IMSOOZEEQ's SparkPeople Blog IMSOOZEEQ's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Heathy - what does it mean What healthy means to me is being at a healthy weight. Healthy is not having to take a pharmacy of medicines. It is being able to sleep without a cPap machine. Being healthy is not having a list of illnesses that do damage to your body. Being health makes living life more enjoyable. <BR> <BR> That is my goal! Tue, 19 May 2015 14:46:28 EST I Did The Impossible! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So many people told to me that everyone gains weight over the holidays. I have experienced it year after year. I have even said it myself. It was a holiday fact. <BR> <BR> Not any more! I did it! Not only did I NOT gain weight over the holidays but I LOST 18 pounds since November 1st! Yeah you read that right! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I actuall... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 01:46:40 EST Chasing The Past I don't know if you can relate to what I talked about or not but it sure made a difference for me. I am putting the past in the past and shutting the door. I am going to take the positive things that I learned and discovered and use them to help me going forward. <BR> <BR> That is the first part of my plan...look forward, move forward and keep the focus ahead. Keep my vision and my goals in front of me. Keep my eye on the prize! <BR> <BR> I have to remember that my health is important an... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 07:23:27 EST Day 44 of 100 Days to a New & Healthier ME I have been plugging along with some good days and some not so good days. I got away from blogging as it was just too much to do it daily for a while. <BR> <BR> I am still working on getting my water intake increased to 20 glasses a day. Yesterday I didn't drink any water. That isn't good but it isn't the normal. I have been getting 12 to 16 glasses most days so that is good. I just have the occasional slip up. <BR> <BR> My weight has been up and down. It is mostly because I have had some ... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 20:28:15 EST Days 10, 11 & 12 of 100 Days to a New & Healthier ME <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I thought I better check in before someone sends out the posse to find me! <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> The weekend was great! I spent lots of time with my family. We didn't go to the town festivities because it was so hot but we did catch the fireworks. <BR> <BR> Now for the GOOD, THE BAD & THE DOWN RIGHT UGLY! <BR> <BR> Tracking - I didn't. <BR> <BR> Exercise - I didn't. I am sensing a theme here! Okay I ... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 16:18:13 EST Day 9 of 100 Days to a New & Healthier ME Today was a fantastic day! <BR> <BR> I spent the day watching the Southwest Believers Convention online. I have been watching all week and it has been fantastic. I got my exercise in during the worship music! Not only did I get in the exercise but I did 15 minutes of dancing so I reached my increased goal! <em>355</em> <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Tracking - <em>248</em> within calorie range - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Water - I only drank 4 glasses today. <em>91</em> <BR> <... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 01:17:06 EST Day 8 of 100 Days to a New & Healthier ME Today there are no cute pictures. There are no cute sayings or jokes. Today was NOT how I wanted to start week 2 but here we go. <BR> <BR> Tracking <em>248</em> With in calorie range - Nope not at all <BR> Exercise = Didn't happen <BR> Water - <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Weigh In = Last Week 342.4 <BR> Current = 338.4 <BR> <BR> Pounds lost 4 <BR> <BR> I am a bit disappointed in how this day went as far as my goals but I have been in an online convention and it is pretty much all day... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 04:27:45 EST Day 7 of 100 Days to a New & Healthier ME <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It is the end of week 1 and I have to say that I am SO glad that I did this challenge. I am learning things about myself. I am feeling so much better about myself and this journey. <BR> <BR> I could get down on myself for not being further along since I have been at it for over 2 years. I could whine and cry about the extra weight that I gained. I could just throw in the towel and say "MEH I have fought this wei... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 02:20:58 EST Day 6 of 100 Days to a New & Healthier ME I have the end of the first week in sight! <BR> <BR> Let's get right to the business of this thing!