JELLEN726's SparkPeople Blog JELLEN726's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 21 Day Detox DONE- Setting New Goals and Paleo I completed ANOTHER 21 day suger detox (I utilize the Paleo one). <BR> <BR> It felt great. Then Halloween hit. I allowed myself a few pieces of candy at first. Then threw in the towel and allowed myself a day to take a break. Which turned into a weekend. <BR> <BR> Telling the honest truth, the candy wasnt that great. The beer made me sick. The junk food wasn't what I wanted it to be. It all tasted fake and really didn't taste good. I am not sure why I even fell down the rabbit hole. I used... Wed, 6 Nov 2013 14:06:17 EST Long time no blog! Fitness Challenge I miss Yoovie. <BR> I am aware she hasn't been on here for a long time. <BR> I haven't blogged in a long time. I noticed over time SP has changed a bit. <BR> <BR> Not sure how I feel about it. <BR> <BR> Anywho..... <BR> <BR> What is up with me. A lot and a lot of nothing. <BR> <BR> I did a paleo 21 day detox and DID IT. I mean lost weight look leaner followed it to a T. Was gentle and loving and caring about me throughout the process. It has been about four days and I plan on doing anot... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 13:33:56 EST Check In Did my morning cardio. <BR> Ate bad on Sunday but I figured to allow myself a free day. <BR> Went grocery shopping and got healthy foods for the week. <BR> <BR> FOOD Plan for today: <BR> breakfast scrambled eggs <BR> snack- grapefruit <BR> lunch- chicken with salad <BR> Dinner- salmon with veggies <BR> Treat for the night- chocolate greek yogurt OR another grapefruit/clementine <BR> <BR> Also have class tonight. Mon, 15 Apr 2013 07:41:02 EST Why Are You Hanging on to the Weight? <img src=""> <BR> Woke up at 5:25 am. Worked out for 45 minutes on the elliptical! Sweat session. I got to go longer because I am flexing my time today for work and going to be here past 5 pm. <BR> <BR> I also did TAM arms for ten minutes (KILLLED!!). I kept putting my arms down from the ache. I was irritated I couldn't hold them up, but I reminded myself perfection isn't what we are going for, its working towards being hot n healthy an... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 11:25:19 EST My obsession with Jillian Micheals Podcasts <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Worked out on the elliptical at 5:30 am this morning. Did 30 minutes for 400 calories burned. I increased the level for the last five minutes before cool down on resistance. My booty is burning now on my chair! <BR> <BR> I am in limbo right now. I work out in the morning. Come home. Can't really do a lot until my knee is healed so I wat... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 10:40:11 EST Rewarding with Positives <em>324</em> <em>324</em> <em>324</em> <BR> Just bought a recumbent bike as positive reinforcement for getting up at 5 am the past two weeks and working out on the elliptical. <BR> <BR> PLUS... <BR> <BR> <em>387</em> 1) I like sitting on my butt and watching tv. I honestly enjoy it. This way I can sit on my butt in front of the TV and pedal! <BR> <BR> <em>314</em> 2)The recumbent bike will be good for my knee and protect from further injury <BR> <BR> <em>344</em> 3)bike... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 11:44:42 EST Nutrition Matters! <img src=""> <BR> After weeks and weeks of eating like garbage and putting nothing but garbage in my body, I started to FEEL and LOOK like garbage. What you put in, you get out. Your stomach digests these things isntantly. This goes into your blood stream within hours. The nutrients, the fat, the chemicals. What you eat is in your skin. It is in your hair. It is in your complexion. It is in YOUR body, fat or healthy, vitamins or toxins..... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 09:31:12 EST Streak-A-Leak! Morning Ladies.... Day Two. I did it. Woke up. Did 30 minutes of cardio on the elliptical <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> tumblr.fitspo <BR> <BR> The only thought I keep thinking is..I can't go back. I cannot look back. Must push forward. Failure is not an option unless I want to feel like this for the rest of my life. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Wed, 3 Apr 2013 08:43:08 EST Morning Cardio: I DID IT! <img src=""> <BR> FINALLY- YEszz.............. <BR> <BR> After all this mental preparation. All the physical preparation. I woke up and did cardio at 5:30 am! I did it. ME. This girl. This girl who always gets in her, BROKE through the mental block and Just did it! <BR> <BR> I did it! <BR> <BR> FINALLY. <BR> <BR> How did I finally get here? Determination and lots of it. <BR> <BR> Last week. I had to flex my time on Wednesday at w... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 09:20:53 EST Burning Desire- the alter ego arrival I heard her last night while I was driving. <BR> She is fire. <BR> She is the girl on fire. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> She asked me what I was doing. <BR> <BR> I told I didn't know. Secretly hanging my head in shame. <BR> <BR> She told me "Don't worry, I got this" <BR> <BR> I wanted to cry. I wanted to ask where had she been. I had so many questions. So many anxieties. So much shame. For eating away all of my pain and sorrows. <BR> ... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 16:29:43 EST Crazy Last Week of March <img src=""> <BR> I never thought I would be so happy to see the end of a month! <BR> <em>100</em> <em>100</em> <em>100</em> <BR> March you have been crazy. March you have been too much. <BR> But I pushed through and that is what matters. I get through it on top with some sanity. Not that much body dignity, but with my tasks at hand complete. Thank goodness for March being coming to a close. <BR> <BR> This week: <BR> Monday- T... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 10:00:13 EST SPRING into ACTION PLAN <img src=""> <BR> What are you going to do to make your Spring a success? <BR> SPRING is Officially here. <BR> <BR> <em>257</em> Successful Spring Into Action Plan <BR> <BR> <em>448</em> Workout for ONE Hour a day DOESNT MATTER WHAT <BR> <em>448</em> Start a morning exercise routine <BR> <em>448</em> make sure to do 3 toning routines a week <BR> <em>448</em> eat paleo/clean/lowcarb <BR> <BR> I keep struggling with tryi... Fri, 22 Mar 2013 08:29:05 EST Check In So I packed my lunch and snacks yesterday for my seminar in EL. <BR> <BR> Packed up clementines and raspberries for snack. <BR> Lunch was broccoli w/shredded cheese <BR> Tempeh Tofu on top <BR> cherry tomatoes <BR> <BR> UNFORTUNATELY, as the seminar wore on and got even MORE boring everyone was eating cookies and chips and pretzels. I caved and ate a bag of pretzels <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> THEN when I came home I was exhausted from the heavy traffic and hour and a half drive. <BR> <BR... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 08:40:24 EST Fallen Angel: Determined by Mistakes Falling down hurts. Fallen Angel. Broken Angel. Too heavy for my wings to let me fly. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Remember this feeling. The spinning out of control. The falling. The need to control. The need to indulge. The pain it causes your heart. The pain it causes your mind. <BR> <BR> The anxiety it creates. <BR> <BR> I ate like garbage and knew it. I felt the need and said why not. I gave in. I gave in for over four days of eat... Sun, 17 Mar 2013 10:53:19 EST Monday Morning Madness My butt hurts!!! <BR> <BR> <em>362</em> SQUATS galore in the tonique video and I only did the first ten minutes. What the He$$?! <BR> <BR> I did the dvd on Saturday. Also did some TAM Cardio and my TAM Level 1 Day 4 Glutecentric DVD. My arms are sore. My inner somethings are sore. My glutes are sore. My fat on the back on my arms is sore (take that FAT!!!). <BR> <BR> <em>313</em> I was so sore yesterday I had to just walk the dog for 20 minutes to move the lactic acid around because... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 09:14:56 EST Sunday Prep Day Sunday... PREP Day! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> UGH. Weekend is done. BOO. I just wanted it to last a little longer. Time for prep day and I can't seem to move my a$$ fast enough. <BR> <BR> I have only done the grocery shopping and laundry. I need to add some info to a PP presentation I have for Monday class and also all the bells and whistles packed in the car by 9 pm. <BR> <BR> I need to also organize and prep my food for all ... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 17:52:14 EST March Challenge: Love Commitment <img src=""> <BR> So this month's challenge is going to be for me to loooove <em>26</em> COMMITMENT <BR> <BR> I am going to commit to taking care of myself for the next month. These next ten days are going to be bootcamp! <BR> <BR> <em>26</em> Saturday: Committed to completing one whole Dance Cardio DVD with TAM <BR> <BR> <em>26</em> Sunday: slightly hung over committed to eating "healthy" junk food like sweet potato french fr... