JESSESPANO's SparkPeople Blog JESSESPANO's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Teachers please help! How do you stay on here and active? I feel like my whole life if spinning. I'm here. I'm there. I'm never anywhere long enough to settle. I am very committed to being here but I can't find the time. Advice, please? Wed, 6 Nov 2013 22:46:23 EST They're back..... School pictures came in today. I am convincing myself that I do still love myself. I am not a beached whale and reading my previous blog over and over and over. I have also found meditating is helping. They'll remember me for the teacher I was to them and not this God awful picture, right? It is truly horrifying. I completely forgot it was picture day and was running late that morning. My hair is a frizzy mess, I threw on some eye liner and I do not have the most flattering top on. That's not... Wed, 30 Oct 2013 23:40:35 EST With the lesson planning Sorry I haven't been on here in a few days. My husband and I both have been on lesson planning duty. I have to say if I have to redo this one lesson one more time...well I actually can't because it's tomorrow's lesson. Anyway, I have not given up or anything. I have been so busy with lesson planning that I actually started thinking my life in lesson planning. I think that might be the point of my M.I.T. program. Hmmm. Well played CityU. Well played. Tue, 29 Oct 2013 22:58:56 EST Holy cannoli of busy Batman! Oh my good night! Today has my head spinning. I started my day going "One place. One place. Only have to go to one place!" If you don't know I start my day off in 3rd grade and end my day in preschool across town. I digress. So I get to the 3rd grade classroom knowing that I would be there until around 6pm because of conferences. Last night, however, I got a phone call from a potential employer and had been trying for hours to get back a hold of them because they're inbox was full. I finally ... Thu, 24 Oct 2013 23:05:48 EST Stress...the new S word. I started off today wonderfully. I got up. I took Blade for a walk. I had a Slimfast. I took my vitamins. I drank a ton of water. I then did not get my lunch on time after being assaulted by a student with, I'm confident, O.D.D.. (p.s. my nose hurts like a son of a...) This put my stress level so over the charts that I started having cravings that I could not contain and thus I succumb to them. That's okay. We all have weakness. We all make mistakes. We're all human. I can do this. Tomorrow w... Wed, 23 Oct 2013 22:49:03 EST Long time... It's been a long time since I last posted a blog. I guess this is something I should do. So I have been off Spark people for a while. I knew I had gained weight. Don't get me wrong, I felt those pants getting tighter. I knew my activity level went down and my stress went up. Grad school and student teaching will do that to you. I now am at 185. When I first met my husband I was the exact measurements of Marilyn Monroe. I thought I was fat. When I was 110lbs and a size 7 in Jr. High, I thought... Tue, 22 Oct 2013 23:06:43 EST Cheat Days I'm making a decision...cheat days are out. I was giving myself one day a week where I didn't have to think about it, I just ate whatever sounded good. I don't like it anymore. I either get sick or have a headache that refuses to die. I feel sluggish, I have no energy and frankly am in a bad mood each cheat day. Cheat days are out. Pretty sure that's what my body is telling me, but that's good, right? Fri, 5 Oct 2012 22:11:58 EST Negitive time So I just don't understand. Other people keep saying I look like I'm losing weight and my jeans are a little bit looser but when I look in the mirror, I see nothing. I see no results. I work out 6 days a week, an hour each time. 3 days of intense cardio. 3 days of intense strength training. i drink more than the recommended water. I eat right at my calorie range. I have changed my habits completely. I don't snack, heck I don't even crave the things I used to snack on. I work out a lot more an... Wed, 14 Mar 2012 16:40:06 EST Weigh In Confusion So I'm a little confused on how I feel today. On the one hand I did my weigh in and lost no pounds, didn't gain any either. At work, though, people saw a weight loss. I've been doing more strength training than I have cardio this week. Maybe that's it. I've decided to change my schedule to keeping strength training at 3 days a week with a one to two mile walk and then add an additional day of cardio. So i'll be 3 strength, 3 cardio and one day off. Is that too much? I've found that I actuall... Sat, 10 Mar 2012 14:49:01 EST YAY I did my weigh in today, I lost 5lbs. I'm so excited. Now I am more motivated than ever. I have never been so proud of myself. YAY! <em>224</em> Sat, 3 Mar 2012 16:52:21 EST It's okay... So today I had one hour to get from work to the doctors office 15 minutes away and back to work. The nurse led me back right away, however it took 20 minutes for them to come back and give me a 5 second shot. I was panicked having left with 15 minutes to get back to work and eat. Since I didn't know they were going to let me go to the doctor on my lunch break I didn't pack a lunch because I live 3 minutes from work so I go home to eat. The only thing on the way was McDonalds. I told myself I ... Tue, 28 Feb 2012 15:28:16 EST Ankle healed Well, I'm back again. My ankle, for the most part is healed. I'm out of the cast and the moon boot. I gained 10 additional lbs from what I was when I started on here. I'm at 165 now. That's okay. I know I can do this. Plus we have hardly any money to buy food. Can you believe it's cheaper to buy beef now, instead of chicken. Grr. I really wish that there was a group on here for people that are going through what I am. Trying to get over a broken ankle and dealing with gaining to weight from i... Fri, 31 Jul 2009 02:10:06 EST broke my ankle Hey. So I haven't been on here with moving and my last semester of college, but I'm back with bad news. I can't work out. Charlie and I were in a motorcycle accident and I broke my ankle, probably wont be walking down the aisle. Because of it, gained all the weight back. Sucky, huh? Fri, 29 May 2009 23:09:48 EST i'm back So I have been totally slacking on logging in to sparkpeople. But I'm back. I'm going to try and keep up. I've been doing well on eating and working out...I just haven't been logging. I'm kind of having a hard time also right now because my scale at home keeps saying I'm 145, but my dr.'s scale said I was 152...she said not to listen to that one, but the one at home. I don't know. I think I'm just going to listen to that one...but it still was pretty disappointing. I don't know what to believ... Fri, 30 Jan 2009 01:57:27 EST dang it! Stupid me. I gave in. I ate M&M's and Cheese pizza. I was so proud of myself. I don't know how much I way now, but I'm going to be even more mad if I end up weighing myself and have gained the weight back...especially since I haven't worked out in 2 days. I know it's a process. But I'm just so mad at myself for this. Sun, 11 Jan 2009 03:04:11 EST yay! I know I'm supposed to weigh myself once a week, but I gave in and weighed myself last night. I can usually tell when I'm losing weight (from my waist up gets thinner and thinner, every 5lbs). I weighed myself, I lost 5lbs. I'm proud. I know 5lbs doesn't seem like much, but I decided that every 5lbs I am going to reward myself. Which means I reward myself 5 times to my goal weight. I haven't decided what I'm going to do to reward myself, but if you have any ideas let me know. :D I'm proud of ... Wed, 7 Jan 2009 19:43:36 EST