JENNGLENN527's SparkPeople Blog JENNGLENN527's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Hump Day Hurrah Well I made it! So many times I wanted to nap or not exercise, but I persevered. I'm glad I did. I'm 1/3 of the way through ab and push-up challenges, and getting 2 days of muscle strengthening. On top of that I walk at least an hour a day. I'm kinda proud of me. Wed, 26 Oct 2016 21:25:41 EST Sunday Sunday 7 and counting Again I'm up early. Loving the yoga, it's getting easier, 😊, and I can barely wait to get out and walk. I feel so much better about me, and life in general. Ain't life grand? Sun, 23 Oct 2016 15:25:17 EST Ooh it's day 6 and I'm full of tricks! ☺️ As I sit here eating my very healthy dinner of yellow squash with onions and chicken sausage with garlic and mozzarella, I couldn't be more proud of myself! I was up at 7, doing yoga sun salutations 🌞! I had breakfast, threw on my kicks and went out for a 40 minute walk. Upon my return, I hit the floor for a push-up challenge! I kept myself so busy, and didn't even listen to that little voice that kept telling me I needed a nap! (So glad I didn't listen!) Anyway, I'm pleased as punch with my... Sat, 22 Oct 2016 20:59:34 EST Five and ready to thrive I FEEL AMAZING! I have been up since six, yoga, mad walking, and totally transforming my room! I almost caved at three and took a power nap but I did my circuit training instead! I think I shall sleep great tonight! Fri, 21 Oct 2016 21:23:01 EST Day 4 still trying to roar Yesterday was a trying day. I put in 2 hours of exercise. I slept so good! I woke up somewhat late, but I felt I deserved it. I've picked up another challenge, 30 days of push-ups, this in addition to the ab challenge. Walking still has my heart though! I must admit, I'm sleeping better, more importantly I feel better. Can't wait till the midway point. I really feel confident. I'm alive and ready for day five! No jive! Thu, 20 Oct 2016 17:17:12 EST Day 2, what's a girl to do? So I'm on day two of my challenge, and I'll tell you what I did. I KICKED BUTT TODAY!! I woke up early, started cleaning, took a short walk, then came back and started POWER CLEANING!! After that I took an even longer walk and now im on a break from setting up a bedroom! Whew! I have been one busy girl! I feel amazing and I am so proud of me. Looking forward to day three. Hee hee hee! 😊 Tue, 18 Oct 2016 20:17:21 EST Starting all over again The song says it's gonna be rough, but I have a new mindset. I'm not going to be so hard on myself. I am trying, and what counts. I'm excited for all the plans I have in regards to my health and well-being. I'm determined. I have faith in me. We shall see where this journey takes me. Can't wait! Mon, 17 Oct 2016 17:47:27 EST I DID IT! I am so proud of me! Not only have I gone one entire week without succumbing to the dreaded night time snacking, but I am also 15 days into my 30 day ab challenge! When I first looked at the challenge I thought to myself I will never be able to do that many situps, crunches, or squats in one day. But I have been faithfully completing each days challenge, sometimes with a smile. As for the dreaded nightime snacking, I don't even really think about it anymore. I think I may have convinced myse... Sun, 24 Jan 2016 11:37:34 EST I love those snack free nights Well I have another night of no snacking under my belt. I'm starting to think more about the long range consequences of my snacking , rather than the instant gratification of the snack. I also think of how I would derail the effects of my other work, like my 30 day ab challenge, I'm on day 8! I feel like good about the baby steps I'm taking. I know soon I will be running, feeling lightened by the weight and unhealthy eating habits I will shed along the way. Sun, 17 Jan 2016 18:02:07 EST Day 2 and going strong Another night of no snacking. There was a brief period where I was tempted, but I had some water and thought about how bad I would feel if I gave in. I decided that it was not worth it. Sat, 9 Jan 2016 01:58:47 EST NO NIGHT TIME SNACKING! FINALLY Well I did it. I kept myself so busy running up and down the stairs doing laundry and trying to remember to do squats before sitting down, THAT I FORGOT ALL ABOUT SNACKING! I'm super proud of myself for that. This morning instead of laying back down after my grandchildren went to school, I did more laundry. Healthy, (and filling), breakfast and lunch. Looking forward to a healthy dinner. I really feel optimistic. I think staying busy is the key. For me anyway. Night time snacking, I'm ready f... Thu, 7 Jan 2016 18:50:03 EST Night time snacking Well my old nemesis is back. If I didn't skip meals it wouldn't be a problem. I know what to do. Determination is my friend and ally. I can do this. Tue, 5 Jan 2016 09:56:59 EST Back again Well, I've been away for a while and here I am, back again. I've been introspective