JEM0622's SparkPeople Blog JEM0622's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community At A Crossroads A lot has been going on inside of the last 30+ days. Between losing my job (and trying to find a new one), unexpected other loss, having to commute to a job again....the stars are not in alignment. Further, I really do not know what I want to do regarding fitness. I wake each morning with my caloric range in my head, and I am making good choices based on what I know. I respect the range and I am grateful for that. I am not motivated to sign up for a specific race, and right now I feel like th... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 18:23:07 EST Attitude of Gratitude We all should really try to look at each day in a positive way. Some days are harder than others. For day: <BR> <BR> Woke up! - positive <BR> Fed the kids - positive <BR> Made all required lunches - positive <BR> Got the kids off to school - positive <BR> Recycle guy picked up all of our recycles - positive (i recycle a lot!) <BR> Made all my scheduled meetings - positive <BR> No calls from school - positive <BR> Attended the PTA meeting - positive (maybe? lol) <BR> Ran the dish... Tue, 2 Oct 2012 21:54:17 EST Slow Down I've been having fun finding the appropriate Beatles song for my blogs <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Today was about slowing down. Not in many ways, really. Just in movement. It is something that, unless you want to get injured again, you have to do after a race. I've been injured, and don't want to be again. So I had to slow down today. <BR> <BR> I still packed up lunches, put out recycles, hung laundry, walked the dog, etc. etc. All that 'to do' stuff that is just a part of what has to be d... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 21:06:45 EST Carry That Weight Man does 0400 come early in the morning! But given my forgetfulness of last evening, it was best to get up, get my bearings, gather my stuff, remember the stuff I forgot, and get on the road. <BR> <BR> A stale cup of coffee is still a stale cup of coffee, no matter the hour <em>101</em> <BR> <BR> But a tasty pumpkin pie bagel does warm the soul and move the soul out the door <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> You do know you are ambitious when you take very seriously the notification that tr... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 20:32:29 EST That Means A Lot Did you know that is also a Beatles song? I did not. You learn something new all the time! <BR> <BR> Anywho...busy day here. Girls had gymnastics, youngest boy had baseball, a birthday party, and then let me pick up my race packet. I saunter up to the table and announce my name. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> what? <BR> <BR> sigh. anxiety. digging for email history on my phone. race director (that I know) is on the phone having her people check. <BR> <BR> nothin... Sat, 29 Sep 2012 19:30:05 EST Twist and Shout's all about the might as well make it fun! <BR> <BR> I felt the title is appropriate. It describes where I am, and it certainly describes how I've been feeling lately. <BR> <BR> Twist - well, the twist part is a reflection of where I am with fitness and pondering what the next destination is. More of the same? A new goal? Should I twist out of what I've been doing to get moving more? Or just register for something because it's different and go with it? I'm thinking o... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 17:14:12 EST serious angst it could only be 7 days and counting to something i haven't ever tried. thank you for the you tube videos. i am grateful i have had skill drills. i am thankful for breathing drills. i have had no practice with a wet suit. nothing. i just want to come out on the other side intact. knowing me...i'll end up renting a suit and i'll add minutes to my transition but oh well. i think i could survive on what i had but the trouble is that it is colder where i live...with regard to where i am swimming.... Sun, 2 Sep 2012 21:33:21 EST Throw Caution to the Wind You know that saying...if you wait until the time is right, or all conditions are perfect...then it will never happen. <BR> <BR> I think a lot can be said for not waiting. Drop the self doubt. Drop the fear. Drop the disbelief. This is not to discount the tools or training