JANK52's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JANK52 JANK52's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5798525 As I listen to the news these days I wonder what the future has in store for everyone. So many things are out of ones control and living each day to its fullest is a goal we all should have. I had arranged a day yesterday to connect w/sis and 2 cousins for the 1st time in years. I can't believe what a wonderful time just sitting & chatting over a healthy lunch and a stroll down memory lane could relax & make everyone so happy. Everyone contacted me after our visit saying, "Thank you, for such... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 07:38:55 EST Family Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5797862 On vacation for 10 days and planned a day with sis & 2 cousins today (that keep telling me that we should get together more often) so a day & a plan came into action by me. It is funny how we all get wrapped in our own worlds and don't connect. I'm so looking forward to our chat & visit. My 10,000 steps a day is becoming a streak and something I am looking forward to daily. I now need to get more focus on planning meals. I find it really hard to plan, as my plans change so much. Habits change... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 06:58:41 EST Another Birthday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5797226 As I go through today feeling pretty much the same as I did when I turned 30 or so, only with more chronic pain that will not go away and is accepted by me as a new way of life. Doctor visits are interesting in the way that all that seems to be wrong with me, "is an age thing". Why? I truly don't feel any different other than the pain & tire out earlier. lol I feel my body needs to move to control pain (at least for a little while) Life sure is what you make it in the long run. Cheers to a ne... Mon, 13 Oct 2014 06:06:40 EST Moving On Day by Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5796926 This past week has been an eye opener for me. Starting with Monday morning an severe back pain that made me walk for 20 mins before work to the 15 min, 30 min walks that I started each day. I found out that putting 10 mins into my walking app had me going longer. Setting a Goal for 10,000 steps a day has me finishing today's steps day #5 and I know that it feels good, no matter how slow I go. My next thought is as a CVS employee taking advantage of the Employee Weight Loss Program available t... Sun, 12 Oct 2014 16:14:22 EST Can Do It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5796358 I started back walking daily with chronic pain (knee & back). It makes such a difference in my mood when I move. I am thrilled that I took time to walk today for 33 minutes in the rain. Feeling really tired today & looking forward to a nap soon. lol Shooting for 10,000 steps a day & going to be happy with that. (at least for awhile) Today will be day #4....keep your fingers crossed that I do Sat, 11 Oct 2014 13:25:03 EST Roller Coaster http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5795635 Life is a roller coaster....it has it's ups & downs...we learn things as we go and stumble from time to time....Life is not easy, but it is ourselves that make it what it is....when we look at the big picture....We know where we went wrong...we start again & again and find new habits form...changes made and a brighter tomorrow....Thinking Positive is a wonderful thing Fri, 10 Oct 2014 06:11:17 EST Got To Walk EARLY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5770393 I lost control again..... <BR> I know where I went wrong.... <BR> I know I can do this..... <BR> I've done this before..... <BR> It helps to have friends..... <BR> I just need to stay in control.... <BR> I've got to stop saying..... <BR> I'LL DO IT TOMORROW <BR> Today is a NEW START.... <BR> I know this feeling well..... <BR> A MORNING WALK <BR> Is my way to go..... <BR> <BR> Sun, 31 Aug 2014 10:20:31 EST Lost Again.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736469 I got sided tracked again with the job which happens more often than I would like. Trying to stay ahead on so few hours & so tired. Hot weather has been and issue lately. Only good thing is I have been staying @ the same weight and have kept some good habits going on a daily bases. I've slack off on exercise & more ME TIME that I should get back too. My body hurts all the time and I am at the point that I hate the fact that age is the reason. I have got to keep moving and I know it. Just wish... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 05:49:12 EST Lost Again.