these few months, and I have discovered a few things about myself. I know what I need to do, but maybe I'm a little afraid of doing it and being as happy as I deserve to be. So with that in mind, I have adopted a new way of eating, (notice I said a new way of eating and not diet!), that I really enjoy, but more importantly, I've come to accept myself the way I am. I know that there are things about myself th... Mon, 21 Dec 2015 18:19:54 EST a new beginning <em>249</em> Today is the first 24 hour day of Ramadan <em>733</em> . It is a time for introspection in order to better one's self. I am a good person. I would be a much better person if I could learn to love myself more <em>521</em> . But I have been doing better about this particular flaw of mine. I'm starting to like myself. Sometimes I look in the mirror and think, "Wow, you look pretty!". Much to my disbelief, I have even seen myself, naked no less, and thought, "You don't look... Thu, 18 Jun 2015 23:00:58 EST back in stride again I AM BACK <em>523</em> !! I completed my circuit training, did 3 loads of laundry, packed my bags to come home, and prepared a scrumptious, healthy, salad for lunch and dinner!! Boy do I feel good about myself. Even the fact that I had to change twice and still wasn't satisfied didn't steal my joy. After that first set of pushups <em>401</em> ,and that last one minute plank <em>320</em> , I felt such pride. Does that sound silly? I calculated that I am doing 80 each of 5 exercises, and... Wed, 13 May 2015 23:20:22 EST having the flu part two Still feeling like crap <em>527</em> . A total of 5 plank pushups was all I could manage. As I'm sitting here feeling disoriented, I feel like I could pull of a round of circuit training, but my head is telling me otherwise. The night is still young though!! I am eager to get home, I am in Buffalo assisting my daughter, Kelly, with graduation preparations. I plan on hitting the gym every day I'm there, I really miss the feeling of satisfaction derived from a good workout. Tomorrow is a new... Tue, 12 May 2015 21:43:21 EST suffering from the flu....not much to do Woke up this morning to a stuffed nose, aching body, and the malaise that accompanies the flu. BUT I DIDN'T SNACK DURING THE NIGHT HAHA!!!! I've been in bed all day. There was no way I could do my circuit training. Aside from the fact that I feel like I was thrown down a flight of stairs, I've been answering nature's constant call for the better part of the day. Never fear though, I shall be up and at em tomorrow with a vengeance!! I'm not a good sick person, never have been. So until the mor... Mon, 11 May 2015 21:05:27 EST happy mommies day!! Today turned out to be a pretty good day. I allowed myself a few treats since it was a special day, and I totally enjoyed them. Funny thing is, I don't feel guilty, more like they were good, but oranges would have been better. Maybe I'm weaning myself away from junk food without realizing it. I thought I was starting to feel a little more body confident, but I tried on my mother's day dress and despite numerous planks, Russian twists and reverse plank crunches, there is a distinct pooch. I fo... Sun, 10 May 2015 21:10:06 EST surviving the grocery temptation Well I did it!! I resisted the temptation of my evil nemesis KETTLE CORN!! I also fought off keebler Sandies and Baby Ruth's. I can remember the stand off betwixt the treacherous trio and myself in the wee hours of the early morn. I faced them, gauged their worth, decided they had none, returned to my bed, and returned to slumber. I feel really good about my small victory, and I look forward to bigger ones. <em>380</em> <em>320</em> Sat, 9 May 2015 23:35:32 EST Day 3, look at me! NO JUNK FOOD DURING THE NIGHT!! Boy is that a big deal for me! The real test comes tonight seeing as how my daughter went to the grocery store. She brought me various and assorted breakfast bars, which could prove tempting. Then there is the matter of my dreaded but delicious KETTLE CORN!!!! Well, I shall do my best. In order to pass this test. Wish me the best!! <em>243</em> <em>320</em> Fri, 8 May 2015 23:33:10 EST watch out for the wafers!! Well it's day two and so far so good. Except for the small matter of 16 vanilla wafers during the night. I made up for it though. Sixteen extra squats, Russian twists, six inches off the floor scissor kicks and flutters, reverse plank sit ups, and an extra 1 minute plank. This in addition to 5 reps of each of these exercises every hour for 8 hours. Whew!!!! I guess that is a lot. I'd say I more than made up for that slight indiscretion!! I've been eating well. Salads, yogurt and lots of water... Thu, 7 May 2015 20:56:07 EST Finnegan begin again Well here I am back in the blogosphere after a long absence. I've been doing well, as I've been taking fitness classes and working with a personal trainer. At the same time I've been traveling back and