JACQUEBO's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JACQUEBO JACQUEBO's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ What do Challenges mean to me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709228 Now this is a tough one. While I'm a competitive person, I also am not. The challenges we have been having have been very good for me even though I've not done well on them. They are making me take a good hard look at myself and my lifestyle. I see the things I need to change and don't think I'd have looked hard enough to find them with out the challenges. <BR> The last couple of challenges have given me new motivation to do something productive about my weight and health. <BR> I hope each ... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 20:41:32 EST Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5404910 I've just been reading back through my blogs for the past year. What a whirlwind year that was. So many changes, so much stress. <BR> I'm happy to say that much of the stress has been relieved. Of course there is still stress, just different ones now. Not the overpowering type of the past year. <BR> <BR> So many changes that it's hard to keep up with them. Don't know that I even want to keep up with them. I'm at home and at peace with most of them. I'm sure there will still be more changes... Fri, 28 Jun 2013 20:02:11 EST Spring http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5340915 I just got on here and was looking at my blog for January. So much has changed since then, for the good in my opinion. I'm reconciled with DH and we are back together and living back in our 5th wheel. Moving from a 5th wheel to a 3 bdrm house is an easy thing, but moving from that 3 bdrm house back into the 5th wheel is not quite so easy. We are going through getting rid of finding places to keep things and have big storage unit. <BR> <BR> I made some goals on my blog in January. Some of th... Tue, 30 Apr 2013 15:29:31 EST New Year New me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5184614 Well, I started 2013 out differently than I've started a new year in a very long time. I guess that is a sign that I'm going to do things differently this year. <BR> I've been sitting here today thinking of the changes that have happened over the past year and the changes I need to happen in this coming year. <BR> I've lived a year of turmoil and it has played havoc with me. More so I think than any other. <BR> It's time to let the past go and make the needed changes for the future. Just t... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 19:29:23 EST Chaos http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5049081 I'm not sure if I'm coming or going today. It's a wild day at work. Next to the last day of racing and everyone who's not running is coming to get their colors. <BR> I don't know from one day to the next where I stand with Robby. He is talking to me on a more normal basis now, but then he starts thinking and gets mad all over again. He told me the other day I need to have all my stuff out by the first. He has also decided that he wants to keep most of the stuff now. He had said he didn't wan... Fri, 7 Sep 2012 21:33:46 EST New digs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5029692 Well, I went and paid the rent for my new place today. It is a very small FEMA trailer. I must admit though that it is in much better condition than I was afraid it would be. It is a temporary stop on the new journey I'm taking. It will let me get back on my feet and figure out what I'm doing. I'll probably move in on my days off this week. Not really much to move in to it though, just my clothes, tv and computer is going to be about all that will fit. Oh and somehow I've got to get my sewing... Fri, 24 Aug 2012 18:40:47 EST Changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5020745 I always thought changes only happened to you when you were young. I thought once you were grown, married, had kids and grandkids all the major changes would stop. <BR> Boy was I ever wrong. Everytime in my life that I think things are right where they should be, WHAM, here come the changes. <BR> I know change is good, but I could do with a little less all at once, if you know what I mean. <BR> This has been a long hard week for me. My whole world has been turned upside down. I'm still not... Sat, 18 Aug 2012 14:30:30 EST Rough Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5015839 I'm having a rough day today. Things are starting to sink in and emotions are getting strong. Having to make quick decisions and don't like to. I wish I had time to do things right, but doesn't look like I'm going to get it. I'll be going to Tulsa on my days off, so can't even use them productively down here. I know this sounds cryptic. Not really supposed to be, but not quite ready to talk it all out here yet. I know some of you will understand. I just needed to let a little pressure off. Tue, 14 Aug 2012 22:23:35 EST New attitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5001205 After fighting with the stress and eating everything in sight for a week or two, I finally had a talk with myself. Beating myself up (by eating) for things I can't do anything about is not helping me. I think I've gotten a grip on it, at least for now. The situation hasn't changed, other than I do know that DD has gotten an apt., so I know that my GKs have a roof over their heads at least. The only thing that has changed is my attitude about the situation. I can't make her change or realize... Sat, 4 Aug 2012 21:02:55 EST Daughters http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4980925 Well, thought I'd give