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736468 I got sided tracked again with the job which happens more often than I would like. Trying to stay ahead on so few hours & so tired. Hot weather has been and issue lately. Only good thing is I have been staying @ the same weight and have kept some good habits going on a daily bases. I've slack off on exercise & more ME TIME that I should get back too. My body hurts all the time and I am at the point that I hate the fact that age is the reason. I have got to keep moving and I know it. Just wish... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 05:49:09 EST Pain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5713970 I find there are NO pain free days anymore in my life. With chronic conditions that seem to appear with age (if you are lucky) become a daily thing & you tend or at least I tend to listen more to my body & adapt daily. I have found that walking 1st thing in the morning is what I need to do in order to become pain tolerable. I'm trying now to figure out how to open jars with my hands without pain and it doesn't seem to be happening. Knee pain is the worse....then back pain comes in second. Tou... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 08:24:36 EST Not Easy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5711929 I'm not consistent with my healthy lifestyle. I fall off track often, as I put work ahead of ME and tire out by the end of the day. I can't seem to learn how to balance my time consistently to accomplish what I should/would/need to do to make my life what it should be. Q: what should my life be? I feel happy most of the time. I feel like I accomplish things at work. I listen to my chronic pain at the end of each day. What is there in life that one really wants? I know that starting my day wit... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 08:48:53 EST Learning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5696339 I'm learning more about myself and my body everyday. I find that I feel different everyday which is a good thing. I have kept the weight off that I've lost since I have been connecting to SP and feel much better than I did when I was 182.6 lbs in 2007. That was my turning point in life. I'm still the weigh I was in 2009 156.4 lbs today and know losing more weigh would benefit my knee pain. (Dr suggest weigh loss) I can't complain too much and I tell myself I am a work in progress. I've learne... Fri, 16 May 2014 11:09:04 EST It Will Get Better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694622 I find myself not staying consistent with the things I should be doing. I also, have not really gained or lost weigh lately & still fit in my skinny jeans :-) I have found that I have made habits on this journey and feel good about them. I've known for a long time that I am not perfect and accept life for what it is. I do feel good about my life more than I did in the past and that in itself helps me get through the bumps along the way. I do need to plan ahead, but know that changes are alway... Wed, 14 May 2014 05:56:43 EST Here I Go Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5693094 It's going to be a long stressful day and I can feel the stress starting as I get up this morning. I take deep breathes and exhale trying to think of ways to stay calm. I will (plan) to get as many steps in as I can as I push through the task I am about to do. I tell myself daily that I am only 1 person and I am NOT perfect. And my plan changes as I type NOW (Aaaaahhhhhhhh!) Why do these curve balls keep coming my way. I do/will adjust and survive for that is the way life goes. I will make my... Mon, 12 May 2014 06:32:37 EST Morher's Day 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5692605 Started my day as always, dealing w/GF's Mom, oatmeal breakfast & thinking if I don't walk NOW I will not walk. I asked hubby, if he wanted to join me in a walk (as my issue is lack of support or being pushed by others) it was an awesome walk and as always felt good being outside and actually chatting a bit with hubby. Today's plan is to meet sis & Ma at the 99 Restaurant @ 2pm and then hubby cut the lawn before dark. Hubby is interested in the new chicken pot pie on the menu I haven't decide... Sun, 11 May 2014 12:05:47 EST Out of Control http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5691036 I can't do this anymore....I get started on the right track packing heathy breakfast/lunches & by dinner time I am out of control. Work gets overwhelming with time restrictions when I really need more time to accomplish things & my I don't care attitude doesn't help either. I feel like it is an endless circle of getting NO WHERE. I would rather sit and knit than move and when I do the knee pain is horrible. I can't seem to focus on anything continuously that will keep me active. I 'm trying t... Fri, 9 May 2014 06:00:12 EST So Alone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5689603 As I try to figure out what is wrong with me I keep coming back to WORK....my job has taken over my life again and I let it....I am angry with who I am today. I get so into my job I don't make time for ME. I make up excuses to not do