you might need...but taking that first step is the beginning of something that could be great. Whether it's great in your books, or inspiring to others, or an exercise in self love and self respect. Are you sitting on the... Wed, 22 Aug 2012 12:53:06 EST Tough Goodbyes Sometimes we get to say goodbye, and sometimes there isn't an opportunity or a time to do that. My hope for many Spark friends is that you do get the chance to say goodbye. Whether it is a friend moving away, or moving on to a new job, or having a really tough and sorrowful time of sending someone on to the other side. I think we deserve and need this important step, regardless of circumstance. <BR> <BR> I have had this opportunity many times, but there is a time I didn't get to do this. I f... Tue, 21 Aug 2012 22:35:01 EST Make It Good Gosh life sure seems busy and demanding these days. There is a lot of good that comes from it, and that is where I like to keep my focus. I helped with coordination and fundraising for a Women's Distance Festival that was held today. I loved seeing the gym full of Moms of all ages, daughters, sisters, and all the men who marshaled the course for us. It was a very good thing. <BR> <BR> The event gives back to our community, and I love to be a part of things like that. I loved that it was on ... Sat, 11 Aug 2012 11:03:54 EST Painful Loss No, this isn't a story about weight loss. This is about the loss of a person who I would have so loved to meet in person...but did not. However our friendship was strong. I am sure we can all attest to how strong we develop bonds here on SP. This is about a wonderful woman named Teresa. She was the quiet type. Not quick to jump on a bandwagon or say the popular thing. Very much centered on her family, and not spending so much time wishing for different family. She maybe, if I talk to her one ... Tue, 31 Jul 2012 22:29:34 EST What Do You Think About/Do Each Day Is it easy? Is it hard? Is it based on choices? Is it based on excuses? <BR> Perhaps you should read this blog and reconsider: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=4966130 </link> Wed, 11 Jul 2012 23:02:27 EST Today's Mantra <link><BR>011/07/tumblr_llwwsv6zyi1qa29c9o1_500.png </link> <BR> <BR> Had a lot on my plate as of late and really need this reminder. Thu, 5 Jul 2012 23:21:44 EST Y-M-C-A Since Memorial Day weekend, we have been members of our local Y. We had talked about it, and it really was ideal so that I could get ready for my late September Sprint Tri. <BR> <BR> Last Sunday, I went through an orientation of the machines in the Fitness Center. The trouble? Where I log in when I am exercising is separate from SP. So you guys do not know what I have been up to. <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> I finally got off my duff. I had been in a bit of a funk since my mid-April skin surger... Fri, 15 Jun 2012 22:25:46 EST Tough Love I need to practice some on myself. I weighed in this morning, and the news was not good. The last few weigh ins, the number just goes up instead of down. I really didn't think I'd be sitting here, having to lose 10 lbs. Not 5, but 10, to get back to goal weight. If I float a few lbs away from my goal doesn't bother me. But 10 lbs changes how my clothes fit. I will not buy other clothes to make this acceptable. It has been giving me anxiety problems, that this is happening. As a ca... Wed, 9 May 2012 07:52:49 EST Frederick Half Marathon Relay Race Report - May 6 2012 So I will preface this blog by saying I am grateful the day arrived, and that I was eager to be a part of the day despite a 3 week hiatus from running. Skin surgery was a necessary evil, but the inconvenience of the gauze/paper tape changes (and inability to run because it could all fall off and I had no one to re-apply) made for a stinky situation! <BR> <BR> I am grateful that I arrived suture free to the race. It was such a relief to have them removed early. <BR> <BR> The day was due to ... Sun, 6 May 2012 21:13:52 EST Goodbye, Cupcake This blog could have so many meanings. But I assure you, it is truly about the represented, sugar laden, focus of all that is 'good and holy on Food Network and other networks'. <BR> <BR> But those cupcakes...they are so pretty <BR> <BR> or gluten free <BR> <BR> or vegan <BR> <BR> or handcrafted <BR> <BR> or...and...and... <BR> <BR> and