INSPIRATIONAL3's SparkPeople Blog

REQUIRED BLOG WEEK 7

Sun, 19 May 2013 22:34:18 EST

THIS WEEK I WANT TO THANK MY SPARK FAMILY FOR ALL THE DIFFERENT THINGS THEY OFFER ME AND I WANT TO DEDICATE THIS WEEK TO DIGESTING AND PRACTICING ALL THE THINGS I READ FROM THE INSIDER TODAY WHICH FEATURES...INSPIRATIONAL SPARK PEOPLE.

I SPENT THIS SUNDAY READING SO MANY STORIES OF PEOPLE ON THIS SITE AND THEIR JOURNEY. I TRULY FEEL MORE CONNECTED AND THIS WEEK WILL REFLECT ON WHAT THEY DID AND WHAT I AM NOT DOING AND HOW TO MAKE A STRONGER COMMITMENT TO MYSELF AND MY HEALTH AND M...

REQUIRED BLOG WEEK 6

Mon, 6 May 2013 16:38:33 EST

Hard to Blog today since I have lost but so little it is sort of discouraging since I can't imagine eating less or exercising more because it hurts too much but I will try to look at being consistent and healthy and it is going in the right direction....down...lol.

This week I am going to continue my focusing on what I have not what I don't have and doing what I can and not being upset about what I can't do.

Adding something new is to reduce the amount of SUGAR, STARCH...

REQUIRED BLOG FOR TEAM - WEEK 5

Wed, 1 May 2013 20:40:00 EST

Happy to report that I am focusing as I promised myself on what I have and what I can do and not focusing on what I can't have and can't do. It has been very enlightening yet sometimes the worry comes in there and has to be put out.

This week I learned a few things about habits I did not realize I was fostering. Usually at end of day especially when I had a particularly stressful day I wld avoid everything and everyone . I fooled myself I was coping yet I was not able to sleep...

REQUIRED BLOG FOR TEAM CHALLENGE WEEK 4

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 11:06:58 EST

Happy to have lost a few pounds trying to hold onto that success. Making it a daily quest to reduce or eliminate SUGAR, STARCH, SALT, SATURATED FATS, CAFFEINE. Trying not to be radical but slowly move toward that healthier place. Weekend eating out was a challenge and I could have done better will work on it during week so slips won't hurt me so much.

For this week I am really working on my head to get it in a better place for healthy eating since most of my eating problems stem ...

REQUIRED BLOG FOR TEAM CHALLENGE WEEK 3

Thu, 25 Apr 2013 12:23:09 EST

I am so fortunate to have given myself the gift of this site and all of you out there.

Everyone suggested moderation on the 3 mini goals proposed last week:

1. no sugar/carbs
2. exercising excessively
3. Measuring/Weighing everything put in mouth.

Well it was overwhelming and I moved toward moderation and its less stressful. Upside a few lbs lost and fighting to keep them off each minute of each day.

This week I want to add add somethin...

DOING REQUIRED BLOG POST FOR TEAM PARTICIPATION

Sun, 21 Apr 2013 13:39:40 EST

MY MINI GOALS FOR THIS WEEK:

1. Eliminate sugar and refined carbs (bread, pasta, white flour products) from means
2. Keep moving as much as possible start small and get bigger gradually to not get discouraged
3. Track and Scale Measure everything I put in my mouth.

I I can do the above for this week that is a lot for me.

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NEED TO START WEIGHING AGAIN

Thu, 11 Apr 2013 11:03:16 EST

Today I am going back to measuring and really paying attention to lower salt content as well as lowering carbs and sugar.

I find if I abstain completely from carbs and sugar I set myself up for a binge on them so I need to have them in my diet in moderation until I can give them up completely.......when I stopped weighing this past few weeks I saw my weight go up instead of down....thank you scale.

Back to the laboratory....lol

Have a great day Spark Family. ...

I AM EXPERT AT SABATAGING

Mon, 8 Apr 2013 12:43:05 EST

A new start this spring was easier said than done but I believe I make it harder than it is.

Decided to think less and do more....going to write a plan for the day and make it so simple even an idiot can follow it. I have decided to not have the highest expectation and stress myself out but to simplify and do the least so I have no excuse for not doing it at all.

Will let you know how it turns out....lol.

Love to you all on our special life journey together. ...

