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Tue, 2 Dec 2014 12:59:52 EST Wonderful summer. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5770127 Spent all summer with the grands. Swim lessons, soccer games and practice, yoga, arts and crafts, summer reading program, baseball, zumba and so much more! I felt every second of my age and loved every minute of it. It was truly an opportunity I may never get again. How wonderful is God's timing that I had time and they were still living in the area. It was wonderful. Sat, 30 Aug 2014 20:55:17 EST Yeah, sunshine! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5628985 I was driving into work at 6:30 this morning and topped one of our many hills and saw the sun. It was glorious! It looked warm and bright and promising. <BR> It raised a touch of hope in my snow weary heart as the radio had just announced another winter weather to hit us this coming week. <BR> Thank you Lord for your promise of Spring. Thu, 20 Feb 2014 08:31:05 EST February 3, 2014-A small victory. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5614322 I crashed my computer this past fall so I finally got a new one and it took forever to get a handle on Windows 8--UGH. But I'm back. Anyway, come January I jumped back on the weight loss train and picked up an accountability partner at work. This was something I really needed. So I started dealing with my emotions/feelings instead of eating them. I get stressed easily and at work food is way to handy, also that combined with sitting at a desk most of the day is not a healthy situation <BR> ... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 19:25:04 EST Welcome Nathan Peter Lawrence. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5446842 My 5th grandchild made his entrance into the world this weekend. Tiny, red, bruised from being born face up. He is helpless, scared of the noise his older siblings make and totally reliant on Mom for everything. He is so helpless. As I hold him close and marvel at his being, a nagging fear nibbles my mind. What will life be like for him as he grows? Will he have to endure bullying, abuse, hatred, fear, war, etc. I look at this child and he looks back through squinted eyes and then.. I see... Tue, 6 Aug 2013 20:01:49 EST Bad food day. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5421101 Getting back from vacation, I was so happy to only gain a pound, since we stayed with family and food, eating schedules and such was so different. But, since I've gotten' back I can't seem to get it going again. I am running from one thing to another and meals are crammed in between or snacks instead. I have to get back on track with the exercise too. I do so much better on a schedule but my life never stays on a schedule. This week I watched a video by Tennie McCarty and food additions, I... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 21:19:38 EST Doctors scare me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5393553 Do you have that problem? I make an appointment and I'm fine with that part but as the day arrives everything goes wrong. I think I sabotage myself especially with food and then when I get in I'm running to the bathroom and my Blood pressure goes up and I just want to get out of there. I forget half the things I wanted to ask and I seem to only hear the bad stuff. After an appointment like that this week my husband asks "how did it go?" I mumble, "OK I'm good for a while" and I breath a si... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 14:45:15 EST Dancing for joy. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5381311 I finally finished overhauling the scoring system for all the students in my school. We are a small school on its way out as funding is stretched to the max and with this being the case we figure in the next 5 years we will need to merge. Then with NYS sending down tons of requirements it has tripled the paper work. I am only a tech teacher so when I was approached about a project to input student scores in Excel and see if we have had an increase in those scores this year I thought why not... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 10:27:51 EST Whoa! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5363781 Haven't stopped running all month. Work had a project that needed to be done and my boss volunteered me, so I have been so busy I fall into bed at night and drag out in the morning. I will say I love a challenge so it isn't all bad just time consuming and tiring. I'll be back with all my sparkfriends soon. I am hanging in there sometimes by my teeth but I haven't gone overboard. I sign in every few days but this is coming to an end soon so I will be patient and do my best for Gods glory. Tue, 21 May 2013 18:22:59 EST Life gets confusing, sometimes. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5323795 I don't know if I'm coming or going these days. I was told I was eligible for retirement and layoffs were on the horizon as veteran instructor of 12 years it was hard to take, I applied and was accepted for my retirement. Not that I wanted too, but it is better to retire than get laid off, I thought. The Board of Ed accepted it with congrats and nice things. So I was surprised within a few days the Superintendent calls to say you can't retire. So after talking with my DH I submit my reinsta... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 10:10:33 EST My Washing Machine Life. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5308523 April finds me still where I was in December. I do fine for a few weeks then I slide. It isn't pretty and is very frustrating but during those times of slide, I don't care. I am so focused on what happened to throw me into the slide I just don't care. Then I pull myself together and rush back it to watching what I eat and exercise. It is a cycle I'm praying about. Begging God to fix is more realistic. I always seems I have intense things happening in my life. I try to convince myself tha... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 08:25:19 EST Computers GRRRRR! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5296100 My son borrowed my laptop for... about 2 years. When I got it back it sat for a while then I picked it up as the desktop was having issues. Well the short story is neither is working well. I keep getting a Bad Request error every time I go to load my food into the Spark People site. I checked the help menu and they gave me info for a Bad request 440, or something like that, but this isn't a 440 it has a few letters/numbers under the words Bad Request. I at first thought maybe SP was tryin... Fri, 22 Mar 2013 10:46:57 EST In like a Lion out like a Lamb? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5268844 Welcome MARCH! It is like there is light at the end of the tunnel. I feel better physically in warmer weather. I don't ache as much with the warmth, I feel more energized with the sunlight and look forward to hopping out of bed at first light to walk. I am so happy spring is coming. This has caused my husband and I to start considering where we wish to live when we retire. Until then I am eagerly seeking spring and checking my garden daily for proof. Fri, 1 Mar 2013 17:14:30 EST It's the climb. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5248947 <BR> <BR> This song never gets old when I think about my mountain of weight. <BR> If I can remember this I'll make it through. <BR> <BR> Have a great day. <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=-t46xJpQnv8 </link> Wed, 13 Feb 2013 10:55:33 EST Preparing for the storm http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5243149 For days now we have heard about this big winter storm named Nemo. My SIL quips,"well we found Nemo." So we stocked in bread, milk and low fat Ice cream. Prepared the shovels and calcium spread. Tucked the grill in a corner on the back porch, we leave it out as I grill all year round, and removed anything that could blow away. I went to school today and we closed early. I hurried home to get off the roads. I curled up with a book, the cat and a rerun of Dr. Who and found I dozed off. I wok... Fri, 8 Feb 2013 18:19:13 EST Friendship-What type of friend are you? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5233118 Ever notice how few friends one has when things go wrong? I had a hard time this past week when in a meeting I thought one thing and heard myself say another. The look on the faces of my friends around me told me more than words could say. <BR> I put my foot in it big time. <BR> At that moment I remembered what my mother used to say, "true friends are rare". True friends will always defend you even if they don't understand because they know you. They believe there is a reason for what you d... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 11:35:48 EST Changes good or not so good. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5229079 In the past when I was upset, hurt or overwhelmed I ate. I ate my anger, my fears, my frustrations and shoot I just ate. This week I have been going through an extremely difficult emotional time. However, I can't seem to eat. My body is rejecting food of any kind. I have never experienced this before. I am under eating but I have so much extra on my body I'm not starving. I can't rejoice in this as I am still very upset, but I am amazed that my body is not calling for food to kill the sick... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 16:55:10 EST Tuesday, January 22nd. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5219128 I stepped on the scale this morning and found I have started losing again. It was a wonderful. I was being ever so vigilant and it wasn't showing but I hung in there, even bypassing my favourite candy bar when i was stressed. I ate well and healthy today and planned for tomorrow, so I am looking forward to the next weigh in. Tue, 22 Jan 2013 19:58:29 EST Monday January 21st. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217537 I have been so busy at work I've not spent much time on my Spark page so because I let work get in the way, my weight has maintained instead of dropping and I lost my little current status window. I will miss that as I so enjoy reading about others current status. <BR> I am happy about work though as it makes the days fly by and keeps my mind active. I love mystery books and movies so when I meet a challenge in my work I really enjoy working it out. <BR> This week my Superintendent call... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 19:39:25 EST Inclement weather. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5209680 I woke a few minutes before 5 with the phone ringing. My school closed do to inclement weather. I rolled over and went back to sleep. My husband rolled out and headed outside to see what we got. Not Much , he says, but it is freezing rain mixed with snow. I love these unplanned days. Since I don't have a to do list it is like "free" time to do something I want or something I haven't been able to do. I considered waxing the old wood floor in the living room, scrubbing the kitchen floor, wat... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 09:20:31 EST Saturday ramblings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5191989 I started looking at clothes in a smaller size. I'm at that in between stage. My woman’s 18/20's are baggy but the 14/16s are tight. So I am dreaming of the day I will fit. I took a page from a fellow SP and I went to Salvation Army and bought a suit in a size 14 to hang where I can see it. I am waiting for my DH to ask if it is a new decoration. I look at it and Thank God that I will be there one day. So I am looking forward to this experience and trusting God to help me get there. He ... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 18:26:58 EST Goal setting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5186493 I am terrible at setting goals. No, let me rephrase that I am terrible at accomplishing goals I set. My intentions are good but we know about the road of good intentions. I'd like to set some goals that I will accomplish but I am hesitant to put them into writing and have to reset them later. So I asked God what goals I should set. Verses starting coming to mind like "do justly, love mercy and walk humbly with your God", "Whatsoever things are just, pure.....", " bring every thought into capt... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 15:43:38 EST Digging out--- side and in. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5179185 OK, so I live in the Northeast, I understand it snows here in winter but it was like someone threw a switch. We had fall weather with a chilly day now and then and 2 weeks ago it was in the upper 50's with rain. Then POW the day after Christmas temps below 30, 4 inches of the white stuff followed by a layer of freezing rain and the promise of 3 inches more. <BR> I was kinda excited to see it I called my grands up the block to come help me dig out. So 2 hours later I sent them home so I co... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 20:24:47 EST Christmas season temptations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5150370 Just a few lines to say I made it through Thanksgiving. My doctor was pleased with the weight loss but upset with the BP numbers. Oh, well. Then at work it started. People dropping goodies off at my desk and asking me to taste this or that and give my opinion about the flavor, texture or moisture content. It is going to be a hard time. Groan. Thu, 29 Nov 2012 09:34:46 EST Lovely words of life. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5137286 Ever noticed that there are certain words that just bring life, strength and encouragement to your day? Words like, "Wow you look great!" or " We could not have done this with out you!", "I needed to hear that, thank you so much!" and many others. Then too, I guess it is also the way it is said and the person saying them. This week I was having a blue day. Reports were due, reports cards, make up work from being out so much, APPR stuff, Common core unit plans, etc. it just felt over whelmi... Fri, 16 Nov 2012 10:03:25 EST My Saturdays are just not right. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5131664 Some thing is not right with my Saturday routine. Every weekday I get up early, go to work, eat at my desk, leave late, go home, walk, fix dinner, clean up and check my SP page, do other things, etc. I sleep fine, usually I am not tired during the day and I have energy to get things done. On Saturdays I sleep one hour later, clean house, do laundry, run errands or shop, see the grand kids, go to bed at the regular time. What I am noticing is on Sunday I am exhausted. I am wanting a nap by... Sun, 11 Nov 2012 15:06:51 EST November 5th- Thoughts. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5124754 Today we went back to work after being out for a week do to the hurricane. Everyone was touching base with others to see how they had fared. Most everyone had power back and a few had just gotten it back the the last 24 hours. We all are in sympathy for those still struggling in NYC and the Jersey shore, as we yet brace ourselves for a winter storm moving in. There are so many that have no heat, power, or the ability to get anywhere these things are available. Our area is sending blankets, ... Mon, 5 Nov 2012 11:14:10 EST November 3rd- Looking foward. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5122665 Today the grands came over and "helped" my DH and I start the set up for the Christmas train layout. It is a process that takes a number of days to complete with village, train and snow of course. A wise lady once told me no matter what the calendar says it is only one week between Thanksgiving and Christmas. I have found it true through the years and we seem to start earlier each year and occasionally don't get it all done. <BR> This year I am armed with 3 new low calorie, healthy recipes ... Sat, 3 Nov 2012 16:14:19 EST November 1, 2012- ENOUGH all ready! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5120407 Yesterday I had great plans and I blew it. I must say I blew it over nothing....well it was like this. I got a call, because of the damage from SANDY my job has been closed. The call told me it would be closed thru the end of the week. I don't know about you but I can't afford to miss a week of work. I felt helpless and overwhelmed with all the implications of a lost week's pay, so as my day progressed I blew it. I sat on the couch not moving and watched old movies and ate Halloween candy u... Thu, 1 Nov 2012 14:44:30 EST October 31, 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5119098 I have been working on setting definite goals. One is to only weigh in once a week since my days can improve or be horrible depending on what that little white square says. So far so good. . The hardest one is one that I see a lot on SP, for instance I will lose 10 pounds by such-n-such a date. I need to figure out how to get my body to do what my mind wants. Wed, 31 Oct 2012 12:36:05 EST Friday is almost here! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5112437 My son called to say he is coming home for the weekend. I love having my kids home but those of you who have followed my blog know this is special in so many ways. I am praying the love we show will bring him back to walk the path to God. Praying, hoping and anticipating a great weekend. Thu, 25 Oct 2012 12:27:55 EST I think I can, I think I can. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5108263 Long time, it seems, since I started this journey and yet when I see the date it isn't. It seems long as a friend had surgery and lost 55 pounds in 3 months. I could have done that but chose to learn discipline and control instead. I have learned how undisciplined I actually am and how hard this learning process seems. I keep hearing you are doing great hang in there and I think I can I just wished I could learn faster. Mon, 22 Oct 2012 10:42:45 EST Why do I have to Sweat? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5098927 I wanted a nap. I wanted more hours in my day. I wanted to clean my house. I wanted to do anything other than exercise today. I said its Sunday a day of rest right?! I should take it easy. It was a rough week and they are getting harder at work I deserve to relax. I didn't over eat. I didn't even want too, that was amazing by itself. So I am going to read and nap. Well two hours later I was ready to go. I put my 2 mile walk with Leslie Sansone in and said lets try. I DID IT! I was pour... Sun, 14 Oct 2012 18:02:13 EST Children will break your heart but God heals the heart. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5089692 It is said," children will break your heart", and too often the choices they make do. A few months back my son was dating a girl we didn't like. She was very demanding and full of drama, always sick or on the edge of dying, very needy. We could never figure out what he saw in her. He is now in a difficult situation as he is about to become a father and he and the girl are no longer together. It leaves us in a difficult situation too. He has moved far away and so she contacts us regarding th... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 08:03:47 EST September http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5078894 It is almost over, this lovely month of change. I know I have changed. I see eating and exercise in a different light than before. That doesn't mean I won't mess up but for now it is coming together if I can keep my impatience under control. It took me 40+ years to get this way I am NOT going to fix it in two hours, two days or two weeks. This is life with its ups and downs. This is change. Fri, 28 Sep 2012 21:33:23 EST My body is a mystery. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5068915 My good days and bad days were being judged by my scale. Good day my weight down. Bad day my weight was up. So I decided to weigh in once a week only. That decision lasted 3 days. I found myself on the scales....lets just say it was a good day. The next week I made it the whole week and lost 2 pounds. I was happy. I found an exercise/eating routine that was working and one I could live with. I blasted into the next two weeks menus in one hand my workout clothes in the other. I maintained. W... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 09:37:53 EST Back to work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5034979 Summer is over and it is back to work for me. The good Lord knew I needed summers off when he lead me into teaching. But, the lazy days of soaking up the sun and napping doesn't always appear in my summers <BR> In the past 2 months I've had off we have spent 2 weeks in Minnesota, a week set up for VBS, a week of VBS, worked a chicken BBQ, worked a penny social, worked a street fair, recorded a CD in a studio (delightful experience) helped a young friend pack up for college, spent time with gr... Tue, 28 Aug 2012 17:02:23 EST Help, please. pt2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5017249 For all who offered advice and prayer, Bless You! I confronted this friend and I couldn't believe it was me. I was firm, loving and laid out the issue (I had it written down for focus). She accepted it, apologized, hugged me, apologized, said she would approach the others involved and apologize and Thanked Me for bringing this to her with tears in her eyes. I hope she didn't see my jaw drop to the floor. This was a first for me to be thanked for confronting someone about something they did.... Wed, 15 Aug 2012 21:31:18 EST Help, please. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5015490 I hate correctional confrontation. I always feel like I am this meek, shaky, little mouse squeaking to this large, steadfast, roaring Lion. Usually when I know it is coming I start eating... you know all the sweets, salty chips, big meals, anything NOT moving, etc. By the time I face the person I may crumble or not but I hate myself for letting it get to me. Well I need to confront a friend today. I hope the friendship is strong enough to last but for the first time in years I haven't ove... Tue, 14 Aug 2012 17:50:49 EST Today was lovely! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5014257 What a lovely day! After days of lots of activity and high heat with humidity it was 78 and breezy. The company we were expecting didn't show. So we had an unplanned day. We jumped in the convertible and drove off. We picked up sandwiches and drinks at a deli and drove on any road that we came to. We found a lake with an over look and pulled the blanket out of the car and had a impromptu picnic. Just taking in the sun, the breeze, the view, and no place we had to be. It felt like we were... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 21:35:21 EST One step at a time. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4938678 The scriptures tells us God guides the steps of the righteous. I am so glad He does. It is a relief to know He is in control. As I look to Him for strength and guidance in this area of moderation I struggle with, is this good, is this bad can I do this, can I afford not to do this? It is a slow process one step at a time. I am trying to concentrate on that one step, one meal, one plate, one bite, one day at a time. For someone who is in the business of planning months down the road this is... Sat, 23 Jun 2012 09:26:16 EST Grandma's Diet or God's Diet? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4907973 I've tried them all back in the day it was Aides-a weight loss caramel to be taken before meals with a hot cup of tea. Then there was the popcorn diet in college and the Daniel Fast,on to Weight Watchers, Atkins, Weigh Down, Fasting every other day, Pills, Curves, Biggest Loser, Overeater's Anonymous and so on. I begged, pleaded, blamed, tried to bargain with and whined to God to make it go away. I quit. I ate whatever I wanted whenever. I would get sick of myself and start again. Up/Down I... Fri, 1 Jun 2012 20:30:16 EST May is almost gone! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4903363 Did you ever notice that sometimes wanting something is better than having it? I have finish therapy but find I miss the people I worked out with and the encouragement given during that time. I live in a very rural area I have to drive 45 minutes to work (in another rural area), shop or visit the doctor. So joining a gym is not something available to me. I have to keep up the therapy exercises or my knee will get worse and I am trying to get back to where I once was with walking. But there ... Tue, 29 May 2012 20:39:40 EST I will do it with God's help. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4878248 Summer vacation plans are ahead and my schedule is already double booked. I decided I am not going to stop the exercise and eating right, not for several graduation parties, a 1-2 week car trip to Minnesota to see family, multiple picnics, church events (VBS, Penny Social, Chicken BBQ, Bluegrass concert), then there is the babysitting the grands, extra work before school starts that doesn't include room set up, and family reunions both sides. It seems as if two and a half months is so full i... Sat, 12 May 2012 11:55:15 EST Really?! Sigh! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4829144 There are days.... you know suddenly I can't remember how I did something. How did I get that computer program to do that? How did I win this game last time? How did I up load those pictures and Where did I save them?! Life seems to me to be full of "How did I do that again?". Like 5 minutes ago when I looked at my spark photos and said, how do I upload more, duh wait a moment I'll remember, probably about 3 am. I remember most important things then but forget them when the alarm goes off a... Tue, 10 Apr 2012 18:25:47 EST Set back or Slow down? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4816712 A visit to the doctor's office today brought good news. My knee that is hurting is fine, however I need some therapy and an anti-inflammatory pain medication to help. I pushed too hard too fast. I was biking 20 minutes a day, walking 5 miles a week and doing my stretches and exercise with weights I was so excited,then I slipped off the curb at work only to find about an hour later I was in pain and walking with a limp. I used a cane on/off for 2 weeks. The orthopedic checked it out since it ... Mon, 2 Apr 2012 12:07:23 EST Flowers and the Father. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4786247 Today it hit 70 degrees and my crocuses popped out and spread color in the dry, brown ugly front garden. I suddenly noticed the view as I struggled in from my walk. I paused a moment to catch my breath and send up a "Thank you" to my Heavenly Father. It has been a rough few weeks seeming as if we move from one terrible incident to another each one is a chance to Trust God more and more but it still feels heavy, emotion packed and an opportunity for the enemy to suddenly drop fear and doubt in... Tue, 13 Mar 2012 21:07:00 EST March goals. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4766896 Increase my stretches by 10 more minutes. <BR> - NOT volunteer for extra projects at work, just for this month. <BR> - Cut my diet soda consumption. <BR> -Come up with a reward system that doesn't include food. <BR> <BR> All of the above are baby steps toward my goal. I need less stress as stress always leads me to food so I decided to cut back on extra things a work no chaperoning the Spring band concert, volunteering for the props on the play and only completing the fund raiser for the fac... Fri, 2 Mar 2012 10:05:02 EST Biggest loser works....differently. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4762265 I started watching past Biggest Loser episodes. I realize that the situation is not the norm as the losers live in a type of bubble, with trainers, food and big prizes. However, it has motivated me in other areas. My biggest snack time is about 4:00 when I get home from school. I eat lunch at 11:00 am and we don't usually eat dinner until my husband comes home at 7:00 pm. Now a snack is usual but I sometimes don't stop there. I nibble this, taste that and munch my way through mega stuff and ... Tue, 28 Feb 2012 20:48:50 EST Boy,do I ache. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4748503 I am not happy with the bike/treadmill results so I got a "Biggest Loser" DVD and gave it a try. It was refreshing and I was happy I could keep up, mostly. About two hours later I am finishing email and go to get up.... Ouch, hurt, pain! Ok. it was the first time I have done a DVD in ages so I need to find something in between. So I am on an adventure to find what works for me and doesn't kill me. I want something that energizes, gets results and makes me want to do it again and again. So I ... Mon, 20 Feb 2012 21:44:40 EST