JACKIEMOMOF3's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=JACKIEMOMOF3 JACKIEMOMOF3's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Use Sparkpeople Anyway That Works..Just Use It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5821701 I came to a realization today. One I'm sure I've had in the past but it came to me again today and I thought I'd write about that. <BR> Now, don't kill me, I'm not a hardcore user of Sparkpeople. Now let me explain. I track goals, interact with friends, find recipes & exercise videos (thanks Coach Nicole), tips, and to weigh in. The one thing I probably don't do is follow a Sparkpeople eating plan. When it comes to that I do my own thing. <BR> What I truly love about Sparkpeople is the wonde... Sun, 23 Nov 2014 15:26:48 EST Giving it Another Go...Again... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818478 Back in 2011 I was at my heaviest-328 lbs. I was overweight for almost my whole life but seriously, 328, when did that happen? One year after starting my weight loss journey (July 2011) in 2012 I was down 140 lbs. It was amazing. It felt great even though I still had a long way to go. Fast forward to November 2014 I've gained pretty much everything back. My current weight is around 290 lbs. I've been struggling to get back on track for a couple of years now and no matter what I do I can't. T... Mon, 17 Nov 2014 18:37:41 EST When Does A 140 lb Weight Loss Become Depressing?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5153976 A weird question, I know. But, exactly when does such a weight loss become depressing? When it's no longer that weight loss. It took me about 13 months to lose 140 lbs and just a few months to gain about 45 lbs back. I can't seem to get back on track no matter what I do. It's extremely depressing. Everyday starts off with good intentions and as the day goes on, well forget about it. I think the change in my work schedule and transportation home is affecting me to a point. My bf used to pick m... Sun, 2 Dec 2012 20:50:40 EST Exactly 1 Year Ago!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4954189 It has been EXACTLY 1 year that I started my weight loss journey. July 3 2011 was the day that has changed my life not just for the better but the healthier (which is for the better). <BR> There have many roadblocks and detours on this journey. The path wasn't always an easy one to follow but I did and stayed on the path and I have accomplished so much. <BR> Never did I think I would be where I am today. And, that is because like many, I have tried and failed at numerous attempts at dieting. ... Tue, 3 Jul 2012 21:20:43 EST AGreat Day For So Many Reasons! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4950758 Today was a good day!! A great day!! I almost cried at what many people may think is silly or take for granted. See, I went in a pool in a bathing suit which I haven't done in years because of being morbidly obese. But, that was the past the old me. I still have some weight to lose but I'm coming around the final turn....I want to lose between 60-70 lbs in order to get to my goal and complete my journey. <BR> Since July 3 2011 I've already lost 138.5 lbs....For me to put on a bathing suit an... Sun, 1 Jul 2012 18:56:47 EST Back Up Again...But, I Still Have Accomplished Alot! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4879260 The scale is up again! What a surprise? Not!! I knew it was gonna happen this week. It usually happens pretty big when it does....I retain water too easily. Excessive salty snacking is bad for me. I know this but did it anyway. <BR> I think there was some emotional eating going on this week behind my choices. On June 8 2012 it will be 2 years since my mother passed away and today was another Mother's Day without her. My mother, even though not with me in the physical, has been a great suppor... Sun, 13 May 2012 10:17:51 EST I'm Doing It!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4858319 I've been overweight almost my whole life.. That's a long time since I just turned 43 (this past March). I've done it all...tried alot of different diets....joined gyms quit gyms....lost weight regained it. <BR> In 2011 I finally got fed up. I was at my heaviest ever~328 lbs!! Whoa! When did this happen? Overtime is when. Times of eating too much, eating the wrong foods, not exercising. Just not taking care of myself. <BR> I started on my weight loss journey July 3 2011 and haven't looked bac... Sun, 29 Apr 2012 22:09:37 EST Small Realizations That Mean BIG!