forth to Buffalo to take care of my grandchildren while my daughter completes her degree work. She graduated May 20th, I'm so proud and happy for her. She's worked hard. Then again, so have I, and I continue to do so in my quest for a healthy, fit lifestyle. Which brings me to the point of my r... Wed, 6 May 2015 10:56:02 EST walkin' on sunshine I went walking today and it felt fabulous. I found out I gained weight, which I suspected, but I'm not even stressing over that. The weather was great!! Crisp, here comes winter air, but the sun played peek a boo often. I was so proud of the fact that I accomplished all the plans I made last night, most of which involved being out of the house. I even managed to throw in an extra trip, which resulted in me finding a throwback gift for my oldest daughter, who I shall be visiting soon, along wi... Thu, 4 Dec 2014 17:19:05 EST sleep I slept in again. I don't know if I'm recovering from playing grandmama or what. I really want to change things around and get back on a schedule but it has honestly been very difficult for me to do. I am filled with all these good intentions but I can't seem to put them into practice. It's very cold in Erie, much too cold to go walking, and there really is no space in my apartment for exercising. I have 3 rooms, one of which is closed off to keep heat in the main room. My housemate is not in... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 15:46:48 EST keep on truckin As a result of staying up late to watch a programme, I slept rather late. Past noon in fact. I jumped up, rinsed my hair, washed my face and proceeded to greet the day. I braided my hair, no small feat lol, and even ate turkey sausage. Haven't gotten any exercise in but the day is not done yet. I just feel happy that I'm not sleeping the entire day away, so I'm good. Sat, 29 Nov 2014 16:48:29 EST baby girl, you're big!!!! Yesterday I looked at myself and finally saw what I had been trying not to. I have gotten big. There is no getting around it, I'm big. I would say it crept up on me, but I knew it was coming. I just tried real hard not to see it. So I guess there is no more game playing. I ate a taste of 3 things for lunch. I'm trying to drink more water, but I did just drink some lemonade, and I ate half a cheese stick for a snack. On the brighter side, I made myself get up and get moving. I cleaned out my ... Fri, 28 Nov 2014 19:41:12 EST starting over well, i am on my way back to the old homestead. first i will be going to celebrate my daughter's birthday, then i will return for thanksgiving. when i go home for thanksgiving i will be staying for quite some time. no more jaunts to buffalo. i will definitely miss my grandchildren, but i think the time has come for me to resume treating myself as good as i have been treating others. i used to be a very different person, more social and outgoing. i love playing grandmama, but i miss being the... Tue, 4 Nov 2014 18:59:18 EST i just don't know i am not sure why i seem to be having no success in this weight loss endeavour. i am trying my best to eat right. sure i slip up every now and again but who doesn't. i seem to be so busy playing grandmama that i have no time to do anything for myself except sleep when i can. i am trying to be the best person i can be and trying to make my family happy but i think i am suffering as a result. i love being around my grandchildren and watching them grow but i miss the life i had. i miss the few ... Mon, 3 Nov 2014 12:11:41 EST one day at a time after much thought, i have decided to change my approach to this whole weight loss thing. first off, i am going to focus more on healthy eating and less on weight loss. next, i will try to get as much exercise as i can, without promising myself that i will do a certain number of things in a certain amount of time. i believe that if i do both of those, weight loss will occur. besides, if i place time limits on exercising and don't complete them, i will just become frustrated and feel bad about... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 11:47:53 EST love what is there and do not compare i think one of my biggest problems in this weight loss game are the unfair comparisons i make between myself and other people. it's not just regular folk i compare my body to, oh n,o i aim much higher, and so much more unrealistically. a-list actresses, reality t.v stars, and pop singers, why do i do this to myself, you ask, after all i am a 51 year old grandmother to 6, who should know better. i think my inner teenage self, who by the way was anorexic and bulimic, is struggling to resurface.... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 14:15:19 EST pirate booty pirate booty. 