JANA_N_TN's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JANA%5FN%5FTN JANA_N_TN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Helping Others & Feeling Yucky http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1766157 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/4/8/b488883666.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Here's the thing..........I'm supposed to leave Friday after work to join my DH in Missouri to help out some of the ice storm victims. I'm glad because I haven't really been able to do any Disaster Relief work recently and so I'm anxious to get back to it. BUT, something is up with my body.......don't know what it is. Having all kinds of strange symptoms that are so unlike me including chest pain/pressure, fatigue,... Tue, 3 Feb 2009 12:34:22 EST What's Wrong With Me? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1750648 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/3/2/b327327975.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I can't seem to get motivated........... In the morning I'm all gung-ho, let's go & by the evening I seem to fizzle out of enthusiasm. I've done some bingeing which I thought was behind me (literally, it is.......on my behind). Also, I'm paying for a gym membership that I seem to be ignoring. I have good intentions, just no follow thru. There's no one to blame except me. It's almost that TOM, but it seems I shoul... Thu, 29 Jan 2009 10:40:51 EST Something You Can Never Get Back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1723705 <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/7/8/b783855639.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> A five year old boy from my church passed away yesterday after enduring not one but two liver transplants (and all the problems that go with that) in his short time. His parents are sad, but were still praising God for the blessings they received from being his parents. Don't just go thru the motions of life..........soak it up. Wed, 21 Jan 2009 10:19:36 EST Brrrrrrr http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1702761 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/5/0/b502692869.jpg"> <BR> Brrrrrr!!!!! The low temp today is supposed to be.........drumroll please........1 degree! This is Tennessee!!!! We don't have one degree temps! Wherever you are at today, stay warm and think skinny thoughts! Thu, 15 Jan 2009 12:57:03 EST So Far So Good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1673823 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/1/6/b161785389.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> It's day 4 into my turnaround. So far so good. Or well.......pretty good. No exercise on the horizon thus far. Next week should be better so I'll be able to ease back into my routine. DH will be on a mission trip for about a week so I'll have a little more free time <em>40</em> I'll miss him, but sometimes a little time apart helps you remember why you like 'em in the first place. It's easier to eat wit... Thu, 8 Jan 2009 12:47:11 EST Reflections http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1663533 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/6/4/b643653548.jpg"> <BR> <BR> As I entered 2009, I knew that I had to start over and do better. There are several things that I attribute to adding to my weight gain. When my stepdaughter got married, I was pretty stressed out due to some family situations and the overall planning of the wedding. I said that I wanted to go ahead and lose a few more pounds before the wedding. Ha! That was like telling my brain to kick into overdrive on the cra... Tue, 6 Jan 2009 12:31:18 EST Be a frog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1414169 I received an e-mail from a friend today (who happens to have lost & kept off around 100lbs) and decided to copy/paste it here for your inspiration. It certainly inspired me as I'm my own worst critic. <BR> <BR> J. <BR> <BR> Once upon a time there was a bunch of tiny frogs.... who arranged a running competition. The goal was to reach the top of a very high tower. <BR> <BR> A big crowd had gathered around the tower to see the race and cheer on the contestants.... <BR> <BR> The race bega... Thu, 21 Aug 2008 10:45:34 EST Lumpy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1396707 I'm not feeling like too much of a DONE girl......I feel ........lumpy. You know where when you sit in a chair & you're uncomfortable 'cause your back fat or whatever keeps you from sitting up straight? My fat has grown by about 6lbs and it is sticking out EVERYWHERE to remind me of it. I finally weighed today so I'd know just how bad I've been. My body is intent on not letting me forget that I've added to it. Went back to the gym yesterday, but when I got home I just binged. It was rea... Tue, 12 Aug 2008 13:12:26 EST Unplugged http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1374256 <em>101</em> <BR> Just so you know....I am