JENNKFIT's SparkPeople Blog JENNKFIT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Change is Coming So my mom has been having some pretty severe health problems and spent some time in the neuro ICU at our loal hospital so I'm going to be staying with the family for a few weeks. It's been a while since I've been there, and I didn't want to, but my dad has been hinting about the family being together for a while so I'll go for a while. I will have a treadmill and rowing machine there at my fingertips and I'll be using them all the time. <BR> <BR> They had to cancel their annual trip to Mex... Sat, 7 Nov 2015 22:09:11 EST First Goal Marker Okay so being honest on my new journey. My goal for today was 170, I got to 173. This is fine, it's still progress. My next goal is 165 on December 1. Even starting at 173, if I can do 2lbs per week I will make that goal easily and lose 8 pounds. I started right?! <BR> <BR> We're hiking today for work, a small group of us. The Mountain as a Metaphor, learning to overcome challenges through teamwork. We selected a famous difficult trail, Breakneck Ridge near Cold Spring, NY for our p... Tue, 3 Nov 2015 07:42:03 EST Fell Off The Wagon And It Left Me Behind So I'm going to have to build a new wagon. We're talking major crash, back up to 175 like I accomplished nothing. Eating garbage food almost every day. Working way to many hours and skipping the gym for months. I haven't been outside for a walk in weeks and I haven't started training for the 5K I'm running on Sunday morning that I wanted to do in 30 minutes and never even got out of my house. I don't know if it's my depression or what, but I haven't done anything to reach my weight loss ... Fri, 23 Oct 2015 06:15:50 EST Shorter Grey Days Ahead Sorry, I know I need to write more and keep up with things. Work is exploding in a flurry of busy and I'm home today with a stomach bug. The days are getting shorter and it's noticeble. When we get daylight saving in a few weeks we'll be slammed with darkness. What's good is that the daylight returns even if the cold won't after December 21st. Just think, what we have now is what we'll have in early March and it will feel like a rebirth. Right now it's time to take stock of the year and... Tue, 13 Oct 2015 14:55:13 EST A Good Morning This is a much more positive morning for me mood wise. Larrie taught me to take my emotional temperature every morning and I have not been as diligient since I'm not into my school routine yet. I've been pretty stable even with depression triggers looming around every corner. I have been mindful of my feelings and I think I've been doing an okay job. I'll get better at it as I get back into a real routine, with the holidays September is a big mess of 3 day weeks. <BR> <BR> I'm going to... Thu, 17 Sep 2015 06:16:43 EST Made It Through A Day It started difficult and there were many challenges but I made it. Thanks everyone for the support today. A bunch of things went wrong, but a bunch of things went right and I'm allowed to focus on that. I think I can say, overall, it was a good day. <BR> <BR> THANK YOU SPARK FRIENDS! Wed, 16 Sep 2015 21:24:08 EST Waking Up with Dread Maybe I'll finally make that phone call to Larrie today. My thoughts in the morning are very counterproductive. Starting around 3am I just start to worry about all the things that can go wrong at work and all the ways I can get into trouble for something. No one should have a job that makes them feel so persecuted everyday, but I have no other options at the moment. We don't have basic necessities at work to do our jobs but anything that goes wrong, we as teachers are held personally resp... Wed, 16 Sep 2015 06:12:58 EST Long Weekend Changed This is the second time this year dangerous weather has kept me from my Mt. Marcy hike. They're predicting 60 degrees with rain all day and after getting caught in the rain for a mile walking near my apartment, having no cell service in those conditions for 15 miles and 8 hours is not what I have in mind for the weekend. 