INZILANE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=INZILANE INZILANE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Went for a Walk! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5618082 So I might be a fan of ye olde treadmill. What's not to love about being in an air conditioned room with a fan blowing air, watching tv and getting your minutes in? Or, skip the tv and read a book. Well, it's kind of gotten a little boring. <BR> <BR> Once upon a time, back in high school, they did that cliche career placement quizzes/surveys/etc. Ours was supposed to assess our interests as well as strengths and give us a direction on options for careers. Well, mine was really useful. It tau... Fri, 7 Feb 2014 18:38:48 EST My Adventure with Once a Month Cooking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5598578 One of the biggest ways I've made poor choices that work against my goals is to fall on "fast & easy" food instead of making it myself. With the potential of grad school coming up this summer and added expenses, we've been looking at ways to cut costs. I told my bf that I thought we could cut about $200 a month from our food budget by doing the Once a Month cooking stuff because of a few things: <BR> <BR> 1) We waste a TON of food. We probably have to throw out as many bell peppers as we use... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 02:27:03 EST Productivating! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5593835 It's no secret that I'm a stressaholic. I stress about being behind on work. I stress about not being AHEAD on work. I stress about not having ENOUGH work. So yeah, that's a little crazy. But, on the plus side, I am officially ON TRACK with my work! That means I can start stressing more fun things like planning the heck out of the next year and school and such! <BR> <BR> I have been having trouble getting to sleep because I'm too busy thinking. Last night, I fell asleep writing a mental outl... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 17:54:41 EST They Say... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5589374 They say that losing weight won't change you. I swear I've seen it on several SP quizzes, especially the one that's "Are you ready to lose weight?" I can completely see where they're coming from--your weight doesn't make your personality. There are confident girls who weigh a lot, there are un-confident ladies who weigh next to nothing. I get it. But I also think they might be wrong. <BR> <BR> Here's where I'm coming from. I feel COMPLETELY different than I did two years ago. I started at SP... Fri, 10 Jan 2014 15:31:18 EST Starting Again--Not Over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5583262 I haven't been active on SP for probably close to 6 months now. I gave in to excuses and stress and changed my priorities. I found myself thinking about "starting over" with the new year. I think it's a great time to dive back in because you're usually surrounded by lots of people in the same boat, with lots of enthusiasm. It seems a lot easier to stay motivated. <BR> <BR> I caught myself thinking negatives about "starting over"--but I'm not really. I still have most of the progress I made l... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 17:18:22 EST Attack of the Blahs! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5466349 This has been a really hard week for me. I feel like I've failed myself quite a bit & I'm not exactly sure how to get myself in the right frame of mind. <BR> <BR> The last couple weeks, I've been ridiculously hungry. All the time. I'll eat a normal person meal... and then I'm hungry again. And then if I eat something else... I'm still hungry. It's like I'm hungry ALL DAY. I've tried drinking water instead... but I'm just hungry nonstop. <BR> <BR> I'm also feeling really tired. Regardless of... Mon, 26 Aug 2013 02:02:10 EST Back on the Wagon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5459093 I haven't updated this in a long while and things have been kind of crazy since then! I've learned several things about myself in that time... and while I have not been as successful on the scale, I'm VERY happy with several changes & successes I've had. <BR> <BR> To explain a bit... my bf's daughter came to visit us for June-July. It was VERY difficult for me to stay healthy while she was here. She wanted fried food a lot, we ate out more often, it was very easy for me to give in & "splurge... Sun, 18 Aug 2013 18:07:19 EST Talking Nutrition with a Teen... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5384760 Bf's daughter has been here for less than 48 hours so far. Early in the visit, she brought up that she needs to lose weight, because her doctor told her she was obese. (She's 5'2 and 145 lbs.) The doctor apparently told her she needs to weigh 120. According to the calculators IIII see, her weight puts her at a BMI of 26-- at the low end of overweight. Losing just 10 pounds puts her in the "normal" range. If she drops to 120 like the doctor suggests, she'd have a bmi smack in the middle of the... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 15:46:37 EST This Weekend's a Test!