JANNIEWANNIE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JANNIEWANNIE JANNIEWANNIE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Fresh Start http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735300 <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1997795974.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It has been such a long time since I blogged. I am focusing on this 24 hours to make it the best that I can. Won't you join me? Hugs from J Wed, 9 Jul 2014 11:28:13 EST Soul Print Blessings 12.29.2011 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4643240 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/9/l890690458.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/6/l460019226.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Thanks to all who shared on these pages and thereby blessed me with soul prints for today. Hugs from Janet in central Illinois. <BR> <BR> Thu, 29 Dec 2011 12:07:41 EST Courage from the Black Hole http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4621165 I am feeling so empty today, like my soul is missing. I go through the motions of life but feel nothing. I am emotionally struggling with accepting some responsibility for my state of existence, but that means tracking again and trying to improve my health. Am I courageous enough to crawl out of this black hole and live once again? <BR> I have taken a few steps in the right direction: I tracked all the food I ate for breakfast and I wrote this blog. <BR> It is the best I can do in this fram... Sun, 11 Dec 2011 10:16:41 EST Blueberry Lovin' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4510116 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/4/l640012003.jpg"> <BR> <BR> What a great way to have a nutritional day! Thu, 29 Sep 2011 10:44:05 EST A Day for Serenity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3945915 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l652408754.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Wishing you a peaceful night's sleep and a tranquil tomorrow. Hugs from J in frigid central Illinois. Thu, 20 Jan 2011 23:05:21 EST Collage of the Day: Extracting that Sweet Tooth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3927469 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/8/l383444431.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My sweet tooth has been acting up lately. It needs to go. Thanks for stopping by and hugs from J in central Illinois. Sat, 15 Jan 2011 12:41:32 EST Collage of the Day: Jan. 14, 2011 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3925825 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/2/l920320401.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I still haven't learned how to love myself consistently. I am still a work in progress. Hugs from J in central Illinois and thank you for stopping by. Fri, 14 Jan 2011 20:04:10 EST Crossing Paths http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3809702 I had errands to run yesterday morning. Instead of taking an apple with me, I decided to get "food" at the gas station to keep me company on my travels. I pulled up near the door and saw "Beth" coming out with a bag of chips to keep her company. "Beth" had gastric bypass surgery several years ago. She lost all her weight, but unfortunately for me, I never got to see her at her goal weight. I had heard that she had regained her weight, and sadly, I saw that it was true. You would think ... Sun, 28 Nov 2010 10:37:16 EST Balancing My Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3398191 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l118309348.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Thank you for stopping by. Hugs from Janet in hot and sunny central Illinois. Sun, 4 Jul 2010 14:30:22 EST A Healthy Growing Old Collage http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3395677 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/7/l477974229.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I am creating a healthy day today. Hugs from Janet Sat, 3 Jul 2010 14:03:14 EST Reality Check http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3377893 My eating has been out of control and my activity level nearly non-existent. <BR> It is like I am trying to prove that I can still get by just doing whatever I want. Reality Check: it is NOT working for me. If I want a healthier, longer life, I have to MAKE IT HAPPEN. I will live today like it really matters because it does. I will Do IT for myself. Mon, 28 Jun 2010 08:42:15 EST Seeking Sunshine for my Gloomy Attitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2981629 This morning I am very disappointed in myself. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/1/l913765202.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The scale is creeping up and I have been unwilling to buckle down and do something about it. How long am I going to let this stubbornness rule my life? It doesn't help that it is gloomy outside and my neck and shoulders ache from rheumatism. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/7/l274681403.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photo... Wed, 10 Mar 2010 09:21:08 EST 115 Days of Imperfect Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2875319 I woke up this morning and decided I wanted freedom from tracking. I ate what I wanted when I wanted it; but tonight I feel bloated and stuffed. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/5/4/b545769022.