A NEW START

Mon, 1 Apr 2013 12:22:45 EST

FORGIVING SELF AND STARTING NEW WHEN ALL THINGS IN YOUR LIFE ARE GOING WRONG IS DIFFICULT TO DO BUT SINCE THE BEGINNING OF THE FIRST DAY OF SPRING AND THE VERY BLESSED AND HOLY DAYS THAT HAVE JUST PAST I AM GIVING MYSELF PERMISSION WITH THE BLESSING OF MY HIGHER POWER TO START NEW.

1. I WILL ONLY LOOK FORWARD AND TODAY START THE FOUNDATION TO A STRONGER AND HEALTHIER COMMITMENT TO MYSELF AND ALL THINGS ON A HIGHER ENLIGHTENED PATH AND STAY AWAY FROM NEGATIVITY IN ACTION, WORD AND...

KEEPING ME FAT

Wed, 6 Mar 2013 14:17:04 EST

Today I am coming face to face with the fact that I do denial so well that is is true , I Don't Even Know I Am Lying, to myself.

It is humbling to say the least. The fact that I can do so many things well and not succeed at keeping my body, the temple which I was gifted, thin and healthy. I am ashamed and guilty today to admit I have failed myself.

I stopped journaling but I need to resume it though it seems like just another chore at this point in my busy day but I n...

RISING ABOVE THE FEAR OF FAILURE

Thu, 28 Feb 2013 13:29:08 EST

Today I want to concentrate on making sure I only think positive thoughts no matter how awful a life event or person or task may be.

Today is all I have (yesterday being gone and tomorrow not promised). I will treasure it to the best of my ability and keep in mind that it could be the last day I am given (hopefully not...lol)

I am going to think about developing habits that will keep me in the now and realize i need to balance the bitter with the sweet so I ...

ASH WEDNESDAY A SIGN OF SPRING COMING

Wed, 13 Feb 2013 16:21:31 EST

Dear Spark Family,

Just read my last Blog and anyone not knowing me or what I was going through would think I was a manic depressive personality. Reading my own blog from a strangers perspective made me realize how others view where you are at. It was an interesting perspective.

Ash Wednesday was always for me a marker that told me that Spring is on its way. Since I think of spring as a rebirthing and renewal time for Mind, Body and Spirit I am going to put more effor...

FROZEN IN TIME

Thu, 7 Feb 2013 11:55:29 EST

This past month has been overwhelming with fear, bewilderment and frustration not knowing what to do and how to do it. I feel like I am in the outer limits at times unsure of what is right and what steps to take next.

I am relying on God carrying me through this like in Footprints since the pralysis that sets in lately is a bit scary. I need to trust in a higher power that I will come out fine on the other side of this. I often want to fall apart and give up all this fighting ea...

TAKING ONE DAY AT A TIME AND TRYING TO ONLY SEE THE POSITIVE

Thu, 31 Jan 2013 12:13:03 EST

Dearest Spark Family,

Lately trying to move forward here has been going at a snail's pace and each day sometimes more bad news comes in and I am trying to receive it with dignity and class....though at times my initial reaction is to get upset as if I was just punched in the stomach.

Time is going by so fast and cost emotionally, physically and financially sometimes hard to not be paralyzed about yet what are the choices......you either give it all up & lay down and die ...

TESTING FAITH

Sun, 13 Jan 2013 11:22:41 EST

HOW STRANGE AND SOMETIMES PAINFUL IT FEELS TO BE IN LIMBO NOW ABOUT MY RESTORATION HOME PROJECT.

EVER SINCE THE BUILDER WALKED AWAY THE QUESTION OF.... AM I GOING TO BE ABLE TO RESTORE MY HOME AND RETURN TO NORMAL?... IS HAUNTING MY DAYS AND NIGHTS. HE HAS ATTACKED US ON EVERY LEVEL MOSTLY FINANCIALLY AND WE HAVE NO RECOURSE.

AS I SIT HERE IN WHAT SEEMS LIKE AN ABYSS ,SINCE THE PROBLEMS ARE SO OVERWHELMING HOW TO MOVE FORWARD IS SO UNCLEAR. I TRY TO HAVE FAITH THAT ...

DOES THE BAD NEWS EVER STOP (PART TWO OF BUILDING SAGA)

Thu, 10 Jan 2013 12:43:15 EST

DEAR SPARK SISTERS,

THIS ADVENTURE WITH THE BUILDER WHO WALKED OFF MY JOB NEVER CEASES TO AMAZE ME AS INFORMATION COMES IN EACH DAY.

