ISHILIED's SparkPeople Blog ISHILIED's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 21 November 2012: Day 43 Today was pretty weird for me. Jeremy called in to work sick (fever, swelling, rash, vocal "short circuiting") and stayed in bed most of the day. I made us both breakfast, and kind of... Stopped. I'm worried about a few things, like the painful lumps I've found in a few places that are right on top of the bone - or at least under the fat layer; I've also been heavily menstruating for a little over twice as long as normal, and have been mostly feeling listless and drained except for the moment... Thu, 22 Nov 2012 04:59:53 EST The Ultimate Answer to Life, The Universe, and Everything: Day 42 (20Nov2012) Not that I found the answer today or anything, but still. I've stuck with this a lot longer than almost anything else in my entire life - even half of my "friendships" pooped out after about a month. <BR> <BR> So today, I had a great breakfast - 2 slices of bacon, a fried egg (seasoned with tumeric and dalmation sage), bread with jam, and coffee sweetened with Irish Cream. After I spent some time reading, watching Anthony Bourdain: No Reservations, and browsing a bit to see if I could find a... Wed, 21 Nov 2012 02:07:34 EST 19 November 2012: Day 41 I managed to kick my butt back into full gear today. Woke up, ate a bowl of cereal, played a video game, went back to sleep - and then when I woke up, I apparently snapped right out of my funk and started working. I prepared the kitchen to make bread, made said bread (two loaves), followed it right up with making the roast for dinner. I read a bit while the roast was cooking, since those take time, finished dinner in the last 20 minutes it was in the oven. <BR> <BR> Jeremy complained about ... Tue, 20 Nov 2012 01:47:41 EST 18 November 2012: Day 40 So, it would appear that now that I've gone and started regulating everything else (ie: diet and exercise), I'm getting super depressed during my menses and turning into a useless blob of mope. I've been spending a lot more time eating carrot cake and moping than anything else; and I feel angry for letting myself do it - and, it's why I've been so inactive the past week. <BR> <BR> Beyond that, today was a pretty good day. We got up at a decent hour this morning, had breakfast, relaxed a bit... Mon, 19 Nov 2012 03:06:51 EST Ketchup, Catsup, and other such nonsense - Days 35 thru 37 Not that processed tomatoes have anything to do with the past few days; to be honest, I just thought that made a good title. <BR> <BR> So, to sum it all up, I'm still feeling pretty damn depressed. Part of it I can safely correlate to the weather, as I've always felt a touch down during gloomy, rainy days. The rest, the gods only know. <BR> <BR> One of the days I hurt my wrist making carrot cake (and cupcakes!) and pizza. We've run out of drinkable water, and I had to force myself to urin... Fri, 16 Nov 2012 10:58:08 EST 12 November 2012: "Day 34" I don't want to write about today. I don't want to think about today. I don't want a day like today to happen again. <BR> <BR> I woke up on time, made and enjoyed breakfast with Jeremy, and all was good and cheerful... And then he went to work. I managed to keep myself busy for about an hour after he left, and then I started to feel lonely; and once I started feeling lonely, I began to also feel depressed. <BR> <BR> I spent the vast majority of the day sitting by our beg and looking at the... Tue, 13 Nov 2012 02:06:28 EST 11 November 2012: "Day 33" Today was pretty nice. We got up, had a quick breakfast, let it settle, and started cleaning. I worked in the kitchen and got the backlog of dishes we had taken care of, and Jeremy too care of the bathroom. <BR> <BR> We stopped for lunch when the hot water ran out, and resumed cleaning our respective rooms. Our kitten, Priest, discovered his "Italian" roots while we were cleaning (I had to chase him out of the kitchen with a broom). It was pretty hard work, but fun nonetheless. Tomorrow I p... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 02:09:51 EST 10 November 2012: "Day 32" So, I fell off the wagon for a few days - not in terms of eating enough food or exercising, just in recording it and keeping a daily blog. Stuff's been happening, I'm seriously stressed, and my fiance isn't helping much at all. <BR> <BR> Now, don't get me wrong. I love the guy, we're in a really good relationship, it's just that there are things he does that absolutely infuriate me to the point where I've a good mind to throttle him. For instance: he's a big guy and he needs to eat more tha... Sun, 11 Nov 2012 02:49:19 EST 7 November 2012: "Day 29" I spent the day mostly writing for NaNo and simplifying ocarina tablature for my own use (I wrote a song that I want to transcribe from violin and harp to ocarina and guitar). I managed to make myself eat each meal today, and I lost enough inches from my hips that I found a really nasty lump sitting exactly where my left hip has been killing me for the past two years. I'm mailing off my application for Oregon health insurance tomorrow, so hopefully I can get that checked out soon. <BR> <BR>... Thu, 8 Nov 2012 03:58:37 EST 6 November 2012: "Day 28" This was just a really crappy day. My chest, stomach, and the general area below my navel is really painful and feels all torn up. I didn't have an appetite to eat anything today - I would have happily skipped dinner and gone back to sleep if I hadn't promised Jeremy stroganoff. <BR> <BR> The only good news is that my ocarina came in today. I'm five pounds from actually being able to reward myself with it, so it's a week or two away still for me. I'm pretty excited about it. <BR> <BR> Jere... Wed, 7 Nov 2012 03:44:11 EST 5 November 2012: "Day 27" Well, after such an exhausting weekend, I must confess that I did sleep in a bit this morning. I was painfully reminded when I got up this morning that Jeremy hadn't done the laundry over the weekend, and am still wearing a pair of old, torn up sweatpants and a shirt that, while the picture on it is awesome, is see through. <BR> <BR> When he got home tonight, he was so busy complaining about being hungry and hounding me to start dinner that he missed his small window to go get the laundry d... Tue, 6 Nov 2012 02:34:15 EST Welp, missed a few days - Nov 3 and 4, "Day 25 thru 26" So, just gonna do a quick rundown since this weekend sucked. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, we tried to go grocery shopping, walked around in walmart, fred meyers, and the mall for what seemed like hours on end (it was four, and we were gone for five) going at our blazingest speed, given that my stomach was still tender from that reaction from a pill the other day. At three-something, I was barely able to walk, it felt like the muscles were pulling away from my bones on my left leg, and I was dehydra... Mon, 5 Nov 2012 03:04:08 EST 2 November 2012: "Day 24" Today was nothing short of horrible. <BR> <BR> Sure, I got up on time, had plenty of energy and all that goodly stuff. We needed to buy some milk so I could have cereal, and water - I like drinking bottled water, and it's pretty decently priced here. Unfortunately, we went ahead and bought some doughnuts while we were there too, and I had two of those for breakfast instead, since it was in my calorie range and whatnot, and didn't seem like they'd have too horrible an effect. <BR> <BR> I p... Sat, 3 Nov 2012 04:47:10 EST 1 November 2012: "Day 23" Today was bad. I keep having trouble getting to sleep at night, so I keep having trouble waking up in the morning, and feeling miserable the rest of the day. I don't understand why I'm consistently having this problem, especially since I've been managing my time so well. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I spent most of the day watching Umineko no Naku Koro Ni again, mostly because I figured I'd be getting plenty of exercise running around in stores to get our bi-weekly shopping done. Unfortunately for me,... Fri, 2 Nov 2012 02:54:09 EST 31 October 2012: "Day 22" And Happy Halloween! <BR> <BR> I wasn't able to do anything this year - I didn't see much of a point, since I don't even have friends in the area. But next year, regardless of that, I've decided to be a steampunk witch! And dress this little cutie pie up as my familiar: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I'm thinking a vest styled harness with little wings, a jaunty top hat with either goggles or a monocle on the rim, and if he likes th... Thu, 1 Nov 2012 02:21:15 EST 30 October 2012: "Day 22" I felt like a horrible person most of today. <BR> <BR> First of all, I couldn't get to