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5380580 I'm sure a lot of us fall into the trap of, "I'm too busy to _____" insert everything you SHOULD be doing to stay healthy in the blank... and there ya go. I know that's how I ended up where I am. "I'm too busy to cook a real meal, I'll get some takeout." "I'm too busy to cook food from scratch, I'll get frozen stuff." "I'm too busy to walk to class, I'll drive to north campus instead of walk the 1/2 mile." "I'm too busy to work out, have better things to do." "I'm too busy to sleep regularly,... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 17:14:18 EST Silly Blog Entries Eaten by the Interwebs! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5377075 I was ALMOST DONE writing an entry... when I mashed a button accidentally & the internet ate my work :( <BR> <BR> So, I'll summarize quickly because I'm way too lazy to write all of that again! <BR> <BR> WOOHOO's! <BR> <BR> 1) Below 240 officially!! <BR> 2) Can fit into size 16 pants (some, not all of them, though!) and wore them out to dinner this weekend! <BR> 3) I went shopping for a swimsuit and actually had SEVERAL OPTIONS to pick from! I'm excited to go to the waterpark & pool now :D... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 18:10:00 EST Sleep is for the weak? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5368525 Like a ton of other high school & college aged kids, I've spent a good portion of my life with a screwy sleep schedule. I remember in high school, one of my teachers turned to our class and said, "If you're getting more than 4 hours of sleep a night, either you're doing something wrong, or I'm not giving you enough homework." <BR> <BR> Later, sleep was what happened after you ran out of things to do. I have a sweatshirt from high school that says "Sleep is for the weak" and then another litt... Sun, 26 May 2013 15:45:25 EST Time to Get Serious! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5364895 It's been a pretty difficult month for me in that I've been REALLY stressed out. It impacts me in a lot of ways from physical pain to sleepiness to just-not-wanting-to-do-anything-itis. BUT, ironically, it also tends to make me want to do MORE. I've been slacking. I have been doing a bare minimum of exercise the past couple of weeks. <BR> <BR> Now, I do have a legit REASON for doing less recently--I've been going to bed at a reasonable time instead of staying up late doing work AND I've had ... Wed, 22 May 2013 18:35:53 EST I'm stuck on a mesa http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5361288 Did you know a Mesa is a fancy spanish word for plateau they use in California? I figure my plateau should be regionally-appropriate. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I'm pretty stuck. I feel like I'm doing everything right--getting to the gym even more, walking extra, feeling pretty motivated to get out & do stuff. But the scale says NOPE! On top of that, I felt really fat yesterday. <BR> <BR> I'm a pretty numbers-oriented person, so the scale not moving bothers me a good deal. It's been long enough that... Sun, 19 May 2013 16:33:55 EST What exactly is forgiveable? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5359881 This week for BLC18, we're supposed to write a blog about forgiving ourselves for things we've done or haven't done. I'm not sure my thoughts have been exactly in the spirit of the challenge, but it's been a funky couple of weeks emotionally, so I don't care! I'ma do this my way! <BR> <BR> A while back, I wrote about how things happened in life that put me in a pretty negative state of mind--lots of bad things in a row. I briefly mentioned that I didn't talk to my dad & my stepmother died on... Sat, 18 May 2013 02:36:56 EST Something Magical Happened... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5354074 So one of my goals right now is to be in size 16s by June. That might not be 100% realistic, but it's a goal, right? I honestly have no idea how much weight loss will equate to a jeans size--I'm pretty sure size 16 to size 14 was over 40 pounds on the way up. But I have these size 16s sitting around that I can check my progress with. So last night I was feeling inspired to try them on. <BR> <BR> And... they came up, they buttoned up, they zipped up. I was IN the 16s!! They aren't a comfy fit... Sun, 12 May 2013 13:55:58 EST Some People! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5348859 Okay. So this isn't 100% directly about weight loss. But... I guess it kind of is. Because when I get angry, it's something I generally feed with junk food. Today I'm feeding it with ranting on a blog. That I will hopefully keep as many expletives as possible out of. <BR> <BR> So I mentioned a couple weeks ago that I was going to start taking the laptop to Starbucks to be productive & get my work done. It's actually been going REALLY well. I feel like I have a lot more time in the day and I... Tue, 7 May 2013 16:30:23 EST Beware! I'ma Monster!