JAMBABY0's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JAMBABY0 JAMBABY0's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ what part of head hurts do you not comprehend? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920981 Everyone knows this sist is causing major pain do to inflammation. I even explained it several times and let them feel the large rock knot on the back of my head. Now you think they would try and leave me alone... However everyone has questions about crap that could be answered by someone else or asked a later date. I continued to tell them my head hurts please stop. The questions do not stop until I get mad and then the 14 year old "wow your salty" I really can't stand that. My hubby says I'... Fri, 1 May 2015 20:16:41 EST was an ok day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920390 I finally gave in and had the lump on the back of my head looked at, dr said its just a benign sist don't worry about gave me a shot in my hip and sent me on my way..... Hmmmmm my question how does he know its benign??? Any way his shot gave an incredible headache to go with the head pain and the nauseous feeling I was already suffering from... Thu, 30 Apr 2015 19:50:16 EST work tomorrow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5919969 I believe I am taking Betty to a dr apt and then to run some errands....Don't think it will be an extremely long day.... Hope to get to the y for about 5:30 to do my 2 classes then hopefully to bed at a decent time.... I am just not sleeping well these days.... Thu, 30 Apr 2015 00:02:37 EST I said NO right back!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5919269 Betty only had a short list but it seemed like there were so many places to go to too. I just felt like I was constantly on the go. Then I get home and do my normal cleaning to find that I needed to go to the store which was fine cause it gives me the rest of my steps but I get home to the bottom of our 40 stairs and he come my boys from the neighbors house. So I thought they could carry a couple of bags each and that would be that.... After all there were only 4 bags and they were light!!!! ... Tue, 28 Apr 2015 19:11:50 EST movie review for "Beyond the Lights" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5918838 Was a good movie, with the drama, nudity and a happy ending... All in all a really good movie. Tue, 28 Apr 2015 00:28:30 EST went for a walk but http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5918071 yes I went for a walk and I actually walked what we call the mountain which is a very long straight up hill that goes on for way to long.... I was expecting to get warm enough to need to take off my sweat shirt but that didn't happen..... I really miss the sun and it's wonderful heat! Sun, 26 Apr 2015 17:47:58 EST feeling like the more I clean the messier it gets http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5917583 So I clean everyday and then kids come behind me and make a mess that is so much bigger!!! I could understand it if they were toddlers but they are so not!!!!! I am talking about the 14 and the 18 year old!!!! Give me a break you weren't raised to be animals!!!!! Sat, 25 Apr 2015 18:18:20 EST well house was empty for most of the day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5916509 It is really hard when you get up at 6 and by 9 your alone until 3:30 and then 3 kids come home and suddenly the phone starts, and they are fighting over the tv when 2 of them have there own tv..... And I start wondering where did all my quiet go? Did I really think just 2 hours ago my house was too quiet and why does my son listen to crap on his phone that he thinks everyone else wants to hear like some stupid song called ebolalala??????? I cant wait til it's time to go to the Y!!!!! Thu, 23 Apr 2015 16:43:09 EST went to both classes at the Y http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5916000 today I went to both of my classes at the ymca and felt really good when I got home, but it was weird because I haven't been able to go in 2 weeks do to working and conflicts. Anyway hope to go to both classes tomorrow too. Wed, 22 Apr 2015 20:46:53 EST I don't have to like it, I just have to accept it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5915443 Hubby is up for promotion and it is something we talked about before she got the job. She promised to not work 40 hours a week and promised not to work weekends unless it was an emergency..... Now suddenly she is being offered a position as team leader, and will be working 40 hours a week and weekends..... Like I said I don't have to like it I only have to accept it............... But I am tired of the breaking of promises..... Why does she make them when she can't keep them...... Tue, 21 Apr 2015 22:27:41 EST cooking tonight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5914647 so I am only going to one class tonight cause after class I am going to be cooking dinner with Robyn an d Cliff..... Nothing fancy just pork chops to go with left over salads. Hope everyone has a good evening. Mon, 20 Apr 2015 15:21:06 EST so hubby took Becky back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5914064 Yes Becky went back today but hopefully she comes back next weekend. In about two weeks give or take a little she goes on her trip to Arizona I hope this is safe and I hope she has a good time. I know I worry too much but she's only 19.... Hope everyone had a good weekend Sun, 19 Apr 2015 17:12:32 EST was a busy day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913683 Had a family gathering ate a big dinner, lots of time with all the kids.... All and all was a good family gathering I hope everyone is having a good weekend. Sat, 18 Apr 2015 23:03:49 EST worked today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913012 So really didn't do much just went to a store with Betty and carried her bought items. That was it for today. Really hate when she pays me for hardly nothing I just don't feel right about taking it but she is my elder so I'm even less comfortable in arguing with her so other then questioning why she is paying me so much and making comments like Betty this is too much which she ignores I have nothing... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 16:01:27 EST yes hubby is home http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5911935 So the kids were very happy when they saw that she was home. I was very happy, now just hoping that all is good and that we are ok!! Wed, 15 Apr 2015 19:06:22 EST should be here by 8 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5911344 Yes she is on her way, almost here in fact!!! Haven't told the kids wanted to make sure she was really coming home and then thought it would be a nice surprise!!! Can't wait til she home! Hope everyone has a good night. Tue, 14 Apr 2015 19:23:18 EST what if it's a lie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5910822 what if she's not being honest? She says she is heading home tomorrow..... What if she doesn't? What if she is just saying that to get me to stop asking when she is coming home? What will I do if she stays? I will cry a LOT and then I will put my big girl panties on and just do what I need to do to be responsible!!!!!! That is what I will do!!! Mon, 13 Apr 2015 22:27:11 EST got my final tattoo done http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5910056 Got my final tattoo done today it turned out really good! It is of Eeyore and he looks so cute!!!! Brandi (my daughter) did an awesome job I think it is my favorite tattoo by far!!!! Might post some pics not sure right now. Hope everyone had a good weekend. Sun, 12 Apr 2015 17:46:08 EST Betty's party http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5909055 Yes her party went well there was about 15 people, they signed in and everyone seemed happy, then door prize and then everyone left. Clean up was easy and then home. Not bad for work at all. Fri, 10 Apr 2015 19:33:32 EST got caught in rain with thunder http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5908441 I went for a walk around the park, the plan was to walk 2 1/2 miles but first it started to pour which by itself is fine but then the thunder started and I knew what was coming next - lightning which I am terrified of!!!!!! So came home as fast as feet and legs would move!!!! Thu, 9 Apr 2015 18:05:26 EST better today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5907882 Was much better today, still didn't get time to go to gym but I get my shoes Tuesday and today I got my much needed nap after work and got to go for a walk too. Now on the treadmill doing spark. Wed, 8 Apr 2015 18:33:04 EST been a rough day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5907295 Was just one of those days. Was really rough, I'm missing hubby and I just feel like she isn't coming home soon enough even though she hopes to be home by the end of next week. Tue, 7 Apr 2015 20:17:57 EST worked today and again tomorrow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5906653 Betty said around noon but changed her mind and had me picked up before 11 and I didn't get home until after 3 and then she texted me to say the other woman didn't do her job would I like to come tomorrow and do her job and get paid extra? Well yes wouldn't you??? So did all my house hold duties when got home and then cooked dinner.....Was a long day but still have to go shopping after boys go to bed.... Mon, 6 Apr 2015 20:33:13 EST So got my 3 tattoos finished last night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5905906 Yes all 3 tattoos got finished last night. So the hearts that were put on my ankle in 1992 as a jailhouse tat with just green ink, and a needle were outlined in black and colored in 2 different purples. The panther that was done several months ago to cover the spider was finished ( needed claws and teeth colored) and the white that needed to be gone over for Pepe which was also done months ago was done (hope it doesn't need to be gone over again (white not a good idea))....Now I just want one... Sun, 5 Apr 2015 15:26:36 EST Well she is telling people I am moving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5905013 Hubby is telling family and friends I have agreed to move to Oklahoma.... Problem is I haven't agreed to any such thing! What I said was I would go to Oklahoma during the summer to see if I liked it, to see if I could get a long with her friends and family. It is hard for to imagine getting a long with people who have treated her so badly..... I don't know if I can let the past go even though it's not my past..... Fri, 3 Apr 2015 21:35:37 EST another day with Betty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5904461 Well I got a phone call this morning at around 10 Betty needed a new phone charge cause she left hers in a motel room 2 hours away. So she picked me up and I got her 2 then went to her house and while she got ready for her 1:45 apt I cleaned her house. Then we did the dr. thing and then I went and did more shopping for her. Then I got home to go grocery shopping for us and then came home and cleaned our house! I am tired!!!! Thu, 2 Apr 2015 22:21:21 EST Betty kept me too long http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5903887 She wanted me for about noon and I got there we went and got her car and then did grocery shopping then I put everything away but