JAHAR929's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JAHAR929 JAHAR929's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Oh delinquent writings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5883182 I'm so good at going on hiatus, I should be a travel agent! Anyways, lots of life changes that have kept me away. <BR> <BR> Still plugging along with the dissertation (which I was putting in some serious footwork before the holidays!), I was interviewing for new jobs, I was doing the crossfit thing, the holidays, accepting a job and moved to Denver! <BR> <BR> I never thought I was going to get out of Ohio. That place was never anything other than dark, cold, dreary and just when it start... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 13:53:12 EST feeling like I could eat a horse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5807650 Sometimes I really hate having hormones and stress. It simply makes me feel like I cannot get enough food. Lately, I have felt totally insatiable and that is the absolute worst feeling. My brain and my body are just not in agreement that enough is enough lately.... <BR> <BR> Anyone else ever feel this way? It's absolutely miserable. Nothing is quenching my feeling of hunger. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/6/l761295552.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Peace and love all---I'm go... Thu, 30 Oct 2014 15:54:43 EST America's roller coast http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802178 Hello all, <BR> <BR> So, since I have a few moments of free time, I'm going to catch you up on another blog entry. <BR> <BR> Let's go to last weekend. Not this past weekend, but the weekend of the 11th. I went to Cedar Point with some friends and was truly anticipating not riding any roller coasters because my darling Josh was not really a big fan. I , on the other hand, LOVE THEM! I love the thrill, the excitement, the anticipation, all of it! <BR> <BR> Anyways, I managed to talk him on... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 13:35:11 EST My half marathon.......my first one ever! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802162 Well, I did it. Back in the first weekend in October, I ran my first half marathon and it was surprisingly easier than I thought. It was def. a challenge to my mental stamina, but I did it. And, even better, I did it with two of my dearest friends. No better way to accomplish a life goal than to do it with the people who are important to you. <BR> <BR> Anyways, just wanted to share my happy hearted enthusiasm and let you all know that it was a beast and a feat, but training and perseverance... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 13:08:02 EST coming a long way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5791791 Good afternoon readers! <BR> <BR> Just wanting to share some positive news on this dreary day. Today is just a good day. Tomorrow, I am pushing out a major life goal---I'm running my first half marathon. <BR> <BR> I'm terrified!!!! But, I am also equally excited! <BR> <BR> That said, going into my run tomorrow, I wanted to share some progress shots because today is a FEELING FABULOUS FRIDAY! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/6/l561422666.jpg"> <BR> I thought I was... Fri, 3 Oct 2014 14:50:37 EST The smile that wont fade http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5784768 Ah, this weekend. Today, I am happy. The weather screams of fall: brisk, cool air. The smell of leaves changing. The feel of a dull sun on my lightly wind blown face. The feel of autumn. I love the midwest in the fall. I cant get enough of the colors, the smells, and the tastes. Apples and cider. Caramel apples and pumpkin everything. The colors of burnt orange, deep reds, and bright yellows cascading the tree-lines, making driving anywhere a site of pure joy. <BR> <BR> Yes, days like today,... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 13:06:41 EST When you are told "you seem really happy" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5779939 Today has been an incredible day and I was told, after skyping my most favoritest person ever, that I looked incredibly happy....that he could just tell I was really happy and the smile on my face was genuine and it was nice to see that. <BR> <BR> I suppose you never really know how much other people's negative energy affects you until you have that epiphany moment where you are insanely happy and in a good mood that overrides all sense of reality. <BR> <BR> Yep, that is me today. All smil... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 22:47:42 EST How faith fits in with my fitness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5779573 There are many days that I lean into my faith more heavily then others. Days where I need additional strength, guidance, or understanding to really try to get through whatever challenge or success I am facing. <BR> <BR> I believe that my faith has given me courage to believe in processes, to have hope when I felt like I couldn't handle all that was being thrown at me, to have strength and solace that I am not alone and I am not powerless, to have the ability to overcome adversity and have o... