JESSGARRETT's SparkPeople Blog JESSGARRETT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Relationship With Food It's funny that my blog question from Spark Coach for today is about eating habits. After a particularly rough evening, I caught myself thinking "I could really use some chocolate right now..." I've never thought of myself as an emotional eater, but today got me wondering. Am I? Am I an emotional eater? How often have I had a rough or joyful day and used food to cope/rejoice? <BR> <BR> To rate my habits, I would have to give myself a 3 out of 10. I know I make a lot of bad choices, and many ... Wed, 17 Feb 2016 19:07:33 EST Trying Again.. For the last time!! Over the past 2 years, I've struggled with finding the time to workout and be healthy. I've fallen back into very bad habits, including not working out or eating right. As a result, I've gained back every bit of the 46 pounds I previously lost. This, more than anything, has been a big blow to my self esteem and confidence. <BR> <BR> I made an announcement on Facebook to all of my friends and family that this year I would lose 75 pounds. I have only gotten to work out twice and have been teet... Sun, 30 Mar 2014 19:18:00 EST Disgusted but Determined It's been a long time since I've taken the time to really focus on myself and boy does it show. I did the one thing I kept telling myself I wouldn't do: I gave up. I let the scale dominate my life rather than being just another measurement. In the big scheme of things, I've come to realize that losing weight is not my ultimate goal. Yes, I want to get to a healthy weight BUT I am much more concerned with getting myself healthy. I want to be around for my son for a long time and with the way I... Sun, 11 Aug 2013 20:18:52 EST Rekindling the Weight Loss Fire The year has come and gone and I've successfully lost some weight. Unfortunately I'm not where I wanted to be. I've gained back a little bit of the weight I had lost and I'm a little bit discouraged, but I'm not broken. I am tracking my food again and I am going to be writing down my goals this year rather than keeping them in my head. I think I'm going to hang them on my bedroom wall where I'll be able to see them on a daily basis. I WILL be successful and I WILL NOT give up. I WILL get heal... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 22:13:25 EST Whoa Buddy! Well it's been an insane few months for me. The end of July started a whirlwind of activity and there has been no signs of it letting up since. I started a new job in July, school and cub scouts started again for both my son and I in August, I started selling Scentsy in September and October has been a fury of family drama. I've been in a precarious balancing act with everything I have going on and it hasn't been easy. I think the worst part of all of this is that I haven't had a lot of time ... Thu, 25 Oct 2012 10:00:56 EST Summer Life & Me Well, since summer has started, life has been a whole lot of crazy. My son and I have been constantly on the go with very little down time. I started my summer class schedule and am attempting to keep up with decent grades while going non-stop. Hopefully I make it through with grades as good as they were last quarter. For those of you not connected to me via Facebook, my grades were: <BR> <BR> Astronomy - B <BR> Astronomy Lab - A <BR> Educational Technology - A <BR> Conversational Spanish - ... Thu, 12 Jul 2012 17:29:41 EST Doubts Creeping Everyone of you know that I've been suffering through a plateau for about a month now. Over the weeks I've become more and more discouraged with my weight loss journey and doubts have started creeping in. Am I, like many in my family, destined to be overweight and/or obese for the rest of my life? Is my goal of losing 114 pounds in a year over ambitious? Will I ever reach my goal weight? <BR> <BR> I've been trying to stick with the positive and look at my increased fitness level as well as t... Mon, 28 May 2012 23:59:58 EST The Scale Wins Again I think my scale has declared war on me. I know it sounds crazy... an inadament object declaring war, but my scale is a little evil. I think it's in cahoots with my body. So yesterday was my official weigh in day and since I've been fighting a plateau, I've been dreading it all week. Not that I don't weigh in everyday anyway (why, yes.. I do like to torture myself, don't you?), but I was hoping for at least a little bit of a drop. As expected, my only loss (if you can call it that) was the ti... Mon, 21 May 2012 14:58:18 EST Hit to the Self Image This plateau has really hit me right where it counts. I was enjoying a steady downward flow with my weight loss and my confidence and self image were headed upwards. All of a sudden, they're taking a hit as I struggle with trying to figure out why I'm not losing weight again. I love how my body has changed so far, but I see so many things that still need to change. I'm not gaining, but I'm not losing. I'm not over eating or under eating. My life is filled with a bunch of "buts" right now and ... Thu, 17 May 2012 18:31:51 EST Another Nia Post I found some more Nia videos for those who are interested. I think my favorite is the first one because it truly shows that it's not just for people who are super fit. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>feature=related </link> <BR> <BR> <link><BR>feature=related </link> <BR> <BR> <link><BR>feature=related </link> Mon, 14 May 2012 23:01:11 EST Ugh, Job Searching So I'm job searching again. I'm not trying to leave McDonald's because of any negative experiences or anything like that. They've actually been pretty good to me. However.... the hours I'm getting lately, even with my requested time off, is barely enough to pay for my gas to drive 24 miles each way for each shift. Especially when I have two locations in town. My original plan was to try to just transfer to one of the stores in town...... until I found out they want me to quit my current store... Wed, 9 May 2012 23:09:36 EST Who is that Curvy Girl in the Mirror? So going to my Nia classes has exposed me to many more full length mirrors than I've ever had the displeasure of being acquainted with. At first, I worked hard to make sure I was behind someone else the entire time because I just couldn't stand the sight of whole body. I've heard it said that most people like how their face looks because when they look at their reflection, that is what they are most exposed to. That being said, perhaps this over exposure to the reflection of my body has done ... Fri, 4 May 2012 15:53:39 EST The Nia Technique with Video Here's a video about the Nia technique I've been talking about. I love it! When my class is over and we're cooling down and relaxing, I can always feel my body buzzing with energy. It is so amazing. Note: I tried to embed the video, but SP wouldn't let me, so here's the link. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Here's the official website for more information. You can also look in your area to see if there are any teachers offering classes that you can try. :) <BR> <B... Wed, 2 May 2012 20:23:11 EST My Weight Loss Journey Video I had to do a video for my Educational Technology class and this is what I came up with. What do you think? Wed, 25 Apr 2012 20:45:33 EST I Broke Down.... ....and bought new pants today! Hahaha you thought it was bad! ;) I've been having to pull up my pants practically every time I move at work lately and today I finally realized why. My pants were two sizes too big!! I bought size 24 pants at the beginning of December when I got hired at McDonald's and of course I noticed that they had been getting big, but I was determined not to buy new pants until I really had to. Well since I can't even take one step without my pants slipping, I've started... Wed, 25 Apr 2012 20:43:10 EST It's Been Rough I'm not exactly sure what's gotten into me this week. I'm usually on point with my nutrition and waver with my fitness, but this week it's been totally opposite. My fitness has been very regular thanks to my phys ed class. I'm getting in extra walking regularly during the week as well when I have the time (between homework and events with my son). However, I've been struggling with staying within my calorie range and getting enough calories hasn't been the issue. This has happened before when... Thu, 19 Apr 2012 23:55:42 EST Stomach Virus Adventures This week was an interesting week for me. Sunday started out well. I didn't get any fitness in, but I was within my calorie range and feeling good about it, especially since it was Easter. Speaking of Easter, it was great for the time I got to spend at home. I did have to go into work for a short amount of time, but it wasn't horrible. Busier than I thought it would be, but not too bad. Anyway, Monday I woke up not feeling the best, but thinking I was just still tired. I've gotten in a bad ha... Sat, 14 Apr 2012 00:41:29 EST Reaching 10% This goal has been on my mind since reading about someone else's goals for themselves. I'd never thought about my weight loss in that way, but I realized the wisdom of tracking my weight loss in small goals. When I originally calculated the number of pounds 10% of my original weight would be, I was intimidated by the number. As I've mentioned before, I wasn't sure I could lose weight, let alone 27 pounds. But here I am, 28.4 pounds down now and still losing. I'm feeling pretty awesome and my... Sun, 8 Apr 2012 12:43:14 EST Final Reflection (BLC#13) Week 12 of the BLC #13 rolled around pretty quickly. This challenge corresponded with my school quarter, so it was pretty interesting. I was surprised with myself during this challenge, in good ways and bad. I've learned that I CAN lose weight, even with my hypothyroidism. I've learned that I have a horrible affinity for laziness, something I'm trying to change. I also learned that I CAN actually stay within a set calorie range if I pay attention to what I'm eating. I went way overboard a cou... Sun, 1 Apr 2012 14:16:25 EST Winter Quarter Well, my grades are final as of today. I ended the quarter with a 3.0 GPA with a cumulative GPA of 3.044. Classes with grades were as follows: <BR> <BR> Introduction to Exceptionalities: A <BR> First Aid/CPR: A <BR> Astronomy Lab: B <BR> Astronomy: C <BR> Multicultural Literature: C (which I still say is bogus) <BR> <BR> Astronomy I knew I was going to get a C in, I didn't study as hard as I could have, so I'm going to try harder in my Astronomy class this