IMJETTA8's SparkPeople Blog IMJETTA8's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I found this article about Cancer from 8 years ago... I feel this has a lot of good ideas, but take in what you want and forget the rest of it! <BR> <BR> In LOVE! <BR> <BR> ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ <BR> <BR> Johns Hopkins Update - <BR> This is an extremely good article. Everyone should read it. <BR> <BR> AFTER YEARS OF TELLING PEOPLE CHEMOTHERAPY IS THE ONLY WAY TO TRY ('TRY', BEING THE KEY WORD) TO ELIMINATE CANCER, JOHNS HOPKINS IS FINALLY STARTING TO TELL YOU THERE IS AN ALTERNATIVE WAY. <BR> <BR> Cancer Update from Johns Hopkins: <BR> <BR> ... Sun, 7 Jan 2018 20:54:05 EST 7 day Blessing Meditation I did this last year and felt amazing, just full of love and light, hard to explain the words. They do it at 5am PT/ 8am ET and 5pm PT / 8pm ET every day for 7 days. The chanting doesn't make sense to me but I felt the power in it. IT IS FREE so why not right! I did all 7 days and I was just buzzing <BR> <BR> <link><BR>/7-day-blessing-2018?inf_contact_key=d<BR>fb9037f5c03d68b28a8c06d9f14d9617c56251<BR>eab0552eb7b47d663688f1979 </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> ... Thu, 4 Jan 2018 22:01:40 EST My Granddaughter turned 3 today! My sweet grandbaby turned 3 today. (my only grandbaby) But I haven't seen her since she was 2 months old. I try not to beat myself up and have read a lot about estrangement of children but it still hurts like hell. The other grandmother (whom I love) gets to be with her but not me. I have prayed, cried and cried even more for the past 3 years. I wish I could fix it, I wish I did whatever I did wrong undo it. Guilt, shame, even afraid to tell people because I am afraid they will think "I must ... Fri, 10 Nov 2017 14:46:47 EST Trying to figure things out. I just realized that I have gained 50 pounds in the last 3 years. I know it is my own fault. I am not blaming anyone else but myself. It has also been 3 years since I have seen my granddaughter and 2 years since I have spoke to my own daughter who is my eldest child of 5. (I saw her at my younger daughter's wedding 2 years ago) <BR> <BR> I love her so much, and it is so hard to not beat myself up wondering what I did or didn't do. I have tried to move on, take care of me, heal etc but I am... Sun, 5 Nov 2017 20:22:59 EST Need to vent! Not sure where to start. My hubby and I flew to Pennsylvania to visit his parents. The second day we were there, mom ended up in the hospital, then ICU and regular unit for over 2 weeks, then home unable to care for herself. After t weeks there, I flew home for our fur baby and take care of things at home and hubby stayed there to help his dad. Dad has been really forgetful and when H went to the doctor with him, the doctor said that they knew for some time that he has Alzheimers. Dad, said, ... Wed, 3 May 2017 01:52:26 EST SNOW It has snowed here in Vancouver WA and I feel like a little kid. We moved here from San Diego where it is all brown and NO seasons. The same all year long. The snow is just SO BEAUTIFUL! I am loving walking in it, shoveling it, making snow angels. Making snowpeople. Watching my furbaby romp in it. Looking at the trees, plants, roof tops, ground, cars, every icicle. I am in just AWE as to how beautiful it all is. I have taken a million pictures of it and nothing even shines like the twinkles i... Fri, 13 Jan 2017 18:39:08 EST PTSD Unless you have experienced PTSD, you have no idea what it is like. <BR> <BR> I underwent a uterine biopsy and they had to dilate my cervix which is tilted in the first place which makes it harder and more painful to do this procedure. I warned the doctor that I am a survivor of severe childhood abuse and rape and she really did try to be gentle and even asked me if I wanted her to stop. <BR> <BR> I was trained to never say no and to just endure whatever they were doing to me. <BR> <BR> Af... Thu, 29 Sep 2016 22:50:06 EST A BIG THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT Just want to say thank you and how much you all mean to me. It has been a week since my surgery and it may have been just a routine surgery for some, it is pretty scary when it is YOU/ME! Especially when the word Cancer is in the process. I felt all your love, prayers and support and can't say thank you enough. It was hard at first, my voice is finally back, headaches gone, the sore/lump in my throat is almost gone and the sutures look good, itching