JENNISHAPESUP's SparkPeople Blog JENNISHAPESUP's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Insanity So I'm back after another hiatus from trying to eat right/work out/lose weight. . . <BR> <BR> I'm come to the conclusion that I am just not one of those people who can diet. I can't be laying around feeling like I'm going to vomit all the time because I'm so hungry, because it triggers my depression and anxiety (and then I over-eat - bad things - and feel inclined to chill out with an alcoholic beverage - so this is NOT a healthy process for me). So I think I'm just going to have to be an ... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 11:43:46 EST I'm losing it! Pounds, that is! Five of 'em, to be exact! Not bad for only a few weeks of work, and not adding exercise yet. It's all protein. The thing that was lacking in my diet, and the thing which helps me not be hungry for crap food substitutes. <BR> <BR> So now, I need to work on adding exercise. I've been doing a lot of house work including lugging things around in the attic and running up and down the attic stairs, so I'm betting that's helped a tiny bit! But now I need to get serious and ac... Wed, 26 Sep 2012 13:09:26 EST Protein: My new best friend! So I haven't posted in a while, but I haven't given up on trying to alter my diet! Unfortunately, Paleo didn't work out for me. At least, not yet. Because it's almost impossible to go from having vegetables/meat be only like 5% of what you eat to having it be more like 95%, cold turkey! I couldn't even figure out what to eat. <BR> <BR> So I tried something else, and OMG, I have found the secret to me not gaining weight any more! I really believe my weight gain was due to all the snackin... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 09:06:45 EST Frustration. So I'm about ready to give up on working out, because I can not find a suitable workout to do. I know what is important is getting my heart rate up, but I can't find a workout that does it. It's like, the second my heart rate starts coming up, the instructor has you start doing slow lunges or something like that. Or, with workouts like Jillian Michaels', the instructor spends too much time blabbing between moves, so I end up standing or sitting there, waiting for her to get on with it alre... Thu, 2 Aug 2012 11:17:28 EST Ugh. I fail to understand how, in less than a week, I can un-do several weeks of hard work dieting/exercising. :( It makes me hopeless that I'll ever be able to lose the weight, because there are always going to be times when there's a birthday party, or a cookout, or just some moment when I can't stand it any more and HAVE to have a piece of pizza. . . And I feel like, if a couple of those things come back to back, bam - I'm right back to my starting weight again. And, it also makes me hopele... Sat, 28 Jul 2012 09:21:10 EST A little bit discouraged today, but trying to stay positive. So this weight loss thing is a ridiculously slow process when you don't binge diet. Throughout my twenties, when I gained a few pounds, I would just binge diet with some Slim Fast, and be back to normal in no time. Now I'm in my thirties, that just doesn't seem like the right solution any more, so I'm doing the "right thing," and am exercising almost every day for 30 minutes, and eating SO MUCH more of a healthy diet than I used to! But losing weight this way is so slow, as I said, and I c... Mon, 23 Jul 2012 12:42:48 EST Still dancing away. . . So I had an awesome birthday, and my husband got me awesome presents that go right along with my current effort to lose weight! I got Zumba Rush and Just Dance 3 for Xbox, and have been having a ball with them! I'm using these, as well as my Jillian Michals 6 Week/6 Pack DVD - sometimes both in one day, sometimes alternating them - and working out about 4 days a week. I'm not seeing anything dramatic, but I am down to 146, and I fit in to one of my dresses that previoiusly didn't fit. Sti... Wed, 18 Jul 2012 14:39:56 EST Dancing it off! Zumba: Where have you been all my life?!?!? Seriously, this is my new favorite thing. I've been struggling to do the 30 Day Shred video, dragging myself to do it each day, and while I've been doing it most days, I just don't enjoy it, and I'm watching the timer on my DVD player the whole time just wanting it to be over. So I decided, I have to find another way to work out which is not just a string of boring exercises that leave me wincing in pain in my shoulder blades and joints. <BR> <... Thu, 28 Jun 2012 12:15:03 EST Starting Over Yesterday I got laid off from my job. While I now have concerns like finances and just hoping with all my might I can find another job, and while I'm super sad to lose working from home which suited me PERFECTLY, on the other hand, I'm trying to be positive and look at it like, that wasn't the perfect job for me, and I was ridiculously underpaid, so maybe this is my chance to start over and find a career I'm really happy in. And then I woke up this morning feeling so sunny and positive that... Tue, 