JEANSHEP2's SparkPeople Blog JEANSHEP2's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community A Misguided Journey Here I am again trying to get back to goal... <BR> <BR> I met my goal of 50 lbs and hurriedly regained 30 lbs. I have started this journey so many times, but not being a quitter, I am at it again! <BR> <BR> I am down 9 lbs since I have restarted, and hope to continue on to lose the remainder. <BR> <BR> I live alone and it is difficult to limit myself when eating is so easy to calm the nerves, but I am determined once again to win this battle. <BR> <BR> So here goes... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 13:10:20 EST 2013 Is Going to Be a Short Year???? Can August really be going so fast? Can we be over half way through 2013? <BR> <BR> My life seems to be whizzing by. My DGD turns 29 tomorrow, her brother will be 24 the next day and better than that, DGD's daughter, Sloan, is now 3 1/2 and it seems only yesterday she was sleeping and eating only. <BR> <BR> I did get back into some things I let go after DH passed away. I started watching Charles Stanley on TV and quit going to church. This year I found a church I enjoyed and felt at hom... Tue, 6 Aug 2013 11:53:25 EST Another Unntended Beginning To a New Journey... Since my retirement in 2009, I have vowed I would go to the Senior Center and join so I could make new friends. You know the tale of all good intentions and and where they went. <BR> <BR> Last week wth the whole-hearted support of all my lovely Spark friends, I got up on Monday mornng and went to the Senior Center and joined. There I met another group of caring and loving friends. I m so glad I went. And I shall now be going every Monday until my GGD, Sloan, who is 2 1/2 and newly potty-... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 11:03:45 EST Just Plain Tired of Starting Over! I am sick of this...and sick of me! Now I know better. I lost 50 lbs when I first joined Spark almost 5 years ago, and here I am with a weight gain for last year. I don't like myself. I have started so many ways to lose weight and it never "takes". <BR> <BR> Tired of gaining, tired of looking at my fat self in the mirror, tired of rearranging my many different sizes of clothes in my closet, and tired of letting my friends know I have no will power. <BR> <BR> Here's the big problem. I... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 10:20:54 EST Commited Again...? I have signed up for the Fall 5% Challenge which will be my second season with them...I really love this team and although I did not do very well last time around, I truly hope to do well this time. I have just not put my mind to it and that is what I plan on doing beginning October 6th! <BR> <BR> Encouragement welcome. <BR> <BR> Jean Sat, 29 Sep 2012 18:41:50 EST Doing a Virtual 5K... (See Update Below.) Last week, I started doing a Virtual Walk Your Way 5 K...I thought this might be a good way to get some much needed exercise and to challenge myself. I don't have a walking partner and being rather confined taking care of my 2 1/2 year old GGD, I decided this would have to do for now. <BR> <BR> I am now in my second week, and tomorrow I will walk 2 miles. I started out with 15 continuous minutes and find I can do more than I thought at 81 years old! This is a 5-week training for the 5K, w... Mon, 27 Aug 2012 11:50:57 EST What Next...? I have lived a long and learning road! I try never to be amazed at what comes at me from this deteriorating world! God made it so perfect and we have really screwed it up! <BR> <BR> He told us to ask and He will hear...thus prayer. Nothing wrong with that. I would rather believe and be wrong that to not believe and be wrong. <BR> <BR> I did not come from a Christian home sorry to say, but was always blessed with a feeling inside of me that brought me comfort. But for that I would be he... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 15:41:21 EST Not Too Impressed! After a few weeks of being 81, I am definitely not impressed. But make the best of it, I will. <BR> <BR> I have yet many things on my bucket list to accomplish. Losing weight has long been one of those desires. <BR> <BR> Since I don't go out much to eat, I must take all the blame if I do not eat to lose. Last week was a winner and not sure what this week will be, but I have been trying. One of my downfalls is baking or buying cookies for Sloan. Everytime I give her one, i eat two.... Sat, 11 Aug 2012 13:01:00 EST Never Quit Pledge <BR> Today, I promise I will not quit. <BR> <BR> I pledge that no matter, how many ups and downs I pass through, I will continue on my journey. <BR> <BR> I pledge to make a NEW START today, and forgive myself for my past, and to stop being so critical of myself. <BR> <BR> I pledge to take control of myself, to stop making excuses, and stop blaming other people or situations. <BR> <BR> I pledge to treat myself as I would my best friend, because that is who I am. <BR> <BR> I pledge t... Sat, 4 Aug 2012 20:41:22 EST Another Year So Soon!?! It is hard to believe that another year has past...I will be 81 tomorrow and Sloan is now 2 1/2. We have both had a tremendous year and as I grow older, I know how each year Sloan will be hoping to grow up too. <BR> <BR> Today, my family celebrated my 81st year and we had such a great day together. If the Lord wishes, I shall live to see my 82nd and give thanks for the time He has given me. Summer time is a great time to celebrate a birthday as you can get outside and cook on the grill w... Sun, 22 Jul 2012 19:36:37 EST Hard to be a Loser...Never a Quitter. Today I come not to boast about what I have done right...but to confess my shortcomings. I am not doing what I want to accomplish and the only way I know to keep going is to confess what I wish I could do. <BR> <BR> When I first lost all that 50 lbs. I was so happy and did not feel it was hard at all. Since that time, and since gaining back 30 lbs, I am finding that since the 'successful" time, I have been diagnosed with neuropathy of legs and feet and cannot do the STRENOUS exercise I did... Fri, 13 Jul 2012 18:04:17 EST Better Late Than Never???? I have not contributed a blog since April 2011. I did not realize it had been that long and while I was blogging, it seemed to help me stay on track. <BR> <BR> I have been consumed with my lovely Sloan, DGGD, who turned 2 this year. What a joy for an 80 year old woman who is still alive, healthy, and still able to enjoy those wonderful things such as a new little person in the family. <BR> <BR> But I digress....I have joined the Spirited Underdogs, 5% Summer this summer and am happy to be... Tue, 10 Jul 2012 00:04:37 EST Love at 80 <img src="">It has been some time since I offered a blog, but could not pass up the opportunity given me on this past Sunday. It was the first birthday of Sloan, my GGD. It was a perfect day, all present enjoyed themselves immensely, and we all had a blast. Good food, lots of cute decorations, and wonderful cake. There was a small one for Sloan and she sure devoured some ot it. <BR> <BR> Is it possible to find love at 80 - I will tur... Tue, 19 Apr 2011 22:15:47 EST My Blessings... It is with gratitude that I thank the Heavenly Father for all the blessings of 2010. <BR> <BR> My GGD was born on April 17th and she is such a joy! Because I watch her during the week, we have become very close and how I treasure that time we have together. <BR> <BR> I was diagnosed with many neuropathic conditions, ending with spinal stenosis. But I have learned to live with it and take my many meds to overcome the pain. <BR> <BR> My family all have steady jobs, and that in itself these... Fri, 29 Oct 2010 13:20:11 EST My Journey... In May 2008, I began my journey with Sparkpeople. All went well the first 17 months...I lost 50 lbs and reached my goal. I was able to keep the weight off from September 28 2009 to around Thanksgiving of that year! Not very long! <BR> <BR> Now, two years later, I am struggling to lose the 10 or so lbs I have gained back by not being diligent and true to the habits I have gained by being a Sparkpeople member. <BR> <BR> My motto at the beginning of this year...2010...was to be thin in 2010... Sat, 4 Sep 2010 15:42:43 EST Spinal what...? After months of being in pain, going for therapy, to the foot doctor, and buying special shoes, now my doctor believes I have spinal stenosis and I am scheduled for MRI on Monday. I really do hope this is going to give a genuine diagnosis. I have reached the place where I can hardly walk for the pain in my lower back and legs. <BR> <BR> I am extremely healthy for my age, and want "my life back" - I am so grateful to the Lord for my many years of good health. It is only late last year that... Tue, 3 Aug 2010 21:32:20 EST A Year in Review...