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I talked to my 'chosen sister', Pat, and she said to track it anyway and face the music. So I did. This is day #115 of tracking and I am not willing to give up my ongoing streak. And I am not willing to give back my progress either. <BR> <BR> <img src="htt... Fri, 12 Feb 2010 19:37:32 EST Me and My Mouth Mania http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2869103 I am not real alert yet this morning. I noticed after the fact that the date today is not the 12th, but the message is the same. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/4/7/b479179673.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have not been focusing on shorter term goals, so I am going to change my tracker to reflect the next milestome I want to pass: into the teens by St. Patrick's Day. I can do that! <BR> <BR> Thank you for stopping by. Hugs from J in sunny but very chilly central Illinois. Thu, 11 Feb 2010 09:15:09 EST Too Focused to Care http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2847559 <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/8/5/b850197093.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I chose to eat too much salty food yesterday and the scale is up about 2# because of it. I accept that; but what happened? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/6/8/b683738979.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I woke up yesterday morning with the willingness to work on a business project that I have been procrastinating about, so I went into "all or nothing" mode, determined to finish it in one day. There re... Sat, 6 Feb 2010 08:12:03 EST STICK TO YOUR PRINCIPLES http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2822130 I was writing a blog last night when my computer locked up. The following is a shortened version of my weekend. <BR> <BR> Sat. morning. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/5/1/b511604597.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I started to turn the wrong way down a one-way street and almost caused an accident. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/3/0/b301582645.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Had words with my husband about his GPS after he made an "insulting" comment about me being inferi... Sun, 31 Jan 2010 19:43:25 EST MILEAGE PER CHILI CARB? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2815217 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/8/9/b893501532.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/7/5/b756965901.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I realized I was making errors entering my fitness goals. I only track steps, but my pedometer has mileage too. When I put that in, I got credit for all kinds of fitness minutes that were not specific fitness times. I went back and deleted the false readings. From now on I will track the mileage as a note on my steps tracker. I am sorry f... Fri, 29 Jan 2010 22:58:45 EST SHINING AND DINING http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2811330 <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/4/1/b415962516.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> As big an accomplishment as 100 days of consistent tracking is, I am more satisfied with making it 3 days of planning my food before eating it. Yeah! I had my first challenge today with lunch out with family at a new restaurant. Before I left, I added lots of choices to my lunch tracker just to see how the nutrition would pan out if I had beef, chicken or a chef salad. When we got to the restaurant, ... Thu, 28 Jan 2010 22:59:44 EST SLOW TO BELIEVE I AM WORTH IT. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2806764 <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/8/1/b813911696.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Have you noticed a change in your Spark nutrition goals? My daily calorie range dropped significantly yesterday, as did all the other elements that are being tracked. I don't think I did anything to cause that to happen. I was just wondering if it happened to anyone else. <BR> <BR> This was Day #2 of tracking my meals before eating them. It went very well. I am a little worried about tomorrow because... Wed, 27 Jan 2010 22:29:04 EST DAY #1 TRACK BEFORE CONSUMING http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2802009 Today I took OLDMOM3's advice and planned my meals before eating them today. It was wonderful. I wanted to keep my carbs at 60 per eating session, which I did. By figuring it all out ahead of time, I was able to eat what I wanted and just tweaked the quantity to make the carbs add up to 60, I was impressed with how well it worked. Try it sometime. I made it through Day #1 . Hugs from Janet in Illinois and thank you for stopping by. Tue, 26 Jan 2010 22:31:24 EST UPGRADING MY COMMITMENT http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2793149 <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/2/7/b279747320.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It is Day #97 of my commitment to record everything I have consumed. Yeah! That is a milestone in itself. However, my commitment has lost it's healthy punch. The focus overtime dwindled from healthy food 80% of the time to eat whatever you want as long as you write it down. I am taking the next 3 days to redefine my commitment. <BR> <BR> I would appreciate anyone sharing their experiences in this area. ... Mon, 25 Jan 2010 09:19:37 EST CONTENT LIVING IT NOW http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2772265 <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/2/7/b270881964.