what? Good for you? No, they are not. All things in moderation? Well, it depends. Let's compare, shall we? <BR> <BR> Betty Crocker Nutrition (for a cup... Wed, 2 May 2012 23:01:17 EST BLC 19 Goals Whew! Well this challenge is not starting off on a strong point for me. Sad to say, I started it with sutures and stitches in my back! <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> However, when I am better! And as of May 10, I will be active (DAILY DAILY DAILY). Upper body ST, lower body ST, running, biking, and swimming. I have a late September Sprint Tri (My first!) to prep for and I have to kick myself in the pants! That said.... <BR> <BR> My SMART goals are: <BR> Specific - Move every day. Don't tell me you... Sun, 29 Apr 2012 22:09:52 EST Sunscreen So...I am sure you have heard the radio song/epitaph about wearing your sunscreen. It is more advice to the young ones on life and their path forward after high school graduation. Well...nearly 20 years after high school graduation...I have a more important lesson for myself and others. It isn't about professional or academia lessons. It's about being smart any time the sun will kiss your skin. It doesn't matter what time of year it is. Sure...we figure the sun is hottest/most dangerous in th... Sun, 22 Apr 2012 21:56:19 EST This Guy Walks Into Some Running Shoes Did that get your attention? <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> We all started our journey on some random day, but it was our day. We put our health first and found something (or maybe multiple somethings) that ignited the spark. <BR> <BR> I was told about a guy who could use some support and encouragement. I hope we can get him turned on to SparkPeople...but in the meantime...maybe go to his blog, click 'follow', and pat him on the back from time to time. <em>304</em> <em>250</em> <BR> <BR> <... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 16:02:33 EST Great Inspirational Blog - Go See! This really struck home with me, with my kids on Spring Break and my work to do's piling up! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=4822455 </link> Thu, 5 Apr 2012 21:57:35 EST Just A Short Run - My First Race of 2012! I could not think of a BETTER way to start my racing this year. Why's that you say? Oh...well I was in the BEST company, of course! None other than fellow Sparkers! My first ever Spark meet up in my three years on Spark. I may have seemed so calm and shy...inside I was a giddy school girl! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I will spare you the pics on our four hour roadtrip, but I won't spare you the Rose Barn pics! <em>334</em> <BR> ... Sun, 1 Apr 2012 23:06:15 EST I Hate Cancer So tonight, a mom friend of mine shared that an acquaintance of hers passed away. At age 35. Of breast cancer. <em>458</em> <BR> <BR> 35. I'll be 38 this year. I had cancer tests myself last Summer. Why? Because my sister has PCOS. I lost my grandmother (maternal) to ovarian cancer. My mother, in her mid 40s, had a hysterectomy because she had a large cyst that we did not know the status of (benign, cancerous). For my family, cancer is something we fear. All the time. <BR> <BR> My oldes... Thu, 15 Mar 2012 22:03:50 EST What Color is Your Mood Ring? I was thinking this to my little self this evening. The last couple of weeks have been one fine blur for me. And, thanks to things I must do to keep my work...I gave 110% and left myself with: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> What did that do to my mood? Well let's see the mood chart: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Out of the options, I'd say I was feeling pretty <BR>... Sun, 11 Mar 2012 23:01:03 EST Goal! Or should that be goals :) As pare of the BLC 18, I was asked to define/share what my short term, medium term and long term goals and rewards are. <BR> <BR> Now, I will first start with the rewards. The rewards are good health. I have never been one to lay claim to a materialistic thing to get in return for doing what I should to take care of me. I don't think I should have to do these things to earn cute toes or fingers or hair or a relaxed back. That is part of hygiene and well being also.... Mon, 5 Mar 2012 23:39:53 EST Julie's Bad Apples So as part of the BLC 18 Disney Princess Challenge, I was asked to define/reflect on something that is an