my daily walk, even for 10 mins. I get so off track yet see that I continue to enjoy my oatmeal breakfast daily (good thing) I make healthy lunches most days (good thing) I drink lots of water throughout the day (good thing), but I can't seem to get back on track... Wed, 7 May 2014 09:10:09 EST Off Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5687724 I keep putting things off again that I know I should be doing for myself. I have the "There is always tomorrow" attitude that isn't wise for me to do. I am stuck at a weight that has been my weigh for months now (stuck I am) I need to change this way of thinking and push myself more. I'm having trouble sticking to what I should be sticking to. Feeling so alone and lost lately. I know I've made some good changes on this journey, but I just can't seem to get it all constantly happening daily an... Mon, 5 May 2014 06:22:27 EST The Should Haves http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5676826 I should have..... <BR> 1. Got off the sofa & moved <BR> 2. Put the knitting down <BR> 3. Turned off the TV <BR> 4. Called family members <BR> 5. Met with family Easter Day <BR> 6. NOT updated my IPhone <BR> 7. Worked on my pain level <BR> 8. Organized my week <BR> 9. Gone to bed earlier <BR> 10. Talked myself into moving <BR> <BR> Now that I know what I should have done I will have to do each one and check off the list <BR> <BR> (lol) <BR> Mon, 21 Apr 2014 07:29:33 EST Friends.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5671759 It doesn't seem like I have any friends to depend on in my life and that is why I am having such a hard time sticking to goals that I set. I can't seem to find anyone in my area to keep me walking daily or talk about lifestyle changes. My hubby is in his own little world of denial and I find that I am more of a loner (not that I want to be) it seems my life is my life and my friends lives are theirs. Schedules are different and I just adapt to life One Day At A Time. Everything works out in t... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 07:24:43 EST Awesome Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5671361 It started out with rain this morning. I felt a little down. Hubby working & I have Addie duty. Knitting scarfs & hats to keep me focus. It's back and forth to make sure A is eating, taking pills, and doing her routine. She gets a bit nasty at times and doesn't want to eat. I decided to take an hour walk and relax before giving her dinner tonight. I'd been sitting knitting too long. Knee pain was about a 6, as I walked, but the sun was awesome & I didn't push myself to do a fast pace. (I know... Sun, 13 Apr 2014 18:15:52 EST I Am Grateful For..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5669634 Grateful for: <BR> <BR> 1. SparkCoach for making me think about who I am and who I want to be. <BR> <BR> 2. Springtime for making me want to move outside again & get my 30 min walks in sometimes earlier than I think. <BR> <BR> 3. My hubby for working as hard as he does to make life easier for me. <BR> <BR> 4. My job for the past 35 yrs (Nov 14') that knows they have a good employee. (Mgrs & DM's anyway) <BR> <BR> 5. Lack of pain as I move to relieve arthritis knee pain. The more I move t... Fri, 11 Apr 2014 08:32:31 EST More Exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5669290 So Dr says to get more exercise & watch what I am eating to get my cholesterol under control. I got the results the other day and in Oct 13' it was (270) Apr 14' it is (193). I think I must be doing something right to get it down to the 193. I know I have to keep working at it and now that the weather is more Spring like it will be easier to get out for a 30 or more minute walk. It's been 4 days in a row getting 10,000 or more steps in a day. I plan to continue even, if the walks are 3 - 10 m... Thu, 10 Apr 2014 19:39:36 EST Seeing Changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668455 It is amazing to see how everyday is different and the changes that are made along the way. You start out with a plan and then BOOM something happens to make you change the plan and adapt. I adapt consistently and I'm seeing more good than bad changes. (thank goodness) <BR> <BR> Lunches are being made before I leave for work. I love my oatmeal breakfast & orange each morning. Packing & eating snacks in-between stores keeps me from buying candy & junk food. Now that the Spring like weather is... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 18:12:40 EST Working Hard http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667337 Staying on track seems to be getting harder....so many changes happening at work, (6 stores) with another one wanting me (major clean up needed)....wondering how much longer I will last. Will be hard to leave, as I love what I do. I'm seeing changes in my habits and finding that I am making lunches to take along & it isn't hard, water is my main source of fluid everyday...I walked 3 - 10 min walks yesterday which made me feel good. I need to stay focus and work hard to get healthier & stay th... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 11:40:02 EST Living For Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666216 Working on my dash eating diet....I had thought I had made some process, but wonder now after last weeks visit with Dr. Confused and just winging it. Listening to my body and adapting to life. Waiting for my 1st heart attack to happen. Age and family history is against me. What will be, will be. In the mean time I try to learn & do what I think is right. Tired & pushing myself to the reality of life. Moving feels better, low salt changes made, water with meals @ restaurants, PBJ for lunches &... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 06:49:57 EST Hard Work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5664002 I'm trying, but it is hard work....Life is hard work....Planning is hard work....I feel so confused....Getting Older (old) is hard work.....I believe I am actually scare of what is to come. I thought I was making good healthy choices & to have test done to say your body is falling apart & medication is in your future really scares me. I don't know what to do, family history is against me. Dr is not explaining things well so I understand & I have a hard time saying the right thing, so i unders... Fri, 4 Apr 2014 05:45:24 EST Best Support Coming From http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5609931 Getting support from my SparkFriend here at SP YELLOW09RED has been keeping me going. Her comments & SparkHugs mean, so much to me. I need the reminder that I am not on this journey alone & I can do better day by day. I have made changes (which is a plus) and I do need to continue, as everyday is a journey in itself. Things will improve ONE STEP AT A TIME...Thank You for being YOU. Thu, 30 Jan 2014 08:07:24 EST Not Happy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5604172 Things have gotten out of hand. I've lost my happiness on this journey the past 10 days or so. Winter/Cold weather has gotten to me and I feel so tired and lost. To much is happening these days to keep me blue, can't seem to focus & just wanting the world to stop, so I can get off. Not sleeping well, computer issues, work issues & just needing to sleep. Keep telling myself I am ONE DAY CLOSER TO SPRING, but it doesn't seem to help.....Need a different approach to my day. Fri, 24 Jan 2014 09:10:32 EST Moving Slowly http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5593192 Got into bed early last night & woke numerous times with knee pain. Stretched my knees to a point where I could fall back to sleep. (a lot of tossing & turning) seem to be tired more often than I like. (breathing seems better today) Yesterday didn't go as planned, but I am use to that. I've learned to adapt to life a long time ago. Everything falls into place, as time goes on. I'm so looking forward to Spring & hoping most of the snow that comes is rain....(wishful thinking) I guess I can kee... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 07:06:23 EST Losing Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5592136 I've been putting work 1st again and getting tired out, so much that I fall asleep on the sofa shortly after returning home. I need to get myself back on track with my eating and exercise. This time of year I have been inside way too much. I keep telling myself that I am ONE DAY CLOSER TO SPRING everyday, but it doesn't seem to be working this year for some reason. Arthritis flair ups are becoming more and more painful and making me not want to move. I tend to over do things and that doesn't ... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 09:55:55 EST Bad Week.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5588441 I thought that walking 10,000 steps a day would work for me, but it seems that my body has a different idea. The last 2 days I was in pain between my knee & back pain I could hardly move. After resting and today wearing a knee brace & TheraCare back wrap I felt so much better this evening. It will be interesting to see what tomorrow will bring.... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 18:58:19 EST Day 7 - 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5585394 I started work early in order to get 4 stores done today....no walk yet this morning & hoping that isn't a mistake....shooting for my 7th day of 10,000+ steps and hoping my body will be moving by the time I am done working in order to get to my goal. I CAN DO THIS & WILL DO THIS Tue, 7 Jan 2014 09:42:16 EST Day 5 - 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5583146 I started out with back pain again this morning and of course, the knee is always painful no matter what I do. (somedays less than others) it was a restless night sleep and after walking in circles again for over 12,000 steps the back pain was gone, but of course the knee has the usual pain. Tired, I am so tired and hoping that it is because of the walking and not because of my cold. I seem to feel better at time. I wish I could plan & stick to it (still working on that) if things would only ... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 15:22:56 EST Day 4 - 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5582175 Over 10,000 steps again today....pushed myself, as I don't feel well....I should have work 2 more stores today, but I will get there Monday. Winter is here, but I keep telling myself that I am one day closer to Spring everyday & that seems to help me get thru my day..... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 18:33:18 EST Day 3 - 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5581242 12,800+ steps today....after yesterday's Nor'Easter I walked in circles inside while hubby cleared the driveway and then I worked 2 stores (I do not like driving this time of year) I hate driving in the dark and with the roads poorly plowed I was a real basket case driving home tonight. I was glad I took the time to walk early, as I am always in pain by the time I finish work and just want to sit after being on my feet at work. Everyday is interesting and adventure. <BR> Fri, 3 Jan 2014 21:16:35 EST Day 2 of 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5579989 I've gotten involved with a 10,000 step a day challenge with my Fitbit friends starting yesterday for the month of January and planning to make it for the full 365 days this year. With the thought of Spring coming makes me think I can do this. Things will workout day by day, as I am feeling more in control with myself and I know that is a good thing. Life is good and I will start each morning with good thoughts and a smile on my face. Walking in circles inside works for me just as much as wal... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 20:54:28 EST New Year...New Changes (or OLD) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5577445 As always I got off track the end of 2013 due to work and trying to stay ahead of myself....(I do this every year and I know it is going to happen) The NEW YEAR of 2014 begins with all these good thoughts of changes. I think 1 of my changes needs to be getting off the computer and moving more.....(I spend way to much time on my Iphone, Ipad & Laptop) I have had some good things happening and will continue packing my breakfast/lunches & fitting my walks in (now that Xmas/Valentines are dealt w... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 07:06:32 EST Snow Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5565020 Relaxing today....I do not like snow....I do like the thought of Dec 21st and then counting my days to SPRING. I'm hoping the coming week goes according to my plans, but know they won't....I have learned to wake up each morning & adapt to what comes my way. I walked 4 miles around in circles in the house today while chatting w/sis on the phone....amazing how time goes by while chatting. A nap on the sofa helped clear my head, as well. Looking forward to a new day tomorrow. & see how I adapt t... Sun, 15 Dec 2013 17:27:12 EST Tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5561497 I blew off work today in order to stay safe from the weather. I can't deal with snow/ice, I stress out way to much. I ventured out yesterday and stressed out terribly, so today I stressed over not being in work (just can't win lol) I'm worried about hubby traveling home late tonight...just hope things aren't to slippery....I walked in the snow for 67 mins this noon and now feeling sleepy and thinking about heading to bed early. Hoping to be able to get 4 stores worked tomorrow, but it will b... Tue, 10 Dec 2013 17:39:51 EST Dealing w/Elderly Not Easy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5559662 How things change....MIL has been gone since 7/2010 (3yrs) she lived to be 100y 5m 10d. I immediately got involved w/GF's Mom (Miss A) who needs TLC (age 88) 11/2013 and how hard it is to deal with the "I don't care attitude" "I'll kill myself, if i leave my home". I've been through it....I know how hard it is to care, love and hope that I am doing the right thing. How the elderly get set in their own ways....(we all do) The latest report from Dr is, "stop eating pancakes every morning for br... Sun, 8 Dec 2013 10:22:28 EST Disappointment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5558959 Seems like I can't do this RIGHT....(at least this time of year) work gets way out of control trying to set & maintain 6 Hallmark departments (Christmas/Valentines is the worse) I totally lose control of my life. It seems every couple of days I just can't seem to fit anything, but work into my day....I have found that I do eat my oatmeal breakfast (LUV IT) and have been packing lunches (which HELPS) and makes me feel somewhat happy. I lose myself at night and find that if I don't exercise in ... Sat, 7 Dec 2013 10:00:54 EST Getting There From Here.