60F and wet is deadly and a third of the trip is all exposed ridgeline. I think a better idea today would be to head over to the YMCA and do a 5K workout on the treadmill ... Sun, 13 Sep 2015 06:09:52 EST Three Days In I've spent about 16 hours so far at work fixing up my room this week. We don't have to come back until next Tuesday, but the students come back Wednesday and that's just impossible to get ready in a day when most of that day will be meetings. I also made a wise decision and booked a trip for that 4 day weekend we have right when school starts so I can hike Mt Marcy with some early Fall colors and enjoy a last great weekend before the crazy starts. I'll go up for 3 days, leave very early Sa... Wed, 2 Sep 2015 20:41:48 EST One Week Left That's how long I have left to finally get my poor apartment in order. Talk about procrastination, I've been meaning to do this all year but this time there's even more meaning to a deep house cleaning. I finally got a permanent job after 6 years in limbo floating in a system that doesn't give schools enough money to hire anyone. I'm not sure what changes happened at my school, but after 3 semesters they finally have a true position for me and I can go in early next week and get my new roo... Fri, 28 Aug 2015 08:53:01 EST A Good Summer My mountain trip got rained out but will be rescheduled soon. I know I haven't blogged in almost 2 months, sorry everyone. It's been Summer and I'm loving it. I spent a lot of time really doing nothing much. Lot's of hiking and too much eating. Yeah I'm struggling with terrible eating habits. Need to get a hold of things fast. I spent 2 great weeks out in Sedona in Arizona and I loved it. The environment agrees with me, the economy does not. Can't make a living out there in the slight... Wed, 26 Aug 2015 06:29:07 EST Off The Grid So I'm taking a road trip, leaving tomorrow for the Adirondacks to hike Mt. Marcy and generally relax in the country. I think there is wifi, but I doubt I'll be spending much time on my lap top. I'll have my dongle with me though and new batteries for my SPAT, so if I do happen to log in, I'll be able to sync my hiking miles. I went to CVS to buy the batteries today and bought everything else, even had the batteries in the basket but didn't buy them, it was a bit surreal. <BR> <BR> I di... Sun, 5 Jul 2015 18:39:09 EST Erasing A Lot I have wrote and deleted several blogs lately. Guess I just wrote too much and wasn't ready to share it all. I'm limping to the finish line and I can't wait to get this year over with. I put a lot into this year and this time it might just pay off. But right now I am tired, to the bones empty tired but only 13 days left I can easily make that. <BR> <BR> My 10 minute daily fitness streak is going great and somehow I'm up to day 21 and curious as to how long I can keep it up. I'm still ... Tue, 9 Jun 2015 23:28:13 EST Five Weeks Until Mt. Marcy I can lose 10 pounds before my trip and my knees will thank me on that 15 mile Mt. Marcy hike. I'm staying at the Adirondack Loj for a few days to hike and unwind. It's part of my hiking club member ship, check out this link. <link><BR>-loj </link> That's for my Adirondack Mountain Club. It's a great club if you're in the New York area and want to get involved with more hiking. <BR> <BR> I'm up to day 12 of my 10 minutes of fitness challenge. I go... Sun, 31 May 2015 21:27:18 EST Gentle Downcycle The past 2 mornings I've felt despair and very lonely and started crying both mornings. I've had such positive days with the 10 minutes daily fitness challenge that this downcycle is softer but I think another one is here. I just got level too. Never get used to a mood I guess, as soon as you think you're level, you're driving to work with an elephant sitting on your chest crying uncontrollably for no reason. I actually giggled and said to myself, "I don't have time for this, I'm too busy... Fri, 29 May 2015 08:22:31 EST Daily Fitness Day 8 Not a bad little streak going now. Up to day 8 and this is a day I would have normally skipped exercise of any kind. I donated double red cells today at the blood drive. It was my first time for this type of donation and it took more out of me than normal so I am a bit tired. I thought of doing an easy 1 mile walk, but the thunderstorms came through right around when I planned to head out, so I needed another 10 minute idea. I found a quick Coach Nicole video for arms and shoulders, grab... Wed, 27 May 2015 20:52:17 EST Six Mile Day I was aiming for 5 miles today and wound up getting 6 done instead. I'm happy with that. This is day 4 of trying 10 minutes of fitness every day. We had pasta tonight for dinner so I should be good for a bike ride tomorrow. That will be another 20 miles under my belt. Maybe I can do 1000 miles this year finally, a very old goal I haven't been able to achieve yet. Well I'll continue my 10 minutes every day streak and see how I progress toward 1000 miles for the year. <BR> <BR> Gratefu... Sat, 23 May 2015 21:58:34 EST I actually don't want to this year All year I