sleep last night, in spite of all my attempts at regulating my schedule and the use of various relaxation techniques. I finally managed around 4am (I went to bed at 11pm), and got up three hours later to deal with morning stuff, like breakfast. So I was tired all day. <BR> <BR> This was also one of those days where Jeremy and I seemed to fight over every little thing. These ones are always really emotiona... Wed, 31 Oct 2012 04:02:34 EST 29 October 2012: "Day 22" Well, some unexpected things happened today - but I'll get the mundane out of the way first, since I need to keep track of that as well. <BR> <BR> Breakfast was a fail - I tried to make potato pancakes with potato 'flour' - the first one was badly burnt, and both were horribly gooey in the middle. The strawberry syrup I made for Jeremy was excellent, sweet with a bit of tartness, and no excess liquid. My raspberries, although they were bought this weekend, seem to have gone rotten, and I wa... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 01:50:40 EST 28 October 2012: "Day 21" atf I blame amour for this particular atf, lol. <BR> <BR> Anyway, yesterday was entertaining. Unsurprisingly, I woke up late, had a banana and leftovers for lunch, took a shower, and walked down to the laundry mat to help Jeremy fold our clothes and bedding. Was chatting to lady about our cats, and he got annoyed because I was being 'too open with private information', which I'm not sure I'll ever get. Aren't kitties a pretty harmless topic to chat about? <BR> <BR> When we got home, we went on... Mon, 29 Oct 2012 13:24:53 EST 27 October 2012: "Day 20" I woke up at 7 this morning with both of our cats yowling for food. I fed them, and went and curled back up with Jeremy - the plan had been to just snuggle him until he fell back asleep (our cats are REALLY loud), but as it turned out, I fell asleep too. <BR> <BR> It was too late for breakfast when I woke up, so I had a banana and got myself and Jeremy both a cup of the stew I made a few nights ago. He whined and complained again, but ate it, so I guess I can't be too bothered. <BR> <BR> ... Sun, 28 Oct 2012 04:50:29 EST 26 October 2012: "Day 19" atf Gah! ATF AGAIN! <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a good day. Got up on time, had my meals on time, didn't choke down more than a quarter of the BLTA croissant I had at Red Robins. Walked around a LOT trying to get some of the missed shopping done from our 'payday' trip. <BR> <BR> Thinking about getting a job. It would be my first one though, and at the ripe old age of 23, that doesn't bode well for me. Also had the paperwork mailed to me to get Oregon health insurance. Filled it out, plan to mail i... Sat, 27 Oct 2012 16:17:42 EST 25 October 2012: "Day 18" Well, I've finally started feeling better today! <BR> <BR> Finished off those blackberries we bought yesterday with breakfast (it was one of those tiny boxes), had a scoop of the stew I made yesterday for lunch, and we finished the ham balls with macaroni for dinner instead of having mango-baked snapper. I think that, since the mango was ripe and ready when we bought it, I'm going to have half of it as a snack tomorrow, or cube and freeze it for when I get a blender (yay smoothies!). <BR> ... Fri, 26 Oct 2012 02:46:32 EST 24 October 2012: "Day 17" atf I'm sure that at some point, I will stop feeling the need to maintain a daily blog. However, in spite of how many atf's I seem to have, today is not that day. <BR> ________________________________________<BR>_________________ <BR> <BR> So, yesterday was fun, although I don't seem to remember much of it. Jeremy took me down to Rays on his way to work so that I could get some blackberries to add to my cereal. I walked home. <BR> <BR> Lunch was a little late, and I tried some forbidden rice f... Thu, 25 Oct 2012 20:41:08 EST 23 October 2012: "Day 16" I've been sick all day today, with diarrhea of all things. I think it may be because of the sheer number of nuts I ate yesterday trying to avoid getting chips. I wasn't able to make the dinner I wanted because it had a two-hour cooking process, and would have needed to be tended the entire time because of our cats. With Jeremy staying so late at work, it just wasn't possible to do. <BR> <BR> <em>55</em> Wed, 24 Oct 2012 03:22:19 EST 22 October 2012: "Day 15" So, I'm going to start this off with by quoting my nutrition note for today: <BR> <BR> "Err, so today wasn't the best for me. I chewed on the inside of my mouth until it bled, I chewed on a few different pieces of gum until they stopped holding together, then I munched on my trail mix until my mouth bled some more. Then I tried to eat a bar of chocolate, and I'm sitting here now chewing on the inside of my mouth again. <BR> <BR> I don't feel any emotional turmoil. I'm not bored. I'm not su... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 02:46:07 EST 21 October 2012: "Day 14" Changing my alarm from a screaming robot to a nice, peaceful ocarina tune seems to have been a good idea. I'm waking up nice and gently in the morning. <BR> <BR> It's looking the the pain meds I was proscribed are giving me more trouble than they're worth. Between being compounded with heat in the middle of the day and making me unbearably drowsy, upsetting my appetite, and causing horrible bouts of nausea... Let's just say I'd prefer having a sore back than dealing with this anymore. <BR>... Sun, 21 Oct 2012 22:32:52 EST Oct 10 "About Me" I'm keeping track of my past "about me's" here too. <BR> ________________________________________ <BR> <BR> Ok, so at this point (8/10/2012) I'm feeling fat and ugly - and now, I have reasons other than "my family told me to" to work on eating more healthily and exercising. I have allowed the pain from my leg, back, and head to control my life - and I have turned into something I never wanted to be. <BR> <BR> Where I am now, there are people who I meet that are assuming I'm in pain because... Sun, 21 Oct 2012 12:46:38 EST 20 October 2012: "Day 13" atf Ok, so yesterday was pretty stressful. I overslept by six hours, and then we pretty much went straight into town when I got up to finish our grocery shopping. It felt like we spent most of the time fighting about the stupidest things. <BR> <BR> Wound up eating lunch at a buffet, really racked up the calories there with just the one plate! It's funny to think that when I was a kid, I'd down roughly 8 plates at the same chain, plus deserts. It's hard to choke down even a decent amount of food... Sun, 21 Oct 2012 12:22:13 EST 19 October 2012: "Day 12" Today was a day. I managed to get in all of my meals (dinner was pretty late), though pain meds + heat seems to equal a lot more sleep than I am happy with. I experimented some with the meatballs for dinner. Really not much to say... Other than "meh" <em>17</em> Sat, 20 Oct 2012 02:44:24 EST 18 October 2012: "Day 11" Today pretty much happened around me. Between the fight Jeremy and I had about whether or not I could do so much as walk around the corner, and the soreness and fatigue I've been feeling since last night, I just wasn't in to doing much. <BR> <BR> I still made breakfast and dinner, but beyond that. . . I took a really long nap, and played some video games. Also did a few dishes and put our clean laundry away. <BR> <BR> <em>12</em> Fri, 19 Oct 2012 02:24:46 EST 17 October 2012: "Day 10" Today was going great - until I had to take an ambulance to the ER. After exercising and a brief break, I set to work around the house, primarily focusing on the kitchen. After about an hours hard work, I stretched laying across part of the bed... And then I couldn't get up. Any movement of my head, arms, or hips/thighs caused excruciating pain in the small of my back. <BR> <BR> When Jeremy got home, I asked him to help me up. I figured if I could just get standing, I could stretch the pain... Thu, 18 Oct 2012 03:41:51 EST 16 October 2012: "Day 9" Today has been pretty good. I woke up a bit late again, but had a decent breakfast - though my cat drank a good bit of my tea. Last week, it was taking me 40 minutes to walk a mile - this week I'm down to 25 and feeling proud of myself! My goal is to get to where I can walk a mile in nine minutes without my cane, and then I'm going to move on to running. I expect this to happen mid-November. <BR> <BR> Ate dinner at a fish and steak grill tonight - turns out I don't really care for dover sol... Wed, 17 Oct 2012 02:33:35 EST 15 October 2012: "Day 8" Well, today kinda sucked. It was raining most of today, and I only had a skirt sporting an embarrassingly placed hole, a t-shirt, and one of my many holy shirts to wear. I wasn't able to go on my usual