ITSYBITSYMAMA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ITSYBITSYMAMA ITSYBITSYMAMA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ A new year...another new start! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5583408 January 1st 2013, a day of dreams and promises most of which usually were broken within 24 hrs. Butthis year it was different. Something HAD to change. So I embarked on 3 resolutions, with a promise to myself that I would not deem myself a failure if all failed. <BR> <BR> The resolutions were 1. to give up diet coke, not so easy when that is practically all I drank. I hate tea, coffee and pretty much any other drink on offer, so it really was going to be a challenge after regularly downing ... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 19:30:02 EST Where am I now? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5543478 I'm sort of seeing light at the end of the tunnel... <BR> <BR> The important thing was sorting out my meds and getting rid of a persistent chest infection. So off I trotted to the docs and got some antibiotics for the chest and some amitryptiline for the face ache. <BR> <BR> After a week the chest infection has gone and the facial pain has eased. I just need to get used to the exhaustion that comes as a side effect, but I am hoping over time I will get used to it. <BR> <BR> I even dared to... Sun, 17 Nov 2013 13:09:43 EST Hitting a rough patch http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5523381 I admit I seem to be going round and round in circles at the minute... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1960175752.jpg"> <BR> <BR> and feeling pretty overwhelmed by life in general <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1288185127.jpg"> <BR> <BR> normally I can break out of the cycle but this time I have really been struggling. I look at my team leader and it amazes me how she keeps going regardless of what is going on and then everythin... Fri, 25 Oct 2013 18:25:53 EST My adventures on BLC22 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5463682 My initial goal was as always to lose pounds and inches... <BR> <BR> So far this round I have lost a total of <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1491019806.jpg"> <BR> <BR> so hopefully I will have a reasonable last weigh in and add to that number. It's just short of my overall goal of 21lbs...but I always like to give myself what we call at school 'aspirational' targets. That means its a tough one to reach so if I don't quite make it, it really isn't the end of ... Fri, 23 Aug 2013 04:23:42 EST Exciting times... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5457819 In 6 days time my Mum returns to live in England from America. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l19032291.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I am so excited to have my Mama home after almost 14 years away. I understood, respected and supported her move, but at times it has been difficult, emotional and heartwrenching to have her so far away. I have had a couple of amazing holidays, but nothing beats having your mum not so far away. <BR> <BR> The last time I saw my Mum was in May.... Sat, 17 Aug 2013 07:41:06 EST Reflections of a Little miss x http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5427427 At the beginning of July I went to the school Year 11 prom and I just recently got some of the pictures back. The pupils looked stunning and I didn't think I looked too bad either ;-) <BR> <BR> Then I looked back at the prom from last year and even amazed myself at the difference. The results are what you can see here. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1747167250.jpg"> <BR> <BR> In January 2013 I decided to grab the bull by the horns and do something about my we... Sat, 20 Jul 2013 14:33:31 EST Monday motivational quote http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5392372 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1120823471.jpg"> <BR> <BR> How do you look at your glass? Mon, 17 Jun 2013 18:19:25 EST Saturday motivational quote http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5390123 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1221044267.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I really need to take this on board...I might just get there slightly faster :-) Sat, 15 Jun 2013 16:39:40 EST Friday Motivational Quote http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5388633 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1465853983.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is so true! <BR> <BR> x x x Fri, 14 Jun 2013 02:47:08 EST 30 day Plank Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5387118 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1920493706.jpg"> <BR> <BR> So I really need to improve my core...who's up for it? Wed, 12 Jun 2013 15:47:37 EST BLC22 Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5383669 So my goals for the next 12 weeks: <BR> <BR> Aim to lose 21lbs...that's 7lbs each month. <BR> Aim to get back to some good healthy habits: i.e. tracking food, exercise and water <BR> Continue to maintain my 'no diet coke' streak <BR> Plan a structured exercise program and stick with it! (I usually start off well but can be easily distracted) <BR> Improve my fitness by getting down to a 9 1/2 minute mile. <BR> Get into the habit of planning meal <BR> Lose at least one dress size (but would b... Sun, 9 Jun 2013 18:47:29 EST For GP's (an anyone else who is remotely interested) - My tattoos http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5382106 I have several tattoos...all of which have special meanings. <BR> <BR> I got my first tattoo in my 30's...it is of my two older children. The sashes represent their gender and their hair and eyes are the colour they were born with. I still need to add my youngest littlelady. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2067261571.