(July 2009 to July 2010) I am grateful for the year since my last birthday that I have been allowed to experience another. My daughter, who had brain surgery in June of 2009, was given a clean bill of health this year. My DGD gave birth to my beautiful Sloan for whom there is much love and such happiness. I retired from my job and had a nice sendoff. I am blessed with a loving and caring family, and, in spite of the neuropathy that attacked my body in late November 2009, I am basicallly in good health and have b... Fri, 23 Jul 2010 23:05:57 EST Photos of requested by my friends. <img src=""> <img <BR> <BR> src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Sat, 3 Jul 2010 14:01:52 EST A rare gift from heaven...blessings galore. On Monday this week, my employers and coworkers took me out to lunch for my retirement celebration. it was such a lovely lunch, and they gifted me with 3/4 of my yearly bonus. This is something my boss gives at Christmas every year. And he has allowed me to remain on the payroll until the end of the month, which gives me two weeks of salary. <BR> <BR> I do not know what the future blessings from my Lord will contain, but I get up each day with excitement looking forward to whatever He see... Wed, 9 Jun 2010 01:11:01 EST A Wrinkled Soul... "Years wrinkle the skin, but to give up enthusiasm wrinkles the soul" <BR> -Samuel Ullamn <BR> <BR> This really gave me pause for thought. As I pondered over this quote, I realized that is exactly what I have done with my enthusiasm over weight loss. My soul is wrinkled. I had lost the zeal I began with and it caused me not to care, in fact, it made me rebellious to the fact that I just did not want to try and was really sabotaging my own body. <BR> <BR> Give this some thought...have yo... Mon, 24 May 2010 22:13:06 EST Giving It Another Go... On May 2, I had been with Sparkpeople 2 years. I have seen streaks that honor those with how many years they have been here, but it was not forthcoming for me. I would like to know how to get that on my streaks. <BR> <BR> On another note, it was disappointing for me to fall back from my goal and I was very ill with myself for allowing that to happen. Thankfully, I am back on track and doing quite well at getting motivated again. I have great Spark friends, and they have not criticized me... Sat, 22 May 2010 17:56:40 EST A Young New Mother... Mother's Day was a very special day for us. My DGD had her baby 3 weeks before Mother's Day, so it was a joyous occasion. I had a special luncheon for DD (new grandma) and DGD (new mommy). I made champayne cupcakes and they turned out so pretty. Used pink coloring and iced them with pink frosting with pink sugar sprinkles and edible pink beads. It was so much fun for me. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I look forward to many more ... Fri, 14 May 2010 22:23:03 EST Final Step - "Mind over Body" - by Dean Anderson - SP Expert <BR> <BR> <link><BR>s_articles.asp?id=699 </link> <BR> <BR> Due to the birth of my first GGD, I have failed to complete this series of Mind Over Body. <BR> <BR> This one is especially important for me as I have been lax recently in being careful with my food intake. I will read this daily to get back on track. I have truly realized how easy it is to fall back into old habits. Sparkpeople has been a lifesaver for me. I KNOW what to do...I only HA... Fri, 30 Apr 2010 10:50:16 EST Ad nauseam - More of our little angel... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Sloan Mylar Holland - born April 17, 2010 Mon, 19 Apr 2010 16:47:23 EST A little new life... My DGD had her sweet little Sloan yesterday, Saturday, April 17, 2010 at 6:20 p.m. She weighed in at 7.1 lbs and is 19 1/2 inches long. Has a little blonde hair. <BR> <BR> If life wasn't already worth living, God made it so much more with the entrance of this little princess. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sun, 18 Apr 2010 13:43:57 EST Step #9 - "MInd Over Body" by Dean Anderson - SP expert <link><BR>s_articles.asp?id=698 </link> <BR> <BR> Pave the Way to Persistence - <BR> <BR> It is important to reward successes, but not to punish yourself for failures. We should not beat ourselves up over laxes, but just learn from them and get back on track. One way I have found that works for me, and which I love, is finding someone else who is having trouble staying on track and encouraaging them. This helps me get back on track, for how can you ... Mon, 12 Apr 2010 15:17:12 EST Step #8 - <link><BR>s_articles.asp?id=697 </link> <BR> <BR> Give Yourself a Reallity Check-up. Make sure your own beliefs aren't getting in the way. <BR> <BR> Restricting calories causes chronic stress on brain and body. But we develop our own beliefs about what restricting calories and weight loss mean. Read the thoughts that Dean Anderson gives - 5 points he covers and answers for us. <BR> <BR> 5-Point Reality Checkup <BR> The following reality checkup can... Fri, 9 Apr 2010 22:38:46 EST Step 7 - "MInd Over Body" - by Dean Anderson - SP Expert <BR> <BR> <link><BR>s_articles.asp?id=696 </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> We are almost finished - stick with me. <BR> <BR> Plot Your Strategy - 6 Characteristics of Effective Goal-Setting <BR> <BR> 1. Challenging <BR> 2. Attainable <BR> 3. Specific <BR> 4. Time-limited <BR> 5. Positive <BR> 6. Flexible <BR> <BR> Read each of these and Plot Your Strategy - remember that meeting your goals is 90% attitude. <BR> <BR> I love sharing these important truths w... Tue, 6 Apr 2010 11:30:13 EST Step 6 - "Mind Over Body" - by Dean Anderson - SP Expert <link><BR>s_articles.asp?id=695&page=5 </link> <BR> <BR> Write your vision statement for weight loss. <BR> <BR> This one is rather long, but worth every minute. A good exercise in what we are really looking for in losing weight. <BR> <BR> Take the extra time to write your vision statement and then go to work on it. <BR> <BR> <em>306</em> Sun, 4 Apr 2010 21:28:57 EST Step 5 - "Mind Over Body" by Dean Anderson - SP expert <link><BR>s_articles.asp?id=694 </link> <BR> <BR> This step involves being your own best motivator and involves a short quiz. Very thoughtful and interesting. Go to the link provided and take this little quiz. I failed all 5 questions, but learned so much about how to be motivated. <BR> <BR> I hope you are learning as much from these articles as I am - we are half way through the 10 steps. <BR> <BR> Stay tuned! Sat, 3 Apr 2010 11:42:57 EST Step 4 - "Mind Over Body" - Dean Anderson - SP Expert <link><BR>s_articles.asp?id=693 </link> <BR> <BR> The above is the link to this step. You can also reach the rest of this great article with it. <BR> <BR> Step 4 is one I really need to practice - I am an Emotional Eater and need to Tame the Beast before it trashes my food plan. Mindless eating has been my worst enemy. I have fought it a long time and it suddenly reared it's ugly head when I began to have the neuropathy pain. Seemed all that was le... Fri, 2 Apr 2010 14:48:31 EST Step 3 - "Mind Over Body" from Dean Anderson SP expert. Healthy guilt vs. Toxic guilt <BR> <BR> Healthy guilt is the kind you have before you do something, or your conscience. Ways to hear that "wee voice" is to listen for it; postpone a decision for a while. I know for me, I hear the 'voice" telling me I don' t need that piece of chocolate or cookie, but then I go ahead and have it anyway! That is when the "toxic" guilt kicks in. <BR> <BR> Toxic guilt is hearing that "voice" after you have made a bad decision and acted on it. Too late to co... Thu, 1 Apr 2010 23:30:12 EST Step 2 - Mind Over Body... Your body is not a calculator or checking account. It is not your judge, jury or executioner. We should use it as a tool to better health. <BR> <BR> It is not a lower number that makes weight loss worth all the hard work, but rather the increased happiness and other benefits that come with doing the best you can to eat healthy and feel good albout yourself. <BR> <BR> (This is from the article by Dean Anderson called, "Mind over Body" - 2nd of 10 steps.) <BR> <BR> I know this is true. ... Wed, 31 Mar 2010 14:31:44 EST Step 1... The "I " factor is step one in the 10 steps to achieving healthy lifestyle. <BR> <BR> To recognize that "I chose to..." is a step foward in a healthier lifestyle. I learned that first hand <BR> yesterday. As I was dealing with a clerk