JENNIAUN's SparkPeople Blog JENNIAUN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community How come....? How come I am so weak? How come I am so lazy sometimes? I have been weak against my urges for peanut M&Ms... yes. I admit it! I have been eating them and I don't know why. Most of the time when I eat them they taste good, but often I think "why did I eat that?". you would think after all my years and efforts, my brain would come forth and stop me with compulsive eating. <BR> <BR> I have at least restarted a fitness regimine. I have restarted my 28-day bootcamp video, Sparkpeople, and I ... Fri, 26 Apr 2013 18:09:51 EST NO MORE JUNKIE FOOD! (repeat infinity!) Yes, I did it again! I stress ate and i had quite a few peanut M&Ms... and a small pack of oreos. Oreos really aren't that good adn I'm not sure why I keep eating them! And I think all the peanut M&Ms cut my gums a bit. So, that wasn't good either. I've been feeling like crap, but i'm pretty sure a good majority of it is my eating. I have really slacked on my eating. I am touching my goal for the rest of this week and beyond, NO MORE JUNKIE FOOD! I've really been needing to do that parti... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 14:19:19 EST Rough week, but good sort-of... Well, Monday I got a call stating I got the job I interviewed for last week! So YAY! Good news. I started on Wednesday. BUT Tuesday, I was working out with my trainer and I heard my left calf muscle go *POP*. So i've been fairly injured this week. So much for my fitness efforts. I am quite frustrated because I can't move very fast, and I sort of hobble along everywhere. I am moving a bit better as of yesterday, but I'm still very frustrated that I am moving so slow. I am also frustrated be... Sat, 9 Feb 2013 04:49:20 EST Happy February. Well, I successfully finished the January Fitness challenge. Unfortunately, my Personal Trainer has me on a scale ban, so I can't really weigh myself. I will admit, I snuck a weigh in yesterday and I'm at 215.1. So i think that's down? so IF i lost, I didn't lose much. But i'll officially weigh in next week when i see her again. I did have some off days but made up my workouts as appropriate. I went on a nice long walk today through town and the off pavement footpaths (through some mud)... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 17:32:43 EST January Challenge update! Day 19! Hello again world! or at least those of you who read my stuff! <BR> <BR> Update on my January Challenge. I have been pretty good with my workouts. We had a lot of snow fall last thursday night, Friday... all day! and even a bit yesterday. Saturday, my husband and I went out for a nice walk in the snow! I took a lot of pictures! <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> I am on day 19 of the bootcamp video and week 3 day 5 on the January challenge. I like day 5 because it is the pilates lower body workou... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 14:30:26 EST January, continued... Day 9 of Bootcamp and January Fitness Challenge?? Okay so I am not doing quite as well as I hoped I would. The no cookie thing has already backfired. I really should not have cookies and i'm not sure what possessed me to eat them today and a couple days ago. Oreos, you are evil creations! haha. I'm seriously thinking oreos have like addictive drugs in them! BUT my no wheat thing (besides the cookies) seems to be going fairly okay. I tried a gluten-free crust as pizza hut, which is a thin crust type crust, and i put bell peppers and ham on... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 12:53:57 EST January So far... Okay! So Today was my Day 5 on my 28-day Bootcamp video, sparkpeople video! and Day 4 on the January Fitness Challenge. I did the day 4 and day 5 videos for the Fitness challenge. Tomorrow we are heading off to London for the day and I'm not sure when we'll be back. Also I will be walking all around London PLUS ice skating tomorrow!! <em>196</em> So! should be fun as I love ice skating. It will definitely be a nice workout for my lower body! Considering day 5 was a hip/thigh pilates w... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 14:02:54 EST New year, new goals, new focus! Here we go again. 2013 is now here; I am another year older (turned 35 a few days ago). I am still over 200 pounds. My weight this morning was 218.1. So, this time last year, I think I was at 190 something. Not sure what has happened to my body to make me gain so much weight. I know I haven't been that horrible with my eating, as i have been tracking for the most part the last 6 months or so. I haven't been tracking the last month or so but i have been pretty sick. <BR> <BR> So i spent m... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 18:55:35 EST Update 24 October 2012 So here it is, Wednesday the 24th. Tomorrow I leave for London for a few days with the hubby! AND I get to see Matt Smith (11th Doctor!) on Friday! <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> So yesterday, my stuff finally arrived! It was delivered on time and the fellows were quite pleasant. Unfortunately, one box is missing out of my 64 boxes. I am not too happy about that. AND the Cargo people back in the States are just sending me a claim form, with no effort to even bother looking for my box! So I'm not... Wed, 24 Oct 2012 14:38:06 EST New Goals and Refocusing (again!) Yes I know, Staring again. But not really "starting" again. I'm just fully attempting to follow my nutritional guidelines I had worked on with the Nutritionist awhile back. My husband has made a few copies and I have posted one on the Fridge! So Today is just my official day of doing a strong following of my guidelines. I think I will have trouble with some aspects. So I will really have to be more aware of planning. This is a "Gluten-Free" and "no White-sugar" attempt for my diet chang... Thu, 18 Oct 2012 13:05:30 EST ACTION STEP for today Today My action step is to talk about the changes I've noticed in my body and mind since I started this journey. Considering I have been on this journey for quite some time, but have really been more focused the past few months, I will say I have noticed some changes. Even though I have had no changes on the scale, I have noticed a few things that seem to be beneficial to my body and mind. <BR> <BR> 1. I notice I am more focused after a good workout. <BR> 2. I crave activity more. Mostly ... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 13:49:47 EST More updating. Maybe that's a good thing I'm probably boring but sometimes throwing out my thoughts on this blog helps me think. It also helps me keep myself accountable for things I do, have done, and need to do still. Today I recalculated my calorie intake. I did the WHOLE long-form calculations and put them in my notebook. So my new Calorie range, according to spark people nutrition, is 1490-1840. Which means, I probably haven't been eating quite enough. That was what my Spark Coach replied back to me. The range that I had s... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 12:22:47 EST Updating just for fun Well I have gone at least 4 days now without an Oreo. Yay! Maybe more.. i think it's 4... My weekend eating was not that great but it was mostly skipping meals. Like saturday I didn't get up til almost Noon, as I had a lie in with my hubby! So I just made lunch before we went out to town! But we had a good walk through Southampton. I laughed at him because he had to buy root beer at the American store! hehehe. Yes, there's an "American Store" in Southampton. It's a rip off I tell you! BU... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 06:37:45 EST Slowly but surely. Well, the cookies are still attacking me, but my desire for them is waning quite a bit. Right now my main craving is for Peanut M&Ms. I have some cashews I have for my crunchy bits. So far the last couple days (outside of the cookies) have been very good healthy eating days. I even tried a new recipe for Turkey Spinach enchiladas! <em>30</em> My husband enjoyed them just as much as I did and he has requested I put it on the list of "usuals"... along with my lasagna and other such good... Thu, 4 Oct 2012 09:41:39 EST Still very much in need of focus... I know I whine about focus and always off track and messing stuff up. I really should enlist the help of my husband more. He does try to keep me on track, but he doesn't help sometimes when he wants sweeties. But i have my own issues with that. <BR> <BR> I am up to 219 right now. Very miserable and disappointing in myself. I do know Oreos do have some fault with that number. I really should address my sweet tooth issues. I will definitely be visiting the Sugar addiction boards starti... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 12:34:02 EST Just worked out... I just did my work out. I tried the elliptical on Level 3 on the interval program. Oh my gosh!! I did level 1 yesterday and it was sooo easy. So I thought, I'll not do 2, since it's similar to 1 with a very low resistance low interval... so I did level 3 with a slightly higher lower setting and the same high setting as level 2. The higher setting kicked my butt! But It was nice to not have the lowest setting on the lower interval. Usually my feet and legs feel like they are getting away fro... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 11:47:24 EST No winning Well i managed to gain 5 pounds over the weekend. So I am officially declaring pizza a bad food. I did track my pizza, had a total of 3 slices. I was only slightly over my calories for saturday with the pizza. I even worked out on sunday but still managed to go up from 215.5 to 220. I am honestly starting to think I need to see a doctor about my thyroid levels and maybe see if they can help me lose weight somehow. <BR> <BR> In the interim, I am actually going to stop eating so much bre... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 06:32:49 EST Frustration This is probably a rant, so don't read if you don't want to. It probably have some merit and I should probably see a doctor or something. Here goes! <BR> <BR> I am not losing weight! I lost a pound and somehow gained 3 back. I have been tracking my eating very diligently. My husband even helps keep me on track. I had one bad eating day in the last 2-3 weeks and i've been working out at least 4 days a week, at least 30 minutes, and i've been doing that for 3 weeks. another pound would be ni... Wed, 29 Aug 2012 05:47:36 EST Welcome "Home"... I am moved to my new home in the United Kingdom. Definitely a change from my life in Southern Nevada. The cooler tempatures are quite welcome!! The humidity is even welcome. I am breathing easier! Quite a bit of rain though. <BR> <BR> I have been here a couple of weeks. I have no real excuse but i haven't exercised hardly at all! At least I am not eating out at all now. I kind of miss eating out and some of the places I used to go to in Nevada, but it's been nice to force myself to eat at... Mon, 6 Aug 2012 13:03:03 EST Pita LOVE!! ONe more thought for the night! I've been so in love with Pita bread the past few days. I made this delicious "calzone" sorta thing with my pita bread. I stuffed it with a couple slices of pepperoni, then onion, italian herbed diced tomatoes, spinach and cheese!!! Baked them all together in the oven for about 15 minutes, and YUMM-OOO! (thank you racheal Ray!) Totally yummy! I HIGHLY recommend it! PLUS i used pita with left over hamburgers I made for dinner... that was good too. Stuck low-... Tue, 22 May 2012 01:14:50 EST Why did I eat that?? Do you ever get that feeling after you eat something: Why did I eat that?? Might not be RIGHT after but a little while later, you feel that queezy feeling in your stomach, the bad taste in your mouth... or in my case, you'll get that horrible drop in your blood sugar that really messes you up! Or you just generally feel ill for the rest of the afternoon/evening/night... whenever! I had that feeling at least twice today. I admit, I ate 2 swiss cake rolls this morning... then another package ... Tue, 22 May 2012 01:12:01 EST Ugh It's summer.... So Yay... it's summer and the 100+ degree heat has started... I am working at least, and have been for like the last two months... which is probably why I have been fairly silent on here. Hard goign from not working to working 45-60 hours a week! Still working on my Masters degree as well... And apparently between work, school and sleep, i'm ignoring my boyfriend! hah. So, My job is going to probably get fairly miserable with the heat coming on.... but at least it's making me very active... Sun, 19 Jun 2011 00:35:45 EST Yet another update.... Experiment period almost up. So, I think i'm anxiously awaiting Easter, as I was drooling over spiral hams on sale, and the strong desire for a BBQ brisket sandwich! <BR> <BR> The junk food trap still rears it's ugly head on me. I wonder once I can have that BBQ or chicken something maybe I won't eat the junky food so much. <BR> <BR> So, thinking about this last, what 6 weeks?, and the Vegetarian thing isn't too bad really. I did try new things, and even suffered a few mushrooms. hehehe. Tonight I even tried a "sp... Thu, 21 Apr 2011 02:44:37 EST Vegetarian Experiment - Update Okay, So i haven't been the best at keeping up lately. I started a new job, which is excellent news! FINALLY WORKING! The job is about an hour+ commute away in the next county, so it's a nice little trek over a mountain in my car. <BR> <BR> On that note, I at least have been bringing my lunch, but I have progressively gotten a bit more junky all week. BUT I have been eating fruits and good soup and stuff. My main downfall is the trip to Dunkin Donuts 3 times this week! This morning w... Fri, 8 Apr 2011 13:40:51 EST Vegetarian Experiment - End week 3 OKay, so last week I didn't post a blog because I was out of town. I was up in Utah taking care of my little "niece" and helping with the birth of her little sister. <em>30</em> So that's a good excuse as to why i didn't blog week 2. I'm sure she didn't help with some of my eating habits but I stayed on vegetarian stuff almost the whole time. I allowed myself ONE meat when I had dinner at one of my favourite places, that has one of my favourite dishes ever! So. sorry.... But it was delici... Wed, 30 Mar 2011 20:46:38 EST Vegetarian Experiment - Week 1 complete Okay, one full week being vegetarian. I have been doing my darnedest to NOT fall into the carb/junk food trap. But I haven't been that successful on that yet. I managed to have pizza 3 times! UGH! I didn't even eat pizza that much NOT being a vegetarian. Go figure. But I did have my first Falafel, and am attempting to try new things. I have tried at least one new recipe! And have several set aside to make soon. <BR> <BR> I am down 3 pounds so far. I still feel fat and miserable. but ma... Wed, 16 Mar 2011 21:40:10 EST Day 2 of Vegetarian Experiment Day 2.. so far so good. I think I"m more worried about over eating than missing meat at this point! Luckily for me, I do adore tomatoes, green peppers, broccoli, and various fruits! I did over eat my calorie range about 250 today. But I blame the pizza. I got a cheese pizza with Tomatoes, onions, and green peppers and ate two pieces. I forgot that pizza is like 300 calories a piece, even with mainly veggies ;) I wish I liked the thin crust better. <BR> <BR> I have some recipes I still w... Thu, 10 Mar 2011 22:38:52 EST New Goals... This is the season of Lent. Time to give up things and sacrafice