~ <BR> <BR> Tracking <em>248</em> <BR> Within calorie range <em>248</em> <BR> Exercise <em>248</em> <BR> Water <em>248</em> I actually drank 14 glasses! <BR> <BR> I realized that I didn't put my beginning weight on the first day. On Day 1 I weighed 342.4 so going forward, I will post my previous weight, current weight and how much gained/lost for the week and then an overall... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 03:22:00 EST Day 5 of 100 Days to a New & Healthier ME Today was a productive day! <BR> <BR> Tracking - <em>248</em> I was under calorie range <em>40</em> <BR> Exercise - <em>248</em> <BR> Water - I drank 8 oz which is good but I really wanted 12 <BR> <BR> I got half the bathroom cleaned and the kitchen cleaned! <BR> <BR> I got on the scale today for a mid week weigh in. I weighed in at 338.8 so that puts me at 25 pounds lost!!! BOOYAH!!! <BR> <BR> Another NSV - I can put my bra on by myself and without hooking it in front and ... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 02:35:52 EST Day 4 of 100 Days to a New & Healthier ME So let's get right into it. <BR> <BR> Tracking - <em>48</em> <BR> Within calorie range <em>48</em> <BR> Exercise <em>48</em> I even got in some ST! <BR> <BR> This was another day of having to drag myself through. It might be because I want to get some things done around the house and I am not getting them done. It might be because I have had 2 really late nights and tonight is another one. It could also be because my hubster is now really confused about whether he is released t... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 03:36:39 EST Day 3 of 100 Days to a New & Healthier ME Well here we are at day 3 and let me say that it was a bit more difficult than the other 2 days. <BR> <BR> I tracked my food! I was also within calorie range! <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> I did 10 minutes of dancing. This was where it was a bit difficult. I had to really push myself to get it done. Frankly, I just didn't want to do it. What helped me get it done was the thought that I was going to have to blog about today and I didn't want to say that I didn't do it! I think I might have t... Sat, 28 Jun 2014 02:46:29 EST Day 2 of 100 Days to a New & Healthier ME Whew! <em>198</em> I made it through day two! Okay so I know that the first few days we all have a sort of excitement that keeps us going for a bit. The real test will be a few days down the road when the excitement wears off. <BR> <BR> Today, I tracked all my food!! <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> I exercised by doing some dancing and some ST. <em>355</em> <em>362</em> <BR> Yeah let's just say that I got a really good view of how out of shape I have gotten. I am not letting it ge... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 02:18:10 EST Day 1 of 100 Days to a New & Healthier ME I recently joined the 100 days to a New You Spark Team. I wasn't really sure just what I wanted to work on for the 100 days until today. <BR> <BR> I have actually decided to work on tracking my food and exercise. I really need to get back to tracking my food and getting at least 10 minutes of exercise every day. I find it is better for me to focus on exercising every day so that I am not pressured to squeeze it in at the end of the week. If I just do it daily, I have a routine and I am more... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 02:48:21 EST Isn't It Funny.... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> how you can be rolling calmly down the track of your journey making the healthy food choices, tracking your food, exercising, and even buzzing right past the "Rat Pack" (Jack aka Jack in the Box, Ron aka McDonalds & The Stinky King aka Burger King) and the rest of their cohorts? You feel great and more confident. <em>204</em> The weight is coming off. <em>9</em> Maybe it isn't coming off as quickly as you... Sat, 24 May 2014 19:55:25 EST What a Great Week! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I tracked 7/7 days <BR> Drank 12 glasses of water 7/7 days <BR> Exercised 10 minutes 7/7 days <BR> Lost 5 pounds <BR> <BR> That is an awesome week! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> In the last week I <BR> Tracked food 2/7 days I did a track meals on some of the other days but not full days. <BR> Exercised 2/7 days (I got in 10 minutes of dancing 1 day... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 11:30:28 EST Shouting For Joy! Well I am so excited to say that I am officially back. I was offline for quite a while because my husband has been off work for 3 months and took over my laptop. I was able to get on to get points and then I did a few blogs when I would slip them in. Thanks to my son, I have a new laptop and I don't have to share! lol <BR> <BR> I have missed blog/vlogging so much. Not that I have all that much to say but I like to have to opportunity when the ideas come to mind. I plan to do a vlog as soo... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 05:43:29 EST Don't Look Back! Spring Forward!! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Ladies and Gentleman, it is time to get honest about what goes on in the mind! <BR> <BR> There are so many of us struggling on this journey. We are barely holding on. Some have all but given up. Why is that? I think many of us (and I am including me in this us) have been listening to the wrong "radio" station. At some point something went wrong on the journey and we got the station changed to the "all negative, al... Sun, 16 Mar 2014 12:11:06 EST Everything Hurts Everything hurts! Yes it is true. Everything hurts. I found myself thinking about where I am and where I was when things were going well. <BR> <BR> I realized that I traded in the good things that I was enjoying for food that took me back to all this pain! Let me explain a bit. <BR> <BR> I am having so much trouble moving around. It is difficult to get out of bed in the morning. It is difficult to get dressed and I am once again limited to a few items of clothing because of my weight and I... Wed, 5 Feb 2014 03:29:18 EST I Hit A Wall!! I know I have hit a wall because of the following things: <BR> <BR> 1. I have gained back all the weight I lost faster than I can say scale overload! <BR> 2. I am not exercising. I really can't count trips to the bathroom and the kitchen as exercise! <BR> 3. I am eating everything I can get my hands on and none of it is healthy! <BR> 4. I have a "I don't give a damn" attitude. Sorry for the curse word. I don't usually do that but the situation warranted it. I had to call it like it is. <BR> ... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 07:41:44 EST Preparing for the New Year I am saying "PREPARING FOR THE NEW YEAR" in hopes that I actually do that. I can't believe that we are in December already and that the New Year is just around the corner. <BR> <BR> Am I where I wanted to be at this point? Nope! Could I have done more to be in a better place? Yep. What was the problem? One of the things that I can point to as a problem is that I have been experiencing debilitating fatigue! I hurt all over and it is hard to get out of bed (not that I sleep well) and just... Thu, 12 Dec 2013 06:07:30 EST I pulled up the big girl panties!!! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So as you can see, I got a bit brave and took a picture of the scale to share with you all. I had told myself that I would NEVER do that. I figured the only time I would even consider it would be when I reach my goal weight. Never say never I guess! lol <BR> <BR> The big reason that I decided to take a picture of the scale today was that I started a blog. Yeah I decided that I would start a blog about my journey ... Sat, 26 Oct 2013 00:43:55 EST Reboot! Reboot! WARNING!!! System Reboot! Yes, you heard it here folks, it is time to reboot the system. <BR> <BR> I have gotten too lazy and it is showing up on my back side! lol <BR> <BR> So, tomorrow (well later today since it is 3am) I will be stepping on the scale. I need to find out just where I am. I am not going to take measurements until the first of November. I like to do them on the first of the month. Okay so I might change my mind on that but for now, I'm not going to do it. <BR> <BR> I am going to reboot, and get a... Wed, 23 Oct 2013 06:28:02 EST Hump Day? I think not! I am up late yet again! I know it is no surprise to anyone! lol I decided to go back and read some of my past blogs from last year. I came across one that I want to share with you all. It is called "It Is Hurdle The Hump Wednesday." Since it is Wednesday, I thought I would check it out and see just what I had to say. <BR> <BR> I will say this...I am so glad I went back and read this blog. It was just what I needed. I think that I forgot how to hurdle the things that pop up in the way. I t... Wed, 11 Sep 2013 08:30:41 EST What does it take? Today I got to thinking about what it takes to be successful. I was thinking not just about my business but about this journey and other things. I was trying to figure out if I had what it takes to get the job done. <BR> <BR> Sometimes it can feel like I am working really hard at things and that they seem to be clicking on all cylinders. Other times it feels like someone threw a rock in the gears and I am screeching to a halt. <BR> <BR> This week, so far, I feel like I have the hiccups! l... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 23:34:09 EST September Already? Are you where you wanted to be at this point? So September is here and we are already into the first week! Where did you think you would be at this point? Are you there? Did your planning and work come together as you thought? Did you miss the mark? Did you take a wrong turn at Albuquerque? <BR> <BR> We have already zipped through 8 months of this year. Did you put in the work that was necessary to reach your goals? Did you set goals or did you just wish your way down the road? <BR> <BR> What if we were able to print out a report from ... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 06:14:02 EST Ready to Make a FAST BREAK!! Okay so it is obvious to me that my laptop just doesn't want me to record a vlog today! I have tried several things to get the microphone to work and it just isn't happening. So...I guess I have to let my fingers do the walking and talking! lol <BR> <BR> I am still here and I am still on the journey. I think that most days I am on a side trip or have made a stop for an unplanned vacation! lol Okay so let me spell it out...I AM OFF TRACK! Yep you heard it here first folks. Yeah I know it isn... Sun, 25 Aug 2013 08:32:05 EST Can I be FRANK with you? Okay so a Spark friend of mine and I occasionally have to get FRANK with each other. I love to be FRANK! He is so confident and right on point. HE says what needs to be said and doesn't take excuses. Some times my friend and I take turns being FRANK with each other. I decided to share some of FRANK's wisdom here...well so that I can find it easily when I need to refer back to it! lol <BR> <BR> *slipping into FRANK mode* <em>204</em> <BR> <BR> Hold on to your seat honey cuz FRANK is bac... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 00:24:20 EST Today I feel... Anxious. First of all, the reason for this blog is it is a Spark Coach assignment. I was asked to blog about how I feel today. So anxious is how I feel. <BR> <BR> The reason is not totally clear but I think it is partly due to the big changes is my DH's work schedule. It is playing havoc with my schedule. I keep forgetting to call him for dinner! Lol Sat, 13 Jul 2013 01:42:47 EST It was the moment I said AHA! Or was it DUH?? There comes a point on the journey when you realize things and you just have to say...DUH!!! That moment happened to me last night. <BR> <BR> My daughter baked a cake last night. When it came out of the oven, I began tracking what a piece of cake would be. As I looked at the calories (I was still in range) I started thinking about whether it was worth it or not. <BR> <BR> I thought about the kind of cake and although it would have been tasty, it was one of the kinds that I wouldn't really ... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 00:04:28 EST Ode to my Fitbit Fitbit my fitbit tell me true. Why do I always have to search for you? <BR> I clip you on here. I clip you on there. Next thing I know, you aren't there! <BR> What have I done to make you run? <BR> I start the day with you by my side. The all of a sudden I need to search out where you hide. <BR> You fall to the floor and roll under the desk. <BR> You hide on a shelf in a drawer or a chair. <BR> You hide for a hour a day or three weeks. <BR> You leave me without any way to know exactly how lon... Tue, 4 Jun 2013 23:18:09 EST Dealing with the WAKE UP CALL! Today I had an appointment with the Diabetes Educator. I know, I know, but this is part of the wake up call I got last week. <BR> <BR> So, almost 2 weeks ago I ended up in the hospital with chest pains. I started at one ER and then went by ambulance to another ER and then was admitted into the hospital. <BR> <BR> Long story short, I didn't have a heart attack! Yippee!! In fact, my heart is in great shape. Blood flows fine and there is no damage to my heart at all. Praise the Lord for that!... Wed, 29 May 2013 07:23:00 EST Celebration, Reflection, Accountability And Moving Forward It is my <em>503</em> today! I made it through a whole year. I stuck around and although the weight situation isn't what I would have liked it to be, I am happy that I am here. Some might say that my first year was a bust but I don't look at it that way. I have much to be proud about and I am celebrating those things today! I am grateful for all the support, inspiration and encouragement that I have gotten from my Spark friends. I am more knowledgeable about living a healthy lifestyle tha... Wed, 8 May 2013 17:13:31 