19 Jun 2012 09:05:44 EST Breakthrough I MIGHT have had a bit of a dietary break-through today. . . I have a sore throat just now, probably due to my chronic sinus problems, and I REALLY want it to be gone before the weekend, so I've been drinking tea all day. Like, eight cups of tea! Plus, I've had a few glasses of water in between. People, I NEVER drink this many fluids! And you know what? I just realized all I ate today was a small handful of Tostitos, a low-fat yogurt, and just now, a handful of Rice Chex. And I am not h... Fri, 18 May 2012 16:31:44 EST Discouraged. So, I fell off the wagon. HARD! I am back up to almost my highest weight ever. :( My diet is TERRIBLE and I can't remember the last time I exercised. I had this long post typed up but what it really comes down to is: <BR> <BR> Exercise-wise: <BR> <BR> - I am not a work-out person, and the most exercise I'm going to do is one or two walks or bike rides a week. <BR> - If someone would invent a simple, compact treadmill that is literally just something one can tread on in place, and doesn... Wed, 16 May 2012 15:50:28 EST Waiting for results, and searching for lentils. . . So I had some blood drawn the other day and am waiting to hear back on results to see if my thyroid is the root of my problems. <BR> <BR> Meanwhile, I am continuing to ever so slowly convert my diet to a healthy one, and today, I decided I would go ahead and try cutting out gluten, to see if that is the issue. I made a trip to the market and picked out a gluten-free cereal to switch out my usual Life cereal with, and some chicken broth I can use as a base for soups, lots of veggies, healthy... Thu, 22 Mar 2012 15:04:13 EST Off the wagon, and on again. . . If I skip a day of exercising, I find it next to impossible to do it the next day. I know they say you're supposed to skip days, but really, I think that isn't going to work for me! I skip one. . . And that turns in to four. :( <BR> <BR> Also, the healthy eating (and logging of eating) has completely fallen flat. I've been told I am the master of having excuses for things, which is something I'm trying to work on, but really, I think I have a stellar excuse for why, even though I'm dyin... Tue, 6 Mar 2012 14:26:23 EST Progress, and more on Jillian Michaels. . . I am making progress! Not on the scale or in the mirror (yet!) but I am definitely making progress because I can now do the weights throughout the entire video. In fact, the only thing in the video I'm not doing is the push-ups. For whatever reason, I can NOT do push-ups. I just don't have the strength in my arms to life my body - and if I try to force one with all my might - well then I'm all wobbly and sore, and can't do the rest of the arm work in the workout, so I figure, skip the pus... Fri, 2 Mar 2012 11:16:04 EST Exercised! As planned, I did my first workout in a long time today! Previously, I'd been doing the Jillian Michael's 6 week/6 pack. I decided I'd try the 30 Day Shred this time instead. I liked this one as much as like 6 week/6 pack! Hooray! However, I did not use the weights today. From past experience, I've found if I try and use weights on the first day of a workout, I am WRECKED and can't work out for days until my upper arms recover. So today, no weights. Tomorrow, I'll do weights for a few... Mon, 27 Feb 2012 10:09:16 EST Horrifying myself! Well the vegetable thing has been short-lived, but mostly because the weekends are hardest for me to "be good" on, and because we had a birthday party for my husband yesterday, so ate out, then ate junk food/cake. . . I'll get back on track this week. :) <BR> <BR> However, tracking my DISGUSTING eating habits has been really good for me, and I'm almost glad I'm having a chance to see the "numbers" before I get really on board with the healthy eating, because it's educational to see what's ... Sun, 26 Feb 2012 15:32:47 EST Big Step for Me. . . I made a big step today, towards healthier eating! I had a bowl of vegetables for lunch. Broccoli and cauliflower mix. This is huge for me because lunch for me is usually nachos with tons of cheese, or a quesadilla, or a PB&J, etc. <BR> <BR> One thing I've figured out is that the key to my not feeling like gagging while eating vegetables is that they have to be PIPING hot! If they start to cool to room temperature, forget about it. Just, gross! But as long as they are super hot, they a... Fri, 24 Feb 2012 16:12:55 EST This healthy eating thing is hard to figure out! Today I spent a REALLY long time researching assorted foods. It started out with trying to find things that would help me bulk up on protein, but then I decided I just really want to research a diet which involves cutting out processed foods. <BR> <BR> All I found were eleventy billion sites telling you processed foods are bad, mm-kay? And telling you what NOT to eat. I already understand what processed food is, and that I shouldn't eat it. What I DON'T know is what to eat in place of th... Wed, 22 Feb 2012 18:30:33 EST Lacking Protein One of the eye-openers of tracking my