JESSIHOVER2's SparkPeople Blog JESSIHOVER2's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Farewell 2016! Another year has been lived! This year was a lot like the previous 5. I'm loving my healthy lifestyle. I'm still making goals and giving everything I've got to achieve them. <BR> Some of my highlights from 2016 <BR> * Stayed within my 10 pound goal weight range <BR> * worked out every day <BR> *PR'd running times <BR> * Ran 1830 miles <BR> * Ran a Spartan <BR> * Stayed Active <BR> * Became an outdoorsy camper <BR> * Started working full time <BR> <BR> Has 2016 been all sunshine and rainbo... Sat, 31 Dec 2016 18:35:01 EST Life After Reaching Your "Goal" Most people who start a weight loss journey have a goal in mind. A goal weight, a goal size; etc. This is where the hard part comes in; what happens when you reach that goal. Does that mean your journey is over? <BR> <BR> I think this is where a lot of people go wrong. Reaching your goal shouldn't be an end point, but instead the beginning of a new life. When your primary goal has been reached it's hard to think of what comes next. I mean you did it, can't life just be normal again? Well the... Sun, 15 May 2016 12:41:01 EST 4 Years of Maintenance! In February 2011 I went to my daughters kindergarten orientation and realized I was the biggest mom there. I didn't want to be the "fat mommy" when she started school. <BR> <BR> I decided that day I was willing to do whatever it takes to lose weight, no excuses. I started eating better and little by little started working out. By the time she started school I had lost 60+ pounds. By February 8th 2012 I hit my goal weight. <BR> <BR> It has now been exactly 4 years to the day since I hit m... Mon, 8 Feb 2016 21:53:26 EST Wrapping Up 2015 In the new year I don't make a resolutions I make goals. To me a resolution is a dream without a plan, so I prefer goals, this gives me something to work towards all year. <BR> <BR> Below is my list of goals from 2015 and how I did. Overall 2015 was AMAZING hoping that 2016 can be just as good, or better. <BR> <BR> 2015 Goals <BR> Do 5 consecutive pull-ups Got up to doing 10, not great form but done <BR> Master a handstand ... Wed, 30 Dec 2015 22:59:54 EST Mid-Year Check In I logged in last night and realized that it was the first time I'd even logged onto Sparkpeople in about 2 months. Nothing big to report, just living. I've been steadily maintaining at my goal weight range, working on more muscle building and am currently 368 days into a running streak. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I've ran a... Wed, 19 Aug 2015 21:07:41 EST 3 Year Maintenance Anniversary On February 8th I celebrated my 3 year maintenance anniversary. Since reaching my goal weight I have fear every single day that I would fail. Every morning I thought I would wake up and be 300 pounds again. Every morning I didn't wake up big again I was shocked. For an the entire first year of maintenance I remained scared to death I would get fat again. This started to grow into an eating disorder, and after and intervention of sorts I had to re-evaluate what I was doing. Did I seriously los... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 21:36:52 EST Another Year, Another Update Apparently all I do now is update. Lol! I guess that means maintenance is going so well constant accountability isn't as important as it used to be. <BR> <BR> I woke up a few mornings ago to a message from Sparkpeople stating that I was a motivator of the day, I'm not sure that my motivator quality is high, but it felt great to know that people find me motivational, I'm sure if I were on here more I might understand that. <BR> <BR> Anyways, as for the update, I guess there's not much to up... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 22:22:11 EST Maintenance. I have been maintaining my "goal" weight for just over 2 years 10 months, only 2 short months from my 3 year maintenance anniversary. These past nearly three years have been crazy. I have gone from over obsessed, to not caring at all and now I am FINALLY just feeling normal. I went from my goal weight of 160 alway down to 130 very unhealthy pounds and all the way back up to 160, some days give or take a few pounds. <BR> <BR> I am now steadily maintaining around 150. 160 May be my "goal" wei... Fri, 12 Dec 2014 00:21:52 EST Busy Summer I have had such an amazing summer. Tons of running, strength training, swimming and sun tanning, this Utah weather has been amazing this summer and I am finally feeling comfortable in a bathing suit. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Celebrated my 10 year wedding anniversary. <BR> <BR> <img ... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 19:56:53 EST Overdue Catch-Up So.... 3 months have passed since my last blog. Don't worry, I haven't fallen off the wagon and I haven't given up. <BR> <BR> Mainly I just live life. I have been enjoying life in my new body, after all that is the ultimate goal, to be healthy and "normal". It feels great to not be completely obsessed with my weight. Don't get me wrong I still track all my food and exercise, I just don't spend all day thinking about what I ate, or how much I need to exercise. I do feel like it was necessa... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 19:29:56 EST Gym Machines are Dirty Liars!! Maintenance for me has been such a set of trial and errors. I have been maintaining my "goal range", which has also been quite the learning experience. Anyways for the past year I have been maintaining at the top of my range, which even though is in range, it not my goal weight. So for the past year I have been actively, all be it not very seriously, trying to drop about 10 pounds, yeah that's right 10 pounds! My goal range has a 20 pound spread. Like I said it's been a learning experience bu... Sun, 9 Mar 2014 23:47:15 EST 2 Years Of Maintenance So I made it to that all magical 2 year mark. <BR> <BR> Supposedly when you make the 2 year mark of maintenance your chances of regaining the weight drop down to 50%, not great odds but much better than the 95% within the first year. <BR> <BR> But really what do those odds mean? Do those odds keep me from eating whatever I want? Do those odds drag my butt out of bed and to the gym? No! Just because my odds are increased certainly doesn't mean that the I can relax on the hard work. <BR> <B... Sun, 9 Feb 2014 17:28:19 EST I Gave In. I totally caved, though probably not what your expecting. Maintenance is going great! What I've given in to is running races. For so long I've been totally against paying to run. I run for myself. I don't run to prove anything to anyone else besides me. But the racing bug has bit. It bit first when I ran a relay race. It was fun and the feeling of accomplishment was amazing. Then it bit again when I ran, and MURDERED a 10k. Crossing the finish line just feels great. Don't get me wrong, everyd... Wed, 15 Jan 2014 21:55:31 EST Embrace the Number Occasionally I get down on myself because I weigh more than I did at my lowest weight. I find myself wanting to lie about how much I weigh. But I got to thinking, what not embrace that number. Wear the number with pride, be proud of the person you are, the person you were and the person you are going to be. There is no reason to be embarrassed or down about any number. Even if it's not the lowest weight, even if it's the highest weight, it is yours. Be happy with the person you are. If you wa... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 23:56:36 EST 2013 vs 2014 Measurements Last January 1st I posted a blog with my measurements. I figure I might as well do the same thing this year, it's a good way to track my maintenance. <BR> <BR> Pictures 2013 vs 2014 <BR> <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src="http... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 11:16:14 EST Highlights of 2013 2013 has been a year of finding myself. Learning to love myself. Learning to feel comfortable in this new body and really just learning to live again. <BR> <BR> I have managed to stay within my goal weight range, but lost inches. <BR> <BR> I started and completed Jamie Eason's 12 week program <BR> <BR> I ran 10+ miles without stopping. <BR> <BR> I ran a 10k, in almost PR time. <BR> <BR> I did 100 push-ups <BR> <BR> I ran 1030 miles!!!! <BR> <BR> I'm starting to feel more comfortable, ... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 20:56:42 EST 95 Weeks I am now in my 95th week of maintenance. That's 665 days since I reached my goal weight. It hasn't been all easy, in fact I would say much harder than losing weight. Just like anything else in life there have been ups and downs, 665 days of them. <BR> <BR> When I first entered into maintenance I got so scared of gaining the weight back that not only did I not increase calorie intake, but I actually decreased it and increased exercise. I got dangerously close to having a full blown eating di... Fri, 6 Dec 2013 14:28:54 EST Progress.... Well kind of. I normally like to take progress pictures, however; I haven't done one since April 3rd. It was day 93 of the year, now here we are at day 321. Not a whole lot has changed. I'm staying pretty steady at the high end of my goal range, but I am feeling healthy and happy so maybe the high end is just my goal. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.spar... Sun, 17 Nov 2013 20:49:52 EST Family Pictures This weekend we did our annual family pictures. It is so nice to be able to have pictures taken and not want to die when I see them. It always makes me reminisce on the past and where I have come from. Anyways just had to share my journey through family photos. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> 2009 <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> 2010 <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sun, 29 Sep 2013 22:17:21 EST Vacation, Milestones and Life I just returned from vacation! It was so much fun. I was able to spend my 30th birthday in DISNEYLAND! Not only is it the happiest place on earth but the best place ever to spend a birthday, they really know how to make you feel special there. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The last time I was in Disneyland was almost 5 years ago. I was easily at my heaviest weight. It was fun last time but I was so restricted. Walking was difficult... Sun, 8 Sep 2013 01:58:17 EST Summer. Summer is quickly coming to an end, school starts tomorrow!! It has been an amazing summer. I have been super busy working full time all summer, that was kind of a bummer. Starting tomorrow I am back to my part time work (I love having extra time to run!) <BR> Last week I celebrated my 9th anniversary. My husband and I had a great dinner date and had some time to just enjoy each other, my baby was at her grandparents for the week. <BR> <img src=" Tue, 20 Aug 2013 09:07:40 EST Oh those summer days.... Summer is in full swing here. I am so loving it. It has been warm, some days ALMOST unbearable, but those summer mornings and nights are the best. My favorite thing about summer is that the sun is out so much longer, which means I get to run A LOT more, and I have been. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Unfortunately my love for running has been keeping me away from the gym, luckily my guns are still polished. ;-). I did find what is now one ... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 00:42:54 EST Re-evaluating goals. My goal at the beginning of the year was to be in swim suit shape by May. Well May has came. I don't know what I was wanting, I know I had a number in mind, but I never did reach that number. I was so stuck on the idea of the number that I didn't realize I already was in swimsuit shape. It goes to show there is never an "ideal" anything. The only thing that is "ideal" is your own perspective. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Fri, 21 Jun 2013 17:53:49 EST Craziness. Finally I am able to relax. This past week has been CRAZY busy. It all started with a visit to the doctor where we learned my daughter had pnemonia, here I thought she just had allergies, oops. <BR> <BR> Then we had a visit from my little brother and some of his friends. They were up here on their senior trip and wanted to stay the night at my house. When then made a 4 hour trip to my home town to drop them off and head to a baby shower of one of my childhood friends. I went to the local ar... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 23:40:08 EST Skinny vs Healthy The other day I was having a discussion with my mom and like always body image and weight came up. I was talking about how I wasn't that happy with the weight that I've put back on. I don't like the NUMBER. It's not really about how I look and definitely not how I feel I just hate the numbers. I have been trying to do the whole "No Weight May", well I've cheated a few times. For the past few weeks my weight hasn't moved, which I guess it's a good thing it hasn't increased but with my eating a... Thu, 23 May 2013 19:33:48 EST Life gets Busy! Mother's Day was awesome! I was waited on all day, I laid out in the sun (for WAY TOO LONG) and ate. It was nice, relaxing and was exactly what I was needing. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> (Mother's Day Dress) <BR> <BR> I did have to deal with a wicked sunburn all week, thanks to my 2 hours in the sun, and it was horrible putting on my workout clothes, but I did it anyways. I have started my morning runs again, which are like heaven. There is... Fri, 17 May 2013 17:55:23 EST Feeling Zen For the past few weeks I have been out of sorts. Not depressed, not UN-motivated, nothing really specific, just not myself. Bod food choices were a big culprit and of course that special visitor didn't help. <BR> <BR> For some reason today, I just feel balanced. I feel at peace with life, my choices and where I am going in life. <BR> <BR> As much as I like knowing how much I weigh, it has been such a good feeling to go into the gym and not weigh myself. I have been tempted but have held of... Wed, 8 May 2013 19:09:50 EST Sparkpeople vs. MyFitnessPal For over 2 years now I have loved Sparkpeople. It has helped me so much and in so many ways. However; I have recently started using MyFitnessPal. It is so much more user friendly, way more technologically advanced and focus way less on being "skinny". I don't foresee not using Sparkpeople but I am pretty sure for all things tracking I'm going to have to go with MyFitnessPal. Wed, 8 May 2013 00:03:06 EST Trial