IREN0169's SparkPeople Blog IREN0169's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 50 Day Log in streak! <em>104</em> I have been doing well. Today is my 50 day log in streatk! <BR> <BR> The weather is a bit hot sometime to do anything outdoors, but I found my passion w/ riding my bike again and I am looking forward to doing more of that. <BR> <BR> My food tracking was going well until we had a potluck and that but me off for the last week. Trying to get back on track! <BR> <BR> Hope to get more involved in the teams here! Sat, 6 Sep 2014 12:07:20 EST I am back and living in Arizona! Lots have happened since my last blog. <BR> <BR> I sold my property in SD, the day I was moving! What an awesome sign that this was the right move. <BR> <BR> I moved from SD to AZ the end of February and what an adventure that was. Here I was driving a 16 foot moving truck w/ a trailer hauling my car through the mountains. I have determined that if I can do that - I can do just about anything. Although I don't think I will be doing that again. <BR> <BR> Found an apartment online... Fri, 25 Apr 2014 23:46:24 EST Getting back in the groove and it isn't even the 1st yet! <BR> <BR> The last couple of weeks have been very stressful and I even missed a day on here stopping my streak at 51 or so. Holidays, preparing my house for market and trying to resolve things with my ex who is still living with me has put my body in super tightness mode. I have just been trying to maintain over this period with hopes to get back to serious work once my ex moves out. We had been pretty amicable to this point, but that is slowly disappearin... Mon, 30 Dec 2013 07:51:36 EST Slow and Steady It has been a month and things have been going well. I have a good streak and have been able to get my food tracked steadily. I am so grateful with so much turmoil going on. While some things have been really difficult, this consistency has really helped me. <BR> <BR> Next step is to add some exercise! Wed, 4 Dec 2013 19:15:13 EST Grateful for being sick? In a strange sort of way, I am grateful for being sick this holiday week. It forced me to slow down. It forced me to take care of myself. I didn't have to worry about being around people I didn't want to be, although I did miss my daughter and sisters. I am thankful that I didn't do any black Friday or "gray" Thursday shopping. I was happy that I stayed within my ranges. I am anxious to get back to some type of exercising. Something tells me this weekend will be about reflection. <... Fri, 29 Nov 2013 19:51:59 EST Being grateful for awareness "Awareness is the first step toward positive change and growth. " The Language of Letting Go. <BR> <BR> Todays reading for me. I am amazed at this journey I have been on. Some days have not been pretty. Some have been downright nasty. But each day I am on this journey becomes a little bit brighter regardless of circumstances because I am learning to like myself for who I am and not what others perceive me to be. I no longer look at this as my weight loss journey, rather my new and im... Mon, 25 Nov 2013 09:00:05 EST Changes they are a coming.... A lot going on in my life right now. <BR> <BR> A year ago I moved to a smaller town to be nearer to my "ex" husband. I spent 9 years with him. Unfortunately, sometime enough is just not enough and it is time to walk away. I do this with such a heavy heart. But my health is being destroyed by the relationship. <BR> <BR> So at this point, I am thinking of starting over fresh. I am considering a move to AZ! It is a little warmer than my SD home. I would love to spend more time in the... Sat, 23 Nov 2013 14:17:36 EST When things get tough as they sometimes do. Just don't quit! <BR> <BR> The last couple of days have been rather tough. It would have been a perfect opportunity to feed myself silly. It has been one thing after another yesterday and today. But I tracked everything and stayed within my limits. It hasn't been easy but I have finally determined that I am worthy of being healthy. So one day at a time, one minute if need be. <BR> <BR> I don't know what tomorrow will bring with everything else, I do know I will be here. <BR> <BR> ... Thu, 21 Nov 2013 19:26:08 EST Lessons learned - day 15 I have had a few lightbulb moments of late. The only way I will get healthy is by doing what I need. Not for anyone else, but for ME! It is ok to set boundaries and to stick with them. It is alright to say no and it is alright to go to bed early so I can get enough sleep to get up at 4 am to work out. Being such a people pleaser my whole life, I am learning that I need to please myself first and foremost. It is like putting on the oxygen mask before assisting others. I also like to set... Tue, 19 Nov 2013 19:54:17 EST Such a wonderful day I am blessed to have met some wonderful woman "sisters" in my new town. Today we got together for a full day retreat. Spending time talking, meditating and making gratitude rocks. We also spent time eating! I am very proud of myself for not over eating and not using this as an excuse to eat. I have made a commitment to this program. Also figured out how to remember what I ate without tracking right away and then tracked as soon as I got home. Photos - duh! <BR> <BR> Another day of gra... Sat, 9 Nov 2013 22:02:27 EST I am a diabetic! I