in a retail store, she was so rude and detached from her job that it angered me. I took a deep breath and realized I could chose to let it take over or I could chose to try to make her day better. I chose the latter and by her actions, she was grateful. <B... Tue, 30 Mar 2010 19:58:53 EST Putting Fire in My Desire... I have been searching for the right path for several days, and I believe I found one that will lead me to a better way. <BR> <BR> I was reading my articles for the day and came across a series of articles by Dean Anderson here on Sparkpeople under the Wellness category. It is a 10-step program to achieve a healthy lifestyle and overcome emotional eating. <BR> <BR> I will take my time and absorb what I read so that it makes sense and will bring me success. <BR> <BR> I found out that measur... Mon, 29 Mar 2010 02:16:52 EST Humbled...and so grateful! In order not to miss anyone of the lovely Sparkpeople who responded to my plea for help in my last blog, I will try to do them justice by this blog. I have tried to respond to each of you individually, but if I missed you, please accept my apology and receive this as a "love letter" to you. <BR> <BR> I got so much good information and useful advice. And I give you my deepest heartfelt thanks for the time you each took to enlighten me. After two years of hard work and dedication to a healt... Sun, 28 Mar 2010 14:04:43 EST Oops, oops, and oops! It has not been a good day, week or month for me. Not emotionally, but physically. Well, I guess if I think about it a little, emotions did play a big part. Isn't emotional eating a problem? <BR> <BR> I have totally lost control and it isn't a pretty picture. My motivation is gone, my desire to be healthy not as fresh as it once was and my "caring" senses are dulled. <BR> <BR> Over snacking, eating tons of "comfort" food and dragging my backside on the exercises are going to be my undoi... Fri, 26 Mar 2010 22:22:01 EST A very Worthy Leader... One of my teams has the greatest leader... <BR> <BR> Her objective is always for the best interest of her team mates. She comes up with the most innovative challenges: "Draining the Barrel" to help us keep track of our water intake; for helping us eat all of our fruits and vegetables; to count the hours of sleep we get each night; to help us set personal goals; and so many other helpful challenges - all fresh and new. <BR> <BR> She blogs regularly about things that will help us; she send... Mon, 22 Mar 2010 02:37:36 EST Nursery photos for my friends... These photos may not be as good as I would wish...Little bench I found at an antique shop. Theme for nursery is vintage toys, etc. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <img src="">This is not get all the blocks - it spells baby's name - Sloan Holland. <BR> <BR> <img src="">This is a centipede with the alphabet on one side and numbers on the ot... Mon, 15 Mar 2010 01:37:54 EST The Fourth Generation... Today I attended my DGD's baby shower. When this little girl is born, we will be four living generations. Our family is so excited about this little new person! And I am ooking forward to being a GGM. <BR> <BR> A while back, I posted about the theme my DGD is using for the nursery - vintage toys, photos, etc. I now have some pictures of the nursery and the cake, etc. at the shower. <BR> Now, if only they will show up here when I try to add them... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.s... Sun, 14 Mar 2010 00:17:01 EST Happy old memories...beautiful new ones! My lovely granddaughter, who will be 26 in August, is expecting her first baby in April. She is an individual who likes to be unique, so it did not surprise me when she decided to use vintage children's toys, photos and books as her theme for the baby's nursery. It was much easier to find these things than I imagined. <BR> <BR> I found a child's wooden bench, nicely sanded so no splinters! The back of the bench is nice and tall and has Raggedy Ann and Raggedy Andy painted on it! I also f... Thu, 4 Mar 2010 14:00:12 EST The Mystery of the W-h-e-e-l... Have you ever noticed how inconsistent the wheel is? I have so many questions about that wheel. <BR> <BR> I got 5 on it today, but that is just so unusual for me to get a number that high! Many times, the thing will spin