and Errors I have been crazy grumpy, moody and making horrible food choices lately. Turns our my "monthly visitor" has decided to come after almost a year hiatus. I would say I'm upset but really I am just happy to have a reason for the way I have been feeling/acting lately. The only bad thing is that it has had some negative effects on my weight. <BR> <BR> That being said I am have decided to take part in the "NO WEIGH MAY" <BR> <BR> For the rest of May I am not going to weigh myself (normally I wei... Mon, 6 May 2013 00:17:16 EST Be your own inspiration. The other day I read a blog by BEECHNUT13. It was about being bikini ready. The point of it was, you are bikini ready if you are ready to wear a bikini. It was the perfect thing for me to read. My goal at the beginning of the year was to be bikini ready by summer. <BR> <BR> What does that even mean? <BR> <BR> You says what bodies are "ready" to wear a bikini. We always have an inspiration photo. A picture of our "ideal" body. But really your ideal body should be YOUR BODY. Not someone else'... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 23:51:16 EST New Beginnings On November 9th 2012 we bought a house. It was an amazing accomplishment, something we had been wanting for years. It actually happened really quickly. In September we went and got our oil changed and as we were waiting we looked at cars. My husband kept thinking he wanted to buy a new car, I told him there was no way we were buying a car until after we bought a house. So that started the process. From starting to look until actually moving in was less than two months. It barely gave me enoug... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 02:04:39 EST Guilt I have noticed that I often feel guilty for being happy. I feel like I am going to become complacent if I am satisfied with my weight. If I am happy weighing 155, it will lead to being happy weighing 160, 170 and then before you know it I am back up to 300 pounds. <BR> <BR> But why can't I be happy. Sure I am 20+ pounds heavier than my low weight, sure based on BMI standards I am overweight. <BR> <BR> But what about my standards? <BR> <BR> I'm not sure that I will ever be "satisfied" wit... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 19:25:04 EST Completing Goals Since September I have been trying to start, and FINISH, a workout program. I started it a few times and each time I would make it about half way through and get scared and give up. The second half of the program is challenging. Now I am always up for a challenge. I love challenging myself in running, I love challenging myself in weight loss, I love challenging myself in just about anything. <BR> <BR> The thing is I only like to challenge myself if it's something I am pretty sure I can succe... Fri, 22 Mar 2013 22:40:22 EST The Ever Changing Tides When I was at the peak of my weight loss and for most of my early maintenance period, I could have never imagined not having a daily calorie deficit. Now I an having a hard time reaching this goal. It is such a crazy thought. I know before I was a little crazy. I had gone a little too far. All my family, friends and doctor were saying it was time to gain some of the weight back. I couldn't even fathom that idea. Gain weight back, but then I did. It was easier than I hoped. I have gained about... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 00:08:27 EST Taking Off the Training Wheels This week has been amazing!! The weather has been absolutely perfect. For the first time since September, I have been running outside. The gym has been amazing, running on the treadmill was far less horrible than I thought it would be. But there is just something about running outside that makes me feel alive. <BR> <BR> It's like that feeling of taking your training wheels off for the first time. It is scary, you're not sure what to expect but then all of the sudden you get it. It's there an... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 18:19:03 EST Exercise is my Savior I swear exercise is the only thing that keeps me sane. Exercise is the only thing that keeps me energized and after last weeks horrible eating exercise was the only thing that kept me fit. I did gain a little weight this week but I can't imagine what would have happened if I hadn't exercised all week on top of the bad eating. <BR> I know I go a little crazy with my exercise sometimes, and for some people it might seem excessive. But seriously I would be such a hag if I didn't workout. I have... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 19:10:15 EST Shame or Accountability Last night I removed my shared food tracker off of my Spark page. I was embarrassed of what I ate yesterday, which seriously I'm not sure HOW I ate so much. I mean not figuratively but literally I'm not sure how it all fit. LOL. <BR> <BR> When I woke up this morning I realized that the thing that I love the most about Sparkpeople is the fact that there is extra accountability. I mean it's not that I think there are people out there policing my food tracker, or really people that care about ... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 12:34:51 EST 12 Months of Lessons To celebrate my 1 year of maintenance I decided to share some lessons I've learned over the past year. <BR> <BR> 1. It is possible to lose TOO MUCH WEIGHT: <BR> To me this concept seemed unbelievable. I mean if I was still losing weight it was because I needed to. Turns out losing too much weight can be unhealthy too. This was a hard lesson for m. I felt like the less I weighed the better I was doing, that is not always true. <BR> <BR> 2. Working on mental health is important also. <BR... Fri, 8 Feb 2013 20:48:48 EST 1 Year!! Friday will mark my 1 year anniversary of being at, or below, my goal weight of 160 pounds, better known as 1 YEAR OF MAINTENANCE!!! This past year has been one of the hardest years I have ever experienced. Don't get me wrong life has been great. I feel amazing! However; maintenance is HARD! For me losing the weight was a crazy, fun, trying experience, and although physically hard it didn't take nearly the toll that maintenance has on my mind and soul. <BR> <BR> <BR> Yet here I am one yea... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 19:57:05 EST Life. It's amazing to me how an amazing workout can make me feel. I love that after an awesome run everything about life just seems right. <BR> <BR> I may not be at my lowest weight (not sure that I want to be there again), I may not like every inch of my body, I may not always make good eating choices and I may not be perfect. <BR> <BR> I may not be a lot of things I wish I was, but what I am is dedicated. I have worked hard to achieve what I am today. I made myself what I wanted to be, I made... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 21:36:11 EST Never a Failure I have been making bad choices, mostly food wise. I know that I shouldn't eat excessively, I know I should eat fresher, non processed food. I know that my food choices are directly effecting my goals. I know that I would like to be more fit and I know that the way I'm eating isn't going to do that. <BR> <BR> I do know I am too hard on myself, but I feel like it's the only way to keep myself real. I have to hate myself. I also know that's not true. I know that I need to be real with myself b... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 19:14:16 EST I want to be a brave girl. I'm not much of an emotional eater, that being said, it does happen occasionally. Last night was one of those night. My husband is a plumber and with the freezing temperatures he has been working super late every night for the past 2 weeks, plus I've had a bit of a cold and to top it off I'm on my period (for the first time in over 6 months). <BR> <BR> Don't get me wrong, I've been a bit on and off on the whole healthy eating for the past few months. Buying a house, moving, holidays and life... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 22:56:26 EST Maintaining. The goal weight I set- 160 lbs. I set it at the beginning of 2012 hoping to get there by August of 2012. Well on February 8th 2012 I reached my "goal weight". I wasn't sure just where I wanted to be. I had thought that 160 would be perfect. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> (Goal Weight) <BR> <BR> I still had curves and I looked good, but why not lose more. So I did. I ended losing another 28 lbs before I bottomed out at 132 lbs. I was beyond happ... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 20:37:40 EST New Year. New Goals I have decided to start the new year off with some new goals. I have also decided it is time for me to gain back some of my self control, once you relax it's hard to reign it in by yourself. So I think it is time for me to start tracking and start holding myself more accountable, it is so much harder to eat like crap when you know other people are seeing it. One of the many reasons I love Sparkpeople, I have to be held accountable for what I'm eating and doing. <BR> <BR> Today is my day ZER... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 15:08:11 EST Forgetting. It's so funny how time can make you forget. I forget how far I've come, I forget how much work I've done and I forget what life used to be like. <BR> It is nice that I'm able to put the past in the past. It feels good to not think of myself as the fat girl, or the former fat girl. It feels good to just live in the now. But then there are the times that I eat like crap, gain a little weight and feel like the world is falling apart. I forget that I am no longer 300 pounds. <BR> It is funny ho... 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