much better too (still want to scratch my n... Wed, 8 Jun 2016 19:05:56 EST Having surgery on Wednesday! I have been going back and forth about fear of the big C and the upcoming surgery. They will take out at least my right thryoid but the worst case scenario is both sides and some lymph nodes. If I let my fears/ego get the best of me, I would be petrified of it being cancer. <BR> <BR> My angels and guides told me that it isn't cancer and most of me believed it so why is it easier to believe the worst? I honestly have always felt it isn't cancer so why should I even consider something differen... Mon, 30 May 2016 00:04:49 EST Blessed Mother's Day to you all! Your Mother is always with you. She's the whisper of the leaves as you walk down the street, she's the smell of certain foods you remember, flowers you pick, the fragrance of life itself. <BR> <BR> She's the cool hand on your brow when you're not feeling well, she's your breath in the air on a cold winter's day. She is the sound of the rain that lulls you to sleep, the colors of a rainbow. Your mother lives inside your laughter. <BR> <BR> She's the place you came from, your first home, and ... Sat, 7 May 2016 23:45:59 EST Fear I can't believe that I haven't written a blog this whole year! <BR> <BR> At the beginning of this year, we moved from California to Washington and the 2nd day we were here it snowed. In which I slipped on the icy driveway and hurt my neck/back. They did an MRI on my neck which found some large nodules on my thyroid. My doctor had them biopsied and now they have came back as possible cancer. So on the safe side they are going to do surgery and remove the thyroid gland out on the right side. ... Tue, 26 Apr 2016 01:10:13 EST BIG changes ahead We are moving to Washington from California where I have lived all but a year of my life. I have never lived in Washington but it feels really good there. It is becoming real now that we have put a deposit on a home to rent. We will be empty nesters for the first time as well. My eldest son is buying our home and our youngest son will be renting his own bedroom from his brother. I retired a year ago to get the house ready and hubby is retiring at the end of this year. He is starting to get n... Sat, 12 Dec 2015 22:52:56 EST The tapes constantly running in my head Every time I start to feel REALLY good or someone gives me a compliment, I go immediately to these old tapes in my head. I have no control over them but I can ignore them sometimes. <BR> <BR> Growing up, every time I felt any good feelings they nipped it in the bud. When I found out at school there was a God and had some hope, they tortured me till I had no hope anymore. <BR> <BR> When I told them I saw angels, they put me over a fire till I said I lied. <BR> <BR> If I ever got a complim... Thu, 19 Nov 2015 01:34:11 EST My daughter got married today My youngest daughter got married today, the wedding was so beautiful. They have been together for 7 years and now they are married. IT was so beautiful, I finally cried when they danced together as husband and wife. I love them both so very much. I am so happy for them. What a special day it was today! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sun, 8 Nov 2015 01:30:28 EST How do I know when I am full? How do I know when I am full? <BR> <BR> I honestly don’t know how to tell if my stomach is full or not. Growing up, they taught me to not feel anything in my body, to be numb. Especially when it came to food, I was forced to eat everything on my plate whether or not I was full. I have been pondering this for a while now and have been paying extra attention to my body and how it really feels. I honestly don’t know when it is full, what that even feels like. I was given sweets to shut me up an... Mon, 14 Sep 2015 16:18:01 EST Did anyone see Dateline last night? DATELINE: <BR> <BR> PREVIEW: Angels & Demons <BR> <BR> Dennis Murphy reports on the mysterious deaths inside a traveling commune and a fascinating investigation that would span over 10 years. Two sisters and former commune members come forward for the first time to share their terrifying stories involving a diabolical world of lies, lust and greed. <BR> <BR> ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ <BR> <BR> Last night, I saw an episode of Dateline, (angels and demons) for some reason, it was on and we ... Sat, 2 May 2015 12:29:40 EST My foundation is being shaken and tested I have been going through a lot of new memories the past month. A new layer of the onion, a really hard one too. It has shaken my whole foundation and belief system. I know once I get through this layer, I will be much stronger and closer to God. <BR> <BR> The church was supposed to be my refuge and safe place. I had thought it was what held me together and kept me going as a teen. But to find out it was all a lie, is so earth shattering. All I believed in, loved and TRUSTED is gone. I h... Wed, 22 Apr 2015 02:18:18 EST who is the Rock in your life? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> You can love a rock with all your heart and soul but you will still get nothing in return. It is still a rock and can't change. Who is the rock in your life? Are you exerting so much energy on a rock instead of where it can be received, cherished and given back? <BR> <BR> ~~~~~~~~~~ <BR> <BR> It is when you spend so much time and energy into some one else trying to change them, to love you or be good enough for ... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 15:57:20 EST This is such a wonderful heartwarming remembrance of our angel Debbie Ford! I miss her so much, she was such a beautiful lady inside and out. I learned so much from. One year ago today! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> On this day we remember Debbie Ford and we are full of gratitude for the impact she had on our lives and millions of others. She lit a flame in so many and it lives on. Debbie was a master at bringing light to the darkness and she made all of our flames burn brighter. Please enjoy this tribute v... Wed, 18 Feb 2015 00:07:53 EST An Amazing and magical weekend with Donna Eden <img src=""> <BR> <BR> When I asked Donna for a picture with her, she just grabbed me, hugging me and making me feel like we are best friends. The feeling I had with her, was truly magical weekend. I learned lots but more deeply connected with myself and Donna's work. I was a sponge soaking up everything I could. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Can you find me in the crowd? <BR>... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 23:45:30 EST BLESSED NEW YEAR!!! Hello my dear Spark Family, <BR> <BR> I first want to wish each of you a VERY Blessed New Year!!! I feel it is going to be a great year. Last year was a year of growth and change for everyone I know and 2015 will be a finishing, so to speak. Shining up the rough edges that was created last year. I wish each of you and your loved ones the best year ever! <BR> <BR> Every year most of us make new goals and lots of times they are not met. Cheryl Richardson states this so wonderfully... what if ... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 23:58:03 EST I an a first time Grandma! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Jaina 5 pounds 9 ounces <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am leaving for home and I hate to leave this precious one! I will not see her grow every day! I am so proud of my daughter though and know she will be a ... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 12:44:59 EST The Transition of My Friend, Debbie Ford by James Van Praagh "Oh My! It Was So Easy!" <BR> The Transition of My Friend, Debbie Ford <BR> by James Van Praagh <BR> <BR> The following is the excerpt from Adventures of the Soul. <BR> <BR> ADventures of the Soul <BR> One experience that profoundly affected my life and my work (and is the reason I wanted to write my new book Adventures of the Soul) concerns the transition of Debbie Ford. <BR> <BR> I met Debbie in the early ’90s at a conference in San Francisco. Her sister, Arielle, was speaking at the con... Mon, 8 Sep 2014 22:34:37 EST All Free Braco Live Streaming for 9 Days I have gone to Braco and his healing energy is amazing. I love the streaming ones too because you feel so close and right there. It is so worth your time to stream with him. <BR> There is usually a 3 dollar fee for each streaming but these 9 days are free. He is amazing and I hope you feel his energy and light as I have. <BR> <BR> <BR> ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> 79 Free Braco Streams ~ A Bounty of Love for Every... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 23:57:38 EST Who Am I? I am still dealing with feelings of retiring. Now I truly understand what others went through <BR> <BR> Now that I am retired and have no identity. I am left wondering just WHO I AM!!! I AM NOTHING!!! I AM NOTHING………. BLANK….. DEAD…… WORTHLESS…. IF I CAN’T BRING IN MONEY, WHAT GOOD AM I? <BR> <BR> Over the years, I have had many different people tell me that I was nothing. J... told me that I was NOTHING, that he just wanted my body. Mama and daddy kept telling me that I am nothing, es... Fri, 23 May 2014 17:55:08 EST still healing from my childhood I was working with a friend today and this came up since today is my official retirement day. Not sure where to start. I told her that I was feeling down and a bit nervous now that it is really here. <BR> <BR> I am planning on writing my book (s) about my childhood and was talking about my goals to get it done when it came up that I was still afraid that people would not believe me. My mama always told me that nobody would believe me, people would think I was crazy and they would lock me up.... Thu, 1 May 2014 20:34:28 EST I am retiring in 3 days This Wednesday is my last day. I am having mixed feelings about retiring from a job that I have had for the last 35 plus years. It hasn't been all great but has helped me bring my family up and keep them healthy. <BR> <BR> I realized that as you loose/leave anything in this life that there it is a loss and it is important to grieve from it. A normal process of this life. I was surprised when I felt myself feeling really down in the dumps, that is not like me. But at least I don't stay there.... Fri, 25 Apr 2014 19:51:16 EST Goddess Jettadolphinus This was a homework project that we were given. It was kind of fun pretending. <BR> <BR> ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ <BR> Goddess Jettadolphinus <BR> <BR> Once upon a time there was this powerful goddess named Jettadolphinus who came down-to-earth to heal and repair the world. She had such a strong powerful, inner strength and huge bright light that it made everyone around her very frightened of her. They tried everything to hide and smother and even kill this powerful bright light. They tried drowni... Sat, 22 Feb 2014 18:37:51 EST Would you adopt me? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have been doing some internal work with the Debbie Ford group and what came up was a memory of my mom yelling at me that she would give me up for adoption but NOBODY would ever want me. <BR> <BR> The shadow part of me made the decision and self rule that I don't belong anywhere. Nobody wants me, I am unlovable, unwanted. <BR> <BR> This has impacted my whole life. I made it to be that I never belonged anywhere... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 23:02:14 EST When did my weight issues start? I had a healing session today that really opened my eyes. She asked me to go back to where I felt that my weight issues started. At first I could not think of it then I realized it really started when my mom died. I know I tapped on this already for the age of 33 but what really opened up for me is that it was also when I realized that my 1st marriage was over. I had needed my husband's support more than ever during this time of loss but all he did was close up and ignore me. <BR> <BR> I re... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 22:21:30 EST Breathing I am currently training with the Debbie Ford Foundation and this week we have been working on BREATH. <BR> <BR> All of my life I felt that it was safer to not breathe, by holding my breath. I did not take up space. As a child, if i didn’t breathe, then I felt that I would not be noticed, I was safe as long as they didn’t notice me. Taking a deep breath made me expand, visible, real and even alive. That brings tears to my eyes… <BR> <BR> Is that safe? Is that what I want? It is so scary to... Sun, 12 Jan 2014 02:07:43 EST Remembering a good man This was a blog written by Loren 2 days before he died. I always admired him but this really touched my heart and wanted to share. Rest in peace Loren, you will be missed deeply. <BR> <BR> ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ <BR> <BR> September 27, 1953 -- December 28, 2013 <BR> <BR> eNeRGy Posted on December 26, 2013 by lorennancarrow <BR> <BR> Life is a series of decisions — and over the years I’ve made plenty of decisions, both bad and good, but I’ve paid special attention to the more recent ones. Sinc... Sun, 29 Dec 2013 21:12:12 EST Need your prayers for a dear friend. My dearest ones, Please pray for my close and dear friend Dr. Carol Asada who is very ill, and in ICU and needs your prayers, healings and love sent her way. She is an amazing woman who has helped