food with Spark People has been how badly I lack protein. I am pretty good about coming in on target for the calories, carbohydrates, and fat, but I am always WAY under the protein amount. This is probably because I rarely eat meat. So, I need to do some research and find some non-meat food that are high in protein that I won't turn my nose up at! ;) Wed, 22 Feb 2012 08:51:31 EST I LOVE SparkPeople, but am frustrated with their fitness tracker... I am the type of person who is motivated by visual results. That means, if I just start exercising for the heck of it, and saying "I'll eat better". . . It's never going to happen. This is why I love the idea of SparkPeople, because going in and entering what I'm eating, and the exercising I do, is like having a visual representation that I'm DOING SOMETHING, and motivates me to keep at it. (It also helps that this is technically a "public place," and I know I will feel ashamed if I have ... Sun, 19 Feb 2012 18:13:40 EST Fresh Start Well, for a while in late 2011, I was doing AWESOME with exercise, and pretty darned good with healthy eating. Then, I got the flu pretty bad, and was too weak to exercise for at least a week, and then. . . Well, once my routine gets broken, I find it super hard to get back on track. <BR> <BR> However, I did manage to kick the caffeine habit back in November, and excepting the very occasional caffeinated beverage as a treat now and then, I'm still not falling back into that bad habit! :) ... Fri, 13 Jan 2012 22:52:47 EST This time it's for my health. . . Well, as usual I'm not happy with my weight, (especially with the fact that while my weight and measurements are staying pretty level, the size of my waist has expanded so I feel more like Spongebob Squarepants than ever!) but more importantly, I'm beginning to get really concerned about my health. <BR> <BR> I was reading a diet book (The 5-Factor Diet, which I had to try because I am OCD and obsessed with 5's, and because there are so many celebrities that swear by this. . . Not that I wan... Thu, 9 Jun 2011 12:51:07 EST Let's give it another go. . . Right. Some time has passed, and I'm just feeling like crap about myself all the time, and I need to give this another go. Whenever I start to slack, what I need to remind myself is how I feel right this moment: not only do I feel like crap in general and in my clothes, but, I have these yards of gorgeous pink/gold shot silk taffeta in front of me, destined to become an 18th century dress (have I mentioned that I'm a historical costumer?) and I know I'm just going to look like a whale stuf... Wed, 8 Dec 2010 09:24:55 EST I think I give up. :( It's apparently not possible for me to drop below 142. And more importantly, can't seem to get myself to a point where I don't avoid mirrors and hate photographs. I'm sick of starving and feeling week, sick of depriving myself of yummy foods that I need to feel less depressed, and my exercise DVDs don't seem to work and I can't afford fancy gym equipment or memberships so I guess that's that. *sadness* Maybe I'll try this again sometime when I'm feeling more positive and ambitious. . . Wed, 6 Oct 2010 09:28:55 EST Plateau. :( I'm kind of disappointed because I'm stuck at the weight I'm at right now. I have been eating fairly well, but, can't exercise at the moment due to messing around with medication which has left me really dizzy. It could take up to 3 more weeks before I stop having these dizzy spells. It has sort of killed my motivation, but I'm trying really hard to keep up with the healthy diet anyhow! Thu, 12 Aug 2010 12:48:23 EST Progress! I am bubbling over with excitement because I just did my weekly weigh-in and it's 143.6 - meaning I'm finally dropping below my plateau! WOOHOO! And it's just what I needed because yesterday I went to a barbeque and ate a small serving of chicken broccoli & ziti, and nothing else. I turned down chips & dip, cupcakes - you name it! And was feeling kind of sad - but it feels so worth it now! Yay! Sun, 4 Jul 2010 09:25:12 EST SparkPeople for the win!!! I can't believe how much of a fan I am of SparkPeople! This is the first time in my life that I've managed to stick with a diet & exercise routine that I've started. This web site is just the perfect blend of features to keep me going! I can hardly believe I've already lost four pounds! And more importantly, I've been sticking to a regular exercise routine, and LOVING IT! Hooray! Now, if I could just get past the rest of this holiday weekend, filled with barbeque foods and birthday cake... Sat, 3 Jul 2010 13:03:36 EST Getting started! Hi folks! I've been feeling rather depressed about being a little over my usual weight for the past year or so, not to mention, I never seem to have any energy. . . So I'm doing a program where you cut out processed foods, and I thought, I should just go ahead and work on a total healthy lifestyle makeover and try to shed those extra pounds! Looking forward to seeing how SparkPeople will work to help me stay on track. . . Wed, 19 May 2010 13:07:00 EST