JEN3582's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JEN3582 JEN3582's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ What have I been up to lately? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766763 It has been almost exactly two months since my last blog. I took some time away from blogging on accident! Life has been a little hectic and blogging just didn't happen. My time has been filled with work and lots of weekend activities and trips to Disney. <BR> <BR> I feel like I have been in a funk with my healthy lifestyle goals. I need to get a grip and get the pounds off that have creeped back on. <em>15</em> I always try to do so well during the summer but it never seems to happen. B... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 13:50:31 EST Not Sure Where to Begin http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726460 My last blog post was in April. That is a long time for me to not post anything. I had such high hopes for May and was doing really well. Then Mother's Day came. I felt the wind blow out of my sails and have struggled since to get out of my funk. You see, Mother's Day is hard. Plain and simple. We have tried to have a baby for 2 years and it just hasn't happened. Every year Mother's Day gets harder and harder for me. So that threw me off for the rest of May. I thought June would be better. No... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 14:44:53 EST Looking forward to May http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683933 Am I the only one that feels like April was a total bust??!! I am so happy to see May coming around the corner..like tomorrow! It is hard to believe it is already May though. I have a few things that I am doing in May to help me in my healthy living quest. <BR> <BR> The number 1 most important one is a 31 Day Scripture Challenge. I have been seriously lacking in this arena, no more excuses!! I need to read more scripture, no if, ands, or buts about it! If you want to join in here is the lin... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 11:01:56 EST I hate trying to think of blog titles.... HAHA! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5676977 I have no clever blog title...sometimes I just can't think of one! We had such a dreary weekend in the Sunshine state...boo!! On the other hand it was such a great weekend. More on that later. I have been thinking about my last blog post ever since it went up. I love Spark because I can come on here when I am struggling and get support from you guys. I am still working through some things but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you to everyone that reached out to me after that bl... Mon, 21 Apr 2014 10:36:07 EST Going in Circles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666055 On this journey of better health do you ever or have you ever found yourself going around in circles, never making any kind of progress? At this moment that is exactly how I feel. This feeling is compounded by the stress of everyday life. Stress is a real trigger for me. I do not handle it well. That could explain my complete breakdown today in the car on the way to church and at church. Luckily I was with my best friends that prayed with me and talked to me the entire sermon. I am still stru... Sun, 6 Apr 2014 22:27:22 EST Allergy Test http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653229 I had an allergy test done this week and found out some not so surprising news. I am allergic to wheat and dairy. My doctor could tell that just by looking at me! There are a few other things I need to stay away from but they are things I won't be eating anyways. This just solidifies my need to stay away from wheat and dairy. I have been on the wagon and off the wagon. Now I need to really get focused and change my habits so I can feel better. I do notice a major difference in how I feel when... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 12:48:22 EST Celebrate! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644547 Sooooo I had a really good birthday! I am so blessed to have the people in my life that really took time to make this a really good birthday. I wanted to share some of the pictures from my weekend, here goes: <BR> <BR> I took Wednesday off and enjoyed a day with my friends. My hubby woke me up with breakfast in bed and my present (a Kindle Fire!). <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1407936034.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Gotta love the talking Mickey! <BR> <img src="http://... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 14:14:49 EST A year already?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5640805 Has it really been a year? I have thought about this day for months and wondered how I would feel. I feel a little bit of everything! I am happy and sad at the same time. Happy that I got to spend time with him before he left us and sad because he left us. Happy that he left us on my birthday, it is a great day :) but sad because he left us on my birthday. Happy because I got to reconnect with family but sad because they live so far away! Happy that my hubby wants to do nothing but make me la... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 21:14:41 EST Goodbye Winter...Hello Spring!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5629418 I am so ready for the Biggest Loser Spring Challenge to begin. I did not reach my goal in the Winter Challenge so I am bummed about that. What I did do though was keep active and make great new Sparkfriends!! I stuck with it even when I might not have been doing so well. That to me is a victory in itself! <BR> <BR> Spring is a new chance to make my goals and continue to grow. If you are looking for a new challenge and a great group of friends to keep you accountable and cheer you on then thi... Thu, 20 Feb 2014 16:41:59 EST Blog Time! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5608280 It is time for another blog! I used to do them a couple times a week but life has kept me busy recently. I feel like I am ending January on an upswing. I started the month/year sick and am back to normal. Yay!! My weight has been a struggled simply because I haven't had the energy to workout and my eating has not been on target. With that being said now that I am not sick I have been working hard to get my steps in daily and eating right! I have also been working on eliminating wheat and dair... Tue, 28 Jan 2014 13:47:06 EST Sickness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5593470 I have been sick since before Christmas. It started as a sinus cold, something I get a couple times a year. It usually runs it's course for a week and then goes away. Not this time! It is going on a month that I have had this cold. Some days are better than others. On the good days I think it is going away only to have it come back the next day. I have had congestion, coughing, and headaches. I have been doing everything the doctors have been telling to! No improvement. With my insurance we h... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 11:15:08 EST New Doctor....New Diet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5586661 I have had some serious issues lately and needed to find a doctor that was not going to brush the issues under the rug. I found him. He is a natural family doctor that uses nutrition, supplements, massage, etc to help diseases. He does this thing with your arm to help discover what is going on with your body. You have to have an open mind for sure when going to this type of doctor. So the arm thing...you hold your arm out and he puts weight on it and pushes different points on your body for d... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 09:44:57 EST Goodbye 2013...Hello 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5576509 I am sooo ready to say goodbye to 2013. 2013 has been a very painful year and I am glad that it is coming to an end. I want to make 2014 better. Though I couldn't control a lot of the things that happened this year there were things I could control. Though I didn't accomplish a lot of the things I wanted to I am still here! That matters so much to me. I could have just given up but I didn't! After my dad died I have struggled to stay focused on myself. I am in the middle of grieving the loss ... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 10:17:52 EST Merry Day after Christmas!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5572162 I hope all of you had a wonderful Christmas! My hubby and I had a nice relaxing day with my mom and our best friends. I got a Fitbit Flex and am sooo excited! I have been wanting a tracker to wear and this was the one I chose after comparing all of the ones out there. Here is my profile: http://www.fitbit.com/user/29MGFL add me if you are a user. I am still figuring it out! <BR> <BR> Week 2 of my challenge was not my best effort. I hate that but am looking forward to week 3!! I am now ready... Thu, 26 Dec 2013 10:32:55 EST Merry Christmas!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5570959 I cannot believe it is Christmas Eve! I am on vacation until January and am loving it! I have a great day planned today and am so excited for Christmas tomorrow! I hope you all have a wonderful holiday! See you after Christmas to talk about my new year goals! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2025160325.jpg"> Tue, 24 Dec 2013 08:40:51 EST Changing things up a bit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5561297 I don't like getting into ruts. I think most people can agree with me on that. So, when I was approached to join a new challenge I jumped at it. I joined the Biggest Loser Tangerine Team! The challenge officially begins this week but we have had two weeks of pre-challenges. I have really liked it and I have enjoyed getting to know my new teammates. With that being said I am going to sit out the Winter 5% Challenge. I believe both challenges could benefit each other and make me very successful... Tue, 10 Dec 2013 12:49:30 EST A week of Thanks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5549875 I cannot believe Thanksgiving is this Thursday! I feel like I have been in a funk lately and I really don't like that! That is not my personality and quite frankly it is depressing! I was listening to my favorite morning show on my way to work and one of the DJ's said she was going to give thanks all week. It is something we should do all the time but what if for one week we did nothing but thanked God for the blessings in our life? I have had a hard year, that is not a surprise to Him. He kn... Mon, 25 Nov 2013 11:28:27 EST Tis the Season http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5541225 To get sick!! After my blog last week I got sick :( and only left my house from Friday to Monday to get Christmas pictures taken with my hubby on Saturday. I actually felt better on Saturday and went downhill on Sunday and Monday. I am so glad I am feeling better and back at work! I have worked hard to continue on my Daniel Fast and will probably be done tomorrow. It has really helped me refocus on my eating habits and refocus on my spiritual health. We start a new Bible study tonight with ou... Thu, 14 Nov 2013 16:07:37 EST Confession Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5535757 First of all I can't believe it has almost been a month since I posted a blog. I have had a rough few weeks. I feel like I have been on overload and finally just shut down. I am sad because this is not how I want to feel and this is not how I want my journey to go. I know we will not always have good days and we must move past them. So that is what I am doing. I am going to recommit to the fall challenge and my weight loss journey. I don't want to let myself down and I don't want to let my te... Fri, 8 Nov 2013 11:44:30 EST What a weekend! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5514342 This weekend started the Fall 5% Challenge. I was also out of town for my best friend's daughter's third birthday. It wasn't the best setting to start the challenge but I did my best to move more and make food decisions (that arena suffered!). An old friend of ours came down for the party as well. We lived together a few years ago so it was good to get together again! This is when it gets weird for me! <BR> <BR> Out of the three of us, T (my BF) has always been the smallest, I was in the mid... Tue, 15 Oct 2013 14:13:57 EST 5% Challenge Assignment 6- Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5506327 "Today's assignment is to list all the reasons you want to lose weight. What do you want to change? How do you want to look? How do you want to feel? What things will you be able to do in the future with a slimmer healthier body? And list all the OTHER things that you want to change! " <BR> <BR> My main motivation for losing weight is my health. Of course, the changes in my body and being able to wear smaller clothes is a great motivation. However, with my family's history of diabetes and he... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 20:18:58 EST Almost 7 months ago... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5503664 On October 5th it will be 7 months since my dad passed away. That means I am 5 months away from dealing with my first birthday since losing him. If you haven't been my sparkfriend long I will fill you in. On my 31st birthday (March 5th) my dad passed away. There are blogs about it, also back in February when he got really sick. It has been a hard thing to deal with, not only losing him but also losing him on my birthday. I have struggled these months trying to figure out how I am going to de... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 16:28:21 EST Fall 5% Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5497307 Come join me and other encouraging and motivating members! I absolutely love this challenge. It is motivating and very active! The fall challenge starts early October. Check it out: www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i <BR> ndividual.asp?gid=61089 <BR> <BR> Thu, 26 Sep 2013 22:50:29 EST The end of the Summer 5% Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5490033 I am ready for fall! I am a little bummed about the end of this challenge. I really loved this challenge and can't wait for the fall one to start. However, I am disappointed in myself and my performance for the last 3-4 weeks. I'm not sure what happened to me but I lost some of my motivation. I still participated in the extra challenges and tracked my weight but I didn't give it 100% and will not lose my 5%. I am also sad because I am sick this week and am extremely busy and feel like I have ... Thu, 19 Sep 2013 09:52:40 EST Junk Food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5481466 Am I the only Casual Traveler having a hard time with this weeks Living the Good Life Challenge? I didn't think I ate too much junk food but man I have had a hard time! I don't know what is going on with me this week. Maybe it is because I am focusing on not eating it that it is trying to tempt me more this week. <BR> <BR> I hope you all are having an easier time than I am!! Tue, 10 Sep 2013 09:44:44 EST Keep Calm... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5478106 Happy Weekend! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/1/l317608789.jpg"> Fri, 6 Sep 2013 20:39:13 EST September...I can't believe it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5473922 Am I the only one that can't believe it is September already??!! I have such a busy month, rest of the year in fact. My new job requires some extra work on nights and weekends and I have some events to work. If I don't blog it is just because I am busy working! <BR> <BR> I had a great week last week and ended up losing the weight I gained. I am pretty pumped and ready to focus on this week. I did some traveling this weekend and I tried to make the best decisions. After travel or time off I ... Mon, 2 Sep 2013 21:01:36 EST Running in the rain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5466790 Well I weighed in on Saturday to a gain. :( I am bummed but not surprised. I have not been making good decisions. I have a goal to reach by 9/27 and I refuse to not reach that goal. <BR> <BR> My plan of action: <BR> <BR> 1. Continue with 5% Challenge. This has been the one thing I have stuck with recently. I have been focusing on the LTG challenges and I am thankful for them. <BR> 2. Drink more water!! <BR> 3. Continue exercise <BR> 4. Eat less crap and more whole foods. Stop the bad habi... Mon, 26 Aug 2013 12:23:00 EST So busy...so tired! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5461361 Hi all! This new job has got me busy, busy, busy!! I would usually spark during my down time at work but down time has been hard to come by. That is a good thing since it makes the days go by quickly but bad for my sparking! I have a ton of blog emails to catch up on as well as food tracking. I will find a balance soon. In the meantime I love the 5% challenge because it is giving me a purpose and focus. In the past I would just give up because life got crazy but not now! <BR> <BR> I hope ev... Tue, 20 Aug 2013 20:25:41 EST New Things!