thousands of people. Now it is her turn. <BR> <BR> I love her so much, She has been by my side for over 23 years and I want to give some of that back to her. So take a moment out of your day, send good thoughts, energy and any gifts (Reiki etc) you have her way. Look at her beautiful picture and i... Sat, 14 Dec 2013 18:12:29 EST I haven't been able to blog and my angel dream I haven't had a chance to blog in quite a while because of all the stress and the things going on at work and the problems I've been having with numbness and pain in my arms even too painful to type so I have five just figured out that my iPad would type for me if I just speak with it and press the microphone so it is really cool so I am going to try and write what's been going on. <BR> <BR> To make a long story short I went to my boss a couple of weeks ago and told her that I've been havin... Sun, 24 Nov 2013 16:27:52 EST You know things come in different blessings. a friend suggest me posting this on my blog, this is a monthly letter I send out to my spiritual team but she said I should share it with everyone. <BR> <BR> You know things come in different blessings. This past week I had a bad fall but I came out of it in one piece. My ego was a bit bruised and I hurt for a week but it truly was a blessing in disguise because my blood pressure was way out of control and now am working on it. Which also gives me more motivation to get back and loose the we... Sat, 2 Nov 2013 11:54:38 EST I blessed the sidewalk with my face <img src=""> <BR> <BR> That is weird the pic is upside down an it won't let me change it <BR> <BR> I went for a walk at lunch today and the sidewalk was blest with my face. OUCH, xrays shows no broken bones, but I sure messed up my face, it sure is embarrassing when they call a "patient in distress" on you with your face bleeding and messed up. They said that it could be my Halloween costume. what a way to get 3 days off of work. no fu... Tue, 29 Oct 2013 21:10:18 EST It was ME all along I get back to work after my vacation and feel so ignored at work. one person did ask how my vacation was but nobody else did. It was if I had hadn't even been gone for 3 weeks. I just felt so horrible to say the least. Feeling like I didn't matter. I felt that everyone was so mean and cold to me. That I didn't belong there because nobody cared if I was there or not. Nobody cared if I was even alive. Feeling so down and sorry for myself. I prayed for answers, prayed as to what I needed to lear... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 13:17:47 EST Emotions Why is it with emotions that I have to cram the feelings back down with food. I have worked so dang hard at loosing the weight to only fall right back down in the old habits. Guilt, shame, fear..... <BR> <BR> I am trying to not beat myself up and start over again but I have no will power right now. Something happened between hubby and I this past weekend that made me feel bad again. Can't make myself exercise and am just stuffing the feelings down with food. I know what to do, I have the too... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 13:57:17 EST Mother's Day Mother's Day has for the most part have been very hard days for me. I thought I never had a mother who loved me, I thought I never had a mother who cared for me. I thought I never had a mother who protected me, I thought I never had a mother who was there for me. <BR> <BR> This year, I was shown through meditation that Mother Mary has been there always for me. That she has held me throughout every torture and pain I suffered as a child. She was holding my body as my own earth mother was hurt... Sat, 11 May 2013 23:05:35 EST Sending LOTS of LOVE and LIGHT to those 3 women Sending LOTS of LOVE and LIGHT to those 3 women and their families. And especially that sweet 6 year old who never played with another child or went to school. BLESS YOU Amanda Berry, Gina DeJesus, Michelle Knight and the sweet little girl!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Wed, 8 May 2013 14:10:17 EST What is in blooming in your yard? I wanted to share some of my beautiful blooms of this year. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I brought this one in the house because it is just too beautiful <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> my favorite orchid <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos... Wed, 1 May 2013 15:13:49 EST I am so Blest!!! Well, I finally know why I have been in a funk. The recent oral surgery (over a week ago now) on my gums has opened up an old PAINFUL memory. Since I had to make myself keep my mouth open for 4 hours then another 2 hours getting everything out (packing, stitches, cleaning) stuff came up when I was 2 having to keep my mouth open. It is not appropriate to say what happened but know it was not good, for a 2 year old being forced to keep her mouth open for up to 15 men. Well, that is all I will... Sun, 14 Apr 2013 00:20:45 EST I am having surgery today I am having a D & C and hysteroscopy. Possible cystoscopy too today. This alone has brought up so much past pain. I thought I had already healed this but it raised its head once again. All the brainwashing I had as a child came right up. I was not afraid of the surgery or the big C word. NOOO. I was afraid that when she looked inside with the scope she would see that I was bad and dirty. Can you believe this?? I had it drilled in my head as a little child that if anyone would find out what ... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 23:48:25 EST "I AM THAT I AM" Hilary is a wonderful healer who I see every couple of weeks. I am so blest! <BR> <BR> <BR> Not sure where to start.. today Hilary did her magic on me once again. As she was working on my energy having her hands on only my head, I began to hear and see the visions of Mama, Uncle C., Daddy brainwashing me over and over that every time I put a bite of food in my mouth, it was to remind me of just what I was, a piece of sh!t. With the visions of everything that was ever crammed down my throat... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 19:26:16 EST I am so thankful.... I posted these on facebook but wanted to share here too! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This VERY special lady was my angel when I was a child. This is what love looks like!! THANK YOU SO MUCH Barb!! I love you so much, words can't express my heart for what you did for me when I was little. I am so glad you are happy and can receive the love you so deserve and showed so many. I wonder just how many lives you touched like mine? <BR> <... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 20:05:30 EST You will be So Missed Debbie Ford!!!! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> There is nobody in the world like you. <BR> <BR> You are brilliant. <BR> <BR> You are worthy of every good thing in the world. <BR> <BR> You are luminous. <BR> <BR> You are more precious than a million pounds of gold. <BR> <BR> You are the light of the world. <BR> <BR> Love surrounds you. <BR> <BR> <BR> Debbie Ford Tue, 19 Feb 2013 01:10:28 EST Morning the loss of Debbie Ford <img src="">I am so sad to announce the passing of my dear Debbie Ford. I have learned SO MUCH from this angel. She has changed my life. I am so sad but glad her suffering has ended. She fought her cancer for several years. I LOVE YOU DEBBIE!!! <BR> <BR> ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ <BR> <BR> This is from her sister and website: <BR> <BR> Debbie Ford - Defying Gravity <BR> <BR> Dear Friends, <BR> <BR> My beautiful, brilliant and very brave sister ... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 19:57:21 EST A tough week, I am in a tough spot! I have been seeing an URO/GYN doctor and she tried to do an endometrial biopsy but could not do it because of the position of my uterus. So she ordered an ultrasound which came back abnormal. Now they have to do a D&C and scrape everything out and test it for cancer cells. I am more afraid of the test than the big C word. <BR> <BR> So I called up my counselor today and went to see her. I sure thought I had healed most of my childhood but it keeps creeping up. I know this sounds dumb but I h... Sat, 9 Feb 2013 01:03:14 EST I was in the Newspaper Today!! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> This was so cool, I wouldn't have wanted this a year ago and 80 pounds heavier!! Sun, 27 Jan 2013 21:09:07 EST Zoey would have turned 20 today <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Zoey.... well, I miss her so much. This is what her grandparents said... <BR> <BR> On Zoey's 19th birthday, grandma made her favorite cupcakes which we took to City of Hope. Left a few in the freezer. What to do with them now? For Zoey's 20th birthday, grandma made a cake. Oh, it's cardboard to withstand the elements. Not much taste. Zoey wouldn't care. It was from Grandma who loved her. Wed, 23 Jan 2013 19:48:06 EST