INTOTHESOUTH's SparkPeople Blog INTOTHESOUTH's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Working for the weekend I had a glorious weekend. While yes I did take the time to work out, I also ate my way through most of the events in St. Louis. I'm only kind of sorry. Saturday the scale read 188.0 today it said 192.8. Ouch. Fixable, but still ouch. So here is my plan to fix and get back on track while also preparing for a hellish work week and a roadtrip for a wedding. <BR> <BR> 1. Habit and routine. I know this doesn't work for everyone. For me after an especially gluttonous weekend, I need to return to ... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 09:30:38 EST Yesterday I agreed to do something stupid This mornings weigh-in was a little rough. And by a little I mean 4.6 pounds rougher than yesterday. Ouch. I made a few too many soy based sushi decisions yesterday and today I am paying for it. It also seems in my soy-drunken state I agreed to do a juice/smoothie fast thing with a friend. Three days of less than no chewing. I think I am going to miss chewing. My lovely friend is doing a juice cleanse to jump start her lent obligations and I jumped on the bandwagon because I CANNOT seem to ge... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 09:16:17 EST When you just have to have something I have had a stellar week so far. Nutrition in line without being over board, water intake up, strength training alternating each day, cardio and most importantly no urge to binge. I'm back in control. I've been doing my physical therapy exercises at work and most recently added a fitness ball for wall squats. I try and get up every 30 to 45 minutes and do 25 wall squats and it has really been helping my back. Today I needed chocolate. Not even good chocolate. I needed these. <BR> <BR> <im... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 13:24:28 EST Unintentional maintenance Hi my name is Harper and I spent the last year in unintentional maintenance mode. As I have been recovering from a hamstring/knee/back injury I started planning for the day I would be given the green light. I started my planning with a little reflection. In the year 2012 my weight hovered between 189-198. I'm frustrated and satisfied with this little statistic. Happy that I didn't put back on the 50 pounds I lost and grateful I haven't seen the flashing 200 in over a year. Those are the good... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 09:14:21 EST Onward to January I didn't reach my goal of 185 by the end of the year but if you add all my excuses, the holiday food and my injury together, I am not really all that surprised I didn't make it. I'm not upset or discouraged. All I can do is try harder. So I made a plan for January. <BR> <BR> Goal Weight 185 pounds <BR> Start weight training again - 3 days a week (my cardio is limited because of my leg injury) <BR> No binges in January <BR> Eat dinner at the dinner table every night. Not in front of the tv. ... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 09:46:54 EST Countdown to 185 I'm on the mend. My body has been slowly healing with physical therapy and I'm starting to be able to exercise a little more. I'm off my steroid so my weight is now back down to a more manageable level. I've never had an injury this sustained and serious. I now have official papers with the words "sustained full hamstring muscles strain and lateral meniscus tear." Now looking back over the past two months I realize just how substantial my injury was and how it affected my everyday life. I'm m... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 09:15:38 EST Oh so I pulled a hammy... Finally received a more accurate diagnosis. I have a strained left hamstring that is inflammed at my hip and knee joints. Trust me it sounds just as painful as it feels. I'm looking at about 6 weeks of physical therapy, but no major restrictions as long as I'm comfortable. Lately I have been uncomfortable just sitting on the couch so I'm not really looking forward to PT. I do get an awesome batch of steroids on Monday so hopefully that will help out. <BR> <BR> Keeping a semi-positive attitu... Sat, 1 Dec 2012 16:08:12 EST injury update Sorry it took me so long to update. Last week at work was crazy. <BR> <BR> So my appointment with the orthopedic surgeon went okay. Good news is he doesn't