JESSIELABRAKE's SparkPeople Blog JESSIELABRAKE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Goal pants <img src=""> So about 4 years ago maybe even 5 I bought a pair of pants I wanted to be my "goal" pants. Something I hang on the wall to keep me going. I tried them on today. Well they don't button but they go up over my butt and they are about 1 size too small right now :) very excited!!! Oh and they aren't stretchy material which makes it that much more exciting for me!!! Tue, 7 Jun 2016 20:02:33 EST Pushed through the 220's!!! Finally pushed through my 220's as of this morning! I have 30 days before my goal date to get to 200. Not sure if I will make it. Not going to get down on myself of I don't but really going to push myself hard these next 30 days. Taking the kids to florida really want to look decent in a bathing suit ;) here's to hoping my plan works Tue, 24 May 2016 20:53:22 EST Feeling down Well my husband told me he got invited to a pampered chef party that was going to be for his guy friends. Which fine whatever. But then I get there and his buddies kids are there the girlfriends and wives and there. And I'm just like what the heck? Not sure really how to feel what to think. Not sure if he knew or what. Kind of bothered considering I've known them for 10 years. Who knows maybe I'm just over thinking it because I've been in a real funk lately with all of my ailments I have goin... Sat, 21 May 2016 17:33:38 EST Son battling weight problems too So my son is on alot of medicine because of his adhd and anger issues. He has been for years. He's 8 years old now. Within the last year or so he's shot up from 60lbs to 85lbs. Now my son is starting to get self esteem problems because of his weight. He hears us talk about it at the Dr appts and when we try to talk to him about making healthy food choices he gets offended and mad and goes into his anger mode. His nutritionist has suggested when we buy groceries and we get bags of snack foods ... Thu, 19 May 2016 22:31:33 EST Came across this <img src=""> <BR> Thought this was pretty good information and made sense Mon, 16 May 2016 01:48:53 EST View in the breakroom!! <img src=""> <BR> Love the view in my breakroom at work. So many temptations. And there's soda machines too Sat, 14 May 2016 18:30:35 EST Horrible day!! Today I woke up and went to work early. I received a phone call from my sister. My step brother, his two children, his cousin, and my other step brothers two children were killed in a fire this morning! My mind can't even process what has happened. I don't speak to my mom really but I reached out to her especially since she's basically lost a son, and 4 grand children, and also a nephew. Going to log off of here for a bit and try to get some sleep hopefully and give my little ones some very ... Fri, 6 May 2016 22:15:54 EST Dealing with daily pain I'm trying to lose weight again. About 4 years ago I lost 50 pounds. But when I started working retail my body started hurting daily. I figured it was just because my body was adjusting. 3 years later and 4 surgeries later I'm still having horrible pain. I'm finally caving and opting for nerve blocks. The issues I'm having are working through the pain to exercise, not eating everything in sight when I'm down and hurting, and not getting discouraged. I'm down 14 pounds. I've done this mainly b... Fri, 22 Apr 2016 10:30:12 EST been absent for 2 years..... I stopped exercising and dieting 2 years ago when I started my new job mainly because of the pain I was in after a 9 hour shift of being on my feet. ever since then I have gained 40 pounds back! Ever since then my pain has gotten worse. I have this pain it feels like its in my muscle mostly but sometimes it feels like its in my bones. I have seen an orthopedic doctor and there is nothing wrong with my bones or anything. So now waiting to get back in to my primary doctor to see if there are ot... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 11:45:48 EST Progress so far I had hoped to be further along than I am right now in my weight loss journey. But I cant complain because I get compliments everywhere I go that I know someone. My goal during my biggest loser spring challenge is to atleast get into the 180's its still doable but I have had so many things come up that my exercising has taken the back burner, but I have been eating right still. so I havent given up its just slowed down right now. I wanted to post a picture of how far I have come since septemb... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 07:31:42 EST Such a horrible disappointing day...... I dont even know where to begin with my day. Started out fine then went to my mother in laws and i Love my mother in law and the stress didnt come from her at all. It was my children. My son who is usually the one who bounces off of the walls and gets into trouble with his attitude was good. It was my daughter! My daughter isnt my husbands child so there is only relation by marriage for her with these people aside from her brother of course. So my daughter gets an easter basket from my mother... Sun, 31 Mar 2013 15:24:00 EST Finally said goodbye to the 200's permanantly! I know i posted a onderland blog already but I have offically said goodbye to the 200's FOREVER! I weighed in this morning at 197......and i dont plan on going back lol. So happy! I cannot believe that I am under 200 such an amazing feeling! Gives me hope for the rest of my goal :) Fri, 22 Mar 2013 13:35:41 EST ONDERLAND!!!! So today isnt my weigh in day or anything but I stepped on the scale this morning and it said im 199 and oh so close to 198! I am so excited i havent been under 200 in YEARS! I just wanted to share my AMAZING news with everyone because without this site i would have never in a million years succeeded! <em>104</em> Sun, 17 Mar 2013 09:52:50 EST Starting the spring biggest loser challenge..... I normally fail when it comes to joining challenges on here. But this time I am going to succeed. Starting tomorrow I am doing all of the things I have set for myself to do. No more takeout, cardio everyday, 10 glasses of water everyday, and 3 different ab exercises 4 times a week! <BR> I am going to fight through the pain and complete these challenges. I have to do it because I want this for me and I am worth it! Cant wait to start. Fri, 15 Mar 2013 10:49:21 EST Moving on to a new pant size!! So February was a bust for me reaching a weight goal. But I did hit another milestone in my weight loss journey. I am not out of 18's and am officially in 16's. Im so freaking happy! this definitely helps my motivation problems i have been having. now i really want to work even harder now to get to my goal weight. as if people noticing my weight loss wasnt enough motivation for me already. but i have found myself slacking off the last few weeks. not too sure why. Im thinking i might be sabata... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 22:39:09 EST Feeling pretty good! This week started out looking like it was going to be a bad weigh in week and turned out to be a great one! I ate horribly starting saturday and ended on tuesday. I cant remember the crap that i actually ate but I am shocked that I still lost 2 pounds. Although i did still exercise through those days. I am now 201 pounds and Im 2 pounds away from my goal weight i set for myself at the end of january. I am very excited to say that it looks like it might happen this time and im so excited. In t... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 08:51:05 EST Not so good news.... So went to the doctors today for my yearly exam. They found a lump in my breast today. Havent gone to the lab yet to get my ultrasound yet. will be going tomorrow after my morning classes. Not sure what to think right now. Just hoping its nothing bad. They said it could be a cyst. so given the news from today I didnt make a great choice for dinner. Im sure im under my calories but not healthy. Im just not feeling up to doing anything today. The more i sit here and think about it the more I am... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 19:24:16 EST ordered my new equipment!!!!!! hello all. I just placed my order for my new exercise equipment. I ordered a recumbant bike and an elliptical. I of course bought the warranties for them just in case something happens. <BR> <BR><BR>idetrainer-380-Elliptical-Trainer/1199<BR>3393 <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR><BR>le-Trainer-390-R-Recumbent-Exercise-Bi<BR>ke/21569964 <... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 10:14:45 EST Pretty happy saying goodbye :) I am so happy right now. Really enjoying saying goodbye to all of this extra weight. I was talking to a friend last night and realized that I am only 9 pounds away from 50 pounds lost. that feels so AMAZING to say. Never in my life did i ever think I could do this. I am so excited to have more and more weight come off. I can see how weight loss can become an addiction lol. I really cant wait to get my recumbant bike and my elliptical. I should have them within the next few weeks. My basement ... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 14:39:40 EST FINALLY BUDGED MY WEIGHT!! After getting frustrated about not losing weight. I decided that it was my fitbit causing the problem. Well I decided not to listen to it telling me i needed to eat more calories. I went back to the way I was doing things before. I figured out roughly what I am supposed to be eating by things I have read on the internet. And this week I lost 2 pounds! Thank God I was starting to get discouraged. Fri, 25 Jan 2013 21:07:26 EST Getting frustrated again! Okay so I have not budged from 210 for 2 weeks now. I dont know what has happened but I have been working harder than I was previously and still NOTHING! My body is aching from me working it so hard. So I have decided to change some things. I use the fitbit and it is working great. The only problem is I think that it telling me to eat more because I was more active is hurting me. So Im going back to the way I was doing things before the fitbit came along. I am going to eat a certain amount of... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 06:47:56 EST New purchase So went to Kmart tonight to spend a gift card from christmas. Was going to buy a coffee pot originally. But something else caught my eye. I noticed a punching bag on sale for 60 originally 100. couldnt pass up that deal. Now I need to get it hung up. I have never used one before so I guess I better start getting ideas as to what to do with the thing lol. Very happy with my decision to get that instead of the coffee pot. atleast this way I will not gain weight from drinking the coffee with sug... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 19:46:56 EST trying to help a friend lose So my room mate who lives with my husband and I has decided he wants to lose weight, but he isnt an active person. so i am trying to help him through food. I know he should be active but he just isnt. He keeps to himself most of the time he is that type of personality. But he asked me what he needs to change. His typical day had consisted of sleeping during the day and staying up all night. Eating entire packs of snickers bars full size among other candy bars all at once. Going to the store a... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 10:02:40 EST pictures so i was going through the file i have of all of my pictures i have been taking and its crazy the difference i see. makes me feel great knowing that im progressing. I know i sounds silly but this entire time i have been working on the weight loss and i dont feel too different except knowing im losing weight. now i see pictures i know im losing now. <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> 248 pounds 9/28/12 <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 22:33:50 EST Thoughts on the Fitbit so far There are alot of things that I am enjoying about the Fitbit. It keeps track of how many calories I have burned throughout the day and tells me if I am on track for the weight loss goal I have set for myself. it tells me if im under or over calories for my target weight. That is really helpful. So if i need to move more or eat more it tells me! <BR> <BR> It also tracks my sleeping pattern. I push the button and the from that time it can tell what time i actually fell asleep, how many times ... Sat, 22 Dec 2012 21:56:09 EST i am setting a goal for myself...... I have decided to finally set a goal for myself. i have had little goals but this one is a big one. I want to be under 200 by Feb 1st. this is the first official goal i have used a date with. im 16 pounds away from this goal so i do see it as obtainable. but i know how life is. I so badly want to be able to tell people im under 200 it will feel amazing! im gonna start cracking down on myself again and start doing what i need to be doing again. And since i have my fitbit now it will be easier ... Fri, 21 Dec 2012 07:21:45 EST much better week I am having a much better week. I am down the 5 pounds that i gaine back and my toe is much better this week! i have a few more weeks before i have to get my other foot cut open so im going to take advantage of this and do as much as i can. cant believe how much that 5 pound gain had me down :( i was so disappointed in myself but now im back on track and school is over with so now i can really focus on myself well and my family lol. Fri, 14 Dec 2012 07:16:07 EST having a horrible time right now So since i had my ingrown toenail cut out my exercise and my ambition has just went completely away :( this weeks weigh in was horrible i dont even want to tell anyone. im going to get back to working on this on sunday. i really do not like winter and its the worst for having energy. it doesnt help that i am sick now for the first time in a year! That is definitely taking away from my ambition too. gotta get back on it because my weight i have lost is slipping away from me too fast. Fri, 7 Dec 2012 08:47:49 EST got the exercise bike..... So one of my "friends" sold me a recumbent bike for 45 dollars. thought it was a great deal. well there is something wrong with it of course. the belt was off when i got it home. ok no big deal i was able to fix it. so using it this morning and it stopped spinning. i havent opened it up yet but im assuming its the belt again. I guess i must have some great friends to sell me something that is crap and tell me it works great. im a little more than pissed off right now. so i sent her a message ... Sun, 2 Dec 2012 10:48:35 EST no exercise this week :( well today was weigh in day. i was worried because i have been unable to exercise this week due to my toe being cut open by the dr. down side i didnt lose any weight plus side i didnt gain any weight. I was mostly worried about gaining. i didnt do too many things that are considered bad but still got a little worried. I started drinking coffee again this week and thats where my worry was coming from. i do not use too much sugar or 2% milk but i still worried. <BR> <BR> I am also in the proc... Fri, 30 Nov 2012 07:36:43 EST gained last week...... As i reflect on last week i notice something. I know i didnt try my best in the exercise dept. i slacked alot last week not sure why. i guess my body just needs rest. it also doesnt help that i cant sleep at night because my husband snores and it actually wakes me up and then proceeds to keep me awake. i wear earplugs but i can still hear it. im looking into getting better earplugs because i cant take it not being able to sleep at night then trying to find energy to work out. But my measureme... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 07:06:19 EST this gave me some motivation! So i pulled out a pair of capri's that fit me during the spring and summer this year.......they are size 20! i compared them next to me today. here is the picture. cant wait for more of these with the clothes im wearing now! <img src=""> Wed, 21 Nov 2012 13:42:59 EST getting frustrated....... with the holidays approaching im feeling a little more flustered. even though i do not host anything here im still feeling frustration. plus im starting to get bored with my food selections.....which is never good and i know that. Im not sure why im feeling like this this week but i decided to buy a frozen meal tonght. i ate most of it and im still hungry :( so i have decided i need new ideas. im a very picky eater i do not eat alot of foods that i probably should honestly. so i am open to su... Tue, 20 Nov 2012 19:59:22 EST christmas.... So stood in line last night for 2 hours waiting to get the new wii u for my kids and got talking to a woman who is a little overweight. someone passing by offered me a cookie and i told them no because im losing weight right now. The girl ahead of me asked me how much i lost and the conversation just went from there. she asked me a bunch of questions about how i have done it and stuff. i told her i just changed the way i eat and im actually exercising and thats far of course. But i t... Sun, 18 Nov 2012 11:53:47 EST feeling pretty good today was weigh in day and i have lost a total of 30 pounds so far and i have 53 to go!!! im so excited i never thought i could ever lose any weight at all more less lose as much as i have in the past few months. I cant believe it it just feels so great to have lost this much and know that i can do it and keep going. i cant wait until i reach my goal weight im going to feel like i can do anything i set my mind to. My husband has even decided to start trying to do some light exercising. he is ... Fri, 16 Nov 2012 16:58:09 EST finally got a before and after (well right now) shot Finally put together a before and "after" shot. im not done losing weight but im down 28 ounds and figured i should compare these pictures i have been taking and have a visual of my progress so i know im doing good. and i cant believe how much change i have gone through! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> the picture on the left was taken on 9/21/12 weight 248 and the right was taken 11/13/12 weight 220. <BR> I cant believe how good it makes me fe... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 06:31:13 EST going out for my anniversary....... So i have been looking at places to go to eat for my anniversary. I have decided that the information provided by these restaurants SUCK! if they tell you the calorie amount they leave out the rest and if they do tell you the info the food is like 1600mg sodium or higher. its crazy. so i have decided that since it is my anniversary dinner i will be bad one night. i will eat lighter during the day though, but i will not count the calories that night and if i sit here and figure it out i will n... Tue, 6 Nov 2012 19:50:20 EST omg i was bad tonight for dinner :( So today i decided to go out to dinner. i ended up with a cheese burger and homefries because the only veggie they had i dont like. I cant believe it has that many calories in it though! my dinner was about 808 calories :( and i went over my calories on the plus side this was the first time it had ever happened. little worried because i picked the night before weigh in to go out to eat but plus side i ate something i liked and i didnt over eat. i ate what i thought was the right portion size ... Thu, 1 Nov 2012 18:31:03 EST in lots of pain..... So about 2 days ago i started having lower back pain on my right side. i figured some kind of infection starting so i started taking cranberry pills......went to urgent care tonight they do not see anything wrong with me. she thinks i pinched a nerve in my lower back.....yay. i still worked out this morning. i plan on continuing because im not stopping. but if i need to so it can heal or whatever then i guess i can. she didnt say anything to me though. but she put me on pain pills and antibio... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 20:19:34 EST have to make more changes I have never been a very big fruit or veggie eater, but i need to start. im trying to figure out ways that i will eat them without smothering them with stuff. the only way i eat baby carrots is roasted with has been working for me. the only fruits i eat are apples, pears, and bananas. I will eat canned veggies but those arent good because of sodium. i just bought boccoli probably gonna roast that too. i only like broccoli boiled if its smothered in butter. i need suggestions. i do have proble... Fri, 26 Oct 2012 07:17:57 EST busy week! AHHHHHH So this week started out fairly normal. then all of a sudden BAM! my dad is here in my driveway on monday telling me how he is going to be kicked out of the place he is living in. So hubby and I decided to ask him to stay heres the fun parts. i have to clean out my basement, garage, and shed to move him in and go to school, eat healthy, and workout. oh and take care of my house and family.......omg im exhausted already. oh and this is the week that i signed up to take a required... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 22:03:02 EST body changes and its effects Im noticing that my lower stomach is begining to become a little more loose. the i am able to grab more skin now than i was previously. I have been reading up on this. i know loose skin comes with the package of weight loss. I have been moisturizing my stomach and i drink ungodly amounts of water now too. im just trying to figure out if there is anything else i can do to reduce the amount of loose skin i have? im almost down 20 pounds which is alot so i expected to go through this. i just nee... Sun, 21 Oct 2012 17:27:14 EST calorie intake? i changed my goal date of when i wanted to lose my weight by and that obviously changed my calorie intake for the day.....for the past few weeks i have seen 5 pounds lost each week. this week i only lost 3. i know its a loss and im very excited that i lost it, but im just trying to figure out if i should go back to the original date that i had because that alotted me 1800-1944 calories a day. and i never really came close to hitting the higher number or going over but it seemed that my body w... Fri, 19 Oct 2012 06:57:34 EST question? when did you ladies start seeing changes in your clothing size? im down 15 pounds so i figured i should start seeing a change soon. i know i should just let it come but im kind of getting impatient. im busting my butt daily and i have seen the change on the scale which has given me more motivation. i just want to see a physical change too. it looks like im getting smaller when i look in the mirror but im not sure if its in my head lol. help me im driving myself nuts with this lol Tue, 16 Oct 2012 07:02:28 EST husband is helping me :) since i started dieting and exercising i have found one thing that i have become addicted to and cannot resist throughout the week and that is weighing myself. so i asked my husband to help me because its driving me nuts. i asked him to hide the scale and to not let me know where it is and to not let me have it until thursday night.....since there is no way i would weigh myself at night so it will be ready for friday morning lol. now i just gotta work hard and hope im losing what i think i am... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 05:57:46 EST my worrying is over......for this week atleast :) Well just weighed in for the week. since last friday I am down another 5 pounds. i entered my weigh in that i had done during this week too (i know i shouldnt have). so i am 2 pounds less than that one was now. and i was so worried about this week. yay 15 pounds lost!!!! next week i plan on seeing the 220's!!! Fri, 12 Oct 2012 06:36:10 EST female related questions So do many of you ladies find it harder to get the energy to exercise during your "special week"? even before it hits im finding it harder to find the energy and i certainly do not want to gain this week. Im just going to push through it but i want to make sure that this is normal. please someone let me know thanks! Tue, 9 Oct 2012 18:50:57 EST so happy I want to cry I honestly never thought that I would lose any weight at all. I thought I was destined to be overweight forever. but something in me decided it was time to do it and I am doing it and I am so proud of myself and my family is proud of me. I havent had any temptations at all I am down 13 pounds as of today and im just estatic to see what my weight will be friday. for the past few weeks I have lost 5 pounds I had one week where i lost 1 pound but either way it just makes me happy to know that i ... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 07:52:47 EST birthday parties..... Heading to childs birthday party......hopefully there are healthy choices there to snack on if not this girl isnt eating one single thing :) i dont want to wreck my diet now just because of the party. plus it helps im going to lunch before unfortunately its buffalo wild wings......will be getting the grilled naked tenders and hopefully some sort of steamed or boiled veggie. will be bringing my scale with me because not sure how much the tenders weigh and dont want to over do it. Sun, 7 Oct 2012 11:43:06 EST official weigh in day..... I guess my results are better than they were on wednesday when i kept checking my weight. I am now down 10 pounds! I am very excited considering now I am 238 I havent seen 230's in over a year if not longer! The weight loss itself is now my motivation to keep going and keep losing. at the rate im going I will be at my goal weight by april, who knows maybe earlier :) Fri, 5 Oct 2012 05:50:43 EST