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Foot tattoo...Japanese meaning 'Little Big Sister' as I am the oldest but the smallest. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sp... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 05:51:31 EST Juneathon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5374763 I am sat here waiting impatiently for BLC22 to get underway! I am eager to find out what group I am in and more importantly impatient to get back into a routine that I have managed to sneak out of over the last few weeks. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l656402629.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have entered another challenge...the Juneathon. In a nutshell, exercise every day for 30 days. I didn't quite manage completing the 5 x 50 due to illness getting in the way, but you ... Sat, 1 Jun 2013 15:37:39 EST Sabotage http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5359475 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/3/l330147924.jpg"> <BR> <BR> ...this comes in all sorts of guises and it seems to have come all at once! <BR> <BR> Sabotage by family...my mum is visiting and it has been a lovely few weeks, but I have been plied with chocolate, fish and chips and all sorts of lovely tasting, but 'bad for the hips' kind of food. Because she is visiting and I haven't seen her in so long, it's hard to say 'no'. <BR> <BR> Sabotage by illness...my poor little mu... Fri, 17 May 2013 15:37:09 EST A complete write-off? Mmmm....not quite! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5334349 Well the last week has felt like a bit of a car crash! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1897523339.jpg"> <BR> <BR> But was it really? At times like this is it sooo important to see things in their parts, rather than as a whole. To look at the achievements that you have made rather than the failures and to remember the positives more clearly than the negatives, which human nature has habit of making our focus! <BR> <BR> I struggled to track my food... <BR> <BR... Wed, 24 Apr 2013 16:08:13 EST The storm after the calm.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5327838 I am just wrapping up the first week of this half term and I already feel like I am sinking. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1231415466.jpg"> <BR> <BR> There are three things going on here...first there is the fact that a member of staff has returned after spending the last two months off. She has made everyone's life very difficult, but especially mine! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/4/l943745208.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The second is that... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 17:16:28 EST Is tracking really worth it? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5320559 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/8/l38693090.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I can't say I enjoy tracking my food intake! In fact I find it an absolute pain in the rear end at times and there are times when I don't track at all (like the last couple of days)...so is it really worth it? <BR> <BR> Tracking your food can be time consuming... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1896425483.jpg"> <BR> <BR> but the time and effort it takes has been proven to help to tak... Fri, 12 Apr 2013 09:16:25 EST Top 10 lessons learned.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5319250 A couple of days ago I was saying that the most important part of our weightloss journey is to look at the journey we have taken, learn from it and apply it to our future journey. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1475602591.jpg"> <BR> <BR> So what have I learned from the last 12 weeks? (not necessarily in order) <em>41</em> ... <BR> <BR> 1. Take each day as it comes - it took time to put the weight on, it's gonna take time to take it off. <BR> <BR> <img src... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 06:36:49 EST As BLC 21 comes to a close.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5317501 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/0/l906569785.jpg"> <BR> <BR> So tomorrow is the last weigh in for BLC 21. Am I sad? Hell no? Why? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1580165274.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Well for a start I know that BLC 22 is around the corner and by then I will be more than ready for a new challenge... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2022533253.jpg"> <BR> <BR> but more than that, I am happy with what I have a... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 18:50:00 EST Week 1 of the 5 x 50 challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5314292 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1997105286.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Well, week 1 is done and dusted!!! <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/2/l824977469.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have walked/run a total of 41 K <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/4/l945678520.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have spent a total of 380 mins or 6hrs and 20 mins walking or running <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/3/l334981332.jpg"> ... Sun, 7 Apr 2013 05:46:08 EST 5 x 50 2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5307750 In the spirit of trying something new I have signed up for a new challenge. This one is for charity (Comic Relief to be precise, which raises money for projects in Britain and abroad). <BR> <BR> So what's the challenge? It's called 5 x 50 and started yesterday (31st March). <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1927637129.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The idea is not only to raise money for charity, but to promote healthy new habits. So in order to complete the challenge I need t... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 15:30:32 EST Pfft! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5293932 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/7/l678979780.jpg"> <BR> Well 1/2lb down this week...it doesn't feel like much after all the effort I have put into this week with the exercise and tracking! <BR> <BR> After having a few weeks of feeling lack lustre, ill and de-motivated it was fair to expect that my weight loss would slow down. But now that I regained my motivation I was hoping for a good week. After all I put in almost 500 minutes of exercise!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://p... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 16:23:22 EST Friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5291374 are the family you get to choose! <BR> <BR> I am very lucky to say that I have some amazing friends. I have some friends that I have known since school <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/1/l914581689.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have some who I have met through life, <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1772185745.jpg"> <BR> <BR> and some friends that I have never met in the flesh before and only wish I could. <BR> <BR> Friends are REALLY important... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 16:15:04 EST Needs the Spring... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5288954 to get here. Winter can be so grey and miserable. Spring means colour, warmth and light. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/6/l465201358.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Spring means being able to get out more with the kids to the park. Our local park has lots of green space and a play area for the kids too, and we miss using it in the Winter. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1585604761.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I will be more inclined to run outdoors, which is much be... Sat, 16 Mar 2013 16:05:12 EST Mighty Motivation.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5286873 is calling me. <BR> <BR> 4 weeks of BLC left and 4 weeks until I get to see my wonderful Mama. Perfect timing don't you think? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1117710511.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Time to make these last 4 weeks count! The last few weeks have been tough to get motivated. With lots of illness flying around for both me and the children, it has been really difficult to keep up with my fitness goals. But we are all better now and so there are no more excuses... Thu, 14 Mar 2013 18:44:32 EST What's on my mind? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5281367 Well if you had asked me this morning what was on my mind I could given you a whole host of things... <BR> My job is in the forefront of my mind as there is so much going on. We got exam results back for my Science Exam group and 50% of them passed first time which is not bad...I am still a member of staff down and we are not finding out until the last minute what is happening, so in theory I am not expecting her in tomorrow, but you never know. <BR> It's Mothers Day in the UK and 2 of my chi... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 16:01:05 EST What a miserable week! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5276379 I have really struggled to feel motivated the past couple of weeks in several aspects, not just the weight loss and fitness. I have been trying to mark my books at school and just so exhausted the books have been returned to school unmarked. <BR> <BR> This week has ended up with a 3 day migraine as well which usually means I'm exhausted for the rest of the week...I'm used to them lasting days, but his one was pretty bad. My three year old daughter was rubbing my head because even walking wa... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 19:06:09 EST Another first of the month... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5268330 Can you believe that we are already in March? This is probably a favourite part of the year for me, with the first signs of spring starting to show. Everything becomes much brighter with the flowers and the birds! Winter which can be so dull and grey steps aside for bright colours, lots of greenery and warmer weather. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2098391169.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Time always seems to go so fast...we are already 6 weeks into BLC. My goal was to los... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 10:09:57 EST Flu is making me an emotional wreck... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5259132 I saw this today and cried buckets. Thought I would share, love the song, love the sentiment and broke my heart! The guys dancing with her are her Grandfather, her two brothers and finally her father-in-law. <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=JPDXmbaXvgw </link> Thu, 21 Feb 2013 19:05:44 EST Birthday... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5254399 So yesterday was my birthday. Today is my son's 19th birthday and it is another time where we start to reflect on the life that has been and gone and hopes for the future. <BR> <BR> I can't believe that I have been on this Earth for 41 years! I find it hard to get my head around the fact that my son is 19, especially when in my head that's pretty much the age I feel. <BR> <BR> Life begins at 40 so they say. I can't say that I have had any great epiphany other than it's time to get myself ba... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 06:59:54 EST Goal!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5227489 I can't wait to be able to say that I have reached my goal! It may take longer than 12 weeks but I hope by then I'll be well on my way. <BR> <BR> How will I feel? From past experience I am going to have mixed feelings. Elated because I can get back into my gorgeous Karen Millen dresses...get into that special date dress and feel as fit as a fiddle. I know I will love the sense of achievement and I like the attention too... <BR> <BR> Then there's the other side...when the attention gets too ... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 16:51:57 EST Forgiveness for myself... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5225193 As part of the Bingo challenge for BLC21 we are asked to forgive yourself for one thing you regret. <BR> <BR> Mine one thing I regret is linked to my previous blog. Most people think that I would change all the really difficult things that have happened to me in my life. We had a father who really wasn't much of a father at all, when my parents divorced at 9, I was not only dealing with the pain of that, but also believing it was my fault as my parents had only just learnt of the abuse I had... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 06:02:33 EST Letter to my teenage self.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5224443 Dearest Imogen, <BR> <BR> You have already been through such a lot in your short life. I know you are going through it right now and I can see you starting to struggle. You have been such a tiny little thing all through your childhood and slowly the pounds are creeping on. Depression in teenagers is still misunderstood and people don't talk about it, but talk you should. <BR> <BR> The relationship with your father is at it's worst. You've learnt how little he understands about the abuse you... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 13:54:28 EST BLC21 Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5210221 So I have finally got my wings on the Ivory Falcons. Back with some old friends and the motivation to do well, not just fr myself but for my team too. <BR> <BR> My aim is to lose 7lbs each month...if it's more that will be fantastic, but this seems realistic. I am trying to remain positive in the light that the Gabapentin I was taking for my migraines, was responsible for the 2 1/2 stone I put on in the last year, along with the stress from work and home. <BR> <BR> The day has gone well so ... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 14:55:06 EST Was it that long? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5198853 It's been a while. I've dipped my toes in this week, had a look around but it's been an emotional week. <BR> On the 4th January I recieved the sad news that someone I know (Kim) lost her 12 month battle to breast cancer. She was truly inspirational! A fighter to the end. She is the sister in law of one of my best friends and I had the pleasure of making cupcakes for her surprise 40th birthday last year. My friend is a surgeon and I can imagine it must have been very difficult for hear about w... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 13:28:44 EST My name is Imogen Staley.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5188246 and I am addicted to food and diet coke, but I am determined to break the habit. <BR> <BR> I am three days into the new year and I have not touched a drop of diet coke (metallic tasting water all the way! yuk!) and I have not shoved any junk down my throat in that time either. Even managed to avoid the kids left over sweets and chocolate from Christmas! My body does not take to detoxing very well...I have had a migraine for most of the day and felt sick as a dog, but my dear friend I am not ... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 13:21:51 EST A new year... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5183474 a fresh start. <BR> <BR> So with this in mind I did it! Got down those god awful measurements and although I am not rolling on the floor in tears, inside I am disappointed with myself. In one year I have put on almost two stone! <BR> <BR> Looking back at 2012 it didn't exactly start brialliantly. I was back up to 150lbs having been at my goal weight of 120lbs for a very short time! Two main things happened last year which contributed to my life seemingly spiralling out of control. <BR> <BR... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 10:05:21 EST There are times.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5181714 when we need to get things in perspective. Evaluate our lives, our goals and our future. New Year is a time when we automatically think about these things. New Years resolutions become an annual ritual and usually within a few weeks the majority if not all of the resolutions are broken and the downward spiral to failure often happens. <BR> <BR> This year it needs to be different! This pattern needs to change! <BR> <BR> Life doesn't make sense sometimes. My friend has a cousin who on Christm... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 05:33:03 EST Just when you think... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5179498 you have things sorted in your mind along comes something else to knock you back. Well I just am not going to let it! <BR> <BR> I woke up this morning and along with a migraine (that thankfully is just an annoying interference) I have a sore throat, no voice (I'm sure my children will appreciate that fact) and sneezing for England. Not exactly feeling on top of the world. <BR> <BR> Surprisingly feeling less depressed than I have over the last few days. Maybe the Christmas blues are passing... Sat, 29 Dec 2012 05:20:33 EST I was going through.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5178574 Some old posts and I came across the start of BLC 15. Is it really that long? Hell yeah! It made me sad reading through the blogs as I sound so sad...but the reality is that things are not so much better now. I seriously need to kick my butt, I NEED to get my control back. I know its going to be a long, hard road and even harder since I have ANOTHER 25lbs on since last time, but I have done it before, which means I CAN do it again. <BR> <BR> So this is my NEW START committment!! The same com... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 09:28:51 EST