quarter. But my Lit class I was ve... Tue, 27 Mar 2012 23:05:40 EST Last week reflection Last week wasn't the greatest week for me. I'm falling into that "I don't deserve to succeed" mindset again and I think it's because I'm so close to reaching a huge milestone. I'm within just 2 pounds of reaching my 10% weight loss goal and all of a sudden I'm finding it hard to stay within my calorie range and exercise. Last week I thought part of my problem was the fact that I was super busy and traveling, but it carried over into the weekend and I'm struggling this week already too. I'm no... Tue, 27 Mar 2012 22:41:37 EST Life Lesson Before I started my weight loss journey, I used to indulge in BW3's every now and then. My baby brother got me hooked on the boneless wings with Parmesean Garlic sauce a few years ago. Well last night, I hadn't eaten since 11:30am and was starving at 8:30pm. I decided to indulge and get myself a treat. BIG MISTAKE!! When I woke up this morning, I felt horrible. I felt like I wanted to throw up and didn't want to eat anything at all. Having to work today, I normally would have eaten something ... Fri, 16 Mar 2012 17:57:41 EST Finals Week So this week is my big finals week. I technically have two finals weeks, but this is the one where I'm super stressed. I've been doing great keeping on my diet, though my fats are out of control. I haven't had the opportunity to get a lot of exercise in because of studying and just trying to get my regular weekly mom stuff done on top of this crazy school week. So I've had my Astronomy final, Astronomy Lab final, Multicultural Literature final, a quiz, two chapter summaries, a group project a... Fri, 16 Mar 2012 17:47:18 EST Unintentional Inspiration So I've been talking all over the place about my weight loss journey, but especially on Facebook since I'm connected with most of my family and friends there. I don't get to see or talk to everyone on a regular basis unless it's there, so that's how I keep everyone updated. Well, I've been noticing a growing trend of people trying to get their fitness and weight on track lately. Unbeknownst to me, I've gotten quite a following on FB. I don't post everything that I do here because I like to up... Tue, 6 Mar 2012 21:34:13 EST Oven Baked Honey Mustard Chicken = Amazing!! I had a challenge in my BLC #13 to try a Spark Recipie this week. I was actually pretty apprehensive about this challange because I don't get to cook very often. I'm also really the only "adventerous" eater in the house (to a certain extent), so I wasn't sure what I was going to do with this challenge. Well tonight is the night that it's just me and my son and also the only night that I get to cook the way I want to cook. So I got on Spark Recipies and started surfing through right after I pi... Sun, 4 Mar 2012 00:11:08 EST Losing 20.6 pounds... with pictures So I stepped on the scale and had lost more weight this week. Something I was hoping for, but not entirely convince would happen since my TOM showed up this week. When I realized I had made it to losing a little over 20 pounds, I was excited and decided I need to have another picture taken. While posting them on Facebook, I realized just how much of a difference 20 pounds makes, which is why I thought I would post it here too. <BR> <BR> This is where I started at the beginning of my weight l... Sat, 3 Mar 2012 23:27:14 EST My Struggles So the past week or so has been a struggle for me. I've been having a hard time with my eating and wanting to binge eat again. The part of this that's hard for me is the fact that I'm not exactly sure what's going on that is causing those feelings to come up in me. I've been doing great keeping in my calorie range (mostly) and eating decent foods for the most part. I've been semi-consistant with my exercise, though not as consistant as I could have been, but feeling good overall. My attitude... Thu, 23 Feb 2012 10:31:56 EST Weekend Fun This weekend was awesome fun for me. I got to go out and celebrate with my two best friends, Megyn and Rachel. Rachel turned 30 last month and we went out to celebrate her birthday. We started at home with facials, nails and a light, healthy lunch. Then we went and bowled a couple of games. It was a lot of fun... after the first game, we ended up getting a little competative, which was really funny. lol After that, we went to our outdoor mall and did some shopping and looking around. We went ... Mon, 13 Feb 2012 23:43:12 EST Non-Scale Victory So I've been reading everyone's non-scale victory stories and I must admit, I've been a little envious. I hadn't had one of my own yet, "Or maybe," I said to myself, "I just haven't been paying attention." Well, today I put on a pair of jeans that I got last year when all my pants were getting too snug for me to feel comfortable in. They still fit, but barely and I felt huge in them. I had to meet my group from school to go over some information for our project and as I was walking across ca... Wed, 8 Feb 2012 20:34:01 EST Feeling Better Week 5 of this BLC has started out great. I had a bit of a stumble last week and was feeling a little down on myself. I was ready to give up and say "what's the point" but reading the comments on my last blog and reading over