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It has been about three weeks since my last blog. Is this a confessional or what? In a way, I guess it is. I have had more healthy days than unhealthy ones, so I am pleased with my progress. I am letting go of the "all-or-nothing" attitude that has plagued me most of my life. I used to try to define "enough" when I was going to therapy years ago. I couldn't define it then, but I seem to be content ... Wed, 20 Jan 2010 12:53:52 EST 6 PT URGE AVERTED http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2671245 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/9/5/b958431487.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Combine these savings with bypassing movie popcorn and sacrificing the shell of my taco salad, I saved my body a lot of grief yesterday. It is important to celebrate every victory along the road to success. Have you figured out a way to celebrate your daily successes? Thank you so much for stopping by and many blessings to you in the coming New Year! Hugs from Janet in central Illinois. Thu, 31 Dec 2009 09:22:59 EST TO BE HEALTHY AGAIN IN 2010 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2667849 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/8/1/b815151472.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I am willing to work on losing one pound per week in 2010. How about you? <BR> <BR> Wed, 30 Dec 2009 09:57:55 EST THE TRUTH BEHIND MY CRAVINGS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2626165 Days #50 and #51 have been horrible for me. I was abusing my mind and body with Snickers minis and Butterfinger fun-size bars. I was throwing all my success down the drain. I woke up in the middle of the night with a little bit of understanding. Things were going so well, my psyche had to create an abuser-victim scenario. My original abuser has been dead for many years; but the surrogate abuser who took his place is alive and well living within my mind. It is known now as self-sabotage. I ... Fri, 11 Dec 2009 05:18:56 EST MY BEST THANKSGIVING DAY EVER http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2591087 This is day # 37 of being accountable to myself for my actions around food. And it was a major food holiday. I have been preparing for this day for the past few weeks by banking my weekly WW bonus points and paring back a little some days to save a few more points. I had 181 points banked. I approached the day with the attitude to have what I wanted to enjoy the feast, but to practice some moderation. I used my daily points for the day plus 54 more and I was not stuffed, but definitely s... Thu, 26 Nov 2009 23:30:59 EST Progress Not Perfection http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2578227 <BR> FR 11/20/09 CRAVING CONTROL By 700pm I was wanting to munch. I started with a mini-bag of popcorn, then pretzels, some chocolates, then ice cream. I weighed and measured each thing and ate it slowly. I had banked points to cover it. <BR> SA 11/21/09 CRAVING CONTROL Reflecting on last night, I think I needed more water or weak tea for one thing. I have been relying too heavily on diet soda and crystal light. I have also not been cooking meat and vegetables, but have been eating WW pizz... Sat, 21 Nov 2009 06:50:04 EST MY THOUGHTS IN PRINT http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2467660 The only thing that stands between you and what you want from life is simply the will to pursue it and the faith to believe it is possible. AUTHOR UNKNOWN but GREATLY APPRECIATED <BR> <BR> The real problem with me is I just don't know what I really want from life. I won't have the will or the faith if I can't even verbalize what it is I want. I am retired now and have the time to pursue anything. I spend my days creating journals on all sorts of topics. I also love to go garage saling and s... Sat, 10 Oct 2009 09:27:05 EST UNWILLING TO BE WILLING http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2444418 I have to be honest with myself and someone else; so if you are reading this, thank you for being that someone else. I do not want to weigh and measure my food. I do not want to use the nutrition tracker. I do not want to cut back on my crutch of eating. I do not want to start exercising on a regular basis. What hope is there for me ever accomplishing my goals? I am willing to sit at my computer and read about other people's success. I am willing to try and get in 3 milk servings a day and 5 ... Thu, 1 Oct 2009 13:56:53 EST THE ULTIMATE PARENTAL LOSS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2385755 Someone in my extended family has committed suicide. He never got over his injuries and mental traumas from serving in the Iraq war. His vehicle was hit by a roadside bomb and his two buddies were killed instantly. He felt so guilty about having survived. His parents are so devastated. He must have been braver than me, because I am in no hurry to enter the "dark unknown" of death no matter how strong my faith is. But what can help console his parents? Wed, 9 Sep 2009 12:42:48 EST A GIFT SENT FROM HEAVEN http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2368640 <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/2/6/b267280295.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Our mom, whose nickname was "Cookie", was a talented artist and seamstress. She passed away from cancer in September 1974. My sister, Debby, is now facing a cancer battle of her own. It is a stressful time for us, but some comfort came today in the form of a quilt sent from heaven. <BR> <BR> About a month ago I saw a baby quilt at a garage sale for 50 cents. It looked like new, so even though we ar... Wed, 2 Sep 2009 17:59:11 EST OH THOSE DEMANDING EMOTIONS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2367417 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/9/2/b920216867.