JESPAH's SparkPeople Blog JESPAH's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Future Me, Future You So I guess I owe you a blog post. Er, sorry. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I hit 300 and a bit above (308?) and then boomeranged back down, all thanks to the miracle of modern science. As in, I joined my local hospital's weight loss program. This all happened when my doctor suggested I consider bariatric surgery in order to get the weight off my knees. I read about it and listened to their pitch and decided th... Mon, 20 Feb 2017 21:20:31 EST The Return I will be 300 again soon. <BR> <BR> This is not good news. <BR> <BR> But this is the dirty little secret of weight loss. It's temporary. <BR> <BR> We love to point at ignorance or moral failings or deception or whatever. Apart from a torn meniscus which my doctors have decided not to repair because of arthritis under there (and so I have trouble walking), and menopause, there really is nothing to blame. <BR> <BR> Food intake is comparable. Weights workout is comparable. I drink 13 (really... Mon, 6 Jun 2016 06:23:26 EST W0W! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> My book is now #96 on Amazon's bestseller list for paid books, genre: LGBT Science Fiction. <BR> <BR> Thank you all for your kind support!!! &#9829; &#9829; &#9829; Thu, 5 Mar 2015 09:17:33 EST How am I gonna be an optimist about this? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <link><BR>w4l-8NY </link> <BR> <BR> How am I gonna be an optimist about this? <BR> <BR> Easy. <BR> <BR> I've been published!! &#9829; <BR> <BR> Yes, really. W00t!!! &#9829; &#9829; &#9829; <BR> <BR> <link><BR>hen-Siegel-ebook/dp/B00QY0A9EC/ref=sr_<BR>1_1?s=digital-text&ie=UTF8&qid=1418861<BR>496&sr=1-1&keywords=untrustworthy </link>... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 19:18:33 EST So Open Your Eyes <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <link><BR>Cla-Lzw </link> <BR> <BR> I turn 52 tomorrow. This picture was taken not an hour ago. <BR> <BR> Yeah, I've gained some back. There's still a ways to go (isn't there always?). <BR> <BR> But hell, I'm here. <BR> <BR> Happy birthday to me. :) Mon, 1 Sep 2014 16:47:51 EST I Look Incredible <link><BR>0tdkJEU&feature=kp </link> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Nah, I don't. I've gained. <BR> <BR> But life's been crazy. I still walk pretty much every day but now my right knee keeps reminding me that I'm 51, not 21. <BR> <BR> I was just accepted into the Master's program at my school. I'll probably go another 4 years if I keep taking just one class/semester but doing three semesters/y... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 10:07:57 EST I Was Left To My Own Devices <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Do you recall the last time I blogged? <BR> <BR> I do. <BR> <BR> I mentioned I was going to write a story for NaNoWriMo. <BR> <BR> I did. I completed it (over 50,000 words). <BR> <BR> I submitted it for a competition. <BR> <BR> I received word this afternoon that I won the competition. <BR> <BR> I have just sent the signed contract to the publis... Tue, 4 Feb 2014 21:58:13 EST They're Dealing With Someone Who is Over the Brink <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I have not blogged for a good six weeks, and chances are very, very good that I won't be blogging again for another six or more. <BR> <BR> Why? <BR> <BR> Lots of reasons. One of those is that I had been feeling less than optimal, and blogging can be a bit of me entertaining people. The truth was, I didn't feel particularly entertaining. And so the bl... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 09:53:36 EST They're Listening to the Weather <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Hitting the big 5-1 today. <BR> <BR> It is humid as hell. <BR> <BR> I am running my 45th 5K. <BR> <BR> It has been a troubling year. And it is times like this that I am more melancholy and reflect back, and the reflection is not a positive one. <BR> <BR> I am well aware of what I have accomplished ... and what I haven't. Of what exists ... and what doesn't. Of what is easy ... and what is difficult. Of what is here ... and wh... Mon, 2 Sep 2013 08:27:56 EST While I'm Putting the World to Right <link> </link> <BR> <BR> This song has some not so nice lyrics. Proceed accordingly. <BR> <BR> Life has lately been a slog. I can't really say any more. I have been exercising and watching, don't worry about that. It's just watching everything around me get nutty. And I can't really give specifics (privacy of others). <BR> <BR> I'll just say that I am tired of having this weight on me. <BR> <BR> Or at least I would like for it to count as strength tra... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 08:01:11 EST But Where It's Goin' No One Knows <link> </link> <BR> <BR> A quick post. <BR> <BR> I doubt I got the job referenced in my last blog post. Ah, well. And so it goes, like Nick Lowe sings. <BR> <BR> I do need to get out of my own way, in that and in all other areas. <BR> <BR> It has been hot as hell here, and it is finally a semblance of cooling down, but it stills feels humid and draggy here, as if July were bumping along a rough and muddy road, getting mired down in, well, I don't kno... Mon, 22 Jul 2013 12:33:57 EST Can You Dig It <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Man oh man, the heat continues. We had a few days of a reprieve and now we're back to it. In between there, I ran my - no lie - 44th 5K. <BR> <BR> It was NOT a pretty sight. It wasn't sunny and it was actually not too super-hot but man oh man it was humid. It was like moving through a wet rag. And of course speed suffers from such things. Ah, well. I don't run 'em to qualify for the Olympics or anything, yanno. <BR> <BR> In th... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 11:12:59 EST Man, It's a Hot One <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I think I posted this song fairly recently, but no matter. Consider it a reprise. <BR> <BR> Man oh man it is HOT! <BR> <BR> We had, what was it? Four? Five? Whatever - it has been a lotta over 90 days. Today, we are going up to the low 80s. Hey, it'll be awesome! <BR> <BR> Eh, who am I kidding? <BR> <BR> But at least it's almost 9:30 AM and currently the a/c is off. Let's see how long that lasts. <BR> <BR> And one thing I h... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 09:30:37 EST I Wish I Was in Tijuana, Eating Barbecued Iguana <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Today's song kinda reflects how I feel right now. It's hot and sticky here and that makes everything feel weird, moving too fast and it is a distinctly unpleasant lack of control. <BR> <BR> Maybe I'm just dehydrated. I am gulping down water (no, I'm not a diabetic or a prediabetic; it's just hot here) but hey, whatever, anything's possible right now. Maybe I'll put today's Greek yogurt into the freezer. <BR> <BR> Tip - lime yog... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 14:10:38 EST Grey Light <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I live so much of my life online that it's odd for things to be confined too much to the offline world. I am not the kind of person who tweets about every mouthful, every workout, every visit, every heartache, every triumph, ever breaking of wind. But I do find comfort in others online, and intelligence and simpatico that I often do not find locally. <BR> <BR> And then when that avenue is shut off, or turns vague, it's difficult... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 09:50:14 EST If This is Paradise, I Wish I Had a Lawnmower <link> </link> <BR> <BR> It is another massive allergy day, and it might end up being a big-time allergy week. <BR> <BR> But I will go out anyway, and walk, and clear my head. <BR> <BR> Well, sorta. <BR> <BR> There will be pollen. <BR> <BR> Lots and lots of pollen. <BR> <BR> I think cardio should count more if you're sneezing. Who's with me? Mon, 17 Jun 2013 12:49:59 EST Everybody Seems to Wonder <link> </link> <BR> <BR> For all of us who have done this, seemingly, forever, I got news for you. <BR> <BR> You have to continue. There is no end point, no stopping point. There is no part where you say, "Okay, I'm done! I can go back to lazy days and lazy eating. I can head on over to the Cheesecake Factory every other day and I can stop working out and drinking the water and everything's gonna be GREAT!" <BR> <BR> No. <BR> <BR> It. Does. Not. Work.... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 11:21:52 EST Speak to Me <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Oops, I'm a day late with the blog. Ah, well. In repentance, I offer you Natalie Merchant, and a song that isn't played enough. <BR> <BR> So - what's new in the world o' jes? Little versus last week. Life was very weather-driven, as it suddenly got hot and so outdoor activities were curtailed and modified. And I was reminded, once again, of how things have changed. It used to be that a couple of 90 degree days would wipe me out ... Tue, 4 Jun 2013 08:56:10 EST There's Only One <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I have run a bunch of 5K races, but this one was for just one mile. <BR> <BR> And it was more important than all of them, combined, for it was the final mile of the Boston Marathon. <BR> <BR> My husband and I walked and jogged and did not go too fast as his back was bothering him. <BR> <BR> But that's okay. This was not for speed. It was not for ... Mon, 27 May 2013 11:29:25 EST There's Nothing Tricky About It/Don't Tell Me This Town Ain't Got No Heart <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Two songs today, for the price of one! <BR> <BR> We got back from vacation a few days ago. And I am pleased to note that I was able to maintian (and actually lose some inches), even though the diet and exercise opportunities were not necessarily the best. <BR> <BR> We have gotten far, far better at vacationing. This is the same Cape Cod hotel we have gone to for, now, 16 years. <BR> <BR> Let me tell you what things were like ... Mon, 20 May 2013 10:13:01 EST Sonofagun <link> </link> <BR> <BR> You're so vain. <BR> <BR> I'm vain. <BR> <BR> We're all vain. <BR> <BR> It's normal. <BR> <BR> It's probably evolutionary. <BR> <BR> After all, you smell better, your clothes or your skin are cleaner or nicer, you're more likely to attract a mate. You smell better, you take better care of your teeth, you live longer. You work out or, as they called it in cave times, you gather or hunt your own food, and you live better and s... Mon, 13 May 2013 11:09:06 EST From the Past Until Completion <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I ran my 40th 5K a few days ago, on Saturday. I shaved over 4 minutes over last week's time and came in nearly exactly the same as when we did this race last year (this is the third year of doing this race), when I weighed 11 pounds less. <BR> <BR> Wait, what? <BR> <BR> Yeah. Wacky, eh? <BR> <BR> Even wackier when you consider how I was 5 1/2 years ago. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I had thought of more to write, but the Internet gods a... Mon, 6 May 2013 15:00:33 EST You Feel Joy, You Feel Pain 'Cause Nothing Will Be the Same <link> </link> <BR> <BR> This peppy song is a part of my 5K playlist. I don't listen to this playlist unless I am running, and we ran a 5K on Saturday so it came up. <BR> <BR> It is one of those songs that gets me moving, and it's set at a time during 5Ks when I am not at the start and not at the end, and the runners have spread out and sometimes I wonder what the heck it is I am doing there, and why I do a dozen of these every year. This year, it was ... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 11:24:06 EST Tell Me Friend - Why Do You Stand Aloof From Your Own Heart? <link> </link> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> You hardly need for me to rehash the incredible series of events from the past week. What is perhaps most extraordinary about how Boston has been is that we are still - as of this very moment - 2 hours away from it being a week. <BR> <BR> A freakin' week! <BR> <BR> It boggles the mind. <BR> <BR> Friday was a forced rest day. Why? Because we were in... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 12:47:20 EST I Love That Dirty Water <link> </link> <BR> <BR> If you have not yet heard, I will tell you what happened today. <BR> <BR> It is the Boston Marathon today. And it is a sweet and lovely and fun event where people show homemade banners and buy and hand out their own water and cups and bottles and orange wedges because they feel like it. Heartbreak Hill is a few blocks from my home. <BR> <BR> And today it was the scene of horror and devastation, as two explosions rocked the fini... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 18:47:00 EST I Don't Care if Monday's Blue, Tuesday's Grey and Wednesday, Too <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Oops, I'm a day late with a blog. So sue me. Life is busy/I was getting up awfully late. Yesterday, I got up, er, right about now. But today's been different so far. <BR> <BR> I am, I think, getting some of my disciple back. It had been somewhat lacking with the lousy weather (a poor excuse, I know) and now things are finally improving and so that is extremely helpful. As in, yesterday I finally did not wear long underwear, for ... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 08:09:53 EST And So Become Yourself <link> </link> <BR> <BR> For reasons that I will not go into, I have been rather pensive about the teachings that are being passed onto the next generation. And about the teachings that we absorbed at our own mothers' and fathers' knees. <BR> <BR> * Drive around until you find a closer parking spot, because walking is too much work! <BR> * Do your exercises, and you won't have a back ache. <BR> * Don't let anyone know anything about your health - and th... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 13:37:55 EST Go Now, You've Been Set Free <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> The truth is, I am posting pictures and songs about reptiles as they prefer the warm weather. Et voila, if I do so, it will magically turn warm, right? <BR> <BR> RIGHT? <BR> <BR> Heh. <BR> <BR> Boston is one of the many, many parts of the United States that is currently in Spring-pause mode right now. There are crocuses and snow drops up. My hyaci... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 16:13:20 EST My Castles Stand Upon Pillars of Salt and Pillars of Sand <link> </link> <BR> <BR> And so it goes. <BR> <BR> That has been my mantra lately, it seems. <BR> <BR> I went through a marathon interviewing session last week. In fact, right now last week (it's a bit before noon), I was busily, earnestly, explaining how I'd do some sort of project that has details that I have already, mercifully, forgotten. <BR> <BR> And if you read last week's blog, you'd know that I also pounded the table and didn't overeat french... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 11:48:56 EST And Possibly the Complications <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I am one tired puppy. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a LONG day. It was an enormous job interview, and I didn't even see everyone I was supposed to! Hence, even if all is positive and wonderful and lovely, I would STILL have to have a phone screen with this last dude. <BR> <BR> That would be my third phone screen, on top of six hours of interviewing which included a one-hour presentation by me. <BR> <BR> I cannot begin to tell you h... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 10:01:20 EST I Could Change My Life to Better Suit Your Mood <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Many doings here, in Jespahland. <BR> <BR> I had an in-person interview today. And on Wednesday, I'll have a second phone screen with a different place. Progress, no? <BR> <BR> Wellllllll <BR> <BR> maybe. <BR> <BR> Both are in data analysis. Hence I want to do neither. <BR> <BR> But my current gig is a startup and they just don't have enough bucks. <BR> <BR> I am not asking for enough for Caribbean vacations. I am asking fo... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 17:36:33 EST I Knew Just Who They Meant <link> </link> <BR> <BR> We live in a strange world. <BR> <BR> We are in contact. <BR> <BR> But, in many ways, we aren't. <BR> <BR> Case in point. I am FB friends with a lot of people, including people from my past. Got a notification of a birthday. Went to write on the wall. And, you know, you expect to see a ton of birthday wishes. instead, there was an RIP wish. <BR> <BR> I did some sleuthing. It seems this person died on January 13th (and the bir... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 08:43:22 EST Second Verse, Same as the First <link> </link> <BR> <BR> In all fairness, it's not the second verse. It's actually the fifth. <BR> <BR> See, in three days, I will be celebrating my fifth year sparking. <BR> <BR> Yeah, really. <BR> <BR> Egad, what can I tell ya? <BR> <BR> I can tell you that, five years ago, I did not expect to be here. I did not expect to be on the lifetime website plan. I did expect that losing would take a while. I'm not so sure exactly what I thought about my li... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 12:15:58 EST I Feel Like I Never Should <link> </link> <BR> <BR> It snowed a bit here - have you heard? <BR> <BR> Seriously, we got 25" of the stuff, according to the official measurements from nearby Logan Airport. This was the view out of our front yard after my husband had done the first 45 minutes of shoveling. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Currently, after a combined 7 hours and 45 minutes (I only did 2 hours of that; I'm such a slacker), ... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 11:30:25 EST I'll Put the Cobwebs Back in Place <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Sorry I'm late. Life's getting in the way a lot more and more these days. <BR> <BR> Anyway - just a quickie as, egad, it's after 7 PM and too much other junk has to happen before dinner and TV and bed and, dang, about a thousand other things. <BR> <BR> The main thing going on is that the 5K schedule came out. And once we've got some nickels scraped together, we'll be signing up for a bunch. We already have 2 set up. I think we'... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 19:15:28 EST He Can't Even Run His Own Life, I'll Be Damned If He'll Run Mine <link> </link> <BR> <BR> This morning, I hauled myself up and, by the time I got a chance to look outside, it was about 6:45 or so. And I saw something at that hour that I hadn't seen in months. <BR> <BR> Sunlight. <BR> <BR> Oh, yeah. <BR> <BR> So this winter business has an end after all. And I'm trying to keep that in mind as the Weather Channel tosses out warnings about snow and Armageddon or maybe it's just a dusting. I dunno. <BR> <BR> And throu... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 11:14:23 EST I Think I Know What I Want <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I just spent the past 2 weekends doing massive family stuff, as my mother turned 80. Two parties to accommodate everyone without going to the expense of renting a hall or making people travel too much. <BR> <BR> I came out of it with little exercise but with decent food choices. Over the course of the 2 weeks, I gained a big honkin' .2 pounds. My measurements are fine and are comparable to what they were. By all rights, this was... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 11:42:34 EST I'm Gonna Set Your Flag on Fire <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I am back for a few days, in between parties. My mother turned 80 and so there are 2 parties. Because, well, why not? <BR> <BR> The first one went well, and I was also the videographer for THIS - <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Yep, that's my Dad. <BR> <BR> He learned the napkin-folding trick from his aunt, who brought it to the US from Austria. So consider it a bit o' my traditions for you. <BR... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 16:43:55 EST One for the Now, and Eleven for the Later <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I am poised on the brink of some massive family stuff. My mother is turning 80 later this week. And so there will be two parties. It's not that the two sides of the family don't get along or anything like that; it's just that there are WAY too many people. Hence there's just no way we could do a party without it turning into an *affair*, complete with a hall and a caterer and all that other junk. <BR> <BR> Therefore, the first w... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 11:12:20 EST Now is That a Light in Sky or Just a Spark in my Heart? <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I am thinking of Decembers, and of transitions. This is the end of my - no lie - 5th year at Spark. And I am ending it at my heaviest (albeit not by much), even more than at the end of the first year, when I had lost a good 120 or so in 365 days and was feeling incredible and invincible and did not see the bumpy road ahead, despite numerous warnings. <BR> <BR> Numbers are ... interesting. But it makes the most sense to look at n... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 11:25:36 EST Let Me Start a Fire With Your Spark <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I was thinking this could be an appropriate blog song, plus the quoted lyric is epic. <BR> <BR> I know many are not reading. It is family time. It is celebration time. It is a time for letting go, a bit, as we begin to truly let go of the old year. And a lot of us end up letting go of our disciplines as well. <BR> <BR> Ewps. <BR> <BR> Let us, instead, let go of our anger. Let's kick resentment to the curb. Let's push slights ... Mon, 24 Dec 2012 12:47:45 EST Happy Hours, Come and Gone <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Couldn't let the end of the world go by without a quick blog entry. <BR> <BR> Enjoy Graham Parker. Thu, 20 Dec 2012 19:12:44 EST First Time I Ran Was to the End of the Block <link><BR>a_id=5&mc_id=569 </link> <BR> <BR> I gotta apologize for the link, but it's the only recording I can find of that song. But I hate all the talking. Sheesh. Shaddap!! Ahem. Onto the actual blog. <BR> ~~~~~~~~~~ <BR> I ran my last 5K of the year yesterday. <BR> <BR> It was m'f'in' COLD! <BR> <BR> The gun time was my worst time of the year (and my third-worst time, ever; my second-worst time was last year's December run, BTW). But the chip time... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 10:47:34 EST Oh, We Won't Give In <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I think it's really, really easy, to just hang it all up this time of year. <BR> <BR> It's dark. There are parties. Your routine is interrupted. People are shoving food at you. It's the holidays! The treats are limited edition. Emotions are amped up. Family is everywhere. Stress levels are through the roof. <BR> <BR> It's just a piece of pie. <BR> <BR> It's just a cocktail. <BR> <BR> It's just a big ole holiday turkey. <BR> ... Mon, 10 Dec 2012 11:17:58 EST Well, They Think They're so Cute When They Got You in That Condition <link> </link> <BR> <BR> As much as I blather on about empowerment, the truth is, I am in the thick of low empowerment. And this comes from looking for work. <BR> <BR> This is not my first rodeo, kids. Hell, it's not even the first time I've looked for employment since I starting SP, nearly 5 (yes) years ago. It is my ... drum roll ... third. <BR> <BR> Egad, that's a lousy track record. <BR> <BR> So I am casting about for some ideas as to how to minim... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 07:16:19 EST Voice Too Loud <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I don't have an enormous amount of time to post today as I am, as they say, an hour late getting up. So now I'm chasing that hour all day long. <BR> <BR> Except it's about two hours. Ewps. <BR> <BR> Hey, I was dreaming that I was pals with Johnny Depp! It was an IMPORTANT dream. <BR> <BR> Anyway, it was nothing untoward. We were just pals, going to some dinner that required a lot of stair-climbing. He was also impressed with m... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 14:08:55 EST I'm On That Midnight Beat <link> </link> <BR> <BR> I guess I kinda have to be. This is a short week. And of course that means cramming in as much as possible during the shortened time frame. Relax? What's that?!?! You silly people. <BR> <BR> For someone who isn't working, I actually work pretty dang hard these days. <BR> <BR> Part of it is actual work. I do some SEO work for a friend. I also spend time looking for work. I write. I blog (not the same thing - writing for me means... Mon, 19 Nov 2012 09:18:07 EST Not to Put Too Fine a Point on It <link> </link> <BR> <BR> My personal life has been quiet lately, and I gotta say I'm grateful for that, as the outside world, between the hurricane and the election, has more than made up for that. <BR> <BR> And now I'm ready for, hopefully, something else to happen. <BR> <BR> Well. <BR> <BR> The job search continues, but it is slow again. And that was before the election, so don't say it was due to the election's outcome. Instead, it just seems that ... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 11:32:26 EST I'm not a Coward, I've just Never Been Tested <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Again, this is a song that I picked up long before Hurricane Sandy. There are quite a few images of devastation from my home town and surrounding environs. And it really is awful to see. My folks, who still live in the area, fled after a few days of no power. According to a neighbor, there is now power on an adjacent street. Hence when they return on Tuesday to vote, I think we can assume the electrons will be lassoed and corrall... Mon, 5 Nov 2012 11:36:25 EST They Will Possess You Unless You Change that Number on Your Dial <link> </link> <BR> <BR> When I originally grabbed a song for this blog entry, there wasn't a huge, honkin' storm comin' up the East Coast. Hence now it's almost comical, as fake horror is replaced with some real fear. <BR> <BR> We are fine here, yes. Sandy is just a bunch of light rain and winds right now. The windows only rattle a little. It's not much, so far. Of course that may change. Local critters have all departed. They are undoubtedly far smart... Mon, 29 Oct 2012 12:01:31 EST