officially "internet-less" (is that a word?) at home. My husband got sick & tired of our old dial up not working as he felt it should & he pulled the plug. We had a few words about it as he did not arrange for a new server. The perils of living in the country include: NO HIGH SPEED INTERNET!!! Anyway, I'm using my computer at work on the sly. Just wanted ya'll to know that I'm not intentionally being a slacker. Have a great day & hope I'll be... Fri, 1 Aug 2008 13:13:18 EST Not on vacation anymore http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1369102 I'm having a little trouble remembering that I'm not on vacation anymore. I am trying to have the mindset of a DONE girl....really I am. I'm NOT going to be the fat girl anymore 'cause I'm done. Truly. The pic is of me & DH in our Cancun hotel lobby. It reminds me that although I've come a long way, I still have a lot to go. Had to meet my Mom in the ER yesterday as she was having chest pains. (She had a heart attack several yrs ago & had open heart surgery) It was actually Extreme Re... Wed, 30 Jul 2008 10:42:47 EST M.I.A. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1356252 I've been MIA for almost a month. First, we had vacation bible school right after the 4th. Then, I was getting ready for vacation and we left for Cancun on the 17th. Now we are back and the scale is telling me that I relaxed a little too much during those times. I'm up by 5lbs. Normally, I do not drink at all but while in Mexico I did indulge. It was an all-inclusive resort and there was food/drink available 24/7 for no extra charge. Nuff said. On the up side, we had a WONDERFUL time!... Thu, 24 Jul 2008 10:46:03 EST Countdown to Cancun http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1306821 Wow! I can't believe another month has passed. ...seems like just yesterday it was June. Oh wait! It was! I am now on the countdown to CANCUN!!!! Not trying to make anyone jealous, I'm just so darn excited to spend time with my husband. No kids & NO CELL PHONE! 16 more days. I had a mini goal to lose the 10lbs that I put on this winter & so far I've lost 5. Wanted to achieve that before leaving, but I'm not sure it's gonna happen. I ain't giving up though! The next few days are gon... Tue, 1 Jul 2008 22:31:26 EST The Food Critic Strikes Again......& other daily thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1304530 That's my grandson in the pic.....playing in a box! Forget the toys! Gimme a box! <BR> When I try new foods, sometimes I give my opinion of them in hopes that not only will someone else try something new but also so that maybe you'll share good/good for you foods with me as well. I've been eating Lean Cuisine panini's for a while & like 'em pretty good but hadn't really tried the Healthy Choice ones until recently. They're pretty good (they were on sale at Kroger) and they are lower in f... Mon, 30 Jun 2008 23:39:34 EST On the move again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1292669 Hooray! I'm on the weight loss move again! 205 this morning and proud of it! Today is my 20th wedding anniversary and since my husband can not get away from work to come home, I'm driving down after work to see him & driving back in the early a.m. for work. I'm sure we will go out to eat tonight after I get there, but I'm going to do my darndest not to overeat. I'm there to see him, not overindulge. Ya'll pray for me to stay motivated to keep going to the gym and stay on my calorie track... Wed, 25 Jun 2008 10:16:21 EST Inspiration & Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1286620 I've tried to go back to some of the things I did when I first started losing weight like eating some of the same things and trying to use the same tools to motivate myself. I looked at some of my "favorites" on this page and went back to see why they were my favorites. Also, I have turned to other successful peoples pages & read their blogs and musings. I feel it has been helpful to me and am more inspired to do well. Have been eating out quite a bit lately and have just put in the notes... Sun, 22 Jun 2008 19:25:41 EST 06/21/08 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1285418 Couldn't think of a catchy title....didn't really care. Had an argument with my husband & am upset. I used to turn to food when I was upset, but now I try to ignore those feelings. Thought I'd better blog about it and get my feelings out there. A lot of our arguments stem from my own insecurities. He says one thing and I read something more into it. I've pretty well stayed on track (sort of) as I went to visit my husband who is working out of town. We ate at a mexican restaurant last n... Sun, 22 Jun 2008 00:14:02 EST Fudgesicles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1281634 One fudgesicle.....it seemed like a good idea, but maybe I should have not given in. It was bigger than the ones I have here at home so I entered 1.5 on the tracker - hope that's close