walk, and I had problems trying to do my other exercises because of the skirt. <BR> <BR> Food. . . was awkward. I decided to hop on WoW for an hour to work a bit on my monks secondary professions. . . And wound up playing for four. So my lunch was more a snack, and overall I won't be able to ... Tue, 16 Oct 2012 01:50:07 EST 14 October 2012: "Day 7" So, it's been a week. I think it's time I make a few summations for myself. <BR> <BR> 1. I feel markedly better than I did last Sunday. I have more energy, a better temper, and have been slowly able to do more and more in terms of housework and exercise already. <BR> <BR> 2. I need more work in many area's, but given the changes already noted, I am confident that if I continue in this direction, I will be able to handle those area's (ie: addictions) one step at a time. <BR> _____________... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 03:26:24 EST 13 October 2012: "Day 6" This has been one of my better days this week, in spite of how little sleep I got last night. I managed to sneak in a small nap in the afternoon (sadly at the expense of my lunch), and at Jeremy's. . . insistence, we had dinner at McDonald's, instead of the chicken salad I had planned. I agreed, again because I had missed my lunch and breakfast. <BR> <BR> I got in some good stretching and a walk - and am now, in fact, about to go to bed at a decent hour for the first time in a long while. I... Sun, 14 Oct 2012 02:10:31 EST 12 October 2012: "Day 5" I don't remember much of today. I know my fiance woke me up before he left for work, and that I woke up around 2:30 pm on the living room floor. After that, I got some apple sauce and crackers and got on Fallout 3. <BR> <BR> When Jeremy got back home, I told him what had happened, and we went for a walk to the grocery store to get some mushrooms and sour cream for dinner (Stroganoff, gotta love the stuff). I didn't stretch before hand, and forgot to stretch my leg when we got home. <BR> <B... Sat, 13 Oct 2012 05:43:01 EST 11 October 2012: "Day 4" Another off day, for the most part. Sure, I got up on time, had breakfast, chatted a bit with Jeremy. . . And then I got sucked in to Fallout 3 until around 2:30 pm - and I had been playing since 8. I love the game, but I really need to learn to NOT do this; although I suppose the good news is that it's not daily anymore, so I am making some progress. <BR> <BR> At my lunch real quick when I realized what time it was, then set about to do some goal setting for my overall exercise/weight-los... Fri, 12 Oct 2012 05:01:30 EST 10 October 2012: "Day 3" I've been asleep the past 18 hours. My bladder felt like it was about to burst when I woke up, though I had trouble moving to get out of bed and to the restroom. I haven't eaten yet, but I'm about to go grab a yogurt, and will make my planned dinner when Jeremy get's home. Then I'll see if he wants to go on a short walk with me. <BR> <BR> I'm a bit disappointed with myself - I've been feeling so good the past two days, how could I let myself sleep through another day? Especially since I man... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 20:52:35 EST 9 October 2012 - "Day 2" atf So yesterday was pretty eventful. <BR> <BR> Jeremy woke me up more or less by heading out the door, so I woke up about an hour later than I wanted. Still ate breakfast, and pushed lunch and dinner back by half an hour each. After letting my food settle, I had a good stretch and went for a mile and a half walk. Partway through, some of the injuries on my left leg started acting up (fracture on my foot, 'poppy' knee cap) along with some really bad muscle pain - I slowed my stride a bit, and m... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 20:43:45 EST 8 October 2012: "Day 1" In all reality, this is probably the best place to keep a fitness journal. <BR> <BR> I think I'm off to a good start today. Breakfast isn't always a given, but I ate one at 7.30 am. After letting my food settle for about an hour, I looked up some stretches and regular exercises to start myself out with. The stretches covered all major muscle groupings, and those alone got my heart racing. That was a bit discouraging, but I went on to try stomach crunches and reverse crunches. The stomach cru... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 00:41:11 EST