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 12:57:42 EST Commitment Love I finally feel renewed and settled. I have committed to me and to a program. <BR> I think a big part of my constant confusion was all the fitness programs out there and loving them all and seeing good results with them WHEN I actually did them, but never completing committing to one. <BR> <BR> I was like a bee drunk on pollen flying crazily from one flower to another. <BR> <BR> With all the back and forth and back peddling I just decided to say, I would do whatever I want that day. THEN I... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 13:01:10 EST If You Want to Look Like They Look..... Then DO what THEY DO!!! <BR> <BR> <em>189</em> <BR> <BR> <em>355</em> <em>355</em> <em>355</em> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> tone it up girls <BR> <BR> TEN DAY COMMITMENT TO MYSELF PLAN <BR> <BR> I COMMIT TO <BR> <BR> <em>4</em> Eating and Following the TIU Nutrition Plan for TEN DAYS <em>411</em> <BR> ... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 12:58:07 EST Food P*%$N! Lots of Foodie Healthy Pics I have been dedicating a lot of my time to prep cooking and also making sure I eat nutrient dense foods. Even if I happen to eat at off times, I am trying to make sure my foods have a nutritious quality for me. <BR> <BR> Here is some of what I have been up to for eating LEAN CLEAN and GREEN <BR> <img src=""> <BR> fruit salad I prepped for work this week: Mango, Grapefruit, blueberry, raspberry salad <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="ht... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 11:31:35 EST LOVE YOUR BODY Challenge on Tone It Up! I am currently participating in the Love Your Body Challenge from the Tone It Up Girls! Love them, please check out their blog, twitter, FB! <BR> <BR> My NYE Goals: <BR> <BR> <em>408</em> Take Care of Myself <BR> <em>409</em> Fall in Love with me Again <BR> <em>408</em> Concentrate on Morning Cardio <BR> <BR> What I have done so far... <BR> I have been eating lean, clean n green for the past few days. As best as possible. I have also been prepping meals which helps a TON. <BR> ... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 09:08:38 EST OWN your SPACE Establishing and utilizing the space I OWN.. <BR> <em>326</em> O- opportunity <BR> <em>326</em> W- WORK IT OUT <BR> <em>326</em> N- Never give up <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Quit wasting TIME <BR> STOP being afraid of utilizing your own space in your home <BR> UTILIZE the opportunities you have <BR> <BR> Do not be afraid to take advantage of the environment around you. STOP making excused for the ... Fri, 21 Dec 2012 09:34:38 EST Holiday Slaughter: Surviving the In Laws I was told it would only be wed, thur, friday next week they were coming down. ONLY those three days. Fine, stay in my house, eat my food, terrorize me with mental warfare of opinions and babble that I do not care about.... <BR> BUT leave me my weekend. <BR> <BR> My husband just now informed me 5 minutes ago NOT only are they staying during the week BUT also for the weekend. It is the weekend for Christmas. It is my sacred time of quietly wrapping the packages, finishing touches on packages ... Wed, 12 Dec 2012 21:31:47 EST Don't Look Back You are this size. you want to cry. You want to avoid mirrors. You want to wear baggy clothes and not go anywhere when you get home from work. <BR> <BR> you are afraid to start working out and jumping around for fear of not being able to complete moves you used to once do with smooth fluidity. You are afraid to stretch and find out how inflexible you have become. You are afraid of shooting for the stars and finding you are now falling to earth and the thud hearts more than your heart and min... Wed, 28 Nov 2012 09:56:01 EST GOALS for the rest of the WEEK <BR> <em>355</em> Work out everyday (4x) before my Z-training <em>355</em> <BR> <em>284</em> Stick to the TONE IT UP Meal Plan <em>291</em> <BR> <em>362</em> light cardio morning booty calls!! <em>362</em> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> zumba Tue, 27 Nov 2012 12:00:30 EST Eating Plan/Zumba Obsessed Lately I decided to throw