enough. Anyway, I'm a little over today on my calorie stats & I have some really weird food combos that I've been eating lately. Haven't been getting enough fiber, but I'm a littled scared since I had some ......ummm.....stomach problems the other day. I don't know if it's because I had my gall bladder out ... Thu, 19 Jun 2008 21:54:18 EST Feeling kinda down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1279080 <em>39</em> Feelin' kinda down today. After I signed off last night, I got out the picture cd's we got back from the wedding. In addition to all the wedding cameras, we had taken in a few rolls of film that never made it to be developed. The family pics we took at Easter was on one of them and it just depressed me looking at them. I didn't buy an Easter dress because I lacked the time/urge to go shopping for one. I found a dress in my closet that I hadn't worn in years....really it wa... Wed, 18 Jun 2008 19:15:33 EST Made It! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1277189 Made it to the gym today. Wheee! I didn't try to pick up where I left off, but did make a pretty good showing. Walked on the treadmill for 30 min. at a fairly good pace & then attempted to do some of my strength training for arms. Got most of it in, but there was a guy on this one machine that would not get off! I had done two other machines and he was still on the one I had left to go. I rest between reps too, but this was crazy! Stopped by the grocery store (hate it) & picked up a fe... Tue, 17 Jun 2008 23:00:35 EST Starting Over....Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1274713 Well, this is day one of my starting over....again. Instead of feeling bummed about having messed up, I'm going to pat myself on the back for having the courage to begin again. I've also told everyone at home & at work that I'm beginning again. Felt it was important that they know that I'm aware I've made some mistakes & I'm ready to rectify that. Also, maybe it will make them more aware of how their actions tempt me too. Did not plan on going to the gym today as I had some things that n... Mon, 16 Jun 2008 23:19:40 EST Paid http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1272096 Sigh...I believe I'm paying for those comments I made back in Feb. The one line about wanting to look better than the ex for the wedding. I shouldn't have been so petty. (Her dress was actually a size smaller than mine) Right after I posted that, I began eating and gaining & gaining and eating. You get the picture. I am now up to 210. I don't like it a bit. The only person who can do anything about it is me. So here I am again asking forgiveness for my weaknesses. The wedding is over... Sun, 15 Jun 2008 22:28:39 EST Not Too Far Gone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1042041 If all my food were crocheted like the pic, I wouldn't be fat. :) Anyway, in case anyone is wondering.....I have not disappeared. I'm trying to stay on the straight and narrow path, but sometimes lose my way. Two more pounds to go and I'll be back where I was at the end of fall with a 67 lb loss. Then.....drumroll please.....one more pound and I'll be under 200! Oh Please, Oh Please, Oh Please come soon! My stepdaughter is getting married in June and I HAVE to look good. Those of you ... Thu, 28 Feb 2008 13:24:05 EST Ahhh....the butter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=961076 Took my son to get his haircut this morning and he wanted something to eat so we stopped at McDonald's. I knew this was a mistake, but I thought it would be all right. Had read somewhere that if you got the hotcakes w/out sausage it wasn't too bad, not like all the biscuits, etc. Well, they were right about the hotcakes - 350 cals. & 9 grams of fat - which really isn't bad for McD's. What did me in was ........the butter! Ahhh.....the butter! 3 tiny pats (one for each hotcake) had more ... Sat, 26 Jan 2008 13:22:44 EST My Take http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=955029 So far, so good. I'm starting the 6th day of this contest & I've stuck to it pretty well. I have been well within my fat & calorie ranges every day except one and have been going to the gym on the days I said I was. Yesterday, I went over by about 35 calories and while I know that's not really bad....the reason I did is what bothers me. I was upset about some things that are going on between members of our youth group at church & right before bed I had some Baked Cheetos. I wasn't hungry... Thu, 24 Jan 2008 10:59:37 EST Willpower & Determination http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=947289 Not long ago, I seemed to have lost my determination to succeed. I asked that if anyone found it, to please return it. I'm glad to say that is seems to have been placed on my doorstep then someone rang the doorbell and ran. I'm excited about losing weight & exercising once again. Maybe it's the contest I'm in.....I don't know. I'm just relieved it's back. Apathy is