IROCK40's SparkPeople Blog IROCK40's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Ah-Ha moment This morning I am looking at my fast track goals - drink 8 cups of water.. hmm haven't been doing that so I popped over to my streaks. Hmm stumbling around there too. I felt it coming..... the anxiety and the shame. I couldn't possibly succeeded if I didn't check those little boxes could I? See I knew I couldn't do it. I am not strong enough for this. I missed my workout yesterday and those darn boxes are haunting me and I am a failure. <BR> <BR> Wow just writing down the things that were ... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 07:51:11 EST All of a sudden I realized that it has been over a month! I worked a trade show this past weekend and bought treats for my staff to eat during the day. I never even thought about eating them. I was cooking dinner tonight and realized that I was really hungry. Instead of reaching for anything I pulled out 14 almonds and had a glass of water. That took me to dinner without looking back. <BR> <BR> Is it possible that I am developing a healthy relationship with food!?!? It has been over a month since I started tracking and not once have I strayed off ... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 21:22:53 EST I never believed it would happen.. I work most weekends so they tend to be busier than my weekdays. I was up at 7am and out the door. I ran all day stopping in between to pick up my sons skates then waited after I finished work to get his skates sharpened and thenhad an hour to get a meal into everyone before hockey. The rest of the family got hamburgers and I spent the extra few minutes to make myself something the fit my calories for the day. I even revamped my menu to be sure I had enough calories to snack later :) Victory ... Sat, 9 Feb 2013 22:04:22 EST Onederland!! I have finally figured out how to use my why to feel absolutely super about this journey. I have been on track with my diet for almost a month and I am into week 3 of Body revolution. I feel better and slimmer but I was terrified to get on the scale. The scale has been my downfall many times. I get moving and seem to be doing well and I get on the scale and don't see a change. Feelings of disappointment and hopelessness take me under and I quit. <BR> <BR> Today I stand in my bathroom starin... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 18:55:51 EST My why I am supposed to have solid reasons why I want to accomplish this goal of getting into shape and losing the weight. Apparently just wanting to be fit is not good enough, I need to know WHY. In order to commit to it I need to dig deep and see the big picture. I have been trying and have thought of many "classic" reasons who sound good but mean little to me. I want to play with my kid... I already play with my kid. I want to improve my health to stay healthy enough to meet my grandchildren (my ... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 21:11:59 EST I DID IT!! Ok so today I ate lunch so I was not hungry and I was good and relaxed so I felt good about going into the store to pick up the gluten free bread that I cannot get during my regular shopping. I am in the store and have bread in hand and I pass a display of snack. HOLY MOLY. I am rooted to the spot and I think I may be drooling. I am consumed by the thought of eating something...ANYTHING!!! I circled the display looking for gluten free options, checking calories. Debating, justifying in an abs... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 22:08:31 EST It's my time I joined SP last year in September knowing I needed something to help me pull myself together. I was sure if I found it I would succeed. At the time I didn't consider that I had been looking for a LONG time and hadn't found it yet. I was stuck in the I need to be accountable to something/someone but never believed enough in myself to be accountable to ME. So needless to say I did nothing but slide further into the pit until NOW :) <BR> <BR> When I joined SP I made my page and wrote about gui... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 09:14:54 EST Day 5 of health and gratitude Days 3 and 4 where a blur but with my work outs and on track meals they were a success! <BR> <BR> Today - Day 5 is a day of rest. I planned and I cooked and I have the entire week planned for success. I am looking forward to this week like I haven't in a long time. <BR> <BR> Today I am grateful for the kindness of others. The support I have received has been momentous and every smile and kind word lifts me up. Thank you. I am grateful for the pants that fit today that might still be a bit ... Sun, 16 Sep 2012 17:42:18 EST Day 2 of health and gratitude I am sore sore sore today and it feels pretty good. My son is home from school today and I had 100 excuses why I didn't have time to do a workout today, typical.. BUT I got the bikes out and we went for a ride. It wasn't hard to convince him to race so not only did I get my cardio in but so did he and we go to spend time together. Bonus and bonus!! <BR> <BR> Today I am grateful for the muscles I feel all sore and wonderful under the excess. I will see you again I promise and I am grateful t... Fri, 14 Sep 2012 15:59:20 EST Day 1 of health and gratitude Today I have decided to stop feeling sorry for myself and do something about it because really any way you cit it all the excuses and nonsense is just me feeling sorry for my self because I don't think I can do it. Garbage! Today I committed to 90 days of health and wellness. I am going to do Jillian Michael's Body Revolution and 90 days of gratitude. <BR> <BR> I made it through the day 1 of JMBR and am not sure if I am going to be able to lift my arms tomorrow but oh well!! lol I am on tra... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 14:37:55 EST