EST I Got The Solution! Okay so it isn't here quite yet but I am expecting to receive my copy of the Spark Solution today! <BR> <BR> One of my favorite shows was Flashpoint. My favorite character on the show was the Team Leader, Ed Lane. He was a sharp shooter and when he had the perpetrator in his sights, he would say, "I've got the Solution"! <BR> <BR> So in a few short hours, umm after I go back to bed and get some sleep, I will really be able to say that I've got the Solution! I have been looking forward to... Tue, 7 May 2013 08:59:16 EST Kicking and Screaming The last couple days have been, well difficult. I have had to coach myself through everything. Okay so truthfully I have had to more than "coach" myself! lol <BR> <BR> It is only the 3rd of the month, the 3rd day of my fresh start and I am already kicking and screaming through the day! I have had to push myself to get up and get dressed. I have had to REALLY push myself to get my exercise done. I have had to chug water before going to bed to get it done. The water hasn't been too bad but sti... Fri, 3 May 2013 17:54:41 EST The Good, The Bad & Wolverine So let's start with the bad. First if all, I stepped on the scale today and although I shouldn't be surprised, I found that I have gained back all the weight I lost plus more! Okay so not a pretty sight on the scale this morning. I did take my measurements and pics for this month. I needed to make the fresh start and although I said that I was going to do that a while back, I didn't really take things seriously. <BR> <BR> I keep thinking about some comments that I had gotten from someone abo... Wed, 1 May 2013 15:34:36 EST A Steaming Cup of Honesty! First of all I would like to thank everyone for all the prayers and support for me, my husband's family and mostly for my SIL. She is having some good days but lots of bad days. Thank you for keeping her in your prayers. <BR> <BR> Okay so to the Cup of Honesty. <em>106</em> I think I have been pretty open about my journey and shared the good times and the bad times. Today I am going to share the Big Bad Ugly! <BR> <BR> Last week, I weighed in on Wednesday and low and behold, I was back ... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 02:13:46 EST Day 27 of 'Tude Well today I was passing a local church and saw a sign that read the following: <BR> <BR> "Brush up on the Bible to prevent truth decay" <BR> <BR> That is right on point! <BR> <BR> I am just popping in today to say that I will be gone for a while. My husband's family has been faced with a huge problem and it is pretty serious. This problem has shown me just how important it is to have your priorities right. <BR> <BR> I am going to step away from blogging and being online for a while in ... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 22:28:32 EST Days 20 - 23 of 'Tude - I QUIT!!! Ladies and gentleman, I have called this press conference to make an important announcement. We can get started right away if you would all take your seats and please hold all questions and comments until the end. <BR> <BR> Thank you! <BR> <BR> Today I am here to announce that I quit! I give up! I am DONE! I am tired of this! I am not going to stand for it any longer! This is too frustrating and I am not going to do it any more! <BR> <BR> Please please sit down and let me finish. I know th... Sat, 23 Mar 2013 22:12:07 EST Days 18 & 19 of 'Tude So I wanted to share a couple things from the book. Oh for those of you who aren't able to view my vlog, I am reading Joel Osteen's book "Become A Better You". It is a fantastic book. I do recommend it! <BR> <BR> A couple excepts from "Become a Better You by Joel Osteen <BR> <BR> "You have to let go of your disappointments, let go of your failures, and let those doors totally close behind you. Step forward, into the future that God has for you, knowing there's nothing you can do about past... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 04:59:47 EST Day 17 of 'Tude Today was a rough day. Not so much for me but for my daughter. Marlie has hit the tantrum stage! She was having them a bit before but not EVERY DAY! She is really attacked to her mom's comforter and insists that it is her blanket and that she should drag it out into the living room. She seems to think that she HAS to have a blanket all the time and if you have the blanket that she wants, you better give it up or she has a fit. So we have been dealing with that. <BR> <BR> One thing I have str... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 02:43:58 EST Days 14, 15, & 16 of 'Tude So I lost some footing this week. I think the fact that I didn't stick with my daily blogs had an impact. I also think that the more I pushed myself on my projects, the more I got excited for the look of my home. The bad part was that I kept over doing it and not resting like I should so I found myself dealing with pain. <BR> <BR> Okay so I found that my eating and exercise wasn't where I would like it but my attitude was good until about Thursday. My eating floundered and my exercise went ... Sun, 17 Mar 2013 01:26:27 EST Days 12 & 13 of ' Tude I just wanted to pop in and tell everyone that I am not giving up my blogs this month. <BR> <BR> Monday I did too much so on Tuesday I was in a lot of pain. I took it easy and got a few things done around the house. <BR> <BR> Wednesday started out slow but I started feeling really bad and spent the evening in bed. <BR> <BR> Not sure what Thursday will bring but I am keeping a positive attitude. <BR> <BR> Much love and positives changes! <BR> Thu, 14 Mar 2013 06:36:32 EST Days 10 & 11 of 'Tude - Out & FLYing! I know, I know, I missed another day's blog but I wasn't home. I was out and about with my husband. It was a great day on Sunday. <BR> <BR> On Sunday, I got up and got my day started. After I ate my breakfast, my hubby came in the bedroom and told me to get ready that we were going to go somewhere. <BR> <BR> My hubby doesn't get weekends off very often. It is like every 6 weeks. This was the week that he had the weekend off. He went fishing and caught up on his sleep on Saturday but Sunday... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 00:49:43 EST Days 8 & 9 of 'Tude Sorry that I missed the blog for yesterday but here I am to catch you all up on my shenanigans. lol <BR> <BR> So I got some bad news on Friday. It is sort of devastating news but I am going to share it with you all. UGH Meatloaf and mashed potatoes are trigger foods for me! Can you believe it? I don't make it very often but I made it Friday and well let's just say that if my family didn't rush to get some, they probably wouldn't have gotten any! I was eating it like it was a last meal. That ... Sat, 9 Mar 2013 21:52:14 EST Day 7 of 'Tude There seems to be something about making plans to go somewhere. Again I didn't want to get up to go with my daughter. I tossed the idea around over and over in my head. I hoped my daughter would change her mind or decide to go tomorrow. She didn't get up when she planned so I thought that maybe she would say that she didn't want to go so I wouldn't have to come up with an excuse not to go. <BR> <BR> When she came into my room, she said that she was getting ready to go so I better get started... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 02:57:11 EST Blog Challenge Day 6 Question #6 Do you need any motivation or help? <BR> <BR> Well at this point I think I am doing fine. This isn't easy but I am motivated and my daily blogs are helping to keep me going. I know there may come a day when I need help or some redirection but I know that there are so many great Spark friends that I can count on to help. <BR> <BR> Fri, 8 Mar 2013 02:16:49 EST Day 6 of 'Tude Today I got out of the house. I ran around with my girls shopping. <BR> <BR> The way that this went is that I didn't sleep much last night. I had trouble sleeping last night and didn't want to get up to go shopping. <BR> <BR> I laid in bed hoping that Victoria (my daughter) would change her mind about going. I was determined to try to talk her into going tomorrow. When she came in to my room to ask me if I was feeling better and if I was going to go with her. I told her that I was feeling... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 03:15:15 EST Blog Challenge Day 5 Question #5 What can you improve upon? <BR> <BR> I think that one area that I can improve is speaking positively about my weight loss. Now that I have begun facing some of the other area, it is time to add positive affirmations about my weight loss. <BR> <BR> Being more consistent with the positive thoughts and not slacking when negative thoughts and attitudes pop up is a must. I have really got to be diligent about it. <BR> <BR> Thu, 7 Mar 2013 02:33:55 EST Day 5 of 'Tude Okay today is March 5th so I am officially 5 days into my challenge to change my attitude and turn negative thoughts into positive ones. <BR> <BR> Today was a take things slow and easy day. I didn't just sit around. I got some things accomplished but I didn't push too much to get things done. I just was trying to take things easy. <BR> <BR> I spent some time today processing some of the things that have happened in the last few days. I am happy with the changes that I am seeing so far. I d... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 02:37:58 EST