an update on my DD. <BR> So after leaving and not talking to me. She is still gone and will be moving back to Ok. She still hasn't spoken to me. I went to OK a couple of weeks ago to see my father for his birthday. I sent DD a message telling her I was coming up and did she need anything from the house. She did answer and told me what she needed. I took it with me, when I got there I sent her a message telling her where I would be that she could come and get the stuff.... Sat, 21 Jul 2012 20:35:21 EST Tough decisions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4943129 Well, unfortunately my daughter has decided to act like a teenage brat instead of an adult. <BR> I have not as yet gotten rid of the dogs, but am working of it. DD has decided of course that everything is my fault and I was treating her like a slave. All for telling her to pick up after herself and her kids. Not that I expected anything less. She has reverted to all the old tricks that I thought she had finally outgrown. <BR> I'm afraid that this will mean that I will see little or none of m... Tue, 26 Jun 2012 12:09:08 EST Adult Children http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4938087 I know most of us have them and I know we've all had our issues with them. I just need to blow off a little and relieve some stress, so you my dear friends get the benefit of a 33 yo who is acting 12. <BR> We try to help our children and grandchildren in any way we can, but sometimes you just have to say enough. I believe I have come to that point. <BR> I can't take coming home at night and finding a sink full of dishes. I don't claim to be the neatest housekeeper in the world, in fact I de... Fri, 22 Jun 2012 19:14:51 EST Choices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4887212 It seems I only come and write a blog when I'm faced with a decision or choice that I have no one I can talk to about. I don't know what I'd do without you my dear friends. I feel as though I know each and everyone of you personally, while I've only actually met a few of you in person. It doesn't change things. <BR> <BR> I have some major issues going on in my life right now. I can't even put them on paper, or computer, for fear of them blowing up in my face. They are very close to that any... Fri, 18 May 2012 12:21:08 EST New outlook, new me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4565609 90 days ago I started on a new journey. I started the 90 day Body by Vi challenge. It has been a changing point in my life. I have more energy, less pain and am down 21 lbs. I'm getting ready to start a new 90 day challenge and in this one I'm adding exercise. I have been losing the weight with minimal exercise to this point and it has slowed down, so now I'm going to start doing exercise 3x a week. It has been an amazing journey and anyone interested please contact me and I'll give you more ... Wed, 2 Nov 2011 20:24:42 EST Attitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4405248 Something I've always known but never really thought about until recently. Attitude has everything to do with how you handle any situation. <BR> Mine has had a drastic overhaul recently. I'm not really sure why, but it is a good thing. I have decided that my attitude will remain positive. I've always been a very positive type person, but it just seems over the past few years it has kind of slid. Recently I refound my positive outlook on life. I can't even tell you why. Maybe all the controve... Wed, 3 Aug 2011 18:01:48 EST stress relieved http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4396207 It's amazing the changes that can happen in just a few days time. <BR> I have gone the gamut of having my oldest granddaughter getting ready to come down to live here, my niece and her 4 small children coming to live here, another young lady and her daughter coming to live here. All of which would be staying with my daughter until they were able to get a place of their own. This all started on Wed. as of this morning, my DD and GKs are in Tulsa, visiting. The oldest is not coming back with h... Sat, 30 Jul 2011 16:46:44 EST STRESS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4390420 STRESS <BR> Stress, drama, tension, whatever you want to call it. It seems to come in droves. You think all is right with your world and all of the sudden, here it comes. I guess for us the key is how to deal with it. Do we dive into the nearest cheesecake, or do we go take a walk. Well, I don't want the cheesecake and can't go take the walk, so I guess I'll do the next thing and that is let it out here. <BR> I've been having children(grown) issues lately. I've been able to let them not affec... Wed, 27 Jul 2011 18:32:52 EST Birthdays http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4307353 It seems like I always blog on my B-day. I'm a day late this year, but hey. <BR> I never realized how much getting birthday greetings improved the day. I got up at my normal 4 yesterday morning and checked my FB to find about 4-5 well wishes. Made me smile to have people I haven't seen or spoken to in many years sending me greetings. I got to work to have a cake and card from my fellow employees waiting for me. I don't usually let people know it's my birthday, not because of age isssues or an... Sat, 18 Jun 2011 20:26:56 EST Venting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3978956 OK as most of you know I've been trying for a very long time now to get my granddaughters. I have all but given up on it happening. My daughter got a message from the mother of these girls and it set a fire under her. <BR> The mother's rights as a parent were terminated in Sept. This means she no longer has any rights where the girls are concerned. She also is not supposed to have visitation, etc. Well, she told my DD that she was getting to visit the girls and wanted them to stay where they... Mon, 31 Jan 2011 22:52:57 EST Perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3890684 As I sat here tonight and watched the 1st episode of the newest Biggest Loser, I thought wow look how big these people are. Then I started watching their weights as they had that 1st weigh in. It hit me then, I weigh more than some of these people, who am I to sit here and judge them. I already had my epiphany a couple of weeks ago, when my body decided it weighed too much and didn't want to do the things that I've done for years without thought. I have already started to take steps to chang... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 22:26:41 EST New Year New Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3875599 I have been saying for months now that I was going to get myself in gear and get this weight off. This past week I have had a couple of physical issues I've never experienced before and know that the majority of what caused them is my weight. I'm too young to have let myself get into the shape I'm in. I have no one to blame but myself. Now I have to forgive myself and let it go. I have found over the years, as long as I'm holding on to something, whether it be blame, guilt, sorry, etc. I can'... Sat, 1 Jan 2011 00:19:04 EST Exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3857790 This exercise thing is just really getting me. I used to go and walk or get out and just be active and not think twice about it. I've let myself get lazy and it is just really hard to get myself back into the swing of just getting out and moving. <BR> I have about 21/2 months now to get myself back in gear. After this week I'll be off until sometime in Mar. so I've got to make a plan and stick to it. I have access to DVDs and now I have the room to do them so no excuses. I WILL make a plan a... Wed, 22 Dec 2010 14:07:55 EST Hoping, but not holding my breath http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3199031 Well, I got to talk to the case worker of my grandchildren finally today. I expressed my concerns and asked some pointed questions, which she half hearted gave partial answers too. They did say that it looks like they will be looking to place the girls somewhere permanently. They are looking to terminate the mothers rights, finally. I gave her all the info she asked for and she said they would start their check they have to run on me to see about getting the girls down here, when they finally... Wed, 5 May 2010 20:32:55 EST Good day gone bad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3191502 There's nothing like a good day going bad. I have been informed that it looks like the mother of my other grandchildren is considering giving the girls up for adoption. I have tried to have a conversation via e-mail with the DHS case worker and all she'll say is that in order to tell me anything I have to call her. She used to give me updates as to the girls via e-mail. Now all of the sudden she won't tell me anything. It is difficult for me to call and have a conversation with her while I'm ... Mon, 3 May 2010 22:49:17 EST motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3188954 OK so now I have a new motivation. Robby wants us to get married sometime this summer. We are going to go to Vegas. He doesn't want all the hoopla, so we won't have one here. I don't mind that, I've been through the whole big wedding thing and don't mind not doing it again. I'm searching on good deals for the trip and I would like to get back down into onderland before we go. That means I have to get serious. I can do it if I set my mind to it. I'm figuring we'll go about mid to late June. So... Mon, 3 May 2010 11:39:32 EST Exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2840696 As I sit here doing my laundry, I have to think how different I am than I was when I was younger. You know you never think about age until it affects you or a loved one in a negative manner. While my parents are fairly old in numbers, neither is old in spirit, so age to me has been a hard concept to grasp. Over the past 2 years,(since I turned 50) my body has changed. This is hard for me, because I've always just taken it for granted that it would remain the same. Oh, I know the weight has a ... Thu, 4 Feb 2010 13:52:59 EST Life at the track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2144876 Ok, let's see if I can figure out where to start. When coming to the track to work for the first time I have learned that there is a whole world that outside people never see or know about. Race trackers are a tight knit group. A family of sorts. You have the front office people, those are the people that everyone sees. I'm one of those. We take care of the daily entries, silks, paperwork, etc. Then of course we have the owners and breeders, without them we wouldn't have racing. Then there ar... Fri, 12 Jun 2009 09:30:01 EST Happy Birthday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1277052 OkI, I guess at the ripe age of 50 it is time to try more new things. This is my first blog ever. Until I started on Spark I had never chatted online with anyone. I corresponded by e-mail with family and a few close friends. There are times when I find it easier to discuss some things (weight gain or loss) with all my new Spark friends than to try and discuss them with family. <BR> I guess it is because y'all either have gone through or are going through similar experiences. So my birthday... Tue, 17 Jun 2008 22:10:12 EST