JAHAR929's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JAHAR929 JAHAR929's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ People who bring others down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5943481 So, I had a meltdown the other day. And that is a rarity for me since I tend to be able to manage my emotions really well as an educated and mature grown woman. But I posted this on Facebook and I wanted to share it (since I am clearly not over it yet!) <BR> <BR> "Rant: what a hateful, rude, judgmental society we live in. Instead of applauding others for being themselves all happy and what not, people find it appropriate to place judgement, promote stereotypes, share sour opinions, and be j... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 12:15:30 EST What I love about CO http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5940342 I love hiking. I love hiking something fierce. The views, the challenge, the fun! I love it all!!! <BR> <BR> Sharing a bit from my last few hikes! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/9ae68506-c853-464a-8467-d8b6989553e2.jpg"> Golden <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/3dbec816-6194-400d-88f1-7e739d7fdcc5.jpg"> Golden at Lookout Mountain <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/4e1eab26-911c-49d6-a6fc-5bb2f2f776c1.jpg"> Lookout mountain a... Fri, 5 Jun 2015 17:22:22 EST Some pix of me and my bf Gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5940338 Hi all-- <BR> <BR> Figured I'd share some of the beautiful outcomes of my time with my bf Gym. The relationship is going great. I think it is really going to work out. I think he's the one :) <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/27165d7d-4a2c-454a-8207-afacf7d76d8f.jpg"> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/843a3b15-c06f-4f4b-9505-5f995fe741b4.jpg"> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/5aabb146-37d8-454d-ac2c-f62bcf7e3d73.jpg"> <img src="http://ph... Fri, 5 Jun 2015 17:13:53 EST I've got my Nike's on and I just can't do it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5939059 Good morning all.... <BR> <BR> Today I feel it in my soul. The bitter, upset, angry, foul, sour, disgusting mood that I just can't seem to shake. The loneliness that sets in when you realize your alone--but you're not alone--but you are. The day in and day out rigor of daily life. <BR> <BR> Sure, I do exciting things. Certainly, I have a support network out here (across the country from all my family and childhood friends). Absolutely, my job keeps me on my toes and I enjoy my work. <BR> ... Wed, 3 Jun 2015 12:13:56 EST the happy list http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5931415 For some reason, I am really inspired by writing lists lately. Maybe it is my drive to live and organized life? Maybe it is an opportunity to have directive writing? who knows, but I'm finding it really enjoyable and satisfying lately. <BR> <BR> So, here goes!! <BR> <BR> What makes me happy: <BR> -warm towels from the dryer <BR> -a first snowfall <BR> -caramel apples with nuts <BR> -love from a furbaby <BR> -hot coffee on a cool fall day <BR> -catching snowflakes on my tongue <BR> -a smo... Wed, 20 May 2015 12:56:25 EST my bucket list http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5930967 Tuesday and it's almost 5 o'clock. Almost time to go home. Lately, I have been sharing a lot about what is on my bucket list and I thought I might as well write them down so I don't forget them! <BR> <BR> So, here goes: <BR> <BR> 1. Climb a 14'er <BR> 2. Go whale watching in Alaska <BR> 3. Visit Hawaii and eat poi <BR> 4. swim with turtles <BR> 5. go backpacking for several days. Roughing it. <BR> 6. go back to Maine :) <BR> 7. See a moose. <BR> 8. Go to the Grand Canyon. <BR> 9. See Mt. Ru... Tue, 19 May 2015 18:59:49 EST After a really bad day.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5930742 There are some seriously special people in this world and in my life. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I had a really rough day at work. The kind of day that not only rocks your professional world, but also hurts your heart. Words that are said and you hear them third party. Confront the situation and NO ONE is willing to own up and have a conversation. It leaves you feeling and thinking things that are probably not accurate. None the less, my feelings were hurt--on top of it being a very busy day. <B... Tue, 19 May 2015 10:51:41 EST fitness trackers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5930381 So, I lost my spark tracker yesterday on a long bike ride in Denver. I'm pretty sad about it but it is what it is. I know I am not the only one who this has happened to! Just after two years of wearing it everyday, I dont have it and I feel NEEEKKKKEEEDDDD!