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5455450 I blogged a few weeks ago about my job situation. To recap I work for a nonprofit and was working under a grant funded program last year. The company decided to do away with that program last November. They did not get rid of me though. So for 9 months I have been floating around my job and filling in doing random things. Last week I finally got offered a new permanent position!! It is a fun position that will allow me to grow! I will be responsible for our website, newsletters, attending co... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 20:57:26 EST Tubing! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5445380 This past Saturday my husband and I along with some of our closest friends went floating down the river. If you have never done this you have to! It is an annual event for us that we plan months in advance and it one of my favorite things to do. Here is Florida we have a lot of springs which make the river water literally 76-78 degrees year round. It is cold but wonderful! <BR> <BR> We basically tie our floats together and lazily float down the river for 4 hours. Well, lazily may be a bad w... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 14:21:34 EST I did it!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5443471 Before I started the Summer 5% Challenge I made a goal to get to 199 by this date. This morning this is what I saw: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/2/l824984637.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I did it!! I am finally out of the 200s. I have not seen a 1 in front of my weight since high school. Wow! I am so excited and super motivated!! Sat, 3 Aug 2013 18:12:43 EST August...seriously!!??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5441186 Can you guys believe that it is August already??!! I have to say that July was probably my strongest month so far. I did over 1,000 minutes of working out. I ate better...not perfect but much better. My husband finally got on board and started going to the gym again. My best friends also started going to the gym more often. <BR> <BR> One thing I learned about myself this month is that I don't need them! Ok, that may sound mean but I have been working out on my own for months without them an... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 14:30:47 EST Made to Crave http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5437459 I am into the first week of the 5% Summer Challenge and so far I love it! They pick a team member to be in the spotlight and today is my day. My email has been going off all day to notify me someone has either sent me a Sparkgoodie or left a comment on my page. It is so great, motivating, and just fun! You guys are so sweet! <BR> <BR> On another note I am doing something alongside this challenge and that is going back to re-read and finally finish Made to Crave by Lysa TerKeurst. As a Christ... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 13:53:02 EST 5% Challenge starts today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5434969 The Summer 5% Challenge starts today. I weighed in and I am at 201!!! 201! OMG!! In am sooooo close to being out of the 200's. When I lose my 5% I will be at 191. I don't think I have seen these numbers since high shcool. I am very excited to get this challenge underway! <BR> <BR> Good luck to my fellow challengers and Casual Travelers! <BR> <BR> <em>67</em> <em>47</em> <em>298</em> <em>462</em> <em>311</em> <em>256</em> Sat, 27 Jul 2013 08:09:33 EST Summer 5% Challenge Assignment #4- Trigger Foods http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5424213 My next assignment for the 5% Challenge is to talk about my trigger foods and make a plan to avoid said trigger foods. <BR> <BR> 1. List ALL trigger foods: I have a lot. Chocolate is #1 followed closely by chips. Really any food that is processed and considered a junk food is a trigger for me. Baked goods are really bad too! <BR> <BR> 2. Sources of trigger foods: I can find some trigger foods at home. Mostly I have a problem at parties and friend's houses. I usually doing really well in avo... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 12:48:37 EST Summer 5% Challenge Assignment #3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5422402 Today's assignment is to list all the reasons you want to lose weight. <BR> <BR> What do you want to change? I want to change my life. I want to change my activity level and my food issues. I want to live a healthy lifestyle and pass it on to my future kids. <BR> <BR> How do you want to look? Healthy and fit! <BR> <BR> How do you want to feel? Energetic and confident. <BR> <BR> What things will you be able to do in the future with a slimmer healthier body? Have a baby, walk/run without l... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 22:34:36 EST Summer 5% Challenge! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5421206 I recently joined a new team, Summer 5% Challenge. It is a very active team that I am pretty excited to be apart of. I hope it helps me continue to stay motivated and reach my goal of losing 5% of my weight. The Challenge officially starts on July 27th but there are assignments we will be given leading up to it starting. I really love this because it gives me time to get ready and really think about what I want to accomplish my goal. <BR> <BR> Some questions for me to answer are: How much a... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 22:54:49 EST Stop!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5416125 Bahaha!!! A little laugh for you guys! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1254221353.jpg"> Tue, 9 Jul 2013 23:33:24 EST Happy Belated 4th of July! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5414138 I took some time away from the computer this weekend to enjoy myself and my family. We had an action packed 4 days!! We had a cookout on Thursday, relaxation and dinner with friends on Friday, a birthday party for one of the kids on Saturday, and Church, a workout and swimming yesterday. It was a blast and I am not ready to be at work but I am. <em>67</em> <BR> <BR> My summer goal is not far from my mind but my friendly TOM came to visit. <BR> <BR> <em>15</em> I feel so bloated, it ... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 09:50:45 EST Motivation and an Update on my Summer Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5408726 I am still working towards my summer goal (blog from 6/24) of losing 6 pounds before our annual tubing trip. I only lost 3 oz this past week but with the stress of last week (check out my blog from Sunday) I am grateful for a loss of any kind! I hope to make up the difference this week. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1800136207.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is the picture I have hanging on my bathroom mirror. I put pictures of things to motivate myself. I literally loo... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 15:31:56 EST This week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5406744 Sorry I have been MIA! I have had a crazy week...to put it mildly!! I work for a non profit and have been in transition with my position. Basically I have not had an official position for 6 months. I have been doing odds and ends and helping is various departments during this time. This is unheard of in the world of non profits! The only way I can explain it is that God's hand is protecting me and my job. I knew a job was coming available this week and planned on applying for it. The day befo... Sun, 30 Jun 2013 21:33:08 EST Summer Goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5400304 I am almost to 199 so to get there I am giving me a date to reach it by. On August 3rd we go tubing down one of our local rivers. It is sooo much fun and it is a yearly tradition with my friends. Basically we all bring floats, coolers, food, water guns, beach balls and tie our floats together and float to the end of the river. It takes 4 hours but is the most fun we have all summer! <BR> <BR> That gives me 6 weeks to get to 199. I am at 205 right now so that means if I lose a pound a week I... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 14:20:59 EST Oh no... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5398320 Thursday and Friday were not good days for me. I will brush it off and be successful today! <BR> <BR> <em>386</em> Sat, 22 Jun 2013 13:47:13 EST Workout Problems (LOL) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5396100 This is exactly how I felt yesterdy during spin. At one point I really did think I was going to die! HAHA! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1661331606.jpg"> Thu, 20 Jun 2013 09:12:16 EST Some of my favorite things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395160 I have been wanting to do this post for a while now but have not found the time to get it together. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> I have some favorite healthy living/recipe blogs I follow. I get some great ideas from them and they all have great advice/recipes. I also am completely addicted to Pinterest! If you are over there please follow me (jenc927) and let me know so I can follow you as well. I post all kinds of stuff, depending on my mood you might get quite a laugh when I am checking out t... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 12:06:10 EST Unexpected http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5391883 I went to visit my best friend this weekend. I love going to see her! We have been friends since we were 16. Even if we don't see each other often it is like old times every time we get together. She has seen me at my best and worst. I feel so strong right now and am making so many changes to my diet that I don't always see the physical changes. I haven't seen her or her parents since January. I know my body has changed but it wasn't until they were all telling me how different I looked that ... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 11:05:07 EST Father's Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5387856 My heart is heavy going into this weekend. Having just lost my dad 3 months ago I just don't know what my emotions will be like on Sunday. It will be a hard year of firsts without having him here and this is the first major thing I will deal with. I will not try to be strong if I can't be, I will cry all day if I want, I will laugh if I want, but most importantly I will honor him and think of him and my memories of our time together. <BR> <BR> It feels like such a cliche to say but if you s... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 10:00:41 EST 199 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5384287 I am sooo close I can taste it!!!! So excited to be out of the 200's soon! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/0/l301506902.jpg"> Mon, 10 Jun 2013 09:33:54 EST The Butterfly http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5379156 I have had a hard time this past year. This isn't going to be a blog that whines about it either. The fact that I am still logging onto SparkPeople is proof of that. Besides my dad dying in March, my step mom died last June (June 10th), my husband and I are dealing with infertility, and my job is in constant chaos. The one constant and solid thing in my life is my Faith! Jesus is my Rock and through this I feel so much closer to Him. I know He has nothing but good things in store for me. I to... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 12:45:11 EST