your own worst enemy. Trust me, it's worse to not just care at all. I never lost my hope & desire for a better, healthier... Mon, 21 Jan 2008 22:56:25 EST Contests & Confessions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=942753 Those who regularly read my blogs know that last year I competed in 2 weight loss competitions. In the local one, my team came in 10th. In the other one, I'm not sure where we fell but I did get a t-shirt for losing at least 5% of my body weight. So anyway, the local hospital is sponsoring another competition & I have gotten a new team up. We weighed in Sat. & I'm praying that this is going to be the inspiration I need to get started again. I'm happy with the amount of weight I've lost s... Sun, 20 Jan 2008 15:17:02 EST Not as well as I'd hoped http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=908195 Things are not going as well as I'd hoped. I don't seem to have the control & will power that I had this time last year. I'm not giving up though! Did hit the gym Mon. & yesterday I was prepared to go as well. Then the storms came. Literally. We were under tornado watches most of yesterday & last night. The wind & rain were horrible so I went straight home. Tonight I have to teach at church as my husband is still gone to OK to help with the ice storm victims there. I'll try to use on... Wed, 9 Jan 2008 10:39:57 EST One small incident http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=891763 With the exception of one small incident, I've been doing pretty good so far. It's only been two days, but Hey! On Wed., I wanted to eat everything in sight! It's that TOM so I'll blame it on that, but I think it had more to do with putting myself back on the straight & narrow road again. I don't want to feel deprived so I indulge instead. There was a small pecan log sitting on my desk Dec. 21st as a token from a co-worker. I took it home & it did not taunt me until I decided that I sho... Fri, 4 Jan 2008 10:31:11 EST It's A New Year! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=884931 It's a new year....welcome 2008! You're thinking, "Well, duh! We know it's a new year." I just wanted to write it down & make it real to ME 'cause I said that I was getting back on track in the new year. So here it is....let's get busy! I'd like to do a repeat of last year and lose an additional 60lbs. That would be great, but to me the important thing is to keep losing at whatever pace I can keep. I began this morning logging my food again & will attempt to keep it up. Tomorrow, I wi... Wed, 2 Jan 2008 10:44:13 EST End of the year musings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=871191 I've been lax in my healthy lifestyle vow recently. I'm back up to 207 & it's Christmas. After this week....I'm GOING TO BE GOOD! Really, I am. I can't afford not to be. I will NOT enter 2008 feeling awful about myself like I did last year. True, I have put back on 7lbs in the last few months.....BUT, I am still down 60! That's terrific! At least, that's what I keep telling myself anyway. I'll have more time to go to the gym after the first of the year and I'm going to be cautious ab... Mon, 24 Dec 2007 15:42:21 EST Forgotten But Not Gone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=853965 I have been forgotten apparently as I have not appeared online for almost two months & no one has inquired where I'm at. Hmmmm. Anyway, I'm up slightly to 205 and am going to just try to maintain until Jan. Then, I'll begin again. 62lbs in a year ain't bad. Here's to next year and additional losses. Don't eat too much figgy pudding! (What is figgy pudding, anyway?) Fri, 7 Dec 2007 17:17:14 EST Stress & Birthdays http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=808588 Stress & Birthdays = Bad Food Choices......for me anyway. I've been under extreme stress these days with a TON of things going on. Really haven't been watching what I eat at all. My husband's birthday was Sun. so we have had all kinds of good things to eat including cake AND.......PEANUT BUTTER PIE!! (gasp!) We've also eaten out quite a bit which certainly doesn't help. Anyway, I'm back up to 203 again. I'm not focused on the things I need to do & I really don't want to right now. For... Wed, 31 Oct 2007 10:45:01 EST So What...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=801232 Today I weighed in and realized the scale read 200. I've been waiting to be under 200 & now there's only one pound left to go & I'm there. But, I really have no feeling of elation today & am left thinking....so what? <BR> Last night some friends of mine were in a terrible accident. He was killed and she is in the hospital. It was a freak accident with a tree falling over & crashing thru their windshield. They were on their way to church & the next thing they know, he's gone. <BR> Ple... Thu, 25 Oct 2007 12:22:21 EST For My Female Friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=798052 I copied & pasted this from an e-mail I received today. Thought it was cute & others might enjoy it. It didn't copy the cute little pics that went along with it because they are animated. <BR> <BR> This is cool ... love it! <BR> <BR> <BR> Now I lay me Down to sleep I pray the Lord My shape to keep. <BR> <BR> Please no wrinkles Please no bags And please lift my butt Before it sags. <BR> <BR> ... Tue, 23 Oct 2007 10:29:41 EST Sick AGAIN? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=797170 This morning I woke up at 4:30 when my husbands alarm went off & my first thought was..."I feel sick to my stomach" Then, I thought "Again?" I was sick a few weeks ago with some sort of stomach bug (fever, body aches, etc) Today was different in that it was just "a stomach problem". Thought I was going to be OK, got dressed & took my son to school. Had to come back home after that & look for some Immodium. Finally found some & after two of them I was able to go to work. Almost two hrs ... Mon, 22 Oct 2007 17:09:45 EST 253 Times http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=774901 253 times...that's how many times my page has been viewed. Amazing! At first, I thought that included all the times that I, myself, had been on there. Nope. Apparently not. Hmmm. Also odd to me that so many people are still up. I DO realize it is not the same time everywhere in the world. It's almost 1 am here. Normally, I would be sound asleep right now. I tried....sigh...but, here I sit. I think I'm hopped up on sinus meds & too much caffeine. I know I have to be up in a few hou... Sat, 6 Oct 2007 02:06:36 EST Truth Is Stranger Than Fiction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=774865 I read A LOT! One of my favorite authors is Debbie Macomber (light, funny fiction). Anyway, I was reading one of her books the other day & laughed out loud at one of the characters. She was trying to lose ten pounds (big whoop), but every time she took it off she put some of it right back on again. (sound familiar, anyone?) Anyway, she comes down with the flu & her hunky neighbor comes over to see about her. She asks for assistance to the bathroom as she can barely stand up. Does she n... Sat, 6 Oct 2007 00:41:23 EST 53 Minutes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=767744 Well, I anticipated doing Sat.'s 5K in an hour. Instead, I completed it in 53 minutes!!!!!!! Yea! My husband called me (he had a class that day) to see how I did.....I told him "I didn't fall down, I didn't pass out, & I wasn't last!" At the beginning of the course, there was a huge hill & I began to wonder if I had made a mistake by signing up. Several hills later, I was glad I had taken on the challenge. I jogged/briskly walked the whole time & tried not to slow down much. I prayed th... Mon, 1 Oct 2007 11:05:10 EST 5K http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=761330 Well, I finally did it. I mailed off my registration fee to be in a 5k this weekend. I said I was going to do it, I'm just not sure I meant it. Too late now to change my mind. I normally walk a little over 2 miles (at an incline & a brisk pace) most days of the week. Hoping that I can do the 5k without embarrassing myself. I know I CAN do it, I just don't want to be last. My friend & I are not in the "runners division" , but in the walking one. However, I'm thinking we might jog/sprin... Wed, 26 Sep 2007 10:45:22 EST Whew! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=759845 OK... as seen in my previous blogs, I have been really bad lately. Just wanted to let ya'll (I'm southern, OK?) know that I've been doing well & those 4 lbs I gained are back off again. Thank you, Lord! Now, I'm behind schedule of being under 200 by a certain date. But, I'm getting there. Hopefully, my husband & I are going to Hawaii next summer for our 20 yr anniversary. I told him yesterday that it DID NOT depend on his work schedule for whether we went or not, but what size bathing s... Tue, 25 Sep 2007 10:50:09 EST Owning Up To It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=752275 Ok....I've been bad. Really bad. Last week, was horrible for me & I gained 4lbs. The good news is that I've lost one of those already just by getting back on track. I wasn't going to adjust my tracker because my intentions were to get those 4lbs off quickly & forget about it. Then, I decided to own up to my transgressions.....so, the weight went back up. When I think about it, it makes me really mad! I mean, how hard was it to lose that weight the first time without having to lose it a... Wed, 19 Sep 2007 15:36:17 EST Just For Laughs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=750795 Someone sent me the following e-mail & hope some of you will find it amusing. Remember.....this did not actually happen & DON'T try this for yourselves. <BR> <BR> I can so see someone doing this with all the fad diets that go around these days...this one still makes me laugh...... <BR> <BR> I was in Walmart buying a large bag of Purina for