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5346472 So, I did it. I decided I deserved a treat for working hard and "staying on track." So I made an appointment & went to get my hair cut and highlights on Friday. It was glorious. The place I went does a scalp massage before they wash your hair... felt SO good. <BR> <BR> That afternoon, I enjoyed my new hair. We went out to dinner. I reverted to my old eating habits and managed to eat ALL OF MY CALORIES in 1 meal! Friday's food intake: <BR> <BR> Breakfast: Typical coffee <BR> <BR> Trough-fe... Sun, 5 May 2013 17:37:41 EST Glorious Humpday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5343562 I've always gotten a kick out of Wednesday being humpday... a lot of times, it really does feel like the peak of the week. It feels appropriate! <BR> <BR> So, I broke down & called the manufacturer about my scale. Turns out it had a major calibration issue because I've been using it on the linoleum in the bathroom. Apparently there's just enough "give" in linoleum to make it really crappy for scales. So now my scale is on the tile in the entry. Weird place to weigh in, but whatever! The prob... Thu, 2 May 2013 19:02:22 EST Just another manic Monday? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5341012 Okay. I know. It's really cheesey. But I HAD to after the day I had yesterday! I used the weekend to get things done and enjoy the weather and go hiking. I don't regret it a bit! But, usually I at least do SOME work over the weekend, so I started Monday behind and stressed to catch up. <BR> <BR> Then, I realized I was supposed to bake a few dozen cookies for my bf's boss's going away party. So that's what I was doing at 11:00 last night! Woohoo! But, with all of that, I think I had a pretty ... Tue, 30 Apr 2013 17:49:41 EST I got beat by a mountain! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5338399 This week has been pretty great as far as feeling good, getting things done, and generally feeling on top of things. My weight itself hasn't really changed, but I'm sure things will catch up. I FEEL smaller and the measuring tape agrees (lost almost 3 inches in my thighs O.O). So maybe the scale is just reflecting some water weight, some added muscle mass, some hormone nonsense, who knows. If I still don't go down next week, I might start to worry :P <BR> <BR> This week for BLC, we were supp... Sun, 28 Apr 2013 15:49:54 EST Visual Motivator http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5334817 This week for BLC18, we're supposed to do a visual motivator. Last time this was a challenge, I used an overlay of pictures of myself which were pretty awesome to watch progress! But it'll be several weeks until there's enough change to warrant a new "layer" to that photo. (Part of the problem is clothes not shrinking down to fit my body and I'm not gonna post pics in my undies mmk?) <BR> <BR> ANYWAY! I've been struggling with and moaning about my inability to "get things done" for several w... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 01:18:18 EST First Week of BLC18... Not So Great http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5330789 I'm a little sad about getting off to a slow start, but now I have a starting place and a point to grow from. <BR> <BR> This week I've felt really... meh. I've been feelin down and I can't deny that I've been compelled to turn to sweets to make me feel better. It's been really bad. I've been feeling bloaty & gross and just really down. I don't have a good reason for it, just am. Really unmotivated. I found myself just laying on the couch because I didn't feel like doing anything else. <BR> ... Sun, 21 Apr 2013 16:43:36 EST Dear Me-In-10-Weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5330774 We were asked to write a letter to ourselves in 10 weeks, so here goes! <BR> <BR> Dear me, <BR> <BR> You are not a fattie. You might think you're a fattie. You might feel like a fattie, but I bet you're way less of a fattie than before! And since I know you won't believe me, do the checks: <BR> <BR> 1) How are the size 16s fitting? Should be pretty close now! <BR> <BR> 2) Check the calendar! On track for the long run? I BET YOU ARE!!! <BR> <BR> 3) How the speed on the treadmill? Faster h... Sun, 21 Apr 2013 16:24:03 EST Super Mondo Huge NSV :D http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5323084 So, my big turning point to "really get serious" rather than half-heartedly" trying to lose weight happened around Christmas. We went to Six Flags with bf's daughter. I loooove roller coasters, so I was set to have a great day. <BR> <BR> On the second ride of the day (Tatsu for anybody who's been to Magic Mountain), the ride was one where you are hung from the track looking down. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/0/l50536802.jpg"> <BR> <BR> That's the best picture... Sun, 14 Apr 2013 18:41:21 EST Something Strange Happened at the Grocery Store http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5318788 I'm going to deem this a NSV because it's pretty substantial to me. But for most people, it might just be normal, who knows! ANYWAY! <BR> <BR> Brief background: we usually do a big shopping run like once a month to the commissary because it's cheaper, but it's far enough away that we can't really go every time we need to just pick up one or two items. When we go, though, it's a massive trip because there are pretty amazing deals. Usually, though, we skip over most of the produce area because... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 19:09:50 EST Lost Weight, Feel Flabbier :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5316109 So for the past few months, I feel really good about the progress I've made. I'm at 40 pounds since Christmas, and that's pretty freaking substantial! <BR> <BR> For the past few months (since the end of January), I haven't been able to get out & exercise pretty much at all because of bursitis in my knees. I stuck to my calorie range, though, and it felt good to still be on track without exercise. As they say, nutrition is 80% of the battle (or 90%, or whatever high number people say. Bottom ... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 16:13:52 EST The Great Alien Invasion... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5300973 This week has been pretty good, my scale has finally settled down and hung out near the low 250s instead of the high 250s. I'm pretty sure I've just been screwing with my body in terms of sleep schedule, ToM, and inconsistent water intake. I'm glad it's decided to go low instead of high in the end though! That puts me very close to breaking out of the 250s. <BR> <BR> I was originally planning to make size 16 a big milestone and give myself lots of rewards there. However, I'm not really sure ... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 15:37:39 EST I think my scale needs rehab... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5297361 I have no idea what's going on, but I think my scale might be on drugs. So here's a breakdown of the past several days: <BR> <BR> Wednesday: 257ish--no weight loss in the past week, grumpy about it <BR> <BR> Thursday: 250.0--holy cow miracle melon. Kind of crazy. <BR> <BR> Friday: 258--Darnit, did I just misread the 0 yesterday & it was really an 8 and I'm UP a pound??? <BR> <BR> Saturday: 252--Down 6 pounds from yesterday... Maybe I didn't hallucinate. Maybe my scale is just on drugs. <B... Sat, 23 Mar 2013 15:43:34 EST Cantaloupe -- The Miracle Melon! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5295284 Every time I've been going to the grocery store recently, I've been checking the cantaloupes. I haven't had cantaloupe in YEARS--probably since I was about 12. I remember loving it, it smells so good, and I really wanted to pick it up at the grocery store. But I am also well aware that underripe cantaloupe is pooey. So of course, I did what ANY normal person would... and sniffed the melons every time I hit the grocery store. This week I finally struck gold! I got me a melon! <BR> <BR> Yester... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 17:15:14 EST Blogging is Better than Pie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5291268 I realized this morning that I've been pretty good about posting a blog here whenever I'm feeling angsty/disappointed/down about things that are standing in the way of my success. Sure, they're not always a giant catastrophe or something super serious, but it's really been where I've released that negative "inner dialogue." I just didn't realize I was doing it! <BR> <BR> This weekend was pretty bad. I was disappointed that I'd be weighing in for BLC with a + instead of a -, but more importan... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 14:35:47 EST End of BLC... Wish I Were Going Out Strong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5289347 As the weeks have been going by, I've been settling into a rut of, "Yeah, that's about 1200 calories" rather than using the tracker. I've been pretty "meh" about water. I haven't been sleeping well for the past couple of weeks. Altogether, I've really been letting myself down. I deserve better. <BR> <BR> I've been fighting my sleep schedule for weeks. I KNOW I need to get up in the morning and be productive. The problem is, I've ALWAYS had trouble getting up in the morning. I feel really ash... Sat, 16 Mar 2013 23:56:32 EST Crazy Adventures of the Scale Demon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5281492 This week was crazy busy for me personally. I had a lot of work to do, lots of errands, and some surprise adventures to handle. What it boiled down to were several meals where easy won out over healthy. Thursday we had pizza for dinner--I made it as healthy as possible, but it was still pizza. Friday I got busy until quite late and when I went in the kitchen to start cooking, boyfriend decided that we needed to go out to dinner. <BR> <BR> I maintained a deficit each day still, but it wasn't ... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 18:19:26 EST Omg I'm getting old!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5276637 There I was, in my bathroom today, brushing my hair out before I took a shower. I noticed this sparkly strand in my hair, zoomed in a little closer, and *gasp*... it was GREY!! Okay, so it wasn't really THAT startling--I've been pulling the odd grey hair out here and there for a while. Hell, I had a couple grey hairs back when I was like 9 years old. Nothing new. <BR> <BR> But then I found 5 more close by. That started a nasty spiral into, "Oh god, my hair is going to go grey before I can ha... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 22:17:33 EST Today I went Shopping! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5268972 I decided to take the plunge and go try on some pants at Old Navy today. I suspected I would be able to fit into size 18s now and have been holding off on exploring the option for a week or two. I was a little worried that I'd be disappointed. Apparently I was worrying for no reason! Hooray for me! I bought ONE pair of size 18 jeans. I figure, I don't plan to wear them for long, so I got a pair that were on clearance. I know it'll be a bit til I can wear all of my 16s hanging around, but this... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 20:04:20 EST Healthy Decisions =/= Uptight Attitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5267624 I was poking around SparkPeople this afternoon and saw the highlighted DailySpark post about recipes for Girl Scout cookies. Being a former scout myself, the idea of homemade cookies is amazing! Not only is it a worthy challenge, but I love cooking. The idea of taking those recipes and tweaking them to make them healthier and/or eating them in moderation is fantastic! <BR> <BR> I looked at the comments and there were people who were down right outraged that such a post should appear on Spark... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 19:27:59 EST Little bits add up :D http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5262869 It took me quite a while to get realistic about how to lose weight. I remember at several times thinking that 5 pounds a week of weight loss was realistic. I was magically going to cut my calories arbitrarily to 1600 (which I thought was crazy low since I was in college and pizza is a whopping 300 calories a slice! Add in sodas & coffee and it's easy to be just starving). Then when I didn't see drastic results, I'd give up & eat tons of food. I remember justifying to myself, "I stay the same ... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 04:11:37 EST Blahtastic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5259001 Do you ever feel just... meh? When I'm not feeling particularly motivated or AWESOME, I tend to kind of close myself off. I don't answer phone calls, I don't talk to people very much. I just don't really want anybody to bother me. <BR> <BR> This is also accompanied by a huge sense of stress that makes my back/neck/shoulders scrunch up so tight that it hurts to sit, stand, or lay. As usual, I have no idea WHY I feel so stressed. <BR> <BR> All I know is I REALLY want to go to the gym and can'... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 16:33:06 EST This Week I Learned... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5253775 This was a really good week for me in BLC#17. The challenges were almost all exactly what I need RIGHT NOW, so it's great. Just last week I was talking about needing to get in more veggies to feel more full. Focusing on that for the challenge made it really easy... and it's actually been working! <BR> <BR> Because of my calorie challenges, I was starting to cut out breakfast which is part of how I got here in the first place. I wasn't necessarily eating over my BMR, but I think I was in star... Sun, 17 Feb 2013 16:14:32 EST Compulsory Self-Indulgent Post #2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5250608 To continue the "why I'm awesome" post... <BR> <BR> 6) I make people want to tell me things. I've felt like Dr. Phil several times--if people have a problem, I'm usually there to listen. I don't think I've ever left a plane after a flight and not known the person next to me's life story. I'm not really sure what CAUSES it, but I figure it means I'm a good listener. <BR> <BR> 7) I can strike up conversation with just about anybody. I have no problem talking to a random person just because it... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 15:59:10 EST Compulsory Self-Indulgent Post #1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5249369 For BLC#17 this week, we're supposed to post two blog posts about 10 things we like about ourselves. I'm not really sure why it's in two separate posts, but I can listen & follow directions!! <BR> <BR> In no particular order, here are the first 5 things I think make me awesome: <BR> <BR> 1) I am incredibly stubborn. If I decide to do something, it doesn't matter how much time it takes, how much effort, it happens. I really don't like to take "no" for an answer. If one path doesn't work, I ... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 16:42:39 EST Omg my plate looks like a normal person's http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5247135 So with this being the 5-servings-of-fruits/veggies week for BLC... and needing to do it ANYWAY because I am having trouble staying in calories with my normal food right now... THIS is what I came up with for dinner: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1086829745.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Half of a chicken breast with "Outback Seasoning" (I have a recipe for this seasoning mix, it's omnomnommy on all kinds of meat!) <BR> <BR> 1 serving of Fontina & Onion Risotto (1/4 c. of ... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 23:37:20 EST Stopping Mid-Slide http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5244218 On Thursday, after I got done throwing myself a pity party for feeling bad, I decided to suck it up and get things done. I had some tea (normally would have chosen sweet tea, made a compromise by putting a teaspoon of honey in about 30 oz of tea, so not terrible!) and on my glorious caffeine buzz, decided to sit at my computer until my work was caught up. <BR> <BR> I got 99% of it done, but it left me trying to do calculus I hadn't seen in years at like 3am. My mind ended up a bit mushy! But... Sat, 9 Feb 2013 17:02:06 EST Missin' the Pep in my Step http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5241987 I woke up today feeling okay I guess. Was really tired and kinda blah, but that's normal--I am NOT a morning person. The day kept going and I felt a sense of being "down" but no real reason for it. A couple hours ago this resulted in me on the couch bawling. <BR> <BR> I really have no idea why I feel this way. I have a strong urge to eat cake and ice cream and french fries. I really really really want to go to In-N-Out right now. (I really really really wanna zigazig ah *cough*) <BR> <BR> ... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 19:16:38 EST Little Words = Big Effects http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5240391 For BLC#17, we're supposed to share a bit of our weight loss journey. I pretty much did that a week or so ago, so I've decided to go all introspective on WHY I started the bad habits I did. <BR> <BR> This goes way way back to elementary school, honestly. First, I guess it's important to explain that I was NOT a normal kid. In elementary school, it was not uncommon for me to be taller than my teachers. I especially remember my third grade teacher (she was amazing!) who was 5'1. I was 5'5 at t... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 15:04:10 EST Say Hello to My Little Friend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5238828 One of this week's challenges for BLC#17 is to find a fruit and vegetable you've never had before and give it a try. I went roaming the grocery store yesterday with two priorities. First, it couldn't be expensive. If I don't like it, I don't want to be out a lot of money. Therefore, the $4 head of broccoflower was out. As were several exotic weird lookin' fruits. I figure at the root of this challenge is to diversify our stock of go-to "I like those" fruits & veggies. Something that's expensi... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 13:55:23 EST Healthy Foods in Hiding http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5237371 Last night, we were getting ready for bed and I asked boyfriend what he would like for dinner tomorrow (today now!). His usual response followed, "Dunno, gimme options!" So I pulled up my tablet and opened ZipList. <BR> <BR> For anybody who doesn't know, ZipList is an amazing site & app that has lots of recipes and also is integrated into lots of other sites. You can import a recipe & then "add it to your shopping cart." When you go to the grocery store, your shopping list is right there on ... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 15:03:39 EST My Food Strategy & How It's Working... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5235914 While I've been on SP for over a year now, I've really been "sparking" for about a month now. This time, I wanted to do it right, so I made some preliminary rules so that this would be a realistic and achievable lifestyle. <BR> <BR> 1) No "fake" foods. If I want sour cream, I have sour cream--just less of it than I normally would use. This is especially true for sugar things. I would rather have less real sugar than a ton of fake sugar. I don't think it's healthy to pump random chemicals int... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 16:01:14 EST 4 + 2 = -12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5234744 4 weeks of Sparking with 2 weeks of that being BLC#17... and I'm feelin pretty good. My goal is 2 pounds of loss per week, so I'm ahead of my goal and am so happy with my progress. I know it will slow down eventually, so I took some steps to head that off for the future. <BR> <BR> Because I work at home on my computer with a work email box, I use Outlook 24/7. The calendar is a colorcoded box of win. Can plan meals, workouts, goals, plus my work obligations in a rainbow of reminders. Anyway,... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 17:40:39 EST Today I went Digging! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5230595 A few days ago, I thought about what I wanted to do for self-rewards. I don't have a whole lot of things I want, and I don't have a lot of extra money to throw at things right now. This year I'm looking at spending a bunch of money to do testing & pre-req stuff to go back to school to get a Master's or at least teaching certificate, so non-essentials are put on hold for the time being. <BR> <BR> That being said, there's one goal that I think I deserve a biiiig reward for when I get there. So... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 17:44:55 EST Addictions Affecting my Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5229040 So a few days ago, I mentioned genetics affecting my goals. I've been kind of sulky about that. I have a lot of factors against me from genetics. My whole family is overweight, so there's some deeply reinforced habits there. In addition, I have family history of diabetes on both sides of my family. Thyroid issues on my mom's side for every woman in the family. This bursitis nonsense on my mom's side. Heart disease on both sides. It's really easy to start making excuses and throw a big pity pa... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 16:27:52 EST