4 small bags. in the middle of the night. enough said. today i am trying to move past endless snacking and see where i went wrong. i almost didn't note that i ate it but it's time to own up to what i do wrong. if i see it, i can correct it. i've also learned that it is not a good idea to have cheese and ranch dressing on my salad at the same time. dressing i can do without. even though i made a mistake last night i refuse to beat myself up about it. instead i'm going to dance li... Fri, 3 Oct 2014 17:00:08 EST time for me I love my daughter's. Immensely. That is why I semi moved to Buffalo to help care for my grandchildren while my eldest has the internship of her dreams and tries to finish school. It's why I walked all over Erie to find red hair and stood on my feet for 10 hours braiding my youngest daughter's hair even though I was dog tired. Lately I am starting to feel as though life is passing ME by while I am being super mom and grandma's. I am starting to miss me time. Does that make me a bad mom? Does ... Tue, 30 Sep 2014 17:57:30 EST hurray for me!! I finally did it!! Inhale, this awesome yoga show that used to come on Oxygen, is now on YouTube!! Instead of laying back down with my grandsons after a long and sleep deprived night, I did it! I almost made it to the end when I heard Hisham, who was clearly ready to rise. On top of that, there was no snacking during the night, which is something I've been fighting hard not to do. I even did my daily 64 sit-ups, which I have been doing for two weeks now. I feel so good about myself today. I h... Fri, 19 Sep 2014 11:23:11 EST a new beginning Today is the first day of Ramadan and I am feeling blessed. I have so much to be thankful for. I have been obsessing over things that aren't worth obsessing over. I am alive, I have 2 wonderful daughters and 6 awesome grandchildren, all of whom love me unconditionally. They don't care how much I weigh or how many carbs I eat. They just love me. This precious gift is one I should treasure with all that I am, and I do. This is the perfect time for me to get my priorities in order, as th... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 16:31:33 EST contentment my day is going fantastic. i woke up this morning to see hisham, my 1 year old grandson sitting in his father's arms. i asked him if he wanted to come to grandmama, and lo and behold, he came, in that moment , i knew true happiness. i didn't think about how much weight i needed to lose, how many situps i had done, or how dissatisfied i was with my appearance. all i could think of was that this is the stuff dreams are made of. in that moment i realized that i really needed to practice liv... Tue, 17 Jun 2014 11:28:09 EST loving me i have been concentrating so hard on losing weight that i forgot something vital to success. somewhere along the way i forgot to love myself. i don't know when or why this happened. i think i began worrying so much about pleasing my children and family that i forgot about me. i have always been somewhat of a people pleaser, sometimes to my own detriment. getting myself in shape and embracing a healthier lifestyle is the first thing i've done solely for myself in a long time. maybe i fee... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 17:28:15 EST A different approach I just realized I have been approaching my situation in the wrong manner. When I first began sparkpeople my main focus was on eating healthier and pursuing a healthier lifestyle. Somewhere along the way I lost sight of that and my focus became the numbers on the scale. I found out that those numbers only measure the effects of gravity on my body. They don't say anything about how i drink more water than I used to or that I am more conscious of what I put into my body. I need to learn to... Fri, 13 Jun 2014 13:01:39 EST starting over sunday i am headed back to my daughter kelly's house to help out with my grandchildren. i must confess, i miss them so much. i also miss alana, my health coach and personal trainer. she motivates me so well. i do so much better with my health goals there than i do at home. it helps that i spend all day running after a one year old and a three year old. that is exercise, and plenty of it. i'm looking forward to my trip and to the fresh start it will give me. wish me luck Sat, 7 Jun 2014 17:56:40 EST the wrong approach after much soul searching, i have discovered that i am approaching this weight loss business all wrong. i am putting so much emphasis on losing weight, and beating myself up when i don't, that i have forgotten what's important. i have come such a long way since i have started. i am much more knowledgeable about what i put into my body, and i am eating a lot healthier. i don't know why i am not congratulating myself for the things i do well. even though i do slip up and sometimes spend da... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 17:47:19 EST a birthday lost my birthday just passed 3 days ago and i was so upset about not losing the weight i wanted to that i didn't even enjoy it. all i do anymore is sleep. i leave my house only when i have to. this is not good. in my heart i want to do so much more, but i feel so alone that i just don't. what is wrong with me. i miss the person i used to be, the person i was trying to become, but i don't know how to get her back. i have a long way to go. Fri, 30 May 2014 13:51:01 EST trying to maintain well i only lost one pound according to my doctor. that makes a total of four. i had hoped to lose at least 20 by my birthday but it doesn't look like that will happen. i keep trying to tell myself that it's not the numbers that matter, but how i look and feel, but years of scale watching have almost brainwashed me. i am so enjoying this journey to healthy living and i am trying really hard not to give up, but it is very hard. i know i am doing right, every now and again i slip up, but h... Thu, 22 May 2014 15:17:53 EST big girl shoes my daughter princess kelly is always telling me that sometimes you just have to put on your big girl shoes and just do it. well today i embraced that maxim. i wanted to spend another day in bed just doing nothing but that really gets tiring after a while. at least for me it does. so i put on my big girl shoes and washed a mountain of dishes, moved a couch, and sorted through another mountain, this time of mail. i have to admit it is a pretty good feeling getting something done. Sun, 18 May 2014 14:56:36 EST big girl shoes my daughter princess kelly is always telling me that sometimes you just have to put on your big girl shoes and just do it. well today i embraced that maxim. i wanted to spend another day in bed just doing nothing but that really gets tiring after a while. at least for me it does. so i put on my big girl shoes and washed a mountain of dishes, moved a couch, and sorted through another mountain, this time of mail. i have to admit it is a pretty good feeling getting something done. Sun, 18 May 2014 14:56:30 EST take that scale today i put on a dress that two weeks ago i could barely breath in and it fit. just when i was feeling that i was doing all this for nothing i get a sweet surprise. i am always so hung up on what the scale says but now i have proof positive that it is not the numbers that count but how my clothes fit and how i look and feel. right now i feel pretty darn good. Wed, 14 May 2014 18:25:53 EST happy mother's day today is the best day ever. my eldest surprised me by having her younger sister come up for the day. i am so happy. she also gave me a bag full of bath treats, a new hijab, a healing stone, and the latest food network magazine. i couldn't be happier. i hope all the spark moms have a day as wonderful as i am having. Sun, 11 May 2014 13:31:03 EST acceptance i wish i could learn to accept myself the way i am. although i am working hard to better myself acceptance is an uphill battle. i don't understand why i can't understand and process the fact that it took a while to get out of shape so it will take almost as long to get back in shape. every time i see the roll around my middle i just want to cry. then i start to feel i will never be successful in my journey. self confidence is a precious thing. i wish i had more. Thu, 8 May 2014 19:26:20 EST bathtime it is amazing what a hot bath can do for your morale. i gave myself some pampering and some me time. i think a big part of my problem is that i am so busy taking care of everyone else that i forget to take care of me. i used to be so good about that. i don't even remember when i stopped. all i know i that i am going to start again, and soon. Tue, 6 May 2014 17:04:15 EST alana i love my granddaughter alana so much. she really is like a best friend to me. she is always there for me when i am feeling down and she is the voice of encouragement in my quest for good health. i don't know what i would do without her. i feel so much better about life in general when i am around her. she makes me feel so young and carefree, like i can accomplish anything i set my mind to. i am so lucky to have her in my life and i love her with all my heart. Sun, 4 May 2014 15:56:21 EST speaking up i saw an interesting note on my granddaughter's Tumblr page. it said i wish i was better at telling people how i feel. i think that is a big part of my problem. i am so busy trying to please everyone else that i neglect to speak up about what i want or need. then i get upset with myself and get depressed and usually overeat. that's no fun. i really do need to work on using my big girl voice. Sat, 3 May 2014 16:56:16 EST on the mend i am trying to be positive about my cancelled meeting. i won't look at it as a bad thing but a help to me. i mean, you can never be too prepared. i did my situps today, all 80. i am proud of me for that. soon i will be back with my grandchildren, that always cheers me up. hopefully, that will provide the motivating force i seem to be lacking. i think i am off too a good start. Thu, 1 May 2014 20:24:19 EST