JESSALOU's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JESSALOU JESSALOU's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Out with the OLD in with the NEW....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5405397 I got to thinking a few mins ago, I update or try to kind of regularly, but when i got to thinking about it, Im not the OLD me any more, Wont be. SO. This will be holding all the INFo from the past..... my goals, when i reached them, and the get to know me part, and I will be REVAMPING the page COMPLETELY! I dont want to have to scroll down through years past of lil up dates here or there to know WHO I am NOW and WHO I am about to transform into, <BR> <BR> SO, This is just a copy and paste... Sat, 29 Jun 2013 10:58:10 EST mindful eating week 2 of season of the beast challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5402427 Mindful Eating Questionnaire <BR> Are you a mindful eater right now? Take the following assessment to find out. While mindful eating can’t be measured with complete objectivity, this brief questionnaire will deepen your understanding of yourself, and of how mindful eating can begin to liberate your relationship to eating and food. <BR> <BR> INSTRUCTIONS: Answer each question with the number that best matches your experience. Answer as you think you are, not how you think you should be. Treat... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 12:41:58 EST exercise accountability http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5397584 since I am going to be doing the 10k over all but last night proved i have to start some where.... well.. i will be doing a "modified" version of the 5k and here is what my over all plan will be. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Week 1 <BR> weds stretch & strength <BR> thrus 1.5 m run <BR> Fri 30 min cross <BR> Sat 1.5 m run <BR> Sun Rest <BR> Mon 40 min cross <BR> tues 30-60 min walk <BR> <BR> <BR> Week 2 <BR> Weds stretch & strength <BR> thurs 1.75 m r... Fri, 21 Jun 2013 17:01:57 EST foods of the week......... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5397533 well the foods i have been doing are making me feel good. <BR> been doing a shake for breakfast, <BR> consisting of soymilk banana spinach and cocoa, <BR> then todays was a lil diff, i added in some pineapple! YUMMO!! <BR> lunch had been soups and salads, <BR> first day was tomato bisque, yesterday was chicken barley and mushroom, <BR> i change up the salads daily too. mixed classic with some cucumber, green onion, tomato, celery, then topped with a salad pizazz, i love the orange almo... Fri, 21 Jun 2013 15:55:17 EST accountability... is going to be my best ability! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395430 Well, its a new season in my Sunny Gals team! <BR> WOOHOO! <BR> and Im happy and sad lol <BR> saddened by the fact that because I forgot to take my papers when we went down to Galveston and San luis Pass for the kids appointments and our mini vacay, which meant i did not have the pass word for the internet BOO! <BR> so my longest running streak at logging in is now 129 and I am starting over fresh with streaks, cleared them today for logging in, drinking water and eating 5 freggies a day. ... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 16:59:37 EST motivational board http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5279649 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1725800723.jpg"> grrrrrrr <BR> check it out at <BR> www.twinspiringmom.blogspot.com Sat, 9 Mar 2013 01:37:57 EST SUNNY GAL MEASUREMENTS EEK!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5260584 OK. TIME TO GET SERIOUS! HERE WE GO...............AHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> head 23 1/2 neck......16 <BR> r arm 15 l arm 15 <BR> bust 53 1/4 under 51 1/4 <BR> waist 57 hips 56 <BR> left thigh 28 right thigh 28 <BR> r calf 16 left calf 16 <BR> <BR> <BR> grand total is...... 374.75 ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh <BR> <BR> <BR> and the results from the page........... *sigh* <BR> <BR> Your Results: <BR> Body Fat %: 68.12 ... Sat, 23 Feb 2013 00:01:50 EST Spring into action week 1 Sunny gal blog... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5260138 So, main challenge is sharing a lil something about me... lets see, <BR> as this challanged started I literally just turned 31!! WOW! My Name is Jessica, im now 31...... Im ready to refind me...years ago i lost 100+ lbs on sparkpeople and that was my first meeting up on here with several of the sunny gals!! I feel like im an orginal sunny =) I love my sunny sisters and how amazingly supportive they are!!! <BR> I am married to an amazing man, Keith, and we have three beautiful children toget... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 14:18:37 EST New Reasons..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5178756 Well, You all Know i was pregnant... so... Now you meet Reason.................. <BR> <BR> Daniel Reason Mahanay , that is. <BR> Born December 5th 2012, at 10:15am. Weighing in at 10 lbs 5 oz and 21 " long. (did i mention hes supposed to be 4 weeks premature?? haha) <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2142094335.