JESSKA82581's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JESSKA82581 JESSKA82581's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Just venting on a rainy day (bear with me, this is long!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5780915 I know I should be proud with how far I've come but I feel that things can always be better. I suppose that's what motivates me to move forward in whatever I want to accomplish. Unfortunately, not everyone around me is a positive influence. <BR> I went to a bridal shower on Sunday for my mom's friend's daughter. I grew up with her and her sister and we were always pretty close. Things change over time and we all grew apart....I'm married, have a house, plus have dealt with many stru... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 10:37:40 EST Lack of motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5776079 Don't get me wrong, I LOVE to work out but there are some days that make getting on that elliptical so much harder. Especially when you get into a fight with a significant other, family member, friend or just having a bad day overall. Sometimes, you just don't feel well, whether emotional and/or physical. Right now I'm in my tank and cropped sweats, literally inches from where my sneakers are and elliptical, yet can't bring myself to do this. I'm upset, angry and have a stomachache but I ... Mon, 8 Sep 2014 19:49:47 EST Feeling blah http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5164520 Ugh...where do I begin? Everything seems to be going wrong for me nowadays. I feel lonely but the funny thing is, I know I'm not alone. I've been feeling sad, anxious, a feeling of dread and being down in the dumps. I lost a really good friend over something so ridiculous, I want to laugh out loud but I just can't. I guess it kind of hurts too much. Good friends are definitely hard to come by. <BR> <BR> I've been bingeing a lot over my worries at night, over thinking things, not exer... Wed, 12 Dec 2012 15:21:15 EST Scale won't budge..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5098908 I have been working out consistently; have lost a couple pounds, then gained it back. My problem is munching on goodies at night, when I'm stressed, anxious or just flat out bored. Some habits are super difficult to break for I have been dealing with eating issues since my early teens. <BR> <BR> Before I joined Spark, I lost 25lbs which I'm very proud of, don't get me wrong. I just want to get rid of the remaining 50 ASAP and it's very frustrating for me after seeing the scale not move ... Sun, 14 Oct 2012 17:42:23 EST Had a BAD Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5082872 Ugh, if only I could turn back time. My husband was off from work today and will also be off tomorrow so sometimes I allow myself to "cheat" on my diet those days. I never benefit from it in any way so while I'm thinking how great it feels at the moment; I immediately feel guilty afterwards. The whole day becomes a disaster because I allowed myself to cheat for "just this one day" once or twice a week. <BR> <BR> I feel so disappointed in myself. I didn't even workout today. I'm glad I... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 21:02:32 EST Starting again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5078602 Yesterday was the first time I worked out in a long while. I'm proud to say that even though it has been weeks since my last workout before then, I completed the usual 40 minutes. The last 10 minutes are the hardest but at the same time it's the best part of the whole workout. I really feel like I'm pushing it to the extreme when it gets to that point and am loving that feeling of accomplishment that settles in immediately afterwards. <BR> <BR> I did overeat a little bit in the evening bu... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 15:37:36 EST