JESSICA_STULTZ's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JESSICA%5FSTULTZ JESSICA_STULTZ's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Ups and downs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5639731 After my last blog post, I let my life get so crazy that I still wasn't making time for myself to track the foods I was eating and for some reason, I didn't watch my portion sizes either and consumed tons of empty calories in iced coffee drinks. I still plan to enjoy iced coffee drinks but I am taking a little break from them and when I start drinking them again, I will do it every once in awhile as opposed to every day. This is day 3 without them, and while I have a headache (which I am sure... Tue, 4 Mar 2014 17:24:27 EST Changes for the better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5587587 Considering I haven't posted since October, I realized I am due for an update.. <BR> <BR> For the past couple months I've let things slide. Tracking my food and exercise got put on the back burner. For some reason, I subconsciously decided that I didn't need to keep up with that. I don't know why I stopped tracking foods but since I have, I have gained 16 pounds back from where I was at. At one point, I was at 178 pounds. The other day I weighed in at 194. Not ideal by any means. I am just g... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 00:54:01 EST Small Successes.. Working on Big Changes. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5513760 I am making progress every day.. I still haven't lost a pound in quite a while but I am making healthier choices. <BR> <BR> In September.. I hit my 30 mile goal! <em>248</em> My Nike Sportband for some reason actually told me I hit my goal at 28.something miles.. but I did the rest of the miles to make sure I hit my goal for real. It felt amazing. Some point during the month I actually thought I wouldn't hit my goal.. but I pushed and did it! Here is a couple pictures of me with my mons... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 23:37:15 EST A Few Things I CAN Guarantee.. and a Few I Cannot. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5486255 It's been a little while since I have posted a blog.. so I figured it was about time for an update on my situation. <BR> <BR> I am still stuck around 177. In fact, today I weighed in at 178. Frustrating. I didn't plan on weighing in again for a bit because I had a few days of eating ridiculous things.. in ridiculous portions. I'm calling it accountability. If I just skip weighing in because I may have gained.. it is almost like it didn't happen. Except that it did.. and it is all part of my... Sun, 15 Sep 2013 13:46:45 EST Bad moments.. Not Bad Days. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5449456 Lately it seems that all I can think about is all the things that are going wrong.. The cars that broke down, the wallet that got stolen, the people that have passed away. All of the things that are meant to drag a person down seemed to be happening to me at once. They say that bad things happen in threes? Mine went well beyond that. <BR> <BR> For a period of time, I was depressed and let all these things drag me down.. to the point of emotional eating and seemingly not caring about anythin... Fri, 9 Aug 2013 00:20:33 EST 2013.. Must be my unlucky year! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5440525 2013 is certainly not my year. In the past 3 months, I've had 2 cars become undriveable, lost 3 people close to me (I got the phone call today that one of my cousins committed suicide), had my wallet and our tackle box stolen (by my brother of all people.. while he denies it completely), had my husband wipe out on the bike, and was also told today that I was kicked out of my online class because I hadn't gotten a default clearance letter from my previous college. They emailed me and told me I... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 01:53:55 EST Another motorcycle accident.. Just my luck. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5412442 At this point, I can't even explain how stressed out I feel. Is it Murphy's Law that says 'Anything that can go wrong, will.'? I'm pretty sure it is right. <BR> <BR> I meant to post an update after I updated my status.. but have been super busy with my life, so haven't had the chance. So here goes. <BR> <BR> On July 15th we went to Awesome Biker Nights in Sioux City, IA. After we were done there, we planned on going out to eat so my father-in-law took my husband up to his sister's motorcycl... Sat, 6 Jul 2013 14:10:31 EST Overwhelmed. Plus a gain.. *sigh* http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5384970 It's been a tough week or two for me. I'm working hard on getting out of this depression that I have kinda slipped into. So much going on that I am having hard processing it all. <BR> <BR> Went to Justin's funeral on Saturday and it was really overwhelming. I didn't make it to his wake, although everyone said it didn't even look like him. Made it through the service without fully breaking down and when they were leaving the room with the box of ashes I lost it. Luckily my husband was there a... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 19:51:50 EST Bitter Sweet Life I lead.. :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5380951 At times like this, I wish I had some sort of a counselor to help me through things. I don't know what I need a counselor for.. I just need one to help me get to my underlying issues. And to help guide me through the hard times in my life. <BR> <BR> I've led a pretty crazy life.. from being abused as a child, feeling like I was never good enough and that I never could do good enough for my stepmother, and at this point struggling to get through day to day. I can't say I have fully forgiven ... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 00:40:14 EST Color Run (25th). Car Accident. Crazy Day. (Pics) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5372095 It seems that C is the letter of <BR> <BR> the day! I've been pretty inactive on SparkPeople lately. Don't take this the wrong way.. I haven't given up. I've just been a little side tracked. <BR> <BR> School ended on the 16th of May for my monsters and we've been on the go ever since. They have been doing roller derby every week, Levi has Taekwondo twice a week now, and he also has Coach's Pitch twice a week. Roller Derby ends this week but gymnastics starts next week. No rest for the wea... Thu, 30 May 2013 00:42:31 EST My Fun Week. (PICS) BLC#18 WUB at the end http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5336952 Sunday I got to go out and shoot my husband's gun. I have only shot a gun once in my life and it was a bigger gun. This time it was a 40 cal handgun. I LOVED it and wish I'd have let my hubby buy me the one he wanted to. Haha. Monday the kids had school and the husband stayed home to get some stuff done for school that he starts May 19th. Kids were supposed to have Roller Derby practice but since we were supposed to get a snow storm they cancelled it. I was sad they didn't have practice beca... Sat, 27 Apr 2013 01:04:38 EST Struggling to succeed, plus BLC #18WUB http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5328186 I'm struggling.. Oh how I am struggling. Struggling to make the right food choices. Struggling to get exercise in. Struggling to drink water. Not that I am drinking anything else.. but I haven't drank more than about 8 ounces of water today. That is nowhere near what I should be drinking. <BR> <BR> I've really been struggling the most with food choices lately.. I will start out good and I have good intentions at the end of the day. But night comes around and it's like I haven't eaten in week... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 23:42:08 EST It Has Been One Wonderful Year on SP.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5324624 One year ago today is when I truly began my weight loss journey. It is crazy to believe that one year later I am still in the game. I've always lasted a week or two, a month or two, but never a year or two! Never would I have imagine I would be where I am today. Never would I believe that I could lose over 80 pounds.. and yet here I am, pushing past 80.. headed to 100+ pounds lost. Looking for around 130 pounds lost to be a little more specific. <BR> <BR> Last year I felt faint-hearted. I f... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 23:50:42 EST Death, Food, Sports, and Home (Update of our life) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5312812 This may seem long.. but I have so much going on in my life.. <BR> <BR> I haven't been logging foods. I haven't had the willpower. Today I have blogged everything I have ate.. and what I intend to eat for supper. Luckily I am under what my range is.. so if I have a small snack, I will still be ok. Even better if I don't have a snack since yesterday I went a little out of control with foods. I just need to get back into the groove of things because once I do, I can usually start losing weight... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 15:46:52 EST NS Victories and my exhausting day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5285976 Hard to believe it's been almost a month since I've blogged. <BR> <BR> Lately things have been pretty good. In fact, today I had my fastest 5k and fastest mile. Woo hoo! Just realized it is Woo hoo Wednesday.. So definitely woo hoo. Haha. My 1 mile is at 14'44'' and my 5k was at 48'02''. I felt accomplished in that alone. I didn't want to walk at first.. but then once I got out I decided I was gonna kick myself into gear to get ready for the Color Run in May. Glad I pushed myself because I ... Thu, 14 Mar 2013 00:15:57 EST Challenges and Victory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5264194 I figured it was about time for me to post another blog. So here comes the catching up. <BR> <BR> Although the weather has been less than appealing for walking, I've been getting in at least a little fitness every day. I'm taking small challenges on Tribesports.com. Each day I've been getting in at least 100 crunches. I was also working on a 30 second plank. The other day I accomplished a 1:00 plank. So I clicked complete on the challenge and now going to find another fun fitness related cha... Tue, 26 Feb 2013 01:29:12 EST Anniv. Weekend, venting, exercising, and new shoes! (PICS) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5255269 I signed up for a site called Tribesports not too long ago because my mom introduced me to it (who knew? She also introduced me to this site!) I decided to get back on it last night and now I'm doing a couple challenges. One is a 30 second plank (which I can kind of do but want to be able to do a good 30 second plank.) The other is 100 crunches a day for 2 weeks. I am determined to make it happen so it at least keeps me accountable. Hopefully after those are done I'll be able to move up to 1 ... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 19:16:14 EST Making goals happen/Weekend Plans/Haircut http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5246657 The other day I posted a blog about some of my goals (ie- pushups/situps, run a 5k with my mom, etc.) So the next day I was looking at different kinds of runs that I want to do at some point. There is a Dirty Girl run in Lincoln, NE in September that I'd really love to do.. but may wait until next year to do that one. It looks like fun anyways. But back to the point. I was telling my mom about these runs I was finding and she sent me a message with a 5k the hard way run that is in April.. a l... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 16:20:16 EST A few changes and a few goals.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5242263 Sometimes this change in lifestyle seems exhausting and overwhelming. I feel like it is a never-ending battle of tracking my foods and making sure I have more calories out than in. Luckily.. when I start to feel overwhelmed, I back off. No, I don't stop tracking, measuring foods, and exercising.. but I do what feels right. I mentally track if I feel overwhelmed from tracking online. When I don't know the calorie content of a food (like maybe something my sister-in-law decided to cook up,) I d... Fri, 8 Feb 2013 00:02:40 EST A little friendly competition.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5239606 Not sure what to think about today. On the upside, I walked 4.1 miles. On the down side, I ate EIGHT girl scout cookies. (Ugh.. Why do they have to be so good??) To be honest, my calories aren't extremely high once I calculate in the amount I burned. Could have been better but I won't complain. Plus, I will have lots more walking in this week. <BR> <BR> I did get a laugh from my mom though! We both have a nike+ account that is attached to our sportband/phone (I can use either because I have ... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 00:37:34 EST Shoes, food, and life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5236419 Figured while I was online catching up, I'd also catch up in a blog. <BR> <BR> This weekend turned out pretty good. Friday, our renter decided to pay her back rent.. so we drove up to pick up the money before going to Sioux City. Once we got to Sioux City, we spent most of the time waiting for food since we were down there kind of late and got really hungry.. but we went to Olive Garden and had soup and breadsticks <em>190</em> so it wasn't horrible for calories. 130 for the soup I eat. ... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 23:41:09 EST The Dress, Comparison Pics, and my Trip (edited with last jan pic) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5230391 The weekend proved to be successful. I did indulge but not overly so.. Although the scale reflects that I now weight 188 instead of 185.something. I'm sure some of it is water weight, etc and am not letting it get to me. I'm back to working hard to lose my weight.. AND I did not stray from that journey over the weekend. On top of that.. I've done lunges, sit ups, arm curls, planks, and a 12 minute seated core exercise video. BOOM! <em>362</em> <BR> <BR> 4 generations picture.. I hate how... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 14:38:36 EST Anxiety, Indulging, and a borrowed swimming suit. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5223523 Today is the kind of day where I want to sit and do nothing.. but I have too much to get done. This morning we went and filed out taxes.. and I am glad to say that we are getting a decent amount back. Just in time to pay a bunch of bills. *Sigh* <BR> <BR> I'm also working on packing up our bag to go to Minnesota tomorrow. I haven't seen most of my family since August.. and some I haven't seen since before I lost any of the 77 pounds. So excited to see them all. I had to borrow a swimming sui... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 19:19:21 EST Learning, Struggles, Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217950 I'm still trying to get used to this healthier lifestyle stuff. This isn't the beginning of my journey.. In fact, I've lost 77 pounds now from the start of my journey. There is so much I've learned.. but so much to get used to still. <BR> <BR> I wanted to share something I read in Sailor64's blog recently.. and loved the way it was put: <BR> <BR> ---Ask yourself one question, "What's my real goal, to lose weight or to be smaller?" Isn't it strange how we equate the two. <BR> Let me ask you ... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 00:48:54 EST Overwhelmed.. and my NS Victory for today. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5212230 This week has been overwhelming for me. Every day I have so much to do.. and then I've added in as much walking as I can. At this point I am trying to figure out where my calories should be since I'm moving a lot more. Most of my journey has been just cutting back on calories. Hey.. It was working for losing weight. The good part about that.. is that it has given me energy and now I want to get up and move. It's not like I haven't done any exercising since I started.. but it's been pretty min... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 22:19:57 EST Tuesdays.. Always a little chaotic. (pics) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5209258 Tuesday is always a busy day in the Stultz household. Between getting kids off to school, cleaning, and the other activities, Tuesday can be a make it or break it day. <BR> <BR> Today I got up and got Exandria ready and off to school (luckily Jeremy got up and got Levi ready but Ex starts getting ready around 10:30.) After Jeremy left to take her to school and head to work, I took off on a walk. 1.1 miles today. Once I got home, I got everything ready that we needed for the rest of the day,... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 23:30:07 EST Nike Sportband and my day.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5207599 Today has been a really good day. My mom had bought me a Nike Sportband for Christmas because she made me a deal that if I lost 20 more pounds before Christmas she would buy it for me. Well.. We had put the chip into her computer to charge it and then I forgot it when I had left. Today she decided she would bring the chip up and we'd go for a mile walk to calibrate it. Went for that walk and came home to calibrate it and we decided to go for another mile walk.. It ended up a little over that.... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 23:01:42 EST My HoliDAYs/My weight loss goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5186773 The flu is making it's rounds at our house. Exandria had gotten it this past weekend and had a high fever so we decided to take her in. She hadn't thrown up or anything but I worried about her because she was pretty lethargic. The doctor put her and the rest of us on Tamiflu. Let me just say.. THANK GOD for insurance because we could never afford it otherwise. <BR> <BR> Today I spent cleaning up and trying to put the house together some. I hate moving.. All of our stuff ends up in boxes for... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 18:52:29 EST This Year I've Learned../Motivational pics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5177838 This year is coming to an end and I have so much to be thankful for. <BR> <BR> I started my weight loss journey in April.. and I've lost 71 pounds so far. This is equal to the weight of my 2 kids combined. My son is 6 years old.. and my daughter is 4 years old. <BR> <BR> October I did lose my job.. but I have enjoyed the time with my family. And luckily Jeremy was able to find a job quickly.. and it has turned into a full time position as of Christmas Eve. He started as on-call. <BR> <BR>... Thu, 27 Dec 2012 15:01:04 EST End of November, Beginning of December http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5171233 This month has been an extremely busy month. We have constantly been doing something. I feel like the majority of this month and the last half of last month consisted of packing and moving.. even today my husband wants to move more stuff. Hopefully if we do, the weather stays decent. <BR> <BR> We have all the big stuff out of our apartment.. The biggest things we have left is 2 twin mattresses of the kids that we have been using to get by until we are full moved. Sadly it is all the little s... Wed, 19 Dec 2012 15:53:02 EST Venting, NS Victory, Xmas present, and picture http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5148538 Feeling a bit crazy with emotions right now so I thought I'd blog to keep occupied. NS Victory: Not doing the emotional eating routine. <BR> <BR> I have a million things on my mind that is causing me to feel overwhelmed with emotions. Here are a few. <BR> <BR> 1. Moving (stress and a little sadness)- I have 34 days to pack and move my things out of this apartment.. into a smaller house. Thank god for the shed out back of the house for storing boxes, that we don't NEED for a bit, outside. We... Tue, 27 Nov 2012 15:33:18 EST Our Stressful Thanksgiving week/end. Weigh-in. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5145953 This week has been a crazy week all over. <BR> <BR> We received a letter from our landlords saying our rent was going to go up to $538. We are in a 2 bedroom apartment and my husband has an "on call" job. Lately he's been getting around full-time hours.. but that can change at any time. So we are giving our 30 day notice so we can go elsewhere. I'm glad his parents have rental houses or we wouldn't have a place to go before January. We are only going to be there long enough to find a good p... Sun, 25 Nov 2012 12:33:16 EST Relatable quote/Support http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5135691 "Don't let the fear of the time it will take to accomplish something stand in the way of your doing it. The time will pass anyway." -Early Nightingale <BR> <BR> I hadn't seen this quote until recently.. but I did recognize the importance of this quote in my weight loss journey. When I first started, I looked at my goal as being so far away.. "It's going to take SOO long" I thought. But when you think about it, no matter what.. the time was going to go by. So I can either work towards my goal... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 21:35:59 EST Walking in a Winter "Onederland!" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5131701 As most of you can figure out from the title of my blog.. I've hit Onederland! Although it was only a .2 weight loss for the week. I hit 199.8.. and last weeks weigh in was 200. No matter what the loss, I will celebrate it. And I don't let my gains get to me the way I used to in the past. I tend to think "A gain today means I need to step it up." If I started to dwell on the gain, I'd be right back to where I started.. feeling sorry for myself and eating away my feelings. I've come to realize... Sun, 11 Nov 2012 15:48:31 EST My Self-Sabotaging realization/Halloween Pics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5129555 This week has been an off week for me.. My diet has been off the wall. One day I will do good.. the next I am way off and then the same cycle again. And then there is that stupid "I'm already way off today so what is a little more going to hurt" mentality. I haven't done that in a long time.. but did the other day. Luckily for me, I got it corrected right away and am back to my thinking that any extra junk foods will only get me farther from my goal. I'm trying to make decisions based on "Wil... Fri, 9 Nov 2012 12:35:23 EST Our fun weekend with the kids/hubby (plus pictures!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5124213 This weekend has been busy, but fun. Yesterday was the taekwondo tournament. Levi and Jeremy both ended up competing. Levi took 4th place out of 4 for forms.. he got mixed up a little. But he got 2nd place out of 4 for sparring.. so he has a nice shiny trophy. Jeremy got 3rd place out of 4 on Forms and 2nd place out of 4 for Sparring. The funny part is.. Levi beat the little boy.. and Jeremy sparred the little boy's dad and beat him. It's all in fun though and thankfully no matter the outcome... Sun, 4 Nov 2012 23:25:04 EST My Chaos. (and a couple pics) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5118618 How do you tell the difference between male and female ghosts? Male ghosts have hallo-weenies and females ghosts have boo-bies. Sorry! I thought it was kind of cute. Happy Halloween! <BR> <BR> Last weekend I went out drinking with my hubby and sis-in-laws.. Had a blast and still lost weight for the week. (Drinking is not a normal thing for me. Once every 3+ months or so is all.. so to not gain weight when I did drink made me feel a little better about it!) <BR> <BR> I had a bit of a rough d... Wed, 31 Oct 2012 02:32:11 EST Money Rant (sorry!), NS Victories, and Comparison Pic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5111417 I'm apologizing about this ahead of time. If you want to skip the money rant, you can skip this whole first and second paragraph really. Today is an emotional day for me. I feel like I'm being pulled into a million different directions. Stressed out because we now have 2 vehicles that aren't running. (Thank god for in-laws that have an extra vehicle we can use.) Not sure how much that is going to cost us, we just had to take $50 out of our last check for Levi's TKD tournament (I know this is ... Wed, 24 Oct 2012 15:29:44 EST Weight loss and Death: What they have in common. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5109869 Today I've had a little time to sit here alone and think.. and I was thinking about losses. Isn't it funny how we perceive different kinds of losses. We grieve the loss of a family member or friend. We celebrate the loss of weight. <BR> <BR> Then I got to thinking that in a way we do grieve in weight loss. It has to do with changing our way of life. We get so used to doing certain things (example: sitting around, not exercising, and eating lots of food) that we find excuses to continue thos... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 11:59:58 EST Looking for motivation/my love for my fellow sparkers! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5107865 Today I feel as if my emotions are everywhere. I'm happy, yet sad. Stressed, yet almost carefree. Loved, yet lonely. <BR> <BR> I am not really sure what to think about anything. I am going crazy wondering how much things will be different when I lose my job on Wednesday. Right now I have no exact plans.. except whipping my butt into shape, going through things in my house to condense, and spending some real quality time with my family. I feel like I am always so worried about having to go t... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 01:12:43 EST 12 little girls and 1 boy/Tomorrows plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5104463 Today was quite the day off. Spent the day with 12 little girls. One who is almost 4 and the rest are 7 and 8. My sister-in-law asked me to help her with her daughters birthday party. I really don't blame her. That's alot of girls for one house. <BR> <BR> Exandria loved being at the birthday party with the other girls.. Levi.. not so much. He was the only boy.. and decided he'd had enough after a couple of hours. Haha. He told me it was too many girls and he wanted to leave. He ended up goin... Fri, 19 Oct 2012 01:19:27 EST A happy thought from my hubby/A few things I've realized http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5102076 I feel like this week has been way too busy for me. It seems like I have hardly had time to think.. let alone time for blogging, etc. Luckily for me I have at least made time for tracking. Now here's my blog to catch up. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I heard something that made me smile on the inside.. and made me fall even more in love with my hubby. Jeremy's cousin told me that he said that he doesn't care if I lose weight because he thinks I am beautiful and loves me no matter what.. and also said ... Wed, 17 Oct 2012 02:36:45 EST Just a quick update/pic of Levi in new TKD gear. :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5094110 I didn't get the chance to blog yesterday.. so I figured I'd post a quick update today.. <BR> <BR> Levi is feeling much better after his bout with wheezing this weekend. The one thing I did question this morning is that he wasn't hungry. He is ALWAYS hungry. I didn't force him to eat because I know they do have a mid-morning snack and then of course lunch at school. <BR> <BR> Yesterday we received Levi's Taekwondo gear and it all fits him so well.. except the forearm guards. They will work... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 14:04:21 EST Eventful weekend. (Hospital trip, pet death, and pic of our new pet!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5090765 This weekend has been more than eventful. <BR> <BR> Friday I spent running to Yankton to pay on our trailer then headed to Sioux City to get a duffel bag for Levi's Taekwondo gear that we got him for his birthday (he really needed one because we are always having to dump the one bag out to use it for something or another.) We ended up eating at Huhot for supper. So bad for me calorie-wise.. but tasted oh so yummy. Got home and when the husband went to feed our hamster he discovered it had di... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 03:16:15 EST If you lose weight.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5090139 • If you lose weight, you will feel the power of accomplishment. <BR> <BR> • If you lose weight, you will stop wearing out the thighs of your pants. <BR> <BR> • If you lose weight, you can toss those industrial-sized granny panties and get some that are cute and sexy. <BR> <BR> • If you lose weight, not only will you ease your mind about your health, you will ease the minds of friends and family who also worry about you. <BR> <BR> • If you lose weight, getting dressed in the morning will ... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 15:06:25 EST Eat, Drink, and Be Merry.. or something like that. (pics) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5081513 Today has been an alright day.. <BR> <BR> Tracking calories today went out the window.. Not because I ate out of control.. but because I didn't keep track of the amounts of food I ate. I don't feel I went out of my range.. and if I did it was because of the pineapple I just ate a bit ago. I was craving a snack.. and eating was feeling pretty inevitable, so I went for healthy. Yay for healthier choices. Haha. <BR> ----P.S. My fridge is full of fruits and veggies. And I'm LOVING it. <BR> <BR... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 02:23:46 EST Needing to make changes.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5079022 Today I am deciding to take a look into my life and figure out the things I need to change. <BR> <BR> 1. My diet lately has included more sugar. Not happy with this. I was doing so good for so long.. and now I've been craving more sweets.. and of course by craving I mean not just wanting them.. but actually eating them. <BR> --- I am making changes to this by making sure I buy more fruits and veggies. My snack tonight was strawberries and cool whip. A little bit of sugar but not overly so. ... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 23:34:14 EST September so far. The ups and downs of my weight loss rollercoaster. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5074565 This month has been full of ups and downs. So here goes.. <BR> <BR> Earlier this month I taught Levi to ride his bike without training wheels.. and got Exandria going on a bigger bike instead of a trike. Both kids decided they are going to ask Santa for new bikes so we spent a day looking all around for bikes. They settled on ones from Wal-Mart that they are going to ask for (who'd have known..) I'd like to note that Santa has them being taken care of with layaway.. as well as LeapPad2's. Wh... Tue, 25 Sep 2012 14:50:18 EST Extremely Proud Mommy Moment. and a little more. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5051878 These last couple days have been amazing. Kids haven't really fought as much as they have been and we've been on the go. <BR> <BR> Today I woke up dizzy.. then seemed to be better so we took the kids to the school to ride their bikes on the blacktop. It started out with both kids on bikes with training wheels. I've been really wanting to get Levi riding without them so we just decided we were going to start there. So in the grass I worked on teaching him to ride without. He was really shaky ... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 01:01:47 EST My crazy week, off track (a little), and randomness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5047927 This week has been rough. I know I don't really have the room to complain.. because someone else probably has it worse.. but oh man have my kids drove me batsh*t crazy these last 2 days. From the time they get home from school until bedtime it is crying, whining, fighting, arguing. AHHHHHHHHH! If that was my real scream it would be much longer. Haha. I think school is taking it's toll on all of us. I am up when Levi goes to school.. and instead of going back to sleep for awhile I stay up. I g... Fri, 7 Sep 2012 00:19:34 EST