obstacle to you in your weight loss journey (this can be a thing, an attitude, a person) and determine how to overcome this (Just one time over the weekend) <BR> <BR> While I was pretty stumped, I think the biggest thing is value of self and that making the time for self is not a negative thing. Do you have someone who just makes you feel awful for choosing the gym, or a walk, or a run, ... Mon, 5 Mar 2012 23:26:39 EST Wednesday Weigh In Alas, my weigh in news is not good today. <BR> <BR> Last Wed: 141 <BR> This Wed: 143.6 <BR> <BR> What happened? I missed 4 days of exercise. Will I make excuses for that? No. Do I have a good reason (and not an excuse)? Well, only for 2 of those 4 days. I am waiting for the doc to call me (hate the wait!) with feedback on my abdominal and pelvic ultrasounds from Friday. I think I had a gall bladder attack, but I am not a doctor and I do not play one on TV. <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> The othe... Wed, 15 Feb 2012 10:53:18 EST Wednesday Weigh In for 2/8 and other misc Well, wherever that munch-bug got to, I can thank this past weekend's Game challenge for reigning me in. Who doesn't want big money? <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> If I didn't snack in the evening, then each day of the 4 day challenge earned me $200 <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> I knew that this was my opportunity to stay strong! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The big day came yes... Thu, 9 Feb 2012 12:37:44 EST Wednesday Weigh In I promised I would update, and a promise is a promise! <BR> <BR> Unfortunately, I am up a pound this week. I weighed in at 142.8 <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Something that has been on my many calories am I burning? I really stepped up my fitness minutes in January, and I had a case of the munchies! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I need to get in touch, and get informed, about what I am burning. I'll start fresh on Sunday and ... Wed, 1 Feb 2012 11:27:34 EST Getting Out of My Comfort Zone So my exercise, for the last....oh...good year (maybe longer), has involved <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> or <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> or <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> or <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> You could easily start an argument with me about ... Tue, 31 Jan 2012 19:32:59 EST How the BLC has TransFORMed Me When I came to SparkPeople, I arrived ready to start my journey <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> But some days, along the way, I've started my day (or allowed a situation or a person), to do this to me <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The difference in me, the transformation, is how I handle it (whatever it is). I'm my our my goals. Time to... Fri, 27 Jan 2012 21:51:45 EST Heartfelt Thanks! I am overwhelmed at all of the time everyone has taken to read my 3 year Sparkversary Blog. I recorded a thank you just for you <BR> <BR> <link><BR>622/?action=view&current=Capture11-25-<BR>20122-48PM.mp4 </link> <BR> <BR> <em>304</em> Wed, 25 Jan 2012 15:16:52 EST 3 Year Sparkversary! Well, today is the day...3 years ago...that I joined SparkPeople. How have I spent this anniversary? Tracking my food, running 2.6 miles, doing lower body ST, drinking my water, and interacting with my BLC 18 Outlaws! <BR> <BR> Three years ago, I looked like this: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> (Me on the left!) <BR> <BR> When I reached my goal weight, 50 lbs later (and still maintaining!), I look like this: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sp... Mon, 23 Jan 2012 16:21:27 EST 2012 is a canvas Yep, that's the way I see it. In the first month of this year, I will achieve 3 years on SparkPeople. I love SP. I love my Spark friends. I love what I have learned, and the tools that are available to me on this site. The accountability, the friendships, and the list goes on! <BR> <BR> I see 2012 as a 'let's keep the knees healthy' year. I will continue to increase my running minutes by 1 minute each week. This could drive the everyday person crazy, but every day, every run, that I don't ha... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 21:46:33 EST My To Do List for SAC 2 Create a to-do list for the weekend by no later than noon on Friday. Include goals that you want to accomplish (fitness, nutrition, etc.) or simply things that need to get done. The list should have at least 20 items on it (5 for each day). At the end of the weekend, post the number of goals that you accomplished. Note: Each goal must take more than 15 minutes to complete for it to count in this challenge. <BR> <BR> Friday, December 16th: <BR> <BR> GOAL #1 Run for 20 minutes <BR> GOAL #2 Co... Fri, 16 Dec 2011 08:29:45 EST I Wouldn't Believe It If The Garmin Didn't Say It Julie isn't regularly blogging her thrice-weekly runs. This we know. But I assure you all is going okay (except my pitiful (okay completely lacking)) stretching routine after it is all said and done). <BR> <BR> As long as it isn't raining, I have been going outside. I did get lazy for a bit and I was wearing my brace instead of taping. I decided to start taping again. But that means I have to wear running shorts. Today's running temperature: 32. Yikes. Thank heavens for a fleece hat, long sl... Mon, 12 Dec 2011 13:32:51 EST SAC 2 Tracking Blog I'm on Team 12 with friendly faces from BLC. Very happy to continue my accountability during such an important and challenging time! I'll be tracking my progress in this blog (editing/updating) because it will be good to see how it goes! <BR> <BR> STARTING WEIGHT (DEC. 7) = <BR> END OF WEEK 1 WEIGHT (DEC 14.) = <BR> END OF WEEK 2 WEIGHT (DEC. 21) = <BR> END OF WEEK 3 WEIGHT (DEC. 28) = <BR> END OF WEEK 4 WEIGHT (JAN. 4) = <BR> <BR> ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~... Sun, 4 Dec 2011 21:47:57 EST The Spark Team That Sealed My Spark Success I am sure we all have Spark Friends. But we likely have a core group/team that sucked us in and motivated us along the way, no? For me, the most influential team has been the Biggest Loser Challenge (BLC). I started in round 9, and we are now (gasp) opening signups for round 18!!! <BR> <BR> Why is the Biggest Loser Challenge so special? <BR> <BR> Friendships <em>220</em> <BR> <BR> Challenges (a few each week plus weekend challenges (for when we are tempted most)) <em>216</em> <BR> <BR... Wed, 30 Nov 2011 20:55:26 EST Thankful Blog Well...I sure know how to skip days of blogging ;) <BR> <BR> All is okay. I still have tailbone discomfort, but I could only sit out for so long. I could not just 'do nothing'. No way. No how! <BR> <BR> And that is why I am thankful. For the way I think. For what I do. Sure I will eat something but I don't say 'shame on you!'. I say 'so what are you going to do to burn that off?' 'What choices will you make for the rest of today...or tomorrow...because of the choice you just made?' It's ab... Mon, 28 Nov 2011 21:27:12 EST Week 4, Day 1 Well, today was a struggle. I fell while descending stairs on Saturday evening. Had a plate of food and drink for my oldest. Landed right on my tailbone. This slowed today's pace by nearly 2 minutes. <em>46</em> And it did hurt while I ran, but not as bad as it could have...thanks to Ibuprofen. <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> At least I got out there. I didn't do anything yesterday except eat right. Off to see how I handle the PT portion of today. Mon, 14 Nov 2011 14:07:35 EST Week 3, Day 1 So I completely skipped over Week 2, but here we are in Week 3. I will say that I was downright horrible with stretching last week. <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Due to weekend obligations, I did not do my cardio (2 miles of brisk walk) or ST (upper body). I was wiped last night and couldn't appreciate the clocks changing. However, I am happy to say that last night's sleep felt much like the extra hour was squeezed in there. Who are we's a mind game and our tummies are confused! <em... Mon, 7 Nov 2011 16:54:13 EST Week 1, Day 1, 13 minutes In the upper 40s this morning. Enough to make me want to cover my arms, which wasn't a big deal since I wouldn't be out too long. <BR> <BR> As much as I appreciate how fast my dog makes me isn't a sustainable pace and it causes a very mixed result on my pacing. I put her in the back yard so she wouldn't stand at the front window...barking at me <em>200</em> <BR> <BR> While I was taping the knees, I heard a fave One Republic song of mine. So I decided to put the album on instead ... Mon, 24 