where I've come from (again) have made me realize that I can't give up because I had one bad week. So when I weighed in on Sunday and saw that I had re-gained 1.6 pounds, I decided that I needed to get myself back on track. Why? Well, I'll tell you... <BR> <BR> I've tri... Tue, 7 Feb 2012 17:56:29 EST Life Reflection In leu of some other team members sort of sharing their life stories and how they came to gain their weight, I think I'm going to try to do that myself. When I was younger, I was a skinny girl. I was never over weight or even chubby. In fact, I never even felt fat until I hit puberty and started growing a lot. When I was a little under 16 I really started to lose my self confidence and self esteem. I always felt like I wasn't good enough and while looking back, I think this contributed to the... Tue, 31 Jan 2012 22:19:17 EST My Week MIA So last week I was pretty much MIA from here. It was an interesting week for me. I felt like I was kind of spiriling out of control a little bit last week. I wasn't overly busy, but I was. I didn't have tons of homework, but I did. I didn't go many places, but I did. I know, none of this is making much sense. <BR> <BR> On Sunday, my day pretty much started in a panic because I ended up being late to work. I mis-read the time while I was working on homework, so I got to work late. Well, they ... Mon, 30 Jan 2012 15:00:18 EST Ahhh Workout High Who knew that getting that workout high could make me feel so good. lol Oh don't get me wrong, that burn is painful as all get out during the workout and for days afterwards, but I feel electrified afterwards. <BR> <BR> Today I'm commited to being positive. I've realized that a lot of my blogs have been negative lately and although these have been my true feelings and concerns during my weight loss journey, I'm feeling good after finally making the time to workout today. It's been a week si... Tue, 24 Jan 2012 17:30:20 EST Falling off the Wagon Well, for the first time in a couple of weeks, I went over on my calorie range tonight. I feel guilty about it already and have instantly tried to justify it to myself in my head. "I was under on my calories yesterday, so it evens out right?!" No, not right, Jess.... I'm not happy with myself at the moment, but at the same time, I am happy with myself. Confused yet? Let me explain. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I noticed I've not only been feeling thinner, I noticed that my belly feels a little small... Thu, 19 Jan 2012 22:38:48 EST A Few Concerns So this is the second week of my Biggest Weight Loss Challenge that I'm part of and I'm a bit concerned that I'm not going to do as well this week. I'm not dropping a pound a day like I did last week. I am feeling good and feeling different in my clothes though, so apparently I need to suck it up and buy myself a tape measure so I can take my measurements. I know I'm not going to have huge losses every week, but I was hoping to have a few weeks of big losses. lol I'm not overly concerned, but... Tue, 17 Jan 2012 17:09:04 EST Hello Beautiful Me Hi there. It's been 12 weeks since you started your new, healthy life and what a wonderful journey it's been so far. You've worked so hard to get where you are, never losing site of the person you want to be at the end of this long road. You decided months before you began this journey that this time would be different, but who knew that you would stick to it so stubbornly this time? I am so insanely proud of how much you've done to change you life so far and I want to make sure you remember ... Sun, 15 Jan 2012 23:39:46 EST A Disappointing Day Yesterday, my best friend in the world had her very first Scentsy party. She has just decided that she is going to start selling the product and this party was intended to introduce her into the world of Scentsy. As usual, she had finger foods available for her guests and being who she is, she made each of the selections from scratch (other than things like cheese and crackers). Some of the snacks that were available were chocolate chip cookies, oatmeal raisin cookies, chocolate mint brownies... Sat, 14 Jan 2012 11:53:12 EST Revelations As I've gone through this week, I've learned that healthy eating isn't as hard as I thought it was going to be. I've cut out my soda intake almost completely. I've also cut out all sweets and junk food, which isn't saying much for me because I rarely ate them anyway. My biggest pitfall has always been choosing fast food for the "convenience" and drinking soda instead of water. <BR> <BR> Since I've been consistantly tracking and staying within my calorie range this week, I've realized how muc... Fri, 6 Jan 2012 13:40:58 EST More than a New Year's Resolution Whelp boys and girls, I'm officially starting my hard core weight loss plan as of the first week of January. I've been slacking big time and have lost just a little bit of weight, but not very much since I decided to get off the couch and do something. I'm a little nervous about my journey considering I've gotten very discouraged in the past. My last weight loss attempt was hindered by my frustration with not losing weight. No matter how much I was working out, I didn't lose anything. <BR> <... Thu, 29 Dec 2011 00:16:24 EST