other things in your life. So for Lent, I am giving up meat. This is sorta of a experiment with vegetarianism. I am doing this to try to eat smarter, and less processed meat (like hotdogs...) and get some of my eating under control. If I'm eating in a new way, I have to be more aware of what I'm eating. I figured with the religious connotations thrown in, maybe I might stick with it better. <BR> <BR> This experiment is ho... Wed, 9 Mar 2011 20:24:53 EST I don't know what to call this today.... I don't know what's wrong with me lately but I know i hven't been very good. :( The past few days my stomach has been severely off kilter and i've been feeling very sick to my stomach. I know i haven't eaten that well. and I"m starting to think i really do have some weird imbalance with food. I will certainly have to make a plan to start following a more diabetic friendly diet, and perhaps cutting out processed <BR> <BR> For my girlie problems, well I haven't really had my herbs this past ... Tue, 7 Dec 2010 00:11:47 EST Trigger foods and me! I knew there was a very very good reason I try very hard NOT to eat certain foods anymore... and I was reminded very well yesterday as to WHY i don't eat doritos anymore. As much as I do love them and find them yummy odd treats, they often trigger downward spirals into binging or just over eating in general. Yesterday, when I was babysitting my friend's son, I came across doritos in their cupboard and shared them with her son. So i kept eating, and eating... and eating them! ugh! When i g... Thu, 7 Oct 2010 00:14:42 EST Definitely off kilter! Bleh Howdy! <BR> Not like anyone really reads this blog, and i'm not really all that interesting, but sometimes it helps to get thoughts out. PLUS it's a good way for me to actually write thoughts out and plans and hopefully keep me on track <BR> <BR> I know i've been slacking. I've been eating a lot more processed carbs, like a ton of cereal, and sandwiches (not that sandwiches are bad...) I keep pondering trying to be more vegetarian, but I think I just need more vegetables! <BR> <BR> I did... Fri, 17 Sep 2010 17:09:45 EST Okee Dokee I'm actually feeling okee dokee. My weight is down. I just got over being sick. Other than the stress of being unemployed with not much hope a job any time soon, and a finance class that's going to ruin my GPA, and having my phone shut off (no mobile tracking <em>39</em> )... and other such stresses like those (i have several more) I don't feel too bad. <BR> <BR> I haven't been tracking but I haven't been eating badly overall. I haven't been getting my veggies in as much as I would lik... Tue, 27 Jul 2010 16:16:34 EST Help! I can't control myself :( Sounds rather odd, but i've been on an odd just eating streak for the last 3 days! Even Cravings for donuts took over. <BR> <BR> I was doing okay with my Weight Watchers stuff, but I"m not sure what's happened to my self control! Just today (at least i tracked!) i ate over 2000 calories.. and it's only 1pm... So yeah. I'm in trouble. haha <BR> <BR> So, Tonight! I am planning on sitting down and doing a meal plan. Knowing that I do have a meeting on wednesday and a lunch meeting on friday... Tue, 13 Jul 2010 16:30:01 EST Wow, I really am a slacker! BUT.... Wow, I haven't really paid much attention to my Spark People pages in quite awhile! SORRY GUYS! <BR> BUT... I rejoined weight watchers. My starting weight: 210.2. That was a little upsetting! As of today, I am 206.8. So, slowly. I am more comfortable with their points system, and mentally try to think about "Core" foods still (even though they are called "filling foods" now... Whatever!) My bloodsugar has been kind of nuts the past few weeks. So apparently i'm not doing a very go... Sun, 28 Mar 2010 00:21:54 EST Ow! I want to run! I really really do! I ran saturday and now my hip is really hurting. <em>39</em> It's hurting to stand and walk. <BR> <BR> Does anyone have ideas on hip pains and running?? I feel like such a whiner if I post on the running boards and I feel like i'm whining here. But it hurts. Wed, 3 Feb 2010 22:43:10 EST Finally thinking about goals! hah Here it is, almost February and I"m NOW thinking about goals and such. I started a new job this month and I have not even remotely had energy to do much working out. I've hiked twice and worked out twice, that's it! I think now that my body is getting more regulated with this whole getting up super duper early thing, maybe i'll find the energy to actually do a work out! My main problem lately has been , I've been exhausted when i get up, when i get home and this past week i haven't been f... Sat, 30 Jan 2010 17:26:42 EST Accountabilty This is more for me than it is for anyone else! I figured maybe I should start blogging and keeping track of my thoughts, disappointments, and ideas. Maybe it will help keep me motivated and maybe i'll actually lose weight better. So, If i keep track of myself in a blog, then maybe I will for sure keep myself accountable for my actions! I am happy I came to Spark People, as a way to track everything. Especially since I cannot afford to go back to Weight Watchers. <BR> <BR> I am still m... Thu, 17 Dec 2009 14:31:58 EST