my <BR> dog and was in line <BR> to check out. A woman behind me asked me if I had a <BR> dog... (DUHHHH) <BR> <BR> I was feeling a bit crabby so... Tue, 18 Sep 2007 15:55:07 EST A Bad Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=745391 This blog is just to vent to myself about a horrible week. My son started getting sick Sat. night & Mon. I had to call in to work so I could take him to the Dr. He has some mysterious virus that no one seems to have a name for that makes these ulcers on his throat, mouth, gums & tongue. It is very painful for him to eat...he's 12 & trust me he knows how to eat! When he wasnt, I knew something was wrong. It's been five days & he still is having a great deal of difficulty. I called the Do... Fri, 14 Sep 2007 12:43:13 EST A Starbucks Encounter of the Worst Kind http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=733762 Actually, it wasn't as bad as it could have been. Normally, I don't even go in Starbucks because of 1. Money, 2. Calorie Count, 3. Money. But, our boss decided it would be a good idea to take the "girls" out for coffee AND (ack!) dessert. I didn't do just too horribly bad. I did get the reduced fat version of my dessert & it's a good thing because when I got back I looked up the nutritional info on what I had. It made me decide to have cereal for supper. Then, when I got home I added a ... Thu, 6 Sep 2007 13:24:28 EST Save Me From Myself! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=729057 OK...It's Labor Day. So, I should be laboring instead of eating right? Actually, I'm eating while I'm laboring which is worse. I have been baking cookies (among other things) to take to the in-laws' cookout. AND...I've been eating as I go. When the members of my weight loss support group start "confessing" to me what all they've eaten, I tell them "Hey, I'm NOT the food police!" But, I think that's what I need. Someone to slap my hand & say "Get outta there!" I know what I need to do.... Mon, 3 Sep 2007 14:39:15 EST Recovering Foodaholic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=724926 If you read the earlier blog, you know I messed up today. But, the good news is that I wasn't hungry at lunchtime. Hello! Why would I be? I did eat some Baked Cheetos around 2 that I counted as lunch & ate Ok the rest of the day. I'm not sure of the final count as my computer kept locking up when I was trying to add my food in. Don't know what's up with that! Also, I couldn't find Chikin Mini's on the tracker only the full size chicken biscuits. In addition, I don't believe the biscui... Thu, 30 Aug 2007 22:31:12 EST Slipped Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=724220 Well......I just slipped up. Just now, in fact. We had a breakfast for my friend here at work who received the honor of being caregiver of the year. I brought sausage patties....yes, I looked at the box to see what the fat/cal counts were. I ate some fruit....then I ate 2 sausage/biscuits (biscuits were home made), 1 chicken mini from ChikFilA, a small amt of scrambled eggs, and then to top it all off I had about 4 bites of a choc. muffin. Sigh. Why do I do the things I know are wrong? ... Thu, 30 Aug 2007 12:04:39 EST Hooray! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=709238 Hooray! Met the first goal of my personal challenge a few days early! I'm psyched! It's easy for me to get depressed over the fact that I have so much to lose, but I'm trying not to let it affect me. I'm down by 57 lbs & that's terrific! I know in my heart it is, but the other part of me says you're not even halfway AND you're still FAT! My arms & legs have the most significant change and my stomach the least. I have polycystic ovarian syndrome which does make you retain more belly fat... Mon, 20 Aug 2007 12:02:24 EST My New Challenge To Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=695447 I've decided to set a new challenge for myself. I want to be under 200 lbs & I want to do it in 9 wks or less. The last time I lost a significant amount of weight was 14 yrs ago. I went to NutriSystem & lost 30 lbs, down to an even 200. It took me forever & I hated every minute of it! I also went right back up. It's been about 16 yrs since I was under 200. It's time to quit wishing for it and just do it. I'm setting new goals and putting them on my page so I can see them every time I ... Fri, 10 Aug 2007 16:11:41 EST Forgive Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=668760 Forgive me, Sparksters...for I have not blogged in over a month. Sigh. Most of the time I just don't have time, but admittedly there have been times that I could have. Not really sure what my weight is since my "new" digital scale does not seem to be working correctly. I'll have to wait until the final weigh in for my Lose to Win challenge (AUG 7th) at the hospital & compare the weights to know just how much I have lost in the last month or two. I'm afraid it's not going to be as much as... Tue, 24 Jul 2007 12:44:59 EST