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My lil love muffin!!! He was a chunker!!! From being in ISCU(infant special care unit, same as a nicu but UTMB called it iscu for reasons. ha... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 12:01:10 EST pregnancy play list for working out!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4424462 <BR> <BR> Taken from circle of moms. kinda of a neato thing. I couldnt do it but if i was to be pregnant again i would try my hardest if possible. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> The fitter you stay during pregnancy, the easier it will be to snap back afterward. And if you start during the first trimester, you’re much more likely to stick with it when the going gets tougher (and you get bigger). Don’t make the mistake of letting yourself go, thinking you’ll check... Sat, 13 Aug 2011 11:25:27 EST Pregnancy, Birth and The twinkies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4306533 Well, <BR> This is my catch up blog. The one where I spill the beans about everything I can remember (you'll understand that is truth later ) <BR> <BR> I was doing so good this time last year. <BR> I was in a 12/14......... I was wearing some Large shirts and a lot of XL. <BR> I was full of life and energy. <BR> Planning a wedding. Just finished marrying my mom off(we will catch up on that in a bit too) <BR> Looking forward to the beginning and start of a beautiful Life with Keith. <BR> <... Sat, 18 Jun 2011 10:34:04 EST todays, blah, moments. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4302232 I know a lil early in the day to be all Blah. But I'm down in my back bad. can barely move. and it is driving me crazy! I need to be up and at em. I have so much to get done. but THis back is killing me since monday. and worse each day following. I can barely walk at the moment its hard to straighten up and i need to hold on to things most the time. i'm trying to blame it on waht i am calling extra weight. I dont wanna blame the babies LOL. even though its the last 53 lbs from being pregnant... Thu, 16 Jun 2011 09:33:01 EST Waiting on my Miracles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3830098 Well Weight will definately be in issue again. i'm at 267 right now with 10-13 weeks to go. if i am lucky. We will be in our 25th week on thursday. i have no net at home. and things are really getting tight and rushed lately i cant work. and have been on bedrest all ready once. just waiting for the next time i am told to. <BR> Keith and I did marry on sept 30th. it was nice quiet small lil intimate ceremony. just family so to say. now we are just waiting. Boys have been growing good. <BR> w... Tue, 7 Dec 2010 14:12:23 EST Twins on the way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3577105 Just incase you all havent caught the new update on my page <BR> i will not be continuing spark at the time. i am currently pg with twins. <BR> will come back when i am able too!!! <BR> bless you all and Good luck on each of your journies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <BR> Love and hugs <BR> ~~~Jessica~~~ Thu, 26 Aug 2010 13:43:35 EST sunny gal family fued http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3389543 Let's Play Family Feud!! I can't wait to read your response. YOU ARE <BR> NOT ALLOWED TO USE MY ANSWERS - YOU MUST USE DIFFERENT ONES!! <BR> <BR> Readyyy.....GO!!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Remember, you can't use the same answers as the person who sent it to <BR> you.... <BR> <BR> <BR> 1. Name something you use in the shower? WATER <BR> <BR> 2. Something people hate to find on their windshield? Bugs <BR> <BR> 3. Name something a man might buy before a date? Roses <BR> <BR> 4. What is som... Thu, 1 Jul 2010 12:35:59 EST Jessa's sour cream green turkey Enchi's!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3312112 1 lb ground turkey browned and crumbled <BR> 1 small sour cream light <BR> 1 can hernadez? salsa verde(8 oz) <BR> 1 can green enchilada sauce(12 oz) <BR> chopped mushrooms fresh or canned <BR> 1/2 cup cheese(althought i think i used less it was a bottom of the bag thing for me) <BR> i added a squirt of light ranch dressing ( i didnt have enought sour cream ) <BR> some fajita seasonings, lil cumino (cumin) and lil dash of chili powder <BR> mix seasonings mushrooms sour cream and sauces toget... Tue, 8 Jun 2010 01:19:26 EST i am, i can, i will, i do. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3312099 I know its not always that easy to say that and to keep motivated. <BR> well i have been really sick for a few weeks, i flucuate daily with weight from 209 to 216 doesnt matter how good i eat or if i exercise. <BR> I am backed up in the colon and i am having major issues, WIll is going to give me a new eating regiment and i am getting my perscription filled soon so hopefully i can drop the poop weight and the fluid i am retaining and be back at 203 but hopefully more at oneunderland!!!!!!!!!... Tue, 8 Jun 2010 01:14:07 EST saved favorites bloggg....