like crazy, slow till it almost stops, and then flick onto a few numbers down the way! <BR> <BR> Other times, it will spin slowly until it gets to where I would love for it to stop, and immediately flip to the next number - always a low number, by the way! <BR> <BR> Ofte... Wed, 3 Mar 2010 12:27:33 EST Too many Sparkpoints early in the month...??? On May 2, 2010, I will have been an active member of Sparkpeople. I say active because I was a member for two years before I even made a SparkPage or got involved. During all of that time, I have been tracking food and exercise and gathering Sparkpoints for reading articles, taking polls, drinking know what I mean. <BR> <BR> When I first became active, I found that if I went to the main page of any team I was on, and clicked on "Team Leaders" I could see who had done well gath... Tue, 2 Mar 2010 01:18:13 EST Love, Laughter and Lunch... The birthday lunch went so well ~ the food was excellent, and the "kids" enjoyed themselves. They adore their mother, and it was special for them to celebrate her day. <BR> <BR> I had grilled salmon with dill sauce on the side, baked potato without the delicious cinnamon butter(!) and steamed vegetables. They serve a "bottomless" salad that is mixed at the table. And of course hot sour dough rolls with more cinnamon butter which I declined. I enjoyed the salad before my dinner though. <B... Mon, 1 Mar 2010 00:19:39 EST A very Special Gift... 48 years ago today, the most precious gift any woman can receive was given to dear daughter, Lorraine, was born. She was born on the Naval base in Guantanamo Bay, Cuba. Her father was stationed there during the Cuban crisis. She was sent to me from heaven, and I cherish this wonderful gift. <BR> <BR> She was 10 months old, and I was pregnant with her sister (who is 11 months younger and also a precious gift of the Lord) when we were evacuated from Gitmo. It was an experience I wi... Sun, 28 Feb 2010 01:50:58 EST Two Things I Wish Would Go Away... February and this headache I have had for two days! <BR> <BR> That's it! Sat, 27 Feb 2010 14:15:42 EST My meltdown... Yesterday was a day of "I Don't Care" emotions. I got up to the same miserable pain...the prospects of another day of calorie-counting and exercising and planning another day's meals...and I just couldn't do it! So I spent the day having a "pity party". It was not a fun event! <BR> <BR> And what moved me out of it was the caring hearts of my friends here. It made me ashamed to be so weak and out of control of my own emotions. By the end of the day, I was feeling much better and dislikin... Tue, 23 Feb 2010 22:17:54 EST My "I Don't Care" wipeout day... When I awoke yesterday morning, it was like any other day of my life. it started out fairly well, although these days it takes a little moving around to get past the pain. By lunch time, I had just had it! I was suddenly tired of watching every thing I ate; tired of watching out for "no-no" calories; tired of planning healthy meals; tired of passing the pain off and trusting that "tomorrow it will be better"... I was just plain tired. <BR> <BR> I try not to go out to eat so I won't get c... Tue, 23 Feb 2010 21:58:58 EST Flowers, Picnics and Birds Singing... I think each day of the wonders of Spring! I am a person who loves the renewal of the things around me and am thrilled that I can know from that we are destined to be renewed ourselves one day. <BR> <BR> The snow yesterday was another day of bleak and dreary coldness, but today that same snow is glistening and shining with the sun upon it, and it will soon be nothing more than water for the earth. Although the earth is going to be soggy for a spell! Diamonds never shone as beautifully as ... Sat, 13 Feb 2010 15:34:17 EST What time is it... I went to bed late and thought for sure I would have a hard time getting up this morning. I slept well and did not get up during the night... if you don't count getting up an hour early before the clock went off!! <BR> <BR> Not sure why, but did not realize it until I was already moving around with coffee brewing, etc. <BR> I will pay for this mistake during my day at work, and I am grateful that this is Friday and I can rest in the morning. <BR> <BR> It may be that getting up early is not... Fri, 12 Feb 2010 06:34:05 EST