feel like I should be at a 12 step meeting right now. I have always said I was a diabetic and took my pills, insulin, etc. My A1C's were always 5.9 to 7.1 within the acceptable range. HOWEVER, I didn't treat myself very well and didn't eat correctly or exercised. I have lived with an alcoholic and his disease is pretty prevalent when he has been drinking. Me, not so much if I don't eat right. That is until it pretty much slaps you in the face. My slap: A1C of 9.0. Excuse me? <BR> ... Fri, 8 Nov 2013 14:37:23 EST Alarm Clock Chaos Oh my goodness! When will I learn that I do not need four alarms and the snooze button. Not only do I not get done what I want to, I lay in bed not getting any sleep either. Is this just me? Talk about crazy! So I think I will go to one alarm and just force myself out of bed! <BR> <BR> On another note. Feels good to get back into my routine. Plan on working on menu planning this month. Wed, 6 Nov 2013 10:19:26 EST Recharged and home again! I went to a visit to my sister in TX. My sister (1 of 3 of my sisters) has always been so motivated, works out a lot and is generally successful in all that she does. Hard to compete with....or so I thought. Saturday morning we wake up and she is going to go on her run. 15 minutes later I was asking if she was still there! YEP! Apparently she is human and takes forever to get motivated to do something although she sets up "appts" so she has to be accountable. It was so eye-opening. Mo... Tue, 5 Nov 2013 20:31:51 EST Texas Bound After a spring and summer of medical issues. I will be spending a long weekend in TX with one of my wonderful sisters. She is extremely fit and motivated and I am hoping to gain some extra energy from her. A renn faire w/ lots of walking is set for Saturday and plenty of walking the rest of the weekend as well. Hot tub for the sore muscles. And time to recharge and spend some one-on-one time with sister! Looking forward to it! Leave Friday, early am. Thu, 31 Oct 2013 09:26:46 EST I am back, yet again! It has been a while! I had just earned my orange belt in Tae Kwon Do and working toward my yellow when my health went bonkers. In the hospital end of April and numerous specialist - some I agree with and one I disagree with. Now I have a tear in my rotator cuff and my sugars are out of whack. Apparently taking care of everyone and holding all of this stress in kept me healthy enough to take care of the others, but once it was time for me, my body let go. Most likely since the before pict... Tue, 29 Oct 2013 15:23:02 EST Orange Belt! The next step up the ladder in Tae Kwon Do! How exciting it was to be presented my orange belt after my test. Something they forgot to tell me was that I would have to break a board. It took a few tries but I did it! Talk about awesome! <BR> <BR> I am loving the spark people app! It allows me to track my food so much easier and I love the scanning tool! I am on a 4 day streak! I just need to keep doing it one day at a time! <BR> Thu, 21 Mar 2013 22:42:10 EST New White Belt I know I have been missing yet again, but no matter how many times I leave, I always come back! <BR> <BR> For my birthday in January, I signed up for Tae Kwon Do. During that time, I suffered w/ a horrible sinus infection, but I kept going back. I am the oldest one there and most of the "adults" are under 18! We do not automatically receive our belt and uniform. We must earn it. Talk about a difficult workout, then trying to remember all of the different patterns. I am also learning ... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 21:46:12 EST Dance Break! It has been a while. After several weeks of feeling sick, I am finally starting to feel human again. I haven't been up to doing much for exercise so decided to do 15 minutes of dancing tonight just to get moving. It felt great to move again and so easy and fun! I think I will try to do this on a daily basis. Sun, 3 Feb 2013 21:35:42 EST To sleep....... I learned a wonderful lesson yesterday. Friday night I drove into work – 100 miles one way and that was fine. After work, I ran one errand and then picked up my Mom for dinner. We had a lovely dinner and visit and it was then time for me to drive back home which takes approx. 1 ½ hours. So I get home about 8:30 and am ready for bed. Then I get a phone call and before I know it, it is 10 pm and I need to get up at 4 am, which is only 6 hours of sleep. Normally this wouldn’t be so bad, bu... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 21:10:26 EST If something doesn’t work, try something else. I seem to go in streaks with my computer working for me and then it will go through a streak where it wants to erase everything I type, open up new windows, or some other insane task that will really reduce my serenity to nothing – something I just can’t allow myself. So now I am learning Word 2010 which is a whole new thing. I guess I will master this one way or another. <BR> <BR> Day 2: <BR> <BR> I worked for six hours of OT this morning in an attempt to alleviate some financial co... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 19:46:08 EST New beginnings, again.... Over the last few days as the last year came to a close, I looked at my life and all that has happened. <BR> <BR> 1) I took a big risk moving 100 miles away from my home and family - although 100 miles may not be that much - it was for me. <BR> 2) I also took a big risk to be with my husband. We have been apart more than we have been together in the last 4 years. Although there is much love there and he is my best friend, he has his own battle to fight and I have allowed myself to foc... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 22:54:31 EST I am healthy! My number 1 goal is to be healthy and I read recently that the best way to obtain a goal is to see yourself as you want to be, so.... <BR> <BR> I am healthy and fit! <BR> I eat to fuel my body for my healthy lifestyle. <BR> I have an active lifestyle that includes biking, walking, running and rock climbing. <BR> I am a positive person in life, including my work. <BR> I am financially successful. <BR> I travel a lot for enjoyment. <BR> <BR> I have some focusing to do. LOL <BR> <BR... Sun, 30 Dec 2012 07:40:17 EST Why? Why can I do so well all day long and then binge like no tomorrow come evening? I have no reason that I am aware of and I feel awful. I really don't want to admit it but I am tired of denying it too. If I deny it then it must not exist right? Well it is real and it is going to kill me if I don't accept it and find a way to use food for fuel and not for comfort, acceptance, avoidance and the one hundred and one other excuses I come up with. I gave a close family member a "lecture" about... Sat, 29 Dec 2012 23:41:17 EST Back to work... I returned back to work today after 10 days off and promptly locked myself out of my system, then time card when I couldn't remember my passwords. Problem resolved and it feels good to get back to a routine after so much chaos this last month. <BR> <BR> Back to Sparkcoach and my two goals today are track my food ALL day and 10 minutes of exercise. So far so good, although I still need to do the exercises. <BR> <BR> I managed to download some photos from my trip to Korea so here are a ... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 18:06:19 EST Return to Reality! Wow! I have just returned from an exciting journey to Korea. I now have a new beautiful daughter-in-law and I learned so much about the Korean culture and about myself in such a short time. I didn't get to see nearly enough, so I believe I will be planning my next trip for 2014. <BR> <BR> I learned that diabetes and medication needs better planning when crossing the international date line. I had difficulty in trying to figure out when to take my meds and I did experience some highs ... Thu, 27 Dec 2012 03:12:32 EST Try, try again Yesterday, I started with the best of intentions and I was doing well. Then I had a diabetic reaction (my excuse to eat everything) I hate reactions! In addition, my husband then freaked out. He has his own issues to deal with, and sometimes he can say the wrong thing not realizing how he sounds, so as he was blaming me for having a reaction because I should have this stuff figured out. I calmly remind him that I spent my entire life focusing on other people and therefore have not figure... Sun, 2 Dec 2012 09:32:32 EST Countdown to Korea - 17 days I will be flying to Seoul, S. Korea on December 18th and returning on the 24th. I am so nervous and excited! I kept eating for no reason yesterday, but I think this trip was the reason as I am so nervous. I will be flying by myself, first time on a plane since 2000 and first time out of the country ever. My son and future daughter-in-law will meet me at the airport and take care of getting me places while there. They will be getting married on December 21st. I am looking forward to tha... Sat, 1 Dec 2012 08:05:09 EST MIA I have been missing in action for a while now, but managed to keep my streak going by spinning the wheel if nothing else. <BR> <BR> November has been pretty tough, starting with family drama at the beginning of the month that was pretty hurtful and I have been trying to resolve that issue. Lots of work also took up some time. It has not been pleasant but I refuse to give up. I am learning to take care of myself and not let others decide my fate for me. Wed, 28 Nov 2012 11:43:48 EST All or nothing.. Question for the day. Today, I woke up late and wasn't able to get my morning workout in. Actually I didn't feel well at all, but I promised myself at least 10 minutes each day. So today, I did 10 minutes on my first break. Didn't do anything else all day, but I did something. Tonight my Fitbit came in and I am excited to see how that adds to my program. <BR> <BR> Beyond that, it was a horrible day at work, my husband quit smoking but he is down in the dumps and I have a headache and ... Mon, 5 Nov 2012 21:25:25 EST My mantras... Today I am grateful for this day. I came up with my new mantras to help me on my journey. The first is for exercise. "Exercise is required medication" and second for food. "If I track it, I can eat it". I made a picture with some clip art and put it on the closet doors in front of my desk in my office. I have decided that those doors will be my inspiration wall. Everything that inspires me, that I wish for and that I dream for. <BR> <BR> Tonight I spend time with my husband a... Sun, 4 Nov 2012 20:54:03 EST 10 years of no smoking! November 3, 2002 was the first day of my journey to live without smoking. It was very difficult at first, but