Oct 2011 11:00:12 EST PT Complete - Now What? So I had been on my own all of the MWF's in October for PT due to sick kids or my PT doc out of the country. I only missed one day due to my own illness. <BR> <BR> I got in and explained everything I had been doing. I know I had been cautious by keeping to my 10 minutes of running...but I wanted to be certain all was well and wanted today's assessment behind me before I took it up a notch. <BR> <BR> Would you believe she had the nerve to have me run a 10 minute pace? LOL. I can hang at a 1... Wed, 19 Oct 2011 15:52:56 EST Something I'm Pondering During PT So here is a revelation...okay maybe not. You know we (folks who enjoy the run/jog/walk/etc) tend to advise eager new faces to get good shoes and that a great start is a couch to 5k. Okay, agreed. But something that has really been on my mind is this...why not really nail that 1 mile I am allowed...get to the target pace I want to be at, and then slowly increase my distance? (Note: PT doc said do not extend distance and set a pace goal at the same time. if focusing on pace...keep to same numb... Mon, 10 Oct 2011 12:28:58 EST PT Progress Report It's been nearly 20 days since my last update, so I wanted to post a blog on my PT. Since my last blog, I've gone from 2 PT sessions/week (with 1 session at home), to 1 PT session/wk (with 2 sessions at home). <BR> <BR> I am regularly taping my own knees thanks to Amazon's goodness. <em>250</em> I do have my knee brace, but it definitely changes my gait and leaves me a little uncomfortable. If I tape my knees and do my stretches then all is fine. Zero discomfort. <BR> <BR> Three challeng... Mon, 26 Sep 2011 14:07:58 EST PT Progress Report So this week it was mixed up a little with the holiday. Had PT on Tuesday and Thursday. Added some ribbons and sideways run drills, as well as upping the pace on the TM. The PT doc didn't like me taking walk breaks because she couldn't get a feel for how the constant running would bother the knee. So this week there were no walk breaks. <BR> <BR> On Tuesday, I got up to 4.5 on the TM with 0 incline. Today, I got up to 5.0 with 0 incline. <BR> <BR> I will have an eval next Wednesday to see ... Thu, 8 Sep 2011 13:27:10 EST Back to school, back to routine, back to...running? What a busy week this has been...but we are falling back into school, signing agendas, homework for the two oldest, and going to bed nice and early so each day is as successful as it can be. <em>250</em> <BR> <BR> I was happy to walk into PT on Monday morning with zero discomforts to share. I do think that the elliptical plus the treadmill was too when we backed off elliptical and stuck to treadmill I did recoup just fine. <BR> <BR> We did decide to go with taping to see if the ... Fri, 2 Sep 2011 13:40:09 EST Scuffled Into PT Today Yeah I was crabby. What of it? <em>211</em> I mean...I was all excited and I have been in PT all Summer...and I suddenly had soreness above my kneecap on Friday morning...and I recalled why I was in PT...for that soreness...and here I was...with that same soreness...made me want to <em>225</em> <BR> <BR> I distracted myself of the poor me feelings by doing some decluttering. Although it wasn't laden with the best choices...taking ~8 or 9 boxes to Goodwill plus a TV. Yeah that TV was a be... Mon, 22 Aug 2011 23:12:27 EST Took a Walk In My Shoes First...I haven't blogged this week. So the very first thing on my mind is my spark friend, NINJALINDA, who lost her husband this week. I have a very heavy heart about it and I am praying for her and her family. I am asking anyone reading to please say a prayer for her and her family too. <BR> <BR> Second, I have been continuing this week with PT. A good bit of my PT has been lying on a table, doing reps that strengthen my quads (as well as work on improving the alignment of the kneecaps...... Wed, 17 Aug 2011 21:43:40 EST New Fangled Contraption Well, I'm going to choose the positives of this recent arrival. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>catalog/images_donjoy/small/lateraljs.jpg </link> <BR> <BR> Because it let me do this <BR> <BR> <link><BR>orm_900_Cardio_Cross_Elliptical.jpg </link> <BR> <BR> And I can do this <BR> <link><BR>g_sup1lghmstchstrp_1.jpg </link> <BR> <BR> And some other stretches too. As well as some quad bui... Tue, 9 Aug 2011 21:33:57 EST