see a need for surgery. Structurally both my hip and knee look fine. He wants me to lay off ST on my lower half and cut way back on my mileage while I take some hardcore anti-inflammatories to see if we can cut down on my discomfort. I'm due back at the end of the month and if my pain continues we will do an MRI and get a cortisone shot... Wed, 7 Nov 2012 11:31:53 EST Again with the injuries About three weeks ago I started to notice some aching in my left hip. I didn't think anything was too serious so I backed off my mileage, bought new shoes and hoped it would go away. Sadly the pain has only gotten worse and then to make matters worse, 10 days ago I fell stepping off a curb. I fell hard onto my left knee and the pain on that side became too much. I went to my GP who recommended me to a orthopedic surgeon. On Friday I meet the doctor and have an MRI done. My knee has been feeli... Wed, 24 Oct 2012 09:39:54 EST Lunch envy "Your lunch always looks so much better than mine" she uttered to me as she peeled back the plastic microwavable layer that separated her from her food. <BR> What I wanted to say was, "yes, my lunch does look better because it is actual food. I'll also be able to taste it because it wasn't preserved in salt." What I said was more of a shrug and a "yes, I like it." <BR> <BR> My lunch. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Her lunch (as I saw it a... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 13:14:17 EST Toxic Office Back in July I moved and started a new job fundraising for an independent living center for people with disabilities. It was supposed to be the dream job or at least the next step towards the dream job. It has turned more in to a fizzle and I’m actively looking for something else. The whole office is moving to a new building in the next two weeks and everyone keeps assuring me that is when we can kick everything up a notch after the move. I’m doubtful. All of that is a long winded way of lead... Tue, 28 Aug 2012 11:35:44 EST Confessions of a batch cooker Confession: I am a batch cooker. Not to be confused with a hoarder or doomsday prepper. (I had a really odd conversation with a lady at the grocery store….) <BR> <BR> When I was living in CA I was on a shoestring budget and came across an article about cooking for one on a budget. I investigated and started to realize I could save a great deal of money by cooking several big meals at a time and freezing them in individual portions. Not only would this practice save me money, but would also h... Mon, 27 Aug 2012 20:30:22 EST When I fall I had one of those weekends. One of those fall of the wagon get run over weekends. Two days of moderate binging. I quantify binging by saying I way over ate but didn’t consume thousands of calories in one day. Those binges are behind me. I was under doctor’s orders to rest my knee as of Thursday. He said that if by Tuesday of this week I no longer feel the twinge, I can ease back into working out. When I don’t work out my stress builds and my counter moves disappear. I eat. I eat because I’m ... Mon, 27 Aug 2012 13:45:10 EST My limbs are against me Why hello there unidentified injuries. Thanks for ruining everything. “overly dramatic sigh”…. So last week my right shoulder started bothering me. Not pain exactly but enough to make me stop lifting right away and rest. I rested and now it is almost a week without a twinge. I think I’m in the clear and I’ll make sure to watch my form and take it easy. Cue the second injury. On Sunday of this week I pushed it hard. I’m not a runner and last time I took up running I hurt my knee. I have terrib... Fri, 24 Aug 2012 10:06:27 EST Health and wellness check-in Tomorrow a man is coming to my house to do a physical examination for my disability and life insurance policy. I have had this policy for about two years now and it never occurred to me that my weight might be affecting my policy payments. A few weeks ago I had met with my financial planner. Because I have been moving quite a bit over the past two years she and I had never met face-to-face. When we sat down to talk about this policy she skeptically asked if the weight listed was current. 