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3253886 <BR> Strategies for Salad Bar Survival <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/resource/nutriti<BR>on_articles.asp?id=422 </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> The Portion Distortion Guide <BR> <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/resource/nutriti<BR>on_articles.asp?id=177 </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> 9 Hidden Reasons to Stay Motivated <link>www.sparkpeople.com/resource/motivat<BR>ion_articles.asp?id=196 </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> Over 100 Super Foods for a Super You <link>www.sparkpeople.com/resource/nut... Fri, 21 May 2010 12:21:59 EST may 20th 2010, food food food track track trackkkkk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3252178 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/8/l38888431.jpg"> <BR> breakfast again, 1 c cereal 1 cup milk actually measured out i swear LOL <BR> <BR> Snack again 1 oz cheese and 12 crackers today. <BR> <BR> lunch........ <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/7/l975350741.jpg"> <BR> <BR> 1 chicken breast, rice, peas, and lil soy sauce, light/low sodium <BR> <BR> <BR> snack was horrid today had to take some time to entertain Keith and Dad (his dad) so took them to da... Thu, 20 May 2010 22:56:22 EST may 19 2010, food again blah http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3252117 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/2/l522164751.jpg"> <BR> kinda funny feels like i am getting tired of food. <BR> this morning i ate 1 cup cereal with 1 cup milk. <BR> <BR> snack was 1 oz cheese adn 11 crackers <BR> <BR> Lunch: <BR> 6 oz green beans <BR> 5 oz sketti & meat sauce <BR> 4 oz pear halves <BR> 2 slices of french toast. <BR> salad <BR> <BR> DInner was 1 fish filet and 12 craw fish tails, coleslaw. <BR> <BR> no late snack <BR> <BR> blahhh i am really hating th... Thu, 20 May 2010 22:38:09 EST may 18th food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3244921 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/6/l868469312.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Not so good i'm apparently sickened by the toe or something @ noon i ate <BR> 5 oz sweet tater <BR> 2 oz ham <BR> 3 oz sliced peaches <BR> oddly enough i was a smart arse today and i went to my co workers postal scale, weighed the plate, (well a paper one) then weighed out the foods to make sure what i was eating <BR> <BR> Keith too me out to dinner but it was chinese and (still sick and not thinking clea... Wed, 19 May 2010 00:29:15 EST food may 17th http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3240783 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/4/l948342687.jpg"> <BR> <BR> dinner =o) Salmon Brussel sprouts, and couscous(also had tbs corn) <BR> <BR> Lunch 4 steak fingers, 1/4 c mashed taters califlower, broccoli & carrots <BR> (served at work) <BR> <BR> Breakfast: 2 oz cheese, 1 serving wheat thins & snack after was white cake(from work too!) <BR> <BR> Snack after dinner was 2 tbs peanut butter and a bananna after attempting workout <BR> apparently working out with broke toe isnt... Mon, 17 May 2010 22:47:13 EST ITs S-A-T-U-R-D-A-Y NIGHT!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3050800 Well its saturday night!!!!!! Nothing big or special going on for me. I have had some things come to me this week that makes me notice how much I have changed. <BR> <BR> * one............... Smiles really are contagious! and its amazing! My Momma has been in such an amazing mood since she met her Fiancee All smiles all glowing, and just totally and perfectly happy. Which has in return made me smile a lot more too!!!! I love it! I am so happy and she is so happy and I am so happy for her.... Sat, 27 Mar 2010 22:16:35 EST WELL, Sunny gals.......... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3021861 Seems I got a little bit too interested in Imagechef.com today....... I posted a bunch of stuff for Us sunny gals in the photos area .... yupp... of the teams photo place. I figured maybe if i did a bunch of different ones we would all have something we might like to Sunny gal up our pages!!!!!!!!!!! WEll Its a ncis marathon today.LOL so i'm about to let the dogs out, grab some laundry and head to moms. I have to work this after noon. kinda funny its a 1990-2000 10 year get together to try an... Sat, 20 Mar 2010 10:19:05 EST things that I am now "REAL" izing........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3004112 Ok, so i kinda stepped in it today........i have totally been needing something to push me and motivate me and I just have not had it. <BR> <BR> after this weekend and a bad falling out with a friend. I started realizing I am more important to me at this moment getting me where i need to be in life and doing what i want to do with my life than dealing with tons of dramas! <BR> so........ i have been reading on my friend wills page. and it seems i got the guts up today to call REAL Johnson.... Mon, 15 Mar 2010 21:29:59 EST 100 gone! but lots to change. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2916510 Well last night. was a good night in ways. the day was good. some cuteness between tyler and I and it was a great day at work, no complications what so ever. later i found out an ex i would apparently say is an ex friend now also is engaged. this really ruffled my feathers. Its not that i am jealous of his girl who he now has. And most def. not that i want him. but it was hurtful in so many ways. 1. he and i were friends but instead of calling or txting he announces it on facebook. Then i wa... Tue, 23 Feb 2010 07:44:32 EST be bold, be in charge and Love your self! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2908758 oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo<BR>ooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...........<BR>.............. <BR> how awful i feel this morning!!!!!!!!!!! <BR> i felt great yesterday..... & apparently i should know by now one day of greatness is followed by............. ick........ went out of town yesterday with a sissy of mine..... had a great time came home took more meds and then talked to my sweetie for a lil while. wake up and BLAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! not up in time to go to church....... we... Sun, 21 Feb 2010 12:03:43 EST feb 20th......... still blah... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2905216 Well i have to say i have forgotten to mention how proud i was of my momma and my self in this last week. We both had our moments of missing my daddy but it wasnt like a why isnt he here etc kinda moment. it was way more of a wow we miss him but hes with us still in so many ways. Kinda neat and weird at the same time. I was grateful this year for having a birthday. For my father now knowing that I am way on my way to happiness. He would be so proud of me for losing the weight Trying to acc... Sat, 20 Feb 2010 11:30:54 EST sooo sick... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2903520 so i have been fighting off being sick and its finally gotten to where it is not working! at all yesterday i was sent home by my wonderful boss who didnt want me there but knew she needed me there today more so than yesterday! so i got to go home! i was grateful to be able to spend a day in bed sleeping the whole time1!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahh!!!!!!!!! just a lil better but got out and about today and now im all frumpy feeling again!!!!!!!!! help me get well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! please lord!!!!!... Fri, 19 Feb 2010 21:18:14 EST birthday update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2903515 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/8/8/l883569134.jpg"> well this is the new me as of today. I bought a straightner for my birthday seems to work with the wet and dry now got a new cut today! while it was straight! by present to my self was fitting into a 14!!!!!!!!!!!! a real honest """"normal""" (which i dont this word) 14!!!!!!!!!!! also i have eaten really bad lots of mexican cause well its stupid but i been sick all i can taste is spicy stuff! my friends were all blessings ot m... Fri, 19 Feb 2010 21:16:28 EST día de tarjetas del día de San Valentín feliz y feliz cumpleaños a mí http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2886519 well apparently i dont blog enough now that i see when the last time it was that i did blog. =o( <BR> well things have been crazy. I am loving life at the moment for the most part. but its also getting annoying. My water is still off been to cold to try to fix it. after the pipe busting the like 7 freezes back. Tyler and i have our ups and downs. but it really is mostly ups. just hard with the like 45 mins away. and neither of us with a running vehicle. we see each other when we can but its... Mon, 15 Feb 2010 22:24:10 EST can you say DRAMA?????????? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2625134 Well, apparently its soo time for me to start back blogging. <BR> <BR> went to bed last night thinking of the conversation i had with Les' mom. Awoke at 2 am. from a night mare i remembered then what it was but i cant remember now. But i know i automatically called him and left a message. then he called this morning say whats wrong "babe" i said well really i dont like you calling me that any more he said what babe? i said yeah i said no babe no baby. he said why i said cause its innappro... Thu, 10 Dec 2009 16:54:50 EST no-way-november- now dear Lord its december! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2623085 well where to really begin? <BR> <BR> thanksgiving was a good day the last of the good days for november. i guess. ate at les' moms then at my moms i chilled then went up to spend time with les in Athens which was the last time. spent the night, got up sent him off to work and me back home. then that was that really we decided we needed time. then i got pissy cause he was chatting up lots of other women. in this we need to befriends and then start over period of just 2 days. then i lost it ... Wed, 9 Dec 2009 20:23:43 EST i can shop where? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2588821 well today i was bored again and after momma liking my new sweater i decided to go get her one but then i remembered they didnt have an 18/20 again so i thought well shoot i will go look in the jr/miss side of catos ha woo hoo i wore a XL!!!!!!!!! i gave her the 18/20 cause i knew she would be more comfortable! well....... then i got a call from "mom" (lesters mom) and she wants me to come to thanks giving of course for all i know its gonna be me and her and jim ed and jim ed's son & his wife... Wed, 25 Nov 2009 18:07:44 EST ahhh haaa..... turned ohhhh boooyyyy!!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2586602 sooo....... lately i have been so darn sick and so depressed and just down in the dumps. <BR> and today (ha ha of all days pay day early!) i went shopping............ <BR> Got some ear rings i have been dying for. 35.00 <BR> got a long black sweater with "fur" on it..... 27.00 <BR> a cute cap to go with it 9.00 <BR> getting home looking in the mirror............. apparently yes it was priceless. (now can i have the master card for making a commercial?? lmao) <BR> <BR> but something just hi... Tue, 24 Nov 2009 18:54:52 EST fitwc... recipies. trying just to try... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2541759 Share 3 recipes with your team for the upcoming holiday season. One recipe should be a VEGETARIAN entrée or side dish, one recipe should be a DESSERT, and one recipe should be a TRADITIONAL holiday recipe with a healthy twist. Your traditional recipe doesn't have to be tied to a specific holiday or religion, although it certainly can be, just connect to something that you celebrate or enjoy during this season. <BR> <BR> vegetarian----- <BR> <BR> couscous and mushrooms <BR> 2- 4 oz mushrooms... Sat, 7 Nov 2009 10:45:16 EST to the sunny gals and others.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2537746 hey ladies, i am having issues right now with my body not liking me and medical things i guess even thuoght we dont know waht is causing any of this. i dotn think i am gonna be able to participate for a while, my white blood count was 16000 @ er the other night and dr is upset they said i was dehydrated cause i am not, plus with the weight loss and no appitie and nausea and stomach pains i now have an ultra sound scheduled for monday morning, i am really getting worried, this stuff has been g... Thu, 5 Nov 2009 17:52:04 EST in need of help........... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2523520 i need help, really lots of help!!!! some how even with things going as good as they are ................. <BR> i've been slipping into a deep depression and its bad cause i am taking it out on the one that means the most to me! Lester, and he doesnt deserve it at all! <BR> right now things are a lil hectic and i know things will get better, bills are messed up, we are in tow different towns not much time together lately, and we are working our butts off to try to get things different. whic... Sun, 1 Nov 2009 01:05:00 EST 69!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2505569 well i dont know what to say really! other than i am just blown away right now at this point. <BR> 3 days ago i went to get in the tub and i turned and saw my self in the mirror and was like WOW! i couldnt believe that i looked so much thinner than i have been feeling! My stomach is way down from what it was and those gross back folds are alot better than i ever thought they could be! <BR> So then this morning i weighed at my moms actually it was this after noon after eating all day! lol and... Sat, 24 Oct 2009 23:02:52 EST div's, dev's, marri's and stuff http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2474776 otay well i see its been a really really really long time since i have even blogged here on spark! i am very disappointed in my self!!!! <BR> so where do i begin??? <BR> Still working, continuously hating it at the job i am at it is stressful and annoying at times but other times its otay! <BR> Love life is great!!!!!!!! <BR> we have plans trying to work on getting our divorces!!!!! thinking of looking into getting custody of his daughter abby an adorable 2 yr old! <BR> also looking at may... Tue, 13 Oct 2009 02:26:32 EST august rush slowing down!!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2344919 Well, been a long time since i blogged i see! kinda sad i know i have been bad about logging in and talking to people and teams too! but things might kinda be slowing down for a while! thank goodness! <BR> lets see quick up date, yes Darrell has a gf. and things seem to be great again between us just friends nothing more and i am loving it. and no i am not totally smitten over him any more. I have reconnected with a old school mate and we are dating and things are great! Les is a great guy... Tue, 25 Aug 2009 11:55:29 EST TO my teams........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2223270 Ok .... the 2 teams i ahve been active on...... i just ahve to say....... right now its pointless i will be letting you all down..... and i am just gonna stop now....... <BR> i've been sick for over 6 weeks now.... cant seem to kick what is in my body! its now been 3 weeks with antibiotics and steroids adn as of now i am just gaining.... UGH!!!!!!!!! cant exercise or even attempt a work out! walking is out of the question too... after the first 3 -4 weeks of not eating now i am starving const... Sun, 12 Jul 2009 20:02:29 EST Dark clouds surrounding me......... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2198260 ok, well i am in a funk and i cant seem to get out of it yet.............. <BR> things with Darrell are at a complete hault, i doubt will ever be anything or go any where.... especially since Annie is a girlfriend as stated by her..... BLAH! <BR> and since then i just have been in a downward sprial........ it seems its never gonna end........ <BR> its getting hard for me to get out of bed.......... <BR> i'm tired all the time... <BR> i'm also still sick...... cant stand the not being able to ... Thu, 2 Jul 2009 13:56:18 EST Take Me----- a poem by me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2152206 Take me in your arms <BR> let me drift away <BR> tell me what your feeling <BR> and I'll release my heart tonight. <BR> <BR> Hold on to me so tight <BR> Show me I'm safe and secure <BR> Tell me this isn't my imagination <BR> And that we will last beyond tonight. <BR> <BR> Snuggle me up next to you <BR> Lets imagine our wedding day and night <BR> show me how dreams can come true <BR> and that we will be forever One <BR> <BR> Wrapped up in your embrace <BR> lets make this happen right <BR... Mon, 15 Jun 2009 11:33:08 EST slow and steady wins the race? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2151090 Ok so i have always heard this phrase growing up............................. but do we think it is true? <BR> i mean isnt it the fastest one that wins a marathon? or the best team with best offense and defense and highest points to win a game? <BR> hmmmmmmmm........................ <BR> well for my sake i am hoping slow and stead wins in so many ways, i mean the losing the weight, when i am not sick i seem to lose at a nice rate! and so far so good for keeping it off! <BR> And i plan on ge... Sun, 14 Jun 2009 23:52:07 EST Delishious Darrell =o) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2148435 Oh, ok well i know jenn and nora are ready for some kind of an up date! lol <BR> lets see last week? well 2 fridays ago.......... i thought about him and the kids after working with my mom delivering food to the elderly we had lots of extra meals, so. i took some fried catfish to him and the 3 boys! it was awesome! we all sat down and enjoyed it together! at the bbq place! ha ha........ kids were really talkative which they never really have been with me before ! it was soooo cute! <BR> well... Sat, 13 Jun 2009 21:19:19 EST new me new size! woo hoo! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2142309 ok so i got up this morning and it was pouring rain.. BLAH! i have the kids coming soon! and i was thinking wow i need to get dressed and eat and clean some !!!! well!!!! i didnt have any clean pants! ha ha <BR> so i thought well it wont fit but i will try on the pants that i kept that use to be my step daughters(yes she was a larggggggge girl at 13 wearing a 24 in the end) but these are a 20!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! a 20!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!! i am so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok so i kno... Thu, 11 Jun 2009 10:45:39 EST My Rewards!!!!!!!!Jenn& nora must reads!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2138327 Ok, well first off we all know how buying new clothes are rewards enough...... but........ I think that my idea is great! <BR> Norastatler? Jenncrrt? ME! and Letsdowork!! all need to get to know each other better! I am planing that after i get through nursing school, ad get a job that i will save money!!!!! and i will take me and mom to cali! for a nice vacation! this tine not having to take care of sick family! (God rest their souls!) and being able to enjoy life and vacation in California... Tue, 9 Jun 2009 23:20:13 EST goals... reevulated! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2131946 these were my goals form a while back <BR> as posted on page <BR> <BR> My Goals: <BR> HA its perfect, i said i would like to reach aobut 175 for a start goal and well. its seems when i add subtract divide multiply and all kinds of stuff. this is wat i came up with at goals for 10%loss each goal <BR> start weight 308 <BR> new start weight 299.8 <BR> 1st goal 269.8 wow i met this and i didnt even know! i'm at 262.2 as of 5/29/09 <BR> <BR> 2nd goal 242.8 <BR> <BR> 3rd goal 217.8 <BR> <BR> 4... Mon, 8 Jun 2009 00:08:49 EST have u ever? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2130507 Have you ever wanted to loose weight for your self? ......... but just lost the want to? <BR> have you ever been inspired by someone?............. and find that need to? <BR> well i think i am back to that point............. i barely worked out when i was dating Torry..... the biggest jerk and now loser cause he doesnt have me................. =o) <BR> well come friday an old friend called, well hes young lol but seems like an old friend even though we met back in december. Vince, well, he ... Sun, 7 Jun 2009 13:20:55 EST