ITISABOUTME's SparkPeople Blog ITISABOUTME's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Bike ride I went on a bike ride with my daughter!!! She almost killed me!!!! <em>100</em> Thu, 2 Jun 2016 23:13:52 EST June 1, 2016 I started Yolates today <em>320</em> . I will be taking a walk to run errands and working on my water intake today also. <em>311</em> <em>194</em> . Have a great sparking day!!! Wed, 1 Jun 2016 15:09:24 EST So much has changed!! Where to start? Hey there all of my beautiful spark friends!!! <BR> <BR> Well the last half of 2014 was a whirlwind time that has brought so many changes to my life! <BR> <BR> 1. I am so over my ex!!! I am happy and looking to the future!! I even signed up on some dating sites! <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> 2. I have made peace with so much of my past on an emotional level! Now its time to start the health and physical stuff! <em>188</em> <BR> <BR> 3. My sons girlfriend had him put in jail in August and t... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 17:26:30 EST Feeling better!! On July 3rd I posted a blog about my ex and on July 9th I went and talked to my doctor about depression. She put me on anti depressants and it has been a couple of weeks and I feel so much better. Before the meds I would break into tears for no reason other than a passing thought now I have those same type of thoughts and while they can make me blue they no longer bring me to tears and devastate me like they were. I am starting to feel so optimistic instead of like my life is over. I just hop... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 23:38:33 EST The ex So things are just cruising along nicely and my ex texts me to let me know he has a girlfriend now. WTF? Really? I am now back at square one. Been in bed crying. I really thought I was over this but not so much. Thu, 3 Jul 2014 17:21:36 EST Thank you!! and online dating?? <em>304</em> to all of you that took the time to send condolences on my accident! The knee is getting better but I cant go back to work until Friday. I am super duper bored!!! <em>4</em> <BR> <BR> Online dating. Have any of you in Sparkville used an online dating service or know of anyone that has? <em>29</em> I have joined (the free one) and it makes me very nervous!! <em>198</em> I almost feel like I am being watched LOL!!! <em>40</em> Mon, 16 Jun 2014 18:29:56 EST Not what I had planned for the weekend!!! Well this is the first 3 day weekend I have had in 2 years and what do I do??? <BR> <BR> I was doing some spring cleaning while the "repair" guy was here doing some fixer uppers and when he left I washed windows in my bedroom and got up on the "little" ladder to put up the curtains and boom!!! For what ever reason I thought I was closer to the floor (like on the first step) but no I am on step 3 and stepped down backwards to the floor!!! Well my leg just didnt like that and the doctor has me... Fri, 13 Jun 2014 21:33:38 EST A few updates!! Looking back a year ago I was about 217 lbs. Yesterday when I weighed in I was 249 <em>15</em> Not exactly going in the right direction am I??? <BR> <BR> I have changed my profile picture to my "wedding" day (Rick and I getting married at the courthouse) because it is at my all time highest weight of 252. <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> And on the topside I have joined a BLC in one of the teams I belong to!! <em>386</em> I am also going back to school on July 6th to get my MBA in Accounting... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 13:13:08 EST I love this!! I saw this story on fb and loved it!! <BR> <BR> <BR> "To the fatty running on the Westview track this afternoon: You, whose feet barely lift off the ground as you trudge around the track. You, who keeps the outside lane, footslogging in the wrong direction. You, who stops for water breaks every lap, and who would probably stop twice a lap if there were bleachers on both sides. You whose gaze drops to your feet everytime we pass. You, whose sweat drenches your body after you leave, completin... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 20:09:06 EST I have made a decision!! I will not take the "training" offer as I really do not think that I need someone so underhanded and sneaky to learn from. They had made several comments (about things that shouldn't be done in business) that I believe will come back to bite them in the butt!!! I have way to strong of morals and values to be taught something that may be detrimental to my career in the future (thinking it would be ok to do on someone elses books). So I will take a quickbooks class from an accredited school an... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 19:36:01 EST been a rough week already! Grrrrrrrrr..........I am so upset. I come home from vacation only to find out that my part time boss hired somebody else to take my place while I was gone?? Really??? He had told me I could go but then this other person talked to him and she has experience and he is having to train me and that is taking up his time! He knew this when he hired me. And I am just pissed and in tears. <em>46</em> And to add insult to injury I can go in and work with her without pay so she can train me! For wha... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 12:11:50 EST thanks! Thanks for all of the advice! Dinner went ok! Lots of dirty looks from one of the aunts and hugs from the other aunt and cousin! Wed, 19 Mar 2014 13:32:34 EST Vacation shouldn't be stressful! I am feeling a little stressed today! My friend and I are on our way to meet with some of the relatives. The cause of the stress is that these people we are meeting are my exes aunt an uncle. I haven't seen them since we split up and I have no idea what they have been told! <BR> <BR> My plan is to keep my chin up and smile even if it kills me! Tue, 18 Mar 2014 10:11:51 EST amazing!! I am having an amazing time here! I got in late on Thursday night and pretty much just went to bed. My first full day here was spent sleeping in until almost 10 am and then lounging by the pool for a few hours and then swimming/playing in the pool for about 4 hours. My second day has been a day of waking up to coffee in the hot tub; going to the Saturday market; taking a cooking class at the college; and then back to the house to relax! I am having an amazing time! Will post pictures when... Sun, 16 Mar 2014 00:31:32 EST Vacation has officially begun! ! Sitting at the airport waiting for my flight! Let the fun begin! Woot woot!! Thu, 13 Mar 2014 17:31:17 EST Vacation Time!! Wow so many things have been happening since my last blog! <BR> <BR> First off my youngest daughter (not the one living with me!) has been promoted to branch bank manager!!!! I am so very proud of her. She is my one and only that struggled through school and had to hit the books hard in order to graduate and now she is moving up the ladder!!! Yiiippppeeeee!!! <BR> <BR> I have decided it is vacation time!! So on Thursday the 13th I fly to El Paso and then friends will pick me up and take m... Sat, 8 Mar 2014 10:29:35 EST Life has been crazy as usual in my house!!! Where to start!!! <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Diet---Did really great for two weeks and lost 5 lbs!!! <em>224</em> Then the 3rd week chaos struck and I started back to old habits and gained a 1/2 pound. <BR> <BR> Things that happened the 3rd week and how I reacted!! <BR> <BR> I had applied for a part time bookkeeping job and after 10 days decided that I didnt get it as I had heard nothing when I had been told that I would hear something 3 days after my interview. <em>39</em> So I sign... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 12:29:27 EST My 3 biggest excuses for not working out busted!!!!! 1. my feet hurt -- I can do something that has no impact on my feet. Spark coaches suggested chair exercises. Yoga, Pilates, stretching, strength training etc. Excuse busted!!! <BR> <BR> 2. I am tired (just simply what it excuse)--so they say exercise leads to energy. Start exercising and find out!!!! Excuse Busted!!!! <BR> <BR> 3. The weather is to cold/hot/wet whatever!!!--I have at least a dozen videos that I can use for cold weather. Plus an elliptical, treadmill, yoga mat, ha... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 12:02:55 EST My 3 biggest excuses for not working out 1. my feet hurt <BR> 2. I am tired <BR> 3. The weather is to cold/hot/wet whatever!!! <BR> <BR> And now to think of a way to bust these excuses!!!! Will do another blog after I come up with some excuse busters!! Mon, 13 Jan 2014 19:12:05 EST The holiday season!! Well here we are in the midst of the holiday season!! Thanksgiving has come and gone, Christmas is just around the corner, and a new year is almost upon us!!! <BR> <BR> A wrap up of my year and things I plan to do next year!! <BR> <BR> This was a tough year for me in the emotional sense. <em>46</em> I struggled all year with the rejection of my husband and still have bad days (like this weekend) but I have many more good days than bad as the year comes to an end!!! <BR> <BR> I have stru... Mon, 23 Dec 2013 22:34:56 EST this scares me to death!!!! I took a fitness age test and holy smokes it scared me to death. It said I was at a fitness age of over 75 years old and I am only 52!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Mon, 2 Dec 2013 21:51:18 EST Christmas tree hunting My youngest daughter, her boyfriend and my grandson and I went and found us a Christmas tree today!!! Walked about 60 minutes out thru the woods and we did find all of us one!!! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Just cannot say it is a flattering picture of me but boy does it sure make me think about what is going in my mouth!!!! Sun, 1 Dec 2013 17:55:53 EST Thinking........... <BR> This I set as my status tonight: <BR> <BR> Really miss my ex :( Must be because of the upcoming holidays. Glad I will be super busy the next four days with kids and grandkids and shopping!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> Well afterwards I went for a drive and did some thinking. I am not so sure it is because I miss my ex so much or if it is the fact that 2 years ago on Thanksgiving day my world started to crumble. And it just kept falling apart until he kicked me out on Memorial Day weekend. <em>4... Wed, 27 Nov 2013 23:36:32 EST I am finally getting to this point......... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> And pretty darn happy about it if I do say so myself!!! LOL!!! <em>20</em> Sun, 24 Nov 2013 22:56:55 EST *sigh* I am so tired of hearing "I will clean the house tomorrow, mom" And when I get home from work she is still laying in bed. GRRRRR!!! I just don't understand the laziness!! I have heard for the last week "I will clean the house" from my daughter I am so sick of the laziness. In the last week I left the dishes and this morning I did a full weeks worth <em>39</em> . In the last week I have had two days off (Thursday and Friday) on Thursday I was prepping for a endoscopy and dealing with lawyer... Tue, 15 Oct 2013 15:30:13 EST Clean bill of health!!! Well once again I walked away with a clean bill of health.........unless of course you count obesity..............which I do have and count it! It is dangerous to be overweight, not follow a healthy eating plan and being sedentary. <BR> <BR> So time to move on with a better way of living! Getting more fiber in my diet (recommended after my test this morning), more exercise, and to hopefully lose weight from doing both! <BR> <BR> Someone on one of my other blogs stated that it is not just ha... Fri, 11 Oct 2013 22:51:11 EST Using today as a stepping stone Phew what a day so far!! Let us just start with the fact that a letter from the lawyer, 3000 dollars on my credit card, 4 dulcolax (to start), and a liquid diet are teaching me a lot today!! <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> At the beginning.......Chase Bank has filed a civil summons on me to pay for a house that I was forced to go bankrupt on when my first husband and I split up. I got the letter from them about a month ago and called the attorney that originally filed the bankruptcy and they would ... Thu, 10 Oct 2013 15:50:05 EST Reality Check....not so good!! Well I just looked at my reports over the last year (since 10/10/12) and it is not so pretty!! <em>2</em> I have gained on most measurements and a 24 lb. weight gain (ouch that hurt to say!) <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> So it is time for me to reevaluate things and really get serious. So today so far I have done some strength training..........only 11 minutes worth but it is a start! I am also gonna go for a walk and mow the lawn! I need to set some workout goals for the r... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 14:57:32 EST If weight didnt exist? How would I know what overweight was if weight didn't exist? Now that is a question for deep thought! And since weight does exist we can only imagine what we would be/feel/act like! <BR> <BR> Since I do know what weight is but yet have the ability to determine what would make me feel the best inside my own body I would have to say: <BR> <BR> 1. bending over to tie my shoes......not bringing my foot to my lap to tie them! <BR> 2. playing and running free.....without getting breathless or fee... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 11:10:21 EST I have just one word to say........... KABOOOOOOMMMMMM <em>28</em> <BR> <BR> If you read my previous blog this will all make sense!!! Tue, 17 Sep 2013 19:02:06 EST Schnikeys this has been some week already!! I have received a civil summons over property I lost in my first divorce that they want me to pay over $70,000 for! I thank the man above for giving me brains enough to take care of myself and file bankruptcy so I wouldn't be responsible for any of the $200,000 worth of debt that--yes we had racked up, but he got everything--so that I could start over with a clean slate. <BR> <BR> And this morning my oldest daughter gave me a lecture on how I should treat my grandchildren (none of them are h... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 13:07:38 EST Where is she?? I want that girl that use to be here! You know the one that said lets find something to do..........even if it was work! Not the one that sits on her butt with no motivation! <em>15</em> <BR> <BR> You know the one that was positive everything would work out.....not the one that is a pessimist! <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> You know the one that was the first one there to provide a hand to help others......not the one that says I just don't trust people anymore! <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Yup t... Sat, 7 Sep 2013 15:57:11 EST need a vacation lately I have been extremely irritated by people.........doesnt matter where or who just seems like everyone I meet is in my face and my space. I think I need a vacation!!! I need to get away from kids, work, anyone I know. Cannot afford it but am seriously thinking about sneaking away to the beach in a few weeks on my days off. just me and my dog, lay in bed, watch tv, do counted cross stitch, walk on the beach, and just be me!! <BR> <BR> Seems like every time I have some time off work some... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 21:02:28 EST Being single.... First off I have to say being single is something I have never wanted to be! Ever since I was a little girl my dream was to be married, <em>337</em> have kids, <em>170</em> and grow old with my husband. <em>342</em> Well apparently that is not the plan that God has for me! <BR> <BR> I have been single since memorial day weekend of 2012 and if I think on it too much it still will cause me to tear up and cry (like right now!!!) <em>46</em> On the flip side of that I went and boug... Fri, 23 Aug 2013 22:49:21 EST fitbit???? Just trying to determine if it is worth the money and how people really like it?? Can anyone out there give me some info?? One of the areas that I am most interested in at this point is how accurate it reads sleep patterns and if it syncs the correct amounts (or close to) with Spark?? Tue, 20 Aug 2013 18:05:20 EST oh what a day!!!! So my second mammogram was today...........and oh what a day!!! I had to drive about an hour and a half to get to the clinic that was doing the test. It thundered, lightening and poured rain the whole way. So I get there and I am about a half hour early and they say that's OK you have some paper work to do before we can do the test. So OK I sit down and get thru the first page and the lights flicker and guessed it we lost electricity!! Well crap now what am I gonna do?... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 23:22:00 EST thankfulness rambling.... First off I want to thank each and everyone of my sparkies that have taken the time to stop by say hi, give encouragement and just listened to me vent (there has been a lot of that this last year!!) <em>304</em> you are <em>345</em> !!!! <BR> <BR> I was just looking over my spark page and it has been two years since I cleared my page and started over...........with absolutely no results. I hold myself completely responsible for my lack of paying attention to where my butt is sitting ... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 23:13:22 EST one hour to go......... M doc appt is at 2:30 hour to go and at least I will have some answers.......whether they are the ones I want or not remains to be seen!!!! LOL! <BR> <BR> The grandsons and I went on a little trip (400+ miles) monday evening!We left here after I got off of work and drove to prineville. On our way down the mountain we saw some antelope and deer. When we got to Prineville we stayed at the best western. The boys swam for an hour or so when we got there while I sat pool side an... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 17:05:07 EST grrrrrrrrr...........I am very cranky tonight......... I was looking forward to the weekend without kids and yup you guessed it the parents are not coming after the kids............grrrrrrrr. <BR> <BR> The puppy is still sick and no one will see him without a lot of money being paid up front. I tried to tell her she couldnt afford a puppy but she never has listened to me and probably never will. So now he lays and suffers he is such a sweetheart and it has literally brought me to tears more than once. <BR> <BR> I need to go to bed...........grr... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 23:40:03 EST stress level........lets just say if I still smoked it would be at least a double pack day!! Well as the 24th gets closer and closer the more stressed I get (for those of you that read this and dont know already I will be going in for a follow up visit for a lump in my breast). I have just about made myself sick worrying over stuff this last 10 days. And so I tell my ex about what is going on and he acts all concerned and loving and now he is back to treating me like crap..........will I never learn????? And my oldest daughter did the freak on me last night........she went out and g... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 18:57:23 EST Been a busy week!! On Monday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday I worked and then ummmm worked some more!! On Tuesday my 9 year old grandson and I went on a hike. Some areas were very steep (at least for us beginners!) and we went almost 5 miles counting the miles up and back. We first hiked to an area called Gibson Cave. Way back in early 1900's (during the recession) a man lived in this cave! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> We then continued our hike up... Fri, 12 Jul 2013 22:03:48 EST Gonna be a long couple of weeks............ I went in for a mammogram about ten days ago and got a letter in the mail that I need to see my doctor. They found something..................???? <em>24</em> So I called my doctor and I cannot get in until the 24th of July. They asked if I would like to see someone else before then but I think I am more comfortable waiting than seeing a stranger. If there really is something there what the difference will two weeks make? Other than driving myself crazy worrying that is! At least my doc ... Sat, 6 Jul 2013 18:30:12 EST the past............the future My ex daughter in law came and saw me the other day (it has been 7 years since the son and her split up) and I was absolutely completely enamored and happy for her! She has spent the last 7 years in hell. I have never seen a more unhappy person in my life everything that was wrong with her life she blamed on others. And yes I am guilty of some of that behavior this last year and no I do not want to live that way. She was absolutely glowing I have never seen her with her nails done or in decen... Fri, 5 Jul 2013 00:54:58 EST A whole new meaning to the word BBQ BBQ..........yes that is what I did yesterday!! I was out for 3 hours with 85 SPF sunscreen on and I still look like this....... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> When I woke up this morning my eyes were very swollen and I feel like crap!! I have been laying low, drinking lots of water and applying lots of soothing lotions!! Sun, 30 Jun 2013 19:07:28 EST so out of the loop............. but feeling so better emotionally!!! My grandsons have been here for the last few weeks and we have had a great time. Yesterday we took a drive up to Sumpter and it poured rain on us all day long and was still a great trip!! Here are some pics of our adventure <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> two little bull elk <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Sunset over the lake <BR> <BR> <i... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 22:49:31 EST Wonderful day!!! Went on a field trip today with my grandson! It was raining and blowing like crazy on the drive to our destination but after we got there it was actually a beautiful day! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> When I got to Cascade Locks I waited and waited for the school buses (along with about a dozen other "parents") only to find out one of the school buses had broken down!!! The kids were an hour late!! But when they finally got there we... Tue, 21 May 2013 22:27:04 EST oh cancer what a nasty disease you are......... I found out yesterday that one of my friends that I work with has lymphoma <em>46</em> . She is young enough to be one of my kids and just had a baby a month ago. My heart simply aches for her <em>24</em> . Thank goodness I work with some wonderful people and live in a town that truly cares about others. We already have several fund raisers set up to help with insurance and medical costs or anything else the family may need to use the money for. For any of you that have any faith whether... Fri, 17 May 2013 23:58:51 EST Blame......... And now my daughter is blaming me for her dog peeing on the floor and I will be the reason for him having to leave!!! Excuse me??? Wed, 15 May 2013 18:37:58 EST Time to catch up!!! Seems like my life has been a whirlwind of activity lately!! I spent the weekend before last with my friends in Clarkston. Worked thru the week and weekend and had today off but spent it traveling to the eye doctor 80 miles away. Not real great news from him as he told me I have the beginning of cataracts. <em>101</em> The nicer part of it I have about twenty years before I have to do anything about it!!! <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> Weigh in was this morning and I am still holding steady a... Tue, 14 May 2013 23:55:14 EST Still waiting......... Well I haven't heard yet from where I interviewed. Its been a week. Very nervous about results. A whole week!!! Haven't heard anything!!! The bad side didn't get the job!!! <em>46</em> The good side no "so sorry" letter yet!!! <em>334</em> So did I get the job??? Grrrr........I hate waiting!!!! <em>29</em> <BR> <BR> Weigh in was the same again this week! Not gaining at least and if I was more dedicated I would be losing!!! Thu, 9 May 2013 18:44:00 EST