232 ... Wed, 22 Aug 2012 11:02:07 EST The size 10 blindside I’m a terrible blogger. Really terrible. I think it would be helpful for me to write something everyday but I can’t seem to convince myself to just do it. Most of the time I don’t have anything worthwhile to say and my dramatic moments are few and far between. Putting all this aside I am writing today. I am writing today because last night something happened. Suspense….Now I am going to back track a little. On Sunday I sat down and decided to kick my own ass into gear. No excuses. No more laz... Thu, 16 Aug 2012 11:29:07 EST May 21st: A day in the life of my food I promise I eat breakfast every morning. Well except this morning when I completely forgot. I knew my daily routine was going to be interrupted and I wanted to run some errands first. <BR> <BR> A friend of mine suggested we go have lunch at the fast food chain Sonic. For those of you unfamiliar with Sonic, growing up in the Midwest and the South, Sonic was our fastfood joint of choice. Fountain sodas with crushed ice and tater tots. Amazing. We don't have many Sonic's here in CA so we had t... Mon, 21 May 2012 21:36:23 EST May 8th - Bliss I didn't want to work out. I wanted to sit on my couch and eat chocolate stuffed oreos. My week has been exhausting and will continue to be exhausting. I was exhausted just thinking about it. I committed to ten minutes. I needed to strength train. I needed it. <BR> <BR> Ten minutes with Jillian turned into 20 and 30 because you just don't tell Jillian no. I finished. Cardio and a leg strength workout I could be proud of. <BR> <BR> I've decided that the most blissful feeling is that moment... Tue, 8 May 2012 23:23:12 EST May 7th Still working hard to break my 186 plateau. I had a weird allergic reaction last week that set me back a little, but I'm back this week and more determined than ever. In an effort to mix things up I decided to break out some of the ol' work out videos I haven't use in quite some time. Since today is an arm day for me in ST I wanted to make sure I picked a video that included an arm workout and cardio. I had forgotten what a Bob Harper ass kicking felt like. 30 minutes later I'm experiencing t... Mon, 7 May 2012 22:40:09 EST May 1st May is going to be my month. I've been struggling for weeks now to get to the 185 mark, only to have it split away. Up 5 pounds and down 5 pounds but never passing 186. Not this month. This month I will hit 185. I will be overweight, not obese. I will reach the 60 pound loss mark. <BR> <BR> Weight as of May 1st - 191.6 <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Tue, 1 May 2012 19:12:11 EST Spring 5% Challenge: Week 1 Since I usually fall flat when I try to write a daily blog, I am going to try and do a weekly check-in for the 8 week Spring 5% challenge. <BR> <BR> <BR> I am proud to say that I am a Firecracker yet again. I wouldn’t have it any other way. The people I have met in these challenges are incredibly supportive and uplifting. These challenges are always just what I need to break a plateau or get out of a fitness funk. <BR> <BR> <BR> Week 1: <BR> Starting weight: 193 <BR> Official Weigh-in Sat... Mon, 26 Mar 2012 21:44:41 EST Closer and closer As I inch closer and closer to my goal weight I start to wonder various things. <BR> <BR> 1. Will the sensation and worry of always being the biggest girl in the room ever fully dissipate? – I’m 55 pounds lighter than I was when I first started with Sparkpeople. There are still many days when I step onto a train or into a restaurant where I worry that I won’t fit somewhere. I’ve started to feel this anxiety more recently. Almost to the point where I am more anxious about my size now at ... Thu, 12 Jan 2012 12:49:20 EST Moment on the train Ever have one of those moments? Those moments where you see someone struggling but you know it isn’t your place to say anything? I had one of those moments this morning. I saw her get on the train this morning and look around for a seat. There was one, but it was right next to another person. I recognized the look on her face. The look that says, “ I’ll probably fit but what if I don’t? What if I invade my seatmate’s personal space?” She chose to stand. She didn’t want to stand. I never wante... Thu, 22 Dec 2011 11:27:29 EST December 7,8, & 9 Wednesday December 7, 2011 <BR> Morning weigh-in:194.2 <BR> Weekly weigh-in goal: 193.19 <BR> Mileage: (commute and dog walks) <BR> Workout: upper body ST session+ 15 minute warm up and cool down. <BR> Activity totals: 134 minutes <BR> <BR> <BR> Thursday