dieting out the window over the holiday times and just stick with eating clean healthy meals. <BR> <BR> I have been CRAVING squash since its almost like a comfort food. I heat it up with some brussel sprouts and a little bit of turkey in a bowl and that has been my dinner. Unfortunately, the sqaush was mass baked, so once its gone, its gone. I need to pick up some more and do the same. My mom has made the sqaush last week and I took the large bag of leftovers to my house.... Tue, 27 Nov 2012 10:16:10 EST Friday Fitness Shopping deals!!! Zumba wear I went nuts. I was obsessed. I am an addict..... <BR> <BR> for Zumba Clothes! <BR> <BR> They had such great deals and prices (even better than places like target!) for fitness Z-wear. I bought a TON of clothes. I mean A TON. I cannot wait for the shipment to come in. <BR> <BR> I am glad I chose to buy fun colored cardio clothes over the same old make up hoopla and pencil skirts I do every year. It motivated me to work out this weekend in anticipation of it. I also signed up for a zumba mas... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 10:49:23 EST Just Checkin in Finally broke through a rut and worked out for the first time in a looong time. I did 60 minute class of zumba on the Kinect. <BR> <BR> I have also been studying my zumba choreo and will plan to hopefully have a mini class with family and friends prepped for after the new year. <BR> <BR> I did a hit a wall last night and brought home pizza and beer for thursday night dinner. <BR> <BR> I am bloated sooo bad today. Definite reminder to screw pizza. Not for a long time. Fri, 16 Nov 2012 15:26:32 EST Surviving the Binge I was going to write a blog about surviving my most recent binge, until last night. <BR> I haven't survived it. In fact, I have been CONSUMED by it. <BR> <BR> I have given into it thinking it would go away. It just started a whole new level of viscous. I am not sure where my motivation has gone, but its out the window. <BR> <BR> I feel like I am in a tumbling washing machine drowning and going round and round and suffocating. <BR> <BR> I come home, the only food we have is the junk food... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 12:42:17 EST Pre-planning: My Weapon of Choice Ready. Set. FIGHT! Attacking the day with veracity! <BR> <BR> I am like a lion tearing through this! It is all about diet. NO, NOT dieting. All about DIET and what I am putting into my body. <BR> <BR> I took a moment to "Pre-Plan" my nutrition before the day ends and it turned out to be the best tool in my tool box for starting down the right path. <BR> <BR> Last night I pre-planned this... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My TOWER of sn... Thu, 25 Oct 2012 10:34:52 EST Check In I woke up. I almost did it. I almost had it. <BR> <BR> Downloaded the app for TIU and had the alarm all set and ready to go. Heard Karena say, "Wak up time for booty call and 30 sit ups!" <BR> <BR> The sound actaully made me get up, pop out of bed, and walk downstairs! FINALLY. GOT UP. GET UP. <BR> <BR> Then I dozed off after sitting on my couch and turning on the news. I shouldn't. Maybe I should have some coffee ready to go. Maybe I should have it ready and waiting for me to grab BEFORE ... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 11:10:22 EST Motivation Monday!!! House Pics Can't find your motivation? MAKE IT. <BR> <BR> There are times where you can't find the motivation surrounding you in your space. When it feels empty. You feel empty. That means it is time to create it! <BR> <BR> I needed some motivation. Some mojo to get me going. So I finally decided to get my rear in gear and create it! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Bought a poster board from wally world with some pins. Total, 9 bucks for the board,... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 21:33:29 EST Epiphany: Morning Cardio diabocle I only need to wake up 30 minutes earlier. Only 30 minutes. To make the difference in my life that I need. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> picture from <BR> <BR> Here is the story... <BR> <BR> I sort of planned on waking up early this morning to start off on the right foot and get going <em>67</em> <BR> I sort of decided to start doing morning cardio as part of my reshape reboot plan <em>411</em> <BR> ..... <BR> I sort... Tue, 16 Oct 2012 11:06:57 EST beg burrow n steal I am going to beg, burrow and steal for this. I am hungry to be fit and I don't care what I need to do... <BR> <BR> I will crawl through the mud for this. <BR> <BR> <BR> It is like a jewel hanging in front of my face. Skinny and toned is dangling in front of me like the greatest diamond I have ever seen. <BR> <BR> I will get it. Mon, 15 Oct 2012 16:52:44 EST Back Again I changed my diet and my diet changed me. <BR> It is time to go back.... <BR> back to paleo. Back to basics. <BR> <BR> I already lost 10 lbs and am BACK to my weight BEFORE I stopped doing instensive cardio classes from last year. <BR> <BR> I had my vacay. I had a health scare (will go into it later- dont even WANT to talk about it now). I had my mini pity party of depression while I healed up and took my meds and NOW finally I feel like I have hte mental clarity and stamina to handle this... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 08:31:45 EST The Magic Bullet There is in no magic bullet. There is no amazing potion or pill to propel you forward. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Imager from <BR> <BR> YOU ARE THE MAGIC BULLET SO PROPEL yourself forward with your own gun powder. <BR> <BR> With motivation and heart and blood and guts. With remembering that is not just about the goal but the journey and hard sheer force of pushing forward that gets you there. <BR> <BR> KNOCK off the excuses... Tue, 2 Oct 2012 12:47:11 EST Morning AM Booty Call Work Outs! <img src=""> <BR> <em>249</em> <em>249</em> <em>249</em> <em>249</em> <BR> <em>67</em> <em>465</em> <em>67</em> <em>465</em> <em>67</em> <BR> <BR> MY GOAL FOR OCTOBER IS........ <BR> <BR> to do my booty call in the am!! My booty is getting called out of bed and hauled into the cardio room d*&mit! <BR> I need to commit to stability. To something that will start my day off right and in a great direction. I wan... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 12:26:52 EST For Those Who Say- Again?! You Will Never Get There It Is fine you think I am non-threatening, weak and will never get there. <BR> <BR> Because while you are assuming I will not.... <BR> <BR> I am. And undermining you every minute of the way. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Fitness Inspiration <BR> Nike.Com Thu, 13 Sep 2012 08:46:52 EST Diet Change Update Yesterday I was ready to rule the world and today.... <BR> NOT so much. <BR> <BR> I wanted to work out. I didn't. <BR> I made an amazing healthy dinner in accordance to my diet guidelines and I wound up feeling sick. <BR> <BR> But I won't let one bad day ruin my streak. I have been functioning on autopilot with this diet and havent seemed to mind at all. <BR> <BR> I may be eating super bland. All I eat is healthy meats and veggies. If it is green and clean, I eat it. <BR> <BR> If it is ... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 08:45:47 EST Dress Pics/Day 9 Diet Change <img src=""> <BR> Per some peeps request this is what a I look like in my white dress <BR> <BR> COMPARED TOO (but not really bc I am five foot nothing and curvy versus a waif model) <BR> <BR> What the mag said it would look like <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> My review of the dress is: <BR> 1) the top part rocks with the cross and built in shelf bra to help ... Fri, 7 Sep 2012 08:58:17 EST Day 7 Check In/Pics I am wrapping up a whole week being paleo low carb and feel great! I do feel a little bit more hungry than usual but also feel a lot more flat in the tummy. I havent really SEEN a difference, but I can feel it. <BR> <BR> Didn't fit in cardio yesterday due to work schedule. I was there from 8 am until 8 pm! I need to start doing the morning am thing again but it is soo hard to kick my butt out of bed! <BR> <BR> Suggestions please?! <BR> <BR> Here are some udpates for my motivation- going ... Wed, 5 Sep 2012 11:36:12 EST Diet Change Day 6/85 Fitness Minutes on Monday I have been following the doc diet change advice since about Thursday and feel great! I am a little bit more tired lately, but that should wear off after eating paleo/lowcarb for about a week. I do feel slimmer with no water weight going on, so that makes me feel better. <BR> <BR> As for the cardio, I ROCKED it yesterday. I worked out and it was amazing! <BR> <BR> Personal Warm Up for 10 minutes <BR> Turbo Jam Cardio Party for 45 minutes <BR> Turbo Jam Ab Jam for 20 minutes <BR> Tracy And... Tue, 4 Sep 2012 16:35:46 EST Doc Advice/Visit Finally met with my family