have had it in my head that this is the year I don't wind up visiting my parents for a few weeks in the Spring because of whatever problems I'm having at the time. I've been invited over, and I actually packed a bag with about 2 days of stuff, but I have to be really honest. I don't want to go this year. I really am fine right now. I like my positive Spring routine that I have developed, I like my support network and the knowledge that lows pass and I'm getting so much better a... Sat, 23 May 2015 09:49:21 EST Sore, Healing, Positive I'm feeling okay even if I'm a bit sore. I'm taking care of everything inside and out and things are healing up well. I rotated my mattress last night finally and got a much better nights sleep, I pay dearly when I don't follow the rotate schedule. It's Wednesday already and I'm having a positive week. Waking up feeling okay and I like that. I was in a scary place last week, very low and now I'm on a more even keel. Reaching out for support helped a lot, everyone put their arms out to c... Wed, 20 May 2015 06:11:17 EST Bad Road Rash, Great 20 Miles Ouch, that's all I have to say. I did get 2 bike rides in this weekend, 21 miles on Saturday and 20 miles today. I fell off my bike today, crashed pretty hard into the mud after my tire slipped and got stuck. Epic wipe out. Bad road rash in 6 places. I managed to get the 3 worst ones covered with huge bandaids. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Pretty good collection of first aid stuff for this round of wounds. I'm ... Sun, 17 May 2015 21:32:33 EST Four Miles, News, and a Plan What a day huh? From the awful feelings of the morning, to the gorgeous 4 mile brisk walk I took today so much has happened. Another life changing event and decision lay before me and I have some things I need to do to take care of myself in the meantime. First, the news. <BR> <BR> Once again I have been handed an excess letter for my position at work due to budget. But this time there is more hope for me to get a permanent job than there ever has been in these past long 6 years I've bee... Thu, 14 May 2015 20:44:55 EST Where Do These Feelings Come From? All day every day from the moment I wake up my mind tells me how awful I am. I wake up sad that I'm alive and have to get through another day of work that doesn't respect me and I stand in the shower thinking terrible things about myself. I criticize my body with all of it's fat and gross and stubble to shave and my skin with random stupid pimples or my boring ugly hair. My wardrobe is awful too, my clothes are all like 10 years old because I am terrified of shopping, I never motivate to i... Thu, 14 May 2015 06:20:52 EST Pulled Muscle Easy Saturday So I pulled a muscle in my back, don't know how, lot's of pain even with 2 alleve and a heating pad all day. I'm really uncomfortable so I didn't go on my bike ride or a walk today. I did book my trip to the Adirondack Loj for July to hike Mt. Marcy. If I like it I have a 4 day weekend in September I plan to book some more time up there for Fall Foliage hiking. I was also able to order my vanity plates today, sounds silly to some but it was important to me and I can't believe I did it. C... Sat, 2 May 2015 18:51:02 EST Weekend #2 A great 14 mile ride today in the books. I even managed a nap, 2 loads of laundry and a dinner with the family. Not a bad Saturday for myself. I like the idea of adding miles to my rides to ease into the season and not go all out too early. Tomorrow will be food shopping and cleaning, but it should also include another bike ride after lunch. Sat, 25 Apr 2015 21:58:57 EST Waking Up Stressed One of the terrible feelings I need to learn to fix when it happens. This week I've been waking up angry, irritable, mean feeling, stressed, anxious, hateful, spiteful. All of the negative emotions swirling around for no good reason. It's like they build up overnight when I lay down and come pouring out when I stand up. I honestly cannot stand it. It's taking too long for me to switch from the 'let it flow it's okay' mindset where you think you're right and want to make angry posting fro... Thu, 23 Apr 2015 06:10:28 EST Finally a Bike Ride It was a short one, only 10 miles. But it was a good one and it was a bike ride. I did it in just under an hour. Moving my heavy mountain bike is a lot more work than a road bike and I love it. Tomorrow the weather should be good again so I want to up it to 12 miles. Ten weeks until summer vacation and I want to be in shape for big hiking trips. I want to reserve a space to sleep up in the Adirondacks in July to hike Mt. Marcy, there's a 15 mile loop hike I can do if I'm in shape. I'l... Sat, 18 Apr 2015 22:10:43 EST Probably Staying Put Yes it's almost 2am and I'm up writing. I slept on the couch a bit and then when I went into bed I'm having trouble sleeping now. Funny thing I'm not anxious or worried about anything, I'm just awake. No stomach pains from my hernia or anxiety. I've had a good week and things are fine. The new car is amazing, my old car is officially off the road with the plates turned in and the insurance cancelled. My old car will hopefully be sold for something and I'm happy with my future tax refund... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 02:04:24 EST Thoughts of Nice Weather and Moving Out It really isn't just the company, it's the location too. Just about every year now in the Spring I've been moving into the studio in my parents house that has its own separate entrance in the back of the house. Being able to leave that door open, sit outside with a view of a beautiful yard. <img src=""> <BR> It's a really nice thing to have when the weather gets nice after being stuck up here on the 4th floor in the freezing cold winter.... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 13:56:16 EST Last Day of Break and Blog Readers So I have this adventure blog where I write about my dive trips, hiking and some product reviews. Weird thing is that it's being read, not by many, but it's been seen. <link><BR>iving-grocery-store-adventure-for.html </link> I welcome anyone and everyone to check it out for some inspiration and I welcome comments and feedback. It's not much, but it's my little blog. I was tempted to go outside today, but it's not nearly as nice as it looks from the ... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 12:50:06 EST Good Weather Pledge This is just nuts, it's not safe and it's not fun and it's a brutal Winter right now. The regular temperature when I woke up was minus 2 and that was without the wind chill. It's already poised to snow on the first day of March next week and my head is about to explode yearning for the nicer weather. I have no desire to outfit myself to walk outdoors in this weather. I don't like it. What I will do is make a pledge to myself. I pledge that when the weather gets nicer I will not skip any... Fri, 20 Feb 2015 11:09:24 EST Consolidate and Conquer Back in 2012 I put myself on a financial plan to pay off some debt, slowly but surely it's been working and I've whittled away at quite a bit of it following this plan. A lot of it I'm okay with, I took a lot of trips to Mexico and had a lot of car repairs over the years. There are a bunch of graduate credits in that pile too so overall it's been eyes wide open debt and now it's time to get rid of it all. Since I'm obsessed with paying things on time (I am 100% paperless and I have everyth... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 09:45:09 EST After Work Plan...Let's see. Okay so the weather isn't going to improve any time soon and I'm not moving my work outs outdoors until the temperature is above my age. It's 24 right now, which is a lot warmer than it has been, which is saying something. This is just nuts. I know it's February but eek. Hard to believe we have just over an hour and half more day light since the Solstice passed. This is what I should do when I get back to work next week. I need to pack my gym bag and an extra half sandwich for after wor... Wed, 18 Feb 2015 10:59:33 EST Must Blog More Again I bet some of you are wondering where the heck I went. I used to blog so much and keep everyone entertained with the boring details of my life and my exciting journey on this weight loss yo yo. I think I started a few, and then I deleted all of them. I reset my weight goal to reflect the fluff I put on during this Winter. I hate January and February with words I cannot type here. The single digit temperatures, wind and snow lately are just not on my menu of things that make me happy. It... Tue, 17 Feb 2015 14:23:17 EST My SPAT is Gone! This time it could be for real. I checked my bras, I checked my shoes, I checked all of my pockets of the clothing I wore since the last sync. After barely longer than 14 months, I think my tracker might be really lost this time. It's in none of the places I normally put it. The price came down a lot and there is free 2 day shipping as usual on Amazon, so I'll have a new on by Wednesday. I'm sad, but not too sad. This won't interfere with my January trophy either, I'll be able to get th... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 10:19:13 EST Lonely and Scared again for the Holidays Okay, I'll admit it. This time of year is hard when you've been single for a long time. While people turn toward spouses and children this season single people turn to an empty apartment and stay positive. Don't get me wrong, my life is pretty okay right now, but it does get lonely on these cold, short days. At my age, all of my friends have families by now, it would be easier if I was 24 and just starting out. This is the land of 2nd babies and photos of all the entertaining people are ... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 10:26:35 EST Great New Sneakers Finally bought some and I'm keeping track of the mileage this time. My friend gets a new pair around 500 miles depending on how they feel so I'll keep that in mind with these. <BR> Asics Gel-Excite 2 with a sku: 036458671 and here's a photo of them. They were on sale at Sports Authority for $59.99 right now. Most of their sneakers are on sale right now. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Put just over 3 miles on them today and they're ... Mon, 10 Nov 2014 09:59:42 EST Resetting Some Goals With the Holiday Season staring me right in the face I decided to reset my weight goal to focus on the next chunk of weight I need to lose to reach my goal. I am around 162 now and want to hit 150 still. This is a bit different than when I was up at 185 so I decided to start a new segment today. It's another year of #fit2feast, I'm glad Spark is doing it this year too. I want to burn 10,000 calories this month and work off my Thanksgiving dinner twice. It doesn't matter if all I do is hi... Sun, 2 Nov 2014 07:39:33 EST Right Around Now Okay here we go. I'm still feeling miserable for being turned down (so much unwanted attention and the one I want hates me so I'm feeling extra spurned still, pathetic I know, hoping it goes away soon), I've been sick all weekend and my friend went apple picking without me and it's been grey and gloomy. This is right around that time where I start feeling sad and lonely and sorry for myself. Backpedal a few years and here I am being called depressed or bipolar and given Xanax, and Prozac. ... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 09:47:29 EST Saved from a Breakfast Disaster So this morning I'm feeling pretty hungry and I decide to wander down to Dunkin Donuts for a sausage, egg and cheese on a croissant. As I was headed down the hill I noticed how gorgeous the day is and how it would be the perfect Sunday to get back on track with a daily Autumn walk. I'm thinking it's pretty chilly and I'm going over in my head what to wear on a brisk, Greenway walk. Suddenly it hits me. Why on Earth am I planning to walk 3 miles today when I'm on my way to Dunkin Donuts? ... Sun, 12 Oct 2014 10:19:44 EST Slowly Finding Balance I am almost caught up with the work I have to do for school and work. At least I feel like I'm catching up. There's still quite a bit to do and I still plan to get some done tonight after dinner. It's been a horrible, rainy day and I got a whole bunch of things done. I've made some good time for socializing, including a Tuesday trip to Spa Castle with two of my girlfriends from work. The place is amazing. I can't wait to go back with them. We plan to go once a month together. Tonight ... Sat, 4 Oct 2014 18:52:14 EST Learning Balance Like a Boss Since my entire life changed in a span of 24 hours let me tell you a little about this new balance I need to find in order to stay sane and keep up with the work that I need to do. Our new work contract passed which means we have meetings on Mondays until 3:40 pm now. Well this is after I was accepted to the Masters degree programs that will have, for the next 2 years, classes on Monday nights from 4-9 pm. Thank goodness for a new online component and understanding professors our 2 classes... Sat, 27 Sep 2014 09:21:43 EST Took a bit of time off Hello everyone it's me again. I had a bit of a rough time this August and the beginning of September adjusting to everything that happened with that person, my new job and the masters degree program starting. I was not expecting the new job and I was not expecting a few other things to happen but that's over with and I'm not talking about it. Mistakes were made but lessons were learned. <BR> <BR> Now I have a bunch of new clothes and I look amazing right now. 155lbs all of a sudden and ... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 19:35:46 EST Skinny Jeans Conquered! I am amazed at what I found at the mall yesterday, what a score. This season Old Navy has rock star cut skinny jeans that just look fantastic on, so slimming it's unbelievable. I got 3 pairs, 2 different dark blue washes and a black pair. I also got 2 new casual tops and a great pair of knee high brown boots. They're hot. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> There's a picture of them. They seem to be comfortable, looking forward to be... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 22:49:12 EST Infiltration of the 60's Completed Okay this is serious business now, I'm down to 166 so I am firmly into the 60's and I have to put my game face on to get rid of the next 7 pounds to get into the 50's. That is going to cause me to break out into song when that happens. I'm not going back up after this. Now, my stomach has been hurting less as time goes by so I'm going to have to really mind my diet now and not go back to how I was eating 3 weeks ago. I have to keep up with the exercise and maintain a good diet without too... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 16:37:56 EST I Think the Blow Up is Over I think I have the eating problem in check now and I'm back in the direction of weight loss again finally. I had a put my foot down goal of 165 for the end of July and I hit 168.5 today. By August 31st I have a put my foot down goal of 160 pounds then. That's plenty of time to drop 8 more pounds. Checking the calendar just now, 160 is the Perfect goal for August 30th. Here we go, this is serious now. I have to boost the strength training now, when I start to get into the 160's I can sta... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 15:41:11 EST Yes I'm a Bit Ashamed Wasn't expecting my Summer to go like this so far, what happened? From June 11 until today the scale just told me I put back 13 pounds. It would seem I am doing something very, seriously wrong. I thought I was going to do the exact opposite and I didn't. Not sure why or how this went this way. I guess it does sometimes. Maybe I can fix it. I went to Yoga twice last week and I've been walking again. It's the eating. I haven't been able to control my eating or do the things I want to d... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 08:56:21 EST Almost didn't do it today Around 8pm I got up and decided to fill up my tracker for the day. That's 3 miles. I almost decided not to do it, after a 7 day streak what's the big deal about taking a day off? Well I wanted to see the tracker light up again so I got up and got it done. Takes me an hour to do it but it's done now. My 5K is on Sunday and I might be walking it with my team and not using it as a race. Well there will be others. My 5K in October has just been announced and I plan to sign up for it the mo... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 23:07:03 EST Seven Day Streak? I've managed to light up my tracker for the past 7 days in a row. Today I even broke 10,000 steps since in addition to my work out I had to walk to and from the gym. Yeah I managed to get to yoga for my 2 classes so far this week. I'd like to go to Gathan's class tomorrow, that Body Conditioning class is key and he does have it 3 days a week, what could be better? I used to go a lot a long time ago when Anne Marie taught it and it was the Tues/Thurs 7pm slot. I was down at 147 when I was... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 23:05:29 EST And again today too I got in just about 4 miles today again before lunch and that was good. It would be cool to get a gold medal for the week but it's not easy. I'll have to get a lot of walking in during the week. Too bad the SPAT really can't pick up cycling or one ride would do the trick for a gold medal every week. <BR> <BR> My 5K is next week and my family doesn't seem that interested in going. I'll figure out how to get there myself and hopefully be able to get there early enough to run things back... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 21:36:33 EST Did It Again I managed to get another walk in after dinner tonight and fill up my tracker. That put me over 40K steps for the week for a silver medal. I want to go for gold for next week. Never got one and I've had my tracker since October 26th. It's about time. I almost didn't go, but I did I can't believe it. <BR> <BR> I went food shopping for good stuff today, lot's of fruits and veggies. Next up I get to the gym for some classes, I'm in need of some yoga. <BR> <BR> <em>362</em> Sat, 12 Jul 2014 22:33:52 EST