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> Anyways, that means I'm in the market for a new one and am probably NOT going to opt for the Spark because I don't want to lose it again...so I'm looking for something that I can put on my wrist or has a less liklihood of ... Mon, 18 May 2015 20:13:55 EST A letter to my future husband http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5928670 Moment of reflection. I was asked last night if I ever saw myself getting married again since my divorce 5 years ago. <BR> <BR> Of course I can! I mean, there was a moment where I didn't ever want to get married again because it was not a positive experience for me, but in all reality, it was more of a learning experience for me than anything else. And it has taken me a few years to really identify what I am looking for from a significant other, a partner, and a future husband. Also, I have... Fri, 15 May 2015 13:20:56 EST Im off the market!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5928352 I need to share a huge secret I've been keeping. <BR> <BR> I have a boyfriend!!!!!! I have to share with you all about my new romance. <BR> <BR> So, I'm beaming. I'm happy and energized. I feel like I am on top of the world. My boyfriend is something else. He makes me feel so sexy and so attractive. Like, I feel better with him than I ever did without him. He challenges me in ways I never would have anticipated. He makes me try things I wouldn't normally try, and even when I fight him and... Thu, 14 May 2015 23:24:29 EST Some race photos http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5928125 Hi all-- <BR> <BR> Wanted to share a few pix from the really crazy muddy half I did a few weeks ago!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/a4b1345d-a1df-4a21-ac92-dc1e88547a61.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/85267c8e-159e-4e75-986e-13cf6753e40e.jpg"> <BR> <BR> enjoy! <BR> <BR> peace and love!!! <BR> <BR> Jackie Thu, 14 May 2015 14:00:55 EST The terribly cold, no fun, not so exciting race http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5928124 Happy Thursday everyone! <BR> <BR> I want to share a fun story about my recent run this past Saturday. Now, those of you who live in Colorado will all say that the weather out here is HIGHLY unpredictable. <BR> <BR> I saw that first-hand on Saturday. <BR> <BR> I was slated to run the Arvada Park-to-Park inaugural race with my friend JJ and my employee, Erika. This was Erika's first 10k and the furthest she has ever run to date. I was going to do the half with JJ and just enjoy filling ou... Thu, 14 May 2015 13:59:42 EST Second half marathon at altitude----WHAT?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5914899 I dont know what you have to do to be considered a runner, but after this race on Saturday, I am as close to calling myself a runner as they come. Because I do not know anyone in their right mind who is a 'recreational' runner who would have enjoyed this weekends half marathon! <BR> <BR> So, I ran the 'Beat the Heat' Half in Westminster, CO. Let me tell you, we beat the heat for sure!!! It was a whopping 38* for this run. BRRRR. Oh, and it was wet. Cold and wet. Cold, wet and MUDDY. You migh... Tue, 21 Apr 2015 00:08:44 EST Grieving and loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5911254 I never understood how unbelievably strong the heart truly is. It goes through so much on a daily basis, sometimes I wonder how it continues to function. <BR> <BR> I've had my heart swell with happiness. The times when it feels like it is going to burst out of my chest and leave me lying there among the leaves in sheer joy. <BR> <BR> I've had my heart ache for the love or loss of someone I care about. The hearts ability to empathize with others is such a testament to our human nature and ... Tue, 14 Apr 2015 15:22:16 EST My funny run story http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5910698 Good morning friends! <BR> <BR> I hope you all had a wonderful weekend! I wanted to let you all know how my half marathon went last weekend! <BR> <BR> Well---I finished <em>224</em> I signed up for an early start time which was great because I had peace and quiet up until about mile 5 before the fast runners started showing up. <BR> <BR> It wasnt until mile 9 before my friend caught up to me. All was going well until I hit mile ten and realized that I had about 45 minutes to go. You s... Mon, 13 Apr 2015 17:32:18 EST Easter ramblings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5904248 Good morning all, <BR> <BR> So, this weekend, I will be celebrating and enjoying Easter alone. My family is all back in Ohio and I am out here in Colorado and don't have vacation time to be able to go home. I am actually grateful that I was able to go home on bereavement leave a few weeks ago, or I wouldn't have had the opportunity to see my family (including my growing nieces and nephews!!!) <BR> <BR> I was reading some articles about 'things to do when spending holidays alone' online and... Thu, 2 Apr 2015 13:11:45 EST 30 reasons why you are my best friend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5902939 I've been reading a lot of these lists lately that highlight the many reasons why something or someone is something or someway. You know what I am talking about--usually in the form of a Buzzfeed or some other random article. So, I've decided to write one of my own. <BR> <BR> THE 25 REASONS WHY YOU ARE MY BEST FRIEND. (And I wrote this for a certain bff who knows who she is) <BR> <BR> 1. You understand me <em>26</em> <BR> <BR> No matter what is going on in my world, you just seem to un... Tue, 31 Mar 2015 12:25:16 EST My crazy so-called life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5902915 Oh, Jackie girl, what are you thinking YOU NUTCASE! <BR> <BR> So, let me explain my nuttiness!! <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> Friday, was talking with a colleague about how I am going to be alone for Easter in Colorado, while my family is in Ohio. <em>450</em> <em>449</em> <em>448</em> Sadness. But, it will be okay. I'm just going to miss them, but they are all coming out at different points in the next few months! YAY! <BR> <BR> My colleague was teasing me about my slow progress adj... Tue, 31 Mar 2015 11:44:20 EST Sad Sunday Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889880 "It's really amazing when two strangers become best friends, but it's really sad when the best of friends become two strangers" <BR> <BR> I wanted to start this blog out with a quote because it is going to drive the writing that is about to come. This is a reflective post, and I am sure it is going to resonate with a lot of people, so I hope you read it with an open heart as I am about to pour out mine. <BR> <BR> I had to tell my mother that her sister died yesterday. My mom and my aunt hav... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 12:53:00 EST My first time snowboarding the mountains http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889865 I'm going to make two blog posts today--this one will be my Saturday highlight reel and my blog about my Sunday will be a little more thought provoking and emotional. Keep reading to find out! <BR> <BR> <BR> Saturday--this was the first time I have gone snowboarding since I moved to Colorado. Now, if you read my blog from a while ago about my excursion boarding in NY, let me tell you---this was seriously 10 times more challenging than I could have ever imagined. <BR> <BR> Now, let me lay ... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 12:21:13 EST Altitude, you will NOT beat me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887504 This morning, I woke up with a huge feeling of victory. <BR> <BR> I mean, it could just be my sore ankles and calves, but needless to say, I will call it victory :) That is what it could feel like, right?? <BR> <BR> So, two days ago, I ran. <BR> <BR> Now, when I was living in Ohio, I was enjoying pounding the pavement 10k's at a time. Somedays, I would hit the road and leave ten miles in my dirt with nothing but ease and peace. <BR> <BR> Fast forward to Colorado life. One mile is pain... Thu, 5 Mar 2015 11:48:28 EST Thoughts on body shaming http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5886981 Ah, down a lb. One of the ten I put on since moving in the last two months. Crazy how I can look at bread, beer, pizza, and wings and just feel the fat cells multiplying in my tiny little frame. It's so unfortunate. I wish, really wish, I could just eat whatever I want and not gain a pound, however, I know that women who are trying to gain weight would say they wish they could be me. Ah, the struggle. <BR> <BR> And, I think about those sayings....."nothing tastes as good as skinny feels." WH... Wed, 4 Mar 2015 14:21:52 EST live well, laugh often, love very, very much http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5886213 My goals to be a better partner, lover, friend, and professional: <BR> <BR> Partner: <BR> 1. I promise to be honest, open, and communicative (even if the outcome might be unnerving) <BR> 2. I promise to never put you down or make you feel inferior to me. <BR> 3. I promise to make you happy, in all the ways I know how, even on days I don't feel like being the giver. <BR> 4. I promise that if I need more from you, I will tell you. <BR> 5. I promise to include you, make you feel important and v... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 11:35:18 EST Really feeling it lately http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5886181 As you may have known, I recently moved to Denver and I love it out here. What doesn't seem to love me lately is my waistline. I have totally fallen off the wagon. I've been indulging in the microbreweries, eating out often, and missing my training sessions, which has put some serious dampers on my hips and waist. It's also taken its toll on my emotional well-being. <BR> <BR> I know I shouldn't feel so obsessed with what the scale says, but I don't even have to rely on that to be able to kn... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 10:58:16 EST Oh delinquent writings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5883182 I'm so good at going on hiatus, I should be a travel agent! Anyways, lots of life changes that have kept me away. <BR> <BR> Still plugging along with the dissertation (which I was putting in some serious footwork before the holidays!), I was interviewing for new jobs, I was doing the crossfit thing, the holidays, accepting a job and moved to Denver! <BR> <BR> I never thought I was going to get out of Ohio. That place was never anything other than dark, cold, dreary and just when it start... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 13:53:12 EST feeling like I could eat a horse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5807650 Sometimes I really hate having hormones and stress. It simply makes me feel like I cannot get enough food. Lately, I have felt totally insatiable and that is the absolute worst feeling. My brain and my body are just not in agreement that enough is enough lately.... <BR> <BR> Anyone else ever feel this way? It's absolutely miserable. Nothing is quenching my feeling of hunger. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/6/l761295552.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Peace and love all---I'm go... Thu, 30 Oct 2014 15:54:43 EST America's roller coast http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802178 Hello all, <BR> <BR> So, since I have a few moments of free time, I'm going to catch you up on another blog entry. <BR> <BR> Let's go to last weekend. Not this past weekend, but the weekend of the 11th. I went to Cedar Point with some friends and was truly anticipating not riding any roller coasters because my friend Josh was not really a big fan. I , on the other hand, LOVE THEM! I love the thrill, the excitement, the anticipation, all of it! <BR> <BR> Anyways, I managed to talk him ont... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 13:35:11 EST My half marathon.......my first one ever! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802162 Well, I did it. Back in the first weekend in October, I ran my first half marathon and it was surprisingly easier than I thought. It was def. a challenge to my mental stamina, but I did it. And, even better, I did it with two of my dearest friends. No better way to accomplish a life goal than to do it with the people who are important to you. <BR> <BR> Anyways, just wanted to share my happy hearted enthusiasm and let you all know that it was a beast and a feat, but training and perseverance... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 13:08:02 EST coming a long way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5791791 Good afternoon readers! <BR> <BR> Just wanting to share some positive news on this dreary day. Today is just a good day. Tomorrow, I am pushing out a major life goal---I'm running my first half marathon. <BR> <BR> I'm terrified!!!! But, I am also equally excited! <BR> <BR> That said, going into my run tomorrow, I wanted to share some progress shots because today is a FEELING FABULOUS FRIDAY! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/6/l561422666.jpg"> <BR> I thought I was... Fri, 3 Oct 2014 14:50:37 EST The smile that wont fade http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5784768 Ah, this weekend. Today, I am happy. The weather screams of fall: brisk, cool air. The smell of leaves changing. The feel of a dull sun on my lightly wind blown face. The feel of autumn. I love the midwest in the fall. I cant get enough of the colors, the smells, and the tastes. Apples and cider. Caramel apples and pumpkin everything. The colors of burnt orange, deep reds, and bright yellows cascading the tree-lines, making driving anywhere a site of pure joy. <BR> <BR> Yes, days like today,... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 13:06:41 EST When you are told "you seem really happy" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5779939 Today has been an incredible day and I was told, after skyping my most favoritest person ever, that I looked incredibly happy....that he could just tell I was really happy and the smile on my face was genuine and it was nice to see that. <BR> <BR> I suppose you never really know how much other people's negative energy affects you until you have that epiphany moment where you are insanely happy and in a good mood that overrides all sense of reality. <BR> <BR> Yep, that is me today. All smil... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 22:47:42 EST How faith fits in with my fitness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5779573 There are many days that I lean into my faith more heavily then others. Days where I need additional strength, guidance, or understanding to really try to get through whatever challenge or success I am facing. <BR> <BR> I believe that my faith has given me courage to believe in processes, to have hope when I felt like I couldn't handle all that was being thrown at me, to have strength and solace that I am not alone and I am not powerless, to have the ability to overcome adversity and have o... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 09:41:36 EST When people project mean things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5778100 I'll keep this blog brief as it is just simple reflection on my feelings at the moment. <BR> <BR> I was just put on blast by a friend (or soon to be ex-friend) over some misguided communications and hurt feelings that were never reconciled. <BR> <BR> Now, I take responsibility for my roles in my relationships and lord knows I am not perfect, but I am always, ALWAYS willing to step up to the plate to right my wrong doings or short comings to make a relationship or interaction a positive o... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 18:32:13 EST How much I love laughing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777876 Sometimes I share funny stories about myself and then I think "Jackie, do people really care to read about your ridiculousness or your silly mishappenings" and then I think to myself, welp---if you like laughing as much as I do, then ya, maybe people will enjoy a good story (laughing at my expense) and I will share it :) <BR> <BR> So, as today is kind of dark and gloomy, I felt like a little Thursday laughter was in order. <BR> <BR> As you know, my cat Bruce has quite the sense of humor as ... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 10:40:58 EST My gym pet peeves http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777249 Good morning world--happy Wednesday! <BR> <BR> Like most people here, training and working out, health, well-being, fitness and nutrition are all important components of why we love SparkPeople. I am no different in that I love to talk about wellness, health and fitness with anyone who is willing to listen to my ramblings or even look to me for advice. <BR> <BR> Now, I have some gal pals at the gym where I train who I truly look up to as my fitsporation. They are beautiful, strong and work ... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 12:09:20 EST I am who I am http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5776921 A little late night rambling and reflecting on the person that I am. <BR> <BR> I'm sometimes a little emotional. <BR> I can be a little overprotective. <BR> I tend to care way too much and over think everything. <BR> I love to love. Pure and simple. <BR> I have my moments when I know I can be incredible difficult to deal with. <BR> I believe that everyone has an ability to do good. <BR> I love the onset of fall. <BR> I can never turn down a really good love story. <BR> I like to run, a lot.... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 23:53:03 EST feeling the stress of being in the writing phase of PhD http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755781 Ah, time is just not my friend and it is really challenging when it comes to trying to find time to write. <BR> <BR> They all said this would happen. <BR> That it would be a lonely place. <BR> That other things would seem more enjoyable (and anything is more enjoyable) <BR> and that it would be hard. Long. and require unquestioned dedication and commitment. <BR> <BR> They.were.right. <BR> <BR> I struggle. I struggle with wanting to be further along. To sound more scholarly. To feel like I... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 13:32:56 EST The throws of double membership http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716638 Okay folks, I need some advice. <BR> <BR> I currently have a gym membership at my rec center at the University I work at. It's not too terribly expensive, about 25 a month. I pay 50 a semester if I want to take classes (which adds 150 onto my yearly membership of about 300/yr---so 450). <BR> <BR> Over the summer months, the club closes SUPER early (9p) and even earlier on weekends. During the school year, if I go at 'peak times' good luck getting on ANYTHING. It's insane. So, it's always a... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 16:38:05 EST Why I struggle with Western medicine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715135 So, I have migraines. For as long as I can remember. I do everything I can to manage them naturally so I do not have to take a bunch of medicine. I don't agree with all the practices of doctors in the States, and sometimes I feel like giving me a pill is a 'bandaid' and not a solution to an issue. <BR> <BR> That is all I will preach on that because if I really wanted to hop on my horse about pharmaceuticals and meds and doctors, I can, but not everyone cares to hear my opinions. <BR> <BR>... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 17:13:03 EST The updates http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5710724 I haven't written in such a long time. This happens when life really starts to get busy. I don't always agree with the hustle and bustle of life, but it is what it is. <BR> <BR> I'm going to put my updates from the past few months in a list of top 50: <BR> <BR> 50: finished out my academic year and met with my faculty advisor and have finally nailed down my topic for my dissertation. Come on proposal.... <BR> 49. I bought a snowboard and I love it. Kind of wish it was still winter! Wait, I ... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 18:03:13 EST the tales of my cat, Bruce http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662191 Well, if I could share another story about how CRAZY smart my cat is. <BR> <BR> The other day, I am sitting at my counter working on my laptop when I hear the toilet flush. <BR> <BR> Yes, the toilet flushed. <BR> <BR> Somewhat dumbfounded, I shake my head. I know that I am the only person in the apartment, but did I really just hear my toilet FLUSH itself? <BR> <BR> Then, HE appears. All curious and accomplished, my lil bugger of a cat came bouncing out of the bathroom like nothing happ... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 23:13:08 EST April fools spring weather http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662187 Ah, what a TEASE today was with the high 60/low 70 degree day we had today. <BR> <BR> Lost every ounce of motivation to do anything other than go out and enjoy the sunshine, spring breeze, and nice weather! <BR> <BR> I feel like this is a sick joke Mother Nature...... <BR> <BR> Peace and love (and hopefully more nice days) <BR> <BR> Jackie Tue, 1 Apr 2014 23:06:43 EST Dietbet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5657486 Has anyone tried this and had it work for them? <BR> <BR> From the little that I know about it, you pay in and if you lose the weight you say you are (like the Jillian Michaels 4% in 4 weeks coming up April 1) then you split the pot of winnings with anyone else who has won as well. <BR> <BR> Has anyone done it? Worked??? does money motivate, even if it is your own? <BR> <BR> I'm really curious about this! Thu, 27 Mar 2014 02:41:12 EST Where are the smileys? Oh right, lost with this Ohio weather http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5646124 Woke up this morning with a case of the 'blahs.' <BR> <BR> I don't know if it is because of the bi-polar weather change or what, but I woke up ready to go work out and then just decided that I didn't want to go. THAT IS SO UNLIKE ME!!!!!!! The weather has me feeling backwards too. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, it was a lovely 62 degrees in NE Ohio and then this morning we are under a winter storm warning and it is currently sleeting and snowing--hard. I went out and ran 4 miles and left my cares, w... Wed, 12 Mar 2014 11:18:41 EST Lonely http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5625982 Ugh, days have been rough lately. Getting over being unbelievably sick the last few weeks and navigating a seriously long distance military relationship has really been taking its toll on me. Maybe it is because I have not been able to go to the gym and train or maybe because I have not seen Neil when I really needed him lately and we don't know when I will see him again (so I don't have any fun countdowns going on or trips to look forward too) OR maybe it's both, but it really stinks lately.... Sun, 16 Feb 2014 23:31:13 EST Reactions to the Biggest Loser finale? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5617085 I have to jump into this because this is the first time in a few years that I have actually watched a finale episode of the BL. I don't have much time for TV because of my school work, but since I was down and out and super sick, I flipped the tv over just in time to see the final three weigh in. <BR> <BR> I was with my coworker who had brought me by some soup and so we both decided to watch it. I saw Rachel come out and I was like, "wow, she looks really thin. I would say she is about 120" ... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 16:04:46 EST So Sick http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5617078 Nothing like being totally caught off guard with the crazy sinus sickness that literally derails you from everything you have going on in your world! <BR> <BR> Yep, I caught it. Been off work the last two days. Finally trying to be functional today, but not with out some difficulty. The thought of working out is depressing me because I want too, but my body is giving me a HUGE thumbs down. I hate that feeling---when I really want to be able to do something and just physically cannot. And, se... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 15:55:59 EST Looking the part http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5602462 In other news, I had a killer workout the other day and decided that I really enjoy hitting the weights/gym/road in really sweet apparrel! I mean, to some people, they dont care what they wear to the gym to work out--and trust me, somedays, I dont care either. I mean, I'm not looking to find a partner or screw around. I'm there to DO WORK! But, I will tell you---there is just something about new workout clothes, gear, shoes, etc. that sets my heart ablaze and I can't help but feel that my wor... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 15:13:25 EST Do you ever just feel.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5602454 like you look bigger than you actually are? <BR> <BR> That is how I have been feeling lately. Super large, super heavy, super stressed, emotional, eating, blah, blah, blah.I hate days like this, when I just feel like when I look at myself I see the 'old me.' Not the 'in progress' me. I feel like there is a relatively small girl on the outside, but man, somedays I just dont see her. This week has been one of those weeks. I just feel like a hot mess...like a strait up busted can of biscuits.... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 15:08:47 EST Hello MUSCLES :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5583275 Just loving my back! I've been putting in some heavy duty work into it and it is coming in so nice! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1652648086.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Peace and love and GAINS! Sun, 5 Jan 2014 17:27:12 EST