she didn't want me to leave so I didn't get home until almost 5 so instead of going to the y I just did stuff around the house and a treadmill. Wed, 1 Apr 2015 23:29:39 EST went to the y did my classes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5903206 3 classes I felt like I was lacking and my phone kept going off while I was at the gym. Interrupting me a lot...It was kind of annoying!!!! I really wish she would come home tomorrow she will have been gone a month....I don't like being a single parent.... Tue, 31 Mar 2015 22:08:24 EST Spring break http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5901818 Well tomorrow is the first day of spring break and I have no idea what I am going to do with the kids for a whole week but I am going to figure it out...I miss hubby she needs come home now where she belongs!!!! I'm not looking forward to future move to Oklahoma but I do miss her so much! I think as long as I have her with me I can face anything even packing a 5 bedroom house to move...... Sun, 29 Mar 2015 17:33:21 EST Got so much done today!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5901296 Lets see I did the dishes, cleaned the kitchen, cleaned a cabinet washed kitchen floor on hands and knees, cleaned the bathroom and did the floor same as the kitchen, vacuumed the dinning room, living room, hall and bedroom. Also did the things I do everyday anyway like clean bunny cage and ferret cage and feed one cat special food. Also did 2 loads of clothes and tonight I am cooking dinner and of course I am on my treadmill to get my 10,000 steps!!! <BR> Sat, 28 Mar 2015 18:09:37 EST Brandi is doing better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5900768 Brandi is still weak but doing much better then she was so the momma thinks she just needed to come home for awhile. I am making her stay on the couch she is eating broth and the liquid part of chicken noodle soup and she ate some crackers with a little bit of butter. Lots of sprite, water and some tea. Of course we do have the ever faithful orange juice and sugar dropped pretty low last night but we got it right back up and she is doing well today! Fri, 27 Mar 2015 17:20:03 EST was all set to go to the gym....got a text http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5900265 I made my waters, had my bag ready to be packed, had my snack was just about to head out the door to walk to the gym..... Then got a text - I'm at KDMC emergency room are you able to come down here with me? That came from foster daughter Brandi and of course I texted on way. Now they wouldn't keep her and she is very weak but she is home on the couch and she gonna stay here til she is better! She should not have signed herself out of hospital the other day but she wouldn't listen to the drs. ... Thu, 26 Mar 2015 20:14:53 EST Trying to figure out what is good for us http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5899538 That is it and I am thinking it is going to take awhile to figure it all out. I have talked to one kid and I know how the boys feel...I still need to talk to youngest daughter and then I need to think on my own...Weighing all the pros and the cons....All about the future - Oklahoma verses Kentucky!!!! Wed, 25 Mar 2015 15:45:42 EST Oklahoma.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5898869 hubby wants all of us to move to Oklahoma.....I don't want to live in Oklahoma but I want my family back together....I move to Oklahoma and I am taking a leap of faith into the unknown....What if she doesn't catch me and I fall....Fear of the unknown is always greater then the known.....I don't know what to do.... Tue, 24 Mar 2015 13:51:40 EST My remix instructor is killing me!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5898423 I twirking, salsa, cha-cha, squats and hip rolls and then he killed my arms!!!!!Men should not be able to move like that he can!!!!! If he says pop your booty one more time I am going to pop his!!!! God did not make my booty to pop!!!!! I am so sore!!! Hope to get to bed early.... Mon, 23 Mar 2015 21:19:44 EST walked the mountain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5897825 Yes I walked up the hill that keeps on going but I also took one of the trails off of it. It was the orange trail over a mile, it was good. I took my rat terrier with me Faiel....Not sure she enjoyed it but I did. She normally loves walks but today she kept pulling to go back... Sun, 22 Mar 2015 23:15:20 EST did to much today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5897143 I had a plan and I meant to follow it BUT....The plan was do dishes, straighten up kitchen, living room and dinning room, clean the bunny cage and then go up stairs and tackle the hall way which included getting the ferrets into there new cage with all there new and old stuff and get rid of the old cage. Now all of these things did get done and there were the only plan I had other then to fix dinner. So what went wrong? Well first I realized we were out of cooking oil so I had to walk to the... Sat, 21 Mar 2015 19:15:16 EST She texted it!