face Book from a friend of a friend. The gentleman really liked my profile picture, which was me swinging on a clothes pole from 1954. I have to admit, the picture really brings happy memories of a time gone by. Its funny looking back at it, you hardly ever see clothes poles any more. <BR> Any way, he recounted his own nostalgic times, and it was a pleasant exchange. Until I went to my home page this morning, and found that there was... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 16:31:05 EST Have a great Weekend HI Spark friends, <BR> I just wanted to wish you a wonderful weekend. I hope that you all get to do at least a little more exercise than usual and that you make the best choices you can. <em>240</em> Sat, 10 Nov 2012 12:18:14 EST Wonderful Time My time with Sam was filled with excitement, energy, joy, and I could go on and on. We talked about the books we are and have read. We talked about the trips we have taken, the cities we have seen, our families, our jobs, and his health. <BR> The best part of my night was finding out that his leukemia has been in remissions for 3 months. <BR> How wonderful to have been able to share a couple of hours with this remarkable man. <em>257</em> <BR> <em>214</em> Fri, 2 Nov 2012 15:08:15 EST Friendship Did you ever meet someone you took an immediate liking to? I met Sam in 1994. We were attending a trial. I had never met him before. He came up to me and handed me a long stem red rose. I was taken aback! Every year on the anniversary of that day he continues to send me red roses. We see each other maybe once a year. We never run out of things to say to each other yet we never impose on each other's life. I don't call him, he doesn't call me. Yet that bond is there. So strong! I know that i... Thu, 1 Nov 2012 16:31:34 EST Memory God gave us memory so that we would have Roses in December. <BR> I don't know who the author is, but I have roses today. <BR> <em>214</em> Wed, 31 Oct 2012 11:33:12 EST The Aftermath Hi My Dear Friends, <BR> Thank you for your warm wishes. They kept my family and I warm and safe. Not all were as lucky. Our shore line had to be evacuated because the beach completely eroded. Many lost power from high winds and fallen trees. <BR> My Daughter is the night manager of a large grocery store and they lost power. It is amazing how quickly they were able to keep every one safe, and the freezers from defrosting. <BR> All of our schools were closed, but we teachers came in and were... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 16:42:35 EST Hurricane time Well here we are right in the path of a hurricane and a cold front. Now here in Upstate NY are very used to inclement weather. Blizzards are a normal occurrence. But this proves to be some thing even worse. <BR> Stay home, <BR> Stay safe. <BR> Say prayers. <BR> <em>27</em> <em>54</em> <em>425</em> Mon, 29 Oct 2012 13:02:48 EST Music Did you ever notice how the language of music is understood by all? It is so powerful. It has the possibility to soothe, evoke sadness, happiness, anger, encouragement. <BR> <BR> How profound! <BR> <BR> Listening to Mozart is said to increase learning potential. House plants are said to flourish when listening to soothing music. When I am working out, if the music is playing I can lose myself in the exercise and forget about how hard I am actually working. <BR> <BR> Here is to Music. May... Tue, 16 Oct 2012 12:14:21 EST Change the way you look at things About 4 years ago, my very wise younger sister, witnessed me sinking into a deep depression. I was seeing a therapist at the time, but I couldn't pull myself up and out of the despair that had me in a stranglehold. <BR> <BR> She was speaking of this to her neighbor, Dorothy from Kansas, (I affectionately call her this), and Dorothy told her about a book that she had read that had had a very positive impact on her life. My sister immediately went out and bought me the tapes. It was called th... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 14:35:14 EST Like Ideas One of the things that fascinate me about being a Sparker is that there are so many of us, united, sharing similar ideas, goals, thoughts etc.. How lucky we are to have a founder that has contributed so much of himself so unselfishly, and has made a difference in so many lives. <BR> I am so grateful to have all of you for support, knowing exactly how I feel. <em>212</em> <em>240</em> <em>426</em> Fri, 12 Oct 2012 11:30:37 EST The F Word I have 15 lbs to get to my goal. I haven't put a time limit on myself. I am focusing on living a healthy life style, making good choices, increasing physical activity, and remembering that I am human, and if I make a poor decision, it isn't the end of the world. <BR> <BR> After reading different posts today, I found that I am still carrying the big bad baggage that the the word FAT represents to me. It made my skin crawl. I reverted into the self conscious, self doubting, low self esteem pe... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 11:52:17 EST Peter Pan I feel a little like Peter Pan today. I had my hair cut short. Now that my body is close to 100 lbs lighter, I needed new hair to match my little body. <BR> The first thing I thought of was, that I looked a little like Peter Pan, small, happy and able to fly. The new me feels so energized, accomplished and I know that there is really nothing I can't achieve if I put my mind to it. <BR> Come fly with me my Sparkfriends! <BR> <em>188</em> Wed, 10 Oct 2012 16:52:59 EST What a difference a day makes. Well, I feel so much more energized today. The frost was certainly on the pumpkin this morning! Thank you fellow sparkers for your encouragement. I think you were all right when you said that the weather got me down. It is funny how even the barometric pressure makes a difference in how we feel. <BR> I am more attuned to my body these days, so it made sense that I was sensitive to what was happening outside. <BR> Thanks for your support, I'm BACK! <BR> <em>334</em> Tue, 9 Oct 2012 11:07:45 EST Happy Monday I feel tired today. I am just dragging. I have been trying to eat alittle bit every 2 hours, to keep my metabolism burninhg, but it is a struggle today. I don't know if it is the grey weather or the cool temperature. I am going to go for a brisk walk, hopefully that will wake me up. Any other suggestions? <em>102</em> <em>86</em> Mon, 8 Oct 2012 13:37:00 EST Please help! Did any of you happen to see the story on the news about the 92 dogs that were dumped by Texas puppy mills? It went straight to my heart. These Maltese and King Charles Spaniels, were left to die on two separate roads. <BR> Texas has very strict laws that are trying to change the bad effects puppies mills are having on the animal population.. I can't imagine that people who love animals would do such a thing. I am outraged! I feel so helpless. The volunteers who have responded are true angels... Fri, 5 Oct 2012 10:14:27 EST How to inspire You know, every day I spend a good part of my day, trying to find something inspirational for my class. Now this is a Cosmetology class. These are men and women who are very artistic in their own right. I get most of my inspiration from them. But today, my sister sent me a link to youtube's Luie Schwartzberg's Gratitude, and it was profound. If you get a chance look at it. It was beautiful. <BR> Today's lesson is about what is the hottest fashion. I want them to look beyond the visual eye and... Thu, 4 Oct 2012 16:40:04 EST October goals Well another month is upon us. Like a new season goals, mission statements, and acheivements should be revisited and adjusted. For me the goals would be to lose one lb a week, go to the gym a minimum of 3 times a week, try to reach 5000 steps a day, and be a positive influence on as many people as possible. My mission statement this month is "Be the best that I can be" <BR> <em>386</em> Tue, 2 Oct 2012 12:06:09 EST Hello Monday Monday morning, it conjours images of sleepy showers, rushing to get dressed, trying to get my students raring to go. I used to hate mondays. After joining Sparkpeople, I have a renewed sense accomplishment. I reflect on a productive Sunday, and Monday gives the hope of renewed success at being in control of my life style change. I have been able to carry this feeling over to my students who have started to feel that Monday is a time to continue the progress they made the week before. It is... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 13:09:58 EST I am going to enjoy the calm Saturday evening and Sunday are my favorite times. This coming week promices to be a super busy week. I know for sure that I am scheduled for 59 hours. I am excited about the prospect of a fantastic paycheck, but I am already looking forward to next Saturday and Sunday. I will not be able to get to the gym. I will be out of sync for a short while. <BR> Saturday and Sunday I love you. Sat, 29 Sep 2012 18:59:21 EST Trouble eating all of my food I used to complain that I couldn't stop eating, but now that I am nearing my goal, I am having a hard time getting all of my calories in. I never thought I would say that, but I struggle each day to get a good balance. Fri, 28 Sep 2012 21:09:37 EST Dinner With Friends When friends called and asked me to meet them at the Cheese Cake Factory, I have to admit, at first I tried to make excuses not to go. Then I rethought the proposal and I said yes. I am very happy I did. <BR> I had 1/2 glass of Red Zin <BR> Chicken and Mushroom lettuce wraps <BR> Lots of Water with Lemon. <BR> Great conversation. <BR> Now that wasn't so hard. I was full and very happy to know that there are good choices even in places where you wouldn't ordinarily expect them to be. <BR> <e... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 16:22:11 EST What Great Friends To all of my fellow Sparkers, You lift me up. Love to all of you! <em>86</em> Wed, 19 Sep 2012 10:46:58 EST Trying to get back to normalcy Hi my fellow Sparkers. I am back to work today. Last Thursday we lost the patriarch of our family, and although it was a relief to the suffering he endured, ultimately it was a peaceful happy death, with loving family at his side. <BR> I feel blessed that I was able to tell him that I loved him and share some of my favorite uncle stories with him. I will never have the regret that I didn't say everything to him that I wanted to. <BR> I realized just how important that was, when I lost my dau... Tue, 18 Sep 2012 12:21:53 EST Happy Sunday Happy Sunday Everyone! It is my very favorite day of the week. God, familoy, food, friends. What a wonderful way to start the week. Sun, 16 Sep 2012 12:40:25 EST Tai Chi for Dummies Yesterday I went out to Barnes and Nobel and bought the only book they had on Tai Chi. I started reading, and am really enjoying it. So I can actually start from there. Also one of our fellow Sparkers took a class at a senior center in her town. I am going on the hunt to see if that might be a possibility for me. You know what they say "Where there is a will, there is a way"! I won't give up. <BR> <BR> I also lost a very special uncle yesterday. I had the good fortune to be with him just be... Fri, 14 Sep 2012 13:04:24 EST Disappointing Class Well, just as I thought, I loved the beauty, strength training and the meaning of the Tai Chi class that I attended last night. <BR> When I was finished there were also things that disappointed me. First of all I loved that the class was small. There were 6 of us including me. But the participants kept laughing and talking for the whole time the sensi was leading. They were really having such a good time, but I think I was looking for a more meditative state. The Sensi was also interrupted n... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 13:30:56 EST Tai Chi My journeys to the gym have proved to be a much more satisfying experience than I had originally expected. They have so many programs to chose from. I have been trying as many as I can, and tonight is Tai Chi. <BR> The first time I witnessed this beautiful art form I was in San Francisco. It was early morning, and I was lucky enough to be sitting in a park when a group of people started to gather. Before long they started the beautiful ritual of Tai Chi. It was inspiring to watch as each part... Wed, 12 Sep 2012 10:43:58 EST Beads of sparkling dew I looked out the sliding glass door early this morning, and the first thing that caught my eye was the sparkling dew on the plants, grass, bird houses and trees. The colors that radiated from every bead, burst into a rainbow, that filled me with the joy and happiness that I am carrying with me all day. <BR> How grateful I am to have vision, and all of my senses for that matter. What a gift that minute was, <BR> I thank God for all the gifts he as given me, and especially the gift of memory, s... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 13:42:18 EST Long Day! It's Monday again and my day started at 6:00 AM. Work began at 9. I will be in Admissions all day, we have a new class starting. When they leave the evening class comes in, I will teach from 6 -10. <BR> I love Tuesdays. I will only work until 8:30. It's a much easier day. <BR> <em>386</em> Mon, 10 Sep 2012 10:15:13 EST For the love of Sunday I got a wonderful restful sleep, woke up to the singing birds, went to the gym, and now the rest of the day will just unfold into the beautiful present that it is! Sun, 9 Sep 2012 13:32:14 EST Out with the old! Well I have spent the last 2 evenings cleaning out my closets of all of my FAT clothes. 57 blouses, 30 pairs of pants, 10 dresses, 6 suits, and 15 pairs of shoes. 7 large black garbage bags later, I have decided that I deserve the much smaller size clothing that I am. <BR> Tomorrow I will make the trip to Good Will and donate my old life and never look back! After a little more than a year of changing my life style of eating I can say that I will never be over weight again. <BR> I send these... Fri, 7 Sep 2012 10:39:56 EST I'm home All good things must come to an end, and so my wonderful trip to see my sister in Alabama, has ended. <BR> The memories will stay with me for a long long time. She lives on 25 acres in the middle of cotton fields, peanut plantations and a babbling brook. Every day was like waking up in the garden of Eden. Hundreds of humming birds lite on the many feeders she has placed on the windows around her house. There were butterflies of every color, deer by the hundreds, blue buntings, rabbits, and mo... Thu, 6 Sep 2012 14:30:22 EST Up, up and away! Today is the last day for the next week that I will be up dating my blog, or visiting sparkpeopoe. I am heading down to lower Alabama to spend time with my sister and her husband. I am counting the minutes and I will see you back in one week. See Y'all Tue, 28 Aug 2012 15:19:33 EST