December 8, 2011 <BR> Morning weigh-in:193.6 <BR> Weekly weigh-in goal: 193.19 <BR> Mileage: 3.01 miles (commute and dog walks) <BR> Activity totals: 62 minutes <BR> <BR> <BR> Friday December 9, 2011 <BR> Morning weigh-in:192.4 <BR> ... Fri, 9 Dec 2011 16:10:56 EST Week 1 5% Challenge Check-in (Day 3-4) I started the Winter 5% challenge this week and with less than four weeks remaining before the end of the year I’m reaching out to any form of accountability I can muster. I’m going to try and do a daily/semi-daily check- in blog. Short and sweet but helpful for me and maybe even someone else. <BR> <BR> Monday December 5, 2011 <BR> Morning weigh-in: 198.4 (sodium) <BR> Weekly weigh-in goal: 193.19 <BR> Mileage: 3.45 miles (commute and dog walks) <BR> Workout: 20 minutes of the Biggest L... Tue, 6 Dec 2011 16:28:27 EST Hitting 50 pounds lost I stepped on the scale this morning and had an unexpected surprise. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I still can't believe it. It finally happened. I have been sitting in this horrible plateau for weeks. I set this goal to weigh-in at 185 by the end of the year and as of last week there was no earthly way it was going to happen. Then my weigh-in this morning. It can happen. I can be out of the obese category by the end of this year. Best Tha... Sat, 26 Nov 2011 12:43:49 EST Countdown to Birthday 26: 37 days to go What a difference a year and 47 pounds make on a photo and a life. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Thanks Sparkpeople Mon, 15 Aug 2011 11:27:09 EST Countdown to Birthday 26: 61 Days to go My size 12 Gap Long and Leans arrived in the mail yesterday. My Gap sale coupons always seem to arrive right around the time I am bordering on sizes. I think it is a conspiracy. I can pull the size 12's on but I'm somewhere between 5-8 pounds from buttoning them. This frustrates me sometimes but then I remember that my new size is not my old size. I am not a size 20 anymore. <BR> Old label <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> New label <BR> <im... Sun, 24 Jul 2011 16:16:06 EST Countdown to Birthday 26: 66 days to go Something that has helped me along the way is reading other Sparkers blogs who share recipes and have blog entries that are heavy on pictures. With that in mind here is today and yesterday's dinners. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I made beef and vegetable stir fry with jasmine rice. This is one of my favorites and it tastes just as glorious as it looks. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Recipe: <BR> Ingredients <BR> * 2/3 cup fat-free, les... Tue, 19 Jul 2011 20:31:16 EST In ten weeks In ten weeks I turn 26. I want to celebrate this birthday by hitting a massive marker. My goal is to have a BMI of 29.9 which would be in the overweight range, no longer obese. I have ten weeks and 13.2 pounds to lose. I can easily do this. I NEVER give myself timelines because they never seem to work for me. This one will work for me. <BR> <BR> Plan: <BR> 1. Keep my sodium in check -- This works for me and I know it. Six days a week you will see me in the 1900-2300 mg range. <BR> 2. Cardi... Sun, 17 Jul 2011 21:49:54 EST Enough is enough These are the images that made me miserable. These are the images that pushed me over the edge. These images hit me with such a punch to my self-esteem that I untagged them on facebook and later asked the photo takers to take them down altogether. The very thought of someone accidentally stumbling upon these photos of me made me want to run and hide from my life, hide from what I had done to myself. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src... Sun, 10 Jul 2011 19:26:13 EST Onderland I stepped on the scale today and it finally happened. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I will now go celebrate by taking a nap because I thought walking 8 miles would be a stellar idea. Okay. It was a stellar idea. <BR> <BR> Have a safe memorial day weekend everyone and be sure to take a moment and remember what memorial day is truly about. Sun, 29 May 2011 13:46:58 EST So ever lovin close I stepped on the scale on Saturday and this is what greeted me: <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Ahhhh so close. I'm officially down 44 pounds and Onderland is oh so very close. I haven't been in Onderland since... well freshman year of college. My size 16 are really loose and the size 14's are moments away from buttoning. I'm thinking of rewarding myself for being under 200 with a renewal of my gym membership. My doctor recommend... Mon, 23 May 2011 20:14:03 EST Me, a rock, and a hard place So I had a job interview this past Friday. It ended up not being for me but the experience overall was very positive. I had to tell my current boss that I had an interview and in general he was supportive, but he expressed that he didn't want me to take it. I have been with my current organization for almost three years and currently feel myself burning out on my job responsibilities. I also have some major problems with how the organization is run. Overall I think it is just time for me to l... Wed, 11 May 2011 10:41:48 EST 40 pounds same outfit This was my goal outfit at 245 pounds. Shirt is a size large and the pants are a size 20. I couldn't even button the shirt and the pants were snug. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> This is my today in the same outfit. I weigh 205.8 pounds. The shirt is the same and a size large, but is a little baggy. The pants are a size 16 and by the end of the day very baggy. ... Sat, 23 Apr 2011 12:22:43 EST Half-way I'm there. I made it. This morning marks 40 pounds lost and a weight of 205. My half-way point. I have been reading about others and their half way points for months. I always wondered how they felt knowing there was still another half to complete. I always worried it was unsatisfying. I get it now. There is no better motivation than the half-way point. I know I can do it because I already have. I actually uttered the phrase, " it is only forty more pounds." Wow I don't know where that girl c... Fri, 15 Apr 2011 09:57:59 EST My big reveal Today I am flying out to surprise a friend in San Francisco. Her husband and I have been planning it for almost three months. They had a baby almost 7 months ago and I still haven't been able to see him. She is also one of the only people who hasn't seen me in about a year. I'm down almost 40 pounds since the last time she saw me and I want her to notice. I don't want her to make a big deal but to notice. It is amazing to me the difference I feel in my body from a year ago. I'm still embarras... Fri, 8 Apr 2011 09:09:46 EST Happiness at 207 A friend on mine just posted some pictures of the wedding I was recently in. I can't remember the last time I was this happy about pictures of myself. Thanks for your support sparkpeople, 207 never felt so good. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Mon, 4 Apr 2011 17:53:30 EST Wedding Season So every one I know is getting married. Which means dress after dress. This used to be stressful. The last wedding I attended I weighed in at 240 pounds. I was self conscious and mortified to be in any pictures. <BR> <BR> This was me. My unhappiness shows in my face. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> This was me yesterday in a size 16 dress that I had to have altered. I think I look a little different. <BR> <img src="http://photos-a... Sun, 20 Mar 2011 16:12:09 EST Trying to find me A week ago I hit my lowest weight in over two years. 210.6. It was a beautiful thing. I was unbelievably happy. 210.6 and on my way to have my size 16 bridesmaid dress taken in a smidge. Then work called. They needed something. Of course they did. I've been working 50 hour weeks since the start of the year and have become progressively more and more unhappy with my job. I'm actively looking elsewhere but the stress is starting to wear on me and my body. I work out to relieve the stress but my... Thu, 17 Mar 2011 12:27:43 EST Thirty-three pounds gone Ever wake up one morning, weigh-in, and find that weight mysteriously fell off your body in the night? Yeah me neither. I earned this. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Fri, 4 Mar 2011 11:31:16 EST Proud of myself this week My team and I are in week two of a 5% challenge and I am trying to refocus and take advantage of this opportunity. This is my fourth challenge and I am determined to lose the 5% or more. <BR> <BR> Last weekend I lost control. I slipped up and have spent the week making up for it. Now four days later I am back to my pre-binge weight. I hate that I did myself, but I LOVE that I can pick myself back up and keep going. With the positivity flowing I wanted to share some things that I am proud of... Thu, 3 Mar 2011 11:18:48 EST Dear wagon, sorry about that falling off thing I had a slip this weekend. Well a slip would actually be an understatement. I binged on Sunday. It makes me sick to my stomach just thinking about it. I went to a bachelorette this weekend and I knew I wasn't going to track on Saturday. I had been looking forward to this weekend for months so I have been really pushing myself lately. The scale has been proof. I have lost 14.4 pounds since Christmas. Saturday came and I packed a sensible lunch knowing full well I would not be sensible for the ... Mon, 28 Feb 2011 12:47:25 EST 12.4% gone and only possibilities in front of me As of this morning I have lost 30.4 pounds or 12.4% of my starting body weight. I have lost this weight by being healthy. I learned about food and track what I put into my body. I have learned to love vegetables and not just starchy vegetables, real vegetables. In my crisper today I have butternut squash, acorn squash, snap peas, every color pepper, broccoli, carrots, sweet potatoes, and spinach. I used to eat corn and white potatoes and call it a day. I know better now. I know how colorful f... Wed, 23 Feb 2011 10:05:20 EST This morning nothing else matters Stepped on the scale this morning and this lovely appeared: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I'm down 30.4 pounds. Everything else today is just gravy baby. <BR> <BR> <BR> Have a wonderful day everyone! Tue, 22 Feb 2011 10:03:02 EST Why work when you can blog?! Anyone else get screwed out of having a Federal Holiday off? Yeah me too. So in an act of rebellion I am blogging at work. Mwaahhahaha.... okay it really isn't a big deal at my office anyway, but I'm a rebel sorta kinda..ish.... <BR> <BR> Okay now it is time to get down to business. I'm part of the 5% Challenge Firecracker team and part of our challenge for this leg of the trip is blogging and blogger feedback. So due to my competitive nature I will now be regaling you all with my plans for... Mon, 21 Feb 2011 11:46:24 EST Goals for the 5% challenge and my commitment to the Firecrackers My goals/stats for the 5% challenge over the next 8 weeks. <BR> <BR> Starting weight 216.0 pounds <BR> 5% goal: 10.8 pounds <BR> Each week 1.35 pounds <BR> End goal weight: 205.2 pounds <BR> <BR> Work out for at least 45 min 6 days a week <BR> Strength training 6 days a week <BR> Keep my sodium under control <BR> Make sure that I get in my calories and stay within range <BR> <BR> <BR> My commitment to the Firecrackers is to pull my "weight" for the fitness minutes and the healthy lifest... Sat, 19 Feb 2011 14:48:46 EST Purging the closet I hit 217 pounds today which is 28 pounds gone overall. <BR> <BR> Since this was day two of being snowed in I started to get a little stir crazy. I cleaned the living room, kitchen, bathroom, my bedroom, and then I went after my closet. Anything I haven't worn in a year went to goodwill. When I finally reached the boxes in the back I found things I had forgotten about. Two pairs of dress pants and a pair of jeans that I haven't even looked at in over a year. All size 16 or 18. On a whim I p... Thu, 10 Feb 2011 19:25:41 EST Getting closer I'm 27.4 pounds down today which is 11.18% of my starting weight. This is officially the lowest weight I have been at in two years. I have now taken off all the weight I put back on during my last relationship. Man it feels good. The best part is that today I wore pants I haven't worn in a year because they were embarrassingly tight. I also had to keep hiking them back up during the day. I also tried on the size 16 Long and Leans that I have hanging on my closet door. I wake up to these jeans... Tue, 8 Feb 2011 16:46:37 EST You know Sparkpeople has invaded your brain when.... You know sparkpeople's healthy lifestyle has invaded your brain when... <BR> <BR> you need a pep talk and some forward rocking motion to get up out of the car after a workout. <BR> You don't boredom snack because the kitchen is at least 15 feet away and that is just too far and you are too sore. <BR> You pass someone training for a marathon a second time and they give you that knowing smile. <BR> The thought of changing out of your workout clothes and going out to eat is so exhausting that... Sat, 15 Jan 2011 14:33:28 EST