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5557805 I got done early at work today & decided to get in my ME TIME....walking in place & in circles is just as good as walking outside. Racking up steps is my goal the best way I know how....yesterday I hadn't finished by the time hubby got home and decided to keep going until I got in 4 miles (normally I would have stopped) and not completed my task, but each day it seems more important to me. I think about the changes I am making daily (in the moment) and smile. I keep hearing my Dr in my head t... Thu, 5 Dec 2013 17:46:40 EST Lost It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5557059 Lost a day due to crazy work hours....my 10,000 step Streak for the month of December lasted 2 days.....boohoo! Can't plan...people mess up my plans all the time....work always ends up throwing be off & I throw my hands up for a day or two & then I am back on track again, and walking in circles....my knee feels better when I keep moving, but I am not totally without pain....my weight is creeping downward S-L-O-W-L-Y, but it is going DOWN....most things in life are better SLOW in my eyes. Good... Wed, 4 Dec 2013 20:10:53 EST I Can Do This http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5554861 So it is Day #2 ... December 2013....where did the year go? I've improved my habits some over the past few years.....still NOT perfect.....but don't expect PERFECT anymore. I am finding that I have trouble doing multiple things at time and plan to focus on 1 streak this month.....yesterday I walked in circles in the house to get my 10,000 steps in.....today I did a 45 min walk outdoors before work and plan to do another 30 min before the day ends. This makes Day #2 of my walking 10,000 or mor... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 08:41:59 EST Lots To Deal With http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5553927 You never know what life has waiting for you around the bend....you adapt to life's ups & downs.....cope with the good & bad....some days you stay on track & others it isn't so easy.....I'm finding that looking at each day, as a NEW BEGINNING helps me to deal with the struggles of everything that comes my way....I'm dealing with inner feelings of uncontrollable anger/sadness that I hope to change as time goes on. I wonder how I am going to deal with the coming Holiday workload, but have found... Sun, 1 Dec 2013 07:48:17 EST Quiet Thanksgiving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5552379 Just hubby and I this year enjoying a quiet holiday together. It has been a trying year with family and I needed space & give them space as well. Of course, the turkey dinner was excellent and a smaller quantity than previous years. Overtired from working this week and fell asleep w/ice pack on knee (had planned on a movie this afternoon) it will be interesting to see how the next few weeks go. Can only think positive thoughts. Thu, 28 Nov 2013 19:02:27 EST Walking In Place http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5551221 Couldn't sleep, so up early (I so wanted to sleep in) the rain is pouring down and I started to get depress. TV on with News/Weather which sets in more sorrow....Light bulb goes on in my head....get up and walk in place while watching TV (where have I heard things like this?) SparkPeople.com of course. Get up and move.....it works....(hubby up earlier than I expected) 50 mins of walking in place certainly is better than not doing it at all....thinking about why I woke, so early....knee pain a... Wed, 27 Nov 2013 06:21:55 EST Interesting Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5550232 Started with a 45 minute walk this morning.....so glad I did, it felt so good. Sunshine was AWESOME. I wanted to get 3 stores done, but the amount of work I had to do in 2 stores was more than I wanted to deal with....I couldn't complete a 3rd store, as my body was starting to cry with chronic pain.....I hope that I can handle 4 stores tomorrow, as I really want the next 2 days off. (time will tell) things are falling into place, thank goodness. It's another day of packing breakfast & lunch a... Mon, 25 Nov 2013 21:14:17 EST What? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5548844 I started yesterday with my usual routine and then got side tracked with Hubby's homemade Chili....Oh! Well! It was/is only 1 day of losing my footing here....I will be more on track today and focus on eating and exercising. (Hubby put everything he could find in the frig into the Chili) <BR> <BR> I'm not too happy to see that there is WHITE roads out there this morning. (I really hate the white stuff more than you can imagine) Hopefully! By the time I need to get out on the road this AM it ... Sun, 24 Nov 2013 06:49:03 EST