doctor about my health and the fact that I eat extremely healthy but still manage to keep gaining weight and having other health issues. I have gained and lost the same 15 lbs in the past two years. The first year I wasn't as controlling of my diet. The second year, I finally felt like I got my eating under control. <BR> <BR> After meeting with her, however, she made it clear that with my health issues (insulin resistant) and also body type, etc., I have to start e... Thu, 30 Aug 2012 08:58:42 EST Still Learning It isn't about Perfect- But Picking yourself back up I am still learning. This is still a journey. I may be in a rut, but I am getting there. Forever moving forward, even after the steps I stumbled backward. This is an evolution and it takes time. I remind myself everyday. Stop the bad talk. Stop the self hate. Stop hurting the girl in the mirror. I have had my slip ups but also I have had great triumphant. <BR> <BR> So I may be in a rut, so what. <BR> <BR> Dig myself out. <BR> <BR> I wanted to share a few of the recipes I have tried out t... Tue, 14 Aug 2012 08:55:38 EST Bachelorette Party: Staying Healthy While Partying So my long time gal pal is having her bachelorette party this weekend! I feel like her wedding is coming up so fast. I wanted to look amazing but now I am realizing I can't make magic happen over night. I do flourish under pressure and deadlines when it comes to fitness but the push never hits until its like a month away. WHY? <BR> <BR> Never enough time to make a dent. <BR> <BR> BUT- back to the party this weekend. MY BFF and her sister are super sporty country gals who are built like bric... Fri, 3 Aug 2012 09:19:29 EST Smoothie and New Cardio Space So I have finally broken through my rut! FINALLY! <BR> Friday night I did TurboJam. <BR> REASON Being: I had a TON of anxious stress energy from work and needed to release the demons! <BR> I punched, kicked and jammed my sorrows away and it was awesome. <BR> <BR> THEN, my husband was inspired by my cardio and decided to join! We did P90X Ab Ripper together (which seemed to be a guy version of pilates to me, but who the heck knows!). <BR> <BR> Afterward I made an awesome happy healthy rec... Wed, 25 Jul 2012 16:51:18 EST Wake Up Call So I went to see my lady doc and this is how the convo went...... <BR> <BR> Doc: are you planning on having children anytime soon? <BR> <BR> Me: Absolutely not! I am waiting at least two years. <BR> <BR> Doc: Well that is a relief to hear because quite frankly you need to lose a bit of weight before you can even consider having a baby. <BR> <BR> ?!?!?!?!? <BR> wahhh Now I know the feeling. I didn't even indicate I wanted kids and got told I was too fat to have a child!WOW. <BR> <BR> Talk... Fri, 20 Jul 2012 08:31:13 EST Realizations and Vacay Pics <em>326</em> I have not done my booty call workouts <BR> <em>326</em> I have not worked out at all <BR> <em>326</em> I have done "okay" on eating...mediocore at best <BR> <em>326</em> I have barely made it by due to "stress" <BR> <em>326</em> I took a "staycation" at my grandparents cabin thinking it would be like a fitness retreat...but instead it made me realize how awful my eating habits have gotten again <BR> <em>326</em> If you don't keep it in check, it will get out of control ... Tue, 10 Jul 2012 10:56:03 EST Vacay Pics and Epiphanies <em>326</em> I have not done my booty call workouts <BR> <em>326</em> I have not worked out at all <BR> <em>326</em> I have done "okay" on eating...mediocore at best <BR> <em>326</em> I have barely made it by due to "stress" <BR> <em>326</em> I took a "staycation" at my grandparents cabin thinking it would be like a fitness retreat...but instead it made me realize how awful my eating habits have gotten again <BR> <em>326</em> If you don't keep it in check, it will get out of control ... Tue, 10 Jul 2012 10:44:23 EST Through the Fire and I came out Alive- now It is ME TIME I had great big stressful past three weeks at work and my body has been holding on to it now. I can feel it. I can feel the heavy and I hate it. <BR> <BR> BUT I have worked off my tail towards the ultimate goal. I found out I got the raise I have been working so hard towards! Now it is time to clean up me. <BR> <BR> I have to hit the reset button. <BR> <BR> I put in for vacation time and I cannot WAIT for it to happen. I just need to be myself and do some soul searching so on Tuesday night... Sun, 1 Jul 2012 12:29:15 EST