as each day passed it became just a little easier. I had adopted the attitude of AA, but instead of alcohol, I said cigarettes. One cigarette is not an option and as each day passed, it became so ingrained into my thinking that it really is only a blip on the radar if I even think about it now. <BR> <BR> Perhaps I need to re-think my approach to my eating. I have been having a ... Sat, 3 Nov 2012 23:16:09 EST Bucket List Think about 3 things that are on your bucket list. What goal would you go for if anything was possible? I would love to travel. I am so excited to go to Korea in December and get my first stamp in my passport (which I just applied for this summer). I am going for my son's wedding, but from the photos he has taken, it is beautiful. There are so many places I want to see and family I want to visit! <BR> <BR> What can you do to feel like that in your life today? Sometimes we just have ... Fri, 2 Nov 2012 21:31:30 EST Awesome day! First to respond to those that posted to my last blog. I love the ideas! The ring is definitely a goal for me, being able to put mine on. Under 40" waist and towel day! Excellent! <BR> <BR> More overtime today but off by 9 am, back to regular shift tomorrow. But I am talking about today. After work, conversed with my health coach, went into town to vote early and then picked up a couple of things for the house. I then received my utility bill and it was less than 1/2 of what I used... Thu, 1 Nov 2012 22:07:39 EST If weight wasn't determined by a number Question posed today. What would my ideal weight be if it wasn't determined by a number? For me it would be: <BR> 1. How do my clothes fit? <BR> 2. Am I reducing my medication? <BR> 3. Can I walk further and faster with each passing day? <BR> 4. Do I have more energy? <BR> <BR> Perhaps I need to keep this in mind more often when the scale really doesn't reflect what I was hoping for. <BR> <BR> Today was a good day. I ran some errands, worked some OT, had a nap and went grocery... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 19:53:57 EST Wishing... I decided to go back and read "The Spark" again and in doing so, I read how we respond to wishes. When decided to make my wish list, I wrote down things I "thought" I might be able to accomplish. In reality, why don't we wish like we are kids? What is the worst that could happen? At the very least we start laying the groundwork for what we really want and even though we may not get that, we most likely will get more than we ever thought possible. I plan to start wishing like a kid aga... Mon, 29 Oct 2012 16:38:56 EST Exercised this morning... I spent 30 minutes on the treadmill this morning. I always feel good when I do this and I KNOW this helps me in my weight loss effort. It was how I lost 30 lbs a few years ago! So why do I keep trying to find a different way? Why do I fight doing what I know what works? Makes absolutely no sense to me. I can only take one day at a time and today I choose to do what works - the treadmill at 4:45 am for 30 minutes. <BR> <BR> After my shower I then spent 5 minutes in meditation and vis... Sun, 28 Oct 2012 08:37:37 EST What a day... Today was a bit different along with yesterday. <BR> <BR> After I finished working my 10 hour shift yesterday, I took a nap and well slept all night. I apparently was very tired. I worked 8 hours today and still needed a nap after work. I am hoping to accomplish some things this evening. I sure hope I am not getting sick! At least I have the opportunity to take care of myself! <BR> <BR> I am planning on getting the Fitbit as motivation. Has anyone else used this? <BR> <BR> Hope... Sat, 27 Oct 2012 18:40:44 EST Positive visualization... I started my day with some positive visualization of how I wanted my day to go and what I wanted to accomplish today. <BR> <BR> Because I have a 10 day today, I am hoping that goes well. <BR> <BR> I want to put together a study plan as there are several books and workbooks I am working on for self improvement, unfortunately so much time in the day prevents me from doing much, so I hope a regular plan will help with this. <BR> <BR> I plan on 30 minutes in my craft room today - this w... Fri, 26 Oct 2012 07:45:39 EST It snowed this morning.... It is so beautiful when it is the first snow of the season! I love the pureness of it. Of course ask me about snow if March and I will be cussing. <BR> <BR> This does change my plan slightly. I need to go to my storage unit and get the shovels out. Don't want to be stranded with shovels so near yet so far away. <BR> <BR> Also need to go the grocery store. I was going to go anyway but with work all weekend, think I will go today. I can drop more boxes off at recycling too! <BR... Thu, 25 Oct 2012 09:15:11 EST Me day con't. I put in my 4 hours of work (OT) and that went well. Now I am awake and can get back into my craft room! <BR> <BR> I am also planning how to use my New ONE NOTE from Office 2010. I not sure exactly how it works, but something tells me it will really organize some projects for me. <BR> <BR> I don't have to leave my house today, unless I want to - something I have been looking forward to for a while now. <BR> <BR> Sparkpeople also on the agenda! <BR> <BR> Bedtime check-in: <BR> <B... Wed, 24 Oct 2012 11:56:11 EST Me Day... I had a great start to my day. I woke up and worked for a couple of hours and now I can take care of some financial matters before going to a meeting at 10 am. <BR> <BR> After my meeting, I will: <BR> <BR> Spend time finishing my craft/exercise room (I know this has taken forever, but this is where all of the storage items went and it has been the worst). I will be so thrilled to have this as a functioning room again! <BR> <BR> I will exercise today - not sure what I will be doing, bu... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 09:17:05 EST Still tweaking... Thanks Seawillow! We must be thinking alike. I was just thinking how I did better when I blogged out my plan in the morning and I seemed to accomplish more by the end of the day. Then I thought , who wants to read my plan? I think I will start my blog in the morning w/ my plan and finish it up at the end of the night with how well I did and notes of anything I learned along the way. <BR> <BR> So here goes: <BR> <BR> Work 6am to 4:30pm <BR> I went to bed pretty late and my husband wa... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 10:06:07 EST Another rough day... Worked again today and for the most part that was ok, not looking forward to work tomorrow. <BR> <BR> In other news, I still need a lot of work in staying centered. It is hard when I see people I love struggling and the only I can do is love them, but they need to do the work - just like I have to do the work for myself. The only problem is that when I see others struggling, I tend to lose myself and lose focus on what I need to do for self. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is a new day with new po... Sun, 21 Oct 2012 23:24:15 EST A little me time... Today turned out to be a rough day at work and even a little rougher after work. I have family members that have issues and sometimes I get caught up in the crazyiness and drains me. Today was one of those days. I took a walk on the beach in part to find some serenity and in part to exercise. Something I have been lacking lately. <BR> <BR> Also, I have a couple of projects in the works and I hope to have photos in the next couple of days. Mainly to inspire and motivate. I am pretty... Sat, 20 Oct 2012 22:02:00 EST A time to relax... I worked today....Blah. <BR> <BR> I have had a headache and sore muscles for a few days now, went to the chiropractor on Tuesday where my back cracked more than I thought possible. So tonight, after work, I relaxed w/ a couple of ice packs. I didn't get much else done today, but that is ok. Off to an early night. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> A ... Fri, 19 Oct 2012 22:46:40 EST Getting things together. It has been so windy and blustery here that I would prefer to stay inside and curl up under the covers. But instead my husband and I spent some time putting some things away and making our home more comfortable. I also made some progress in my office. <BR> <BR> Today I am grateful for the warmth of our home, the wonderful roast dinner tonight and seeing new friends. <BR> <BR> Still need to focus more on myself.... Thu, 18 Oct 2012 22:41:32 EST Remaining positive Seems like this is so hard for some people. I know I have my moments and life can be tough, but I am so tired of the continuous blame game that so many have become accustomed to. I was reading a post on facebook from a couple of my friends and co-workers and it really upset me, actually only one upset me and the only one was just sad. Instead of trying to figure something out, he was all about blame. It really makes me sad. It also makes me more aware of what I can do for myself an... Wed, 17 Oct 2012 22:52:27 EST My day off.... I had a day off today, although as busy as it was, I am not so sure it was. Up early and 100 mile drive back to my home town. Saw my Mom for a little bit and then visited my Dad. He looks good from his surgery. I also spent time w/ my daughter and went with her to her dr appt and then we both went for chiropractic treatments! Something every mother should be doing with their 22 year old daughter. NOT! It saddens me and hurts me to see her in such pain. I think this dr appt went well... Tue, 16 Oct 2012 20:29:43 EST Learning to find myself.. After all of these years you would think that I would have clue as to who I was. Except my life revolved around everyone else and what they wanted, how they felt, what they needed, their goals, their talents and their lives. A friend once told me a story that when asked how she was doing, she remarked that her husband was having a good day. How many times have I felt the same way, said the same thing. <BR> <BR> When people ask me what I like to do, I will comment how this family member... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 22:48:22 EST Question of the day...Sunday, Oct 14 Has your journey been painful so far--or adventurous? How could you make changes in your habits or your outlook to make the process more fun and exciting? Write a short blog today on this topic. <BR> <BR> Interesting topic... <BR> <BR> I always try to look at life as an adventure, but not necessarily everything as evidence by my eating and exercising habits. So what changes can I make. I like the idea of trying new foods - something I never would have done prior to meeting my husband.... Sun, 14 Oct 2012 20:08:48 EST