JESSALYNN521's SparkPeople Blog JESSALYNN521's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community uphill battles. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So I saw this today, and I could relate in more ways than just one. I felt I could relate to it not only for this journey in being healthier, but also with my kids. Some days it feels like I will never get on top of things. I have one day where I get everything done that I wanted and then realize later that I missed something or other. I honestly think the only thing that keeps me motivated to get out of bed every ... Wed, 2 Oct 2013 16:53:24 EST my motivation 13 weeks. That is how long I have been working on bettering myself for this little guy <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Everytime things get difficult and I think, "why bother?" My son does something wonderful like this that reminds me how much I want to be here for him. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Liter... Fri, 16 Nov 2012 08:23:25 EST *le sigh* (I never know what to title these) It has been a few days since I posted a new blog. Just to give a little info I have still been doing well, working out daily, and watching what I eat. The past few days I haven't been as good with journaling my calories, but I have been keeping a mental track. <BR> <BR> Monday I was only down .2 lbs though. Cue my frowny face because I know I can do better :( <BR> <BR> I have cheated and peaked at the scale today though and I am down .6 lbs from Monday, so yay :) <BR> <BR> My son is still... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 10:12:42 EST too quiet. My husband had to work mandatory Overtime 2nd shift today. I am still waiting for him to get home. The house is eerily too quiet when he isn't here in the evenings. Him being gone left me in charge for all things bedtime for Aiden tonight. <BR> <BR> He had his first run-in with rice cereal tonight! He really seemed to like it. I finally gave in and tried because he has been watching us eat very carefully for almost 2 weeks now, and today he actually grabbed at my food! I was so surprised an... Sat, 10 Nov 2012 22:23:54 EST Nervous Nelly. Today starts level 2 of 30 day shred, and I watched it to see what I am in for and I am so nervous to start! <BR> <BR> Anyways- back on my thankful train, <BR> <BR> Day 8- I am thankful that my in-laws make me feel like family. I may get annoyed with them from time to time, but I know in the end they look at me like their own. <BR> <BR> Day 9- I am thankful for the few friends I have kept in touch with. They are truly the greatest. <BR> <BR> Today I am going to meet one of those friends a... Fri, 9 Nov 2012 10:06:00 EST It is the little things. I am beginning to think that I really need to focus on those little things. I have been sleep deprived the past few nights with my son getting up more often then normal which has left me in a cranky mood. <BR> <BR> I still have gotten in my workouts and been tracking my calories, but I am only doing it because I would be mad at myself if I didn't one day. <BR> <BR> So I think I need to jump on the thankful train. I know I am a little late for the start of the month, but I will just catch up... Wed, 7 Nov 2012 18:07:08 EST Great day! Weigh-in went awesome today with 2.6 pounds lost last week!!! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I dunno that I could be more excited. I got in Day 7 today, even though I had to take my dog to the vet. She has an infection that is causing her to chew like crazy. Poor girl. But we have her on antibiotics and cortizone pills now so hopefully they will help. Vet said if she keeps licking/chewing after that then she may be developing allergies. Let's hope this medicine just works for her. <BR> <BR> I a... Mon, 5 Nov 2012 18:06:29 EST Day 5 Marks my halfway mark through Level one of 30 DS. <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> I feel like I can do what I want, that I am doing really well. My body is back to feeling good and I am just going to keep getting better! <BR> <BR> We had a great day together. Ryan was really happy because I finally cut his hair. Of course, he complained most of the day saying it was too short *le sigh*. I told him that if he kept complaining he could go back to paying 25 dollars once a month (at least) for his h... Sat, 3 Nov 2012 23:02:20 EST Moving right along. Got in day 4 of 30, and I am starting to feel so much better. I can still feel the soreness in my thighs, but it is about gone. I am assuming tomorrow or the following day I won't feel the soreness anymore! <BR> <BR> I also put the baby in the stroller and walked to Kroger and once upon a child. It was nice to get out of the house and get some fresh air (even if it was chilly!) <BR> <BR> We went to the In-laws house tonight to try some pepper steak, and I actually did a pretty good job at o... Fri, 2 Nov 2012 21:32:05 EST Blah... Today felt like a rut day. My son has been really upset and has not wanted to be put down all day. He won't even take a nap. ugh. One of THOSE days. Therefore I didn't get to do my workout until my husband got home from work. By then I REALLY didn't want to. He convinced me to just do it and took the baby. God bless that man. <BR> <BR> So in conclusion Day 3 <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Beetween my workouts and my diet I have been pretty spot on this week <em>224</em> so hopefully that s... Thu, 1 Nov 2012 17:06:01 EST feeling good. Well I made it through Level 1 Day 2 of 30 DS. I woke up this morning and pretty much every muscle in my body was ache-y. I decided to go ahead and push through though and get my workout in for today. I dunno If I feel any better physically, still sore in the legs... and everywhere else lol. <BR> <BR> As I said with the title though, I am feeling good. Good about my choice to go for it today even though I had a BIG part of me that didn't want to. Pun fully intended <BR> <BR> I may have also... Wed, 31 Oct 2012 13:43:29 EST Stop talking and just do it. I know I said I was going to start 30 DS yesterday. That didn't happen. I tried to get it to work on my TV/DVD player and it wouldn't. My husband fixed it for me when he got home, but I am pretty embarrassed for him to see me do my thing. Lame excuse, I know but I promised myself I would start today. <BR> <BR> 20 minutes of death and cursing later, I feel like jello and I know my body is going to be feeling it later/ tomorrow. Overall though, I feel good about myself. I missed those endorphi... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 11:53:03 EST Weigh in day... Well today was my weigh in day. I had a loss at least, 1.8 pounds so I will take it. <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Today I start 30 day shred. I am hoping that starting it and making some healthier choices will allow me to have an even better week this week. I know I am not perfect. I am not trying to be. I know that there are going to be times when I falter on this path, but it is a work in progress, right? <BR> <BR> Yesterday was great to get to spend time with my husband. He had mandatory ov... Mon, 29 Oct 2012 10:27:10 EST There is a reason to do this... Right? How bad is it that I already feel myself wavering in my resolve? I AM doing this for me, but sometimes it feels like it is going to be the longest journey of my life. It is funny. I know how I put the weight on, and that it didn't go on overnight, so it won't come off overnight. However, by that logic it wasn't hard to put on, so why does it have to be so hard to take off? <BR> <BR> I know this sounds whiney, and no, I am not giving up. I just wish I could. I guess this time really is differ... Wed, 24 Oct 2012 11:07:37 EST