JESSKA82581's SparkPeople Blog JESSKA82581's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Feeling blah Ugh...where do I begin? Everything seems to be going wrong for me nowadays. I feel lonely but the funny thing is, I know I'm not alone. I've been feeling sad, anxious, a feeling of dread and being down in the dumps. I lost a really good friend over something so ridiculous, I want to laugh out loud but I just can't. I guess it kind of hurts too much. Good friends are definitely hard to come by. <BR> <BR> I've been bingeing a lot over my worries at night, over thinking things, not exer... Wed, 12 Dec 2012 15:21:15 EST Scale won't budge..... I have been working out consistently; have lost a couple pounds, then gained it back. My problem is munching on goodies at night, when I'm stressed, anxious or just flat out bored. Some habits are super difficult to break for I have been dealing with eating issues since my early teens. <BR> <BR> Before I joined Spark, I lost 25lbs which I'm very proud of, don't get me wrong. I just want to get rid of the remaining 50 ASAP and it's very frustrating for me after seeing the scale not move ... Sun, 14 Oct 2012 17:42:23 EST Had a BAD Day Ugh, if only I could turn back time. My husband was off from work today and will also be off tomorrow so sometimes I allow myself to "cheat" on my diet those days. I never benefit from it in any way so while I'm thinking how great it feels at the moment; I immediately feel guilty afterwards. The whole day becomes a disaster because I allowed myself to cheat for "just this one day" once or twice a week. <BR> <BR> I feel so disappointed in myself. I didn't even workout today. I'm glad I... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 21:02:32 EST Starting again Yesterday was the first time I worked out in a long while. I'm proud to say that even though it has been weeks since my last workout before then, I completed the usual 40 minutes. The last 10 minutes are the hardest but at the same time it's the best part of the whole workout. I really feel like I'm pushing it to the extreme when it gets to that point and am loving that feeling of accomplishment that settles in immediately afterwards. <BR> <BR> I did overeat a little bit in the evening bu... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 15:37:36 EST