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5896623 Last night I sent her a text that said - I love you, I miss you, I'm in love with you good night text me if you can't sleep. Now I expected the reply that I always get which is I love and miss you too and ok to the text if you can't sleep. However instead she texted Love and miss you too in love with you too and good night and okay. She texted it!!!!! When I stopped crying enough to mention it she swore she said it on the phone earlier in the day.....Well I don't remember it being said exactl... Fri, 20 Mar 2015 17:53:49 EST I don't know what to think http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5896176 She told me today she don't think she can live without me.....Also said some of things I said hurt her feelings so she must be still in love with me. But she didn't actually say she is in love with me.....I don't know what I am suppose to think...I am so confused. Thu, 19 Mar 2015 22:49:55 EST blood work then dr http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5895285 so this morning I went in and got my blood drawn for all the heart drs tests and this afternoon I will have my apt with him and see how I am doing and what changes we will make if any and I will check on my oldest daughter because she is back in the hospital with her sugar up instead of down this time. Then I will go to the gym but I am hoping that I wont be late. Wed, 18 Mar 2015 13:43:04 EST errands to run http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5894521 yes I have errands to run today. Going to go with friend for blood work, then take Robyn to work so I can use her car to take Daimon to and from golf practice. Then taking Daimon with me to the YMCA for 3 hours (I have 3 classes tonight), then to bring Daimon home and go pick up Robyn from work. If I am up to it there are a couple of things we need from Wal-mart too.... Tue, 17 Mar 2015 10:08:01 EST cleaning this and that http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5893894 Yesterday I cleaned out the fridge and washed it but I didn't get to do the door of it so that is for today. A long with the regular stuff I am doing daily. My house is so quiet now with her gone...Kids at school or work.....I need to find some hobbies....Other then the gym.... Mon, 16 Mar 2015 11:04:46 EST I have had better days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5893452 She has been gone for 5 days and apparently knows nothing....So glad she can go out with old friends, have fun, no cares, no worries, no kids and no bills!!!!!!!!!!! Hope everyone here on spark is doing better then I am. Sun, 15 Mar 2015 17:04:21 EST I cooked http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5892835 Ok so normally Kelley did all the cooking and the kids helped out and cooked once in a while too. With Kelley gone trying to "figure out what she wants" I needed to start cooking...I use to cook for my family 17 years ago but I wasn't very good at it so here I am at 42 learning! Happy to say Cliff (Robyn's boyfriend) and I made dinner last night. He made fries and I made burgers and a mac. pasta and we did great! I was so proud of myself that I posted it all on fb and people commented and Rob... Sat, 14 Mar 2015 13:30:28 EST Little shards of hope... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5892327 So she doesn't call at all, and she hardly texts but when she does she is so cold and hurtful and then when I am in a milion pieces and she is saying she doesn't know what she wants and my heart is bleeding she texts I love and miss you.....I know it's not much but I will take these little shards of hope and hold on to them tightly!!!! If I run out of shards of hope...If she takes the shard of hope away or just obliterates my heart I will find the strength to move on...Until then I will stay ... Fri, 13 Mar 2015 14:27:25 EST She is in Oklahoma http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5891644 She left yesterday morning to go home to figure things out.....Either way she decides want or don't want me she will come back for her stuff, animals and boys.....This is not easy I'm in limbo....I don't like limbo....She hasn't text much and hasn't called at all.....No I am not doing well but I'm figuring it out slowly but surely..... Thu, 12 Mar 2015 10:02:01 EST he liked day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5891057 So Daimon (youngest son) went to play golf for the first time yesterday (although he has played miniature golf many times) and he said he liked it, said it was "fun", "awesome"...These are not words that I would use talking about golf but if he is happy I am happy! Wed, 11 Mar 2015 11:07:06 EST My youngest son is trying golf http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5890460 This will be new to him, he is 14 and although I really don't like golf at all maybe he will. I played an x box 360 game with him last night. It was a combat game where you shoot people, throw grenades and knife them...I am REALLY bad at it but he doesn't like to play alone so I guess I am better then no one???? Not sure but I hope he had more fun then I did...I can't even keep all the buttons clear from one another! Not to mention you have to move the person, keep turning the camera, aim you... Tue, 10 Mar 2015 12:11:39 EST is for classes at the Y http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889853 Yes I am ready for my classes tonight wish I could make it to morning classes.....Oh well such is life, at least they have classes in the evenings. Tonight is remix and piyo. Hope remix is fast like it was last week....Piyo could be replaced and I would go to replacement happily....Well hope everyone has a good Monday! Mon, 9 Mar 2015 12:08:27 EST my broom is where??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889236 So today is Sunday and I had plans....Did the dishes, set up meds, put a load of laundry in and straightened up the house. Was going to clean the kitchen up sweep and think about mopping so I looked everywhere for my broom....Asked the boys - nope haven't seen it....Kelley bringing Becky back to school in Berea but I called her to ask if she had any idea where the broom is... Yes....The broom is in the back of the explorer which is what she is driving.....My broom is where, and why??? Apparen... Sun, 8 Mar 2015 13:26:48 EST