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4762178 Have you ever had one of those moments where you say to yourself "how did I get here?" or "when did I get here?" or "wow, I can't believe this is me!" <BR> I had a couple of those moments yesterday and I'm sure some of you can relate or definately will be relating. <BR> Now, in order to understand where I'm coming from, you must know that I started out at 328 lbs (my heaviest) and if I whenever I got in a car I never used the seatbelt. It's real hard to get a seatbelt around someone that wei... Tue, 28 Feb 2012 19:46:18 EST Whew! Almost Lost Myself! Got Scared! But....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4746226 I'm BACK!!! <BR> Ok, let me explain. Last week I had a bad week of eating and barely exercised so it would be no surprise when I got on the scale and there was a gain. But, a 4.5 lb gain!!! WTH!! I knew I gained but I think there could have been a couple of other contributing factors. <BR> I just couldn't get my head in it. Now, of course, this was depressing me. People around me were asking me if something was wrong? Physcially I was there and going about my day to day but mentally I wasn't... Sun, 19 Feb 2012 14:45:14 EST I DID IT!! I've LOST 101 LBS (since July 3 2011)!! So Amazed! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4696484 If anyone read my blog from yesterday I was 3 lbs away from reaching my 100 lb weight loss. I got on the scale this morning closing my eyes, taking a deep breath, & saying a little prayer. As I watched the numbers go down the smile on my face got bigger, especially when the numbers on the scale went lower than I expected. I lost 4 lbs!! I did it!! I am now down 101 lbs. I've accomplished this July 3 2011. My 16 yr old daughter was sleeping at a friend's house so I called her this morning to t... Sun, 22 Jan 2012 09:26:23 EST Tomorrow's Weigh In Is Important!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4695793 Well, I weigh in on Sundays and tomorrow's weigh in is VERY important. I mean, EVERY weigh in is important. See, the reason tomorrow's weigh in has such significance is because I've lost 97 lbs already. It's quite possible tomorrow I could be down 100 LBS!!! I've been eating right and I've exercised 6 days this week. But, as we all know just because we do everything right doesn't mean it's gonna show that on the scale. I have a real good feeling (like 99.99%) the scale will be going down whic... Sat, 21 Jan 2012 20:34:23 EST It's Christmas!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4637671 Good Morning All & Merry Christmas! It's early in the morning and the kids haven't woken up yet. Today is day with so much meaning. It's Jesus' birthday. It's a time to spend with family & friends and make some great memories....But, for some it will be a challenge as it will be for me...The challenge will be how well we stick to our eating plan....I, for one will allow for dinner later by monitoring what I eat early in the day and this way I can enjoy a nice Christmas dinner without overdoin... Sun, 25 Dec 2011 06:37:13 EST Oh! What a Feeling!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4581359 Last night I went to dinner with my boyfriend and youngest son to IHOP. Yes, I ate good. I had Grilled Balsamic Chicken Breast with mushrooms & diced tomatoes & onions with broccoli on the side and a small house salad with FF Italian dressing and I ordered and ice water to drink (NO SODA). <BR> Anyway, I haven't been to this IHOP since around Mother's Day earlier this year (with my oldest & youngest sons & my boyfriend) before I started losing any weight. I'm also the type of person if I did ... Sat, 12 Nov 2011 20:45:43 EST Smiling On The Inside http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4552655 For some reason something is bothering me. Something that hasn't happened to me in awhile. But, I want to know why people can be cruel especially when they don't even know me or my situation. I'm talking about the ignorant people that may drive by in a car and yell mean comments about my weight. I'm not skinny yet but I'm on my way. Yes, I'm overweight. I started at 328 lbs and even though I lost 58 lbs already and I'm hitting the scale at 270 lbs I know I still have a long way to go. But, th... Tue, 25 Oct 2011 13:57:57 EST Haven't Blogged In Awhile! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4476842 It's been awhile since I blogged. I do find blogging somewhat therapeutic and if someone else finds it helpful or interesting or something than that's just an added perk. <BR> What I don't understand is why when I've been having continuous weight loss and haven't gone off track since July 3rd, why do I feel like if there's a week where my weight loss is low or I stay the same I get upset/bothered by it?? It's better than the scale going up, right?? So, what's the deal? <BR> Why do we torture... Sat, 10 Sep 2011 08:58:55 EST Why Aren't I Happier? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3953019 I lost 3 lbs this week and I'm ok with it but why is it bothering me? My 1st week I lost 2 lbs and I was real happy about those 2lbs and glad to see the scale actually starting to go down for once. My 2nd week I lost 7 lbs and maybe that's why the 3lbs is somewhat a let down. I know I can't pull big numbers every week & that it's also not healthy. I know it's better than gaining. But, it's weird how the number game also plays mind games. In alittle while this will pass and it won't bother me ... Sun, 23 Jan 2011 14:30:25 EST Always On My Mind http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3943626 Well, it seems the one thing that's always on my mind is food. When I was eating whatever I wanted it was what snack or sweets could I have next. Now, that I'm making the change to eat healthy & lose weight I'm always thinking what can I eat next that's healthy etc. <BR> It's like the devil on 1 shoulder and the angel on the other. Constantly fighting the demons day in and day out especially the past couple of days. The past couple of days I felt the temptations and the little red guy with ho... Thu, 20 Jan 2011 10:18:28 EST Just Don't Understand http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2821387 Well, here I am to do my weekly Sunday biog. I usually do it in the morning after I weigh myself and for the 3 weeks prior I've had good news. The scale was moving in the right direction-it was going down. Now, I did state earlier in the week that I started back with poor eating habits. I tried everyday to get back on track but nothing worked. I wasn't pigging out massively or anything like that, but I wasn't making the best choices and I was eating more than I should. So, I was expecting a w... Sun, 31 Jan 2010 16:27:13 EST What The Hell??!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2805931 I don't know why but I just can't seem to get it together the past 2-3 days. My old eating habits pretty much just came blowing back in like a hurricane. I know for a fact that there will be a weight gain of some sort this week. I was doing good and then all of a sudden I'm not eating like I was while I was losing weight. I'm mad at myself. I'm upset depressed disgusted. I feel like here we go again. Setting myself up for failure I guess. But, I HAVE TO get back on track. I just hope it's not... Wed, 27 Jan 2010 19:28:54 EST Today's Weigh In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2788550 Well, got up this morning. Walked the dog & put my 2 yr old son's sheets in the wash. Then got on the scale. The scale went down. Yippee!!! It went down 2 lbs and I'm happy with it. Really, I am. But, it's funny how our minds work. The past 2 weeks I lost 5 lbs each week. So, of course, I get into this mindframe that I'm Wonder Woman and I'm gonna keep moving right along losing 5 lbs every week. Wow! Great! But, not reality. So, at first I'm like Oh sh-- I only lost 2 lbs. Not sure why since ... Sun, 24 Jan 2010 09:00:03 EST Another 5lbs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2756559 Wow!! I don't what is so different this time. But, whatever it is, it's working. Maybe, I just REALLY want it this time and I have come to realize there is no turning back and that I just can't no matter what let myself continue on getting heavier and being unhealthy. Heading straight to an early grave, who wants that?? Not me and I'm sure none of you do. I don't want to leave my kids without a mother, my youngest will be 3 in May. I have a very good relationship with all 3 of my kids. <BR> A... Sun, 17 Jan 2010 09:45:19 EST Ist Week Weigh-In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2722348 Well, I was up bright & early this morning since my 2 year woke up around 4 am and decided he didn't want to go back to sleep. So, now we have been on a marathon of Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. <BR> Just before 7 am I took out dog out for a walk and boy was it cold out. But, all I can think about was going to weigh myself. Even though I started just eating right and making changes on the 1st of this year, I didn't weigh myself until Sunday January 3. So, Sundays are my official weigh in day. <BR> ... Sun, 10 Jan 2010 07:42:38 EST Ohhhh Boy!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2684448 Like many others here at SP I have been battling my weight loss for a very long time, pretty much my whole life. When I joined SP in 2008 I was attending WW and I was at my all time high (back then) of 278 lbs. I lost some weight maybe around 25 lbs then I stopped going. When it starts to turn into a financial reason why I can't attend anymore I start talking myself out of it. Talking negative to myself and sabatoging myself. So of course on and off like always I try to lose weight. Just befo... 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