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 09:41:36 EST When people project mean things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5778100 I'll keep this blog brief as it is just simple reflection on my feelings at the moment. <BR> <BR> I was just put on blast by a friend (or soon to be ex-friend) over some misguided communications and hurt feelings that were never reconciled. <BR> <BR> Now, I take responsibility for my roles in my relationships and lord knows I am not perfect, but I am always, ALWAYS willing to step up to the plate to right my wrong doings or short comings to make a relationship or interaction a positive o... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 18:32:13 EST How much I love laughing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777876 Sometimes I share funny stories about myself and then I think "Jackie, do people really care to read about your ridiculousness or your silly mishappenings" and then I think to myself, welp---if you like laughing as much as I do, then ya, maybe people will enjoy a good story (laughing at my expense) and I will share it :) <BR> <BR> So, as today is kind of dark and gloomy, I felt like a little Thursday laughter was in order. <BR> <BR> As you know, my cat Bruce has quite the sense of humor as ... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 10:40:58 EST My gym pet peeves http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777249 Good morning world--happy Wednesday! <BR> <BR> Like most people here, training and working out, health, well-being, fitness and nutrition are all important components of why we love SparkPeople. I am no different in that I love to talk about wellness, health and fitness with anyone who is willing to listen to my ramblings or even look to me for advice. <BR> <BR> Now, I have some gal pals at the gym where I train who I truly look up to as my fitsporation. They are beautiful, strong and work ... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 12:09:20 EST I am who I am http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5776921 A little late night rambling and reflecting on the person that I am. <BR> <BR> I'm sometimes a little emotional. <BR> I can be a little overprotective. <BR> I tend to care way too much and over think everything. <BR> I love to love. Pure and simple. <BR> I have my moments when I know I can be incredible difficult to deal with. <BR> I believe that everyone has an ability to do good. <BR> I love the onset of fall. <BR> I can never turn down a really good love story. <BR> I like to run, a lot.... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 23:53:03 EST feeling the stress of being in the writing phase of PhD http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755781 Ah, time is just not my friend and it is really challenging when it comes to trying to find time to write. <BR> <BR> They all said this would happen. <BR> That it would be a lonely place. <BR> That other things would seem more enjoyable (and anything is more enjoyable) <BR> and that it would be hard. Long. and require unquestioned dedication and commitment. <BR> <BR> They.were.right. <BR> <BR> I struggle. I struggle with wanting to be further along. To sound more scholarly. To feel like I... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 13:32:56 EST The throws of double membership http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716638 Okay folks, I need some advice. <BR> <BR> I currently have a gym membership at my rec center at the University I work at. It's not too terribly expensive, about 25 a month. I pay 50 a semester if I want to take classes (which adds 150 onto my yearly membership of about 300/yr---so 450). <BR> <BR> Over the summer months, the club closes SUPER early (9p) and even earlier on weekends. During the school year, if I go at 'peak times' good luck getting on ANYTHING. It's insane. So, it's always a... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 16:38:05 EST Why I struggle with Western medicine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715135 So, I have migraines. For as long as I can remember. I do everything I can to manage them naturally so I do not have to take a bunch of medicine. I don't agree with all the practices of doctors in the States, and sometimes I feel like giving me a pill is a 'bandaid' and not a solution to an issue. <BR> <BR> That is all I will preach on that because if I really wanted to hop on my horse about pharmaceuticals and meds and doctors, I can, but not everyone cares to hear my opinions. <BR> <BR>... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 17:13:03 EST The updates http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5710724 I haven't written in such a long time. This happens when life really starts to get busy. I don't always agree with the hustle and bustle of life, but it is what it is. <BR> <BR> I'm going to put my updates from the past few months in a list of top 50: <BR> <BR> 50: finished out my academic year and met with my faculty advisor and have finally nailed down my topic for my dissertation. Come on proposal.... <BR> 49. I bought a snowboard and I love it. Kind of wish it was still winter! Wait, I ... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 18:03:13 EST the tales of my cat, Bruce http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662191 Well, if I could share another story about how CRAZY smart my cat is. <BR> <BR> The other day, I am sitting at my counter working on my laptop when I hear the toilet flush. <BR> <BR> Yes, the toilet flushed. <BR> <BR> Somewhat dumbfounded, I shake my head. I know that I am the only person in the apartment, but did I really just hear my toilet FLUSH itself? <BR> <BR> Then, HE appears. All curious and accomplished, my lil bugger of a cat came bouncing out of the bathroom like nothing happ... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 23:13:08 EST April fools spring weather http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662187 Ah, what a TEASE today was with the high 60/low 70 degree day we had today. <BR> <BR> Lost every ounce of motivation to do anything other than go out and enjoy the sunshine, spring breeze, and nice weather! <BR> <BR> I feel like this is a sick joke Mother Nature...... <BR> <BR> Peace and love (and hopefully more nice days) <BR> <BR> Jackie Tue, 1 Apr 2014 23:06:43 EST Dietbet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5657486 Has anyone tried this and had it work for them? <BR> <BR> From the little that I know about it, you pay in and if you lose the weight you say you are (like the Jillian Michaels 4% in 4 weeks coming up April 1) then you split the pot of winnings with anyone else who has won as well. <BR> <BR> Has anyone done it? Worked??? does money motivate, even if it is your own? <BR> <BR> I'm really curious about this! Thu, 27 Mar 2014 02:41:12 EST Where are the smileys? Oh right, lost with this Ohio weather http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5646124 Woke up this morning with a case of the 'blahs.' <BR> <BR> I don't know if it is because of the bi-polar weather change or what, but I woke up ready to go work out and then just decided that I didn't want to go. THAT IS SO UNLIKE ME!!!!!!! The weather has me feeling backwards too. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, it was a lovely 62 degrees in NE Ohio and then this morning we are under a winter storm warning and it is currently sleeting and snowing--hard. I went out and ran 4 miles and left my cares, w... Wed, 12 Mar 2014 11:18:41 EST Lonely http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5625982 Ugh, days have been rough lately. Getting over being unbelievably sick the last few weeks and navigating a seriously long distance military relationship has really been taking its toll on me. Maybe it is because I have not been able to go to the gym and train or maybe because I have not seen Neil when I really needed him lately and we don't know when I will see him again (so I don't have any fun countdowns going on or trips to look forward too) OR maybe it's both, but it really stinks lately.... Sun, 16 Feb 2014 23:31:13 EST Reactions to the Biggest Loser finale? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5617085 I have to jump into this because this is the first time in a few years that I have actually watched a finale episode of the BL. I don't have much time for TV because of my school work, but since I was down and out and super sick, I flipped the tv over just in time to see the final three weigh in. <BR> <BR> I was with my coworker who had brought me by some soup and so we both decided to watch it. I saw Rachel come out and I was like, "wow, she looks really thin. I would say she is about 120" ... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 16:04:46 EST So Sick http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5617078 Nothing like being totally caught off guard with the crazy sinus sickness that literally derails you from everything you have going on in your world! <BR> <BR> Yep, I caught it. Been off work the last two days. Finally trying to be functional today, but not with out some difficulty. The thought of working out is depressing me because I want too, but my body is giving me a HUGE thumbs down. I hate that feeling---when I really want to be able to do something and just physically cannot. And, se... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 15:55:59 EST Looking the part http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5602462 In other news, I had a killer workout the other day and decided that I really enjoy hitting the weights/gym/road in really sweet apparrel! I mean, to some people, they dont care what they wear to the gym to work out--and trust me, somedays, I dont care either. I mean, I'm not looking to find a partner or screw around. I'm there to DO WORK! But, I will tell you---there is just something about new workout clothes, gear, shoes, etc. that sets my heart ablaze and I can't help but feel that my wor... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 15:13:25 EST Do you ever just feel.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5602454 like you look bigger than you actually are? <BR> <BR> That is how I have been feeling lately. Super large, super heavy, super stressed, emotional, eating, blah, blah, blah.I hate days like this, when I just feel like when I look at myself I see the 'old me.' Not the 'in progress' me. I feel like there is a relatively small girl on the outside, but man, somedays I just dont see her. This week has been one of those weeks. I just feel like a hot mess...like a strait up busted can of biscuits.... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 15:08:47 EST Hello MUSCLES :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5583275 Just loving my back! I've been putting in some heavy duty work into it and it is coming in so nice! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1652648086.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Peace and love and GAINS! Sun, 5 Jan 2014 17:27:12 EST Happy happy happy girl http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5583254 Oh friends. How amazing my was holiday?!?! I don't know that I could write it out and do it any sort of justice. <BR> <BR> Two and a half weeks of amazingness. Getting to wake up on Christmas morning and be with my Lt. Getting to kiss his sweet face on New Years Eve. Sleeping in his arms. Holding his face in my hands. Seeing him smile. Cooking dinner together. Working out together. Just being with one another---trying to be as immersed in the moments we have together and not thinking about t... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 17:13:19 EST Happy as ever http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5570565 So, its been about 6 days with my Officer and I couldn't be happier. If it is laying in bed, watching movies, going out to dinner, cooking in or working out, I AM BEYOND HAPPY. <BR> <BR> I honestly am being mindful of my diet and we are working out together, but my gosh, I am just truly relishing in the enjoyment, happiness, and contentment that is being with my better half. <BR> <BR> On that note, Jan 1. I am signing up for the Air Force Half Marathon in Dayton, Ohio that is in September... Mon, 23 Dec 2013 15:24:24 EST Oh, the woes of the holiday season http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5565686 This time of year, I tend to become such a grinch. I get so bent out of shape with all the hustle and bustle that comes with people being such hyper-consumers over buying things for Christmas/holidays. I was reflecting a lot on Thanksgiving with my family about how stores are opening up earlier and earlier, often cutting into what would be a normal 'dinner' time just so they can have an edge on all the hyper-consumerism that happens on "black Friday" or even now what I believe to be "too-soon... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 13:00:37 EST What I love about love. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5543032 Oh my, my, my. For some reason, my mind is all over LOVE. Maybe it is the fact that I have been doing an insane amount of yoga lately and have truly given into the beauty of the practice, but man, I am just loving love lately. I get giddy when I hear about the love of others, I swell at the selfless out pour of love that is being shared in the world when a tragedy strikes or human kind is struggling, I connect with the love that is shared in the most subtle of ways---a smile from a stranger, ... Sat, 16 Nov 2013 22:15:23 EST Reunited and it feels SO good (even if its SO short lived) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5533888 So, the time I had been waiting for had come. October 25th, I flew to Alabama to see my guy after being gone for three months for Officer Training in the USAF. It was a hard three month separation, individually and for our relationship. The things he went through and the way our relationship had to adapt to accommodate these changes was very taxing. <BR> <BR> That said, when I got off the airplane, I had no idea Neil was going to be there waiting for me. Like a movie, my bags literally fel... Wed, 6 Nov 2013 12:01:35 EST A letter to my old self http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5522316 Dear 'old' self, <BR> <BR> I first want to say, we have come a long way. There are times I wonder how we got to where we did, how we managed to make it through all the crazy things life throws at you, but we did. We survived, we persevered, we didn't give up for a second! <BR> <BR> I want to thank you for holding strong and believing that even though things were rough at times and that the rain was never going to let up, you never caved. You never quit. You never threw your hands up and let... Thu, 24 Oct 2013 12:59:26 EST I always wondered where I hid 30 lbs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5507964 I know that I have written numerous times about how I lost this weight but I never really felt 'fat' and never really saw myself as being heavy or overweight. Now, the scale and BMI told me differently. I am having a health screening done on Thursday...nearly 3 years from when I was at my HEAVIEST. <BR> <BR> I think we all remember that 'oh my God' moment where we decided to change our lives around and commit to being healthier. I remember mine. It was January 2011. I was going to the doct... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 12:37:47 EST I did it--I ran my first race http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5507938 This will be short and sweet. I have signed up for a bunch of races and have backed out of each of them. This past Sunday, I ran my first ever race...start to finish. The Cleveland Rock and Roll Mini marathon. Such a great experience and so challenging. I loved every minute of it. <BR> <BR> What I will say is that I learned something about myself during this race. I figured out what the "FEAR" is that has held me back from running a race all these times. It was never that I couldn't do the... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 12:03:47 EST monday morning blahs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5507128 You ever have those mornings where you just dont want to get out of bed and that working a day seems like it is going to just drag and your productivity is just not where it needs to be. <BR> <BR> If you said yes, then please feel free to join me on what I like to call "the struggle bus." <BR> <BR> It picked me up around 8 am this morning and I have been on a whirlwind of a ride ever since. <BR> <BR> Oh Monday, you make me MISS Friday! <BR> <BR> Peace and love all! Mon, 7 Oct 2013 15:29:29 EST Bruce, he is a silly creature http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5502477 So I mentioned how I was going to write about my silly little kitty, Bruce. Well, he never fails to make me laugh till I want to pee my pants and the lil bugger did it again the other night. <BR> <BR> Picture this. I am sitting at my breakfast bar working on my laptop trying to fix my email account. I hear Bruce go into the litterbox (which is a HUGE condo of a porta-john. He needs lots of room in there and I learned this very early on). I can't blame him, who doesn't like a big ol' fancy co... Wed, 2 Oct 2013 12:31:21 EST short ramblings of feelings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5501320 I wish I could list out all the feelings that I have going on, but that would be a pretty endless mess of confused mumblings and ill interpreted ramblings. <BR> <BR> Anyways, all I can say is that this is my favorite time of year. September and October bring about a sense of happiness that I just want to scream from the rooftops. I.LOVE.FALL! <BR> <BR> Needless to say, with Neil gone, its been a rough time....but I think what has made it more rough is that in the past two weeks, he has bee... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 11:22:58 EST The http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5493252 I have to write this out and I am hoping that it elicits some chatter. Now, I have been to a lot of weddings in my day. I've been a bridesmaid in several and I've been a bride myself....so, I have a good wealth of experiences under my belt when it comes to what I have seen at weddings. <BR> <BR> Now, I love going to weddings. Outside of the fun dancing, open bars, beautiful decor, fun atmosphere, great food, CAKE, and having an excuse to dress up all fancy--I really love seeing new and creat... Sun, 22 Sep 2013 22:57:28 EST Did last week even happen? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5489234 Time is such a monster at times. There are times we are great friends--I feel like it moves at a perfect pace that allows me to get all the things done that I need to accomplish and I feel so grateful and gratified in how time is on my side. Times like when I am at yoga and I want it just to melt slowly like ice cream on a luke warm day. Or when I am out with friends on a Friday night engaging in wonderful conversation over much needed glasses of vino. Then there are days where it feels like... Wed, 18 Sep 2013 12:02:08 EST The text that made my week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5476769 As you all have (or may not have read), It's been almost three weeks since Neil left for the Air Force. I miss him. Obviously. Being a milso is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do and it has really renewed my spirits in just how strong of a person I really am and how strong my love is for this man. <BR> <BR> Last night, we chatted. Yes, I feel spoiled becuase I get these little minute long treasures in my week that I can actually hear his voice. Each of these times, it's hard to ... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 12:31:36 EST Juicing into day two http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5476756 Ah, welcome to day two of a juice detox. I really look forward to my morning juice. It's sweet and super satisfying. I really didn't think I would want juice, but I found myself wanting it and my body LOVES it. I get more hype out of my morning juice than my cup of joe. <BR> <BR> ^^^^^^^^^^ did you all read that comment. Coming from a die hard Starbucks and Dunkin and Timmy Hortons LOVER, I cannot beleive I am even speaking those words! But, it's true. <BR> <BR> Juicing is giong supe wel... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 12:16:08 EST I want to talk about juicing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5476149 I just got my Breville juicer and I love it. I really, really do. I watched "Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead" and like most people was ready to juice my life away the minute I watched it. It's a documentary, on Netflix. Watch at your own risk.... <BR> <BR> Now, let me share with you some of what my day looked like today as I decided I wanted to try a three day juice cleanse. <BR> <BR> Woke up, decided to go spinning. Since I just got my juicer, I am FULL SPEED AHEAD on wanting to cut out all foo... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 21:35:13 EST It's the time and distance that's hard, loving him is the easy part.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5474702 So, I only have a few moments to jot down a few statements about how I am feeling with the military leave. <BR> <BR> I got to talk to Neil yesterday because it was a holiday and they were granted a few moments to use thier phones. During this call, I could tell how emotionally drained and emotionally beaten down my sweetheart was. It was so hard to stay strong and hear in his voice how miserable this process is. I let him vent and just tried to be supportive and encouraging though everytime... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 13:54:32 EST So I caved and bought a juicer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5469103 I did it. I bought a juicer. <BR> <BR> What is so shocking about this is that whenever I go to make a purchase on anything, I spend LOTS of time in 'the market' for an item before finally getting it. This, my friends, is the shortest time I have ever been in the market for something! <BR> <BR> Let me explain. When I was looking for a tablet, it took about 6 months to figure out which one I wanted to buy and what I was WILLING to pay for it. Ugh. Then a car...don't even get me started on ho... Wed, 28 Aug 2013 16:25:16 EST One week down, many more to go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5467779 Being in a military relationship is a lot like weight loss. <BR> <BR> Time feels like forever before you see results (or your significant other). You have these awesome high's and these challenging lows. You work really hard to keep your mind busy so you are not thinking about food (or your love). You often feel like the start of the journey is unsurmountable and that you will never make it, but knowing that you will have a moment where you will look back and say that you did it. There are t... Tue, 27 Aug 2013 11:02:20 EST One day at a time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5461486 Tonight has been tough. <BR> <BR> Spent the day with my phone locked between hopeful fingers. Wondering if I would hear from Neil and wondering if he would have a minute to call me, just so I could hear his voice. <BR> <BR> I had to attend a banquet this evening for work and while I was giving the opening remarks, my colleague and friend came running towards me with my phone in her hand. I saw it--a missed call. Shaking, I quickly tried to call him back. It had only been two minutes, he s... Tue, 20 Aug 2013 22:31:14 EST the time has come http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5460591 Emotional times bring about a person's true strength. <BR> <BR> I was left yesterday by a man who has brought me the most joy in my life that I have ever experienced and who has also subsequently been a contributor to the biggest heartbreak I have ever felt. Who knew someone could take up so much space in one person's heart. But it was with that heart break that I really came to learn (as did he) that we are truly two people who are more whole together. <BR> <BR> My guy. The apple of my ey... Tue, 20 Aug 2013 01:57:47 EST Super happy lately http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5456298 Ah, so amongst my super busy time (anyone in higher education or college student administration) will know that August just does not exist in our calendar year. The work days are long and exhausting and it is just a brutal time of the year to have much of a social life. <BR> <BR> That said, my air force officer is here with me to spend a few last days by my side before leaving for Alabama!! As I try to keep my head up being with a military guy, I am really relishing the moments I have with ... Thu, 15 Aug 2013 15:16:40 EST so happy fall is around the corner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5449879 Last night I went to the Cleveland Browns preseason game. Man, I love that football season is upon us! It has my spirits up that fall is on the horizon, I love that. Its my favorite time of year! <BR> <BR> Things I love about fall: <BR> _the changing of the leaves that is unique to the midwest <BR> -football sesson <BR> -hot apple cider <BR> -pumpkin everything <BR> -fall fairs <BR> -big cozy sweaters and not needing a jacket <BR> -hot coffee on cool mornings <BR> -pumpkin pie snd apple orc... Fri, 9 Aug 2013 11:47:16 EST sickness and senses http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5449860 Being sick stinks, I know I said that in my last blog but it is so true. I hate it. Much like how I hate ham....and anyone who knows me, knows that I think ham is a vile food. It taints anything its in and I simply do not have the tastebuds for it. Maybe it wss reading Dr.Seuss' "green eggs and ham" a few too many times and trying to recreate my love for that book through poor childhood cooking skills, but needless to say, I hate it. <BR> <BR> I digress. So, being sick. I have the congested ... Fri, 9 Aug 2013 11:29:04 EST