TODAY I FOUND OUT THAT I CAN SUE, OF COURSE WITH NO GUARANTEE OF THE OUTCOME, BUT JUST A ROUGH GUESS OF WHAT IT WOULD COST ME TO BRING SOME JUSTICE TO THIS SITUATION: AROUND $40,000 IN LAWYER FEES AND AROUND 1 1/2 TO 2 YEARS OF TIME SINCE THIS IS IN THE SUPREME COURT AND A CIVIL MATTER. SO IN CONCLUSION ALL THE AGENCIES I MENTIONED IN THE...

I MUST LEARN TO EMBRACE ADVERSITY

Tue, 8 Jan 2013 23:59:14 EST

Today I am in awe at how consumer's rights have to diminished to a point that is scary. Having this problem with my builder I appealed to Better Business Bureau and after 2 weeks got a notice that they received no answer from builder so they are closing the file.

Consumer Affairs after sending them breached contract and proof of all monies paid I asked for an inspection of premises so they can see the mess the builder has left me. Ironically, they were not even concerned and wou...

VALUE TODAY

Wed, 31 Oct 2012 17:29:57 EST

I JUST WANT TO POST A MEMORIAL FOR THE FATHER LOST IN THE STORM WHILE HE WAS WATCHING TV WITH HIS CHILDREN AND WIFE. THE TREE SPLIT THE ROOM IN HALF AND ALTHOUGH ALL WENT THE HOSPITAL AND THANK GOD STILL ALIVE THE FATHER DIED.

I WANT TO ACKNOWLEDGE THE FACT TO ALL HOW BLESSED WE ARE TO BE HERE TODAY AND HAVE THE GIFT OF ANOTHER DAY....A NOTE TO NOT SWEAT THE SMALL STUFF SINCE IN A MOMENT OUR PRECIOUS LIFE OR OF SOMEONE WE LOVE CAN BE TAKEN FROM US.

MAY GOD GIVE ME THE S...

Sabotaging MY SUCCESS

Tue, 16 Oct 2012 12:32:54 EST

I have found I must watch what I call my negative or stinky thinking. It seems a pattern that everytime I am on a roll toward healthy habits and weight loss I seem to go for a cookie jar or something equivalent that is no good for me or the goals I am striving for.

I know it seems like an excuse but stress is the fault and I must come to terms that life is always going to be a roller coaster ride with its ups and downs its goods and bads. I need to get real with myself sinc...

STILL STUFFING DOWN THE FEELINGS?

Fri, 12 Oct 2012 22:25:52 EST

Change is such a slow process.....I almost think it is a journey in patience first then a process of slowly evolving into a realization that to change one must be conscious at all times of what you are doing in all aspects of our lives. I am just becoming painfully aware that too often I have allowed my mind to leave my body. Being an expert in doing DENIAL....which means Don't Even Know I Am Lying to myself and others I can pretend everything is okay when it really is not.

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HOPEFULLY ON THE WAY AGAIN

Thu, 4 Oct 2012 23:03:29 EST

With all the support on here and advice from a wonderful lady who helps people with major losses in their lives I feel encouraged and hopeful my baby steps will do the trick.

I want very much this time to make a lifestyle change. Changes that will serve me in all aspect of my life. I want to enjoy the journey more no matter what happens to me. I need to always keep in mind that 10% is what happens to be and 90% is how I react to it.

Someone suggested to me th...

TAKING THINGS PERSONAL

Sun, 23 Sep 2012 17:28:47 EST

HOW CAN ONE NOT TAKE THINGS PERSONAL? That is something I need to learn.

I read a book called the Four Agreements by Ruiz and in it he expounds how one of the most important things is not to take things personal since it is the other person outside of you and not you that generates these actions and feelings. Sounds so good in theory but to live it is another story. Why I must internalize things is beyond me, take many people in my family they have no trouble whatsoever blaming ...

SETTING MYSELF UP

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 11:24:00 EST

After a wonderful first week on this site I lost 7 only to gain back 6 the second. Am I depressed about this?....Yes Yet, I know it is important to pick myself up and brush myself off and go on...not so easy since I found myself fail all over the place the second week going into the third. It is time to HALT and try to learn from all this. What did I discover these are just some of the things:
1. I don't plan ahead enough. When you don't plan they say you plan to fail.
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