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I was thumbing through my journal this morning when I ran across this entry. <BR> <BR> I could eat cause I’m happy; I could eat cause I’m sad. <BR> I could eat cause I’m bored; I could eat cause I’m mad. <BR> But now I am a walker, knitter, reader, writer or even crier. <BR> For I have discarded my demand for an edible pacifier! (JLS 03/30/09) <BR> <BR> I plan to get through today without an edible pacifier... Wed, 2 Sep 2009 10:25:34 EST HAVE YOU BEEN GRAZING LATELY? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2365785 It has been awhile since my last blog. My attitude and commitment to healthy living has been suffering lately and I felt like I really had nothing worthwhile to share. I finally decided that admitting the truth in a public forum might shake me to my senses. My perfectionist defect tries to get me to hide in shame. <BR> <BR> I have been back to some old grazing habits I think because of fear. So much is going on right now that I have no control over and I am afraid of facing the unknown f... Tue, 1 Sep 2009 19:39:29 EST SPIRITUAL BEINGS JOURNEYING TOGETHER ON MONDAY 08/24/2009 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2341537 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/3/1/b314582536.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/9/7/b972480420.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/8/8/b88277252.jpg"> <BR> <BR> You should always part company with loving words. It may be the last time you are together. Jan Seg <BR> We worry about what a child will be tomorrow, yet we forget that he is someone today. Stacia Tauscher <BR> Confidence is not something that comes to just a luc... Mon, 24 Aug 2009 11:22:10 EST HAVE YOU HEARD ANY ECHOES FROM HEAVEN LATELY? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2338654 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/4/0/b405324340.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> I love the soothing sounds of wind chimes. I am grateful to the inventor who not only realized a breeze could produce a melody, but also followed through and created an instrument to receive the tunes. <BR> <BR> One of my wind chimes is particularly special. I discovered this heart-shaped chime with a cameo in the center at a gift shop that was going out of business in Hackensack, Minnesota. I didn’t kn... Sun, 23 Aug 2009 10:35:27 EST Are you convinced? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2337675 I don’t know when or why I started believing that being me was bad. God created me to participate in life and contribute my unique talents for the benefit of all. Being me is wonderful! Now all I have to do is convince myself that it is true. <BR> <BR> What needs convincing in you? <BR> <BR> Take care of you and your health, Janet Sat, 22 Aug 2009 21:25:34 EST SOMETIMES GIVING BIRTH TO A BLOG TAKES A LONG TIME. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2335891 I started this blog two days ago, but the "laboring" was interrupted when I got my sister's poor health news. Focusing on my health issues faded into the background until my fears for her were faced and a small amount of reluctant acceptance settled in. <BR> <BR> Birthing a healthier lifestyle sometimes gets interrupted too. It seems like so many fears come to the surface and must be faced. Enduring pain without our old crutches can be very scary; but if we practice new behavior patter... Sat, 22 Aug 2009 00:43:35 EST IF I HAD A BAG OF COOKIES RIGHT NOW... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2324567 Why didn't I get a bag of cookies last time I went to the store? A treat now and then would not be a problem. Well that may be true; but if those cookies were here right now I would be eating them all. Now what is really going on here? <BR> <BR> My Monday went like this: doctor appointment>lunch with friends>tired, but no nap>logged into Spark when we got home>added large portion of ice cream for dessert after supper>sucking on candy through the evening>munching on popcorn>feeling the nee... Tue, 18 Aug 2009 00:11:25 EST BUTTERED POPCORN http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2318636 Last night I was searching for comfort so I filled my Revere Ware stockpot half-full of air-popped popcorn. Usually I am satisfied with a bowl of popcorn seasoned with butter-flavored spray, but last night I just had to have butter on my popcorn. As I was eating it, I wondered if I was losing some of my resolve and regressing into old bad habits. I started to beat myself up with a few self-scolding thoughts, but I decided I wanted it bad enough to accept the consequences of the additional ... Sat, 15 Aug 2009 21:24:03 EST ARE YOU SEARCHING FOR A COURTESY TROLLEY AS YOU TRAVEL THE CORRIDORS OF LIFE? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2315346 <BR> <BR> What was supposed to be a biopsy taken in the doctor’s office yesterday turned into a trip to the hospital last night when my sister had to have an emergency D & C. After I parked my car, I entered the long corridor connecting the parking deck to the hospital. Usually I just wait for the courtesy trolley, but for some reason last night I decided to travel on foot. The walk itself did me good. I was huffing a little, but I made it and was breathing a little deeper for my effo... Fri, 14 Aug 2009 11:53:21 EST